B-Cide: Turning MS and Mental Health Struggles into Music Therapy

Today on Sh!t That Goes On In Our Heads, we’re talking with the powerhouse that is B-Cide — rapper, producer, and Author of Myelin My Shoes. After being diagnosed with multiple sclerosis (MS) in 2011, B-Cide went from rocking stages to fighting for his health and sanity. But instead of giving up, he turned his pain into power — using music as therapy and mental resilience as his foundation.

Recently featured in over 170 media outlets, including Yahoo Finance and Digital Journal, B-Cide’s story isn’t just about illness — it’s about survival, creativity, and grit. From managing a record deal to building his streetwear brand, 55 Strong, he proves that no diagnosis can silence your drive.

We also talk about the brutal mental toll of losing independence, the power of creative outlets, and how choosing optimism can literally save your life.

“You don’t get to choose what knocks you down, but you do get to choose how loud you get back up.” — Unknown.

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Episode Description

In this episode, Robert “B-Cide” Cardillo II takes listeners on a brutally honest ride through the highs and lows of his life. Known across the underground hip-hop scene for his raw lyrics and fearless storytelling, B-Cide built his career on perseverance and passion — long before his diagnosis ever entered the picture. He toured the country, produced tracks with major underground acts, and earned a reputation for being unapologetically authentic.

Then, in 2011, everything changed. Diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, B-Cide suddenly faced a world of hospitals, medication, and losing control of his own body. What followed wasn’t just a health battle — it was a mental one. He speaks candidly about depression, identity loss, and how music became his escape and lifeline.

This episode dives deep into how B-Cide rebuilt his world piece by piece: transforming his pain into poetry, launching his 55 Strong clothing brand, and writing his memoir Myelin My Shoes — a raw and powerful look at life, illness, and reinvention. G-Rex and Dirty Skittles guide the conversation into what resilience really looks like when life takes away what you love most.

It’s not just a story about surviving MS. It’s a story about refusing to be silenced, about finding new purpose, and about using creativity to fight back when your body, your mind, and the world say you can’t.

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Meet Our Guest — Robert “B-Cide” Cardillo II

Featured on 170+ news outlets, including Yahoo Finance, Digital Journal, and Benzinga. Rapper, producer, and author of Myelin My Shoes — a raw, unfiltered memoir about life with MS, mental health battles, and a 25-year underground music grind.

After his MS diagnosis, B-Cide turned his creativity toward resilience — building 55 Strong, a clothing brand and record label that embodies his “never quit” mindset. His story isn’t just about surviving a diagnosis; it’s about redefining what’s possible when life hits hard.

Connect with B-Cide:

• Website: http://www.b-cide.com
• Memoir: http://www.myelinmyshoes.com
• Bandcamp: https://bcide.bandcamp.com
• Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/bcide
• X: https://x.com/RealBCIDE
• YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@btvstudio
• Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bcide/
• TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bcide

 

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Key Takeaways

• Music can be therapy — creativity gives purpose and relief when life feels unbeara