September 7, 2025 • 22 mins
What happens when the universe takes everything from you, not once, but four times? Vickie Menendez thought losing her first child - a full-term stillborn at 20 - was the worst pain imaginable. She was wrong.
In 2017, she found her son dead from a drug overdose. Decomposed. Alone. A sight you don't unsee.
A year later, she lost her father the exact moment her husband was having heart attacks.
But the universe wasn't finished with her yet.
Then came the ultimate test: losing two children just 12 days apart. After 48 days in the hospital watching her daughter die, Vickie came home to mourn - only to get a call from police trying to identify her 37-year-old son who had drowned after a seizure.
"That was when it shattered me, but that was when I was like, there's something more to this. No one goes through something like that without there being a much bigger mission behind it."
Four dead children later, Vickie discovered why she was still alive. Not just to survive unimaginable loss, but to transform it into spiritual awakening and teach others that even the deepest devastation has divine purpose.
Discover how a woman who should have been destroyed by grief became a beacon of hope - and why your darkest moments might be preparing you for your greatest calling.
If You’ve Been Hooked on These Episodes… This Is for You
If this podcast has been landing deep… if each story feels like it’s peeling back something raw and real in you… then don’t ignore that.
Every guest you’ve heard made the same decision: to stop performing and start healing.
Now it’s your turn.
Take the Silent Collapse Diagnostic. It’s not a quiz. It’s a wake-up tool for women who are done pretending they’re fine.
No fluff. No journaling prompts. Just a straight-up mirror into where you’re silently collapsing behind the mask of success.
If you're serious about reclaiming your energy, your clarity, your life start there.
Because breakthrough doesn’t begin with doing more. It begins with finally seeing what’s been stealing your power.
Learn more about Baz Porter at www.bazporter.com
Mark as Played
Transcript
Episode Transcript
Available transcripts are automatically generated. Complete accuracy is not guaranteed.
Speaker 1 (00:00):
Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to another episode of
Rise from the Ashes podcast.
How are you?
And welcome back.
I'm Baz Porter and I'm joinedby an amazing guest today named
Vicky Mendes.
She lives in the East Coast andher story just captivated me
Incredible, heroic andcompassionate.
(00:23):
So, vicky, without further ado,please say hello to the world,
say hello to the listeners, whoyou are and a bit about what you
do.
Speaker 2 (00:33):
My name is Vicki Menendez.
I take on the role as a solemidwife.
I'm not a coach, I'm not intothe transformation or anything
like that.
That is something that takestime to unravel and to unfold.
I have found through all of thetrials and the traumas that
(00:55):
I've gone through in my lifefrom starting off with being in
a dysfunctional home as a kidand feeling unsafe a
dysfunctional home as a kid andfeeling unsafe, and my father
actually taught us how to sing,how to harmonize, and I realized
(01:17):
just in the past year or sothat was his soul, giving us
that protective bubble aroundwhat was going on in our home,
in our space, in our home in ourenvironment, and that carried
me through all of my teenageyears.
I went through bullying as achild from the second grade all
the way up to high school and Iknow a lot of women can really
(01:37):
connect with that.
I've talked to a lot of womenthat have had that experience.
Sexual trauma as a teenager.
But my first true trauma waslosing a full-term stillborn at
20.
And at that time my awarenesslevel was pretty limited but it
(02:04):
did create this curiosity intothe spirit realm and what it all
meant.
But I never really processedthat trauma?
I thought I did, but it justcreated this distance.
I loved my kids.
I went on to have three morechildren with my ex-husband, but
I realized just recently that Ihad this distance.
(02:27):
I love them, but there was thatfear of loss always hanging out
there.
And so, fast forward to 2017, Idiscovered my son dead of a
drug overdose in a decomposedstate.
So that is a sight that youdon't unsee, and I was by myself
when I found him and I justit's like you're standing
(02:51):
outside yourself looking in, andit was a shock to my body.
Anytime you go through a traumalike that, it's a total shock
to your energetic field and toyour body in the whole.
A year later, I lost my dad and,at the very moment my sister
(03:13):
calls, my husband was in themiddle of having a heart attack.
