September 4, 2023 • 28 mins
Ever felt like you don't trust yourself? Wondered why you feel nervous or scared when talking in front of others? In this episode, I share the tools that helped me learn deeper-self-trust - and they aren't what you might think! Join in the journey as I lead you through my personal encounters and the innovative methods I used to rebuild self-trust. From Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT) and somatic therapy to journaling and skateboarding, the avenues to self-discovery are as diverse as they are enlightening.
Imagine standing onstage, guitar in hand, ready to strum out your soul. Picture the thrill of going off-script in an impromptu performance, each word a testament to your growing self-trust. My experiences with improv classes, learning to play the guitar, and attending soul-stirring Kirtan events have bolstered my confidence and faith in my voice. It's an exhilarating, transformative journey, and I can't wait to share with you the wisdom gleaned and insights gained.
But the story doesn't end there. Let's delve into the fascinating world of interconnectedness, a realm where our voice frequency can reverberate and impact our surroundings. We'll unravel the hidden significance of impatience, a tell-tale sign of self-distrust lurking beneath the surface. Learn how to cultivate patience and use tools like the Triple Flame App to practice mindfulness and reset your focus. Let's embark on this journey together and amplify our self-trust. Life is more enjoyable when we're patient, present, and fully trusting in our own capabilities.
Triple Flame app: https://genekeys.com/resource/the-triple-flame/
About Nina
Nina is an author, artist, musician, Human Design Specialist, and podcast host of Receptive Impact. Open & curious to adventure and change, Nina Elise navigates the path of self-discovery, inviting you to explore the boundless opportunities that arise when we step out of our comfort zones.
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Welcome to the Receptive Impact Podcast.
I'm your host, nina Elise.
Hi, friends, in today's episodeI'm going to be talking about
trust, so more specificallyself-trust, and I'm going to
talk about my journey ofrealizing when I didn't trust
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myself and the things that Ihave done in order to build that
self-trust back up within me,and the fun and the not so fun
things and realizations that Ihave had in that journey to get
me to where I am at today.
So, to start off, self-trust issomething that we don't really
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think about, but it can show upin so many different ways in our
lives.
One of the biggest ways that itcan show up is in impatience,
because it's like we have thisdistrust that things are not
working out in the perfecttiming or the perfect order.
And it can also show up in theway that your body begins to
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kind of turn on you when you'rein a situation that seems scary
and uncertain.
And as I started to become moreaware of this more specifically
in the last year or so, Irealized that the reason why I
struggled to trust people andopen myself up to them was
because I was deeply lacking asense of self-trust within
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myself, and so when I had thisrealization.
It was just like, oh my God,how do I begin to cultivate that
?
And there are things that youcan do in this 3D world that can
help you gain confidence inyourself and to trust yourself
again.
And so, for me, the way that Iapproached that was through a
bunch of different modalities.
Something I talk about a lot isEFT, tapping through somatic
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therapy, through journaling,doing small things here and
there that it's almost like I'mre-parenting myself in a way
where I'm very gentle withmyself and I don't force myself
to do things because I feel likeI have to or I should work past
this, or I'm going to do thisbecause I should trust myself,
but my nervous system is tellingme otherwise.
Well, I need to go to thenervous system first and calm
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that down and get to the root ofthe reason why it feels like
that before I can really safelystep into something or take a
big leap into trusting myself ona deeper level.
So for me, when I became awareof this, it was very much like
okay, what are ways that I cantrust myself?
And one of the things that I didwas I decided to learn how to
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skateboard, and for me this wassomething that required a lot of
self-trust, like a trust in mybody that I could balance and
find control on the board.
The more that I practiced andat first I was like fully geared
up and had helmets on and likewrist guards and like all of
these things and I felt like atotal child.
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But for me I was like I'm sodetermined, but there was almost
like this softness within methat was like I'm going to go
easy and I'm going to be kind tomyself.
So it was almost like I wasstepping into this place of like
I'm just going to be a kid fora little bit and I'm going to
approach me as the child butthen also like an overarching
part of me as a parent that'skind of like watching over and
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kind of guiding me to do thesedifferent things.
And so when I decided to learnhow to skateboard, it was like,
okay, I have my friend made oneform, made a skateboard for me,
and he gave me like a couplelessons and then I would go and
practice on my own and on theseback streets and I went very
slowly and it was something thatI just showed up every single
day doing, like it was fun, butit was challenging.
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But it also forced me to bevery present with myself and I
realized that part of the reasonwhy I was not trusting myself
was because I was living in myhead and I wasn't able to be
fully present in each moment tobe able to listen to what my
body needed or to listenintuitively how I needed to make
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decisions or how I needed tomove forward with things.
So the actual act of melearning how to skateboard and
learning how to trust my bodywas just kind of like this
totally like out there thingthat you wouldn't even think
about, like it obviously doesn'thave to be skateboarding, it
could be anything that you'reinterested in or that kind of
catches your eye.
But for me, skateboarding becamelike this very meditative place
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where I learned how to go slowand be kind to myself when I
fell off the board or I wasdoing things and I was learning
how to turn and some peoplewould be watching me and I'd be
like, oh my gosh, I feel like anidiot, like I'm like this grown
ass woman that's teachingherself how to skateboard.
But I just had to laugh at itbecause I was like, no, this is
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my world, I'm doing this formyself and I just kind of
pretended that no one elseexisted outside of me and it was
just like I was almost like inthis vacuum where I was.
You know, it was a safe spacefor me to learn how to do this.
And then, over time, it waslike, as I got more confident
skating on the board and Ilearned how to trust my body
more and more and I developedmore of those muscles to keep my
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balance and I learned thenuances of like just these
subtle shifts of my body or myfeet in order to make a turn and
to do something.
I started to venture out,farther out of those back
streets and I started to go alittle bit more on, like the
open road and the sidewalks, andthen I started to go more on
the back roads and it wasn'tlike I was doing this when there
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was a lot of traffic On theroads, it was.
I started to learn you knowwhen are the busiest times and I
live in a pretty small, smalltown, so it's easier for me to
go down the back streets becausethere isn't a lot of traffic
there.
But it was something that I wasable to slowly build self-trust
in my body and that wasincredibly helpful for me to
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gain confidence in how I holdmyself and how I approach things
.
