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🌟 Healing the Father Wound Through the Lens of the Enneagram | Shadow Work & Soul Growth

The father wound runs deep—shaping how we love, achieve, protect ourselves, and trust life. In this video, we explore how your Enneagram type reveals your unique relationship with the masculine, the inner father archetype, and the patterns that may be keeping you from true healing.

Whether you had a physically absent father, an emotionally distant one, or simply internalized unmet expectations, this wound can echo across your health, wealth, purpose, and relationships. The Enneagram gives us a map—a compassionate framework to understand how each type responds to the pain of unmet needs, how the father wound shaped your identity, and what healing looks like through integration.

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• How the father wound shows up for each Enneagram type
• The connection between father energy and your core motivations
• How to use awareness, parts integration, and inner child work to heal
• The role of your Higher Self in reparenting your inner world

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Tabitha MacDonald is an Intuitive Coach and Bodyworker committed to helping people overcome pain fast so they can experience the love, success, freedom, and fulfillment they truly desire.

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to this Soma Rising Session on the Father
Wound.
And if you are listening on mypodcast, my name is Tabitha
MacDonald.
I'm an intuitive coach and aswe recently passed Father's Day,
it occurred to me that a lot ofpeople are carrying a pretty

(00:22):
profound father wound and Iwould say that's pervasive in
society in general and Iwouldn't say it's just our
children, it's also men andwomen and I don't really think
anyone is entirely free of thewound of, I would say, not even

(00:43):
the father, but just of themasculine and toxic masculinity.
And I'm not saying all men aretoxic, so I just want to make
sure that that's really clear.
I mean like toxic masculinitywhere everything is power and
force instead of strength androotedness in the divine

(01:07):
masculine.
This is especially true in myown life and I'm going to share
a little story and you know, myfather left when I was, I think,
three.
My parents divorced and I grewup in the 70s and I think that
was common back then, probablymore common now than it was back

(01:27):
then and I remember the daythey, like the divorce went
through and my mom was like oh,we should all celebrate.
And I remember like clappingand like being excited.
I was just a child.
So I find that strange becausewhen I got a divorce, I wanted
the opposite for my children.

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I wanted them to know that theywere created from two parents
who really loved them.
So when I think about, like, myown father wound, you know,
when I was five, I believe, myfather remarried and we really
didn't see him after that.
Like, he moved on and, um, hetook on fathering his, his

(02:13):
stepchildren, and we saw himvery infrequently.
Um, when I was 16, my, I went tovisit him for a week and it
always made me uncomfortablebecause I really didn't know him
.
And you know, also, listeningto the stories that my mother
told me about him my whole life,I was very afraid of him, to be

(02:37):
honest, and I was afraid thathe was going to like hurt me.
This man had never doneanything to actually hurt me, so
it was very strange that Icarried these fears.
I know a lot of it was thestories that she told me about
him growing up.
None of the things that I hadwitnessed, only the things that

(02:58):
she had conveyed.
And so, you know, going tovisit him for a week, I think it
was before my senior year, Iwas 16.
And so, you know, going to visithim for a week, I think it was
before my senior year, I was 16.
And when I came home from thatvisit I actually kind of felt
comfortable with him, like, oh,he's not so bad.
And you know, my mom I don'tknow, this is kind of a hard

(03:19):
story but she moved while I wasgone and I came home to an empty
house and I remember pulling up.
My friend Sadie had brought meback from the train station and
we pulled in and my house wasempty and the carpet cleaner
said, oh no, those folks moved acouple of days ago.
They're not here anymore.
And I just kind of looked athim like what are you talking

(03:41):
about?
And that really sent me on anadventure I was not planning on
at 16.
I was homeless for a littlewhile and then my dad reached
out and said do you want to comelive down here?
And I wanted to finish mysenior year in high school with
the high school that I went to.

(04:01):
So eventually we figured out asystem of me living in an
apartment with my sister, whowas not a kind human, and you
know, it was just this like yearof my life.
When I look back and I think,wow, I don't know how a 16 year
old survived all of that.
And the reason I'm mentioningthis on the father wound is

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because I blamed him for notrescuing me sooner.
And then, when he finally didcome and pick me up, I was in
bad shape.
I was in really bad shape.
I had to drop out of highschool.
I couldn't find a job, I wasstarving because there was, you

(04:45):
know, no groceries or food.
And I don't entirely blame him.
I don't think I told him whatwas going on.
I don't even think I knew whatwas going on, because I was so
young Like I just didn't reallyand I was just in so much trauma
and I was making horriblechoices because I was a 16 year

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old in trauma with no parentalsupervision, and it was not an
easy time of my life.
So when he did finally come andpick me up, I think it was, uh,
must've been November of mysenior year and he said you know
, you've got two choices.
You can either continue downthis path that you're on and

(05:30):
probably be dead by the end ofthe year, or, you know, you can
come, stay with me for just ayear and get your GED and go to
a trade school, and I knew deepinside at that moment that that
was one of those pivotal lifemoments where it was like this
is do or die, where you'reeither going to like pull
yourself from the ashes and risestrong or you're going to

(05:55):
create a life that's really, youknow, built on a weak
foundation.
So I chose to go with him andyou know over that year or so
that I lived with him.
I had to like work through alot of my abandonment, wound
issues from him, because I didsee him with his new family for

(06:15):
the first time and I felt veryjealous and I felt angry that he
hadn't been there for me and Ialso didn't know how to exist in
his world because the world Icame from, being raised with my
mother and some pretty horriblestepfathers, I didn't understand
his world.
He was deeply religious anddifferent than anything that I

(06:40):
knew.
So it was quite a shock, butalso there was a lot of healing
there because I finally got tokind of know him.
Then, when I was going through,I was leaving a relationship,
those were really hard and Ikept thinking like as fast
forward, like a couple ofdecades, and I went and saw my

(07:00):
dad and I was in this period ofexploration where I thought,
like why do I have such horriblerelationships or luck in love,
and why can't I have life better?
Like why is it so horrible forme all of the time when it comes
to love and romance?
Because that was really the bigpain point for me.