So I lost him while my husbandwas having a heart attack was
having a heart attack, and ittook about two years for me to
realize that I needed some help.
I was looking at a picture ofmyself and, even though I had a
(03:37):
smile plastered on my face,there was pain written all over
me.
You could see it, and so Ihired a spiritual coach, I
learned so many tools.
I always leaned on 35 years ofself-care and wellness.
I grew up and was passionateabout that, since I was a
teenager and had spas and like.
I knew all of that andself-care was a big part of me
(04:01):
taking care of myself duringthis whole thing.
But the one thing I didn't knowwas the emotions, processing
those emotions and being able toembrace it all.
And so, in learning that, itprepared me for the biggest loss
, which was losing two children12 days apart.
(04:21):
I was in the hospital with mydaughter for 48 days before she
passed, and that experiencewalking into that hospital room
with the heightened awarenessand consciousness that I had
through my healing journey madeall the difference in how I
approached that whole situationand what I was able to see, what
(04:45):
was really revealed to meduring that whole time.
And even though my daughter wasin an induced coma, there was
communication there and it wasbeautiful.
And then I came home to mournher I'm in the middle of the
grocery store and get a callfrom the police station trying
to identify my son who had aseizure in the neighboring pool
(05:08):
and drowned, and he was 37.
And that was when it shatteredme, but that was when I was like
there's something more to this.
No one goes through somethinglike that without there being a
much bigger mission behind it.
And that's when, over the lastcouple years, it's just been
(05:33):
revealing itself, one layer at atime, and it's just being able
to see it for what it is, andthat the contracts that I had
with God, with all of mychildren we agreed to this
before I even stepped into thislife experience that this was
our experience, this is what wewere going to do for each other.
(05:57):
They gave me a profound storythat nobody can unhear yeah,
story that nobody can unhear.
I get the attention of thepeople that really need to hear
it.
And all of my kids went out ina way that, like my son going
out the way he did both of themand my daughters that's how they
(06:22):
would have gone out like in ablaze of thunder or with my
daughter spending 48 dayspulling all these people
together and making thesehealing environments for me and
her husband.
We were never fans of eachother.
She put us in a room for fivedays, 24-7, and we got to know
each other.
That was her orchestrating thatwhole thing.
And so when you really sit andlook at it.
(06:46):
I went over a timeline when Iwas in the hospital and it was
like I realized that everytrauma, every success that I had
, all of those things were justa part of a beautiful mosaic
that was just coming togetherand preparing me for what I was
about to step into.
Speaker 1 (07:05):
What you've just described is a beautiful journey
.
It has components to it thatare extremely challenging.
I have no comprehension overanything you're speaking into,
but it's the message behind itthat astounds me.
It's your courage that strikesme, because it isn't just it's
(07:30):
happening to me, vibe.
It's happening now, in thispresent time.
But how can I, what can I learnfrom it and how I, how can I
embody this?
And what's behind this?
There's a message or there's aphrase that was taught to me a
very long time ago and it wassimply said the pain, the
(07:51):
message, is in the pain, thepain is in the message.
But you took that to a wholedifferent level.
Most people in your situationwould have stayed in that frame
and grieved for many years.
I'm not taking away from thatand you are and you still
probably are.
I don't know, but what you'redoing with it is a goddamn
(08:15):
miracle, because you've takensomething and you've elevated it
and you've put the message outthere for other people to
understand, embody and grow from, which is just nuts, in my view
.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
I feel like that it's happening through me and
because there's some people whenthey're saying this happened to
me, everything happens for us,but can you get from everything
happening life is happening forus to life is happening through
me?
That's a whole different leveland I'm just honored that for
(08:53):
the longest time I was like me,I'm supposed to do this big
thing, I'm supposed to, and I'mlike, why not me?
Why not Just your everydayperson?
Nobody knows me, I'm nobodyfamous, but I think people
(09:15):
connect with everyday people andeveryday experiences, and so
I've really learned to reallyembrace what's being revealed to
me and how I'm stepping intothis, because I really feel like
that I have a mission, thatit's time for this to come
forward and for people to knowthat there is another side to
(09:37):
that grief and there's giftswrapped up all in.