And I was able to learn moreabout myself and how I approach
things, even just like standingin front of people giving a
speech or talking, like there'sa noticeable shift in the way
that I was like holding my body,because there was more
confidence and trust in my body,because I was consciously doing
this new thing, a skateboardingthat allowed me to, you know,
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feel more grounded and safewithin my body, to know that I
could trust myself, even inthese moments that felt unstable
or when I was approaching ortrying things that didn't feel
good.
And I learned that, you know,in order to trust myself, there
has to be a level of deeppatience and there has to be
this level of like softparenting that's happening in
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your mind instead of being hardon yourself, because I think
when we don't trust ourselves,we're constantly judging
ourselves and saying, oh, whycan't you do this, or there's
something wrong with me orwhatever, and it creates this
whole thought loop that preventsyou from letting go and
releasing and stepping out ofthat fear and stepping into a
more embodied version ofyourself where you feel more
confident and you can actuallytrust yourself.
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So skateboarding has actuallybecome something that I really,
really love to do.
It's something like if I'mfeeling stressed out or like I
just need to go play for alittle bit, I just hop on my
board and I just go down thestreets and I might put on a
podcast, or I might just goskate without any distractions
or anything, and I go out therefor a half hour hour or so and
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just kind of skate down thestreets without anywhere, any
specific destination in mind,and it's very grounding for me
and it's very meditative for mein that sense.
So that was like one of thefirst things that I did when I
really started to realize Ididn't trust myself.
And another thing that I did wastake a.
I think it was like a 12 weekimprov course and I've taken
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improv classes in the past in my20s, but this is when I lived
in South Florida and there werelike all these serious actors
and actresses and the improvcoach was like this well-known,
very well-known in the actingworld, and it was very
intimidating for me, especiallysomeone who had very low
self-confidence and didn't trustor believe in herself and was
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just kind of like lost in thattime period of my life.
And so when I decided to doimprov this time it was in a
smaller town, it was much morerelaxed.
You had a lot of people who hadnever done improv or acting or
anything before in the group,and so for me it felt like a
safer space.
It still felt uncomfortable,but my intention going into it
was I wanted to learn how totrust myself, to be on the spot
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and to allow what comes up tocome up and then remove the
judgment from it and just havefun with it.
So there was that level of it.
And then there were otherlayers of like oh, I wanna learn
how to communicate with otherpeople and learn how to piece
like basically storytell andI'll actually do another podcast
episode on my whole improvclass and like what it really,
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what it really did for me andall of my intentions for going
into it.
But for the purpose of thispodcast episode I'm just gonna
talk about the self-trust aspect.
And so when I started doing theimprov classes, it was like
there were so many cringemoments where and if you've ever
done anything like this beforelike you know what I'm talking
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about no-transcript, especiallyimprov you go and you just step
up and you go into the scene andit could be.
There's like hundreds ofdifferent exercises improv
exercises that you can do.
So if you've ever seen who'sLine is it anyway, it's like
they draw something out of thehat and then two people step up
and create a scene or whatever,or like there's something called
like freeze tag and you're notlooking at the scene behind you
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and then you go into the sceneon the spot and you have to like
jump into the scene and thenstart something new and create
this new story and like sothings like that.
And when I first started, itwas like there were so many
moments where I would step intoa scene and I would say
something and I'd be like whatthe fuck, nina, why did you just
say that?
And I'm cracking up now becausethen it'd be like for the next
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30 to 45 minutes it was two anda half hour class I would just
be like totally dwelling on thatmoment where I'm like why did
that come out of my mouth?
Like what part of my unconsciousdid this come from and why is
it there?
And it's like almost like I hadto experience those cringe
moments to be like, okay, thissucks in the moment, but over
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time, like you forget about it,like you think about it and you
might dwell about that, thatthing that you said for the next
half hour, hour, rest of yourday or whatever, however
traumatic it was to you, buteveryone else has forgotten
about it.
They have moved on to the nextthing.
And so the more that I went tothe classes and the more cringy
things that I was saying andallowing to come up out of me,
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the more it became less scaryfor me, because it was that
repetition of doing it over andover again.
To be like, oh, okay, maybethis isn't something to be so
scared of and maybe I canactually trust what's coming out
of me and maybe, like 100% ofthe time, it's not going to be
this funny thing, it's justgoing to be whatever.
Like that's why it's why it'scalled improv, you know.
So you literally have no idealike what's going to come up out
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of you.
Like it's just, you arelearning how to deeply trust
that whatever comes up is goingto make sense in the moment, and
maybe sometimes it doesn't andit's not funny and that's
totally okay.
So you learn how to getcomfortable with, like the
so-called failures and not be soafraid of it.
So over the course of those 12weeks we had to go deeper into
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learning how to like trustyourself more on the spot in
different ways.
And then I started to realizethat improv wasn't just about,
you know, self-trust, and it wasmore about telling a story and
communicating and like helpingother people as they're going
along the scene with you.
And again, I'll do anotherepisode on this because it was
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just so impactful in such subtleways and just sticking with it
was something that really helpedimprove my confidence and build
just more self-trust withinmyself.
Because at the end of end ofthose 12 weeks we did like a
showcase where we went on stageand we did all of these improv
classes and surprisingly, itwasn't as terrifying as I
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thought it was.
So it just goes to show that,like the scariest things, when
we put ourselves in thesepositions where we're kind of
like beginners or we don't knowourselves or that we, that we
can't trust ourselves, and themore that we do it over and over
again, it becomes somethingthat's normalized.
So it's just like anything like, say, you're trying to break a
habit or you're trying to switcha belief system to something
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else, or you're trying to stepinto a new character, identity
that you haven't been before.
Well, that's going to requirebeing honest and looking at
what's in front of you and what,what you have within you at the
moment.
In this, this case, it was lackof self-trust and then rewiring
that neurological connection inyour mind to say, okay, what are
things that I can do that canslowly build up that self-trust
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within me?
So those were two really bigthings that I did, um, or
seemingly big or small.
However, however you mayperceive that everyone may
perceive those thingsdifferently, but those were
really big things that helped mepersonally start to build my,
my confidence and my self-trustin myself.
