October 2, 2025 • 58 mins
Episode 4: Extortion, Exposure & Taking Back Control
In this episode, I answer the five W’s and one H—who, what, when, where, why, and how—of my transformation from “good girl” to a globally recognized figure in the world of financial domination.
I share the true story of being targeted by extortion: how a man attempted to expose and control me, and how I reclaimed my power by taking ownership of the narrative. This episode explores the legal, emotional, and psychological consequences of visibility, including restraining orders, court involvement, and the cost of living outside social norms.
I also discuss the wide spectrum of extreme fantasies I’ve encountered in my work—not for shock value, but to illustrate the depth, risk, and responsibility inherent in navigating taboo desires. The episode closes with a candid discussion of consensual roleplay involving race, power, and historical trauma, and the importance of agency, boundaries, and context in adult dynamics.
This is an episode about autonomy, consequence, and the moment a woman stops hiding.
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OK, this is what we're going to do.
You are going to turn on your Cam.
You're going to sit down on the toilet.
I'm going to watch you slowly undress yourself.
You're going to go over to the sink, take your wife's hair
brush. You're going to whack your cock
about five times for your insubordinates, for your
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inability to follow my fucking rules.
And now you're going to sit downand you're going to watch porn
and I'm going to bring you rightto the edge of fucking insanity
and I'm going to deny you. So I'm opening today's episode
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with As They say in broadcast journalism.
If any of you've studied broadcast journalism, any good
news story or story starts with the five WS and 1H Who, what,
when, where and why. So we're going to start.
Oh, and how? 5 WS in one age.
That's it. Yeah, who, what, when, where,
why and how? Who am I?
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My name is Pamela, but I'm professionally known as the
Violatrix. I am a 20 year thin Dom, which
means financial dominatrix. Now this falls under the
category of kink and fetish and adult content.
Why, Who, what, when, where, why?
Why am I doing the podcast? I'm doing the podcast because
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when it was discovered who I am and what I do, the popular
medium platform that people werediscovering me on was TikTok.
And TikTok was not so thrilled about my content.
So they took down several viral accounts of mine until I was
forced to move to a different platform medium.
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Which is what brings me to the podcast.
When this all happened within the last like 8 to 10 months
when it was discovered what I dofor a living because I had a
very popular TikTok platform that dealt in strictly plastic
surgery. And when it was discovered, what
I did that became far more popular than speaking about
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plastic surgery. So that's the other part of
this. Now remember my my podcast
series we're this is episode 4. So we're three in that are up on
Spotify and Apple. It's almost like an anthology
series. If you're not following along,
if you haven't listened to the others, please go back and hear
the first 3 because a lot of this will not make sense to you
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if you're just joining on this one.
And why also did I come out withthis data?
Well, that's a several pronged answer.
The first answer is that my father passed away a few years
ago. I for 20 years, my father was
completely unaware that this is what I did for a living.
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I am in a very fortunate situation where I do not have to
work. So it wasn't a situation where
he was like, where's your money coming from type of thing.
But it was very much underground.
I remember a time where I moved back to Hershey and lived close
to my father and he was coming by every morning for coffee and
I finally had to look at him andsay, Dad, I have a business, I
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work from home and I'm I talk over the phone with men about
things that you probably wouldn't find aligned with your
value system. So if that is not something that
you want to talk further about, then you have to stop.
You know, kind of popping into my house unexpected.
And that was the most that I ever addressed it.
But coming out publicly in the way that I have with my book,
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The Financial Dominatrix, The Ultimate Financial Domination
Guide, which again, my followerson TikTok asked me to write
this. I wrote this book in 10 days
very quickly. This book is not going to
entertain you if you're looking for this salacious, tell all
story, the back story and all the nitty gritty, disgraceful
and disgusting things, salaciousthings that I see here and have
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my clients do. That will be my next book and
hopefully a Netflix series if I am so lucky.
But this book is really just forthe women who want to learn how
to do what I do. So the bottom line is why am I
coming now with this? Why is this at this late stage
of my life becoming popular? Well, again, because my father
had passed away. So I have the freedom to come
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out with this to again, if you watch my other series, the other
episodes, you know that my daughters had asked me to come
forward because there were several women going viral on
TikTok selling courses, a scam courses saying that they were
fandoms you can work from home and they were selling bad
information. I've had several women that came
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to me for a console. They booked a consult through my
website because they bought these scam courses and they were
taken. And, and the bottom line is my
whole platform is women helping women.
I'm not out here doing this to gain exposure to gain fame.
I have very little to actually gain from this.
If anything, it's opened up myself and my family, my
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children to a lot of criticism and ridicule, but nothing will
ever stop me from helping. The women who want the
information need the informationbecause ultimately this is a
perfect side hustle. Or you know, money making
opportunity for women who are ina tight spot.
Women who are single moms, they want to work from home.
They don't have to hire a babysitter.
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It's no overhead or low overhead, basically actually 0
overhead. And it's, it was able to Get Me
Out of a tight, tight spot. And that's what these are the
values that I espouse and what Iwant to be happening.
So, and there's another reason why I came out with this and
someone underneath, I believe itwas my Spotify podcast comment
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section. Someone asked me to address this
specifically. So I am going to address this a
few years ago, and this is a very cautionary tale.
I want you to know that if you've ever seen my TikTok
lives, this comes up a lot. This is for the women who want
to learn how to do what I do. If you want to work in the adult
industry, the three O 4 industryPSO phone sex operator, which is
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really what I am. If you want to be a Cam girl an
OF model or if you are literallyin the full service sex worker
three O 4 industry, it would behoove you to tell no one.
And this is the cautionary tale that I tell.
When my older daughter, who is now 20, was about 5 years old,
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she was attending a Christian daycare in Hershey, PA called
the Fishburne Flock. And I had a woman who was a, her
son was good friends with my daughter and she was single.
She was a single mom. She was struggling and I said to
her, well, I have a way for you to get out of your struggles and
to help you make ends meet. And she's like, what is it?
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So I send her the link to my primary platform, whom I still
work for. My primary source of income is
from one specific platform whichwill it would shall remain
nameless right now. And she was intrigued and I told
her some more information. About a week or so later I found
out that she had gone back and told all of the other mothers
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what I did. She had sent them my listing,
which had some, they weren't X-rated photos, but there was
some racy photos advertising my listing.
And what ended up happening was I became kind of blacklisted.
I became the black sheep of thisFishburne flock and the other
mothers stopped inviting my daughter to birthday parties and
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outings and we would be at the swimming pool and the women
would be whispering and talking.So as I tell any woman who's
considering doing this, don't tell anyone.
Keep it to yourself. Don't try to help another woman
unless you really know what you're doing.
Or if you want to help a woman, just send her to me.
The violatrix say I there's thiswoman on TikTok St. to siren.
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She's on Instagram. She has a free master class on
YouTube. But do not put yourself in a
position where someone will be able to extort you.
Which brings me to my last why reason of why I'm doing this
podcast. Several years ago I made a
friend here in Vegas. I thought he was gay.
I still think he's gay. But now I'm not really sure if
he's gay by or what he is. But he had a very petty jealousy
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towards me which didn't really manifest.
It didn't show itself till well into the friendship.
So at the time, this was severalyears ago.
This is like 5-6 years ago. My kids were younger and I
really liked doing my phone calls away from the house.
So he was single and he had an apartment and I would go over to
his apt, I would drink red wine and I would enjoy myself and
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then he would get a kick out of me doing my phone calls in front
of him. He also was in IT.
So he was able to bring me some really phenomenal equipment,
which had a great Cam because I not only do phone with my
clients, I also do Cam as well. So we would make a really fun
evening of this. It was to the point where
sometimes I was going over therefive nights a week and use it,
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utilizing his apartment and doing these fun phone calls.
Well, at some point I had a client named Joe in Chicago.
Joe's not his real name. And Joe was kind of a weird guy.
He would spend like 45 minutes telling me that I was the most
beautiful thing on the planet. And then the last half an hour
he'd be like, oh, tell me, Mistress, you're going to flog
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me with ABBC with a black man, and you're going to make this
black man bend me over and do terrible thing.
Like it would just immediately switch.
And this person, we'll call him Benny, this person Benny really
enjoyed listening to Joe's calls.
And Joe, Joe spent a lot of money and he again, I'm 399 a
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minute. So with the most of the clients
that are calling me are very wealthy.
Most of my clients are lawyers. Why I'm not really sure what
goes hand in hand with that profession.
But Benny took it upon himself to go into his bathroom and use
the mirror and put it point his phone at the mirror where I
couldn't see him and he was recording me.
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So at a point where Benny started exhibiting some less
than copacetic, less than mannerly, gentlemanly behavior,
I ended the friendship. When I did, he sent me a series
of emails because I had blocked him.
And he sent me a series of emails with the videos of me
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speaking to Joe, the attorney inChicago, about his BBC
obsession, me being recorded in a very unflattering light.
I think I was more upset that I looked so shitty on camera than
I was about him exposing Joe. But no, seriously, it's it was
equally bad. Yeah, equally bad.
But he had these videos because he's in IT.
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He had these videos sent with a it was ready to be sent to my
daughter's school, the Meadows Private School in Las Vegas,
where we paid like $30,000 a year for my daughter to go.
The guy from Imagine Dragons, his kids go there.
The girl from Lee's, Lee's Liquor, like the most
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prestigious families in Vegas, their children go there.
My daughter was friends with them and Benny had put the
videos in. In the memo, in the subject
line, it said, this is the mother of one of your prestige
esteemed students because my daughter is autistic and she is
a genius. So she's very well known in that
school. And in the video he's about to
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press send on these videos that he took without my permission.
Yes, they were in his apartment.So I said what?
What is it that you want? And he gave me his list of
things that he wanted. This was the most full blown
extortion case I had ever encountered.
So I tried to appease him. I tried to ask him to go to a
notary with me when we we settled things and I said go to
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a notary and say that you will never threaten my family again.
He refused to do it and it endedup in a very ugly situation and
I was able to press charges. The DA took the case and we went
to court. Now, let me tell you how
unpleasant this was. Not only did I have to face him
in court a few years ago, a few years after this whole thing,
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and I lived with the fear that he was going to out me with
these videos because he's in IT.He could have put my videos on
an offshore server. He could have done anything.
So the DA took the case, we go to court.
This was last November. I ended up winning the case, but
not before a massive amount of therapy and PTSD.
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Again, not for my own safety andconcern, but for my innocent
children, my innocent family whohad nothing to do with this.
Benny had gone so far as to callmy father before he passed away.
My father was very ill at the time he called my father's
house. He had a very thick Israeli
accent, so my father couldn't understand what he was saying,
which to this day we don't understand what he was saying.
But he found my father's unlisted number.
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He found my brother and sister on Facebook and also sent them
the videos. By this time, I had enough
knowledge to say to my brother and sister, if you receive
anything from Benny on Instagramor Facebook, do not open it
because it could be a virus because he's in IT.
So I was able to cover that. So nobody, nobody opened
anything and they all sent me the evidence.