(07:22):
And I thought I'm going to golook at my family of origin with
a sense of curiosity and notjudgment and just see maybe what
am I missing about who I am, sothat I can grow and evolve and
finally kind of have the kind ofrelationships that I want.
And so I went and visited mydad with my kids and I went

(07:49):
without judgment.
I went without any kind ofpreconceived notion.
I wanted to know who he was as aman and it was really
interesting because he was toobusy Obviously he was often too
busy and, um, I just said, don'tworry, I'm going to get a hotel
and the kids and I are going tostay in there, we're just going
to visit and you can come andhave dinner with us once or

(08:11):
twice.
And so we ended up actuallyspending a lot of time together
that weekend and I learned a lotabout him as a man and his life
and the decisions he made andhis childhood and his father's
life, and I learned about himnot as my father but just as a
man, and I think sometimes weforget that our parents are just

(08:36):
humans who are doing the bestthey can with the skills that
they had available to him, tothem, and my dad had the same
experience.
I think his dad left when hewas little and he was left with
a stepdad and I'm not sure aboutthe ancestors before him, but
in his line men left and that'sjust how it was.
And I also have a lot ofempathy for him because I know

(08:59):
how my mom was.
I know a lot of the things thatshe did to control and
manipulate the way that we sawhim and that he didn't really
have any control over it becauseshe did have so much influence
over his two girls, which is sadbecause her manipulation and
her destructive behavior tryingto hide her own lies and the

(09:24):
things that she was doing to usrobbed him the experience of
being a dad to his daughters,like she robbed him that
experience.
So I'm sharing this story withyou because one I love my dad a
lot, like we have a lot ofchallenges, we both butt heads a

(09:47):
lot, um, but I love him and Ialso have a lot of compassion
for the choices that he made infatherhood.
And also, you know, I'm alsoangry about it sometimes, cause
I'm like, wow, I wish you wouldhave saved me.
I wish you would have come inand saved me from the
environment that I was beingraised in.

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My stepfather was a horribleman and my stepmom told me later
once that my stepdad even wentto my dad once and said you
should save the girls from us.
And I don't remember the exactstory because she's passed now.
But when I was like reallyunraveling, kind of like what it

(10:31):
was really like growing up withhim, she did say oh, I remember
that he actually came to usonce and said that.
And so I got even more madbecause I was like wait a minute
, why did you not come and saveus?
Because I was like wait aminute, why did you not come and
save us?
And I don't have any angertowards him about it, because I

(10:51):
really don't think he understoodmy mom was very good at
manipulation.
I really don't think heunderstood the environment that
we were being raised in, becauseI think he was kind of under
the same, you know, zone ofmanipulation that the rest of
the world was.
So, when we're looking at ourrelationships with our fathers,

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hopefully most of you don't havethat kind of a story, but
sometimes we carry that woundwith us and it might be that we
didn't feel safe or protected insome way and unfortunately, I
think, especially over the lastcouple of decades, a lot of
families have treated fathers asif they were just disposable

(11:36):
and I find that to be really sad.
Or, you know, women might havebeen very controlling, like in
my family and then the fatherlost that connection with his
children.
And I think that there doesn'tneed to be any blame when we
explore this topic, but I dothink we just need to
acknowledge that the wound isthere, and the wound is there on

(12:00):
all of humanity Becausefatherless children tend to not
have the same kind of structure,they don't have the same
protection, they don't have thesame sense of felt safety in the
world that children who havefathers feel, and so you know
that lack of safety can createin my own life, very controlling

(12:26):
behaviors, always wanting tocontrol everything so I can try
to create safety around me,which I know is a trauma
response, right.
So I can see how it's rippleddown to my own children and how
I see them making choices nowand I'm like, oh my God, that's
from me.

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I'm so sorry, I love you, Imessed up, but also like you
wouldn't be here if I didn'tmake those choices.
So I love you and also I'm gladyou're here, so let's heal that
wound together.

(13:10):
So what I love about theEnneagram and what it has given
to me is a map of things I needto look at when I'm not making
the progress that I'm making,and I would say in the area of
the father wound, this isespecially true.
So I'm going to ask you somequestions and then, at the end
of these questions, I would youknow, if you have time to like
sit down and actually thinkabout it and write it out.

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It's really a good way ofactivating those old memories
that are contributing to yourunconscious programming.
So what I mean by that is forme, I always pick someone who
will leave me or who will rejectme, based on my definition of

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love and what that likemasculine represents in my life.
So, almost unconsciously, I'mattracted to people who will
absolutely 100% reject me andthen walk away so that I can
continue proving that I'm notlovable.
Now I've done a lot of work onthis, so don't go like all

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boohoo on me.
It's fine.
I get where it all came from.
I also know how it's tied intomy purpose.
I also know that wound is a lotdeeper than I like to admit and
that there's still some work todo on it, even though I live in
a creative orientation most ofthe time.

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That wound is the one that oftenprevents me from getting the
love that I want in my life, orcreating it or picking people
who want to meet me there.
So there's some great books onthis topic.
One is called Getting the Lovethat you Want, and it's really
about how our unconsciousprogramming prevents us from

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selecting partners that aregoing to be in alignment with
our highest and best good,because we're selecting from our
wound, not from our path ofhighest potential, and then we
get mad at them for beingexactly who we picked.
So there's some really greatbooks on that.
I have a program on it.
I'm writing a new program orI'm reinventing an old program

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that I wrote called Heartbreak911, to help you heal the wounds
of narcissistic abuse orabandonment in order to get the
love that you want.
So I'll put some moreinformation about that program
that's coming up.
And also now I'm just going toinvite you to like, maybe, take
out a journal and do somewriting and reflection.
Now we all have a predominantpersonality type.

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That is our main personalityand that's your Enneagram number
.
Like I'm, an Enneagram 7.
And we all also have all partsand aspects of all of the other
types.
So, even though I might beasking a question about a
different type, I wouldrecommend that you consider what

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aspects of you that that mightincorporate.
For instance, a seven has nodirect link to a four, but I
would say a lot of my shadow hasbeen in the four, and looking
at, like, the sadness and thepain that I was ignoring, which
is kind of the four, which isthe opposite of the seven, which
likes to live in that sadnessand longing, helped me realize

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where a lot of my unconsciouspatterns were and then.
So I'm just going to invite youto listen and to think about
all of the questions, not justthe ones that are, you know,
relevant to your Enneagram type,all of the questions not just
the ones that are, you know,relevant to your Enneagram type.
And then we're going to do awonderful release exercise at

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the end of this.
Now, if you're in Soma Rising orSoma Tribe my membership I'm
going to put a full, beautifulKuan Yin Healing the Father
Wound journey.
That includes ancestral healing, inner child shadow work, and
if you've been in my membership,you know that those journeys
are really beautiful and I likelistening to that myself, but I
will be putting that up later.

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I just wanted to create thisexercise so that you have a tool
to come back to and reallyexamine, like, where is this
wound coming up for you and howis it impacting your
relationships, your wealth, yourpurpose, success, your health,
even, and your ability to fullyembody your path of highest

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potential, where you're justallowed to have it all.
And a lot of people have theseunconscious programs or
contracts written with theirfather that say I'm not going to
have more success than you, sothat you never feel like a
failure.
Or I'm not going to know lovemore than you know love, so that
you won't ever feel like youwere the only unlovable one.

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Or I won't know the love of youknow this type of person, so
that I never have to change theway that I see you, and there's
so many interesting unconsciousprograms and contracts that we
write with our parents, andsometimes those are the things
that just need to be looked atso that we can move forward in
our life to create what we wantinstead of what we know.

