Episode Transcript
Available transcripts are automatically generated. Complete accuracy is not guaranteed.
Megs (00:39):
Hey, happy Thanksgiving
week and welcome back to another
episode of organizing an A DHDBrain.
This week I wanna share a littlebit more about the journey that
myself and my husband have takenacross the country this year.
It's been full of insights, butat the same time, I don't know
that I have a ton to share withyou yet about how it has allowed
(01:00):
me to grow as a person.
I wanted it to be full of theseaha moments along the way that I
could see in the moment and say,wow, I'm really growing and I
don't know that life is thateasy.
I don't know that you can reallyhave that understanding in the
moment.
(01:21):
That's probably why there's somany self-help books out there,
so that these people who havebeen through the messy middle
and have now come up withframeworks and understandings
and the aha moments after thefact can share them with you so
that as you're experiencing yourown messy life moments, you can
understand them and respect themin a different way, but you're
(01:41):
not necessarily going tounderstand a framework for your
own life until you can really.
Get beyond it a little bit more,and right now we're still in the
messy middle As of this showdate, my husband will be in his
second week of a new job and hehasn't had a job.
He left his job back in July andwe've been traveling, he's been
(02:05):
job hunting, and we've beentrying to figure out what it
looks like to build a foundationin Massachusetts versus
Colorado.
It has been super interesting.
I'm reading a book right nowcalled How to Make Your Brain
Your Best Friend.
It's written by Rachel Barr.
She's a neuroscientist and oh mygosh, if you get the audible
version, she is the mostbeautiful voice to listen to.
(02:28):
Holy smokes.
And there's a quote in the book.
When we skip the journey andjump straight to the curated
endpoint, we miss out on all theunexpected detours and
discoveries along the way, sogood.
I talk about the before andafter all the time because on
Instagram, on social media, wesee these beautiful before and
(02:52):
afters, and sometimes we see alittle bit of the process.
But when it comes to organizing,so often we see these bins that
have replaced this chaos of lifeand we think, oh my.
I could do that in a weekend andget something like that to last.
Not really truly understandingthat there's change that needs
to happen.
Inwardly understanding ourbeliefs, truly understanding the
(03:15):
actions we've been taking andthe reasons why we do things for
so long.
That's why often we do fail whenit comes to organizing, because
we don't have beliefs andactions that truly match the
lifestyle that we desire.
And when we're guided throughunderstanding the new beliefs
that we want and the new actionswe wanna dig to get there, we
(03:38):
can truly start to understandwhere we're going.
This year, I will tell you thegift that I have been given, the
aha moment I've had is that twothings can be true at the same
time.
That I can be so incrediblyfrustrated and sad about letting
go about selling my home andleaving my friends and leaving a
(03:58):
life.
I thought that I would continueto build in a place that I had
moved to in a place that I stillbelieve is truly magical in
Colorado, and I can be gratefulfor the decision I made to move
forward.
I can still be excited aboutwhat's still to come.
Both of those things can betrue.
At the same time, when you'rethinking about letting go, you
can be sad to let go of yourstuff, of the person.
(04:22):
Who has everything for everypossible event covered because
you are the hero in all of thesestories, and you can also be so
grateful to have less pressureon you, less decisions to make
because there's less stuff inyour home.
Both of those things can betrue.
Five months ago.
We woke up really early in themorning, said goodbye to our
home.
Went and picked up our girls whohad a sleepover in a tent with
(04:45):
one of their best friends at ourneighbor's house and said
goodbye to our house.
And as we started driving acrossthe country, there was a lot of
tears, there was a lot ofsadness, and at the same time,
there was a lot of hope.
We drove for a couple days, andwhen we landed in Nashville, I
remember getting to the houseand we had booked an Airbnb for
about a week.
It was pet friendly, and I wasso excited to have a fenced in
(05:08):
backyard, and as I walked intothe backyard, it was less than
remarkable.
It wasn't very exciting to lookat The seats didn't look very
comfortable, and I was slightlydisappointed while also trying
to hold on to every bit of hopethat I could.
