July 18, 2025 • 55 mins
*Wait for it* Episode starts after the Kendrick Lamar bit.
"Don't be out here just giving your energy away or taking in too much negative energy."
In Episode 12, I discuss having discernment in circles you run in. Reserving your energy and being mindful of how other people's energies affect you.
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Sit down, stand up, wake up. OK oh I was pumped for this on
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my 45 minute commute home from work but now that I'm home I
just want to go to bed and just have the need to.
I must be really sleep deprived because I am in the mood to like
simultaneously burst into some and then crash.
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Where What are we? Episode 12 Play with your Dick,
not me. I hope you guys enjoyed episode
11/11/11 Angel Number. I hope you guys enjoyed that
episode with Chelsea. That was fun.
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I really appreciated that. I knew because she's one of
those ride or die friends. Like no matter what it is
swimming pool full of liquor thing diving anyways, I'm
probably going to be doing that a lot.
That's how I get when I'm tired.I just say random as shit and
start singing. Can't Sing, but I like to sing.
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But anyways, squirrel. But that's that's going to be
the vibe because I'm fucking tired.
I don't sleep these days. I don't like it's rough.
I have a friend, where is she? She lives in Mel Mel, Melbourne,
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Melbourne, Australia. And so we talk everyday and our
time zones are flipped. And sometimes it'll, it's during
the day for her when it's night time for me.
And I'll, I just won't be able to sleep and I'll still be
texting her and she'll be like, go to sleep girl.
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It's 1:30 in the morning. So I just, yeah, past two nights
I've been having weird ass dreams.
Tiger keeps singing Jelly roll songs to me.
He don't even know any Jelly roll songs.
I mean, he knows his old ones when he used to rap, you know
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he's going to hear bars. Like I was listening to one of
his songs the other day. If rapping don't work, then is
back to the trap house, something like that.
Oh no, if rap is this rap game don't work, Oh well, or
something. I don't know.
I'd only heard it like once. His wife Bunny had posted it and
I was like, damn, let's go hard.I shouldn't have put a fruit in
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this. You don't know what I'm talking
about if you're not watching theYouTube video.
Mango. No watermelon, Coconut rum with
pineapple juice. And I put fruit in it because
there was no ice, but the fruit keeps getting stuck in the
fucking straw anyways. What was I talking about?
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Oh, Chelsea, ride or die, She's just that friend that'll just
always show up for you, always there for you.
You call, she's going to pick up.
It doesn't matter what kind of ideas you have.
She's like, let's do it. I'm down.
You know, everybody needs a friend like that.
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Everybody needs a friend that you tell them something that
you're doing or an idea that youhave and they don't look at you
funny. They're just like, bet, let's do
it, you know? So that was awesome.
I appreciate her for that. I'm sure you know we'll have her
on in the future. Oh my goodness, it's all
tangled. Anyways, I'm sure we'll have her
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on in the future. Swimming for the swimming.
Pull the liquor, then you dive in.
Shit, what was I going to say? Why wait until tomorrow?
Tell somebody to fuck off today,Mercedes.
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That was not nice. That was so low vibrational.
That was not nice. You're supposed to be love and
light and positivity and healing, mindfulness.
This is the direction you're going.
That was not cool, girl. Nah Nah.
I can be loving light and tryingto align into my higher purpose
and be all about, you know, positivity healing.
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But I think it's still within the scope to tell people to fuck
off and need to fuck off or fuckyou.
So why wait till tomorrow? Tell them fuck you today.
I'm just going to say random shit until I get to the topic of
why we are here today. Did y'all see MG KS new video?
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Wait was it? Was that the direction I was
going? It doesn't matter I'm we're
allowed to talk about other stuff sometimes.
But did y'all see MG KS Vampire Diaries video?
I don't know about everybody else but I did not know homeboy
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could dance. Like yes I've watched.
I have watched that video over 10 times since it came out.
Tiger thinks I'm fucking weird because I will sit and watch
dance videos all day long. I follow several dance video
accounts on YouTube. Dancing is in my soul.
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I've been doing it since before I could walk.
And so I get hype over dance videos like and Tiger will be
like, why are you making those noises?
Like, because I get into it. I'm just like, yeah, boy.
Oh, shit, that was tight. Like Oh dear.
Oh, oh, shit. Like I get really into it.
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I love watching dance videos. Every dance movie that's ever
come out. You got served.
Stomp the yard, step up you honey.
You name it, I've seen it or I probably own it.
Save the last dance. I love that shit.
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Speaking of dancing, I'll talk about how it went next week.
I'm so excited, so excited. So where I live, there are no
urban dance studios out here, 'cause it's this is like a rural
area where I live. I grew up in the city, I'm used
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to urban based areas, so I've been wanting to join like an
urban dance studio, specificallyhip hop because that's always
been my favorite form of dance. I've done tap, I've done ballet,
I've done jazz. I don't like doing ballet, but I
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do love watching it. I've done different forms of
Latin dance. I've done Zumba, but hip hop has
always been my favorite. I've been doing it since I was a
kid. PEI never took regular PE.
Well, I did, but I also would always take dance PE.
On top of that, they have dance fitness classes at the Vasa gym
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I'm a part of. So I, I, you know, I haven't
been lately. I, I've just been going to the
gym doing my own thing lately. But I do frequent the dance
classes. But anyways, found three dance
studios in Salt Lake. So.
So excited. So they have drop in options
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where you can just drop in like 15 bucks and do a class for the
evening and see how you like it.So these three dance studios
that I found, I am so excited, so excited.
So these three dance studios in Salt Lake, ironically, they all
have Wednesday drop in classes, so I'm going to have to go one
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at a time. So I'm going with my first
choice tomorrow, like my top choice because I like, I liked
their website and I like their media presence because like they
had, they're on YouTube, they'reon Instagram.
They're they, you know, they're on, I think like Twitter.
And so I like, so I know what I'm getting.
I know what to expect. And I like when, when dance
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studios brand themselves that way, where they, they show their
content on social media and you're like, that shit's tight.
Like, and they had that same kind of vibe, same kind of
energy. So you like my glasses.
Yeah, I'm blind. I've always needed glasses.
And then now I work for an amazing company that I get
vision. So I got me some glasses cause
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I've always worn glasses. I just didn't have them for a
long time. But yeah, like if you watch my
last, not last episode, but thatwas so before that I talked
about how I was, was born cross sided and had a wandering eye
and had two eye surgeries. So I was like a little kid with
like big ass bottleneck. What are they called?
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Bottle cap glasses? Yeah.
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Once around from SO got taken from my mom for being left in a
hotel with my brothers for a week and somehow she got my
brothers back. I went into a series of
orphanages and foster homes so there's no pictures and I don't
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know if my mother took pictures of me from newborn because I
think I was like maybe 3 months when I went into the orphanage.
I don't know but I've asked her if she's had any, if she had any
pictures of me and she said no. So I'll just never know.
It's kind of sad because I can compare baby pictures of my
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husband to my girls but not myself.
So it does make me sad when I think about it.
But my adopted mom, she took lots of pictures.
She documented everything like home videos and all that shit
but unfortunately a lot of them got taped over.
But she did take a lot of pictures and she passed away
years ago. But I've had family members send
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me those pictures so I know whatI look like.
Looked like from about 8 months and on.
But how did we get here? Where was I going with this?
I don't fucking know. Back it up, back it up, back it
up. What the fuck?
How did we get here? Shit.
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So this is what happens when you're just ripping off the
Dome. I don't, I don't write this shit
down. I don't pre prepare.
I just turned my camera on. Well, I got to set everything
up. And then by the time I'm done
doing all that, I'm like, I don't want to do this anymore.
I want to go to bed. No, Faro, Faro.
Like, how the hell did I get here?
OK, so dance. Oh yeah, the glasses and
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whatever. OK, Anyways, so yeah, I was this
little little kid with these bigold glasses.
Anyway, who cares? Moving on.
So anyways, one of the studios does have a Saturday class, but
I'm busy this weekend, so and I just can't wait any longer.
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I've put this off long enough. I don't know what everybody else
does, but when I have headphonesin my ears and there's music
playing, this is how it's been for me like my whole life, my
whole entire life. I don't know what everybody else
thinks about when they have headphones in their ears.
But me, I'm always a man. I'm always dancing.
Like when I, when you're, when you're daydreaming, we all do
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that, right? I, I do, I do it more than I do
anything else. So when I'm daydreaming while
I'm listening to music, like at the gym or I'm walking, I have
music playing or whatever. I'm, the way I'm daydreaming as
I'm listening to the music is I'm dancing.
I'm dancing in front of a room full of people, everybody I love
and care about. I am performing for everybody in
the room. That's how it's always been for
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me. When I listen to music, I
imagine myself dancing to whatever I'm listening to.
That's that's just where my mindgoes whenever music's playing.
I don't know, everybody else's mind goes and music's playing,
but that's where it's always gone for me.
I'm dancing. So yes, if my life had went
another direction, I would have been, there was this show that
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was on MTV years ago. I think Jlo produced it or
something. And there it, it documented
these young kids living out of their car, couch surfing and
shit. And they just, their dream was
to be backup dancers for Janet Jackson and Jlo and Britney
Spears. And it just documented their
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life living out of their car, you know, scraping by to show up
to these auditions every single day.