I won the case and just so you know, and this is again where
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you don't want to end up in this, during my examination, my
questioning from his lawyer while I'm on the stand, an
entire high school class, they thought it would be a really
good idea to bring a high schoolclass in that day.
So the high school class is sitting in the back of the
courtroom. I'm sobbing, reading his emails.
The prosecution, the DA had me reading these emails, You stupid
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bitch cunt. You pay for this.
And I'm reading all of this while the high school students
are looking at me, staring at me.
I've got makeup streaming down my face.
In a bizarre twist of fate, he ended up taking the stand, which
he never should have done. And he sunk himself completely
by being a total misogynist to the judge, speaking out of turn,
insulting everybody in the courtroom, and then claiming
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that he's not AUS citizen so he doesn't understand the process.
I won the case. I won it last November.
I still have a restraining orderagainst him.
That restraining order lifts this November where I am
expecting the other shoe to drop.
I'm expecting that because he never got to expose me in the
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manner that he wanted to. I'm expecting that to kind of
drop this November. So this is a long roundabout way
of me explaining to you because of Benny trying to extort me,
because my father had passed away.
And with the Benny extortion, itmade sense for me to come out
and have my narrative told, haveit framed in the way I wanted it
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framed. Either I was going to control
the narrative or Benny was goingto control the narrative.
I had no choice at this point but to come out with this
because there's one way or another, he was going to out me.
So my cautionary tale to you ladies who are listening to this
and following me on my social media and taking my free YouTube
master class is keep it. Play it close to the vest like a
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poker player. Play your cards close to the
vest. Don't tell anybody what you do.
And if you are a single mother, remember first and foremost that
anything involving the adult industry and the sex industry
will compromise your family. So it should be kept very
discreet and I hope that helps. So did I get through The Who,
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what, when, where, why, how, howyou, how I became a fandom.
You have to watch or listen to the 2 three previous episodes
and that gives you the whole thing on how.
So I want to address another thing that's often in my
comments. What is going on with my hair?
I had very long hair. And then the day before I was
scheduled to shoot this podcast,a very common Las Vegas thing
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happened to me. My hairdresser ended up in
prison. So I very quickly switched and
went to another hairdresser who said, you know, your hair is
damaged, we need to cut it off. So I ended up with very short
hair. My clients went crazy.
I did not. I came across like, what's that
one girl on on Charlie Brown or on not Charlie Brown?
Well, yeah, the one nerdy girl on Charlie Brown or the one on
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scooby-doo with the Velma? I looked like Velma on camera.
So I was like, OK, that's it. We're going back to the long
hair. So that's what's going on there.
I did not plan on having all this change of look, but but my
hairdresser was in prison to andyes, I do have a new
hairdresser. Thank you guys for asking.
I forgot to mention in my last episode where I talked about my
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father not agreeing with me becoming pregnant at 33 and
deciding to have a baby on my own which is him ruining me is
what led to me ending up in the adult industry trying to climb
out of the welfare system, get myself off of welfare.
I was working 2-3 jobs and I fell into this by seeing an ad
in the New York Times. I forgot to mention the reason
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why my father was able to do this to me was even though I
just wanted a baby and wanted tobe a single mother, which of
course did not agree with him atall.
I had no intention of getting married.
My daughters father was an Italian soccer player from
Uruguay, Uruguay, South America and when my father evicted me at
almost 8 months pregnant, he subsequently exactly with razor
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sharp execution, he had my daughter's father arrested, held
in insurance detention and then deported 3 months later.
So that was an important piece of this story that we kind of
ties together why and how I ended up in the situation that I
ended up in. He was deported and then all we
know is that he at some point went to Mexico and then he
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passed away. And the details surrounding that
to this day are still a mystery.So that solves that.
When you guys are listening to my podcast and you have
questions, whether you're men that are following me because
you would like a session or you're one of my clients and you
would like your story mentioned,please write comments under my
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Spotify podcast episode. And that will help me to
organize myself for the next podcast so that I'm sure to hit
everything that you want in content.
I am only as strong with my content as the questions that
you're asking me. I am a wealth of knowledge.
I am a full Alexandria library level of wealth, knowledge of
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smut, filth, fin doming, cammingOF anything sex industry.
But if you're not asking me the questions, I don't know what to
cover and I don't think to coverit.
So you have to be active and andtell me and ask me.
And please never slide into my DMS.
My DMS on TikTok and Instagram are a gauntlet of of nightmares
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of den of iniquity, iniquity. I wanted to mention that my
podcast studio here in Las Vegas, whom are amazing, owned
by a gentleman named Trevin, andhe has been 100% any success
that I'm having, he's behind it.He's been holding my hand
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literally every step of the way.He had suggested to me that if I
wanted to see a real professional podcast and see
what goes on behind the scenes, perhaps I should reach out to
the At Whatever podcast, which is hosted by a gentleman named
and gentleman. I use that phrase very loosely
here. The gentleman's name is Brian
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Atlas. I want to first say that my
intentions going in bringing myself, my daughter, one of my
students who is a full three O 4full service sex worker and my
daughter's best friend ended up in the IT resulted in the
biggest bloodbath I've ever beena part of.
I was annihilated. Verbally, aesthetically.
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Emotionally, I tried to go head to head with this former Vine
star underground secret Republican or secret liberal
who's pandering to his audience that he is a Republican.
And I'm going to do a subsequentepisode on this and I might even
bring people and I the two important points that I would
like to make here 1 is that if any young women are out there
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who are considering doing the atwhatever podcast with Brian
Atlas and his skinny, probably my guess is bisexual helper
named Nick because he was flirting with everybody that was
involved on the set. Men, women, it didn't matter.
But if you're considering it, I want you to strongly reconsider
it because it's the biggest baitand switch I have ever seen in
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the industry. And there was a time where I was
a Hollywood talent manager for several years.
I represented a few really big names in Hollywood, someone in
the Sheen family and I, I was a Hollywood talent manager.
Also being a PSO worker at night.
Just so you know, it's not like I had multiple career and
multiple careers at different time.
I was, I've never stopped doing my PSO work, but I want you to
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know that someone who's very connected and adept in
Hollywood, in the ways of Hollywood, I've never seen
anything like this shit show that the Whatever podcast was.
I would strongly recommend any woman, young woman, older woman,
woman of color who's consideringgoing on that.
Really do your due diligence because it's a setup and you
will be told to come on for one topic and then what you actually
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end up being asked about is completely out of left field.
You'll be ill prepared for it and it's set up that way
completely misogynistically to make you look like an idiot.
What he likes to do is bring on girls and make them look stupid,
Sound stupid. People that cannot match his
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level of conversation, his levelof autism.
And I don't say that with any disrespect because I'm married
to someone with autism. I gave birth to someone with
autism. I find autism to be a
superpower. However, when it's used
incorrectly, which is what he's doing, he should be shamed for
it. So I want you to send this out
to everybody that you can that'sconsidering doing the Whatever
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podcast. And lastly, he is making a name
for himself. Right now he's capitalizing off
the Charlie Kirk name. He says that Charlie Kirk was
one of his best friends and I want to be very clear that no
best friend of Charlie Kirk's that loved and cared for him
would be asking the girls in thepodcast who are clearly full
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service sex workers about Charlie Kirk.
OK, bringing his death into thisand 11 girl likening Charlie to
Hitler. Now, this girl was confused and
she was young, and Brian Atlas used this young woman's
comparison of Charlie Kirk to Hitler as the sound bite and the
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title of his YouTube channel. So the fact of the matter is
Charlie is kind of hanging on for, you know, grim death onto
whatever is left of the Charlie Kirk legacy of him being on his
show. He's pandering, he is
exploiting, and he is absolutelymuddying the memory of Charlie
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by even allowing such things to be said on his podcast.
I want you to take a good look at that because does that sound
like somebody who is holding hisesteemed friend and colleague
and political adversary in high regard, high esteem?
Doesn't sound like it to me. So, Brian, I hope you're
watching this. I hope you know that I am coming
for you. Double barrel both.
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I am so ready to come at you with the same fervor and vapid
reasoning that you came at me with and the word salad.
So just be ready because I'm coming for you.
Fucking asshole. There was a big New York Times
post this week on last week on Instagram and it was talking
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about a doctor in the UK. His name was Doctor Neil Hopper,
age 49, and his sexual fetish was having his legs amputated
and he did so successfully aftera combination of submerging his
legs for 8 plus hours in a combination of dry ice and then
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warm water and back and forth I believe until his legs
manifested this combination of what probably looked like
gangrene and then had his legs amputated.
And then I believe that the controversy couldn't.
The controversy didn't come in at the fact that he was getting
off by being legless because that was his fetish.
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The controversy came in because he tried to make insurance pay
for his leg removal leg and he'strying to cash in with
insurance. So the the false insurance
claims, I guess or what did thisguy in?
But I want you to understand something that's very important.
There is a kink, A fetish for almost anything that you could
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think of. And when I do these podcasts or
when I am talking on social media, I want a very clear
distinction between the fact that I know a lot about fetishes
and kinks, many of which are nowbanned in the USA and most
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countries except for probably Germany.
Germany allows everything, but just because I know about them,
I've spoken to men about them and or have seen them on camera,
does not mean that I support allof this.
And that was one of the things that Brian Atlas was, you know,
able to come at me about was that I am, you know, supporting
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the sex industry and the degradation.
I, I had my nails done yesterdayand the woman was saying, you
need more Christianity. And I was like, no, I'm good.
I'm very Catholic and my great grandfather founded a Baptist of
the Bible Baptist Church in Passaic, NJ which still has a
thriving congregation today. This is nothing to do with
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religion. This is out there.
Who are my clients? Who is interested in this stuff?
Clearly the plus this doctor in the UK, lawyers, surgeons, the
guy next door, your boss, your top employee and the the
Kingston fetishes are widely varied.
So do I support all of them? Absolutely not.
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Do I have my hard limits? Absolutely yes.
Right off the top. I can tell you without without
even having to say it. Obviously anything that deals in
age play is a hard no, but I shouldn't have to say that blood
play anything. Bathroom play.
And what's my third? Blood, bathroom and drugs used
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to be a hard line for me, but I can't be a hypocrite.
Until a few years ago, I had an Asian gentleman from San
Francisco. Ironically, he also was a lawyer
and he booked me for three days.I may it was like 34000A day for
three days and I didn't know what he was doing.
I I'd never seen meth smoke. I didn't know what you do with
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meth. So it wasn't until like a day
into this three day extravaganzawith this guy, this non-stop
rant of of phone and Cam sex forhim that I realized I was like,
what is that? He's like it's meth.
So my advice to you would be if you know you are dealing in
clients who deal in drugs, make sure you ask what they're on,
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how they're going to be doing it.
Because I had a hard line about no drugs, but the meth lawyer
kind of threw that out the window.
And I, I honestly, I wouldn't say that I enjoy, I certainly
did not enjoy it. I almost died after each day of
phone calls because someone who's on drugs will run you into
the ground. They talk non-stop.