And another thing that I didwas I, you know, I played the
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guitar and I've always, alwaysplayed alone, by myself, because
it was something that I love,the challenge of I love doing it
on my own.
I've always, like, reallysecretly looked up to and just
been so envious of people whohave that confidence to sing and
share their voice and to playguitar, like it was always like
this, like magical thing.
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And so when I learned, picked upa guitar I don't know, it was
like eight or nine years ago Ican't believe it's been that
long and I was, you know,learning how to play off and on.
I just basically learned bywatching YouTube and over time I
was I didn't have a voice, likeI didn't.
I sounded like a dying cat.
I'm just going to be fought out.
On a honest, I sounded terriblebut because I stuck with it, I
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learned how to build that trustin my voice and I learned how to
tone my vocal chords to thesong that I was playing on the
guitar and I learned how to findmy voice and I learned how to
trust that, the actual likesounds that were coming out of
my my, my mouth.
So playing the guitar wasanother thing that I did and I
showed up continuously forbecause I genuinely enjoyed it.
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But it was something that Ideveloped trust in myself and
and so the last few years, Istarted going to Kirtan and if
you're not familiar with Kirtan,it's like basically this
setting where people come andthey bring like a harmonium or
an instrument, or guitar, violinor whatever instrument that you
want to, you want to play orjust your voice, like that.
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That's an instrument in itselfand you you're seeing mantras
and you're seeing you're seeingdifferent songs and every Kirtan
might be different depending onwhere you go, but this one
studio that I went to, it was amix of western and eastern like
ways of Kirtan, of likeexpressing and singing songs.
So it wasn't like, oh, we'rejust gonna sing this mantra and
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and sanskrit and, like you know,sing songs about deities and
and all of these things.
It was more like you could showup and you can sing a different
song that was beautiful, thatyou loved, and so when I started
going there, I would bring myguitar and it was like
terrifying, because I'm like, ohmy god, I've never like sang in
front of anyone.
I didn't trust my voice.
But it was like every month Iwould show up to the kirtan and
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I would be like, okay, I'm goingto learn a song for the kirtan
and I'm going to practice it amillion times until I feel
confident that my voice soundslike semi-okay.
And then, like I would show upand I would sing and I would be
like shaking and sweating so badand everyone would be like, oh
my gosh, that's wonderful andamazing.
And then that started to likeboost my confidence because I
was putting myself out thereeven though I was still had that
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fear and I didn't feel like Itrusted myself because I'm like,
oh, my voice is going to crackor, like you know, I'm going to
like mess up this guitar chord,which both of those things
happened Like I wasn't perfect,but again it was putting myself
in that position to fail or tonot do good and realize that
there's it's actually okay forme to trust whether I do
something right or not, and soit's like you're learning to not
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only trust yourself but you'realso learning how to love
yourself and appreciate yourselfunconditionally by putting
yourself in those situations.
So over the course of the lastfew years, as I was going to all
of those kirtans and likeplaying music in front of other
people, it was like I started togain more confidence because I
was trusting myself to speak andto sing in those environments.
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So today, like for me playingthe guitar in front of people, I
still get nervous, I stillshake, I still sweat, but I have
found ways for my voice todevelop because of the practice
and that self trust that I'vecultivated within myself over
time to show up and my voice hascompletely transformed and
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changed and I have been able tofind my range that I can sing in
and have learned how to makesongs my own instead of trying
to sound like someone else.
And so I learned how to trustmy own voice by experimenting
and trying different thingsthrough, like vocal toning or
like singing songs, but likemaybe moving the capo down one
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or two notches and singing at alower or higher voice and kind
of experimenting with that tosee what is me like, what is
within me that I can trust.
Because it was like I was goingfor everything external outside
of me and it wasn't feelingright and I learned how to not
trust that and which meant Icouldn't trust myself.
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But the more that I came backto myself, the more I learned
how to trust myself.
So those were some really bigthings that I learned how to to
develop and cultivate deepertrust within myself.
And there is one more thingthat I want to share, or maybe
two things.
So I think this was like three,four years ago maybe, when I was
really doing a lot of plantmedicine and this was something
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that kind of like.
Kind of like hit me hard.
I had just done like I don'tknow six or something ayahuasca
ceremonies in the span of likeone or two months and was still
kind of like integrating all ofthat.
The medicine was still kind oflike, you know, swirling inside
of you.
Who've ever done plant medicine, you know what I'm talking
about.
It's something that it takestime to integrate but you're
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still kind of like in that spacewhen you've sat with the
medicine and it takes a whilefor you to kind of like come
back down from that.
And I had went on a trip toMount Rainier this is when I was
living in Washington at thetime and I'd gone out there and
rented an Airbnb and the personI was with we went and we went
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and bought some like a, somemarijuana and we went and sat at
our Airbnb outside we're likein the middle of nowhere, and
there was this fire and and wejust sat there and we smoked and
I kind of played my guitar alittle bit and the reason why I
mentioned that I had doneayahuasca the month prior is
because it was still kind oflike in my system.
So when we actually smoked themarijuana it affected me
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differently than it had in thepast and I was just kind of
sitting there and at one momentI realized like the
interconnectedness of the entireworld and like the whole fabric
of this, like how we're allconnected and how much we like
deeply impact each other and theperfection of it, like, if
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you're familiar with thebutterfly effect.
That's kind of like what Iexperienced.
So, as I was sitting there andI was talking to this person
that was next to me, it was likeI could literally like see and
feel the vibration of my voiceand watch it travel across to
that other person and hit them.
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So my vibration and like of myvoice was hitting them and I
realized like the tone and thefrequency of my voice was having
an effect on him.
And in that moment I started torealize and to see how even
just the tone of our voice, howthat can have an impact and have
this butterfly effect oneverything around me, not just a
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person I'm talking to, but thatfrequency is hitting a plant,
it's hitting an animal, it'shitting everything around us and
it just showed me theinterconnectedness of everything
in that moment and it honestlylike fucked me up for like a
week straight because it waslike so profound when I realized
like how interconnectedeverything was and that was like
a very big like moment for mewhere I realized how much I can
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actually trust what's coming outof me or like the actual
responsibility of what I'msaying and what I'm speaking.