My girls decided that theywanted to go outside and play
with the dogs, so it took all mymight and I decided to run
(05:30):
around with them.
And I remember running aroundthe yard and seeing the dogs run
because they had been soexhausted from sitting in the
back of the car for so long andit felt so good and it was
impossible not to smile.
That same night our girls sawfireflies for the first time,
and that was so cool.
There weren't very many, but itwas so neat to be able to sit in
(05:54):
the backyard and just notice.
I was really grateful for thatlittle glimmer in that moment.
I was grateful for the laughterof running around for the dogs,
and my body still felt fullytight.
My stomach was in knots.
My chest felt like it was reallyheavy and overwhelming, and I
was grateful.
(06:14):
Fast forward a couple nightslater.
It was our last night inNashville, and we knew we wanted
to do something, but we werealso so tired.
We found this incredible pizzaplace that had wood-fired pizza,
and we decided to get the girlsMcDonald's.
And as we were about to driveback to the Airbnb, I said to my
husband, you know what?
Let's drive downtown Nashvilleand just look at the lights.
(06:34):
Wouldn't that be so cool?
And initially we were both kindof hemming and hawing over it
and deciding all do we actuallywanna do this?
We're so tired.
And we did it.
We drove down into Nashville,and down in Nashville there's
actually a replica of theParthenon from Greece.
I don't know if you knew that,but it's pretty fascinating.
It is huge.
(06:55):
It's awe inspiring, and we drovedown there and we sat and ate
right next to it.
As we looked at the coloredlights that illuminated the
Parthenon right next to the citylights of Nashville.
After we ate, we decided to getout of the car and walk around
and just enjoy being.
We were in no rush.
We had nowhere to be.
(07:15):
We had.
Nothing else to do, but lookforward to another trip the next
day, and we walked around.
I remember hearing in thedistance music.
Then as if someone was speakingand I saw these lights coming
from a field over across the wayand we walked down from the
Parthenon steps over hills, andI remember Cora fell and poor
(07:37):
thing hurt herself.
And that was a bit of a mess'cause we could hardly see it
was super dark, there was lightsand we were using our phones as
flashlights, but we were tryingto find our way and We walked
over to people performing.
There was a performance outsideon the city lawn and it was so
cool.
We couldn't quite see and likelyyou had to buy tickets.
So we were standing a bitfurther away.
(07:58):
Because we weren't ready to sitand watch this performance.
It lit me up inside.
It just reminded me that therewas so much more that I had been
missing out on in my life inColorado, and that night I still
missed Colorado with my wholeentire heart.
Before we left that night,underneath the Parthenon, there
is a statue and a tribute to thewomen's suffrage movement.
(08:22):
And I didn't realize they hadthat in Nashville.
And that was really cool becauseI was able to teach a little bit
of history to my girls and wetook a picture in front of these
big bronze statues of womenfighting for the right to vote.
And I was talking to the girlsabout what that looked like.
When I look back on our time inNashville, I think about these
(08:42):
little moments, these littleglimmers that gave me hope for
our future.
it didn't drown out all thehard.
All the yuck, all theridiculousness that we went
through as well as we left ourhome behind.
But it did make it just a littlebit easier to face the future.
So then we drove to Georgia, andthis is where we decided to live
(09:03):
for about a month.
Now people are like, why did youlive in northern Georgia for a
month?
And really it came down to whohas a place for us to live for
at least a month?
Is it realistic?
And within the budget, does ithave a pool that we can swim in?
And did it look cool on theinside?
I really wanted to staysomeplace.
(09:24):
That was actually cool.
And there was a slide thatstarted in the upstairs and came
down into the living room.
Who wouldn't wanna slide intheir room?
Perhaps not forever, becausegosh, is it loud?
And my goodness, did it causesome dysregulation in my heart.
But also it was a really coolhouse.
It was shaped like an octagon.
We saw no less than 15 bears onthis adventure that we had this
(09:49):
summer.
In that house, it was souncomfortable.
It was uncomfortable because wehad to drive up these ridiculous
hills, and at the very top ofthe hill we almost lost our
trailer and by almost lost, ourcar had been driving all day
long.