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As a matter of fact, I'm going to bring up my one client in
Australia. I'm not going to say his name,
but I have a very successful client in Australia whom I
probably talked to as often as Iblock him.
I know you're watching. I know you're listening.
I know you were curious if I wasgoing to cover you say yes, I
am. I adore this guy to pieces.
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He he gifts me and spoils me on levels I cannot tell you, but he
often enjoys doing cocaine on our calls.
And of course, he's trying to hide it from me.
Now I know better. But when these guys are doing
meth or cocaine, they become superhuman in their ability to
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stay awake, stay stimulated, talk a blue streak.
So just know that if you're going to be getting into a
client like that or you're goingto be allowing it, you have to
expect erratic behavior. You have to punish them for
their for any time that they step out of line anytime that
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they are insubordinate or not speaking, behaving, acting in
the in the manner that a good submissive should.
So know that. But again, getting back to my
hard lines, the drugs was a hardline before, but now some are
slipping through with it. But it also brings me to a
client that I had recently, I think I had mentioned to you
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guys in a previous podcast, I'veturned down to clients in the
last month that had force feeding addiction fetish, which
is where they want me to force feed them greasy pizza, like eat
a whole sleeve of cookie, eat a whole, you know, box of Donuts
and force feeding them. And them becoming so slovenly,
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zaftigly, morbidly obese. That is the obsession.
I cannot deal with that because I feel like I would be burning
in hell. Like I'd be going straight to
hell with that, with that addiction.
I never had like a skinny guy come at me and be like, I have a
force feed addiction, force feedaddiction.
It's always a guy who is like a minimum 300 lbs.
So typically what I would do is ask for their height, weight and
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age and I'd put it in ABMI calculator and I'm like, no,
you're like 1 doughnut away froma heart attack and I'm not
having blood on my hands. So I do turn those down.
I also had a gentleman in the last few months who lives in
Santa Barbara, very wealthy man,older man, and he came at me
with something that I had never had any experience in.
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And this is called sounding. And this, when he called me and
began explaining that he likes to stick things in the tip of
his urethra, which is the opening of your penis where you
pee from. I was like, OK, can you tell me
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a little bit more? And as he was talking, I
remembered being in the Love Store in Vegas a few years ago,
which was right next to my plastic surgeon.
So I went in to see what kind oflike food bar and night gowns
they had and boy, oh boy, they had this glass case with these
instruments that these medical instruments, they looked like,
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if you ever see like a Nutcracker set that has the
little pointy poker thing that gets like the really hard to
reach parts of the nuts, a walnut open, that's what they
looked like. And they were gold and they were
silver and they were getting behind the glass.
And I said to the girl, what is this?
And she's like, oh, that's for medical play.
And I was like, what does one dowith this?
She's like, oh, that's inserted into the urethra Mithra.
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And I'm like, I I didn't think Ihad ever had a client who wanted
it with this gentleman did and he wanted to do it for me on
Cam. I couldn't quite stomach that,
but I used that phone call as a learning lesson for me and I
asked him a lot of information about the sounding.
So these gentlemen are fetishists, kingsters, clients
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that would like they they deriveintense pleasure from sticking
something from sounding stickingsomething inside their urethra
canal in the penis. So is that something I deal
with? Typically?
No. And I, I was mentioning this to
someone recently. If you, if you know anything
about if you've watched my YouTube videos, you know that I
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am not a dominatrix. I I'm not a classic dominatrix.
I am not here to beat you with whips and chains and put on a
strap on and fuck you in the assor fuck you in the mouth.
Which is of course something that all of my clients request.
And when a fantasy goes there, Iam very clear with my clients
that if you even want to talk about me fucking you in the
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mass, in the ass or in the mouth, it's actually going to
happen. I'm going to outsource it in the
fantasy. So yes, we're in a hotel suite
and I am drinking, you know, a $500 bottle of champagne and
I've got my stilettos on and I'mshoving it in your mouth.
I'm kicking you in the back, I'mkicking you to the floor.
I'm, you know, spitting in your mouth.
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I'm slapping across the face. But there's a ring at the door,
a knock on the door. And that's going to be the full
service sex worker who's coming to ram you in the ass or the guy
that I just connected you with off of Tinder or Grinder or I
put an ad on Craigslist and there's a bevy of men waiting
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out in the hallway to have theirway with you in every orifice in
your body. I outsource it even in fantasy.
You will there will never be a time that you will hear me say,
oh, let me go get my strap on and fuck you in the ass of the
mouth. That's not my thing.
I am more and and overall I'm more of a sensual Dom than a
sadistic Dom. Do not mistake me though, do not
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get mistake. And I can be very sadistic,
especially when it comes to my blackmail extortion play
clients. That is one of my absolute
favorites where I go and find their wives on Facebook or I
have their wives e-mail. And then and we used to use this
thing called Teamviewer where I could take control of their
their desktop computer and I could drain their bank account
while they're watching or I could go into their wives, you
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know, send their wife and whatever.
But blackmail and extortion, I can become very nasty violence
sadistic with that particular fetish.
Excuse me, but overall I do not tend to be I'm not the Dom who's
going to strap you to a cross strap you in the bathroom, you
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know, give you the swirly, you know, fuck your mouth with a
big, you know, 12 inch strap on dildo.
If if you are coming to me for that, you've got the wrong Dom.
I had mentioned in my in my Instagram, I had a clip of a
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client talking about a client that came to me because he went
on a camping trip with his friend when he was a teenager
and the friend's father had molested him, had sexually
assaulted him as a young boy. And this particular client used
to call me to kind of work through that scenario because
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unfortunately it still turned him on and that was a big source
of conflict for him. So I had a client, a potential
client. I had a gentleman see this on
Instagram and wrote right under the Instagram post, this
happened to me. I was abused by my stepfather.
How can I reach you? And I was like, please don't
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slide into my Instagram. Just don't bother Instagramming
like in boxing me on Instagram. I'll never read it.
But I said go to my website. He went to my website.
He booked that session so quickly and he was, can you do
me now? Can you do it now?
And I was like, actually, no, I don't have time.
But he was so insistent. So I said, I'll tell you what, I
will take the call in an hour and let me get the data.
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This guy was 44 or 46 years old.He lives down South.
He's a black gentleman. So I'm going to say something
right now that my podcast studioowner Trevin may have to edit
out. It may make it in.
This is going to be up to him, but I'm going to say something
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that is going to be so controversial it could get me
cancelled immediately off the Internet.
This client, when we did the session, he said I want you to
call me the N word often. And again, he's a black
gentleman. I want you to be a plantation
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owner and I want to be working the fields, living in the barn,
working in the slave quarter, living in the slave quarters.
And I want you to abuse me. And typically the he's not.
This is not my first black client with a fetish with a kink
to be called the N word and to be abused by myself, the white
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plantation owner. Which is like hilarious because
like no one in my family historywould ever have been accused as
being a plantation owner. Like typically you'd find the
blonde blue eyed, you know mistress for that.
But they want me to be married to the house master of course.
And then the house master and myself abuse this client.
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This is, I don't think you will find a fendom, A femdom, A
domina, A dominatrix who's goingto admit to this.
And what this gentleman said to me is when he told me I want to
be your slave and I want you to use the N word over and over
again. I was like, oh, I know exactly
what you want because I've had clients have this before.
Typically these are black men, but I've had a few white men
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want to role play as this a go figure.
And no, it's not my jerking for Jesus client.
If you don't know about my jerking for Jesus Bible Belt
client, you're going to have to watch the previous episodes.
But we did the slave master, theplantation mistress role play
and he was, you know, yes, ma'am, yes, I'm yes, ma'am, like
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the whole thing. And he was really into it.
And then when we were done, I said, let's talk about this and
and I encouraged him to see a traditional therapist because
again, if you guys don't realize, I do not have a
master's in psychology. I am not a psychiatrist in MDI,
have no professional training. I have 30 rough years of my own
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therapy that I bring to the table and I'm very self aware.
But I am not a clinically approved and trained therapist,
although many have used me as such.
So, and this is an important thing that I want to bring to
the table, that this gentleman had been abused by his
stepfather and it was manifesting in a way that he
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wanted to be abused by me. It kind of dovetailed or it kind
of incorporated the black, the racism theme.
And one of the things that he said to me was my stepfather was
very black and he was very big and he walked around.
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I guess this would have been the70's, the late 70s, early 80s,
given, given the gentleman's age.
And he said my, my stepfather was hung like a horse.
So when you incorporate all of these details, now you have a
strong black man who was not related to him, who was abusing
him, who walked around the housenaked.
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So you see the themes of childhood trauma, you see the
themes of seeing a grown man naked with a big giant cock that
you've never seen before. And now something is stirring in
this prepubescent adolescent that is stimulating the senses
in a way that they hadn't seen before.
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The strength, the dominance coupled with the abuse is the
perfect cocktail for creating a completely fucked up sexual
dysfunction individual who will forever intertwine and not be
able to not be able to separate out the abuse from the the race,
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from the sexual confusion, from the need to need to be accepted
and loved. All of it is the perfect
cocktail to make a monster. And in this case, what brought
him to me was that his girlfriend of many years has no
idea about this, which I encouraged him to a get
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traditional therapy. He may continue talking to me,
but get traditional therapy. And once you're in therapy,
begin mentioning to your girlfriend about the abuse you
sustained from your stepfather. And that's going to be the best
way to move forward with this because it's not something you
can carry alone. And the human mind doesn't like
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repression. The human mind gets its calling
card. All dues will be paid to the
human mind in any trauma and suffering you suffered as a
child. Eventually they will come to the
front. And one way or another, the
human mind will make you deal with it.
And his is coming out now. And the reason he said it's
coming out now is he said that his need for abuse porn was
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getting out of control, something that a lot of men
don't know about and a lot of women who follow me, this is a
favorite when they discover thatI do this, something that I do
is called silent calls or ignoreline.
So ignore line is when a client,a submissive man wants to you
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know, he finds you so alluring, so beautiful, so powerful that
he does not feel worthy of your time or attention.
And and again, remember this is what is all the kinks and
fetishes that I deal with. They're all steeped in the man
wanting to be oppressed, wantingto be submissive to this
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beautiful, strong, intelligent, powerful, wealthy woman.
And what's funny is as I've gotten older, I've gotten more
popular. I had no idea.
My husband, I got in an argumentduring COVID and I was like, I
need more cash. And he's like, you want more
cash, go back to PSO work. I was like, you got it, mother
fucker, and you got it. And when I went back, I was
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like, oh damn, I was more popular than I ever had been in
my 30s. I was like in my 20s and 30s I
was like, this is crazy. But the clients are getting
younger and younger and what I find now is 20 somethings are
actually calling me. I mean the 20 something
generation is is a hang on my bangs are all fucked up.
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The 20 something generation right now is, is a whole
different animal than any of thepreceding generations.
They seem to be very in touch with who they are not afraid,
they're out and proud. And it's not shrouded in dark
shadows and mystery the way mostof my, say, Gen.