But you have to sometimes gothrough the shadows into the
light.
Speaker 1 (09:45):
Without the shadow, you don't know what the light is
and this is the whole, thewhole components of the journey
is stepping into that shadowwork and understanding the
concepts of humanity, energy,connection, spirit, realm,
consciousness, superconsciousness.
There's so much layered upon it, but when you really open
(10:09):
yourself up to that journey,it's truly profound and it
sounds like you've experienced alot of that within your journey
.
Can you share a pivotal momentafter the incident?
I'm gonna call them thatbecause I don't want to detract
from anything that you've justshared.
Is there a pivotal moment afterthe incident that you remember
(10:32):
going?
I get it.
I truly get this now.
Speaker 2 (10:39):
A couple of times when I was in the hospital with
my daughter, a good friend ofmine said you need to talk to
this person.
She was like a spiritual guideand she was the first one that
said I really believe what I'mfeeling.
She said and my intuition istelling me that in this lifetime
(11:01):
you were supposed to see thebeauty in death.
To see the beauty in death,yeah, and I was like whoa.
That really resonated with meon a deep level and I started
(11:24):
looking at everything in adifferent way, like thinking
about the contracts I had withmy kids and the fact that they
met their contract.
But we're still walking thispath together because everything
that they had plans in theirlife and now I am their vessel.
When Wesley died of theoverdose, his art can speak to
both parents of addicts and tothe addicts themselves and
(11:48):
that's his message.
And I was writing an articleand realized when I was reading
it back to myself, he camethrough and was like Mom, this
is our contract, you aresupposed to be my vessel.
Think about it If he's standingon stage saying I almost died,
(12:11):
but I'm standing on stage sayingmy son did die.
It's a totally different levelwhere both either addicts or
parents of addicts feel it at atotally different level.
And then my daughter wanted tohelp people with addiction
through plant medicine.
(12:32):
I've experienced a lot of thatover the last couple of years
and it's been a heart-opener forme.
And then my son wanted to standon stage.
He wanted to share his story ofhis addictions and him coming
out as a gay man, and how hardthat was.
And so I'm standing on stagespeaking his message as well,
(12:58):
and so I just feel, like thisdance with my children, that I
didn't lose them.
We're just communicating on atotally different level.
That I didn't lose them.
We're just communicating on atotally different level.
And another time in the hospital, when we were about to put her
into comfort care, I went to getmy clothes because I knew I
would be in the hospital.
I might be in the hospital fora while.
(13:19):
They said a couple of days atthe most.
19 days later she's still there.
And so I was going back to myroom to get my clothes and I
felt this I'm like asking theuniverse where is my daughter
right now?
Where is she in her journey?
(13:40):
And all of a sudden I had thisburst of energy coming through
me.
It was like it came through myback and out from my heart
chakra and for just a moment Iwas sad.
And then, all of a sudden, thislaughter started coming through
.
I'm like I'm crying.
(14:00):
How could I be laughing rightnow?
And it was my daughter comingthrough.
She was saying Mom, I'm morethan okay, I am just pure
essence, I'm just pure love.
There's no judgment, there's noanger, there's none of those
(14:22):
lower level vibrations.
I'm all pure essence right now.
And how could I feel bad aboutthat?
How would it feel to be thereall the time?
And then, after my son, Idropped to my knees in the
grocery store when they told mewhat had happened.
Speaker 1 (14:43):
Sorry, Vicki, you were in the grocery store when
this happened.
Speaker 2 (14:46):
I was in the grocery store when the police station
called me and was trying toidentify my son.
Speaker 1 (14:53):
Oh, wow.
Speaker 2 (14:54):
Because somebody said I think I know who this is.
They find out how to get intouch with me and they were
trying to identify him by thetattoos he had on his body and I
knew, okay, something's reallywrong here.
So they finally divulged theinformation.
I dropped to my knees and I'mlike how could this be happening
(15:17):
?
It's 12 days.
It's hard.
What do you want from me?
But the first thing that cameto me was how am I supposed to
serve?
Was how am I supposed to serve?