We were towing a trailer withour stuff.
It was probably about 2,500pounds.
(10:10):
And at this last switchback onthe mountain, getting up to this
place that we were staying in,the car stopped moving forward.
My husband had his foot on thegas going straight down.
And the car started movingbackwards.
So something happened in thatmoment that the car was like,
Nope, I give up now.
(10:32):
we had to make some decisionspretty quickly in the moment.
I looked at my husband and Iremember trembling.
My whole body was shaking, andhe looked at me.
I looked at him and we were verypresent in that moment.
I wanted to run away.
I wanted to cry.
I wanted to figure out how wewere gonna get out of the
situation, but we had no choicebut to face it head on.
(10:53):
Truly uncomfortable.
So hilariously, I brought upchat.
GPT Adam's looking on theinternet, trying to figure out
how we can get our car to move.
We're literally on a slant andthe trailer is now curving into
the mountain, thank goodness,not out of the mountain.
So we got out, we emptied halfof the contents of what we had
(11:13):
on the side of the road, andAdam was able to get the car to
go up the rest of the mountainwithout us in it.
And the girls were soincredible.
They started helping me move allof our stuff up to just another
part of the switchback thatwould be easier for us to get
our car back down there and loadlater on.
And then we started walking upto this house we had never been
to on a hill with whatever wecould carry in our hands.
(11:37):
we had barely any service atthat point in time, so I had no
idea how my husband was doing,but he ended up passing the
driveway when he got up to thetop of the hill, which then goes
down another hill, and he had toturn the car all the way around
in order to get it back up intothe driveway.
And when he got to the driveway,the car just stopped working.
(11:58):
There was no going forward.
There was no going backwards.
He had to just park it and letit cool down and luckily letting
it cool down was everything.
That is what allowed us tocontinue to use our car that we
had just bought this lastsummer.
So it all worked out, but wealso walked into the house.
We were so excited to be there.
(12:19):
And we let the dogs insidebecause there was no fence.
And of course, one of the dogspoops all over the floor.
So that is something we have totake care of.
Cleaning up right away.
We can't find anything to cleanit up as far as cleaning
solution or anything like that.
So we have to try to find it inthe trailer.
Meanwhile, the rest of our stuffis still down on this switchback
(12:40):
in this private community thatwe've rented.
And we are frazzled.
We are so overwhelmed and wedon't know what to do next.
That was an adjustment.
We figured it out and it wasokay.
We got all our stuff back to thetop of the mountain and the
person who hosted the Airbnboffered us to park the trailer
that we had down at the bottomof the hill, when we ended up
(13:02):
leaving that house.
We did round trips down to bringall of our stuff that we had
unloaded into the house now,back outta the house to reload
the trailer all over again.
That was hell.
And it was really cool to stayin that house.
And there were a lot of spidersand that was awful.
And we learned a lot aboutspiders and that was really
cool.
(13:23):
And it was hard to focus or getinto a routine or to even
understand what our new comfortswere because we didn't have our
comforts of home.
And this was a strange placethat we couldn't have anything
delivered to.
And it was 20 minutes, to thenearest store, and it was really
private and allowed us to spendmore time as a family.
(13:44):
And enjoy one another and reallyget to understand each other as
a family.
All of these things were true atthe same time, while feeling so
completely uncomfortable andexcited.
Some of the glimmers here that Ireally loved were the fireflies
again.
Oh my God, there were so manyfireflies.
There were nights that we wouldjust sit and stare at the
(14:06):
fireflies in awe.
There were so many, I hadn'tseen so many since I was a kid..
Other cool things we saw werethe mama and her baby dear.
time while we were there, myhusband and I were in the hot
tub and the girls were upstairsand two bears decided to walk up
the driveway and started toapproach us.
In the hot tub.
(14:26):
Holy smokes.
Talk about regulation.
We were in true fight or flight'cause we were like, holy
smokes.
There's literally a bear rightthere.
Now, he wasn't in attack mode,but also, I don't know if you've
ever been approached by a bearor not, but my heart was
beating.
I wanted to run.
I wanted to yell.