X clients or even millennial clients are.
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And, and by the way, I have found very commonly that when a
man gets to about 35, a man who has a, a kink, A fetish for
being teased, denied, dominated,extorted, blackmailed, CBT, cock
and ball torture, pantyhose fetish, foot fetish, whatever
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the fetish or the kink is, when they get to about 3540, that's
like the sweet spot. They've had their kids, they've
spent 20 some years in a vanillamarriage and they're like, oh
shit, my time in this earth is, is now is now winding down.
I need something for myself. And those guys that are in the
35 to 40 range, those, those guys will spend insane amounts
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of time and money. So if you get a client, This is
why it's always important to vetyour clients.
But getting back to my silent calls and my ignore line.
So an ignore line is when you literally pick up the phone and
you say nothing to them and thenyou put the phone down and you
go about your day. You're watching shows, you're
streaming, you're doing laundry,you're cooking dinner, you're
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out for cocktails with your girlfriends, you're shopping.
And they are just paying, in my case, 399 a minute to be
ignored. Yes, that is a fetish.
Silent calls are where I will myclient will say to me, oh,
mistress, please send me, you know, send me an audio, send me
this or send me that. And I'm like, I'm I don't work
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for you. You're not in charge of me.
Well, my wife is sitting here right now.
I can't. You can't what?
Get your fat ass up. Walk to your bathroom.
Call me right now. Don't say a fucking word.
Sit on the phone or on your Bluetooth and listen to every
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word that I have to say. So they will call me and I and I
will answer the phone and I willsay hello.
OK, this is what we're going to do.
You are going to turn on your Cam, whether it's Discord or
whatever it is, or we used to use Skype.
Skype outlawed. They banned adult content.
You're going to sit down on the toilet.
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I'm going to watch you slowly undress yourself.
You're going to go over to the sink, take your wife's hair
brush. You're going to whack your cock
about five times for your insubordinance, for your
inability to follow my fucking rules.
And now you're going to sit downand you're going to watch porn
and I'm going to bring you rightto the edge of fucking insanity
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and I'm going to deny you or whatever it is, whatever
sadistic mood I'm in. But that's a silent call where
he calls me. He says nothing.
So if a client is saying, well, I can't right now, I'm in a
meeting, I'm in that no, the fuck you're not.
Put me on silent and put yourself on mute on silent.
No one needs to know. So I have these clients so well
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trained like Pavlovian level, like Pavlov's dog that they will
be sitting in an armchair next to their white like feet from
their wife and I am bullying them.
I am dominating them and they'resaying nothing.
And that is a silent call. So there's never any excuse for
these men to tell you, oh, I can't right now or this or that.
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I often if they tell me I'm busyat work or whatever the excuse
is, that's where I'll tell them,OK, I want you to go find an
indelible marker right now and you're going to put me on Cam
and you're going to go into the bathroom and I want to see your
Apple Watch with a time stamp sothat you're not sending me old
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content. So I'll make them do something
with a time stamp or something that shows it is actually in
that moment. I'll make them write my name,
the violatrix on their cock. And a lot of times because these
guys have micro Dicks and micro penis, there's not enough room
to write it. So they have to sit in the
bathroom, make themselves as long and hard as possible, which
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never happens, and they have to write my name to violate trade
and then they have to hide from their wife for the next few days
because they're my name is written on their cock and
indelible marker. I have all sorts of little games
and things that I do. It just depends on the client.
But if they give pushback, if they are not completely docile,
obedient and following the rulesthat I set forth, there are huge
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punishments. And that can be anything from,
you know, a lot of them don't have toys at home because their
wives don't know that they're doing it.
So I usually make them go into the kitchen on Cam because I
don't trust them. They're big schemers and liars.
I make them go in the kitchen onCam and grab like a like a
spatula, whack their ass with spatula or find something to.
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I don't want to get too graphic on here.
And it's not that I don't want to give up my secrets, but you'd
be surprised the tick, the the trick.
You'd be surprised at the tricksand games, sadistic ones, that
you can do with various kitchen appliances and paraphernalia.
A kitchen is a cornucopia of torture devices, gifts that keep
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giving. So be you know, be open to that.
Be creative. Creativity is your best friend
in this industry. Sniffies and Grinder.
So I have often clients that I had a client one time Sniffies.
I have a very wealthy CEO in Florida who's engaged to a
southern belle and this is the best story.
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This guy, he goes on Sniffies and he plays and he basically J
OS he jerks off on Sniffies for other men and he's a good
looking older guy, but he's he'sa Sissy.
He likes dressing up. He likes wearing panties and
corsets and heels and being justannihilated by bigger men,
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younger men. So this guy goes on camera and
he he will invite men over to his house and get involved in
all sorts of things. So nonetheless, the southern
belle, his fiance had some gay friends and they found his
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profile on Grinder. So he called me at 1:00 where he
reached out to me and I said where have you been?
He said, Oh my girlfriend's friends out of me, they found me
on Grinder. I said, did she leave you?
He said no. I said, how the fuck did you,
how did you get away with this? And he said that he was able to
tell her that, you know, he's got some dark fetishes and from
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time to time he likes to play, but he's never met anyone in
person and it doesn't go any further.
He was he got himself out of it.She believed it lock, stock and
barrel. She fell for this line.
But I was like, man, like that'sthat's getting yourself busted
on grinder. That's pretty bad.
So I often have clients that I will make them put an ad on
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grinder, put a profile and grinder.
And I had this one guy one time he was in Long Island and he was
calling me and calling me and oh, I'm so horny.
Oh, I need to be abused by BBC. And I just, he was blowing up my
phone, blowing up my platform and I had enough of it.
So I said it was like, maybe so it was early in Las Vegas time,
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but it was late back east. It was maybe like 910 o'clock
back east. I said you're going to put a
profile on Grinder right now andyou're going to go find a black
man to meet you. And sure enough, he did.
And he told his wife he was going out for milk and he went
to the grocery store. The local grocery store parking
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lot had me on Cam, so I watched the whole thing, met this black
gentleman in the back, got in the back of the black
gentleman's van and serviced himwith me on Cam the whole time.
I didn't think you would actually do it.
I was just trying to shut him up.
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But he did it, and he did it quite happily.
And then the the black gentlemanthat he met also told his wife
that he was going to the store. So for those of you ladies that
you know, your husband's going out nine, 10:00 at night and
he's going for milk. I'm just telling you.
So I have a client who likes to be forced to throw up.
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He likes to drink quarts of milkand then be forced to throw up.
He also wants to be strapped to a cross and beaten in the
process. He also like swirlies.
Like sometimes I play like high school cheerleader bully.
I was a high school cheerleaders.
That role is easy for me, but I was certainly not a bully in
high school. Rich girl, yes.
Popular girl, yes. Bully, absolutely not.
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But he likes me to play the popular cheerleader dating a
football player And then, you know, I have all the football
players grab him by the back of his neck and throw him in the
bathroom and give him a swirly. He's begged me to give him
swirlies in person and I'm like half tempted to do it, but he's
only in California. But the bottom line is I send
him to a dungeon in Woodland Hills called Venus and Bells.
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I think they are. I think the partnership of the
two Domino's just broke up and Ithink Venus and Bells just split
off. I'm not really sure what the
current status is, but I also the black gentleman that called
me for the slave play, he was asking me to find him a dungeon
in the greater Atlanta area. So one of the things that I will
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do because I don't do IRL in real life, is that I will hook
up with local dungeons and then,you know, work with local
Domino's to give these men everything and anything they
want. And, and sometimes I will be on
Cam, I will be there for the session type of thing.
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So that is a service that I do offer.
So I am not beating people on crime.
I'm not strapping people to crucifixes and beating them.
I'm not having them throw up on my feet.
And anything that involves couldI pee on a client?
I maybe. But again, like that, anything
that deals with the potty play really grosses me out for the
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right amount of money. Could I pay on someone?
Probably, probably, maybe not, Idon't know.
But any of that stuff I outsource.
And like I said, even if it's the fantasy of strapping
something, the idea of me strapping something to my body
like an erect dildo, Dong penis,I can't even, I can't even get
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my head around like like pullingthat up over my thighs and
stand. Like I just can't even get my
head like, no, because I am as feminine as they come, despite
the fact that 80% of the men commenting on my Instagram are
like, how do you hide your cock so well in your lingerie?
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Most people think that I'm trans.
I, when I was in College in 1991, I went to Point Park
College in Pittsburgh and I, I didn't realize it was a huge
like dance and liberal arts school.
So a lot of the guys were gay. And I became friends with all
these guys and there was a gay bar down the street on Liberty,
the Avenue, like the scummy section of Pittsburgh.
This is 1991. It was like, please, there was
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no, there were no rules. So I would sit with everybody's
ID's, all my girlfriends. I was like, come on, we're going
to the gay bar. And I would sit with Whiteout
and Foundation. I would change a black marker,
Whiteout and Foundation. I would change the dates of all
of our ID's. And then we would go to Pegasus
on Liberty Ave. And I'll never forget one of the
first. Now I'm 18 years old.
This is 1991. One of the first times that we
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went in there. We're drinking.
It was great because there's, it's all gay men, you know,
there's no stream and it's all get well, they're probably worse
straight men, but it was all gaymen.
And I back then I had 34 double D boobs.
I've had two breast reductions since.
But I used to have these huge boobs and this, this kind of,
you know, drag queen walked up to me and he was like, oh,
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honey. And he squeezes my boobs.
He goes, oh, honey, how did you get them to look so real?
And I was like, they are so being accused of being trans
that not only for those of you coming for me, doesn't insult
me, doesn't hurt me. And frankly, it's a compliment
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because the trans women are the ones that take the most pride in
their appearance. So it's a flex.
My daughter's even tell me mom, we get called that all the time
because we have deeper voices. We have strong Mediterranean,
Middle Eastern jawlines and strong noses.
So don't be offended by it. So I'm not, but also one more
quick thing and we'll end on this note.
If you see on my Instagram, Aceoof a medical device company, a
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BioMed company came from me thisweek on Instagram and tried to
shame me for he was asking me where is your penis?
Because clearly you're a man. But I don't see the bulge in
your corset. I have this one series of me in
a red corset and thigh high stockings.
Not something I would typically put on Instagram, but my
Instagram is relatively new. So I had to cater and pander to
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the the the salacious sex crowd to get some traction on the
ticked on my Instagram. And it worked.
But it's absolutely not how I walk around every day.
But he came after me, so I made him.
I made him the the cautionary tale of why you don't come after
me on social media. If you come after me on social
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media and try to shame me, I will spend all of my time
finding out who you are, where you work, what you do for a
living. Because I have all the time,
money and passion to sue people and to get revenge on anybody
who is not being nice. OK, so yeah.
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And my platform is for women helping women.
If you're a man, be a client or be a fanboy.
But don't come at me as some manon the DL who clearly you are on
the DL. That's why you were looking.
If a man slides in my DMS and says are you trans?
What I know now is they're saying I hope you're trans.
So go to my Instagram and see this post.
