September 22, 2025 • 38 mins
What happens when everything you thought you knew about God, faith, and womanhood begins to crack open?
In this powerful episode of The Femme Cast, healer and priestess Crystal Dawn of Crystal Dawn Alchemy shares her extraordinary journey from growing up as a pastor’s daughter in evangelical Christianity to experiencing a radical spiritual awakening that changed everything.
For years, Crystal lived inside the box of religious conditioning—absorbing the belief that to be “good” meant to obey, submit, and stay small. Her first taste of freedom came in her teens when she began questioning the church’s teachings, but nothing could have prepared her for what came next: eight snakes appearing in her basement over six weeks, igniting an initiation that reconnected her to the suppressed energy of Lilith and unleashed a primordial rage buried in the collective feminine.
Crystal vulnerably reveals what it felt like to hold the shame of breaking her church’s rules, how she discovered that the stories of women in the Bible had been intentionally rewritten, and the moment she realized that Mary Magdalene was not a fallen woman, but a priestess and Yeshua’s equal partner. These revelations shook her foundation and led her to reclaim her body, her voice, and her spiritual sovereignty.
Her story is raw, embodied, and deeply human. From the fear of losing her safe space to the courage of facing spiritual initiations head-on, Crystal shows us that everything we’ve been taught to silence—our intuition, emotions, sexuality, even our rage—may actually be the key to our power.
This episode is not just about breaking free from patriarchy; it’s about remembering who you truly are. If you’ve ever felt silenced, unworthy, or disconnected from your voice, Crystal’s journey will awaken something inside you that has been waiting to rise.
Connect with Crystal:
Instagram @CrystalDawnAlchemy4
Website: www.crystaldawnalchemy.com
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MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (00:00):
Hey guys, what is up and welcome back to
the show.
I am so excited and grateful tohave you guys here.
Welcome if you're new.
I am very excited today because, you'll know, I haven't had a
guest on the show in quite sometime and that was actually very
intentional because I reallyjust want to focus.
I just I really just wanted tofocus for a long time on my
story and my experiences that Iwanted to share with you guys.
But this guest that I have withme today actually, like it
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really required me to break thebubble that I've been in for
quite some time and just haveher on the show.
She is absolutely amazing.
Her name is Crystal Dawn ofthis Crystal Dawn Alchemy and
she is just this spiritual, wildwoman, badass who's on her
sacred reclamation journey, justlike the rest of us.
I have had the pleasure ofworking with her.
She's actually been my healer.
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I've had many sessions with herin the past, so you know she's
powerful.
If I go to her, I just don'twilly-nilly go to anybody.
So, crystal, thank you so muchfor being here.
I am honored to have you on theshow.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (01:03):
Oh , thank you so much.
I am truly honored to be heretoo.
I'm truly honored.
I appreciate everything thatyou just said too.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (01:12):
It's true, it's honestly true and I
followed you for a very longtime and I've always been in
your corner and you've beenthrough a bit of a
transformation, like I've beenfollowing you for a few years
now and you know, there'scrystal before 2025.
And then there's crystal of 20.
And the two are very different,very different.
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You have shared such powerfulcontent in the last few months
and I every time I swear wefunny, funny anecdote.
You guys, like before we likeactually like hopped on and
started recording, like we justkind of started going back and
forth of things we wanted totalk about, and every time we
start mentioning the topic ofthe day I start getting covered
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head to toe in goosebumps.
I'm getting them right now.
We haven't even mentioned ityet, just saying Same to you.
You managed to, and this ispart of I'm just going to set up
the conversation for today.
I grew up Greek Orthodox.
For those of you who don't know, I grew up in the Greek
Orthodox Church, and so myreligious upbringing was very
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traditional, very patriarchal.
I was very conditioned from avery young age, and I can
remember going to church as ayoung child and feeling almost a
sense of anger as to how thepeople in the Bible were being
portrayed, especially the women,everybody in general, but
especially the women.
Something about it felt verydishonest to me, it felt untrue
to me, and I always felt like, Iquestioned, like if God truly
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loved me, why do I have asmaller like?
Why do I not have a seat at thetable like the men do, like.
Why are women treateddifferently?
Right, and for the longest timeI was coming into this
realization that I was afraid toput out there, and you you, my
friend, have been putting it outthere so boldly and so
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powerfully, and it just putvoice to this abstract feeling
that I couldn't articulate,which is how horribly and wildly
misrepresented women were inbiblical times and since, and
how many times it's beenrewritten and, you know,
retranslated to suit apatriarchal world, really.
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So get us started.
What happened to you, whathappened to shift all of this?
I know, right, it literallyhappened overnight and your
message is so powerful and Ijust want you to give us a
minute to share that with us.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (03:38):
Oh , my goodness, the way that you
voiced that, that it justhappened overnight.
Oh, sister, I agree, it'spowerful.
I feel that energy almostsurging through me just
remembering the process of thathappening.
I was born into a veryreligious family.
My dad was a pastor, so I wenthome with church, I lived in
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church, I went to school at thechurch, everything was the
church, and for me that's what Igrew up in, and so my parents,
personally, so loving, alwayssupported me.
My dad always supported mehaving an open mind and thinking
for myself.
However, when you're still inthose spaces, you absorb these
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things.
You absorb who you are, youabsorb who you're supposed to be
.
You absorb when you are shamedfor stepping out of the box.
You create your oh, this is whoI'm supposed to be in order to
be good.
And if I step out of that, I'ma sinner, I'm going to burn for
eternity.
And so you stay in line.
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And for me, the way that I wasraised, it was first it was
evangelical and then it kind ofswitched and turned into
non-denominational, whichessentially was very evangelical
in itself, but there was thiswhole left behind series that
happened and I think I think inmany of the denominations that
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are in the Christian culture,have this whole end times theme
and they talk about you knowwhen Jesus will return and
essentially started going topublic school.
Finally, I was in sixth grade.
I was like there's a wholeworld out here, even though I'm
still in the Midwest.
Everything is just sowhitewashed and there's no
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culture, no culture.
I still was just like, wow,this is such a big world out
here because I hadn't beenexposed to that yet.
But that was my first taste offreedom was public school.
Can you believe that?
Can you imagine?
But that is where I finallystarted to be like I want to
dress like that, I want to dothat, I want to rebel.
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Something inside of me startedto wake up and even though it
was called rebellion I guess inmy eyes looking back, it was
just me looking for myself,trying to find who I was.