I knew there was a totallydifferent level of a mission
(15:39):
that I was supposed to step intohere and, although I'm still
warning, I still have my dayswhen I miss them terribly.
But it was.
All of these messages startedcoming through after that and I
knew that there was something somuch bigger than me happening
and then I realized that Ineeded to have patience.
I wanted it all to happenbecause I'll be 65 this year and
(16:03):
I'm thinking, okay, I don'thave time.
I felt I'm older and I wasreally eager to get out there
and help people with this, butit wasn't quite time and it's
just slow down.
Have patience, let this unfold.
(16:25):
Let this all come to you,reveal to you, let this all come
to you, reveal to you, andthrough the journeys that I went
through the plant medicine andthat kind of thing it just
opened a whole new world to me.
And so now and just recentlyI'm saying like in the last
month is when everything cametogether and it's just been a
(16:47):
beautiful ride.
Speaker 1 (16:49):
I love that.
Speaker 2 (16:51):
And it's just been a beautiful ride.
I love that.
And it's still unfolding.
It's still we were talkingearlier the 1,094 days.
I get that.
Speaker 1 (17:00):
You're a few days in.
Speaker 2 (17:01):
I'm maybe 700 and something days in and it's still
not.
I think that's like a lifelongjourney, right?
It's not just something thatyou arrive at, you like in my
what I've put together.
You might earn your wings andfeel like you can fly all over
the place, but then sometimesyou have to go back into the
(17:23):
cocoon, you have to go back inand take care of that next layer
.
So you're in that dance betweenreally feeling like you could
take on the world and feelinglike, okay, here's another
layers coming up.
But with that new layer youhave more wisdom and you can get
through that next layer andyou're only given what your soul
(17:46):
knows that you can handle atthe time.
Speaker 1 (17:50):
I'm going to pause part one just here, because that
was profound what you justshared, and I want to honor that
memory for your family and yourlegacy because it's what you're
building.
But on a happy note and aforward note, you've got
something to share.
You've got celebrations with abook and other things going on
(18:13):
at the moment, haven't you?
Before we go into part two, isthere anything that you would
love to share with the audienceas a parting gift?
Not the book, because that'scoming next time.
So if you're watching thisgoing, I want the book come back
to part two to find out wherethe book is and all the rest of
it.
What is the message you wouldlove to share to the that person
(18:34):
now listening to this going?
Oh my god, that's me.
I need that support.
Who's that person?
What was?
What would the message be?
Speaker 2 (18:46):
I think for me, the the message was it was me like
when I had that call to go onthat healing journey, I answered
that call.
I not answered that call.
Then this last loss of losingthose two children so close
apart together I'm not sure Icould have gotten through that
(19:09):
at this, where I was at thatmoment.
That opened up, and we neverknow.
Things happen throughout ourlife.
We never know what we're goingto be faced with.
And when you feel that tug,when you feel like, yes, that's
me, then run with it, do thework, because it will give you a
(19:30):
whole new lease on life.
I really feel like at this pointthat you could throw anything
at me and it wouldn't phase me,because I look at everything as
what is it here to teach me?
And it's something that we needto listen to.
Our body, our body holds allthe pain, but it holds all the
(19:53):
wisdom and the answers too, andso how do we unlock that?
How do we get in there?
And that's what I teach is howto regulate the nervous system,
how to make sustainable changesthat you can move on with your
life with.
But the main thing is, if youreally feel that heaviness and
(20:14):
you know that you can't go onanother day feeling like this,
that it is possible to get theother side of it.
You just have to commit to itand agree and just make that
decision, that today is the daythat you make these changes for
yourself and for everybodyaround you.
Because I know when I healed itcaused a ripple effect.
(20:37):
It affected everyone in myenergetic field my family, my
husband, my.
I still have a son at home whowas my God's gift.
He got me through a lot of this.
Speaker 1 (20:54):
Yeah, I love that.
Thank you for sharing that Formy listeners.
Thank you very much for tuningin.
Please share this message,utilize this platform and really
understand and connect withVicki on a deeper level.
If you are resonating with this, go and follow her on LinkedIn.