It's like 3 posts down and Michael Mezmed or whatever your
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name was. I hope you enjoy that.
I also reached out to no less than 40 doctors in New York City
with whom you work, sending themthe screenshot of what you said
to be about my lack of a Dick bulge in my corset.
I hope you enjoy. Let that be a cautionary tale.
OK, this is what we're going to do.
You are going to turn on your Cam.
You're going to sit down on the toilet.
I'm going to watch you slowly undress yourself.
You're going to go over to the sink, take your wife's hair
brush. You're going to whack your cock
about five times for your insubordinates, for your
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inability to follow my fucking rules.
And now you're going to sit downand you're going to watch porn
and I'm going to bring you rightto the edge of fucking insanity
and I'm going to deny you. So I'm opening today's episode
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with As They say in broadcast journalism.
If any of you've studied broadcast journalism, any good
news story or story starts with the five WS and 1H Who, what,
when, where and why. So we're going to start.
Oh, and how? 5 WS in one age.
That's it. Yeah, who, what, when, where,
why and how? Who am I?
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My name is Pamela, but I'm professionally known as the
Violatrix. I am a 20 year thin Dom, which
means financial dominatrix. Now this falls under the
category of kink and fetish and adult content.
Why, Who, what, when, where, why?
Why am I doing the podcast? I'm doing the podcast because
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when it was discovered who I am and what I do, the popular
medium platform that people werediscovering me on was TikTok.
And TikTok was not so thrilled about my content.
So they took down several viral accounts of mine until I was
forced to move to a different platform medium.
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Which is what brings me to the podcast.
When this all happened within the last like 8 to 10 months
when it was discovered what I dofor a living because I had a
very popular TikTok platform that dealt in strictly plastic
surgery. And when it was discovered, what
I did that became far more popular than speaking about
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plastic surgery. So that's the other part of
this. Now remember my my podcast
series we're this is episode 4. So we're three in that are up on
Spotify and Apple. It's almost like an anthology
series. If you're not following along,
if you haven't listened to the others, please go back and hear
the first 3 because a lot of this will not make sense to you
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if you're just joining on this one.
And why also did I come out withthis data?
Well, that's a several pronged answer.
The first answer is that my father passed away a few years
ago. I for 20 years, my father was
completely unaware that this is what I did for a living.
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I am in a very fortunate situation where I do not have to
work. So it wasn't a situation where
he was like, where's your money coming from type of thing.
But it was very much underground.
I remember a time where I moved back to Hershey and lived close
to my father and he was coming by every morning for coffee and
I finally had to look at him andsay, Dad, I have a business, I
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work from home and I'm I talk over the phone with men about
things that you probably wouldn't find aligned with your
value system. So if that is not something that
you want to talk further about, then you have to stop.
You know, kind of popping into my house unexpected.
And that was the most that I ever addressed it.
But coming out publicly in the way that I have with my book,
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The Financial Dominatrix, The Ultimate Financial Domination
Guide, which again, my followerson TikTok asked me to write
this. I wrote this book in 10 days
very quickly. This book is not going to
entertain you if you're looking for this salacious, tell all
story, the back story and all the nitty gritty, disgraceful
and disgusting things, salaciousthings that I see here and have
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my clients do. That will be my next book and
hopefully a Netflix series if I am so lucky.
But this book is really just forthe women who want to learn how
to do what I do. So the bottom line is why am I
coming now with this? Why is this at this late stage
of my life becoming popular? Well, again, because my father
had passed away. So I have the freedom to come
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out with this to again, if you watch my other series, the other
episodes, you know that my daughters had asked me to come
forward because there were several women going viral on
TikTok selling courses, a scam courses saying that they were
fandoms you can work from home and they were selling bad
information. I've had several women that came
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to me for a console. They booked a consult through my
website because they bought these scam courses and they were
taken. And, and the bottom line is my
whole platform is women helping women.
I'm not out here doing this to gain exposure to gain fame.
I have very little to actually gain from this.
If anything, it's opened up myself and my family, my
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children to a lot of criticism and ridicule, but nothing will
ever stop me from helping. The women who want the
information need the informationbecause ultimately this is a
perfect side hustle. Or you know, money making
opportunity for women who are ina tight spot.
Women who are single moms, they want to work from home.
They don't have to hire a babysitter.
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It's no overhead or low overhead, basically actually 0
overhead. And it's, it was able to Get Me
Out of a tight, tight spot. And that's what these are the
values that I espouse and what Iwant to be happening.
So, and there's another reason why I came out with this and
someone underneath, I believe itwas my Spotify podcast comment
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section. Someone asked me to address this
specifically. So I am going to address this a
few years ago, and this is a very cautionary tale.
I want you to know that if you've ever seen my TikTok
lives, this comes up a lot. This is for the women who want
to learn how to do what I do. If you want to work in the adult
industry, the three O 4 industryPSO phone sex operator, which is
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really what I am. If you want to be a Cam girl an
OF model or if you are literallyin the full service sex worker
three O 4 industry, it would behoove you to tell no one.
And this is the cautionary tale that I tell.
When my older daughter, who is now 20, was about 5 years old,
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she was attending a Christian daycare in Hershey, PA called
the Fishburne Flock. And I had a woman who was a, her
son was good friends with my daughter and she was single.
She was a single mom. She was struggling and I said to
her, well, I have a way for you to get out of your struggles and
to help you make ends meet. And she's like, what is it?
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So I send her the link to my primary platform, whom I still
work for. My primary source of income is
from one specific platform whichwill it would shall remain
nameless right now. And she was intrigued and I told
her some more information. About a week or so later I found
out that she had gone back and told all of the other mothers
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what I did. She had sent them my listing,
which had some, they weren't X-rated photos, but there was
some racy photos advertising my listing.
And what ended up happening was I became kind of blacklisted.
I became the black sheep of thisFishburne flock and the other
mothers stopped inviting my daughter to birthday parties and
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outings and we would be at the swimming pool and the women
would be whispering and talking.So as I tell any woman who's
considering doing this, don't tell anyone.
Keep it to yourself. Don't try to help another woman
unless you really know what you're doing.
Or if you want to help a woman, just send her to me.
The violatrix say I there's thiswoman on TikTok St. to siren.
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She's on Instagram. She has a free master class on
YouTube. But do not put yourself in a
position where someone will be able to extort you.
Which brings me to my last why reason of why I'm doing this
podcast. Several years ago I made a
friend here in Vegas. I thought he was gay.
I still think he's gay. But now I'm not really sure if
he's gay by or what he is. But he had a very petty jealousy
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towards me which didn't really manifest.
It didn't show itself till well into the friendship.
So at the time, this was severalyears ago.
This is like 5-6 years ago. My kids were younger and I
really liked doing my phone calls away from the house.
So he was single and he had an apartment and I would go over to
his apt, I would drink red wine and I would enjoy myself and
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then he would get a kick out of me doing my phone calls in front
of him. He also was in IT.
So he was able to bring me some really phenomenal equipment,
which had a great Cam because I not only do phone with my
clients, I also do Cam as well. So we would make a really fun
evening of this. It was to the point where
sometimes I was going over therefive nights a week and use it,
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utilizing his apartment and doing these fun phone calls.
Well, at some point I had a client named Joe in Chicago.
Joe's not his real name. And Joe was kind of a weird guy.
He would spend like 45 minutes telling me that I was the most
beautiful thing on the planet. And then the last half an hour
he'd be like, oh, tell me, Mistress, you're going to flog
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me with ABBC with a black man, and you're going to make this
black man bend me over and do terrible thing.
Like it would just immediately switch.
And this person, we'll call him Benny, this person Benny really
enjoyed listening to Joe's calls.
And Joe, Joe spent a lot of money and he again, I'm 399 a
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minute. So with the most of the clients
that are calling me are very wealthy.
Most of my clients are lawyers. Why I'm not really sure what
goes hand in hand with that profession.
But Benny took it upon himself to go into his bathroom and use
the mirror and put it point his phone at the mirror where I
couldn't see him and he was recording me.
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So at a point where Benny started exhibiting some less
than copacetic, less than mannerly, gentlemanly behavior,
I ended the friendship. When I did, he sent me a series
of emails because I had blocked him.
And he sent me a series of emails with the videos of me
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speaking to Joe, the attorney inChicago, about his BBC
obsession, me being recorded in a very unflattering light.
I think I was more upset that I looked so shitty on camera than
I was about him exposing Joe. But no, seriously, it's it was
equally bad. Yeah, equally bad.
But he had these videos because he's in IT.
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He had these videos sent with a it was ready to be sent to my
daughter's school, the Meadows Private School in Las Vegas,
where we paid like $30,000 a year for my daughter to go.
The guy from Imagine Dragons, his kids go there.
The girl from Lee's, Lee's Liquor, like the most
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prestigious families in Vegas, their children go there.
My daughter was friends with them and Benny had put the
videos in. In the memo, in the subject
line, it said, this is the mother of one of your prestige
esteemed students because my daughter is autistic and she is
a genius. So she's very well known in that
school. And in the video he's about to
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press send on these videos that he took without my permission.
Yes, they were in his apartment.So I said what?
What is it that you want? And he gave me his list of
things that he wanted. This was the most full blown
extortion case I had ever encountered.
So I tried to appease him. I tried to ask him to go to a
notary with me when we we settled things and I said go to
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a notary and say that you will never threaten my family again.
He refused to do it and it endedup in a very ugly situation and
I was able to press charges. The DA took the case and we went
to court. Now, let me tell you how
unpleasant this was. Not only did I have to face him
in court a few years ago, a few years after this whole thing,
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and I lived with the fear that he was going to out me with
these videos because he's in IT.He could have put my videos on
an offshore server. He could have done anything.
So the DA took the case, we go to court.
This was last November. I ended up winning the case, but
not before a massive amount of therapy and PTSD.
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Again, not for my own safety andconcern, but for my innocent
children, my innocent family whohad nothing to do with this.
Benny had gone so far as to callmy father before he passed away.
My father was very ill at the time he called my father's
house. He had a very thick Israeli
accent, so my father couldn't understand what he was saying,
which to this day we don't understand what he was saying.
But he found my father's unlisted number.
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He found my brother and sister on Facebook and also sent them
the videos. By this time, I had enough
knowledge to say to my brother and sister, if you receive
anything from Benny on Instagramor Facebook, do not open it
because it could be a virus because he's in IT.
So I was able to cover that. So nobody, nobody opened
anything and they all sent me the evidence.
I won the case and just so you know, and this is again where
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you don't want to end up in this, during my examination, my
questioning from his lawyer while I'm on the stand, an
entire high school class, they thought it would be a really
good idea to bring a high schoolclass in that day.
So the high school class is sitting in the back of the
courtroom. I'm sobbing, reading his emails.
The prosecution, the DA had me reading these emails, You stupid
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bitch cunt. You pay for this.
And I'm reading all of this while the high school students
are looking at me, staring at me.
I've got makeup streaming down my face.
