When Amee was first diagnosed with epilepsy at 8 years old, one simple medication was able to control her disease. This made it easy to hide her illness from almost everyone in her life, which remained the case for about 35 years. Of course there were complications along the way. When looking to start a family she faced the potential that this medication could cause birth defects, but with the help of an understanding doctor Amee was able to have two healthy children. It wasn't until Amee was in her mid 40s that her relationship with epilepsy underwent a profound shift. Her symptoms worsened significantly - the frequency of her seizures went up dramatically. Keeping her disease a secret was no longer possible.
Amee needed to be electively hospitalized to trigger seizures and scan for their location of origin in her brain, and she knew her disease could no longer remain secret. Of the decision to go public she says, "I could do two things. I could sit and feel sorry for myself…and fall into the societal norms, or I could use it as a tool of education and empowerment. And I chose the second route." She started advocating publicly on social media on behalf of the epilepsy community, finally opening up about what she was going through. Friends that had known her for decades had absolutely no idea that Amee had this chronic condition. The outpouring of love and support she experienced was deeply cathartic.
In this episode of the Major Pain podcast, Amee discusses her complicated journey with epilepsy and the decision to stop hiding her disease. She shares the challenges of being a mother living with an unpredictable chronic illness. She also describes the sensation of having a seizure, including the first seizure she ever experienced. Amee suffers from simple partial seizures, where she does not lose awareness or consciousness, but is not able to move until the seizure passes. A huge piece of her story is the medication she takes, and the side effects it causes. Sometimes it feels like these side effects are more of a major pain than the epilepsy itself. Amee also discusses the power of turning to public advocacy, and how it has precipitated intense emotional healing to no longer hide her disease.
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