Yes, because up until that point, what I had been shown was what
women do are they basicallyjust are mothers, and that's
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what I saw from my own mom andthat's what she wanted to do.
But she I mean, she had me at19.
She was married at 18.
It was I thought, that that'swhat you did in order to be good
, and so that's what I thought.
But then when you start to stepout of that box and you start to
see that other people are doingother things and wow, women
have like dreams of going offand being in a career and my
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life started to take a differentroute and I started to get into
trouble and do all these thingsthat were like not exactly the
way that I was taught.
And essentially, one of thebiggest things that happened for
me was when I was 15 and I hadmy first boyfriend, my first
serious relationship, and Iended up breaking that contract
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that I signed to God when Iturned 13 and put on that
promise ring.
I was going to save myself formy husband right, and I broke
that promise.
And, man, the church had toknow, because my parents needed
prayers, my whole family had toknow, because they needed to
know how to parent me, and itwas just this.
That was that first crackingopen where I saw the cracks in
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the system.
I think where I saw and itactually started to turn my
wheels because I was like thisisn't right, this isn't right
and because, even though I feltextreme shame, I had still been
now around people that weretotally normal and good, people
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who weren't Christian, and thosewere the people who I were told
were going to hell.
There was so many things thatstarted to click in that time
that I was like wait, there'ssomething not right here.
And I obviously had thosefeelings growing up, hearing all
sorts of stories, but you don'ttend to ruminate on them when
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you're a child.
You tend to just say, oh, okay,alright, I get it.
But when the when the cracksstart showing, like it.
then you start to go back andyou start to think okay, wait,
let's reorganize this, let'sstart asking more questions.
And from there I even startedto say I just don't feel like
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I'm a Christian anymore.
And then cut to oh my goodness,so many years later, in 2019,
something happened where I reada book.
It was by Gabby Bernsteinbecause I loved her and I read
her book Super Attractor and shementioned in there something
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about angels and spirit guidesand something about talking
about.
That cracked me open because Ihad been told that you only talk
to Jesus or God Do not talk.
Even when my grandfather passedaway, I remember asking my mom
like can I talk to Papa?
She's like no, you can talk toJesus and Jesus will give Papa
your message.
And I remember.
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Now I'm looking back, I'm likeman, I didn't even get to talk
to my ancestors.
There's so much power in thatalone.
No talk about gatekeeping, ohmy God.
And so this concept of speakingwith your ancestors blew me
wide open, and that, to me, wasthe permission slip I needed to
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really start to step out of thebox, and that's how I ended up
on the path that I have been onfor many, many years of just
like, wow.
We have innate healing powers.
We have ability to see beyondthe 3D.
We have ability to receivemessages from our ancestors or
spirit guides, from angels andother dimensions.
This is amazing.
We are multidimensional and thehealing that comes from that.
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And then cut to the questionthat you had is what was this
big glow up now in this 2025?
And cut to the question thatyou had is what was this big
glow up now in this 2025?
Man, it felt like shit.
Yeah, to be honest, becausewhat it actually was was what
happened.
This is gonna be a long storyAgain.
I feel like I'm just gonna betalking this whole time.
So, go for it.
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Go for it.
So this spring, this spring, Iwas sitting in the basement and
I heard this sound in the walland I was like what?
And my eyes immediately went towhere I heard the sound, of
course, and I see two snakeslooking at me and not in my
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mind's eye I'm talking likeactually real snakes coming out
of the wall in my basementinside, and I was like no, no,
my husband was working up north,doesn't even come home at night
, like he was gone at that point.
He was gone five nights a week,and so it's me, it's on me, I
have to take care of thesesnakes.
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I'm like no, so I'm literallycalling my neighbors Nobody's
home.
I'm like where's?
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (11:20):
everybody.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (11:23):
I had to get these snakes out of
my house and I have two kids and, like it was on me, I had to
get these two snakes out.
Over the course of the next sixweeks, there were eight snakes
in my basement that I had toremove and in that time there
were so many initiations becausewhen, when you end up feeling
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like your safe space is nolonger safe, your nervous system
has to, like, expand, like youhave to be able to, you have to,
you have to hold more thanyou're capable of holding at
that time.
And so I was taking care of theentire house, I was running my
own business, I was parentingtwo children in school and all
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that comes along with all that.
Now I'm dealing with snakes inmy basement and the fact that I
work in my basement like doinghealing sessions, all these
things.
I'm like I can't.
How do I do this anymore?
Through the process of those sixweeks, I was receiving so many
downloads I was connecting with.
I kept saying like, if I'm nota fucking dragon priestess, at
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the end of this, I don't knowwhat's going on, because, like,
what is with these snakes?
And I, obviously, being theperson that I am, have gone
through like things that I wouldcall kundalini awakenings and
I'm like, okay, this is whatthis is.
I've been through this before,but this one was different
because it felt like it wasn'tso much in my higher chakras, it
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was here, it was in my reality.
I was going through an upgradein my lower chakras and that one
is earth shattering.
Now we got by the time it wasthe eighth snake.
I was touching them.
At that point I wasn't nolonger afraid of them.
I mean, they were just gardener.
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To really stop gripping yoursubconscious every time, I had
to start taking my space back,taking my power back from the
situation.
I was speaking to the snakesand recognizing that these were
babies I mean, they were olderat this point, but they were
obviously born in the walls andjust having the compassion for
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them of knowing that they wereborn in the walls They've never
seen nature.
This isn't where they aresupposed to be.
So I'm like returning thesesnakes to nature and something
about that went.
Huh.
Like that had to ruminate in myenergy for a second, and by the
eighth snake, I was sitting outon my deck and I was watching
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the sun go down and I saw in mymind's eye this image of a
woman's hand holding an appleand a snake wrapped around it
and I went oh my God, the Gardenof Eden.
I just got chills, right.
I just got chills.
I'm covered right now.
I was like the Garden of Eden.
I said I was like Eve.
Right now.
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I was like the Garden of Eden.
I said I was like Eve.
Lilith it was Lilith, thisenergy of Lilith trying to come
through me, this energy ofsovereign, wild nature.
I grew up not knowing the storyof Lilith.
She was completely cut out ofany Bible studies, anything like
that.
Some people have known Lilith,but only as like a child eating
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demon or something like that.
There's been many stories.
I think, that people have heardof Lilith.