And I remember I was just captivated, absolutely
captivated, because that's what I wanted to do, like grind
whatever I got to do, like, you know, all my life, grinding all
my life. But yeah, that that was my plan
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to fucking. I mean, I already lived in
California, so my plan was to move to Lai was only I was about
an hour from LA anyway. My plan was to move to LA and
live out of my car if I had to, and just go to auditions every
day, go to dance, run, run my ass to dance auditions every day
until I got picked to dance for Janet or Jlo or Britney or
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Beyoncé or whoever that was. That was my dream.
When I tell Tiger this, he gets all butt hurt like because he's
not included in the dream. And I'm like, well, obviously I
developed this dream before I was with you and I wasn't
thinking about a man. I was just thinking about doing
me, you know, But he he gets allbutt hurt like he's, you know,
just so obsessed with me. I mean, I love it.
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Everyone should have somebody obsessed with them, but I'm
like, bruh, like we could have got together the life after
this. But you know, it's OK.
It's OK. My life didn't go that way.
I got pregnant after. I was like, I ain't going to
have a baby young. I'm not going to get pregnant.
That ain't going to happen to me.
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First mistake. Don't ever say something's not
going to happen to you. Don't, don't say don't do that.
It's like a reverse manifestation or something.
So yeah. I don't regret it though.
I love my kids. But had things gone differently,
you bet your ass I would have been every day at a dance
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audition. Didn't make it today, didn't get
selected today, coming back tomorrow, that like that.
That was my plan. Every time there was a dance
team at my school, dance tryoutsfor anything, I was there.
I didn't there was a dance team.There's a dance team here in the
town, not this town, but the town I went to high school in.
And I was going to try out for them when I was in high school,
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but I didn't like their vibe wasweird.
I didn't like the them having todo a, they did fish faces for
all their dances. It was weird.
If you know, you know, it was weird.
And so I was like, no, no. So that was the only time I had
stopped dancing. But I danced after school every
day. Like, I joined a different dance
studio and danced after school. Not every day.
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It was like once a week. That's all my dad could afford.
And then we performed at, like, Raging Waters and the Fair and
stuff like that. So yeah.
But but yeah, I did. I did attend other dance studios
in California when I was in highschool in Utah.
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Here in Utah, we did have to choreograph a dance and I was
kind of lead on that, which was it was fun.
It was really fun. I remember it was Usher's.
Yeah. And I choreographed it for my
group and then we performed it for like everybody, like during
school, I think it was. And then there was like an after
school performance for family and I don't know, I don't know
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what happened. Like when you're choreographing
a dance in the mirror and you have the steps and you're
somehow I got turned around. It was embarrassing because I'm
the one that choreographed the damn dance.
Somehow I got turned around on stage and I remember my the
other girls dancing with me kindof looked at me like turn around
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and I'm like, I was so mad. And I remember that I was, and I
was like a sophomore or a junior, and I still remember
that 'cause it made me so mad. Like, have that pop into your
head late at night when you're about to go to sleep.
Remember when you fucked up thatdance?
Could you turn the room? Yeah, it was just fucking
embarrassing, 'cause I'm like, you're the fucking one that
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choreographed the dance. How did you?
Anyways, Anyways, I've been talking about this for too long,
but. And what I I can never explain
anything a short way. Can't write short messages,
can't talk for a short amount oftime.
Anyways, I'm just excited because I'm going to try out the
first studio tomorrow. The only thing about the only
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sucky thing about it is these classes don't start till 8:00 at
night. Yeah, I get off work at 5:00, so
I'm like, what the am I doing until then?
My best friend Spencer does liveout in Salt Lake, so I'm
probably just going to go chill at his house for a little bit.
I think he might have kickball, so I'll just follow him to
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kickball and hang with him and his friends.
It's always a good time. Or I thought I would just stay
at work for an extra hour, get some work done, do some training
videos and then 'cause it's likenear Trolley Square.
And so then I, I just figured orI could just go walk around
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Trolley Square for a little bit and maybe go to Whole Foods or
something. I'll figure it out.
So that's the only downside is all these classes do not start
till 8:00 at night. It's like a 45 minute drive back
to my house. And I tend to just be ready to
go the fuck home once 5:00 hits.So, but I'm excited.
So I'm gonna rally and I'm gonnastay out there.
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And I haven't seen Spencer in a while, so I can, I can go kick
it with him. Maybe one day we'll have Spencer
on the podcast. He's a good time too.
And whenever him and I get together, we never stop talking.
We, we talk all all fucking day,like about anything and
everything. Like he'll, he'll come hang out
with me and he's that one friendthat won't stay and kick it for
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like 2 hours. He will stay.
For the whole fucking day and wewill talk for the whole fucking
day. Like he matches my energy that
way where he can talk as much asme and he can write long ass
paragraphs like me. So it's so yeah.
He's he's my oldest best friend of all my friends.
He's another ride or die person.When I was a single mom with my
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oldest and nobody wanted to be my friend because apparently I
wasn't that cool young girl witha baby.
And he was like, I don't give a fuck, I don't care.
Like you're my buddy. You know, we would go everywhere
together and with my oldest in tow, just chilling going to to
get fun. You would usually just go with
him shopping because he was usually shopping for something
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for his apartment or he was getting ready to go out of town.
And so we'd go with him to get stuff, you know, and I would
just be like, we're always together with my baby.
Like I'm not cock blocking you. Like I, I see these girls, like
I see them looking at you. I see you looking at them like,
am I cock blocking you? And he's like, Nah, it's fine.
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Like I don't care. Like it's fine.
And I'm like, oh, that's my buddy.
Because like I used to be worried about that.
I used to be like, wait. Because like he had just moved
to Salt Lake. Even though he is friends with
absolutely everybody, he was still trying to find like his
tribe and, and I was in Salt Lake.
So we just hung out all the time.
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So yeah, I like, that's just something that I worry about.
I'm I concerned, I'm concerned with my friends might be being
cock blocked. So I just, I had to ask and he
was like, no, but he was my one friend that he was like, I don't
give a fuck. You have a baby.
Like we're best friends. We're hanging out, you know,
like he's he's he's like my brother, to be honest.
So but yeah, we'll have to have him on sometime.
I don't know if he'll be comfortable and might not be a
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recorded episode, but we'll haveto do that because it's just the
way we ripped off each other. It's fun, you know, but he's
he's definitely like my brother.I, I have some awesome friends.
I do, I have some awesome friends.
I could talk about them all Goshdarn day.
It took me a long time to get tothis place in my life.
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It's funny, I always remembered this.
I did some sort of quiz, horoscope, some life number quiz
thing, something years ago and Ilearned that I'm life #11.
That number is so significant tome for many reasons in my life
and lately it's becoming even more significant.
But I read this years ago that my life number is #11 I don't
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know how I forget the math like that.
They, they add or subtract, you know, they take the letters of
your, of your birthday and, and then the, the, the, the days and
the year and they, and they do they do some no, not the
letters. They do the numbers like 1 + 2 +
2 + 8 + 1 + 9 + 8 + 7 'cause my birthday is 12/28/19 seven.
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I don't remember how they do it,but they figure it out.
You can find it online. And so whatever ways my life
number is 11. And I remember years ago I had
got like this reading or something it said to me, you for
many years, you will have issueswith friendships and
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relationships in your life. Like you will have like drama
and issues, but they're not meant to last long.
Like eventually you will find your tribe.
Eventually your person will cometo you and the issues that you
have had in friendships and relationships, you know, will
cease to exist. And I think about it all the
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time now because the prop, that prophecy or whatever the hell
you want to call it, eventually came to fruition.
Like I eventually did find my person.
And he wasn't about games and bullshit and cheating on me and,
and flirting with my friends right in front of me.
And cause yeah, yeah, I, I datedsome fuck boys who would
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literally like right fucking in front of me.
And I had shitty ass friends then too, who would entertain
that shit and flirt right back, like right in front of me, you
know, and I mean, I dated fuck boys who went next door to my
neighbor's house, who I was kindof friends with.
And I would go knock on the doorand be like, what are what are
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y'all doing? And they would lock me out and
not let me in. And then he would start fucking
her and hanging out with her. Like I dated piece of shit men
like that and and associated with piece of shit women like
that. And so I had a lot of
insecurities and a lot of, yeah,we'll just say insecurities when
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Tiger came into my life and it took me a long time to trust him
and a long time to, I guess, calm my nervous system.
And 13 years later, and he stilllooks and treats me like I'm the
only woman in the room. And that's the goal.
That's the goal for everybody tofind somebody that no matter how
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many years go by, it doesn't matter who walks in the room.
To them, you're the only person that matters.
And he's still like that to thisday.
Like I will literally point out gorgeous women and be like,
damn, did you see her? Like she, she was fine.
Like did you see her ass? And he'll be like, and I'll look
at him to get a response and he'll be looking at me and I'll
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go, he'll go what? I'll go, babe, you didn't see
that girl. And he's like, what girl?
Like, I don't care, you know, and.
Literally to this. Day.
He's still very much that way. And so, yeah.