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And with that, I'm going toinvite you to just pull out a
pen and a paper and we're goingto go through some of the
Enneagram types and I'm justgoing to ask you a few questions
and invite you to think aboutthings in a new light.
So the Enneagram, for those ofyou who don't know, is like your

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soul's emergency backup system.
You who don't know is like yoursoul's emergency backup system.
It's the coping mechanism thatwe developed as children to
survive unmet needs and it'slike this map to our unconscious
, to our agenda, like ourpersonality structure.
There's nothing wrong with it.
Like your soul literally pickedthe exact life that you had so

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that you would become that Like.
Whenever I compare gene keys tothe Enneagram, they're almost
always very similar, like theshadows and the strengths and
all of the different things.
So let's talk about type one,the reformer.
The father wound pattern wasoften experienced as critical,
rigid or emotionally distantfather figure, and they may have

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felt only conditionally lovedwhen they were good or morally
upright.
So in love this tends to showup with partners that they can
fix or those who meet highinternal standards.
They may attract partners whoreinforce a sense of duty or

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criticism.
And the question I have for youis in your life like is, are
you attracted to and this couldbe friendships, this could be
your intimate relationships Areyou attracted to people that you
can fix?
Are you always looking for waysthat they can improve and are

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you setting them up never tomeet your internal standard of
partnership or any kind ofrelationship?
This could be your boss, thiscould be anyone.
And where in your life are youdoing that?
Maybe it's with your children,maybe it's with yourself.
You know, we'll usually see itfirst with the relationships
that we have with others, andthen the invitation for you is

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to let go of the perfection as apath to love and embrace
softness, spontaneity and theidea that you are worthy even
when imperfect.
The Enneagram 2 is the helperand the father wound.
Pattern was that they feltunseen or emotionally neglected,
learned to be valuable bymeeting other people's needs,

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they got quiet and they learnedthat somewhere along the line if
they just took care of everyoneelse then they would be lovable
In love.
They tend to be drawn toemotionally unavailable partners
that they can heal to earn love, often overgiven hopes of
receiving scraps of affection.

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One of the things I learned inthe Enneagram course that I
found interesting was the typetwo like.
It's almost like they have thisinternal struggle where if the
other person loves them equally,then they feel unlovable, so
they almost need to love more sothat they can earn love.
It's an unconscious strategy.

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Most people have no idea thatit's happening, so I'll just say
that all of these areunconscious.
I bet most people have no ideathat it's happening, so I'll
just say that all of these areunconscious.
I bet most people have no ideathat this is even happening in
the background.
The healing invitation for thetype two is to one let's look at
where are you not allowingyourself to receive love, to

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receive help, to receive support, and who around you may want to
do that for you, but maybe it'schallenging for you.
Or do you feel like you alwayshave to repay it, like, oh, if
you do this for me, then I haveto do this for you in order for
me to still belong.
And then the healing invitationis you don't have to be needed

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to be loved.
You, um should learn to receive, to ask and to be fully met
where you are.
My type three is the achievers.
Uh, the father wound pattern isthat love felt performance-based
.
Uh, dad may have praisedsuccess but withheld emotion or

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connection emotional connectionA lot of the time.
These kids were only everrewarded by success and this
creates this overwhelming driveto be successful at all costs.
They tend to be attracted topartners who look good on paper

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or who reinforce their image,and they may ignore their own
emotional needs in favor ofappearances.
So they might either beattracted I see type threes
being attracted to type twos alot because they're so nurturing
and they're missing thatability to self nurture.
They're so nurturing andthey're missing that ability to
self-nurture, but then also veryimage-based, right Like?

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It's like how beautiful are youor how handsome are you?
How much money are you pullingin?
How can you support the imagethat I want the world to see me
in?
So I invite you to just explorethat for yourself.
Where have you compromisedconnection, love, vulnerability,
commitment in order to picksomeone who's the ideal image,

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and are you still trying toimpress your father with the
person that you picked?
Is that still part of thestrategy?
Because sometimes that happenstoo, where you marry the person
that you think would make yourfather love you finally or more,
or give you that connection orapproval that you've been
seeking?
The healing invitation here istrue.

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Intimacy doesn't require a mask.
You are lovable for who you are, not what you do.
The type four is theindividualist, the romantic.
The father wound pattern oftenstems from a place of being
feeling misunderstood,emotionally disconnected the

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father's emotionallydisconnected or flat out
rejected by a father who didn'tget their sensitivity and
creativity, who didn't get theirsensitivity and creativity.
Maybe you heard, like, man upor like you know, clamp down
those emotions, things like that, turn it off.

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Because you know, maybe thefather couldn't handle the
emotions, because type fourshave a lot of big feelings and
if you were raised by a fatherwho really couldn't handle those
big emotions, they might haveasked you to suppress or repress
them and that would have, like,created this almost sense of
self abandonment, um, and alsothat yearning to just always be

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very unique, um, and never tofit in, um, in love it, they
tend to seek.
Type fours tend to seek depthand emotional intensity, almost
at the cost of the relationship,where the other person is set
up to not be able to ever meettheir intensity, and sometimes

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it turns into almost like anintellectual emotional
experience, which is aninteresting way to explain it,
so I'll think if I can find abetter way of explaining it.
They tend to be attracted topartners who just feel out of
reach, perpetuating the story oflonging.
Type four's shadow is like thislonging and never being able to
receive.

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Like this longing and neverbeing able to receive.
And so they tend to set up theexperience where they are always
going to long for love butnever actually to manifest it
into receiving it.
So I'm going to ask you, whereare you trapped in longing for
love or longing for connectionand not allowing yourself to

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actually ever receive it?
And if you've met someone whowas maybe secure, available and
wanting to build something withyou, did you unconsciously
reject them because your woundwasn't attracted to their
availability?
Did it, you know?
Did you decide that you neededto continue longing for

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something you couldn't have?
The healing invitation herewould be you don't need to
suffer to be special.
Choose partners who offerconsistency, not chaos.
Our type five, theinvestigators we're going to
move into the head triad.
This is fun, I love I'm a headtriad.

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So I'm like, oh, where are wenot feeling?
And we're just thinking we'refeeling.
Type fives, the investigators.
The father wound pattern tendedto be an emotionally or
physically absent father,leading to a sense of
self-reliance and emotionaldetachment.
Type fives dealt with theirfears and their pain by becoming

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very good and studious andlearning, and they tend to
isolate and feel uncomfortablewith their emotions in favor of
being more in that space of.
I just want to learn more Inlove.