Me personally, I'd never heardof Lilith until I ended up in
more like occult settings andlike trying to learn and
research these things.
In more like occult settingsand like trying to learn and
research these things.
And I so I didn't.
I hadn't even read a book onlilith, but something about this
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, that whole scenario thisspring.
I was like it's lilith and whenI accepted that, it was almost
as if the the light bulbs onthings started clicking into
place, puzzle pieces started tocreate this picture and all of a
sudden I had this voice.
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I had this ability to put wordsto no idea how to say.
It came online.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (16:04):
And along with it it so much rage, a lot
of rage, yeah, do you thinkthat's?
What do you think that rage isabout?
If you were to like, reflect,because a lot of the work I do
we talked about this online thethe fact that we've been doing
touching into rage a lot in ourwork.
Probably, you know same anddifferent.
What did that rage open up inyou, do you think?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (16:23):
It felt like I was connecting to
the part of the earth that hasbeen screaming in an empty room
so powerful, like I havegoosebumps that just will not go
away.
Right now I feel.
I feel as if that women ingeneral right now, those of us
who have a womb, I should say,and those of us who are
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connected to our energetic wombsbecause it's not just women I
know that there are so manywaking up right now, but there's
something about when youconnect to your energetic womb,
you are connecting to a part ofthe primordial.
Yes, mother, goddess, that isso angry and she's done.
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She is done watching herchildren suffer.
She is done being strippedwithout being given back.
She is, she's just.
She's waking us up.
I'm going to cry right now.
Really, she's waking us up.
She's like you have not been.
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She was stripped from us in ourstories, in what we've been told
and in that we have beenstripped and separated from a
part of ourselves, and that'swhat's coming back in all of us
and it's coming through me,through my voice right now.
But I tell you it's work, it'sscary, it's big, because I'm
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still very much, my family isvery religious still, and I love
that and everything that I justwant to say, everything that I
ever put out onto social media.
Some people take it so personaland I'm like I am not speaking
out and saying that Christiansare horrible people.
I think Christians, manyChristians, are beautiful,
amazing people and havebeautiful hearts.
But what we need to see is thesystems that are in place have
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stripped us, have disconnectedus, have lied to us.
I'm pointing out the systems,I'm calling out the bullshit in
the systems that we have beenliving under, and when voice
gets put to that and words getput to feelings that we've had,
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when things just don't feelright, we feel like we're
missing pieces of the story.
When something finally gets putin place, it's like I
understand now that peoplearen't just following me to
follow's sake.
They resonate.
Something has resonated in themthat they have heard, that I
have said that I have also wokenup to.
This isn't just me.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (18:57):
We are all waking up to this and I think
you touched on something thatwas really important and as we
were sharing, because I had somesimilar stories, similar but
different in my experience, andthat seems to be the golden
thread.
You have this moment ofsomething doesn't feel right
about this, like you can't quitearticulate it, you can't put
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your finger on it, but there'sthat little nudge that is
telling you that something aboutthis isn't right, it isn't
honest, it isn't the whole truth, and I think that's the part
that we need to start payingattention to as we're all moving
through all of this awakeningCause I think it's going to be
so different for everybody,right, like for me.
It was the Pandora box storyand how you know, pandora was
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like you know, she was giventhis box by her husband and she
wasn't supposed to open it andby opening it, she unleashed all
this like negative emotion onhumanity.
And that is where our power Ibelieve that's where a lot of
our power lies, in being able tomove through a lot of those
emotions, and they bring so muchpower and transformation, but
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we've been taught to keep themin a box, right.
And that opening the box wouldbe bad.
So I think we can find so manyexamples through history of
where humans in general, yes,but I think especially women,
have been intentionallydisconnected from our power.
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And you know you shared so manyposts about, like, some of the
biblical stories that we'veheard and the stories that we've
heard about Magdalene, right,very controversial, and you know
there's so your perspective andI'm going to invite you to
share that now, but it was.
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It never made sense to me howthe story was described, you
know, like to me, like, and itwas funny like I always felt
like this sense and I couldn'tarticulate it and you
articulated it so well.
So well, you know thatMagdalene was misrepresented,
yeah, in the bible.
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And then, you know, comingacross, um, you know the fact
that you know she had writtenher own scriptures that never
even, you know, never evenreally saw the light of day,
really, um, that were completelyedited out of the bible.
And now, suddenly, you'regetting this picture of a
Magdalene who wasn't this, youknow whore, that was kind of,
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you know, taken by Jesus andsort of healed and redeemed.
You know, now she's a womanwho's like a divine partner, yep
, and of equal I'm getting.
So Go yes, go Right, pleasetake this Yep.
And of I'm getting, go yes, goright.
Please take this yes, becauseI'm like fumbling for the words.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (21:45):
No , mary Magdalene, truly I feel
she's.
So many of us have heard of theconcept I think of like the
Rose lineage, and I feel likethe Rose lineage is it's almost
like a, and I feel like the roselineage is, it's almost like
it's a part of our DNA thatwe're all connected to and at
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some point it gets activated andwhen that gets activated it
connects us to so many, so muchthat has been distorted.
And one of those threads isthat Mary Magdalene story.
For a lot of us, becausepersonally, for myself, the way
that I saw Mary Magdalene wasthat she was this like troubled
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woman that needed saving and shehad these like seven demons and
all these things.
And when I first people like tosay, oh, she must have read Dan
Brown and all this, like yes, Idid, I did read Dan Brown, but
that's not what.
That's actually not what wokeme up.
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That was really interesting,but it wasn't until I was
actually out of this likeChristian coma of believing what
the Bible had told me to reallybe able to hear what is Mary
Magdalene's story and the bookthat I read and I'm sure so many
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of us have heard of it, butit's Mary Magdalene Revealed by
Megan Watterson and that book.
Because Megan Watterson andthat book?
Because Megan Watterson hasbeen a scholar.
I believe she's in theology.
She went to be a minister andshe ended up on this pilgrimage
and finding out all of thesetruths that have been hidden
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from us about Mary Magdalene andher path and who she actually
was.
And it was like I was walkingthrough my own awakening just
reading the truth of MaryMagdalene.
And when you find out who sheactually was and her influence
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in the rebellion that Yeshua led, it's like you are like, wow,
there I am.
That's the part of the story Ifelt like has always been
missing.