This always. Happens to me pregnancy I mean
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well I'm not pregnant but from having kids my feet fall asleep
easily. It's annoying from my children
did this to me but but yeah so at that part of the prophecy or
reading whatever. Like I I eventually stopped
attracting bullshit men that treated me like garbage or were
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abusive or whatever. Like, eventually, I raised my
standards and sat with myself and realized, what do you want?
What? What don't you want?
What will you put up with? What will you not put up with?
You know, what will you tolerate?
What are your red flags? What are your green flags?
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And that happened for me at about 25, which coincidentally
is when me and Tiger reconnectedand got together.
And 25 was a pivotal year for mebecause, yeah, I did just sit
with myself and have that hard conversation.
I looked at everybody in my lifeand decided that some people, it
was time to cut the grass. There are some snakes in the
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grass and it was time to cut it.And so I had to take a look at
Link, make a hard look, take a hard look at my life and see who
brought value, who was good to me, good for me.
Like I've stated in past episodes, who created drama?
Who created stress? Who created problems?
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You know who needs to. Go and who were meant to stay
and so a lot of people did not make the cut.
But it was an important time in my life and you have to
reassess. You don't just figure it out
once. Years go by.
You kind of forget these life lessons.
You forget the boundaries that you've set and the expectations
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you have for your life and people in your life and, and,
and you have to sit down and have that conversation with
yourself again, like look at take a look at everybody in your
life. Do they add value?
Are they good to me? Are they good for me?
Can I trust them? You know, have have they passed?
You know, the series of, of tests, you know, and have proven
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themselves, you know, worthy of being in my life.
You, you have to do that a couple times.
So yeah, I can look around and assess and think about everybody
that's in my life and it's good.All my friends.
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Are. Amazing.
And they're awesome people. Ride or die, you know, Because
yeah, I had to cut a lot of friends and a lot of friendships
had to end run their course. People.
Sometimes come into. Your life not to stay, they're
just supposed to be lessons or they're supposed to be, I don't
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want to say stepping stones because then it feels you're
treating people as if you're stepping.
Like, I don't want to say that, but there are people that are
meant to, what's the same, meantto just be in your life for a
season, you know, or a reason orwhatever it is.
You know, they're either there to just help you get to the next
phase in your life or they're there to be a lesson to you.
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Sometimes a painful lesson. Unfortunately, you know, not
everybody's meant to stay. I seen this thing last year on
Facebook, something about tree people.
Like, I'm not even going to try and quote it because I can't
remember, but it was some analogy about a, a tree and, and
different kinds of leaves or something.
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And the different types of people with some sort of tree
analogy of of who's who's temporary and who isn't.
I don't know. I'll, I'll, I'll try and find
it. But yeah.
So yeah, I would say. That life #11 reading was true
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for me because I don't have the issues with friends that I used
to. I mean, knock on wood, things
can always change, but I would like to think at this current
place in my life, 37 years old, I have everybody I want and need
in my life. And, you know, I have my, I have
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my person. So yeah, I, I, So, yeah, it's
funny because I just, I just, I think about that all the time.
And it's crazy that I remember it because I must have looked.
I must have read that or got it or something.
I was maybe. Shit.
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Was lit. Oh my gosh, that was so fucking
cool. If he I.
Heard he was here a couple yearsago.
If he comes back I am definitelygoing to that concert.
Definitely. Even though I have to go by
myself, I probably won't cause Tiger never wants me to go
anywhere by myself. He'll say that he don't want to
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go, but then when he finds out that I'm still going with or
without him, he's like, I don't want you to go by yourself,
fine, I'll go. So even though he's not an MGK
fan, I know right? All the Hell's wrong with him.
Even though he's not an MGK fan,I can guarantee if I don't have
anyone else to go with. I think I have like.
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Maybe I know one one of my friends we talked about it
today. I don't know if any of my other
friends like MGK. Maybe.
I don't know either way. I'm a lone wolf.
I'll go do stuff by myself if it's that important to me.
So yeah. But I can guarantee if none of
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my other friends can make it. Tiger will go.
Even if he's sitting there like.Fuck this guy, I fucking hate
him. He'll still go.
Because he doesn't want me to goby myself.
But who? Knows he might have a good.
Time he went with me to Jelly Roll and Postie a few months
ago. I mean, he, he, he said I had a
good time, 'cause you're having a good time.
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And I was like, good enough for me.
It was better than you sitting here being like, can we go, is
it done yet? Can we go?
You know, he, he was a good sport.
I wasn't expecting the vibe to be so country, which is totally
fine with me. I love all kinds of music.
Country music is not like my first choice, but I grew up with
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it always playing in my house. My mom loved country music, so I
grew up with it. And there are there is country
music that I absolutely love andcountry artists that I love.
And I know that Posty and Jelly Roll are have kind of
transitioned to the country. Yeah, babe, open the door, my
love. Well, baby, why?
Well, I was downstairs and I heard.
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Knocking it was probably me. Like, I might have been like,
bumping or something. Maybe the door is locked and
it's the middle of the day. But if you hear something again,
let me know, OK? I love you.
Bye, baby. But yeah, I understand that.
Like they've transitioned to thelike the country genre, which
which is awesome. I don't I don't even know why
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people be hating. Like I think it's cool if if you
can be like multi genre talented, like people like are
like will like, you know, like trash on that.
Like, oh, you couldn't make it in real play.
Oh, you couldn't make it in reallike let people explore and
figure out their sound. OK, like I I'm here for it.
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Like I think it's awesome. So, you know, it was very much a
country concert, but I had a good ass fucking time.
I was so excited to see to see Jelly roll.
Like I'm going to see him every time he's in Utah.
Like I, I want to meet him. I want to be his fucking friend.
Like I I want him and Bunny to be my friend.
Like I when they're in Utah, I want them to stop at my house
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and we cook them dinner and we just chop it up for a few hours
every time they're in Utah. Like for real, for real.
I'm manifesting this right now that some, then the next. 10
years. I somehow get the opportunity to
meet Bunny and Jelly Roll, and Igive them my address and I'm
like, the next time you guys arein town, come by me.
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Casa SU Casa, I'll make you. I'll cook you food.
We'll chop it up like we're going to be buddies.
I'm manifesting it right now. But yeah, if MGK goes on tour,
I'm there. Like when he comes to Utah, if I
have to go by myself. The tiger will probably come.
Which is fine as long as he's not sitting there brooding and
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asking when we can leave becausethen I will go by myself and
I'll just make friends when I get there.
I. Mean I'm kind of.
Introverted. But if I'm lit, I'll talk to
people. I would.
I'll talk to people. I'm that person that when I go
to like the bar club and if I'm lit enough, I'll just talk to
everybody. I'll be like, Oh my God, I love
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you, you're so beautiful. Look, I love your hair, girl.
Give me your number. Like, let's hang out, let's be
friends and then find them on Facebook the next day and like
we barely even fucking remember each other 'cause we were both
so damn drunk. I'm that person like I'm going
to tell everybody that you're beautiful and let's hang out.
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So yeah. You know, get lit at the concert
and just make friends. Anyways, let's wrap this up
'cause this I didn't even talk about what I wanted to talk
about. Oh, OK.
Well, we can, we can do this fast.
We can try to make this fast. So I wanted to, I was kind of,
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that was the other thing I do. I do want to have Tiger as a
guest at some point. He's just going through some
stuff. So his energy just is not going
to be there right now. Just changes at work and stuff.
And so, you know, he's just. Just.
In a transition period and I want him to come on when he's
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relaxed and can enjoy himself. Because Tiger is fucking
hilarious. He's the funniest person I know.
Most people look at me weird when I say that.
For those of you that know us inreal life, most people are like,
your husband is so quiet. What do you mean he's funny?
Like Tiger is so quiet, what do you mean he's funny?
And I'm like, he's not fucking quiet.
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He never shuts the fuck up, but I'm like, no, I'm telling you,
he's fucking hilarious. He's he's he has no filter.
He's he's quick witted with his comebacks like he.
Has me laughing all. Fucking he is fucking hilarious
and the few people that he's letsee the real him, which is very
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rare. That's something that I love
very much about him is he reserves his full and authentic
self just for me. Just it's like a beautiful gift,
like everybody else gets like a water, very watered down.
Tiny version of. Him very tiny if they've been
had the opportunity to be aroundhim enough because he has to
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hang out with you at least, I don't know, 7-8 times before he
gets comfortable to start talking shit, you know,
playfully, jokingly and start tocome out a little bit.
But even still, he's being reserved.
Like I I get the complete uncut,unfiltered version and he's very
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funny. So I have been wanting him on
for us to just, you know, for the world to see him because
he's he's, he's just fucking awesome.
So one of these days, one of these days we'll have to do like
a relationship type episode. I want to do like a relationship
card game episode or something. But he's also very shy.
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So I would have to get him comfortable like.
Fill a pool full. Of liquor and dive in.
Something like that. So anyways, I wanted to talk
about energy reserving. I don't know if we've talked
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about this before. I want to go another way with it
though. I was thinking about this, I
think I was talking about it. It doesn't matter.
I was talking about it the otherday with somebody and just about
I, me personally, I do not go into circles or around people
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that are speaking negatively about somebody else.
It's very low vibrational to me.It's very icky.
I'm not going to say that I've always been this way.
Absolutely not. I was a teenage girl once.