I wanted to scream, and I wantedto just feel safe again.
(14:48):
And eventually we did.
But it was interesting becauseas we talk about regulation.
With a DHD, we're so often infight or flight mode, we are
scanning our environment forthreats and then we react based
on that.
And so much of what we do is tokeep ourselves safe.
It's not as if we're thinkingabout that consciously.
It's not as if we see a doompile and we run in the other
(15:11):
direction and say, I'm gonnakeep myself safe right now.
You're not consciously sayingthat, but you have a belief.
That you can't be organized andyou haven't been organized.
So why would I start?
Now?
You look at the clutter, itmakes you freak out because holy
smokes, that looks scary.
That whole entire box that you'dneed to make a decision on all
(15:31):
at once at the same time, whichis not possible by the way, and
you run in the other direction.
It does keep you safe in thatmoment.
It keeps you safe to avoid theinevitable decision that you
have to make on the stuffthat's.
Inside that box, but you don'thave a deadline, so you don't
need to make it right away.
So while it is a threat, you canrun in the other direction for
now and avoid it because itfeels better in the short term.
(15:54):
One of the things that welearned by making these
decisions of selling our home,of moving across the country and
deciding what we want, is that.
We're not in it for theimmediate gratification anymore,
although we want it.
We do really want it.
We're in it for the journey oflearning and growing and
understanding.
Understanding who we are basedon these new experiences that
(16:16):
we've had.
I recently was interviewed on apodcast about finances, and I
shared some of our financialjourney from the beginning of
the year until now, and it'sbeen fascinating to see how far
(17:27):
we've come.
I'm so happy to link that in theshow notes below so you can hear
a little bit more about gettingout of our own messy middle.
But two things can be true atthe same time.
While I'm still very gratefulfor the decision that we've made
to move across the country, I amfrustrated with some of the
decisions that we've made in thepast, and I also know that I
don't have time to go back inthe past and redo those things.
(17:51):
I can accept them and I can nowsay what?
Now?
What can I now do with my lifethat will allow me to make
better decisions?
That will allow me to believethat I can trust myself to make
new and encouraging decisionsfor my family, for our future.
And through this podcast,through letting go in my home,
(18:13):
through quitting drinking,through losing weight, I have
built that self trust in myself.
And because this is a newjourney.
It's that continuing to buildself-trust that I continue to do
so while I keep talking abouttwo things can be true at the
same time.
There are so many things thatcan be true At the same time, it
is not about being all happy orall sad or all excited and all
(18:36):
in.
All of you can be in while partsof you still have doubts.
And that's why it's so importantto have people around you that
support you, that aren'tdoubting you.
Because guess what?
You are going to be the personthat is always going to doubt
you the most, and that's becausewe've seen it happen all around
us.
I'm really grateful for a chanceto start fresh, but I'm also
(18:57):
scared and I'm untethered and Ifeel very dysregulated.
So often I think about how couldI keep myself safe and I think
about running into a closet andhiding for just a little bit.
And if I do that, sometimes thatis okay.
Our brains crave certainty.
We want to have control overwhat's happening next, and our
nervous system is very supportedthrough honesty, but honesty in
(19:21):
a way that helps us growforward.
And it's okay to have both ofthese things be true while you
know you want something certain,it is also okay to be honest and
say, I can't have that rightnow.
I can work toward it.
Something that helps me toregulate myself when I do tend
to go into fight or flight modeis speaking my truth out loud
(19:42):
and speaking what I want tobelieve into existence.
For example, when my brain saysI'm overwhelmed when I look at
everything I have to do, insteadof saying I'm overwhelmed and I
wanna run away, which keeps mesafe in the moment because I'm
able to avoid it, and avoidanceactually keeps us safe, but only
for the short term.
(20:03):
If I want long-term success, Ihave to think in terms of
long-term doing or takingaction.
So instead of saying I'moverwhelmed and running away, I
say out loud, what is thesmallest thing I can do right
now that lets me take a tinyaction forward?
And that allows me to starttaking steps in the right
(20:24):
direction.
Name your truths out loud.