That's a powerful woman rightthere, and then you can
recognize a part of yourself inthat, because who she actually
was is she was born into a verywealthy family.
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She was put through mysteryschool, she was trained in
energetics, she was trained inkundalini.
She was trained in all of thesethings.
She was well-cultured and veryworldly, and when her and Yeshua
were introduced, they had asimilar calling and so they went
together on this pilgrimage ofspreading this knowledge with
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people and waking them up fromthis empire.
I don't even know what to callit, but it's like this empire
coma, this belief that you needto worship the empire, you need
to worship these lords, you needto worship these people above
you and you need to pay them forsacrifices, these people above
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you, and you need to pay themfor sacrifices and all there's.
There's so much that ends upgetting unraveled when you walk
through that story of MaryMagdalene and who she actually
was.
Because she was a priestess,she was honored, those seven
demons.
That was just her story ofwalking through her own personal
growth.
Yeah, and because she also wasin a very suppressed time where
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women were.
Yes, a very suppressed time.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (25:32):
Women were not seen as powerful at all in
that time, and she was spreadinga very important message that
has been suppressed even to thisday, and I think even a woman
who showed up in that time anddid share a powerful message,
especially one that might haveirked a few feathers, would have
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earned herself a good stoningat the time for doing things
like that.
Because, you know, when youlook at the stories of the Bible
and how they've been translatedand rewritten time and time
again, you have to ask yourselfwho benefits from how the
stories are written.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEM (26:15):
Ding , ding ding.
That's the right question.
Right, you gotta follow themoney.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (26:19):
People Like you gotta ask yourself who is
benefiting from, how thesestories are written.
And you also have to askyourself and this is the
question that has been coming upfor me so hard this year, so
hard and the question is, ifthey have tried so hard to keep
us in a disempowered state, howpowerful actually are we?
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Yeah, absolutely, when we startto let go of these beliefs that
, like you said, it's bad toconnect with your intuition,
it's bad to talk to spirits,it's bad to be in your power,
it's bad to heal, to teach allthese things.
There's so many things thathave we have been kept from,
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that are literally the source toall of the, the, the power that
we bring to the table, and thathas been very intentional.
I don't think it was not anaccident, you know.
So now I think we're all inthis place where I think you
know we're, we're seeing rightwhere that, that oppression is
kind of, instead of you know,we're going backwards, right,
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we're feeling more oppressedthan ever, we're feeling more
like tight, like tight in a box,like closed in the box, than we
ever have.
And I think you're right and Ithink that this is signaling a
powerful awakening for women,humanity in general, but I'm
speaking specifically to women,because there's so much that we
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are capable of that has beenkept from us, hidden from us
that we have been, you know,powers that we have the ability
to tap into, that we have beenmade to feel ashamed of or bad
for, and I think that's, I thinkthat's the key in all of this,
and I know you've been throughthis journey and we're about to
get cut off for time, so I'mgoing to have to probably
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restart this interview, but, ifyou can, quickly, you know, say
to the women listening to thisepisode so much to unpack here,
so many ways this conversationcould go, but what would be your
best advice if you were likethe big sister in the room, as
these events unfold and as thetriggers, we start to feel the
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trigger, we start to feel theoppression, we start to have
those thoughts of something'snot right.
How do they move through that?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (28:48):
Oh , my goodness, that's a big
question, but the few thingsthat have come up just with that
for me is keep remindingyourself that who benefits if
you do not trust your gut?
Who benefits if you don't trustyour instincts?
Who benefits if you don't askquestions?
And also who benefits with youfeeling helpless Because if you
can continue to feel, and alsowho benefits with you feeling
helpless Because if you cancontinue to feel helpless.
They want us closing our eyesand bowing our heads and staying
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silent, and that's what we weretold is good is to close your
eyes, bow your head, sendthoughts and prayers, but where
change happens is when youactually use your voice.
Your voice is so fuckingpowerful.
Look at what happened when Istarted using my voice, to what
I really felt rage about insideof my body and I started to use
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that rage as construct, like,actually use it and say like,
this is how I'm expressing it,how I'm going to let it out of
my body is to just sayeverything that I'm feeling.
I recognize that I am not theonly one and it empowers people
to pave that way, to say no, saywhat's scary, because it's
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powerful.
It changes so much the power ofyour voice, it's even in the
Bible.
You change the world with it.
You can mold things, you canmove mountains.
It's so powerful, so say thedamn thing.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (30:07):
It is.
It is really powerful, and Ican attest to that because I can
remember the goosebumps I feltwhen I read your post Right, and
it was like, oh my God, finallysomebody is saying everything
that I've been feeling for solong and I could not articulate.
So, thank you, thank you somuch for that, and I will like I
will say that you know, tomirror what you were talking
about, you know of, you know thewhole, you know questioning
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what you've been told andquestioning you know who
benefits from it.
And just being able tochallenge everything that you've
kind of believed to be true isthe best way that I can kind of
sum it up and just finding anoutlet to share all that.
And also, you know remindingyourself that everything and
this is something that you knowI kind of sat with for quite
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some time everything that you'vebeen taught to feel bad for,
that is innately part of you.
That's something to look at,because we've been taught to
feel bad for so many things likeour sexuality, our bodies, our
feelings, whether they're good,whether they're bad, whether
they're ugly, all of it, andeven the whole intuitive piece,
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because I'm somebody who was anintuitive from a very young age
and was made to feel bad for it,and so I shut that shit down
quickly because I thought it wasevil.
Right, I thought, connectingwith spirit and connecting with
the other side and havingpremonition all evil Everything.
So my takeaway from all of thisis everything that you've ever
felt ashamed from or been toldto feel bad for, that's where
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the questioning and theunraveling really truly and
powerfully needs to needs tobegin, because that's where I
think a lot of it is hidden,because everything that we've
been taught to avoid or to feelbad for, or to hide or to feel
shamed of, we've beenintentionally told that, because
that is specifically where ourpower lies.
Yes, oh, I love that you saidthat.
Yep, oh my God, crystal, it wassuch an honor to have you on
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the show today.
Where can people find you andget?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEM (32:06):
more of all of this goodness that
you're putting out into theworld, Because I think everybody
needs it.
Yes, absolutely so.
On Instagram I am most, I ammostly on Instagram.
Yes, TikTok as well, but it'spissing me off lately, but
Instagram you can find me atCrystal Dawn Alchemy 4.
And then TikTok is just CrystalDawn Alchemy.