In a bizarre twist of fate, he ended up taking the stand, which
he never should have done. And he sunk himself completely
by being a total misogynist to the judge, speaking out of turn,
insulting everybody in the courtroom, and then claiming
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that he's not AUS citizen so he doesn't understand the process.
I won the case. I won it last November.
I still have a restraining orderagainst him.
That restraining order lifts this November where I am
expecting the other shoe to drop.
I'm expecting that because he never got to expose me in the
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manner that he wanted to. I'm expecting that to kind of
drop this November. So this is a long roundabout way
of me explaining to you because of Benny trying to extort me,
because my father had passed away.
And with the Benny extortion, itmade sense for me to come out
and have my narrative told, haveit framed in the way I wanted it
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framed. Either I was going to control
the narrative or Benny was goingto control the narrative.
I had no choice at this point but to come out with this
because there's one way or another, he was going to out me.
So my cautionary tale to you ladies who are listening to this
and following me on my social media and taking my free YouTube
master class is keep it. Play it close to the vest like a
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poker player. Play your cards close to the
vest. Don't tell anybody what you do.
And if you are a single mother, remember first and foremost that
anything involving the adult industry and the sex industry
will compromise your family. So it should be kept very
discreet and I hope that helps. So did I get through The Who,
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what, when, where, why, how, howyou, how I became a fandom.
You have to watch or listen to the 2 three previous episodes
and that gives you the whole thing on how.
So I want to address another thing that's often in my
comments. What is going on with my hair?
I had very long hair. And then the day before I was
scheduled to shoot this podcast,a very common Las Vegas thing
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happened to me. My hairdresser ended up in
prison. So I very quickly switched and
went to another hairdresser who said, you know, your hair is
damaged, we need to cut it off. So I ended up with very short
hair. My clients went crazy.
I did not. I came across like, what's that
one girl on on Charlie Brown or on not Charlie Brown?
Well, yeah, the one nerdy girl on Charlie Brown or the one on
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scooby-doo with the Velma? I looked like Velma on camera.
So I was like, OK, that's it. We're going back to the long
hair. So that's what's going on there.
I did not plan on having all this change of look, but but my
hairdresser was in prison to andyes, I do have a new
hairdresser. Thank you guys for asking.
I forgot to mention in my last episode where I talked about my
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father not agreeing with me becoming pregnant at 33 and
deciding to have a baby on my own which is him ruining me is
what led to me ending up in the adult industry trying to climb
out of the welfare system, get myself off of welfare.
I was working 2-3 jobs and I fell into this by seeing an ad
in the New York Times. I forgot to mention the reason
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why my father was able to do this to me was even though I
just wanted a baby and wanted tobe a single mother, which of
course did not agree with him atall.
I had no intention of getting married.
My daughters father was an Italian soccer player from
Uruguay, Uruguay, South America and when my father evicted me at
almost 8 months pregnant, he subsequently exactly with razor
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sharp execution, he had my daughter's father arrested, held
in insurance detention and then deported 3 months later.
So that was an important piece of this story that we kind of
ties together why and how I ended up in the situation that I
ended up in. He was deported and then all we
know is that he at some point went to Mexico and then he
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passed away. And the details surrounding that
to this day are still a mystery.So that solves that.
When you guys are listening to my podcast and you have
questions, whether you're men that are following me because
you would like a session or you're one of my clients and you
would like your story mentioned,please write comments under my
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Spotify podcast episode. And that will help me to
organize myself for the next podcast so that I'm sure to hit
everything that you want in content.
I am only as strong with my content as the questions that
you're asking me. I am a wealth of knowledge.
I am a full Alexandria library level of wealth, knowledge of
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smut, filth, fin doming, cammingOF anything sex industry.
But if you're not asking me the questions, I don't know what to
cover and I don't think to coverit.
So you have to be active and andtell me and ask me.
And please never slide into my DMS.
My DMS on TikTok and Instagram are a gauntlet of of nightmares
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of den of iniquity, iniquity. I wanted to mention that my
podcast studio here in Las Vegas, whom are amazing, owned
by a gentleman named Trevin, andhe has been 100% any success
that I'm having, he's behind it.He's been holding my hand
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literally every step of the way.He had suggested to me that if I
wanted to see a real professional podcast and see
what goes on behind the scenes, perhaps I should reach out to
the At Whatever podcast, which is hosted by a gentleman named
and gentleman. I use that phrase very loosely
here. The gentleman's name is Brian
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Atlas. I want to first say that my
intentions going in bringing myself, my daughter, one of my
students who is a full three O 4full service sex worker and my
daughter's best friend ended up in the IT resulted in the
biggest bloodbath I've ever beena part of.
I was annihilated. Verbally, aesthetically.
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Emotionally, I tried to go head to head with this former Vine
star underground secret Republican or secret liberal
who's pandering to his audience that he is a Republican.
And I'm going to do a subsequentepisode on this and I might even
bring people and I the two important points that I would
like to make here 1 is that if any young women are out there
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who are considering doing the atwhatever podcast with Brian
Atlas and his skinny, probably my guess is bisexual helper
named Nick because he was flirting with everybody that was
involved on the set. Men, women, it didn't matter.
But if you're considering it, I want you to strongly reconsider
it because it's the biggest baitand switch I have ever seen in
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the industry. And there was a time where I was
a Hollywood talent manager for several years.
I represented a few really big names in Hollywood, someone in
the Sheen family and I, I was a Hollywood talent manager.
Also being a PSO worker at night.
Just so you know, it's not like I had multiple career and
multiple careers at different time.
I was, I've never stopped doing my PSO work, but I want you to
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know that someone who's very connected and adept in
Hollywood, in the ways of Hollywood, I've never seen
anything like this shit show that the Whatever podcast was.
I would strongly recommend any woman, young woman, older woman,
woman of color who's consideringgoing on that.
Really do your due diligence because it's a setup and you
will be told to come on for one topic and then what you actually
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end up being asked about is completely out of left field.
You'll be ill prepared for it and it's set up that way
completely misogynistically to make you look like an idiot.
What he likes to do is bring on girls and make them look stupid,
Sound stupid. People that cannot match his
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level of conversation, his levelof autism.
And I don't say that with any disrespect because I'm married
to someone with autism. I gave birth to someone with
autism. I find autism to be a
superpower. However, when it's used
incorrectly, which is what he's doing, he should be shamed for
it. So I want you to send this out
to everybody that you can that'sconsidering doing the Whatever
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podcast. And lastly, he is making a name
for himself. Right now he's capitalizing off
the Charlie Kirk name. He says that Charlie Kirk was
one of his best friends and I want to be very clear that no
best friend of Charlie Kirk's that loved and cared for him
would be asking the girls in thepodcast who are clearly full
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service sex workers about Charlie Kirk.
OK, bringing his death into thisand 11 girl likening Charlie to
Hitler. Now, this girl was confused and
she was young, and Brian Atlas used this young woman's
comparison of Charlie Kirk to Hitler as the sound bite and the
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title of his YouTube channel. So the fact of the matter is
Charlie is kind of hanging on for, you know, grim death onto
whatever is left of the Charlie Kirk legacy of him being on his
show. He's pandering, he is
exploiting, and he is absolutelymuddying the memory of Charlie
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by even allowing such things to be said on his podcast.
I want you to take a good look at that because does that sound
like somebody who is holding hisesteemed friend and colleague
and political adversary in high regard, high esteem?
Doesn't sound like it to me. So, Brian, I hope you're
watching this. I hope you know that I am coming
for you. Double barrel both.
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I am so ready to come at you with the same fervor and vapid
reasoning that you came at me with and the word salad.
So just be ready because I'm coming for you.
Fucking asshole. There was a big New York Times
post this week on last week on Instagram and it was talking
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about a doctor in the UK. His name was Doctor Neil Hopper,
age 49, and his sexual fetish was having his legs amputated
and he did so successfully aftera combination of submerging his
legs for 8 plus hours in a combination of dry ice and then
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warm water and back and forth I believe until his legs
manifested this combination of what probably looked like
gangrene and then had his legs amputated.
And then I believe that the controversy couldn't.
The controversy didn't come in at the fact that he was getting
off by being legless because that was his fetish.
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The controversy came in because he tried to make insurance pay
for his leg removal leg and he'strying to cash in with
insurance. So the the false insurance
claims, I guess or what did thisguy in?
But I want you to understand something that's very important.
There is a kink, A fetish for almost anything that you could
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think of. And when I do these podcasts or
when I am talking on social media, I want a very clear
distinction between the fact that I know a lot about fetishes
and kinks, many of which are nowbanned in the USA and most
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countries except for probably Germany.
Germany allows everything, but just because I know about them,
I've spoken to men about them and or have seen them on camera,
does not mean that I support allof this.
And that was one of the things that Brian Atlas was, you know,
able to come at me about was that I am, you know, supporting
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the sex industry and the degradation.
I, I had my nails done yesterdayand the woman was saying, you
need more Christianity. And I was like, no, I'm good.
I'm very Catholic and my great grandfather founded a Baptist of
the Bible Baptist Church in Passaic, NJ which still has a
thriving congregation today. This is nothing to do with
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religion. This is out there.
Who are my clients? Who is interested in this stuff?
Clearly the plus this doctor in the UK, lawyers, surgeons, the
guy next door, your boss, your top employee and the the
Kingston fetishes are widely varied.
So do I support all of them? Absolutely not.
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Do I have my hard limits? Absolutely yes.
Right off the top. I can tell you without without
even having to say it. Obviously anything that deals in
age play is a hard no, but I shouldn't have to say that blood
play anything. Bathroom play.
And what's my third? Blood, bathroom and drugs used
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to be a hard line for me, but I can't be a hypocrite.
Until a few years ago, I had an Asian gentleman from San
Francisco. Ironically, he also was a lawyer
and he booked me for three days.I may it was like 34000A day for
three days and I didn't know what he was doing.
I I'd never seen meth smoke. I didn't know what you do with
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meth. So it wasn't until like a day
into this three day extravaganzawith this guy, this non-stop
rant of of phone and Cam sex forhim that I realized I was like,
what is that? He's like it's meth.
So my advice to you would be if you know you are dealing in
clients who deal in drugs, make sure you ask what they're on,
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how they're going to be doing it.
Because I had a hard line about no drugs, but the meth lawyer
kind of threw that out the window.
And I, I honestly, I wouldn't say that I enjoy, I certainly
did not enjoy it. I almost died after each day of
phone calls because someone who's on drugs will run you into
the ground. They talk non-stop.
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As a matter of fact, I'm going to bring up my one client in
Australia. I'm not going to say his name,
but I have a very successful client in Australia whom I
probably talked to as often as Iblock him.
I know you're watching. I know you're listening.
I know you were curious if I wasgoing to cover you say yes, I
am. I adore this guy to pieces.
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He he gifts me and spoils me on levels I cannot tell you, but he
often enjoys doing cocaine on our calls.
And of course, he's trying to hide it from me.
Now I know better. But when these guys are doing
meth or cocaine, they become superhuman in their ability to
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stay awake, stay stimulated, talk a blue streak.