Go and share this message tosomebody that's going to change
(21:15):
someone's life.
This is a podcast for you and asafe space for these
conversations.
Vicky, until part two and myaudience.
Thank you very much.
This is Arise from the Ashesand I appreciate every single
one of you for everything you do.
I'll speak to you very much.
This is a rise from the ashesand I appreciate every single
one of you for everything you do.
I'll speak to you very soon.
Thanks very much.
(21:35):
Have a blessed day.
See you soon.
Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to another episode of
Rise from the Ashes podcast.
How are you?
And welcome back.
I'm Baz Porter and I'm joinedby an amazing guest today named
Vicky Mendes.
She lives in the East Coast andher story just captivated me
Incredible, heroic andcompassionate.
(00:23):
So, vicky, without further ado,please say hello to the world,
say hello to the listeners, whoyou are and a bit about what you
do.
Speaker 2 (00:33):
My name is Vicki Menendez.
I take on the role as a solemidwife.
I'm not a coach, I'm not intothe transformation or anything
like that.
That is something that takestime to unravel and to unfold.
I have found through all of thetrials and the traumas that
(00:55):
I've gone through in my lifefrom starting off with being in
a dysfunctional home as a kidand feeling unsafe a
dysfunctional home as a kid andfeeling unsafe, and my father
actually taught us how to sing,how to harmonize, and I realized
(01:17):
just in the past year or sothat was his soul, giving us
that protective bubble aroundwhat was going on in our home,
in our space, in our home in ourenvironment, and that carried
me through all of my teenageyears.
I went through bullying as achild from the second grade all
the way up to high school and Iknow a lot of women can really
(01:37):
connect with that.
I've talked to a lot of womenthat have had that experience.
Sexual trauma as a teenager.
But my first true trauma waslosing a full-term stillborn at
20.
And at that time my awarenesslevel was pretty limited but it
(02:04):
did create this curiosity intothe spirit realm and what it all
meant.
But I never really processedthat trauma?
I thought I did, but it justcreated this distance.
I loved my kids.
I went on to have three morechildren with my ex-husband, but
I realized just recently that Ihad this distance.
(02:27):
I love them, but there was thatfear of loss always hanging out
there.
And so, fast forward to 2017, Idiscovered my son dead of a
drug overdose in a decomposedstate.
So that is a sight that youdon't unsee, and I was by myself
when I found him and I justit's like you're standing
(02:51):
outside yourself looking in, andit was a shock to my body.
Anytime you go through a traumalike that, it's a total shock
to your energetic field and toyour body in the whole.
A year later, I lost my dad and,at the very moment my sister
(03:13):
calls, my husband was in themiddle of having a heart attack.
So I lost him while my husbandwas having a heart attack was
having a heart attack, and ittook about two years for me to
realize that I needed some help.
I was looking at a picture ofmyself and, even though I had a
(03:37):
smile plastered on my face,there was pain written all over
me.
You could see it, and so Ihired a spiritual coach, I
learned so many tools.
I always leaned on 35 years ofself-care and wellness.
I grew up and was passionateabout that, since I was a
teenager and had spas and like.
I knew all of that andself-care was a big part of me
(04:01):
taking care of myself duringthis whole thing.
But the one thing I didn't knowwas the emotions, processing
those emotions and being able toembrace it all.
And so, in learning that, itprepared me for the biggest loss
, which was losing two children12 days apart.
(04:21):
I was in the hospital with mydaughter for 48 days before she
passed, and that experiencewalking into that hospital room
with the heightened awarenessand consciousness that I had
through my healing journey madeall the difference in how I
approached that whole situationand what I was able to see, what
(04:45):
was really revealed to meduring that whole time.
And even though my daughter wasin an induced coma, there was
communication there and it wasbeautiful.
And then I came home to mournher I'm in the middle of the
grocery store and get a callfrom the police station trying
to identify my son who had aseizure in the neighboring pool
(05:08):
and drowned, and he was 37.
And that was when it shatteredme, but that was when I was like
there's something more to this.
No one goes through somethinglike that without there being a
much bigger mission behind it.