I also have a website.
That's where you can find mymystery school.
It's the 13th Sacred RitesMystery School.
(32:26):
You can find information on anyfuture retreats.
You can also find my booklibrary, the library of all the
books that I recommend and haveread at wwwcrystaldawnalchemycom
.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (32:38):
Oh my gosh, thank you so much for being
here and if you do follow her onInstagram, you will often see
me in the comments just sayingso, crystal, thank you so much.
I cannot wait to have you back.
I hope we can have like an openinvitation so we can kind of
check in?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (32:51):
I would love to yes.
Thank you Amazing.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (32:53):
Thank you so much and thank you all of you
for tuning in.
If you like this episode,please leave a positive rating
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Hey guys, what is up and welcome back to
the show.
I am so excited and grateful tohave you guys here.
Welcome if you're new.
I am very excited today because, you'll know, I haven't had a
guest on the show in quite sometime and that was actually very
intentional because I reallyjust want to focus.
I just I really just wanted tofocus for a long time on my
story and my experiences that Iwanted to share with you guys.
But this guest that I have withme today actually, like it
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really required me to break thebubble that I've been in for
quite some time and just haveher on the show.
She is absolutely amazing.
Her name is Crystal Dawn ofthis Crystal Dawn Alchemy and
she is just this spiritual, wildwoman, badass who's on her
sacred reclamation journey, justlike the rest of us.
I have had the pleasure ofworking with her.
She's actually been my healer.
(00:50):
I've had many sessions with herin the past, so you know she's
powerful.
If I go to her, I just don'twilly-nilly go to anybody.
So, crystal, thank you so muchfor being here.
I am honored to have you on theshow.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (01:03):
Oh , thank you so much.
I am truly honored to be heretoo.
I'm truly honored.
I appreciate everything thatyou just said too.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (01:12):
It's true, it's honestly true and I
followed you for a very longtime and I've always been in
your corner and you've beenthrough a bit of a
transformation, like I've beenfollowing you for a few years
now and you know, there'scrystal before 2025.
And then there's crystal of 20.
And the two are very different,very different.
(01:33):
You have shared such powerfulcontent in the last few months
and I every time I swear wefunny, funny anecdote.
You guys, like before we likeactually like hopped on and
started recording, like we justkind of started going back and
forth of things we wanted totalk about, and every time we
start mentioning the topic ofthe day I start getting covered
(01:53):
head to toe in goosebumps.
I'm getting them right now.
We haven't even mentioned ityet, just saying Same to you.
You managed to, and this ispart of I'm just going to set up
the conversation for today.
I grew up Greek Orthodox.
For those of you who don't know, I grew up in the Greek
Orthodox Church, and so myreligious upbringing was very
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traditional, very patriarchal.
I was very conditioned from avery young age, and I can
remember going to church as ayoung child and feeling almost a
sense of anger as to how thepeople in the Bible were being
portrayed, especially the women,everybody in general, but
especially the women.
Something about it felt verydishonest to me, it felt untrue
to me, and I always felt like, Iquestioned, like if God truly
(02:38):
loved me, why do I have asmaller like?
Why do I not have a seat at thetable like the men do, like.
Why are women treateddifferently?
Right, and for the longest timeI was coming into this
realization that I was afraid toput out there, and you you, my
friend, have been putting it outthere so boldly and so
(03:01):
powerfully, and it just putvoice to this abstract feeling
that I couldn't articulate,which is how horribly and wildly
misrepresented women were inbiblical times and since, and
how many times it's beenrewritten and, you know,
retranslated to suit apatriarchal world, really.
(03:22):
So get us started.
What happened to you, whathappened to shift all of this?
I know, right, it literallyhappened overnight and your
message is so powerful and Ijust want you to give us a
minute to share that with us.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (03:38):
Oh , my goodness, the way that you
voiced that, that it justhappened overnight.
Oh, sister, I agree, it'spowerful.
I feel that energy almostsurging through me just
remembering the process of thathappening.
I was born into a veryreligious family.
My dad was a pastor, so I wenthome with church, I lived in
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church, I went to school at thechurch, everything was the
church, and for me that's what Igrew up in, and so my parents,
personally, so loving, alwayssupported me.
My dad always supported mehaving an open mind and thinking
for myself.
However, when you're still inthose spaces, you absorb these
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things.
You absorb who you are, youabsorb who you're supposed to be
.
You absorb when you are shamedfor stepping out of the box.
You create your oh, this is whoI'm supposed to be in order to
be good.
And if I step out of that, I'ma sinner, I'm going to burn for
eternity.
And so you stay in line.
(04:43):
And for me, the way that I wasraised, it was first it was
evangelical and then it kind ofswitched and turned into
non-denominational, whichessentially was very evangelical
in itself, but there was thiswhole left behind series that
happened and I think I think inmany of the denominations that
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are in the Christian culture,have this whole end times theme
and they talk about you knowwhen Jesus will return and
essentially started going topublic school.
Finally, I was in sixth grade.
I was like there's a wholeworld out here, even though I'm
still in the Midwest.
Everything is just sowhitewashed and there's no
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culture, no culture.
I still was just like, wow,this is such a big world out
here because I hadn't beenexposed to that yet.
But that was my first taste offreedom was public school.
Can you believe that?
Can you imagine?
But that is where I finallystarted to be like I want to
dress like that, I want to dothat, I want to rebel.
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Something inside of me startedto wake up and even though it
was called rebellion I guess inmy eyes looking back, it was
just me looking for myself,trying to find who I was.
Yes, because up until that point, what I had been shown was what
women do are they basicallyjust are mothers, and that's
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what I saw from my own mom andthat's what she wanted to do.
But she I mean, she had me at19.
She was married at 18.
It was I thought, that that'swhat you did in order to be good
, and so that's what I thought.
But then when you start to stepout of that box and you start to
see that other people are doingother things and wow, women
have like dreams of going offand being in a career and my
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life started to take a differentroute and I started to get into
trouble and do all these thingsthat were like not exactly the
way that I was taught.
And essentially, one of thebiggest things that happened for
me was when I was 15 and I hadmy first boyfriend, my first
serious relationship, and Iended up breaking that contract
(07:12):
that I signed to God when Iturned 13 and put on that
promise ring.
I was going to save myself formy husband right, and I broke
that promise.
And, man, the church had toknow, because my parents needed
prayers, my whole family had toknow, because they needed to
know how to parent me, and itwas just this.