I I, I, I, there was points at my life where I wanted to fit in
and I engaged in, in gossiping and all that shit.
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But I've liked to feel like I'veevolved and grown a lot in my
life that I just, I don't fit into spaces like that anymore.
I don't, I, I can't do it. It feels icky even 'cause I'm
human. There are times when my brain
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will start to form. An opinion or a.
Judgement and I'll go, uh, uh, that's gross.
Don't do that. We're saying no, we don't.
We don't do that. And so.
Even just thinking something, beginning to think something
negative about somebody, it justdon't feel right to me.
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Talking and saying something negative definitely don't.
It don't fit me not no, I don't like it so.
If I walk. Up to people, friends, whoever,
group of people that I know. At the gym.
Wherever and they are discussinganother person in an unfriendly
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light. I just.
Back away. I don't like that or depending
on how comfortable I am with these group of people, I will
try to redirect the conversationto something positive or kind of
like what Chelsea and I talked about last week.
She. Defended me in a room that I
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wasn't in before. And she simply just said that's
my friend, she's not here, we'renot discussing her.
So I'll do something like that. I think that it's the approach
that everybody should have, you know?
Everybody operates. Differently, but me personally,
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I just want to preserve my energy in more productive ways.
I want because I I absorb other people's energy all day every
day. Some are louder than others and
so I don't want to, I mean empaths, no, because we're
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energy downloading, emotion downloading from other people
all day long whether we want to or not.
It's just how we're programmed. And it's very draining to us
when we are constantly downloading low vibrational
negative, very draining energy, like very emotional, very heavy,
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I mean. We want to love.
And care and take care of and save everybody.
But even we need to limit how much.
Negative or. Worrisome or sad energy that we
take in because it affects us, we absorb the energy of other
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people. So if we're constantly around
people that are sad, we start tofeel sad.
If we're constantly around people who are angry, we start
to feel angry. If we are constantly around
people that are just very negative, very glass half empty,
the sky is falling, just very low vibrational and it's just,
it's habitual for them. It's not that they're going
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through a tough time temporarilyor it's been a, you know,
they're just struggling. It's that organically, they're
just a very negative person and they're putting down everything
and everyone. And we absorb that and then it
brings our energy and emotions to a low place and it's
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exhausting. So I personally make, I make my,
I have lots of discernment of the circles and the people that
I interact with. And it's for my Peace of Mind.
It's for my mental health. It's so my energy doesn't get
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drained. So I, I was just, you know,
thinking about topics the other day and this just kind of stood
out to me. Just to remind people to be
mindful. If you are one of those people,
if you are a healer, if you are an empath, if you are just if
you are one of those people thatare energy downloading all day
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long, downloading people's emotions, whether you want to or
not, all day long. It you know that it's
exhausting. You know that it's draining and
it can hurt depending on what you're constantly downloading.
I'm still learning this so I can't give too much insight on
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it because I'm still learning to.
Create force. Fields like a protective
barrier, an energetic barrier around myself to control how
much energy that I absorb. Because it's a lot.
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Still not ready to talk about itor go into it, but the
individual that I have a soul tie, soul connection with, I'm
constantly, 'cause we are in, weare within the same energy
field, we share the same energy field, Our souls are tied,
they're linked, so. I'm constantly.
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Absorbing their energy, their emotions.
And I've had to create, I've hadto develop discernment of what
am I feeling? Does this match my current
emotion? Does this match how I currently
feel? No.
This is their shit. This is their stuff.
This and it's. Also not my job like to release
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that. It's not my job to sit with
that. I'm sorry you feel that way.
I'm sending it back to you to deal with, to heal, to work
through the process, to unpack and.
So I've been doing that. And I imagine that you don't
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have to have a soul tie with somebody to be able to do that
with everyone in general, 'causeI don't pick up on everybody's
energy or emotions because some people are just louder than
others. But mostly someone could just
walk by me and I can download. I download not even without
trying to their energy. You know, I don't even have to
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talk to them. And so now that I'm aware that I
can have discernment and that I can create and visualize
creating a force field around myself to block out unwanted
energy, I can do grounding techniques.
I'm still exploring. I'm still exploring all this.
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So yeah, I'll have to try it. I mean, there's nobody's,
there's nobody else's energy that stays with me or I'm
constantly transferring back andforth because you can only have
one soul tide, this particular spiritual connection.
You can only have one person that you share it with.
So anybody else's energy or emotions that pass through me,
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it's temporary. It's not something that stays
with me. It's just the one person, their
energy because we share it. But anyways, so everybody
else's, it's not even something that I need to really do
anything about because it's fleeting, if that makes sense.
But yeah, that's kind of what I wanted to go into was energy
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preservation and protecting and being mindful of your energy and
where you're, where you're releasing it, where you're
transferring it, where you're putting it and how much energy
you are allowing to transfer on to you or download, absorb,
whatever. And just to be mindful of that,
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if you're still trying to figureout your circles and where you
belong and you know who's reallyyour friend or there's this
person worth dating or whatever.Where's your energy?
Going and how does it feel? How does it feel when their
energy is around you and how is it affecting you?
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How does you know? Are you drained afterwards?
Do you feel great? You know, and so.
Yeah, that was kind of the something that popped into my
head the other day because I don't me personally, like I
can't do low, low vibrational. I feel too much, too fucking
much. I feel way too much.
And so I have to have extreme discernment, boundaries,
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whatever when it comes to my energy.
So. It.
Everybody closest to me knows. And if you don't?
I'm I'm not going. To entertain that I'm not going
to join in if you're discussing somebody in a negative type of
way and that person is not thereto defend themselves like I'm
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not. I'm not going to be a part of.
That like I can't like it. Like I said, it feels icky to
me. Like I don't, you know, I just,
I just, I just don't subscribe. I just don't subscribe.
I'm just very mindful of where my energy goes and what I spend
it on. And you know, whose energy I let
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be around me. And I, I, I think that everybody
should operate from that place. Like be extremely unapologetic
about where your energy goes andwho's you let be around you to
expel their energy around you. Like be unapologetic and have
the be analogical about those boundaries of who you let around
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you. If their energy just ain't it,
you know, if, if they're just very negative and very low
vibrational like. Let them know.
Like this isn't the kind of energy that I can, I can be
around like, I'm sorry that you're feeling how you're
feeling or whatever. I mean, I'm not saying don't let
people then absolutely. Like if it's somebody you
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absolutely care about and they had a rough day.
I've talked about this before. Be mindful of your friends
mental spaces. Are you, are you in a place
today to receive what I have to talk about?
I'm I had a bad day. I need to vent.
Are you in a place to receive metoday?
Because that person, like I've said in past episodes, might be
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dealing with a lot and they can't add anything else to their
plate. So just you know, I'm not saying
don't listen to people vent. We're human.
We're going to have a bad day. That's not what I'm saying.
I'm saying be mindful before youunload on somebody, like
emotionally unload on somebody, make sure that they're in a good
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place to receive. And be.
Open if you can, if you're in a good place to be open for
somebody else to vent. But I think you guys know what
I'm talking about. The difference between somebody
who just it's not about them having a bad day or going
through a bad time. They're just.
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I don't want to say not a. Good person, but they're just
they're always talking about other people.
They're always putting other people down.
They're negative about everything.
They have something negative to say about everything.
Like they're shit talking. They're like just trashing on
everything. And, you know, if you're in a
completely different space in your life and you, you don't
want that around you like speak up, you know, like.
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Put out what you want. To attract OK, like the the
energy that you were putting outyour aura, your energy, you
attract what starts you your light attract, you know what I'm
saying? And so like if you yourself are
coming from a low vibrational place, you're going to attract
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low vibrational entities, low vibrational people.
But if you are shining positive,operating from a higher
frequency, want good for you, good around you, you're going to
attract that. So that was all.
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So yeah. I.
Am gonna go shower and what timeis it?
Yeah, my husband gonna be home in a few minutes and he needs
all the attention. So I'm gonna go shower and wait
for my husband to get home. So yeah, and like I've been
saying, and like I'll continue to say in every end of every
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episode of Play With Your Dick, Not me is be kind.
Be fucking kind. It's not hard, easy.
I feel like I believe. It's the easiest thing.
Easiest thing in the world to bekind to people.
It is not hard. It's really not.
I don't give a fuck what anybodysays.
It is not hard. You do not know what people are
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going through. You don't like I, like I've
said, like the past three episodes.
You do not know. You don't know.
You think you do, but you don't.I don't care if you talked to
somebody yesterday and they wereall fucking smiles and were in
seemed like they were in the best mood ever.
You don't know functional depression is real.
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So. Just be kind.
Like I said, it's as easy as smiling at somebody,
complimenting what they're wearing, saying you like their
hair, you know, just just be kind.
So thank you if you stuck with me until this long because I
talk so fucking much, but thank you like and subscribe on
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YouTube, on my Spotify, on my iheart.
You can find me on Facebook. I either I think you can search
me either on Capricorn Clark or Sadie Clark.
Instagram. TikTok yeah I just got on X2 but
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but yeah, so keep tuning in if this resonates.
Awesome, that's. All I'm trying to do.
So have a good rest of your week.
Be kind and I will see you in the next one.
Bye.