And that's when, over the lastcouple years, it's just been
(05:33):
revealing itself, one layer at atime, and it's just being able
to see it for what it is, andthat the contracts that I had
with God, with all of mychildren we agreed to this
before I even stepped into thislife experience that this was
our experience, this is what wewere going to do for each other.
(05:57):
They gave me a profound storythat nobody can unhear yeah,
story that nobody can unhear.
I get the attention of thepeople that really need to hear
it.
And all of my kids went out ina way that, like my son going
out the way he did both of themand my daughters that's how they
(06:22):
would have gone out like in ablaze of thunder or with my
daughter spending 48 dayspulling all these people
together and making thesehealing environments for me and
her husband.
We were never fans of eachother.
She put us in a room for fivedays, 24-7, and we got to know
each other.
That was her orchestrating thatwhole thing.
And so when you really sit andlook at it.
(06:46):
I went over a timeline when Iwas in the hospital and it was
like I realized that everytrauma, every success that I had
, all of those things were justa part of a beautiful mosaic
that was just coming togetherand preparing me for what I was
about to step into.
Speaker 1 (07:05):
What you've just described is a beautiful journey
.
It has components to it thatare extremely challenging.
I have no comprehension overanything you're speaking into,
but it's the message behind itthat astounds me.
It's your courage that strikesme, because it isn't just it's
(07:30):
happening to me, vibe.
It's happening now, in thispresent time.
But how can I, what can I learnfrom it and how I, how can I
embody this?
And what's behind this?
There's a message or there's aphrase that was taught to me a
very long time ago and it wassimply said the pain, the
(07:51):
message, is in the pain, thepain is in the message.
But you took that to a wholedifferent level.
Most people in your situationwould have stayed in that frame
and grieved for many years.
I'm not taking away from thatand you are and you still
probably are.
I don't know, but what you'redoing with it is a goddamn
(08:15):
miracle, because you've takensomething and you've elevated it
and you've put the message outthere for other people to
understand, embody and grow from, which is just nuts, in my view
.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
I feel like that it's happening through me and
because there's some people whenthey're saying this happened to
me, everything happens for us,but can you get from everything
happening life is happening forus to life is happening through
me?
That's a whole different leveland I'm just honored that for
(08:53):
the longest time I was like me,I'm supposed to do this big
thing, I'm supposed to, and I'mlike, why not me?
Why not Just your everydayperson?
Nobody knows me, I'm nobodyfamous, but I think people
(09:15):
connect with everyday people andeveryday experiences, and so
I've really learned to reallyembrace what's being revealed to
me and how I'm stepping intothis, because I really feel like
that I have a mission, thatit's time for this to come
forward and for people to knowthat there is another side to
(09:37):
that grief and there's giftswrapped up all in.
But you have to sometimes gothrough the shadows into the
light.
Speaker 1 (09:45):
Without the shadow, you don't know what the light is
and this is the whole, thewhole components of the journey
is stepping into that shadowwork and understanding the
concepts of humanity, energy,connection, spirit, realm,
consciousness, superconsciousness.
There's so much layered upon it, but when you really open
(10:09):
yourself up to that journey,it's truly profound and it
sounds like you've experienced alot of that within your journey
.
Can you share a pivotal momentafter the incident?
I'm gonna call them thatbecause I don't want to detract
from anything that you've justshared.
Is there a pivotal moment afterthe incident that you remember
(10:32):
going?
I get it.
I truly get this now.
Speaker 2 (10:39):
A couple of times when I was in the hospital with
my daughter, a good friend ofmine said you need to talk to
this person.
She was like a spiritual guideand she was the first one that
said I really believe what I'mfeeling.
She said and my intuition istelling me that in this lifetime
(11:01):
you were supposed to see thebeauty in death.
To see the beauty in death,yeah, and I was like whoa.
That really resonated with meon a deep level and I started
(11:24):
looking at everything in adifferent way, like thinking
about the contracts I had withmy kids and the fact that they
met their contract.
But we're still walking thispath together because everything
that they had plans in theirlife and now I am their vessel.
When Wesley died of theoverdose, his art can speak to
both parents of addicts and tothe addicts themselves and
(11:48):
that's his message.