When you start to noticeyourself feeling overwhelmed
from where you're at, and youare being pulled in multiple
directions from multiple thingsthat are true, what is the thing
you want and speak that intoexistence, you are safe.
You are safe to feel through theuncomfortable, to feel all the
feelings that come up and you'renot stuck in that space.
(20:47):
It feels so overwhelming whenwe're stuck in our emotions, but
they are passing, they arefleeting, and it's okay to feel
uncomfortable in those moments.
Other things you can do to keepyourself grounded and regulated
Through the dysregulationbecause anytime you make a
change, guess what?
Your fight or flight brain isactually going to act up even
(21:08):
more because there are so manychanges going on, so many things
that are unexpected and so manythings that are uncertain.
So think about what could keepyou steady.
What are the things that keptyou steady when it didn't feel
as hard?
Was it a yoga practice?
Was it a morning ritual?
Was it, just taking time tostretch or walk outside and take
(21:29):
a deep breath.
We often lose ourselves first.
Lose these things that help usground ourselves into the
present because we start to say,I don't have time for this.
Or we say, I'll get back to thatwhen life slows down a little
bit, except that you'repracticing those things when
life feels easier.
(21:50):
So that.
You can do it when it gets hardbecause you might say you don't
have time to, but you actuallydon't have time not to.
You don't actually know whenlife is gonna slow down again in
your body, your soul, yourheart, your mind all still need
time to rest and repair and torevitalize in a way that allows
(22:11):
you.
To go about the day a little bitdifferently.
In fact, when you get rest, whenyou hydrate, when you eat these
basic things, then your A DHDsymptoms will not show up as
much because your brain has allthe things that it needs to
survive.
But when you are feelingoverwhelmed and feel like you
(22:33):
don't have time in the world.
Ultimately you don't have timenot to pause and to enjoy your
life for what it is in thismoment.
I was thinking yesterday aboutthe movie Click with Adam
Sandler, where he gets a remotecontrol and he tries to fast
forward through.
He tries and it succeeds becauseit's a movie.
(22:53):
He has this remote control thathe realized controls his family.
So his wife starts yelling athim and he realizes that he can
actually fast forward throughit, and he fast forward through
the whole thing until they getto the makeup part, which is the
best part, right?
And then it's over.
And he's fast forwarding throughall of the hardships to get to
the good stuff.
And then life just keeps fastforwarding.
(23:13):
He can't stop it.
There's no good parts.
There's no bad parts.
We don't pause to enjoy any ofit, and life just gets away from
him.
But what a beautiful way ofthinking about it in our own
lives.
I know our brains work so fast.
I know that there's so much onour to-do list that's never
ending, and if we don't make aconscious decision to pause to
really feel what we're goingthrough in the moment.
(23:34):
We're never gonna have time tolater.
We're just putting off theinevitable.
Or we get to the point where weget so burnt out and we're like,
holy smokes.
How did I get here?
But it's okay to take care ofyourself.
In fact, it's encouraged.
Don't control your life bytrying to fast forward through
everything.
I know that's not what you want,but that's what we think we
should do because of the world.
now, this last thing I wannatalk to you about is gratitude.
(23:58):
I'm such a practicer ofgratitude.
I love gratitude, and.
Don't feel like it should everbe forced.
Forced in that gratitude doesn'tmean I'm so happy about all of
these things.
That's not what it means.
It means that you can still findthe glimmers in life when life
does not feel as supportive asyou want it to.
Maybe it's because you're makinga change, but maybe it's because
(24:19):
bigger things are happening outthere.
You can still find gratitude inlife.
To help remind you that you arenot alone out there, and I don't
mean this to be in aneverything's fine kind of
energy, more like it's notpretending that everything is
good.
It's about noticing what's stillgood when things everywhere else
seem like they're not.
Because when you train yourselfto notice these things, your
(24:42):
brain starts to look for thegood instead of really dwelling
on all of the bad, and we allknow.
Our brains can dwell on the bad.
One of the things that I do whenI'm dysregulated is I ruminate
and I'm constantly playing thismental litigation battle in my
head.