Sit down, stand up, wake up. OK oh I was pumped for this on
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my 45 minute commute home from work but now that I'm home I
just want to go to bed and just have the need to.
I must be really sleep deprived because I am in the mood to like
simultaneously burst into some and then crash.
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Where What are we? Episode 12 Play with your Dick,
not me. I hope you guys enjoyed episode
11/11/11 Angel Number. I hope you guys enjoyed that
episode with Chelsea. That was fun.
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I really appreciated that. I knew because she's one of
those ride or die friends. Like no matter what it is
swimming pool full of liquor thing diving anyways, I'm
probably going to be doing that a lot.
That's how I get when I'm tired.I just say random as shit and
start singing. Can't Sing, but I like to sing.
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But anyways, squirrel. But that's that's going to be
the vibe because I'm fucking tired.
I don't sleep these days. I don't like it's rough.
I have a friend, where is she? She lives in Mel Mel, Melbourne,
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Melbourne, Australia. And so we talk everyday and our
time zones are flipped. And sometimes it'll, it's during
the day for her when it's night time for me.
And I'll, I just won't be able to sleep and I'll still be
texting her and she'll be like, go to sleep girl.
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It's 1:30 in the morning. So I just, yeah, past two nights
I've been having weird ass dreams.
Tiger keeps singing Jelly roll songs to me.
He don't even know any Jelly roll songs.
I mean, he knows his old ones when he used to rap, you know
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he's going to hear bars. Like I was listening to one of
his songs the other day. If rapping don't work, then is
back to the trap house, something like that.
Oh no, if rap is this rap game don't work, Oh well, or
something. I don't know.
I'd only heard it like once. His wife Bunny had posted it and
I was like, damn, let's go hard.I shouldn't have put a fruit in
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this. You don't know what I'm talking
about if you're not watching theYouTube video.
Mango. No watermelon, Coconut rum with
pineapple juice. And I put fruit in it because
there was no ice, but the fruit keeps getting stuck in the
fucking straw anyways. What was I talking about?
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Oh, Chelsea, ride or die, She's just that friend that'll just
always show up for you, always there for you.
You call, she's going to pick up.
It doesn't matter what kind of ideas you have.
She's like, let's do it. I'm down.
You know, everybody needs a friend like that.
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Everybody needs a friend that you tell them something that
you're doing or an idea that youhave and they don't look at you
funny. They're just like, bet, let's do
it, you know? So that was awesome.
I appreciate her for that. I'm sure you know we'll have her
on in the future. Oh my goodness, it's all
tangled. Anyways, I'm sure we'll have her
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on in the future. Swimming for the swimming.
Pull the liquor, then you dive in.
Shit, what was I going to say? Why wait until tomorrow?
Tell somebody to fuck off today,Mercedes.
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That was not nice. That was so low vibrational.
That was not nice. You're supposed to be love and
light and positivity and healing, mindfulness.
This is the direction you're going.
That was not cool, girl. Nah Nah.
I can be loving light and tryingto align into my higher purpose
and be all about, you know, positivity healing.
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But I think it's still within the scope to tell people to fuck
off and need to fuck off or fuckyou.
So why wait till tomorrow? Tell them fuck you today.
I'm just going to say random shit until I get to the topic of
why we are here today. Did y'all see MG KS new video?
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Wait was it? Was that the direction I was
going? It doesn't matter I'm we're
allowed to talk about other stuff sometimes.
But did y'all see MG KS Vampire Diaries video?
I don't know about everybody else but I did not know homeboy
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could dance. Like yes I've watched.
I have watched that video over 10 times since it came out.
Tiger thinks I'm fucking weird because I will sit and watch
dance videos all day long. I follow several dance video
accounts on YouTube. Dancing is in my soul.
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I've been doing it since before I could walk.
And so I get hype over dance videos like and Tiger will be
like, why are you making those noises?
Like, because I get into it. I'm just like, yeah, boy.
Oh, shit, that was tight. Like Oh dear.
Oh, oh, shit. Like I get really into it.
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I love watching dance videos. Every dance movie that's ever
come out. You got served.
Stomp the yard, step up you honey.
You name it, I've seen it or I probably own it.
Save the last dance. I love that shit.
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Speaking of dancing, I'll talk about how it went next week.
I'm so excited, so excited. So where I live, there are no
urban dance studios out here, 'cause it's this is like a rural
area where I live. I grew up in the city, I'm used
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to urban based areas, so I've been wanting to join like an
urban dance studio, specificallyhip hop because that's always
been my favorite form of dance. I've done tap, I've done ballet,
I've done jazz. I don't like doing ballet, but I
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do love watching it. I've done different forms of
Latin dance. I've done Zumba, but hip hop has
always been my favorite. I've been doing it since I was a
kid. PEI never took regular PE.
Well, I did, but I also would always take dance PE.
On top of that, they have dance fitness classes at the Vasa gym
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I'm a part of. So I, I, you know, I haven't
been lately. I, I've just been going to the
gym doing my own thing lately. But I do frequent the dance
classes. But anyways, found three dance
studios in Salt Lake. So.
So excited. So they have drop in options
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where you can just drop in like 15 bucks and do a class for the
evening and see how you like it.So these three dance studios
that I found, I am so excited, so excited.
So these three dance studios in Salt Lake, ironically, they all
have Wednesday drop in classes, so I'm going to have to go one
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at a time. So I'm going with my first
choice tomorrow, like my top choice because I like, I liked
their website and I like their media presence because like they
had, they're on YouTube, they'reon Instagram.
They're they, you know, they're on, I think like Twitter.
And so I like, so I know what I'm getting.
I know what to expect. And I like when, when dance
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studios brand themselves that way, where they, they show their
content on social media and you're like, that shit's tight.
Like, and they had that same kind of vibe, same kind of
energy. So you like my glasses.
Yeah, I'm blind. I've always needed glasses.
And then now I work for an amazing company that I get
vision. So I got me some glasses cause
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I've always worn glasses. I just didn't have them for a
long time. But yeah, like if you watch my
last, not last episode, but thatwas so before that I talked
about how I was, was born cross sided and had a wandering eye
and had two eye surgeries. So I was like a little kid with
like big ass bottleneck. What are they called?
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Bottle cap glasses? Yeah.
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Once around from SO got taken from my mom for being left in a
hotel with my brothers for a week and somehow she got my
brothers back. I went into a series of
orphanages and foster homes so there's no pictures and I don't
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know if my mother took pictures of me from newborn because I
think I was like maybe 3 months when I went into the orphanage.
I don't know but I've asked her if she's had any, if she had any
pictures of me and she said no. So I'll just never know.
It's kind of sad because I can compare baby pictures of my
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husband to my girls but not myself.
So it does make me sad when I think about it.
But my adopted mom, she took lots of pictures.
She documented everything like home videos and all that shit
but unfortunately a lot of them got taped over.
But she did take a lot of pictures and she passed away
years ago. But I've had family members send
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me those pictures so I know whatI look like.
Looked like from about 8 months and on.
But how did we get here? Where was I going with this?
I don't fucking know. Back it up, back it up, back it
up. What the fuck?
How did we get here? Shit.
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So this is what happens when you're just ripping off the
Dome. I don't, I don't write this shit
down. I don't pre prepare.
I just turned my camera on. Well, I got to set everything
up. And then by the time I'm done
doing all that, I'm like, I don't want to do this anymore.
I want to go to bed. No, Faro, Faro.
Like, how the hell did I get here?
OK, so dance. Oh yeah, the glasses and
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whatever. OK, Anyways, so yeah, I was this
little little kid with these bigold glasses.
Anyway, who cares? Moving on.
So anyways, one of the studios does have a Saturday class, but
I'm busy this weekend, so and I just can't wait any longer.
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I've put this off long enough. I don't know what everybody else
does, but when I have headphonesin my ears and there's music
playing, this is how it's been for me like my whole life, my
whole entire life. I don't know what everybody else
thinks about when they have headphones in their ears.
But me, I'm always a man. I'm always dancing.
Like when I, when you're, when you're daydreaming, we all do
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that, right? I, I do, I do it more than I do
anything else. So when I'm daydreaming while
I'm listening to music, like at the gym or I'm walking, I have
music playing or whatever. I'm, the way I'm daydreaming as
I'm listening to the music is I'm dancing.
I'm dancing in front of a room full of people, everybody I love
and care about. I am performing for everybody in
the room. That's how it's always been for
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me. When I listen to music, I
imagine myself dancing to whatever I'm listening to.
That's that's just where my mindgoes whenever music's playing.
I don't know, everybody else's mind goes and music's playing,
but that's where it's always gone for me.
I'm dancing. So yes, if my life had went
another direction, I would have been, there was this show that
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was on MTV years ago. I think Jlo produced it or
something. And there it, it documented
these young kids living out of their car, couch surfing and
shit. And they just, their dream was
to be backup dancers for Janet Jackson and Jlo and Britney
Spears. And it just documented their
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life living out of their car, you know, scraping by to show up
to these auditions every single day.