And that requires a deep levelof trust that what I'm saying
and what I'm speaking isactually going to be a benefit.
And then the funny aspect orthe irony of this is that it
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doesn't matter and I thinkthat's and this is why I'm
sharing this with you because atthe end of the day, it doesn't
matter if you fail, becausethat's just your perception.
It doesn't matter if yousucceed, because that's just
your perception Like it's justlearning to just trust yourself
and be okay with whatever is andwhatever is coming up for you.
And so that was something thatwas really big for me, that was
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a really profound moment andjust like makes me laugh when I
think about it, because I wasjust sitting there and just
watching like the vibrations ofeverything just going and
hitting everything.
It was just so wild.
So one more thing I want to talkabout with you guys is
impatience, and this issomething that I've actually
been exploring a lot latelybecause, if anyone knows me, I'm
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like in the past, I am like, oh, I want to go do this and I'm
very impatient and I just don't.
I don't want to wait for thingsto unfold and the perfect
timing.
So I've been studying recently,going back into my Jean Keys,
and one of my Jean Keys is JeanKey 5.
And this is actually myconscious earth and my human
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design chart.
If you're familiar with thisand again just as a background,
if you don't know anything abouthuman design or Jean Keys,
that's totally fine.
This is actually something thatresides within you, whether
it's in your chart or not.
It's embedded in you on acellular level, in your DNA, and
so this is something that youcan experience, but maybe it not
necessarily be like a mainfocus in this lifetime that
you're here to experience if youdon't have it in your chart.
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But I just wanted to say thatbecause I feel like this is
relevant for anyone who'slistening.
So, with a specific gate or thisJean Key, like the shadow
aspect of it, is impatient.
And as I was exploring andreading more about this Jean Key
, I realized that impatience isone of my biggest lessons in
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this lifetime, because in thepast I've just constantly rushed
to get things done, even likeputting together this podcast,
or when I was doing myrebranding earlier this year, or
you know, when I'm learningsomething new, like when I was
learning how to skateboard I waslike I want to learn how to do
this and I want to be the bestat it.
And it was like there's thisdeep impatience where I was like
I have to put all my attentionon this for 24, seven, for a
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week after a week, when inreality, it's just like being
patient and trusting and knowingthat everything will turn out
in the right timing, in theright way, and the actual
enjoyment is to pause whenyou're feeling impatient and
just say, okay, how can I bepresent in this moment and enjoy
this?
Because the point of life is toenjoy the journey.
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And when we're being impatient,there is this underlying deep
distrust in not only yourself,but just in the way that the
universe works and the divinetiming and perfection of life.
And so contemplating andsitting with this, this gene key
, was very impactful for me tobe like okay, like where am I
feeling this impatience?
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And I was feeling it in mynervous system, like there was
like this underlying tension inmy body, especially when I felt
like, oh, I had a list of thingsto do or I want to learn this
and I want to get better at this, but I felt like it was taking
so long and it was like can Isee where I'm breathing shallow,
more shallow?
Can I?
Can I see where I'm holdingtension in my chest and my body,
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where I'm just like I'm notable to just fully, fully relax
Because in my mind I've got allthese other things to do and
these things that I want to doand accomplish all of these
things.
And I think when you reallystart to embody this feeling of
self-trust, it's like you canreally fully relax.
You can lean into patience whichis the actual gift of this jean
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key and you're able to sit andbe present and actually enjoy
every moment.
Because if you're impatient,it's like you're not enjoying
the moment, and then everysingle moment that you're not
enjoying it adds up to all ofthe moments of your entire life,
and at the end of your lifeyou're like, oh my god, I
couldn't even enjoy that momentbecause I was constantly
worrying about how this wasgoing to turn out or wanting to
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get this done right away, andit's like a total waste of life
when you look at it from thatperspective.
And so when you learn how tolean into and trust yourself,
you can actually start to enjoylife.
And this is something that Ihave really been sitting with
for the past years or so andreally been learning how to lean
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into.
And, of course, it'suncomfortable and it's weird
because it's not like a normalthing that you're really
necessarily aware of.
But for me personally notexploring this idea of this lack
of self-trust this wassomething that really came up
for me, and the more that I leaninto that, it's like wow, we
really are timeless beings andthat's actually the city of this
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.
Jean key is timelessness,because when you're fully
present, it's like time doesn'texist.
Time matters and when we can bethere fully in the present
moment and actually enjoy it, itwill get done, and we trust
that it will get done over time,but we're actually going to
enjoy the process and thejourney of it.
And so I don't know if thisresonates with you or if you
have this in your chart or youdon't have this in your chart,
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but it is something todefinitely sit with and
contemplate and reflect on andsay, okay, where may I be
impatient in my life and how isthis prohibiting me from being
fully present and how can I slowdown?
And a lot of times that, for me, is doing something very
meditative and I actually dopauses throughout the day.
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I don't know if anyone'sfamiliar with the app that
Richard Rudd has.
You can download it on anyphone and it's called the Triple
Flame app and you can settimers for when you sit and you
have your pauses and it'sliterally like anywhere from one
minute to 10 minutes that youcan take this pause.
But basically it just resetsyou and gets you out of your
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head and back into your body.
And for me, I have cultivatedthat practice and it's like
helped me pull me back into thepresent moment and to see, oh,
this is where I'm holdingtension in my body and this is
where I'm being impatient andthis is not where I'm trusting
myself.
And it can be, you know,sitting in that stillness.
It can be sitting in acontemplation, it can be going
and skateboarding, it can begardening, it can be going for a
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ride on your motorcycle,because that's meditative for
you, because, again, you'regetting out of your head and
you're getting back into thepresent moment and you're
trusting yourself to be in thatpresent moment and not worry
about anything that has happenedin the past or that might
potentially happen in the future, because that doesn't even
exist.
You can just be in the moment,and that is when creativity can
be birthed through you.
That is when source can workthrough you, when you are in
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that present moment and that iswhere you learn how to trust
deeply.
And I'm not saying this issomething that's going to happen
overnight.
Like I said, this is somethingthat I have been exploring and
leaning into for the past yearor so, more so the last few
months.