That was that first crackingopen where I saw the cracks in
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the system.
I think where I saw and itactually started to turn my
wheels because I was like thisisn't right, this isn't right
and because, even though I feltextreme shame, I had still been
now around people that weretotally normal and good, people
(08:03):
who weren't Christian, and thosewere the people who I were told
were going to hell.
There was so many things thatstarted to click in that time
that I was like wait, there'ssomething not right here.
And I obviously had thosefeelings growing up, hearing all
sorts of stories, but you don'ttend to ruminate on them when
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you're a child.
You tend to just say, oh, okay,alright, I get it.
But when the when the cracksstart showing, like it.
then you start to go back andyou start to think okay, wait,
let's reorganize this, let'sstart asking more questions.
And from there I even startedto say I just don't feel like
(08:46):
I'm a Christian anymore.
And then cut to oh my goodness,so many years later, in 2019,
something happened where I reada book.
It was by Gabby Bernsteinbecause I loved her and I read
her book Super Attractor and shementioned in there something
(09:06):
about angels and spirit guidesand something about talking
about.
That cracked me open because Ihad been told that you only talk
to Jesus or God Do not talk.
Even when my grandfather passedaway, I remember asking my mom
like can I talk to Papa?
She's like no, you can talk toJesus and Jesus will give Papa
your message.
And I remember.
(09:27):
Now I'm looking back, I'm likeman, I didn't even get to talk
to my ancestors.
There's so much power in thatalone.
No talk about gatekeeping, ohmy God.
And so this concept of speakingwith your ancestors blew me
wide open, and that, to me, wasthe permission slip I needed to
(09:49):
really start to step out of thebox, and that's how I ended up
on the path that I have been onfor many, many years of just
like, wow.
We have innate healing powers.
We have ability to see beyondthe 3D.
We have ability to receivemessages from our ancestors or
spirit guides, from angels andother dimensions.
This is amazing.
We are multidimensional and thehealing that comes from that.
(10:12):
And then cut to the questionthat you had is what was this
big glow up now in this 2025?
And cut to the question thatyou had is what was this big
glow up now in this 2025?
Man, it felt like shit.
Yeah, to be honest, becausewhat it actually was was what
happened.
This is gonna be a long storyAgain.
I feel like I'm just gonna betalking this whole time.
So, go for it.
(10:34):
Go for it.
So this spring, this spring, Iwas sitting in the basement and
I heard this sound in the walland I was like what?
And my eyes immediately went towhere I heard the sound, of
course, and I see two snakeslooking at me and not in my
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mind's eye I'm talking likeactually real snakes coming out
of the wall in my basementinside, and I was like no, no,
my husband was working up north,doesn't even come home at night
, like he was gone at that point.
He was gone five nights a week,and so it's me, it's on me, I
have to take care of thesesnakes.
(11:16):
I'm like no, so I'm literallycalling my neighbors Nobody's
home.
I'm like where's?
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (11:20):
everybody.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (11:23):
I had to get these snakes out of
my house and I have two kids and, like it was on me, I had to
get these two snakes out.
Over the course of the next sixweeks, there were eight snakes
in my basement that I had toremove and in that time there
were so many initiations becausewhen, when you end up feeling
(11:48):
like your safe space is nolonger safe, your nervous system
has to, like, expand, like youhave to be able to, you have to,
you have to hold more thanyou're capable of holding at
that time.
And so I was taking care of theentire house, I was running my
own business, I was parentingtwo children in school and all
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that comes along with all that.
Now I'm dealing with snakes inmy basement and the fact that I
work in my basement like doinghealing sessions, all these
things.
I'm like I can't.
How do I do this anymore?
Through the process of those sixweeks, I was receiving so many
downloads I was connecting with.
I kept saying like, if I'm nota fucking dragon priestess, at
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the end of this, I don't knowwhat's going on, because, like,
what is with these snakes?
And I, obviously, being theperson that I am, have gone
through like things that I wouldcall kundalini awakenings and
I'm like, okay, this is whatthis is.
I've been through this before,but this one was different
because it felt like it wasn'tso much in my higher chakras, it
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was here, it was in my reality.
I was going through an upgradein my lower chakras and that one
is earth shattering.
Now we got by the time it wasthe eighth snake.
I was touching them.
At that point I wasn't nolonger afraid of them.
I mean, they were just gardener.
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To really stop gripping yoursubconscious every time, I had
to start taking my space back,taking my power back from the
situation.
I was speaking to the snakesand recognizing that these were
babies I mean, they were olderat this point, but they were
obviously born in the walls andjust having the compassion for
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them of knowing that they wereborn in the walls They've never
seen nature.
This isn't where they aresupposed to be.
So I'm like returning thesesnakes to nature and something
about that went.
Huh.
Like that had to ruminate in myenergy for a second, and by the
eighth snake, I was sitting outon my deck and I was watching
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the sun go down and I saw in mymind's eye this image of a
woman's hand holding an appleand a snake wrapped around it
and I went oh my God, the Gardenof Eden.
I just got chills, right.
I just got chills.
I'm covered right now.
I was like the Garden of Eden.
I said I was like Eve.
Right now.
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I was like the Garden of Eden.
I said I was like Eve.
Lilith it was Lilith, thisenergy of Lilith trying to come
through me, this energy ofsovereign, wild nature.
I grew up not knowing the storyof Lilith.
She was completely cut out ofany Bible studies, anything like
that.
Some people have known Lilith,but only as like a child eating
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demon or something like that.
There's been many stories.
I think, that people have heardof Lilith.
Me personally, I'd never heardof Lilith until I ended up in
more like occult settings andlike trying to learn and
research these things.
In more like occult settingsand like trying to learn and
research these things.
And I so I didn't.
I hadn't even read a book onlilith, but something about this
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, that whole scenario thisspring.
I was like it's lilith and whenI accepted that, it was almost
as if the the light bulbs onthings started clicking into
place, puzzle pieces started tocreate this picture and all of a
sudden I had this voice.
(15:27):
I had this ability to put wordsto no idea how to say.
It came online.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (16:04):
And along with it it so much rage, a lot
of rage, yeah, do you thinkthat's?
What do you think that rage isabout?
If you were to like, reflect,because a lot of the work I do
we talked about this online thethe fact that we've been doing
touching into rage a lot in ourwork.