So just know that if you're going to be getting into a
client like that or you're goingto be allowing it, you have to
expect erratic behavior. You have to punish them for
their for any time that they step out of line anytime that
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they are insubordinate or not speaking, behaving, acting in
the in the manner that a good submissive should.
So know that. But again, getting back to my
hard lines, the drugs was a hardline before, but now some are
slipping through with it. But it also brings me to a
client that I had recently, I think I had mentioned to you
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guys in a previous podcast, I'veturned down to clients in the
last month that had force feeding addiction fetish, which
is where they want me to force feed them greasy pizza, like eat
a whole sleeve of cookie, eat a whole, you know, box of Donuts
and force feeding them. And them becoming so slovenly,
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zaftigly, morbidly obese. That is the obsession.
I cannot deal with that because I feel like I would be burning
in hell. Like I'd be going straight to
hell with that, with that addiction.
I never had like a skinny guy come at me and be like, I have a
force feed addiction, force feedaddiction.
It's always a guy who is like a minimum 300 lbs.
So typically what I would do is ask for their height, weight and
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age and I'd put it in ABMI calculator and I'm like, no,
you're like 1 doughnut away froma heart attack and I'm not
having blood on my hands. So I do turn those down.
I also had a gentleman in the last few months who lives in
Santa Barbara, very wealthy man,older man, and he came at me
with something that I had never had any experience in.
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And this is called sounding. And this, when he called me and
began explaining that he likes to stick things in the tip of
his urethra, which is the opening of your penis where you
pee from. I was like, OK, can you tell me
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a little bit more? And as he was talking, I
remembered being in the Love Store in Vegas a few years ago,
which was right next to my plastic surgeon.
So I went in to see what kind oflike food bar and night gowns
they had and boy, oh boy, they had this glass case with these
instruments that these medical instruments, they looked like,
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if you ever see like a Nutcracker set that has the
little pointy poker thing that gets like the really hard to
reach parts of the nuts, a walnut open, that's what they
looked like. And they were gold and they were
silver and they were getting behind the glass.
And I said to the girl, what is this?
And she's like, oh, that's for medical play.
And I was like, what does one dowith this?
She's like, oh, that's inserted into the urethra Mithra.
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And I'm like, I I didn't think Ihad ever had a client who wanted
it with this gentleman did and he wanted to do it for me on
Cam. I couldn't quite stomach that,
but I used that phone call as a learning lesson for me and I
asked him a lot of information about the sounding.
So these gentlemen are fetishists, kingsters, clients
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that would like they they deriveintense pleasure from sticking
something from sounding stickingsomething inside their urethra
canal in the penis. So is that something I deal
with? Typically?
No. And I, I was mentioning this to
someone recently. If you, if you know anything
about if you've watched my YouTube videos, you know that I
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am not a dominatrix. I I'm not a classic dominatrix.
I am not here to beat you with whips and chains and put on a
strap on and fuck you in the assor fuck you in the mouth.
Which is of course something that all of my clients request.
And when a fantasy goes there, Iam very clear with my clients
that if you even want to talk about me fucking you in the
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mass, in the ass or in the mouth, it's actually going to
happen. I'm going to outsource it in the
fantasy. So yes, we're in a hotel suite
and I am drinking, you know, a $500 bottle of champagne and
I've got my stilettos on and I'mshoving it in your mouth.
I'm kicking you in the back, I'mkicking you to the floor.
I'm, you know, spitting in your mouth.
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I'm slapping across the face. But there's a ring at the door,
a knock on the door. And that's going to be the full
service sex worker who's coming to ram you in the ass or the guy
that I just connected you with off of Tinder or Grinder or I
put an ad on Craigslist and there's a bevy of men waiting
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out in the hallway to have theirway with you in every orifice in
your body. I outsource it even in fantasy.
You will there will never be a time that you will hear me say,
oh, let me go get my strap on and fuck you in the ass of the
mouth. That's not my thing.
I am more and and overall I'm more of a sensual Dom than a
sadistic Dom. Do not mistake me though, do not
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get mistake. And I can be very sadistic,
especially when it comes to my blackmail extortion play
clients. That is one of my absolute
favorites where I go and find their wives on Facebook or I
have their wives e-mail. And then and we used to use this
thing called Teamviewer where I could take control of their
their desktop computer and I could drain their bank account
while they're watching or I could go into their wives, you
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know, send their wife and whatever.
But blackmail and extortion, I can become very nasty violence
sadistic with that particular fetish.
Excuse me, but overall I do not tend to be I'm not the Dom who's
going to strap you to a cross strap you in the bathroom, you
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know, give you the swirly, you know, fuck your mouth with a
big, you know, 12 inch strap on dildo.
If if you are coming to me for that, you've got the wrong Dom.
I had mentioned in my in my Instagram, I had a clip of a
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client talking about a client that came to me because he went
on a camping trip with his friend when he was a teenager
and the friend's father had molested him, had sexually
assaulted him as a young boy. And this particular client used
to call me to kind of work through that scenario because
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unfortunately it still turned him on and that was a big source
of conflict for him. So I had a client, a potential
client. I had a gentleman see this on
Instagram and wrote right under the Instagram post, this
happened to me. I was abused by my stepfather.
How can I reach you? And I was like, please don't
(35:54):
slide into my Instagram. Just don't bother Instagramming
like in boxing me on Instagram. I'll never read it.
But I said go to my website. He went to my website.
He booked that session so quickly and he was, can you do
me now? Can you do it now?
And I was like, actually, no, I don't have time.
But he was so insistent. So I said, I'll tell you what, I
will take the call in an hour and let me get the data.
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This guy was 44 or 46 years old.He lives down South.
He's a black gentleman. So I'm going to say something
right now that my podcast studioowner Trevin may have to edit
out. It may make it in.
This is going to be up to him, but I'm going to say something
(36:38):
that is going to be so controversial it could get me
cancelled immediately off the Internet.
This client, when we did the session, he said I want you to
call me the N word often. And again, he's a black
gentleman. I want you to be a plantation
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owner and I want to be working the fields, living in the barn,
working in the slave quarter, living in the slave quarters.
And I want you to abuse me. And typically the he's not.
This is not my first black client with a fetish with a kink
to be called the N word and to be abused by myself, the white
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plantation owner. Which is like hilarious because
like no one in my family historywould ever have been accused as
being a plantation owner. Like typically you'd find the
blonde blue eyed, you know mistress for that.
But they want me to be married to the house master of course.
And then the house master and myself abuse this client.
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This is, I don't think you will find a fendom, A femdom, A
domina, A dominatrix who's goingto admit to this.
And what this gentleman said to me is when he told me I want to
be your slave and I want you to use the N word over and over
again. I was like, oh, I know exactly
what you want because I've had clients have this before.
Typically these are black men, but I've had a few white men
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want to role play as this a go figure.
And no, it's not my jerking for Jesus client.
If you don't know about my jerking for Jesus Bible Belt
client, you're going to have to watch the previous episodes.
But we did the slave master, theplantation mistress role play
and he was, you know, yes, ma'am, yes, I'm yes, ma'am, like
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the whole thing. And he was really into it.
And then when we were done, I said, let's talk about this and
and I encouraged him to see a traditional therapist because
again, if you guys don't realize, I do not have a
master's in psychology. I am not a psychiatrist in MDI,
have no professional training. I have 30 rough years of my own
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therapy that I bring to the table and I'm very self aware.
But I am not a clinically approved and trained therapist,
although many have used me as such.
So, and this is an important thing that I want to bring to
the table, that this gentleman had been abused by his
stepfather and it was manifesting in a way that he
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wanted to be abused by me. It kind of dovetailed or it kind
of incorporated the black, the racism theme.
And one of the things that he said to me was my stepfather was
very black and he was very big and he walked around.
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I guess this would have been the70's, the late 70s, early 80s,
given, given the gentleman's age.
And he said my, my stepfather was hung like a horse.
So when you incorporate all of these details, now you have a
strong black man who was not related to him, who was abusing
him, who walked around the housenaked.
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So you see the themes of childhood trauma, you see the
themes of seeing a grown man naked with a big giant cock that
you've never seen before. And now something is stirring in
this prepubescent adolescent that is stimulating the senses
in a way that they hadn't seen before.
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The strength, the dominance coupled with the abuse is the
perfect cocktail for creating a completely fucked up sexual
dysfunction individual who will forever intertwine and not be
able to not be able to separate out the abuse from the the race,
(40:43):
from the sexual confusion, from the need to need to be accepted
and loved. All of it is the perfect
cocktail to make a monster. And in this case, what brought
him to me was that his girlfriend of many years has no
idea about this, which I encouraged him to a get
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traditional therapy. He may continue talking to me,
but get traditional therapy. And once you're in therapy,
begin mentioning to your girlfriend about the abuse you
sustained from your stepfather. And that's going to be the best
way to move forward with this because it's not something you
can carry alone. And the human mind doesn't like
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repression. The human mind gets its calling
card. All dues will be paid to the
human mind in any trauma and suffering you suffered as a
child. Eventually they will come to the
front. And one way or another, the
human mind will make you deal with it.
And his is coming out now. And the reason he said it's
coming out now is he said that his need for abuse porn was
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getting out of control, something that a lot of men
don't know about and a lot of women who follow me, this is a
favorite when they discover thatI do this, something that I do
is called silent calls or ignoreline.
So ignore line is when a client,a submissive man wants to you
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know, he finds you so alluring, so beautiful, so powerful that
he does not feel worthy of your time or attention.
And and again, remember this is what is all the kinks and
fetishes that I deal with. They're all steeped in the man
wanting to be oppressed, wantingto be submissive to this
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beautiful, strong, intelligent, powerful, wealthy woman.
And what's funny is as I've gotten older, I've gotten more
popular. I had no idea.
My husband, I got in an argumentduring COVID and I was like, I
need more cash. And he's like, you want more
cash, go back to PSO work. I was like, you got it, mother
fucker, and you got it. And when I went back, I was
(42:56):
like, oh damn, I was more popular than I ever had been in
my 30s. I was like in my 20s and 30s I
was like, this is crazy. But the clients are getting
younger and younger and what I find now is 20 somethings are
actually calling me. I mean the 20 something
generation is is a hang on my bangs are all fucked up.
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The 20 something generation right now is, is a whole
different animal than any of thepreceding generations.
They seem to be very in touch with who they are not afraid,
they're out and proud. And it's not shrouded in dark
shadows and mystery the way mostof my, say, Gen.
X clients or even millennial clients are.
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And, and by the way, I have found very commonly that when a
man gets to about 35, a man who has a, a kink, A fetish for
being teased, denied, dominated,extorted, blackmailed, CBT, cock
and ball torture, pantyhose fetish, foot fetish, whatever
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the fetish or the kink is, when they get to about 3540, that's
like the sweet spot. They've had their kids, they've
spent 20 some years in a vanillamarriage and they're like, oh
shit, my time in this earth is, is now is now winding down.