And I remember I was just captivated, absolutely
captivated, because that's what I wanted to do, like grind
whatever I got to do, like, you know, all my life, grinding all
my life. But yeah, that that was my plan
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to fucking. I mean, I already lived in
California, so my plan was to move to Lai was only I was about
an hour from LA anyway. My plan was to move to LA and
live out of my car if I had to, and just go to auditions every
day, go to dance, run, run my ass to dance auditions every day
until I got picked to dance for Janet or Jlo or Britney or
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Beyoncé or whoever that was. That was my dream.
When I tell Tiger this, he gets all butt hurt like because he's
not included in the dream. And I'm like, well, obviously I
developed this dream before I was with you and I wasn't
thinking about a man. I was just thinking about doing
me, you know, But he he gets allbutt hurt like he's, you know,
just so obsessed with me. I mean, I love it.
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Everyone should have somebody obsessed with them, but I'm
like, bruh, like we could have got together the life after
this. But you know, it's OK.
It's OK. My life didn't go that way.
I got pregnant after. I was like, I ain't going to
have a baby young. I'm not going to get pregnant.
That ain't going to happen to me.
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First mistake. Don't ever say something's not
going to happen to you. Don't, don't say don't do that.
It's like a reverse manifestation or something.
So yeah. I don't regret it though.
I love my kids. But had things gone differently,
you bet your ass I would have been every day at a dance
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audition. Didn't make it today, didn't get
selected today, coming back tomorrow, that like that.
That was my plan. Every time there was a dance
team at my school, dance tryoutsfor anything, I was there.
I didn't there was a dance team.There's a dance team here in the
town, not this town, but the town I went to high school in.
And I was going to try out for them when I was in high school,
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but I didn't like their vibe wasweird.
I didn't like the them having todo a, they did fish faces for
all their dances. It was weird.
If you know, you know, it was weird.
And so I was like, no, no. So that was the only time I had
stopped dancing. But I danced after school every
day. Like, I joined a different dance
studio and danced after school. Not every day.
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It was like once a week. That's all my dad could afford.
And then we performed at, like, Raging Waters and the Fair and
stuff like that. So yeah.
But but yeah, I did. I did attend other dance studios
in California when I was in highschool in Utah.
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Here in Utah, we did have to choreograph a dance and I was
kind of lead on that, which was it was fun.
It was really fun. I remember it was Usher's.
Yeah. And I choreographed it for my
group and then we performed it for like everybody, like during
school, I think it was. And then there was like an after
school performance for family and I don't know, I don't know
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what happened. Like when you're choreographing
a dance in the mirror and you have the steps and you're
somehow I got turned around. It was embarrassing because I'm
the one that choreographed the damn dance.
Somehow I got turned around on stage and I remember my the
other girls dancing with me kindof looked at me like turn around
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and I'm like, I was so mad. And I remember that I was, and I
was like a sophomore or a junior, and I still remember
that 'cause it made me so mad. Like, have that pop into your
head late at night when you're about to go to sleep.
Remember when you fucked up thatdance?
Could you turn the room? Yeah, it was just fucking
embarrassing, 'cause I'm like, you're the fucking one that
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choreographed the dance. How did you?
Anyways, Anyways, I've been talking about this for too long,
but. And what I I can never explain
anything a short way. Can't write short messages,
can't talk for a short amount oftime.
Anyways, I'm just excited because I'm going to try out the
first studio tomorrow. The only thing about the only
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sucky thing about it is these classes don't start till 8:00 at
night. Yeah, I get off work at 5:00, so
I'm like, what the am I doing until then?
My best friend Spencer does liveout in Salt Lake, so I'm
probably just going to go chill at his house for a little bit.
I think he might have kickball, so I'll just follow him to
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kickball and hang with him and his friends.
It's always a good time. Or I thought I would just stay
at work for an extra hour, get some work done, do some training
videos and then 'cause it's likenear Trolley Square.
And so then I, I just figured orI could just go walk around
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Trolley Square for a little bit and maybe go to Whole Foods or
something. I'll figure it out.
So that's the only downside is all these classes do not start
till 8:00 at night. It's like a 45 minute drive back
to my house. And I tend to just be ready to
go the fuck home once 5:00 hits.So, but I'm excited.
So I'm gonna rally and I'm gonnastay out there.
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And I haven't seen Spencer in a while, so I can, I can go kick
it with him. Maybe one day we'll have Spencer
on the podcast. He's a good time too.
And whenever him and I get together, we never stop talking.
We, we talk all all fucking day,like about anything and
everything. Like he'll, he'll come hang out
with me and he's that one friendthat won't stay and kick it for
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like 2 hours. He will stay.
For the whole fucking day and wewill talk for the whole fucking
day. Like he matches my energy that
way where he can talk as much asme and he can write long ass
paragraphs like me. So it's so yeah.
He's he's my oldest best friend of all my friends.
He's another ride or die person.When I was a single mom with my
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oldest and nobody wanted to be my friend because apparently I
wasn't that cool young girl witha baby.
And he was like, I don't give a fuck, I don't care.
Like you're my buddy. You know, we would go everywhere
together and with my oldest in tow, just chilling going to to
get fun. You would usually just go with
him shopping because he was usually shopping for something
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for his apartment or he was getting ready to go out of town.
And so we'd go with him to get stuff, you know, and I would
just be like, we're always together with my baby.
Like I'm not cock blocking you. Like I, I see these girls, like
I see them looking at you. I see you looking at them like,
am I cock blocking you? And he's like, Nah, it's fine.
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Like I don't care. Like it's fine.
And I'm like, oh, that's my buddy.
Because like I used to be worried about that.
I used to be like, wait. Because like he had just moved
to Salt Lake. Even though he is friends with
absolutely everybody, he was still trying to find like his
tribe and, and I was in Salt Lake.
So we just hung out all the time.
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So yeah, I like, that's just something that I worry about.
I'm I concerned, I'm concerned with my friends might be being
cock blocked. So I just, I had to ask and he
was like, no, but he was my one friend that he was like, I don't
give a fuck. You have a baby.
Like we're best friends. We're hanging out, you know,
like he's he's he's like my brother, to be honest.
So but yeah, we'll have to have him on sometime.
I don't know if he'll be comfortable and might not be a
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recorded episode, but we'll haveto do that because it's just the
way we ripped off each other. It's fun, you know, but he's
he's definitely like my brother.I, I have some awesome friends.
I do, I have some awesome friends.
I could talk about them all Goshdarn day.
It took me a long time to get tothis place in my life.
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It's funny, I always remembered this.
I did some sort of quiz, horoscope, some life number quiz
thing, something years ago and Ilearned that I'm life #11.
That number is so significant tome for many reasons in my life
and lately it's becoming even more significant.
But I read this years ago that my life number is #11 I don't
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know how I forget the math like that.
They, they add or subtract, you know, they take the letters of
your, of your birthday and, and then the, the, the, the days and
the year and they, and they do they do some no, not the
letters. They do the numbers like 1 + 2 +
2 + 8 + 1 + 9 + 8 + 7 'cause my birthday is 12/28/19 seven.
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I don't remember how they do it,but they figure it out.
You can find it online. And so whatever ways my life
number is 11. And I remember years ago I had
got like this reading or something it said to me, you for
many years, you will have issueswith friendships and
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relationships in your life. Like you will have like drama
and issues, but they're not meant to last long.
Like eventually you will find your tribe.
Eventually your person will cometo you and the issues that you
have had in friendships and relationships, you know, will
cease to exist. And I think about it all the
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time now because the prop, that prophecy or whatever the hell
you want to call it, eventually came to fruition.
Like I eventually did find my person.
And he wasn't about games and bullshit and cheating on me and,
and flirting with my friends right in front of me.
And cause yeah, yeah, I, I datedsome fuck boys who would
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literally like right fucking in front of me.
And I had shitty ass friends then too, who would entertain
that shit and flirt right back, like right in front of me, you
know, and I mean, I dated fuck boys who went next door to my
neighbor's house, who I was kindof friends with.
And I would go knock on the doorand be like, what are what are
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y'all doing? And they would lock me out and
not let me in. And then he would start fucking
her and hanging out with her. Like I dated piece of shit men
like that and and associated with piece of shit women like
that. And so I had a lot of
insecurities and a lot of, yeah,we'll just say insecurities when
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Tiger came into my life and it took me a long time to trust him
and a long time to, I guess, calm my nervous system.
And 13 years later, and he stilllooks and treats me like I'm the
only woman in the room. And that's the goal.
That's the goal for everybody tofind somebody that no matter how
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many years go by, it doesn't matter who walks in the room.
To them, you're the only person that matters.
And he's still like that to thisday.
Like I will literally point out gorgeous women and be like,
damn, did you see her? Like she, she was fine.
Like did you see her ass? And he'll be like, and I'll look
at him to get a response and he'll be looking at me and I'll
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go, he'll go what? I'll go, babe, you didn't see
that girl. And he's like, what girl?
Like, I don't care, you know, and.
Literally to this. Day.
He's still very much that way. And so, yeah.
This always. Happens to me pregnancy I mean
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well I'm not pregnant but from having kids my feet fall asleep
easily. It's annoying from my children
did this to me but but yeah so at that part of the prophecy or
reading whatever. Like I I eventually stopped
attracting bullshit men that treated me like garbage or were
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abusive or whatever. Like, eventually, I raised my
standards and sat with myself and realized, what do you want?
What? What don't you want?