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They may choose emotionally lowdemanding partners or remain in
the realm of the mind.
Fear of vulnerability oftenblocks deeper intimacy.
Whenever I coach people who aredating a five, I'm like okay,
well, number one, if you'rehaving a hard conversation with
them, let them go away for 24hours before they reply, cause

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they really do need that spaceand time to think about what you
said.
Um, but that that's a wholenother topic which I cover in my
programs.
But um, which I cover in myprograms, but the I want you to
think about.
Where do you emotionally detachin your partnerships, in your
relationships.
It could be with your children,with your friends, it could be

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with your spouse or someoneyou're dating in order to stay
in your mind, like in, and inyour own experience or your own
knowledge.
Or, you know, maybe you reallylike to study and so you go.
You know, reject going withpeople because you'd rather stay
home and learn or expand onyour information and knowledge
instead of experiencing life andlove.

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So think about that and thenthe healing invitation for you
is safety doesn't come fromwithdrawal.
Let yourself be known, even insmall ways.
Uh, the Enneagram six.
I was married to a six.
This is the loyalist.
Um, the father wound patternwas that they experienced

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inconsistency, unpredictabilityor fear.
In the father.
Dynamic trust was fragile orlacking.
Type six is really likeauthority.
They either rebel against it orthey like embrace it.
You'll find a lot of them inthe military or law enforcement.
They thrive in structuredenvironments and the type six

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has this underlying fear andanxiety pattern and I think it
did definitely came from a placeof fear and fear-based thinking
and instead of suppressing itor intellectualizing it, they
embody it.
So they're always looking outfor things that are fear-based.

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So they're great conspiracytheorists and they also are very
loyal and they have manybeautiful qualities that I love.
But type sixes tend to be drawnto partners who provide a sense
of security, so someone thatgives them a sense of safety,
but they also might mistrustthem at the same time, and then

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they often look to their partneras a source of stability.
I know in my own marriage likeI was the one who got us through
like the really hard times,like when the economy crashed
and jobs were lost I would bethe one that came up with the
plan the sense of safety andsecurity, like everything's
going to be fine.
Let's just keep moving forward.
Here's the plan and now youexecute.

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So it was a great dynamicbecause they also can detect
threats.
They're really good at, youknow, keeping a family safe, but
in love it's really hard forthem with that high level of
anxiety and it can be hard forthem with that high level of
anxiety and it can be hard fortheir partner to hold space for
that.
So, if you can relate toanything I'm saying, I'm asking

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like, where are you maybemeeting someone and not trusting
them, or looking for all of theways that they might hurt you?
Or maybe are you creatingconspiracy theories about this
person as a way of not actuallyhaving to be intimate with them,
to be present, to fully embodyyour emotions and not your mind,

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to overcome the anxiety?
Where are you not allowingyourself to just love and feel
safe in the energy of loveinstead of fear?
The healing invitation for thetype six is to anchor into your
own inner safety, and trust isbuilt from within, not just with

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another, so that deep sense ofloyalty and trust that you're
looking for should be anchoredin the core of who you are.
Type seven the enthusiast.
We may have had a distracted,absent or emotionally
unavailable father, leading to asense of avoidance around pain.
Type sevens tend to createfantasies about people in order

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to deal with the brutal realityof what was going on.
So they're the most likely tohave created a fantasy vision of
who their parents were in orderto deal with really painful
truths.
Unfortunately, this patterngoes into your adult

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relationships with yourself,with others, with the world
around you.
It is one of the greatest giftsthat we have is to be able to
see the positive and the highestpath.
It's also hard when trying toreconcile when someone's being
mean to you or when they're um,not acting in your highest and

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best good.
So my question is is there aplace in your relationships it
could be the one that you havewith your partner or someone you
might be dating, interested in,um, or even like a work
relationship, or therelationship that you have with
your kids or yourself whereyou've created a fantasy of

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potential instead of actuallymeeting them where they're at?
Is that playing out in any ofyour relationships, and what are
you avoiding looking at in thetruth of who these people are?
What is it that you're afraidto see?
But mostly, what is it thatyou're afraid that will mean

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about you?
Because type sevens tend tohave a lot of self-reflection
and they think a lot of otherpeople's behavior means
something about them.
And they think a lot of otherpeople's behavior means
something about them, andusually it's a deep fear of
rejection or being trapped inpain.
So look at the relationshipsthat you have or you've had and

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say, like, where did the fantasynot meet the reality?
And what was I unwilling tolook at?
Type sevens turn red flags intogreen flags on the fly.
When I was taking an Enneagramand relationship course, I was
like, well, that sucks, becauseI do that I turn a red flag into
a green flag faster than I evencan like process in my own head

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because of the way I was raised.
Like when you're raised bypeople who do not nice things to
children, you have to turn thatnight not nice thing into
something positive as you'regoing through it, otherwise I
think it would just destroy you.
So there's a reason behind itand you know it served a purpose
.
And when we do inner childhealing work like that's the

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parts that we work with, innerchild healing work like that's
the parts that we work with.
But we have to be willing tolook at where is the fantasy not
matching up with reality,what's real, not what we, what
we perceived that was possible.
The healing invitation for thetype sevens is your joy is real
and so is your grief and itwon't kill you to process it and

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let it go.
You don't need to outrun thepain to find love that lasts.
Like I know, like it was funny.
I was right.
I was preparing for myheartbreak course and I was
thinking about, like thebehaviors that that each type
does and it said, um, uh, typesevens probably planned a
vacation and I was like, oh, whyare we so predictable?

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I literally just felt the painof heartbreak and I immediately
booked a trip to Nashville, likewithin seconds.
I was like, oh man, thisEnneagram stuff, it's true,
accurate and we should pay moreattention to it.
Type eights the challenger, thefather wound pattern, may have
been experienced as control,conflict or just outright

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emotional neglect, leading to asurvival mode of strength and
self-protection.
And then, in love, they tend tobe attracted to partners they
can't fully trust.
Or they have to dominate andthey may't fully trust, or they
have to dominate and they maystruggle to soften or show
vulnerability.
So type eights tend to like toto fight, and so they like to

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create arguments and play thatway.
That's how they love like, um,I, I have a whole course on any
agreement love and like it is.
This is part of the way thatthey show love and it's funny
because they're often attractedto type twos and type twos are
like but that's not how I feellove, and I'm like, yeah, you to
think about.
When you're about to feelvulnerable with someone and it

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could be yourself, it could be,you know, a coworker or someone
that you live with or love Doyou start a fight with them in
order to maybe put a little wallup of that vulnerability.
Do you create an argument orengage in combative
conversations, and why, like?

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What is the intention behind it?
And there's nothing wrong withit, like, I understand the
personality Well, I'm a sevenwith a strong eight wing, so I
understand it well.
But I would just ask, like toinvite you, like, where are you
creating a conflict, for onedoesn't exist, and how's that
working out for you, my friend?

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That's what I'm going to ask.
How's that working out for you?
Um, if you said well, then I'mgoing to invite you to come and
do my love course, because it'sprobably not working out as well
as you think.
Healing invitation is, strengthis in surrender, and letting
love in is the bravest thingthat you will ever do, not
conquering the planet.