Probably, you know same anddifferent.
What did that rage open up inyou, do you think?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (16:23):
It felt like I was connecting to
the part of the earth that hasbeen screaming in an empty room
so powerful, like I havegoosebumps that just will not go
away.
Right now I feel.
I feel as if that women ingeneral right now, those of us
who have a womb, I should say,and those of us who are
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connected to our energetic wombsbecause it's not just women I
know that there are so manywaking up right now, but there's
something about when youconnect to your energetic womb,
you are connecting to a part ofthe primordial.
Yes, mother, goddess, that isso angry and she's done.
(17:06):
She is done watching herchildren suffer.
She is done being strippedwithout being given back.
She is, she's just.
She's waking us up.
I'm going to cry right now.
Really, she's waking us up.
She's like you have not been.
(17:26):
She was stripped from us in ourstories, in what we've been told
and in that we have beenstripped and separated from a
part of ourselves, and that'swhat's coming back in all of us
and it's coming through me,through my voice right now.
But I tell you it's work, it'sscary, it's big, because I'm
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still very much, my family isvery religious still, and I love
that and everything that I justwant to say, everything that I
ever put out onto social media.
Some people take it so personaland I'm like I am not speaking
out and saying that Christiansare horrible people.
I think Christians, manyChristians, are beautiful,
amazing people and havebeautiful hearts.
But what we need to see is thesystems that are in place have
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stripped us, have disconnectedus, have lied to us.
I'm pointing out the systems,I'm calling out the bullshit in
the systems that we have beenliving under, and when voice
gets put to that and words getput to feelings that we've had,
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when things just don't feelright, we feel like we're
missing pieces of the story.
When something finally gets putin place, it's like I
understand now that peoplearen't just following me to
follow's sake.
They resonate.
Something has resonated in themthat they have heard, that I
have said that I have also wokenup to.
This isn't just me.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (18:57):
We are all waking up to this and I think
you touched on something thatwas really important and as we
were sharing, because I had somesimilar stories, similar but
different in my experience, andthat seems to be the golden
thread.
You have this moment ofsomething doesn't feel right
about this, like you can't quitearticulate it, you can't put
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your finger on it, but there'sthat little nudge that is
telling you that something aboutthis isn't right, it isn't
honest, it isn't the whole truth, and I think that's the part
that we need to start payingattention to as we're all moving
through all of this awakeningCause I think it's going to be
so different for everybody,right, like for me.
It was the Pandora box storyand how you know, pandora was
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like you know, she was giventhis box by her husband and she
wasn't supposed to open it andby opening it, she unleashed all
this like negative emotion onhumanity.
And that is where our power Ibelieve that's where a lot of
our power lies, in being able tomove through a lot of those
emotions, and they bring so muchpower and transformation, but
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we've been taught to keep themin a box, right.
And that opening the box wouldbe bad.
So I think we can find so manyexamples through history of
where humans in general, yes,but I think especially women,
have been intentionallydisconnected from our power.
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And you know you shared so manyposts about, like, some of the
biblical stories that we'veheard and the stories that we've
heard about Magdalene, right,very controversial, and you know
there's so your perspective andI'm going to invite you to
share that now, but it was.
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It never made sense to me howthe story was described, you
know, like to me, like, and itwas funny like I always felt
like this sense and I couldn'tarticulate it and you
articulated it so well.
So well, you know thatMagdalene was misrepresented,
yeah, in the bible.
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And then, you know, comingacross, um, you know the fact
that you know she had writtenher own scriptures that never
even, you know, never evenreally saw the light of day,
really, um, that were completelyedited out of the bible.
And now, suddenly, you'regetting this picture of a
Magdalene who wasn't this, youknow whore, that was kind of,
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you know, taken by Jesus andsort of healed and redeemed.
You know, now she's a womanwho's like a divine partner, yep
, and of equal I'm getting.
So Go yes, go Right, pleasetake this Yep.
And of I'm getting, go yes, goright.
Please take this yes, becauseI'm like fumbling for the words.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (21:45):
No , mary Magdalene, truly I feel
she's.
So many of us have heard of theconcept I think of like the
Rose lineage, and I feel likethe Rose lineage is it's almost
like a, and I feel like the roselineage is, it's almost like
it's a part of our DNA thatwe're all connected to and at
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some point it gets activated andwhen that gets activated it
connects us to so many, so muchthat has been distorted.
And one of those threads isthat Mary Magdalene story.
For a lot of us, becausepersonally, for myself, the way
that I saw Mary Magdalene wasthat she was this like troubled
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woman that needed saving and shehad these like seven demons and
all these things.
And when I first people like tosay, oh, she must have read Dan
Brown and all this, like yes, Idid, I did read Dan Brown, but
that's not what.
That's actually not what wokeme up.
(22:50):
That was really interesting,but it wasn't until I was
actually out of this likeChristian coma of believing what
the Bible had told me to reallybe able to hear what is Mary
Magdalene's story and the bookthat I read and I'm sure so many
(23:12):
of us have heard of it, butit's Mary Magdalene Revealed by
Megan Watterson and that book.
Because Megan Watterson andthat book?
Because Megan Watterson hasbeen a scholar.
I believe she's in theology.
She went to be a minister andshe ended up on this pilgrimage
and finding out all of thesetruths that have been hidden
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from us about Mary Magdalene andher path and who she actually
was.
And it was like I was walkingthrough my own awakening just
reading the truth of MaryMagdalene.
And when you find out who sheactually was and her influence
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in the rebellion that Yeshua led, it's like you are like, wow,
there I am.
That's the part of the story Ifelt like has always been
missing.
That's a powerful woman rightthere, and then you can
recognize a part of yourself inthat, because who she actually
was is she was born into a verywealthy family.
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She was put through mysteryschool, she was trained in
energetics, she was trained inkundalini.
She was trained in all of thesethings.
She was well-cultured and veryworldly, and when her and Yeshua
were introduced, they had asimilar calling and so they went
together on this pilgrimage ofspreading this knowledge with
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people and waking them up fromthis empire.
I don't even know what to callit, but it's like this empire
coma, this belief that you needto worship the empire, you need
to worship these lords, you needto worship these people above
you and you need to pay them forsacrifices, these people above
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you, and you need to pay themfor sacrifices and all there's.
There's so much that ends upgetting unraveled when you walk
through that story of MaryMagdalene and who she actually
was.