What will you put up with? What will you not put up with?
You know, what will you tolerate?
What are your red flags? What are your green flags?
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And that happened for me at about 25, which coincidentally
is when me and Tiger reconnectedand got together.
And 25 was a pivotal year for mebecause, yeah, I did just sit
with myself and have that hard conversation.
I looked at everybody in my lifeand decided that some people, it
was time to cut the grass. There are some snakes in the
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grass and it was time to cut it.And so I had to take a look at
Link, make a hard look, take a hard look at my life and see who
brought value, who was good to me, good for me.
Like I've stated in past episodes, who created drama?
Who created stress? Who created problems?
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You know who needs to. Go and who were meant to stay
and so a lot of people did not make the cut.
But it was an important time in my life and you have to
reassess. You don't just figure it out
once. Years go by.
You kind of forget these life lessons.
You forget the boundaries that you've set and the expectations
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you have for your life and people in your life and, and,
and you have to sit down and have that conversation with
yourself again, like look at take a look at everybody in your
life. Do they add value?
Are they good to me? Are they good for me?
Can I trust them? You know, have have they passed?
You know, the series of, of tests, you know, and have proven
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themselves, you know, worthy of being in my life.
You, you have to do that a couple times.
So yeah, I can look around and assess and think about everybody
that's in my life and it's good.All my friends.
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Are. Amazing.
And they're awesome people. Ride or die, you know, Because
yeah, I had to cut a lot of friends and a lot of friendships
had to end run their course. People.
Sometimes come into. Your life not to stay, they're
just supposed to be lessons or they're supposed to be, I don't
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want to say stepping stones because then it feels you're
treating people as if you're stepping.
Like, I don't want to say that, but there are people that are
meant to, what's the same, meantto just be in your life for a
season, you know, or a reason orwhatever it is.
You know, they're either there to just help you get to the next
phase in your life or they're there to be a lesson to you.
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Sometimes a painful lesson. Unfortunately, you know, not
everybody's meant to stay. I seen this thing last year on
Facebook, something about tree people.
Like, I'm not even going to try and quote it because I can't
remember, but it was some analogy about a, a tree and, and
different kinds of leaves or something.
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And the different types of people with some sort of tree
analogy of of who's who's temporary and who isn't.
I don't know. I'll, I'll, I'll try and find
it. But yeah.
So yeah, I would say. That life #11 reading was true
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for me because I don't have the issues with friends that I used
to. I mean, knock on wood, things
can always change, but I would like to think at this current
place in my life, 37 years old, I have everybody I want and need
in my life. And, you know, I have my, I have
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my person. So yeah, I, I, So, yeah, it's
funny because I just, I just, I think about that all the time.
And it's crazy that I remember it because I must have looked.
I must have read that or got it or something.
I was maybe. Shit.
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Was lit. Oh my gosh, that was so fucking
cool. If he I.
Heard he was here a couple yearsago.
If he comes back I am definitelygoing to that concert.
Definitely. Even though I have to go by
myself, I probably won't cause Tiger never wants me to go
anywhere by myself. He'll say that he don't want to
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go, but then when he finds out that I'm still going with or
without him, he's like, I don't want you to go by yourself,
fine, I'll go. So even though he's not an MGK
fan, I know right? All the Hell's wrong with him.
Even though he's not an MGK fan,I can guarantee if I don't have
anyone else to go with. I think I have like.
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Maybe I know one one of my friends we talked about it
today. I don't know if any of my other
friends like MGK. Maybe.
I don't know either way. I'm a lone wolf.
I'll go do stuff by myself if it's that important to me.
So yeah. But I can guarantee if none of
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my other friends can make it. Tiger will go.
Even if he's sitting there like.Fuck this guy, I fucking hate
him. He'll still go.
Because he doesn't want me to goby myself.
But who? Knows he might have a good.
Time he went with me to Jelly Roll and Postie a few months
ago. I mean, he, he, he said I had a
good time, 'cause you're having a good time.
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And I was like, good enough for me.
It was better than you sitting here being like, can we go, is
it done yet? Can we go?
You know, he, he was a good sport.
I wasn't expecting the vibe to be so country, which is totally
fine with me. I love all kinds of music.
Country music is not like my first choice, but I grew up with
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it always playing in my house. My mom loved country music, so I
grew up with it. And there are there is country
music that I absolutely love andcountry artists that I love.
And I know that Posty and Jelly Roll are have kind of
transitioned to the country. Yeah, babe, open the door, my
love. Well, baby, why?
Well, I was downstairs and I heard.
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Knocking it was probably me. Like, I might have been like,
bumping or something. Maybe the door is locked and
it's the middle of the day. But if you hear something again,
let me know, OK? I love you.
Bye, baby. But yeah, I understand that.
Like they've transitioned to thelike the country genre, which
which is awesome. I don't I don't even know why
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people be hating. Like I think it's cool if if you
can be like multi genre talented, like people like are
like will like, you know, like trash on that.
Like, oh, you couldn't make it in real play.
Oh, you couldn't make it in reallike let people explore and
figure out their sound. OK, like I I'm here for it.
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Like I think it's awesome. So, you know, it was very much a
country concert, but I had a good ass fucking time.
I was so excited to see to see Jelly roll.
Like I'm going to see him every time he's in Utah.
Like I, I want to meet him. I want to be his fucking friend.
Like I I want him and Bunny to be my friend.
Like I when they're in Utah, I want them to stop at my house
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and we cook them dinner and we just chop it up for a few hours
every time they're in Utah. Like for real, for real.
I'm manifesting this right now that some, then the next. 10
years. I somehow get the opportunity to
meet Bunny and Jelly Roll, and Igive them my address and I'm
like, the next time you guys arein town, come by me.
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Casa SU Casa, I'll make you. I'll cook you food.
We'll chop it up like we're going to be buddies.
I'm manifesting it right now. But yeah, if MGK goes on tour,
I'm there. Like when he comes to Utah, if I
have to go by myself. The tiger will probably come.
Which is fine as long as he's not sitting there brooding and
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asking when we can leave becausethen I will go by myself and
I'll just make friends when I get there.
I. Mean I'm kind of.
Introverted. But if I'm lit, I'll talk to
people. I would.
I'll talk to people. I'm that person that when I go
to like the bar club and if I'm lit enough, I'll just talk to
everybody. I'll be like, Oh my God, I love
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you, you're so beautiful. Look, I love your hair, girl.
Give me your number. Like, let's hang out, let's be
friends and then find them on Facebook the next day and like
we barely even fucking remember each other 'cause we were both
so damn drunk. I'm that person like I'm going
to tell everybody that you're beautiful and let's hang out.
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So yeah. You know, get lit at the concert
and just make friends. Anyways, let's wrap this up
'cause this I didn't even talk about what I wanted to talk
about. Oh, OK.
Well, we can, we can do this fast.
We can try to make this fast. So I wanted to, I was kind of,
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that was the other thing I do. I do want to have Tiger as a
guest at some point. He's just going through some
stuff. So his energy just is not going
to be there right now. Just changes at work and stuff.
And so, you know, he's just. Just.
In a transition period and I want him to come on when he's
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relaxed and can enjoy himself. Because Tiger is fucking
hilarious. He's the funniest person I know.
Most people look at me weird when I say that.
For those of you that know us inreal life, most people are like,
your husband is so quiet. What do you mean he's funny?
Like Tiger is so quiet, what do you mean he's funny?
And I'm like, he's not fucking quiet.
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He never shuts the fuck up, but I'm like, no, I'm telling you,
he's fucking hilarious. He's he's he has no filter.
He's he's quick witted with his comebacks like he.
Has me laughing all. Fucking he is fucking hilarious
and the few people that he's letsee the real him, which is very
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rare. That's something that I love
very much about him is he reserves his full and authentic
self just for me. Just it's like a beautiful gift,
like everybody else gets like a water, very watered down.
Tiny version of. Him very tiny if they've been
had the opportunity to be aroundhim enough because he has to
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hang out with you at least, I don't know, 7-8 times before he
gets comfortable to start talking shit, you know,
playfully, jokingly and start tocome out a little bit.
But even still, he's being reserved.
Like I I get the complete uncut,unfiltered version and he's very
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funny. So I have been wanting him on
for us to just, you know, for the world to see him because
he's he's, he's just fucking awesome.
So one of these days, one of these days we'll have to do like
a relationship type episode. I want to do like a relationship
card game episode or something. But he's also very shy.
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So I would have to get him comfortable like.
Fill a pool full. Of liquor and dive in.
Something like that. So anyways, I wanted to talk
about energy reserving. I don't know if we've talked
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about this before. I want to go another way with it
though. I was thinking about this, I
think I was talking about it. It doesn't matter.
I was talking about it the otherday with somebody and just about
I, me personally, I do not go into circles or around people
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that are speaking negatively about somebody else.
It's very low vibrational to me.It's very icky.
I'm not going to say that I've always been this way.
Absolutely not. I was a teenage girl once.
I I, I, I, there was points at my life where I wanted to fit in
and I engaged in, in gossiping and all that shit.
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But I've liked to feel like I'veevolved and grown a lot in my
life that I just, I don't fit into spaces like that anymore.