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Oh, my Enneagram.
Nines, my peacemakers.
I have a nine daughter.
It is it's hard watching her gothrough the nine patterns of um
merging with people and tryingto figure out who she is and um,
but I have so much love for herand the way that she sees the
world.
Uh, nines often experienced anemotionally neglectful father,

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um being dismissed like theydidn't exist, or that none of
their needs mattered, or theyfelt very invisible and they
learned to stay quiet, tomaintain peace, to choke down
their words, to choke down theiranger and to repress and
suppress it.
And it's funny, when I'mtalking to her I'll be like I
bet your gut's swollen right nowand she's like, how did you

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know?
And I'm like, cause I'm a wellone, I'm an intuitive.
And two, I know the Enneagram,like I know that when you're
suppressing your anger, likeyour gut's going to get bloated
it happens every time and um, soalso, you know, I think it
comes from a I'm going to justplay dead until the storm has

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passed is kind of like what Isee the nine doing, where they
almost become narcoleptic tolife in order to avoid conflict,
because conflict was so big forthem and usually it was like
this just fear of the masculineenergy around them.
And for male nines, probablyyour own masculine energy at

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times is something that you'reafraid of and I'm going to
invite you to think about thatand also learn how to embody it,
because it's a beautiful thing.
The masculine energy, when it'shealed and like in its full
power, is actually just abeautiful energy that the world
needs, by the way.
Beautiful energy that the worldneeds.

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By the way, in love they'redrawn to stronger personalities
or partners who make decisions,because nines are very
indecisive and they may losethemselves in the relationship.
Nines tend to vary.
I was just talking to somebodyabout this yesterday because
they were saying well, everytime I say this to this person,
they agree and I'm like that'sbecause they're a nine.
You can't ever expect a nine tobe honest with you right to

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your face all of the time.
I'm not saying that's not ever.
So type my thoughts out there.
Please don't take thatoffensively.
But when they walk away fromwhat they're in your energy and
they're like agreeing becauseeverything you say sounds
amazing in that moment, and thenthey walk away and reconnect
back to themselves and go.
Actually, I don't want to dothat.
Why did I just agree to that?
But in order to avoid conflict,they don't.

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They don't like come back andtell you that they just assume
you figured it out when theydidn't show up.
So that is my daughter and Ilove her.
I love her so much and I am sograteful for her.
But that's also every nine I'veever dated.
And so that's just type ninesout there.
I'm going to invite you to saylike, where are you losing

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yourself in a relationship?
Where do you not speak up andsay this is what I need, I
matter, what I want matters.
And where are you also notgiving yourself space to be with
someone in their intense energyand then say also give me a
moment to think and I'll comeback and answer you later?

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Or where, maybe, are you peoplepleasing in your life and this
goes to everybody and agreeingto something that you really
don't want to do and then beingangry about it and being mad at
the other person for forcing youto do something that you didn't
really want to do in the firstplace?
And where are you staying quietin your life to maintain peace?

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Where are you not speaking yourtruth?
It's important that yourecognize that truth.
It's important that yourecognize that and learn the
skill of speaking up and feelingsafe and asking for what you
need.
And that's true for everybody,not just nines.
The healing invitationspecifically for the nine is
that your voice matters.

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Love doesn't mean disappearing.
It means being fully seen forwho you are and what you offer
and what your needs are, andjust being loved because you
deserve it, being adored.
So, with that said, hopefullythis gave you some insight into
the different types ofpersonality structures and the
different woundings.
A lot of it centers aroundneglect and abandonment and

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anger, like feeling scared orintimidated.
And it's interesting, like evenwhen I was working in corporate
America, my boss always saidanytime you get around strong
males, you just clam up.
It doesn't matter what youropinion is or what you think
about, like, you just get quiet.
And I know that a lot of thatcame from being raised with a

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very angry, drunk in the homeand feeling like I have to say
the right thing, otherwise thiscould go south pretty quick.
Um, so, with that said, um, I'mgonna invite you now, if you
are on um listening to thereplay, make sure you have a pen
and paper and if you want, youcould listen to this one time

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through.
I'm also in the tribe, going togo ahead and post some more
questions to explore therelationship with your father,
and I want to say that none ofthis is bad.
Like the more I heal the way Isee my father, the more love I
have for him, not less.
Like the more I do this withpeople, the better relationship

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I have with my son, the men inmy life and the relationship
that I have with my father hasonly improved from being willing
to explore the impact that it'sstill having on me and then
letting it go and just beinglike, oh okay, that's where that
wound came from, but now I can,like release it and decide how
I would like it to be instead.

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So with that, we're going to goahead and do this really cool
process called the perceptualshift and I'm going to invite
you, if you're driving, justlisten along.
We're going to work with yoursuper conscious.
So anytime I do super consciouswork and I tell people this,
cause they're like I don't havetime to meditate, and I'm like
oh, that's why I created mymeditation library the way that

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I did, because you can listen toit while you're out walking.
You can listen to it whileyou're driving, because we're
working with super conscious,which is the highest level of
consciousness.
You don't have to be in a quietmeditative zone, you can just
listen to them while you'reliving.
I'll listen to it at the mall,I'll listen to it anywhere.

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I feel like I'm about to sing aDr Seuss song here Because
we're working with a differentlevel of consciousness.
You don't have to be in ameditative state.
Now, if you're really stuck andyou're not shifting something,
maybe you do need to do a littlebit more writing and a little
bit more of a deep dive andunpacking.
It just depends on where you'reat in your journey and how

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stuck you are in your life.
If you're continually living ina victim consciousness like
life is happening to me that'swhat I mean by that or you know,
if you're not having the kindof relationships you want, if
you think that the dating scenesucks and there's nobody
available out there, if youthink you're buying the

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narrative that love isn'tavailable for you or that you'll
only ever be attracted to thebad boy, or you're only going to
be attracted to the narcissist,or whatever your storyline is,
then I'm going to invite you todo this work, because that can
shift, when you choose to shift,how you perceive the world.