And I'm not only the lawyer, butI am also the defendant.
I'm also the prosecution, andI'm also the judge.
(25:05):
And it's exhausting because noone wins in that mental
litigation battle inside myhead.
And when I sit and I look forthe good.
I start to see it more and morearound me, and that makes all of
the yuck, all of the bad, all ofthe things that are a little too
overwhelming, feel that mucheasier to deal with.
I'm not skipping the messymiddle.
(25:26):
I'm not skipping this season.
I'm not skipping my humanexperience because this will all
add up to so much more.
One day you'll read about thisin my book, I'm sure.
Also, I'm in this really coolgroup called Dream Lifting, and
my friend Mare does these dreamlifting classes where we have
specific intentions, things inways we want to live our life.
(25:49):
What's incredible about it isnot only does she speak her
truth, but she also talks abouthaving her own human experience
along the way.
Just because I speak about thesethings and I know about these
things, it actually means that Ialso struggle with them or have
struggled with them, and I am atthis different point to be able
to speak about them.
And now I'm going through thiswhole new journey that will
(26:12):
allow me to be able to speak onit from a place of additional
expertise some day in thefuture.
Because I'm allowing myself togo through this lived experience
and have my human experience ofliving through all these
emotions and these hardships andthese perceived failures.
It allows me to have this lifeto live my life.
(26:32):
To enjoy it for what it's worth,and to figure out what's next.
When I left my old home, Ithought we were leaving to find
a new place.
I honestly thought it would be alittle bit easier than it is,
but that's okay.
I'm learning, and I don't knowthat people can truly explain to
you the emotion and theexhaustion that can come from
change, which is why I am tryingto somewhat put it into words,
(26:54):
but as I left, I'm finding moreand more permission to hold to
truth.
At the same time, I can feelboth chaotic and calm.
That's my truth.
I can feel both exhausted and Ican feel excited for what's to
come and I can feel grief whileat the same time feeling
gratitude.
All of these things can be true.
So when you think about thisupcoming week and Thanksgiving,
(27:18):
slowing down, maybe pausing forjust a moment.
Ask yourself, what two truths amI holding right now?
Both of those truths are yours.
Both of them can be honored, andif you're holding five truths or
10 truths, because let's behonest, we hold a lot of truths.
It's okay to accept all of thosetruths as your own in this
moment, in this day, becauseeach day is going to bring new
(27:38):
truths that allow you to seeyour life for what it is and
what it is becoming.
Maybe even what it has beenbecause all of those versions of
yourself make up who you aretoday.
for the month of December.
I have two coaching spots open Iwould love to invite two people
to join me in understanding whattheir beliefs are.
(27:58):
Understanding what they'reholding onto and why they
continue to take the actionsthey take in their home with A
DHD.
And when it comes to organizing,I am an A DHD coach and I'm a
professional organizer, and Ilead you through a 12 week
journey on what it looks like tofind more peace and calm in your
home, and really build theself-trust you need to continue
(28:19):
doing it.
Another truth that I have foryou is that this podcast now
ranks in the top 2.5% worldwide,and I'd be honored if you could
share that with someone you loveat Thanksgiving.
This year, if you could share mypodcast, ask them to enjoy it or
to share it with a friend aswell, I would be so grateful.
(28:40):
Also as an additional tool thisyear, I would encourage you to
use the episode from November10th as something that you
continuously come back to on aregular basis.
The episode title is Before YouAdd To Cart, how to Avoid
Holiday Clutter with A DHD.
If you've listened to it once,awesome.
But if you are trying to addless to your home this year and
(29:02):
to buy less and potentially evenhave a budget, unless that word
scares you, and even if it does,that's okay.
You don't have to keep yourselfcomfortable anymore.
It's okay to be uncomfortablebecause there's peace on the
other side of it.
I would really encourage you tolisten to it a couple times.
Listen to it before you goshopping each time.
Not to make you avoid shoppingat all, but just to make more
(29:22):
intentional, realistic decisionsfor yourself so that the
holidays don't add as much toyour back.
When it comes to January, bekind to your future self.
All right, I'll see you nextweek.