Mission:Redeemed

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Shawn invites you into the reality of what happens when the human body and spirit hit their limit—and how God meets us there.

Through honest storytelling, a bit of first responder dark humor, and painful reflections on identity, performance, and faith, this episode walks through the weight of living at 120% for decades—and the crash that follows. From breakdowns in the shower to burned-up bac...

When you wipe out — spiritually, emotionally, physically — what's your first instinct? Hide the mess? Downplay the damage? Worry about who saw it?
You're not alone.

In this episode, we talk about falling — full-blown, gear-scattering, pride-shattering collapse — and how Jesus, the ultimate First Responder, moves toward us without hesitation. No lectures. No crossed arms. Just sirens blazing and compassion ready.

We dive de...

In this deeply moving reflection, we revisit the emotional depths of Matthew 26-38, exploring Jesus' profound moment of vulnerability and anguish in the Garden of Gethsemane. Here, we witness Christ facing the immense weight of humanity's suffering and His own impending sacrifice. Jesus, fully aware of the pain ahead, courageously submits to His Father's will with the words, "Not as I will, but as You will."

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What happens when the uniform is gone, but the weight of duty still lingers?

In this deeply personal episode, I share a story that starts in a Kohl’s parking lot—just a normal Saturday—and quickly becomes something much more: a confrontation with old instincts, buried trauma, and the quiet realization that I’m still scanning the world like I’m on a call.

After 20 years in law enforcement, it’s hard to just be. Even off the clock, the...

Ever feel like you're stuck in survival mode—with connection just out of reach? You’re not alone. This episode dives into what happens when the walls we build to protect ourselves start keeping us from the connection we deeply need. Whether you're a first responder battling PTSD, a parent hiding behind “I’m fine,” or just someone quietly overwhelmed by life—this one's for you.

Host and fellow struggler walks through the ...

In this episode of Mission Redeemed, we talk about the hard stuff—identity, struggle, purpose, and why walking through the mess doesn't mean God has abandoned us. In fact, it might just mean He’s up to something bigger.

We kick things off with a reminder to check in with ourselves: Are we breathing? Are we grounded? Are we putting on our own oxygen mask first? Then, we dive deep into the story of John the Baptist and the power o...

PTSD is not a life sentence. In this episode of Mission: Redeemed, we get real about the battles first responders face—trauma, burnout, and the crushing weight of guilt and shame. Shawn shares his raw experience with EMDR therapy, the mental exhaustion that follows, and how even a trip to Costco can turn into a battlefield.

But here’s the truth: healing is real. We break down the science and the faith behind recovery, from therapy s...

PTSD doesn’t just come from one moment—it builds over years of trauma, stress, and survival mode. As first responders, we face things most people will never understand, but when the calls stop, the memories don’t. In this episode of Mission:Redeemed, we dive deep into the reality of PTSD, how it rewires the brain, and why first responders struggle to seek help.

We’ll also look at King David, a warrior who faced battle, loss, guilt, ...

Mission:Redeemed is a podcast for first responders and those who have dedicated their lives to service, now searching for purpose beyond the badge. Hosted by Shawn, a former police officer, deputy, and 911 dispatcher, this show dives into faith, resilience, and the challenges of transition when the radios go silent. Through real conversations and powerful stories, we explore how God redeems our past and leads us into a new mission....