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I know lots of people who havemet and gotten married off of
dating apps.
I have met lots of people whohave met the old-fashioned way.
There are a lot of people outthere who are not toxic, who are
ready to have a healthy, securerelationship with someone else,
but as long as your wound isthe one leading the way, you're

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not going to be able to see themand you certainly won't be
attracted to them.
So I know that's a boldstatement, but it's true.
All right, I'm going to nowinvite you to do this powerful
process with me, and if you'resomeplace where you can do some
writing, you can write, or youcan just listen along and come

(46:36):
back.
I'm going to this will be aboutmy podcast, so you can come
back to this as often as youwant and you can.
If you have a stepfather oranother masculine energy who is
heavily influencing your lifegrowing up, you can also use it
with them and it might help youuncover some of the other wounds

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that have prevented you fromhaving the kind of love you want
, the kind of success you want,the kind of purpose, fulfillment
, health, even all areas of ourlife are impacted by the
unconscious program that wascreated when we were young.
So, with that, take a nice deepbreath in and, when you're

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ready, grant me access to yoursuper conscious field.
So the can.
Changes can be made on alllevels of consciousness.
And if you haven't ever done arecode before, I'm going to
invite you to go watch the introrecode on my YouTube channel so
that your all levels ofconsciousness, understand the
process, but you can still get alot of benefit from this

(47:47):
exercise right now.
So take a nice deep breath inand just allow everything that
we've talked about today tosettle in, and just give
yourself this space this time tothink about something that you
want, that feels stuck in yourlife.
Maybe it's the relationshipthat you have isn't the way that

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you want it, or maybe you'resingle or, recently, heartbroken
.
Perhaps your career isn't goingthe way that you want it, or
money isn't flowing with theease and grace that you would
like.
Maybe you feel burned out orunhealthy.
Perhaps you're battling anillness or disease and you don't

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understand why this keepshappening to you.
Perhaps it's, you know, maybethe relationship that you have
with your own children, or justyourself.
Where do you not feel empoweredin your life?
In In what area?
Is it your home or work?
Allow yourself to come up withone area of your life today.

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Now, sometimes people want tofocus on many.
Today, I'm going to invite youto just focus on one.
Pick the easiest one.
If this is your first timedoing this kind of exercise.
Maybe you want to lose a littleweight or go on a vacation, but
you can't seem to get the moneyto do it, or perhaps you're
being really impacted by thecurrent political environment

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and you're really fired up aboutit.
It doesn't matter.
Pick one and, once you have it,maybe write it down what's the
problem that you're strugglingwith.
Maybe write it down what's theproblem that you're struggling
with and it doesn't matter rightnow if you know how this is

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linked or not to the fatherwound or the masculine wound,
and take a deep breath in andallow that problem to just be in
the field of awareness.
How is this problem stoppingyou in your life?
Like, if it's, you know, assimple as I would like a nicer

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car.
Would you believe that thatwould give you a bigger house,
more money and super conscious?
Can you begin to create theperfect treatment plan in the
perfect way, aligning all partsand aspects with a solution
that's of the path of highestpotential in all areas of life?

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Allow the emotions to just beginto arise.
If you're angry right now, Iinvite you to stay in that
energy.
What are you angry about?
You're angry about money.
What is it that you're madabout?
If you're angry about your lovelife, or at your ex, or at your
current partner.

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What are you angry about?
Just allow yourself to letthose thoughts, emotions, the
sensations in your body to arise.
How could life have beendifferent if you didn't have the
upbringing that you did?
What are you mad about?

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What do you resent?
Maybe you're sad, perhapsyou're afraid of letting go of
the past and moving forward.
Where do you feel a deep senseof guilt and shame about
something you have created inyour life, something that's
happening right now, maybesomething that you didn't create

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, that's just happening to you?
Allow all of that to just be inyour field now and take a deep
breath in, and, if you haveguides that you like to work
with, we'll just call in allbenevolent guides that are of

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love or above to help you onyour journey today, to make you
feel supported and seen,commanding that any energy that
isn't love or above.
Leave your space now so that youcan only receive the
information that is of thehighest and best good for you in
this moment in time, notneeding to remember the trauma

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of your past, simply tounderstand the emotional imprint
that it left in your field, sothat your superconscious can
treat it all where it lives, inspace and time, for we are only
working with the energy, theimprint, the impact that it is

(52:38):
having on your life today.
So I would like you to imagine,if you could imagine, that
you're walking in a beautifulforest this is a sacred forest,
a forest that's very familiarand just breathe in and breathe

(52:59):
out and look around and noticethe forest around you as you
just choose to become morerelaxed, notice the trees in the
sky, the blue sky above youradiating warmth on your skin.
I notice the clouds rolling by,inviting you to be present, to

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be here now, to relax, to feelgrounded, supported by Mother
Earth in the present moment,knowing that you do not need to
go on this journey.
You can hit stop now.
It is only by your free willthat you choose to explore some

(53:42):
of these wounds, but I inviteyou to check in with yourself.
Does this feel safe for you now, or should you hit the stop
button and come back to this ata time that's more important?
Or could you just ask yourhigher self to make sure that
only information that isrelevant to creating a life you

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love come through today, nothingelse and nothing more.
Just a small fragment ofinformation that will help you
move forward and take a steptowards the direction of your
highest potential, because thatis always an option to put pain
into a smaller container, toprocess it in a way that feels

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safe and comfortable to you.
Remember that you are always incharge of your reality,
including your journey ofhealing and your journey of
remembering who you are, ajourney back to your higher self
.
You're the captain of the shipand don't ever let anyone tell

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you otherwise and take a deepbreath in.
I notice on the forest path infront of you there are some
downed trees.
These trees represent old pain,old trauma, old memories, maybe
from this lifetime or pastlifetime, and with the help of

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your super conscious, it justdissolves those down trees.
No need to remember, no need tore-experience or harm the main
personality.
It just simply dissolves thepain, the trauma, the emotions
that have been trapped in yourfield so that you can walk

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forward in life with morestrength, courage and authority,
with love and freedom.
Super conscious, do youunderstand the metaphor we are
using today?
Thank you.
Now, as you walk down this path,you're starting to feel a
little bit lighter, a little bitmore curious, more open.

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That's right.
That feels better, doesn't it?
To feel more curious, moreempowered, more open, more
curious.
Make your curiosity a littlebit stronger now.
If you could be more curious,what would that feel like if you
were allowed to be even morecurious about this journey today
, a little excited to releasesomething that's no longer

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serving you, to be free, breathein and breathe out, and breathe
in and breathe out At any timeyou feel uncertain.

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Simply place your hand on yourchest and say I return to me now
and I invite you to be grounded, be and be in choice.
So breathe in and breathe out.

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As you walk down the path,you'll notice a clearing ahead.
This is a beautiful, sacredclearing where souls come to
resolve energetic conflictbetween one another, to release
old hurts, old pain, so thatthey can move forward in
compassion and forgiveness, andbreathe in and breathe out.