I need something for myself. And those guys that are in the
35 to 40 range, those, those guys will spend insane amounts
(44:32):
of time and money. So if you get a client, This is
why it's always important to vetyour clients.
But getting back to my silent calls and my ignore line.
So an ignore line is when you literally pick up the phone and
you say nothing to them and thenyou put the phone down and you
go about your day. You're watching shows, you're
streaming, you're doing laundry,you're cooking dinner, you're
(44:52):
out for cocktails with your girlfriends, you're shopping.
And they are just paying, in my case, 399 a minute to be
ignored. Yes, that is a fetish.
Silent calls are where I will myclient will say to me, oh,
mistress, please send me, you know, send me an audio, send me
this or send me that. And I'm like, I'm I don't work
(45:14):
for you. You're not in charge of me.
Well, my wife is sitting here right now.
I can't. You can't what?
Get your fat ass up. Walk to your bathroom.
Call me right now. Don't say a fucking word.
Sit on the phone or on your Bluetooth and listen to every
(45:35):
word that I have to say. So they will call me and I and I
will answer the phone and I willsay hello.
OK, this is what we're going to do.
You are going to turn on your Cam, whether it's Discord or
whatever it is, or we used to use Skype.
Skype outlawed. They banned adult content.
You're going to sit down on the toilet.
(45:56):
I'm going to watch you slowly undress yourself.
You're going to go over to the sink, take your wife's hair
brush. You're going to whack your cock
about five times for your insubordinance, for your
inability to follow my fucking rules.
And now you're going to sit downand you're going to watch porn
and I'm going to bring you rightto the edge of fucking insanity
(46:20):
and I'm going to deny you or whatever it is, whatever
sadistic mood I'm in. But that's a silent call where
he calls me. He says nothing.
So if a client is saying, well, I can't right now, I'm in a
meeting, I'm in that no, the fuck you're not.
Put me on silent and put yourself on mute on silent.
No one needs to know. So I have these clients so well
(46:40):
trained like Pavlovian level, like Pavlov's dog that they will
be sitting in an armchair next to their white like feet from
their wife and I am bullying them.
I am dominating them and they'resaying nothing.
And that is a silent call. So there's never any excuse for
these men to tell you, oh, I can't right now or this or that.
(47:02):
I often if they tell me I'm busyat work or whatever the excuse
is, that's where I'll tell them,OK, I want you to go find an
indelible marker right now and you're going to put me on Cam
and you're going to go into the bathroom and I want to see your
Apple Watch with a time stamp sothat you're not sending me old
(47:25):
content. So I'll make them do something
with a time stamp or something that shows it is actually in
that moment. I'll make them write my name,
the violatrix on their cock. And a lot of times because these
guys have micro Dicks and micro penis, there's not enough room
to write it. So they have to sit in the
bathroom, make themselves as long and hard as possible, which
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never happens, and they have to write my name to violate trade
and then they have to hide from their wife for the next few days
because they're my name is written on their cock and
indelible marker. I have all sorts of little games
and things that I do. It just depends on the client.
But if they give pushback, if they are not completely docile,
obedient and following the rulesthat I set forth, there are huge
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punishments. And that can be anything from,
you know, a lot of them don't have toys at home because their
wives don't know that they're doing it.
So I usually make them go into the kitchen on Cam because I
don't trust them. They're big schemers and liars.
I make them go in the kitchen onCam and grab like a like a
spatula, whack their ass with spatula or find something to.
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I don't want to get too graphic on here.
And it's not that I don't want to give up my secrets, but you'd
be surprised the tick, the the trick.
You'd be surprised at the tricksand games, sadistic ones, that
you can do with various kitchen appliances and paraphernalia.
A kitchen is a cornucopia of torture devices, gifts that keep
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giving. So be you know, be open to that.
Be creative. Creativity is your best friend
in this industry. Sniffies and Grinder.
So I have often clients that I had a client one time Sniffies.
I have a very wealthy CEO in Florida who's engaged to a
southern belle and this is the best story.
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This guy, he goes on Sniffies and he plays and he basically J
OS he jerks off on Sniffies for other men and he's a good
looking older guy, but he's he'sa Sissy.
He likes dressing up. He likes wearing panties and
corsets and heels and being justannihilated by bigger men,
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younger men. So this guy goes on camera and
he he will invite men over to his house and get involved in
all sorts of things. So nonetheless, the southern
belle, his fiance had some gay friends and they found his
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profile on Grinder. So he called me at 1:00 where he
reached out to me and I said where have you been?
He said, Oh my girlfriend's friends out of me, they found me
on Grinder. I said, did she leave you?
He said no. I said, how the fuck did you,
how did you get away with this? And he said that he was able to
tell her that, you know, he's got some dark fetishes and from
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time to time he likes to play, but he's never met anyone in
person and it doesn't go any further.
He was he got himself out of it.She believed it lock, stock and
barrel. She fell for this line.
But I was like, man, like that'sthat's getting yourself busted
on grinder. That's pretty bad.
So I often have clients that I will make them put an ad on
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grinder, put a profile and grinder.
And I had this one guy one time he was in Long Island and he was
calling me and calling me and oh, I'm so horny.
Oh, I need to be abused by BBC. And I just, he was blowing up my
phone, blowing up my platform and I had enough of it.
So I said it was like, maybe so it was early in Las Vegas time,
(51:09):
but it was late back east. It was maybe like 910 o'clock
back east. I said you're going to put a
profile on Grinder right now andyou're going to go find a black
man to meet you. And sure enough, he did.
And he told his wife he was going out for milk and he went
to the grocery store. The local grocery store parking
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lot had me on Cam, so I watched the whole thing, met this black
gentleman in the back, got in the back of the black
gentleman's van and serviced himwith me on Cam the whole time.
I didn't think you would actually do it.
I was just trying to shut him up.
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But he did it, and he did it quite happily.
And then the the black gentlemanthat he met also told his wife
that he was going to the store. So for those of you ladies that
you know, your husband's going out nine, 10:00 at night and
he's going for milk. I'm just telling you.
So I have a client who likes to be forced to throw up.
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He likes to drink quarts of milkand then be forced to throw up.
He also wants to be strapped to a cross and beaten in the
process. He also like swirlies.
Like sometimes I play like high school cheerleader bully.
I was a high school cheerleaders.
That role is easy for me, but I was certainly not a bully in
high school. Rich girl, yes.
Popular girl, yes. Bully, absolutely not.
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But he likes me to play the popular cheerleader dating a
football player And then, you know, I have all the football
players grab him by the back of his neck and throw him in the
bathroom and give him a swirly. He's begged me to give him
swirlies in person and I'm like half tempted to do it, but he's
only in California. But the bottom line is I send
him to a dungeon in Woodland Hills called Venus and Bells.
(52:58):
I think they are. I think the partnership of the
two Domino's just broke up and Ithink Venus and Bells just split
off. I'm not really sure what the
current status is, but I also the black gentleman that called
me for the slave play, he was asking me to find him a dungeon
in the greater Atlanta area. So one of the things that I will
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do because I don't do IRL in real life, is that I will hook
up with local dungeons and then,you know, work with local
Domino's to give these men everything and anything they
want. And, and sometimes I will be on
Cam, I will be there for the session type of thing.
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So that is a service that I do offer.
So I am not beating people on crime.
I'm not strapping people to crucifixes and beating them.
I'm not having them throw up on my feet.
And anything that involves couldI pee on a client?
I maybe. But again, like that, anything
that deals with the potty play really grosses me out for the
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right amount of money. Could I pay on someone?
Probably, probably, maybe not, Idon't know.
But any of that stuff I outsource.
And like I said, even if it's the fantasy of strapping
something, the idea of me strapping something to my body
like an erect dildo, Dong penis,I can't even, I can't even get
(54:28):
my head around like like pullingthat up over my thighs and
stand. Like I just can't even get my
head like, no, because I am as feminine as they come, despite
the fact that 80% of the men commenting on my Instagram are
like, how do you hide your cock so well in your lingerie?
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Most people think that I'm trans.
I, when I was in College in 1991, I went to Point Park
College in Pittsburgh and I, I didn't realize it was a huge
like dance and liberal arts school.
So a lot of the guys were gay. And I became friends with all
these guys and there was a gay bar down the street on Liberty,
the Avenue, like the scummy section of Pittsburgh.
This is 1991. It was like, please, there was
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no, there were no rules. So I would sit with everybody's
ID's, all my girlfriends. I was like, come on, we're going
to the gay bar. And I would sit with Whiteout
and Foundation. I would change a black marker,
Whiteout and Foundation. I would change the dates of all
of our ID's. And then we would go to Pegasus
on Liberty Ave. And I'll never forget one of the
first. Now I'm 18 years old.
This is 1991. One of the first times that we
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went in there. We're drinking.
It was great because there's, it's all gay men, you know,
there's no stream and it's all get well, they're probably worse
straight men, but it was all gaymen.
And I back then I had 34 double D boobs.
I've had two breast reductions since.
But I used to have these huge boobs and this, this kind of,
you know, drag queen walked up to me and he was like, oh,
(55:54):
honey. And he squeezes my boobs.
He goes, oh, honey, how did you get them to look so real?
And I was like, they are so being accused of being trans
that not only for those of you coming for me, doesn't insult
me, doesn't hurt me. And frankly, it's a compliment
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because the trans women are the ones that take the most pride in
their appearance. So it's a flex.
My daughter's even tell me mom, we get called that all the time
because we have deeper voices. We have strong Mediterranean,
Middle Eastern jawlines and strong noses.
So don't be offended by it. So I'm not, but also one more
quick thing and we'll end on this note.
If you see on my Instagram, Aceoof a medical device company, a
(56:39):
BioMed company came from me thisweek on Instagram and tried to
shame me for he was asking me where is your penis?
Because clearly you're a man. But I don't see the bulge in
your corset. I have this one series of me in
a red corset and thigh high stockings.
Not something I would typically put on Instagram, but my
Instagram is relatively new. So I had to cater and pander to
(57:03):
the the the salacious sex crowd to get some traction on the
ticked on my Instagram. And it worked.
But it's absolutely not how I walk around every day.
But he came after me, so I made him.
I made him the the cautionary tale of why you don't come after
me on social media. If you come after me on social
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media and try to shame me, I will spend all of my time
finding out who you are, where you work, what you do for a
living. Because I have all the time,
money and passion to sue people and to get revenge on anybody
who is not being nice. OK, so yeah.
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And my platform is for women helping women.
If you're a man, be a client or be a fanboy.
But don't come at me as some manon the DL who clearly you are on
the DL. That's why you were looking.
If a man slides in my DMS and says are you trans?
What I know now is they're saying I hope you're trans.
So go to my Instagram and see this post.
It's like 3 posts down and Michael Mezmed or whatever your
(58:14):
name was. I hope you enjoy that.
I also reached out to no less than 40 doctors in New York City
with whom you work, sending themthe screenshot of what you said
to be about my lack of a Dick bulge in my corset.
I hope you enjoy. Let that be a cautionary tale.
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