I don't, I, I can't do it. It feels icky even 'cause I'm
human. There are times when my brain
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will start to form. An opinion or a.
Judgement and I'll go, uh, uh, that's gross.
Don't do that. We're saying no, we don't.
We don't do that. And so.
Even just thinking something, beginning to think something
negative about somebody, it justdon't feel right to me.
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Talking and saying something negative definitely don't.
It don't fit me not no, I don't like it so.
If I walk. Up to people, friends, whoever,
group of people that I know. At the gym.
Wherever and they are discussinganother person in an unfriendly
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light. I just.
Back away. I don't like that or depending
on how comfortable I am with these group of people, I will
try to redirect the conversationto something positive or kind of
like what Chelsea and I talked about last week.
She. Defended me in a room that I
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wasn't in before. And she simply just said that's
my friend, she's not here, we'renot discussing her.
So I'll do something like that. I think that it's the approach
that everybody should have, you know?
Everybody operates. Differently, but me personally,
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I just want to preserve my energy in more productive ways.
I want because I I absorb other people's energy all day every
day. Some are louder than others and
so I don't want to, I mean empaths, no, because we're
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energy downloading, emotion downloading from other people
all day long whether we want to or not.
It's just how we're programmed. And it's very draining to us
when we are constantly downloading low vibrational
negative, very draining energy, like very emotional, very heavy,
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I mean. We want to love.
And care and take care of and save everybody.
But even we need to limit how much.
Negative or. Worrisome or sad energy that we
take in because it affects us, we absorb the energy of other
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people. So if we're constantly around
people that are sad, we start tofeel sad.
If we're constantly around people who are angry, we start
to feel angry. If we are constantly around
people that are just very negative, very glass half empty,
the sky is falling, just very low vibrational and it's just,
it's habitual for them. It's not that they're going
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through a tough time temporarilyor it's been a, you know,
they're just struggling. It's that organically, they're
just a very negative person and they're putting down everything
and everyone. And we absorb that and then it
brings our energy and emotions to a low place and it's
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exhausting. So I personally make, I make my,
I have lots of discernment of the circles and the people that
I interact with. And it's for my Peace of Mind.
It's for my mental health. It's so my energy doesn't get
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drained. So I, I was just, you know,
thinking about topics the other day and this just kind of stood
out to me. Just to remind people to be
mindful. If you are one of those people,
if you are a healer, if you are an empath, if you are just if
you are one of those people thatare energy downloading all day
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long, downloading people's emotions, whether you want to or
not, all day long. It you know that it's
exhausting. You know that it's draining and
it can hurt depending on what you're constantly downloading.
I'm still learning this so I can't give too much insight on
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it because I'm still learning to.
Create force. Fields like a protective
barrier, an energetic barrier around myself to control how
much energy that I absorb. Because it's a lot.
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Still not ready to talk about itor go into it, but the
individual that I have a soul tie, soul connection with, I'm
constantly, 'cause we are in, weare within the same energy
field, we share the same energy field, Our souls are tied,
they're linked, so. I'm constantly.
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Absorbing their energy, their emotions.
And I've had to create, I've hadto develop discernment of what
am I feeling? Does this match my current
emotion? Does this match how I currently
feel? No.
This is their shit. This is their stuff.
This and it's. Also not my job like to release
(45:41):
that. It's not my job to sit with
that. I'm sorry you feel that way.
I'm sending it back to you to deal with, to heal, to work
through the process, to unpack and.
So I've been doing that. And I imagine that you don't
(46:02):
have to have a soul tie with somebody to be able to do that
with everyone in general, 'causeI don't pick up on everybody's
energy or emotions because some people are just louder than
others. But mostly someone could just
walk by me and I can download. I download not even without
trying to their energy. You know, I don't even have to
(46:23):
talk to them. And so now that I'm aware that I
can have discernment and that I can create and visualize
creating a force field around myself to block out unwanted
energy, I can do grounding techniques.
I'm still exploring. I'm still exploring all this.
(46:47):
So yeah, I'll have to try it. I mean, there's nobody's,
there's nobody else's energy that stays with me or I'm
constantly transferring back andforth because you can only have
one soul tide, this particular spiritual connection.
You can only have one person that you share it with.
So anybody else's energy or emotions that pass through me,
(47:08):
it's temporary. It's not something that stays
with me. It's just the one person, their
energy because we share it. But anyways, so everybody
else's, it's not even something that I need to really do
anything about because it's fleeting, if that makes sense.
But yeah, that's kind of what I wanted to go into was energy
(47:31):
preservation and protecting and being mindful of your energy and
where you're, where you're releasing it, where you're
transferring it, where you're putting it and how much energy
you are allowing to transfer on to you or download, absorb,
whatever. And just to be mindful of that,
(47:53):
if you're still trying to figureout your circles and where you
belong and you know who's reallyyour friend or there's this
person worth dating or whatever.Where's your energy?
Going and how does it feel? How does it feel when their
energy is around you and how is it affecting you?
(48:15):
How does you know? Are you drained afterwards?
Do you feel great? You know, and so.
Yeah, that was kind of the something that popped into my
head the other day because I don't me personally, like I
can't do low, low vibrational. I feel too much, too fucking
much. I feel way too much.
And so I have to have extreme discernment, boundaries,
(48:39):
whatever when it comes to my energy.
So. It.
Everybody closest to me knows. And if you don't?
I'm I'm not going. To entertain that I'm not going
to join in if you're discussing somebody in a negative type of
way and that person is not thereto defend themselves like I'm
(49:00):
not. I'm not going to be a part of.
That like I can't like it. Like I said, it feels icky to
me. Like I don't, you know, I just,
I just, I just don't subscribe. I just don't subscribe.
I'm just very mindful of where my energy goes and what I spend
it on. And you know, whose energy I let
(49:25):
be around me. And I, I, I think that everybody
should operate from that place. Like be extremely unapologetic
about where your energy goes andwho's you let be around you to
expel their energy around you. Like be unapologetic and have
the be analogical about those boundaries of who you let around
(49:47):
you. If their energy just ain't it,
you know, if, if they're just very negative and very low
vibrational like. Let them know.
Like this isn't the kind of energy that I can, I can be
around like, I'm sorry that you're feeling how you're
feeling or whatever. I mean, I'm not saying don't let
people then absolutely. Like if it's somebody you
(50:08):
absolutely care about and they had a rough day.
I've talked about this before. Be mindful of your friends
mental spaces. Are you, are you in a place
today to receive what I have to talk about?
I'm I had a bad day. I need to vent.
Are you in a place to receive metoday?
Because that person, like I've said in past episodes, might be
(50:30):
dealing with a lot and they can't add anything else to their
plate. So just you know, I'm not saying
don't listen to people vent. We're human.
We're going to have a bad day. That's not what I'm saying.
I'm saying be mindful before youunload on somebody, like
emotionally unload on somebody, make sure that they're in a good
(50:52):
place to receive. And be.
Open if you can, if you're in a good place to be open for
somebody else to vent. But I think you guys know what
I'm talking about. The difference between somebody
who just it's not about them having a bad day or going
through a bad time. They're just.
(51:15):
I don't want to say not a. Good person, but they're just
they're always talking about other people.
They're always putting other people down.
They're negative about everything.
They have something negative to say about everything.
Like they're shit talking. They're like just trashing on
everything. And, you know, if you're in a
completely different space in your life and you, you don't
want that around you like speak up, you know, like.
(51:42):
Put out what you want. To attract OK, like the the
energy that you were putting outyour aura, your energy, you
attract what starts you your light attract, you know what I'm
saying? And so like if you yourself are
coming from a low vibrational place, you're going to attract
(52:03):
low vibrational entities, low vibrational people.
But if you are shining positive,operating from a higher
frequency, want good for you, good around you, you're going to
attract that. So that was all.
(52:25):
So yeah. I.
Am gonna go shower and what timeis it?
Yeah, my husband gonna be home in a few minutes and he needs
all the attention. So I'm gonna go shower and wait
for my husband to get home. So yeah, and like I've been
saying, and like I'll continue to say in every end of every
(52:47):
episode of Play With Your Dick, Not me is be kind.
Be fucking kind. It's not hard, easy.
I feel like I believe. It's the easiest thing.
Easiest thing in the world to bekind to people.
It is not hard. It's really not.
I don't give a fuck what anybodysays.
It is not hard. You do not know what people are
(53:10):
going through. You don't like I, like I've
said, like the past three episodes.
You do not know. You don't know.
You think you do, but you don't.I don't care if you talked to
somebody yesterday and they wereall fucking smiles and were in
seemed like they were in the best mood ever.
You don't know functional depression is real.
(53:31):
So. Just be kind.
Like I said, it's as easy as smiling at somebody,
complimenting what they're wearing, saying you like their
hair, you know, just just be kind.
So thank you if you stuck with me until this long because I
talk so fucking much, but thank you like and subscribe on
(53:55):
YouTube, on my Spotify, on my iheart.
You can find me on Facebook. I either I think you can search
me either on Capricorn Clark or Sadie Clark.
Instagram. TikTok yeah I just got on X2 but
(54:17):
but yeah, so keep tuning in if this resonates.
Awesome, that's. All I'm trying to do.
So have a good rest of your week.
Be kind and I will see you in the next one.
Bye.
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