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In this clearing are small,tiny purple flowers, and you
notice them blowing in the windgently.
As you step into the clearing,you feel the divine protection
of higher consciousness allaround you, knowing that this is

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a sacred, safe moment that yoursouls had already determined
was going to happen.
Before you, you see threechairs and you sit down in chair
number one.
In chair number two, directlyacross from you, we invite your

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father, or the masculine energythat needs to be released today
from your field so you can havehealthy love, money, health,
success.
Whatever it is that you wrotedown, we see the wound, the
father, come.
However, it shows up for youtoday.
Perhaps it's your actual birthfather, perhaps it was a step

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parent or another masculine thatsimply had an impact on your
early childhood development.
Don't try to control it.
Just allow them to sit in thechair across from you, knowing
that you are completely grounded, safe and protected.
How are they showing up today?
What do they look like to youand maybe just write down a few

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notes?
How old do they look?
Is it this lifetime or anotherlifetime?
Perhaps it's a grandfather or abrother who's sitting across
from you, and how do they lookto you?
How do you feel in your bodylooking across at them?
What does it feel like in yourbody?
And breathe into it, that areaof your body, breathe light into

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that area of your body.
Super conscious.
Please treat all body systemsthat are holding on to fear,
holding on to trauma patterns,holding on to pain.
Please treat and do a massivechange history.
Please regulate the nervoussystem.
Please activate the vagal nerveand any other nerves that need
to be activated in order tocreate an experience of safety,

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curiosity, release and momentummoving forward.
Yeah, super conscious, do yousee that in the field?
Yes, please treat that and do amassive change, history and
everything else needed.
Thank you.
Now, as you're looking acrossand you know you are safe and
protected, maybe put aninvisible wall between you, an

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energetic wall, so none of theirenergy can come through.
What are they wearing?
What is their body languagelike?
Do you notice a smell, a symbol, perhaps a bird or a boat,

(01:00:40):
something?
Notice the fear in your chestand allow it to be there and
notice that you can put yourattention there and ask your
superconscious to startdissolving all unprocessed
emotions that are trapped inyour physical body, your
emotional body, your mental bodyand your energetic body.

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Take a deep breath in and out.
What do they represent to youin relation to this problem?

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Notice, is there any energyaround them?
Like a shadow a a smoke, somekind of illusion?
What do you see around theirenergy field around them?
Do you have a deep sense oflove for them?

(01:01:49):
It doesn't always have to besomething negative.
What do you want most for them?
This person sitting across fromyou?
What were you hoping that theywould see in you?

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What did you want from them?
And just allow yourself tonotice and we're going to ask
your superconscious to continueto tag and treat all of the
resistance in the field acrossall time, dimension, space and
realities.
Now lift your consciousness upout of your chair and just

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notice all three chairs sittingbeneath you.
The third chair is yoursuperconscious and this is the
chair that will be creating atreatment plan and coming up
with a resolution for you today,up with a resolution for you

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today.
Now drop your consciousnessinto chair number two and
breathe through the lungs of themasculine figure that showed up
today.
See through their eyes andsettle into their body and look
back at the version of yousitting in chair number one.
What do they see of you sittingin chair number one?
What do they see?
What are they experiencinglooking at you?

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Is it shame, frustration orsomething else?
Superconscious, please treat allof that and do a massive change
, history and everything elseneeded.
Please treat the anger, thehate and the burden.
Please treat across all time,dimensions, space and realities.

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Look back at the version of youstaring at this masculine
energy.
What were they getting from you?
What did they take from you?
How did they see you?

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It might not have been as achild.
They might have had distortionsthat saw you as an adult.
They might have felt weak orcontrolled by something outside
of them, like a substance.
What was it that's controllingthem and their perception of

(01:04:28):
reality?
Superconscious, please treatall entities.
Please treat all addictions.
Please treat all karma.

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Now lift your consciousness upand hover it above the circle
again and notice that there's alot going on in there, and now
drop your consciousness intochair number three, into your
superconscious.
Let go of everything and justsee.
Between the space, there aretwo souls sitting across from

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one another.
There are humans entangled in acontract of some kind that is
no longer serving themenergetically, mentally,
emotionally or physically.
What needs to shift that theycannot see?
What is keeping them bound?

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That is no longer serving them?
Super conscious, do youunderstand the instructions?
Yes, please identify all of thethings that need to shift today
, creating the perfect treatmentplan in the perfect way.
Yes, please treat all of thatresistance in the field.
Please treat family contracts.

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Please treat all DNA, bodysystems, energy systems.
Please treat all identity levelbeliefs.
Please treat the Akashicrecords, all contracts that are
no longer in service to theseindividuals.
Please complete those contractswhere they exist in time and

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space, marking them complete ifthe lessons have been integrated
and learned.
Please treat all of the painacross all lifetimes,
superconscious.
Do you see these two souls justentangled life after life,
trying to resolve this pain?
Can you please treat alllifetimes, all timelines, all

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quantum entanglements.
Thank you, please treat into amassive change history, treating
it with peace, compassion andlove.
Please treat the wound ofnarcissism, the wound of chasing
and never receiving.
Please treat the wounds of themasculine, the wounds of the

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feminine, all the way back tothe beginning of this line,
across all time, dimension,space and realities.
I surrender, breathe Now.
Lift your consciousness up outof the superconscious and back

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down into your chair, chairnumber one.
Breathe in through your lungsand see through your eyes, feel
into your fingers and toes andlook back at the masculine who
showed up today, your father oranother male?
Have they shifted?
Do you see them differently?

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Now, notice your body.
How does it feel different ordoes it feel the same?
Superconscious, please treatthe sadness, the grief, the
longing.
Please treat all fear patterns.

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Please treat all shame andguilt, the anger.
Please treat all part-timepersonalities that are ready to
integrate into the mainpersonality so that you can have
more love, more peace, moreflow in your life.

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Please treat with presence andpatience and kindness.
Kindness made you kind.
The wounds of the ego have keptyou separate.
I've kept you hurting, havekept you alone, not your higher

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self.
Breathe in and breathe out.
Now, notice behind this mansitting in the chair across from
you, or this masculine energy,other souls that have created a
similar pain for you.
Notice that you don't need toknow who they are, but allow

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them to stand behind the chairnow, for these cords have been
preventing you from having thelife that you want.
Notice where in your body thesecords are attached.
Is it in your throat or yourspine?
Where are these cords, theseenergetic imprints living in

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your space?
And now we're going to inviteArchangel Michael to come in and
, when you're ready, see hisblade of divine light drop down
and cut those cords, sendingthem back with love, releasing

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them to energy to be healed bythe 10th dimension, to be
removed from your physical body,your energetic body, your
emotional body, your mental body, clearing all cords and
contracts.
Mental body clearing all cordsand contracts, releasing that

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energy now from all of yourchakras, your meridians, release
it back to source for healingand notice that your body may
feel a little bit lighter.
And now we're going to call in alight above your head.
This is the divine light ofhealing and love.
It's a ball of white light justabove your head and connect in

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with it and allow love to flowdown into the top of your head,
all the way down your spine tothe bottom of your feet, into
the center of your head, all theway down your spine to the
bottom of your feet, into thecenter of the earth, where it
connects in and pulls up pinkearth energy from the core of
the earth, pulling that upthrough your feet, your legs,