It is a process, because itfeels uncomfortable, just like
anything when you're learningsomething new and you're
rewiring this new belief systemor this new way of being, and so
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, again, you're going to needpatience for this process of
learning how to be patient andlearning how to trust yourself,
which is the funny part of it.
So I think that's all that Ihave to say to you guys.
That feels pretty complete, andI hope that you enjoyed this
journey that I have taken you ontoday and my experience with
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learning how to cultivateself-trust within myself.
And if anything resonated withyou or something really stood
out to you, please feel free toshare this with your friends and
your family or post on socialmedia or leave a review about
what your favorite part was.
That really helps with gettingmy podcast being seen by more
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people.
And also, I just want to saythank you.
Thank you so much for tuning in.
I really appreciate the factthat you spend the time to sit
here and listen to my voice andwhat I have to say.
It just means so, so much to me.
So thanks again and I will seeyou guys on the next episode.
All right, thanks.
Welcome to the Receptive Impact Podcast.
I'm your host, nina Elise.
Hi, friends, in today's episodeI'm going to be talking about
trust, so more specificallyself-trust, and I'm going to
talk about my journey ofrealizing when I didn't trust
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myself and the things that Ihave done in order to build that
self-trust back up within me,and the fun and the not so fun
things and realizations that Ihave had in that journey to get
me to where I am at today.
So, to start off, self-trust issomething that we don't really
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think about, but it can show upin so many different ways in our
lives.
One of the biggest ways that itcan show up is in impatience,
because it's like we have thisdistrust that things are not
working out in the perfecttiming or the perfect order.
And it can also show up in theway that your body begins to
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kind of turn on you when you'rein a situation that seems scary
and uncertain.
And as I started to become moreaware of this more specifically
in the last year or so, Irealized that the reason why I
struggled to trust people andopen myself up to them was
because I was deeply lacking asense of self-trust within
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myself, and so when I had thisrealization.
It was just like, oh my God,how do I begin to cultivate that
?
And there are things that youcan do in this 3D world that can
help you gain confidence inyourself and to trust yourself
again.
And so, for me, the way that Iapproached that was through a
bunch of different modalities.
Something I talk about a lot isEFT, tapping through somatic
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therapy, through journaling,doing small things here and
there that it's almost like I'mre-parenting myself in a way
where I'm very gentle withmyself and I don't force myself
to do things because I feel likeI have to or I should work past
this, or I'm going to do thisbecause I should trust myself,
but my nervous system is tellingme otherwise.
Well, I need to go to thenervous system first and calm
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that down and get to the root ofthe reason why it feels like
that before I can really safelystep into something or take a
big leap into trusting myself ona deeper level.
So for me, when I became awareof this, it was very much like
okay, what are ways that I cantrust myself?
And one of the things that I didwas I decided to learn how to
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skateboard, and for me this wassomething that required a lot of
self-trust, like a trust in mybody that I could balance and
find control on the board.
The more that I practiced andat first I was like fully geared
up and had helmets on and likewrist guards and like all of
these things and I felt like atotal child.
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But for me I was like I'm sodetermined, but there was almost
like this softness within methat was like I'm going to go
easy and I'm going to be kind tomyself.
So it was almost like I wasstepping into this place of like
I'm just going to be a kid fora little bit and I'm going to
approach me as the child butthen also like an overarching
part of me as a parent that'skind of like watching over and
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kind of guiding me to do thesedifferent things.
And so when I decided to learnhow to skateboard, it was like,
okay, I have my friend made oneform, made a skateboard for me,
and he gave me like a couplelessons and then I would go and
practice on my own and on theseback streets and I went very
slowly and it was something thatI just showed up every single
day doing, like it was fun, butit was challenging.
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But it also forced me to bevery present with myself and I
realized that part of the reasonwhy I was not trusting myself
was because I was living in myhead and I wasn't able to be
fully present in each moment tobe able to listen to what my
body needed or to listenintuitively how I needed to make
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decisions or how I needed tomove forward with things.
So the actual act of melearning how to skateboard and
learning how to trust my bodywas just kind of like this
totally like out there thingthat you wouldn't even think
about, like it obviously doesn'thave to be skateboarding, it
could be anything that you'reinterested in or that kind of
catches your eye.
But for me, skateboarding becamelike this very meditative place
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where I learned how to go slowand be kind to myself when I
fell off the board or I wasdoing things and I was learning
how to turn and some peoplewould be watching me and I'd be
like, oh my gosh, I feel like anidiot, like I'm like this grown
ass woman that's teachingherself how to skateboard.
But I just had to laugh at itbecause I was like, no, this is
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my world, I'm doing this formyself and I just kind of
pretended that no one elseexisted outside of me and it was
just like I was almost like inthis vacuum where I was.
You know, it was a safe spacefor me to learn how to do this.
And then, over time, it waslike, as I got more confident
skating on the board and Ilearned how to trust my body
more and more and I developedmore of those muscles to keep my
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balance and I learned thenuances of like just these
subtle shifts of my body or myfeet in order to make a turn and
to do something.
I started to venture out,farther out of those back
streets and I started to go alittle bit more on, like the
open road and the sidewalks, andthen I started to go more on
the back roads and it wasn'tlike I was doing this when there
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was a lot of traffic On theroads, it was.
I started to learn you knowwhen are the busiest times and I
live in a pretty small, smalltown, so it's easier for me to
go down the back streets becausethere isn't a lot of traffic
there.
But it was something that I wasable to slowly build self-trust
in my body and that wasincredibly helpful for me to
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gain confidence in how I holdmyself and how I approach things
.
And I was able to learn moreabout myself and how I approach
things, even just like standingin front of people giving a
speech or talking, like there'sa noticeable shift in the way
that I was like holding my body,because there was more
confidence and trust in my body,because I was consciously doing
this new thing, a skateboardingthat allowed me to, you know,
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feel more grounded and safewithin my body, to know that I
could trust myself, even inthese moments that felt unstable
or when I was approaching ortrying things that didn't feel
good.
And I learned that, you know,in order to trust myself, there
has to be a level of deeppatience and there has to be
this level of like softparenting that's happening in
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your mind instead of being hardon yourself, because I think
when we don't trust ourselves,we're constantly judging
ourselves and saying, oh, whycan't you do this, or there's
something wrong with me orwhatever, and it creates this
whole thought loop that preventsyou from letting go and
releasing and stepping out ofthat fear and stepping into a
more embodied version ofyourself where you feel more
confident and you can actuallytrust yourself.