And I was writing an articleand realized when I was reading
it back to myself, he camethrough and was like Mom, this
is our contract, you aresupposed to be my vessel.
Think about it If he's standingon stage saying I almost died,
(12:11):
but I'm standing on stage sayingmy son did die.
It's a totally different levelwhere both either addicts or
parents of addicts feel it at atotally different level.
And then my daughter wanted tohelp people with addiction
through plant medicine.
(12:32):
I've experienced a lot of thatover the last couple of years
and it's been a heart-opener forme.
And then my son wanted to standon stage.
He wanted to share his story ofhis addictions and him coming
out as a gay man, and how hardthat was.
And so I'm standing on stagespeaking his message as well,
(12:58):
and so I just feel, like thisdance with my children, that I
didn't lose them.
We're just communicating on atotally different level.
That I didn't lose them.
We're just communicating on atotally different level.
And another time in the hospital, when we were about to put her
into comfort care, I went to getmy clothes because I knew I
would be in the hospital.
I might be in the hospital fora while.
(13:19):
They said a couple of days atthe most.
19 days later she's still there.
And so I was going back to myroom to get my clothes and I
felt this I'm like asking theuniverse where is my daughter
right now?
Where is she in her journey?
(13:40):
And all of a sudden I had thisburst of energy coming through
me.
It was like it came through myback and out from my heart
chakra and for just a moment Iwas sad.
And then, all of a sudden, thislaughter started coming through
.
I'm like I'm crying.
(14:00):
How could I be laughing rightnow?
And it was my daughter comingthrough.
She was saying Mom, I'm morethan okay, I am just pure
essence, I'm just pure love.
There's no judgment, there's noanger, there's none of those
(14:22):
lower level vibrations.
I'm all pure essence right now.
And how could I feel bad aboutthat?
How would it feel to be thereall the time?
And then, after my son, Idropped to my knees in the
grocery store when they told mewhat had happened.
Speaker 1 (14:43):
Sorry, Vicki, you were in the grocery store when
this happened.
Speaker 2 (14:46):
I was in the grocery store when the police station
called me and was trying toidentify my son.
Speaker 1 (14:53):
Oh, wow.
Speaker 2 (14:54):
Because somebody said I think I know who this is.
They find out how to get intouch with me and they were
trying to identify him by thetattoos he had on his body and I
knew, okay, something's reallywrong here.
So they finally divulged theinformation.
I dropped to my knees and I'mlike how could this be happening
(15:17):
?
It's 12 days.
It's hard.
What do you want from me?
But the first thing that cameto me was how am I supposed to
serve?
Was how am I supposed to serve?
I knew there was a totallydifferent level of a mission
(15:39):
that I was supposed to step intohere and, although I'm still
warning, I still have my dayswhen I miss them terribly.
But it was.
All of these messages startedcoming through after that and I
knew that there was something somuch bigger than me happening
and then I realized that Ineeded to have patience.
I wanted it all to happenbecause I'll be 65 this year and
(16:03):
I'm thinking, okay, I don'thave time.
I felt I'm older and I wasreally eager to get out there
and help people with this, butit wasn't quite time and it's
just slow down.
Have patience, let this unfold.
(16:25):
Let this all come to you,reveal to you, let this all come
to you, reveal to you, andthrough the journeys that I went
through the plant medicine andthat kind of thing it just
opened a whole new world to me.
And so now and just recentlyI'm saying like in the last
month is when everything cametogether and it's just been a
(16:47):
beautiful ride.
Speaker 1 (16:49):
I love that.
Speaker 2 (16:51):
And it's just been a beautiful ride.
I love that.
And it's still unfolding.
It's still we were talkingearlier the 1,094 days.
I get that.
Speaker 1 (17:00):
You're a few days in.
Speaker 2 (17:01):
I'm maybe 700 and something days in and it's still
not.
I think that's like a lifelongjourney, right?
It's not just something thatyou arrive at, you like in my
what I've put together.
You might earn your wings andfeel like you can fly all over
the place, but then sometimesyou have to go back into the
(17:23):
cocoon, you have to go back inand take care of that next layer
.