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your hips, all the way up yourspine, so that you have energy
coming from above, divine love,flowing down into your body,
into every cell of your being,pulling up and grounding you
into earth energy that playful,joyful, nurturing energy that is
available to you.
Pull it up through your feetnow, filling your body with

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grounded, nurturing divine love.
See the energy flowing up anddown and expanded three feet
around your body, allowing yourentire unconscious to be
restructured, reorganized andrecoded in alignment with your

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path of highest potential, inalignment with your path of
highest potential.
See your heart so full of thislove that it just expands out
all around you.
This is your divine birthrightto be returned to love, to
kindness, to be integrated withyour higher self so that you may

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walk your path of highestpotential.
These wounds are no longer yoursto carry.
You are free.
Breathe in and, if you want,send love to the men or
masculine energies across fromyou, returning their energy to

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source, no longer burdened bythe stories, the energy or the
contracts or the cords.
And if you feel ready toforgive, look at the person in
chair number two and say I'msorry, please forgive me, I love

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you, thank you, but just seethis energy coming from above
and flowing out of you, pullingin more divine light, more
divine energy, more universallove, consciousness, so that it
is just flowing out of you, notfrom you, but through you.
And perhaps you'll say ittogether or separate I'm sorry,

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please forgive me, thank you, Ilove you.
I'm sorry, please forgive me,thank you, I love you.
And breathe in and allow thatlight to fill up all of the

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cracks in your heart, theheartache, the pain, the loss,
the grief.
Fill up where the anger oncelived with love.
Fill the sadness with joy, fillthe fear with courage, and fill
the fear with courage and fillthe shame with vulnerability,
compassion, fill every cell ofyour body with love and now see

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the other person and anyone elsewho showed up today simply
dissolving back to energy, backwhere they came from, and take a
deep breath in and out.
And now walking across the fieldis your higher self, the future

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version of you, who has alreadycreated the thing that you want
.
See them standing before you.
How do they move?
What do they look like?
What information do they havefor you on your journey today

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about this problem that you camehere to solve?
What is the solution?
Moving forward, what's the onething you need to know to align
with your path of highestpotential in purpose, in wealth,
in living an empowered life,super conscious.

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Please integrate the higherself in.
Please remove all resistanceand barriers to being fully
integrated and aligned with thehigher self.
Please remove all patterns inthe yeah, yeah, there, thank you
.
Take a deep breath in.
Allow your higher self tosimply merge with you now so
that you are super conscious.
You are the future version ofyou.

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What decisions will you maketoday?
What things will you do oraccomplish?
What hard conversations willyou have?
What will you do that you'vebeen putting off?
What are you committed to doingso that you can live from that

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place of higher consciousness,to be free to have love, peace,
empowerment, to have all of thethings you've ever wanted?
What are you going to do todayto simply be this new version of
you?

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Take a deep breath in, maybe putyour hand on your heart and
give yourself intense gratitudefor being brave and going on
this journey today,superconscious, please ground
all memories we have touchedtoday, including memories one,
two and three, and return themto the matrix of the universe.
You see yourself standing inthis field, knowing it's time to

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return to your life, to returnto your day.
Feel yourself coming back intoyour body now, into the present
moment, the present time, fullyaware, fully conscious.
Perhaps you should just tap onyour chest, bring yourself back

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into your conscious awarenessnow.
Take a deep breath and bringyour awareness back to your body
now.
Feel the weight of yourphysical form, feel your feet
connected to the earth, seegrounding cords coming from the

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bottom of your feet goingstraight into the center of the
earth, grounding you into thepresent moment, the present day,
the present time, thanking allof your guides and ancestors for
helping you on your journeytoday.
All of your guides andancestors for helping you on
your journey today.
Feel the steady rise and fallof your breath, connecting in,

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breathing in and breathing out,bringing you back into your
conscious awareness.
When you are ready, if youhaven't already open your eyes,
write down what you learnedtoday.
Take this knowledge and wisdomwith you and just choose, from

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this moment forward, that youare a sovereign being.
You are no longer the innerchild, you are no longer the one
who was wounded.
You are going to walk your ownpath in your own power.
You are empowered, strong andcourageous.
Be the hero of your own story.
The world needs you to be.

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That was quite a powerfulprocess.
Whoever's listening to this hada lot of energy to shift today.
So I thank you for being onthis call and listening If
you're listening on my podcastand I thank you for being brave
and being willing to look atlife and your life and what

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you've created.
A lot of people start thepersonal transformation journey
and they stop when it gets hardand they stop when the wall of
the I call it the dark night ofthe soul, or the shadow blocks
them from moving on.
And I want to invite you to,like, look at your life and say

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where have I stopped movingforward, because it was time to
explore the shadow.
Where in my life would I likethings to be different?
And also, what do I love aboutmy life?
What do I love that I got frommy father?
Oh, I could give you a list.
I like my blue eyes, my height,I look like my Aunt Sally.

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There's so many things I loveabout that I got from my father
my loyalty, just my commitmentto like love and to loving
people.
Um, I definitely got from myfather.
So am I hard work, ethic andknowing that things will work
out?
And there's just so many giftsthat I got from him in my life.

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And, um, we never want todismiss the beautiful things
that we also got right, likesometimes we have to look at the
hard stuff, but there's so manybeautiful gifts too.
And then, why did your soulpick him to be your dad?
That's always a great question.
Um, because there was a reason,an experience that he had to

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give you that was necessary onyour soul's path.
Give you that was necessary onyour soul's path, and those are
bigger, deeper questions.
But when you're ready, come joinus in the tribe If you're
interested.
I have a membership where weexplore this type of stuff and
also other really cool fun stuffit's not always as heavy every

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week or twice a month Actually,we have close twice a month and
also where you get to learn todevelop your intuition and
integrate with your higher selfand your path of highest
potential.
Thank you so much for being onthis call today.
Now, if you're a Soma Risingmember, I am going to record
this in a beautiful journey withKuan Yin, much like the other
journeys and really like it'sgoing to include a lot more

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ancestral healing and it's areally beautiful journey.
I'll probably publish that byFriday and then, if you're not,
I invite you to come exploreSoma Tribe and see if it's for
you.
You know it's not veryexpensive.
It's only $44 a month.
You can cancel any time.
There's no long-term commitment,but this is one of the things

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that we do and I have a wholelibrary of healing processes in
there that help you shift yourconsciousness and to align with
your higher self.
We would love to have you inthere.
I would love to have you inthere and, yeah, I hope you
enjoyed this today and if youdid and you can think of someone
who might also benefit fromhealing this wound, please share

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it with them, because I thinkthere's a lot of people walking
around with a father wound thatis not serving humanity, like
it's just not serving humankindanymore.
These wounds need to be healedso that we can move on as a
society.
All right, with that, much loveto you and thank you for your

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time, and I look forward topossibly seeing you in the
future.
Take care.