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So skateboarding has actuallybecome something that I really,
really love to do.
It's something like if I'mfeeling stressed out or like I
just need to go play for alittle bit, I just hop on my
board and I just go down thestreets and I might put on a
podcast, or I might just goskate without any distractions
or anything, and I go out therefor a half hour hour or so and
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just kind of skate down thestreets without anywhere, any
specific destination in mind,and it's very grounding for me
and it's very meditative for mein that sense.
So that was like one of thefirst things that I did when I
really started to realize Ididn't trust myself.
And another thing that I did wastake a.
I think it was like a 12 weekimprov course and I've taken
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improv classes in the past in my20s, but this is when I lived
in South Florida and there werelike all these serious actors
and actresses and the improvcoach was like this well-known,
very well-known in the actingworld, and it was very
intimidating for me, especiallysomeone who had very low
self-confidence and didn't trustor believe in herself and was
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just kind of like lost in thattime period of my life.
And so when I decided to doimprov this time it was in a
smaller town, it was much morerelaxed.
You had a lot of people who hadnever done improv or acting or
anything before in the group,and so for me it felt like a
safer space.
It still felt uncomfortable,but my intention going into it
was I wanted to learn how totrust myself, to be on the spot
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and to allow what comes up tocome up and then remove the
judgment from it and just havefun with it.
So there was that level of it.
And then there were otherlayers of like oh, I wanna learn
how to communicate with otherpeople and learn how to piece
like basically storytell andI'll actually do another podcast
episode on my whole improvclass and like what it really,
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what it really did for me andall of my intentions for going
into it.
But for the purpose of thispodcast episode I'm just gonna
talk about the self-trust aspect.
And so when I started doing theimprov classes, it was like
there were so many cringemoments where and if you've ever
done anything like this beforelike you know what I'm talking
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about no-transcript, especiallyimprov you go and you just step
up and you go into the scene andit could be.
There's like hundreds ofdifferent exercises improv
exercises that you can do.
So if you've ever seen who'sLine is it anyway, it's like
they draw something out of thehat and then two people step up
and create a scene or whatever,or like there's something called
like freeze tag and you're notlooking at the scene behind you
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and then you go into the sceneon the spot and you have to like
jump into the scene and thenstart something new and create
this new story and like sothings like that.
And when I first started, itwas like there were so many
moments where I would step intoa scene and I would say
something and I'd be like whatthe fuck, nina, why did you just
say that?
And I'm cracking up now becausethen it'd be like for the next
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30 to 45 minutes it was two anda half hour class I would just
be like totally dwelling on thatmoment where I'm like why did
that come out of my mouth?
Like what part of my unconsciousdid this come from and why is
it there?
And it's like almost like I hadto experience those cringe
moments to be like, okay, thissucks in the moment, but over
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time, like you forget about it,like you think about it and you
might dwell about that, thatthing that you said for the next
half hour, hour, rest of yourday or whatever, however
traumatic it was to you, buteveryone else has forgotten
about it.
They have moved on to the nextthing.
And so the more that I went tothe classes and the more cringy
things that I was saying andallowing to come up out of me,
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the more it became less scaryfor me, because it was that
repetition of doing it over andover again.
To be like, oh, okay, maybethis isn't something to be so
scared of and maybe I canactually trust what's coming out
of me and maybe, like 100% ofthe time, it's not going to be
this funny thing, it's justgoing to be whatever.
Like that's why it's why it'scalled improv, you know.
So you literally have no idealike what's going to come up out
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of you.
Like it's just, you arelearning how to deeply trust
that whatever comes up is goingto make sense in the moment, and
maybe sometimes it doesn't andit's not funny and that's
totally okay.
So you learn how to getcomfortable with, like the
so-called failures and not be soafraid of it.
So over the course of those 12weeks we had to go deeper into
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learning how to like trustyourself more on the spot in
different ways.
And then I started to realizethat improv wasn't just about,
you know, self-trust, and it wasmore about telling a story and
communicating and like helpingother people as they're going
along the scene with you.
And again, I'll do anotherepisode on this because it was
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just so impactful in such subtleways and just sticking with it
was something that really helpedimprove my confidence and build
just more self-trust withinmyself.
Because at the end of end ofthose 12 weeks we did like a
showcase where we went on stageand we did all of these improv
classes and surprisingly, itwasn't as terrifying as I
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thought it was.
So it just goes to show that,like the scariest things, when
we put ourselves in thesepositions where we're kind of
like beginners or we don't knowourselves or that we, that we
can't trust ourselves, and themore that we do it over and over
again, it becomes somethingthat's normalized.
So it's just like anything like, say, you're trying to break a
habit or you're trying to switcha belief system to something
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else, or you're trying to stepinto a new character, identity
that you haven't been before.
Well, that's going to requirebeing honest and looking at
what's in front of you and what,what you have within you at the
moment.
In this, this case, it was lackof self-trust and then rewiring
that neurological connection inyour mind to say, okay, what are
things that I can do that canslowly build up that self-trust
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within me?
So those were two really bigthings that I did, um, or
seemingly big or small.
However, however you mayperceive that everyone may
perceive those thingsdifferently, but those were
really big things that helped mepersonally start to build my,
my confidence and my self-trustin myself.
And another thing that I didwas I, you know, I played the
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guitar and I've always, alwaysplayed alone, by myself, because
it was something that I love,the challenge of I love doing it
on my own.
I've always, like, reallysecretly looked up to and just
been so envious of people whohave that confidence to sing and
share their voice and to playguitar, like it was always like
this, like magical thing.
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And so when I learned, picked upa guitar I don't know, it was
like eight or nine years ago Ican't believe it's been that
long and I was, you know,learning how to play off and on.
I just basically learned bywatching YouTube and over time I
was I didn't have a voice, likeI didn't.
I sounded like a dying cat.
I'm just going to be fought out.
On a honest, I sounded terriblebut because I stuck with it, I
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learned how to build that trustin my voice and I learned how to
tone my vocal chords to thesong that I was playing on the
guitar and I learned how to findmy voice and I learned how to
trust that, the actual likesounds that were coming out of
my my, my mouth.