So you're in that dance betweenreally feeling like you could
take on the world and feelinglike, okay, here's another
layers coming up.
But with that new layer youhave more wisdom and you can get
through that next layer andyou're only given what your soul
(17:46):
knows that you can handle atthe time.
Speaker 1 (17:50):
I'm going to pause part one just here, because that
was profound what you justshared, and I want to honor that
memory for your family and yourlegacy because it's what you're
building.
But on a happy note and aforward note, you've got
something to share.
You've got celebrations with abook and other things going on
(18:13):
at the moment, haven't you?
Before we go into part two, isthere anything that you would
love to share with the audienceas a parting gift?
Not the book, because that'scoming next time.
So if you're watching thisgoing, I want the book come back
to part two to find out wherethe book is and all the rest of
it.
What is the message you wouldlove to share to the that person
(18:34):
now listening to this going?
Oh my god, that's me.
I need that support.
Who's that person?
What was?
What would the message be?
Speaker 2 (18:46):
I think for me, the the message was it was me like
when I had that call to go onthat healing journey, I answered
that call.
I not answered that call.
Then this last loss of losingthose two children so close
apart together I'm not sure Icould have gotten through that
(19:09):
at this, where I was at thatmoment.
That opened up, and we neverknow.
Things happen throughout ourlife.
We never know what we're goingto be faced with.
And when you feel that tug,when you feel like, yes, that's
me, then run with it, do thework, because it will give you a
(19:30):
whole new lease on life.
I really feel like at this pointthat you could throw anything
at me and it wouldn't phase me,because I look at everything as
what is it here to teach me?
And it's something that we needto listen to.
Our body, our body holds allthe pain, but it holds all the
(19:53):
wisdom and the answers too, andso how do we unlock that?
How do we get in there?
And that's what I teach is howto regulate the nervous system,
how to make sustainable changesthat you can move on with your
life with.
But the main thing is, if youreally feel that heaviness and
(20:14):
you know that you can't go onanother day feeling like this,
that it is possible to get theother side of it.
You just have to commit to itand agree and just make that
decision, that today is the daythat you make these changes for
yourself and for everybodyaround you.
Because I know when I healed itcaused a ripple effect.
(20:37):
It affected everyone in myenergetic field my family, my
husband, my.
I still have a son at home whowas my God's gift.
He got me through a lot of this.
Speaker 1 (20:54):
Yeah, I love that.
Thank you for sharing that Formy listeners.
Thank you very much for tuningin.
Please share this message,utilize this platform and really
understand and connect withVicki on a deeper level.
If you are resonating with this, go and follow her on LinkedIn.
Go and share this message tosomebody that's going to change
(21:15):
someone's life.
This is a podcast for you and asafe space for these
conversations.
Vicky, until part two and myaudience.
Thank you very much.
This is Arise from the Ashesand I appreciate every single
one of you for everything you do.
I'll speak to you very much.
This is a rise from the ashesand I appreciate every single
one of you for everything you do.
I'll speak to you very soon.
Thanks very much.
(21:35):
Have a blessed day.
See you soon.
Popular Podcasts
On Purpose with Jay Shetty
I’m Jay Shetty host of On Purpose the worlds #1 Mental Health podcast and I’m so grateful you found us. I started this podcast 5 years ago to invite you into conversations and workshops that are designed to help make you happier, healthier and more healed. I believe that when you (yes you) feel seen, heard and understood you’re able to deal with relationship struggles, work challenges and life’s ups and downs with more ease and grace. I interview experts, celebrities, thought leaders and athletes so that we can grow our mindset, build better habits and uncover a side of them we’ve never seen before. New episodes every Monday and Friday. Your support means the world to me and I don’t take it for granted — click the follow button and leave a review to help us spread the love with On Purpose. I can’t wait for you to listen to your first or 500th episode!
Stuff You Should Know
If you've ever wanted to know about champagne, satanism, the Stonewall Uprising, chaos theory, LSD, El Nino, true crime and Rosa Parks, then look no further. Josh and Chuck have you covered.
The Joe Rogan Experience
The official podcast of comedian Joe Rogan.