So playing the guitar wasanother thing that I did and I
showed up continuously forbecause I genuinely enjoyed it.
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But it was something that Ideveloped trust in myself and
and so the last few years, Istarted going to Kirtan and if
you're not familiar with Kirtan,it's like basically this
setting where people come andthey bring like a harmonium or
an instrument, or guitar, violinor whatever instrument that you
want to, you want to play orjust your voice, like that.
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That's an instrument in itselfand you you're seeing mantras
and you're seeing you're seeingdifferent songs and every Kirtan
might be different depending onwhere you go, but this one
studio that I went to, it was amix of western and eastern like
ways of Kirtan, of likeexpressing and singing songs.
So it wasn't like, oh, we'rejust gonna sing this mantra and
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and sanskrit and, like you know,sing songs about deities and
and all of these things.
It was more like you could showup and you can sing a different
song that was beautiful, thatyou loved, and so when I started
going there, I would bring myguitar and it was like
terrifying, because I'm like, ohmy god, I've never like sang in
front of anyone.
I didn't trust my voice.
But it was like every month Iwould show up to the kirtan and
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I would be like, okay, I'm goingto learn a song for the kirtan
and I'm going to practice it amillion times until I feel
confident that my voice soundslike semi-okay.
And then, like I would show upand I would sing and I would be
like shaking and sweating so badand everyone would be like, oh
my gosh, that's wonderful andamazing.
And then that started to likeboost my confidence because I
was putting myself out thereeven though I was still had that
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fear and I didn't feel like Itrusted myself because I'm like,
oh, my voice is going to crackor, like you know, I'm going to
like mess up this guitar chord,which both of those things
happened Like I wasn't perfect,but again it was putting myself
in that position to fail or tonot do good and realize that
there's it's actually okay forme to trust whether I do
something right or not, and soit's like you're learning to not
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only trust yourself but you'realso learning how to love
yourself and appreciate yourselfunconditionally by putting
yourself in those situations.
So over the course of the lastfew years, as I was going to all
of those kirtans and likeplaying music in front of other
people, it was like I started togain more confidence because I
was trusting myself to speak andto sing in those environments.
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So today, like for me playingthe guitar in front of people, I
still get nervous, I stillshake, I still sweat, but I have
found ways for my voice todevelop because of the practice
and that self trust that I'vecultivated within myself over
time to show up and my voice hascompletely transformed and
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changed and I have been able tofind my range that I can sing in
and have learned how to makesongs my own instead of trying
to sound like someone else.
And so I learned how to trustmy own voice by experimenting
and trying different thingsthrough, like vocal toning or
like singing songs, but likemaybe moving the capo down one
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or two notches and singing at alower or higher voice and kind
of experimenting with that tosee what is me like, what is
within me that I can trust.
Because it was like I was goingfor everything external outside
of me and it wasn't feelingright and I learned how to not
trust that and which meant Icouldn't trust myself.
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But the more that I came backto myself, the more I learned
how to trust myself.
So those were some really bigthings that I learned how to to
develop and cultivate deepertrust within myself.
And there is one more thingthat I want to share, or maybe
two things.
So I think this was like three,four years ago maybe, when I was
really doing a lot of plantmedicine and this was something
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that kind of like.
Kind of like hit me hard.
I had just done like I don'tknow six or something ayahuasca
ceremonies in the span of likeone or two months and was still
kind of like integrating all ofthat.
The medicine was still kind oflike, you know, swirling inside
of you.
Who've ever done plant medicine, you know what I'm talking
about.
It's something that it takestime to integrate but you're
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still kind of like in that spacewhen you've sat with the
medicine and it takes a whilefor you to kind of like come
back down from that.
And I had went on a trip toMount Rainier this is when I was
living in Washington at thetime and I'd gone out there and
rented an Airbnb and the personI was with we went and we went
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and bought some like a, somemarijuana and we went and sat at
our Airbnb outside we're likein the middle of nowhere, and
there was this fire and and wejust sat there and we smoked and
I kind of played my guitar alittle bit and the reason why I
mentioned that I had doneayahuasca the month prior is
because it was still kind oflike in my system.
So when we actually smoked themarijuana it affected me
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differently than it had in thepast and I was just kind of
sitting there and at one momentI realized like the
interconnectedness of the entireworld and like the whole fabric
of this, like how we're allconnected and how much we like
deeply impact each other and theperfection of it, like, if
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you're familiar with thebutterfly effect.
That's kind of like what Iexperienced.
So, as I was sitting there andI was talking to this person
that was next to me, it was likeI could literally like see and
feel the vibration of my voiceand watch it travel across to
that other person and hit them.
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So my vibration and like of myvoice was hitting them and I
realized like the tone and thefrequency of my voice was having
an effect on him.
And in that moment I started torealize and to see how even
just the tone of our voice, howthat can have an impact and have
this butterfly effect oneverything around me, not just a
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person I'm talking to, but thatfrequency is hitting a plant,
it's hitting an animal, it'shitting everything around us and
it just showed me theinterconnectedness of everything
in that moment and it honestlylike fucked me up for like a
week straight because it waslike so profound when I realized
like how interconnectedeverything was and that was like
a very big like moment for mewhere I realized how much I can
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actually trust what's coming outof me or like the actual
responsibility of what I'msaying and what I'm speaking.
And that requires a deep levelof trust that what I'm saying
and what I'm speaking isactually going to be a benefit.
And then the funny aspect orthe irony of this is that it
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doesn't matter and I thinkthat's and this is why I'm
sharing this with you because atthe end of the day, it doesn't
matter if you fail, becausethat's just your perception.
It doesn't matter if yousucceed, because that's just
your perception Like it's justlearning to just trust yourself
and be okay with whatever is andwhatever is coming up for you.
And so that was something thatwas really big for me, that was
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a really profound moment andjust like makes me laugh when I
think about it, because I wasjust sitting there and just
watching like the vibrations ofeverything just going and
hitting everything.
It was just so wild.
So one more thing I want to talkabout with you guys is
impatience, and this issomething that I've actually
been exploring a lot latelybecause, if anyone knows me, I'm
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like in the past, I am like, oh, I want to go do this and I'm
very impatient and I just don't.
I don't want to wait for thingsto unfold and the perfect
timing.
So I've been studying recently,going back into my Jean Keys,
and one of my Jean Keys is JeanKey 5.
And this is actually myconscious earth and my human
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design chart.
If you're familiar with thisand again just as a background,
if you don't know anything abouthuman design or Jean Keys,
that's totally fine.
This is actually something thatresides within you, whether
it's in your chart or not.
It's embedded in you on acellular level, in your DNA, and
so this is something that youcan experience, but maybe it not
necessarily be like a mainfocus in this lifetime that
you're here to experience if youdon't have it in your chart.
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But I just wanted to say thatbecause I feel like this is
relevant for anyone who'slistening.
So, with a specific gate or thisJean Key, like the shadow
aspect of it, is impatient.
And as I was exploring andreading more about this Jean Key
, I realized that impatience isone of my biggest lessons in
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this lifetime, because in thepast I've just constantly rushed
to get things done, even likeputting together this podcast,
or when I was doing myrebranding earlier this year, or
you know, when I'm learningsomething new, like when I was
learning how to skateboard I waslike I want to learn how to do
this and I want to be the bestat it.
And it was like there's thisdeep impatience where I was like
I have to put all my attentionon this for 24, seven, for a
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week after a week, when inreality, it's just like being
patient and trusting and knowingthat everything will turn out
in the right timing, in theright way, and the actual
enjoyment is to pause whenyou're feeling impatient and
just say, okay, how can I bepresent in this moment and enjoy
this?
Because the point of life is toenjoy the journey.
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And when we're being impatient,there is this underlying deep
distrust in not only yourself,but just in the way that the
universe works and the divinetiming and perfection of life.
And so contemplating andsitting with this, this gene key
, was very impactful for me tobe like okay, like where am I
feeling this impatience?
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And I was feeling it in mynervous system, like there was
like this underlying tension inmy body, especially when I felt
like, oh, I had a list of thingsto do or I want to learn this
and I want to get better at this, but I felt like it was taking
so long and it was like can Isee where I'm breathing shallow,
more shallow?
Can I?
Can I see where I'm holdingtension in my chest and my body,
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where I'm just like I'm notable to just fully, fully relax
Because in my mind I've got allthese other things to do and
these things that I want to doand accomplish all of these
things.
And I think when you reallystart to embody this feeling of
self-trust, it's like you canreally fully relax.
You can lean into patience whichis the actual gift of this jean
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key and you're able to sit andbe present and actually enjoy
every moment.
Because if you're impatient,it's like you're not enjoying
the moment, and then everysingle moment that you're not
enjoying it adds up to all ofthe moments of your entire life,
and at the end of your lifeyou're like, oh my god, I
couldn't even enjoy that momentbecause I was constantly
worrying about how this wasgoing to turn out or wanting to
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get this done right away, andit's like a total waste of life
when you look at it from thatperspective.
And so when you learn how tolean into and trust yourself,
you can actually start to enjoylife.
And this is something that Ihave really been sitting with
for the past years or so andreally been learning how to lean
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into.
And, of course, it'suncomfortable and it's weird
because it's not like a normalthing that you're really
necessarily aware of.
But for me personally notexploring this idea of this lack
of self-trust this wassomething that really came up
for me, and the more that I leaninto that, it's like wow, we
really are timeless beings andthat's actually the city of this
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.
Jean key is timelessness,because when you're fully
present, it's like time doesn'texist.
Time matters and when we can bethere fully in the present
moment and actually enjoy it, itwill get done, and we trust
that it will get done over time,but we're actually going to
enjoy the process and thejourney of it.
And so I don't know if thisresonates with you or if you
have this in your chart or youdon't have this in your chart,
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but it is something todefinitely sit with and
contemplate and reflect on andsay, okay, where may I be
impatient in my life and how isthis prohibiting me from being
fully present and how can I slowdown?
And a lot of times that, for me, is doing something very
meditative and I actually dopauses throughout the day.
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I don't know if anyone'sfamiliar with the app that
Richard Rudd has.
You can download it on anyphone and it's called the Triple
Flame app and you can settimers for when you sit and you
have your pauses and it'sliterally like anywhere from one
minute to 10 minutes that youcan take this pause.
But basically it just resetsyou and gets you out of your
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head and back into your body.
And for me, I have cultivatedthat practice and it's like
helped me pull me back into thepresent moment and to see, oh,
this is where I'm holdingtension in my body and this is
where I'm being impatient andthis is not where I'm trusting
myself.
And it can be, you know,sitting in that stillness.
It can be sitting in acontemplation, it can be going
and skateboarding, it can begardening, it can be going for a
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ride on your motorcycle,because that's meditative for
you, because, again, you'regetting out of your head and
you're getting back into thepresent moment and you're
trusting yourself to be in thatpresent moment and not worry
about anything that has happenedin the past or that might
potentially happen in the future, because that doesn't even
exist.
You can just be in the moment,and that is when creativity can
be birthed through you.
That is when source can workthrough you, when you are in
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that present moment and that iswhere you learn how to trust
deeply.
And I'm not saying this issomething that's going to happen
overnight.
Like I said, this is somethingthat I have been exploring and
leaning into for the past yearor so, more so the last few
months.
It is a process, because itfeels uncomfortable, just like
anything when you're learningsomething new and you're
rewiring this new belief systemor this new way of being, and so
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, again, you're going to needpatience for this process of
learning how to be patient andlearning how to trust yourself,
which is the funny part of it.
So I think that's all that Ihave to say to you guys.
That feels pretty complete, andI hope that you enjoyed this
journey that I have taken you ontoday and my experience with
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learning how to cultivateself-trust within myself.
And if anything resonated withyou or something really stood
out to you, please feel free toshare this with your friends and
your family or post on socialmedia or leave a review about
what your favorite part was.
That really helps with gettingmy podcast being seen by more
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people.
And also, I just want to saythank you.
Thank you so much for tuning in.
I really appreciate the factthat you spend the time to sit
here and listen to my voice andwhat I have to say.
It just means so, so much to me.
So thanks again and I will seeyou guys on the next episode.
All right, thanks.
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