Because she was a priestess,she was honored, those seven
demons.
That was just her story ofwalking through her own personal
growth.
Yeah, and because she also wasin a very suppressed time where
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women were.
Yes, a very suppressed time.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (25:32):
Women were not seen as powerful at all in
that time, and she was spreadinga very important message that
has been suppressed even to thisday, and I think even a woman
who showed up in that time anddid share a powerful message,
especially one that might haveirked a few feathers, would have
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earned herself a good stoningat the time for doing things
like that.
Because, you know, when youlook at the stories of the Bible
and how they've been translatedand rewritten time and time
again, you have to ask yourselfwho benefits from how the
stories are written.
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEM (26:15):
Ding , ding ding.
That's the right question.
Right, you gotta follow themoney.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (26:19):
People Like you gotta ask yourself who is
benefiting from, how thesestories are written.
And you also have to askyourself and this is the
question that has been coming upfor me so hard this year, so
hard and the question is, ifthey have tried so hard to keep
us in a disempowered state, howpowerful actually are we?
(26:42):
Yeah, absolutely, when we startto let go of these beliefs that
, like you said, it's bad toconnect with your intuition,
it's bad to talk to spirits,it's bad to be in your power,
it's bad to heal, to teach allthese things.
There's so many things thathave we have been kept from,
(27:04):
that are literally the source toall of the, the, the power that
we bring to the table, and thathas been very intentional.
I don't think it was not anaccident, you know.
So now I think we're all inthis place where I think you
know we're, we're seeing rightwhere that, that oppression is
kind of, instead of you know,we're going backwards, right,
(27:26):
we're feeling more oppressedthan ever, we're feeling more
like tight, like tight in a box,like closed in the box, than we
ever have.
And I think you're right and Ithink that this is signaling a
powerful awakening for women,humanity in general, but I'm
speaking specifically to women,because there's so much that we
(27:49):
are capable of that has beenkept from us, hidden from us
that we have been, you know,powers that we have the ability
to tap into, that we have beenmade to feel ashamed of or bad
for, and I think that's, I thinkthat's the key in all of this,
and I know you've been throughthis journey and we're about to
get cut off for time, so I'mgoing to have to probably
(28:10):
restart this interview, but, ifyou can, quickly, you know, say
to the women listening to thisepisode so much to unpack here,
so many ways this conversationcould go, but what would be your
best advice if you were likethe big sister in the room, as
these events unfold and as thetriggers, we start to feel the
(28:33):
trigger, we start to feel theoppression, we start to have
those thoughts of something'snot right.
How do they move through that?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (28:48):
Oh , my goodness, that's a big
question, but the few thingsthat have come up just with that
for me is keep remindingyourself that who benefits if
you do not trust your gut?
Who benefits if you don't trustyour instincts?
Who benefits if you don't askquestions?
And also who benefits with youfeeling helpless Because if you
can continue to feel, and alsowho benefits with you feeling
helpless Because if you cancontinue to feel helpless.
They want us closing our eyesand bowing our heads and staying
(29:09):
silent, and that's what we weretold is good is to close your
eyes, bow your head, sendthoughts and prayers, but where
change happens is when youactually use your voice.
Your voice is so fuckingpowerful.
Look at what happened when Istarted using my voice, to what
I really felt rage about insideof my body and I started to use
(29:31):
that rage as construct, like,actually use it and say like,
this is how I'm expressing it,how I'm going to let it out of
my body is to just sayeverything that I'm feeling.
I recognize that I am not theonly one and it empowers people
to pave that way, to say no, saywhat's scary, because it's
(29:51):
powerful.
It changes so much the power ofyour voice, it's even in the
Bible.
You change the world with it.
You can mold things, you canmove mountains.
It's so powerful, so say thedamn thing.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (30:07):
It is.
It is really powerful, and Ican attest to that because I can
remember the goosebumps I feltwhen I read your post Right, and
it was like, oh my God, finallysomebody is saying everything
that I've been feeling for solong and I could not articulate.
So, thank you, thank you somuch for that, and I will like I
will say that you know, tomirror what you were talking
about, you know of, you know thewhole, you know questioning
(30:31):
what you've been told andquestioning you know who
benefits from it.
And just being able tochallenge everything that you've
kind of believed to be true isthe best way that I can kind of
sum it up and just finding anoutlet to share all that.
And also, you know remindingyourself that everything and
this is something that you knowI kind of sat with for quite
(30:52):
some time everything that you'vebeen taught to feel bad for,
that is innately part of you.
That's something to look at,because we've been taught to
feel bad for so many things likeour sexuality, our bodies, our
feelings, whether they're good,whether they're bad, whether
they're ugly, all of it, andeven the whole intuitive piece,
(31:14):
because I'm somebody who was anintuitive from a very young age
and was made to feel bad for it,and so I shut that shit down
quickly because I thought it wasevil.
Right, I thought, connectingwith spirit and connecting with
the other side and havingpremonition all evil Everything.
So my takeaway from all of thisis everything that you've ever
felt ashamed from or been toldto feel bad for, that's where
(31:36):
the questioning and theunraveling really truly and
powerfully needs to needs tobegin, because that's where I
think a lot of it is hidden,because everything that we've
been taught to avoid or to feelbad for, or to hide or to feel
shamed of, we've beenintentionally told that, because
that is specifically where ourpower lies.
Yes, oh, I love that you saidthat.
Yep, oh my God, crystal, it wassuch an honor to have you on
(31:59):
the show today.
Where can people find you andget?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEM (32:06):
more of all of this goodness that
you're putting out into theworld, Because I think everybody
needs it.
Yes, absolutely so.
On Instagram I am most, I ammostly on Instagram.
Yes, TikTok as well, but it'spissing me off lately, but
Instagram you can find me atCrystal Dawn Alchemy 4.
And then TikTok is just CrystalDawn Alchemy.
I also have a website.
That's where you can find mymystery school.
It's the 13th Sacred RitesMystery School.
(32:26):
You can find information on anyfuture retreats.
You can also find my booklibrary, the library of all the
books that I recommend and haveread at wwwcrystaldawnalchemycom
.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (32:38):
Oh my gosh, thank you so much for being
here and if you do follow her onInstagram, you will often see
me in the comments just sayingso, crystal, thank you so much.
I cannot wait to have you back.
I hope we can have like an openinvitation so we can kind of
check in?
CRYSTAL @CRYSTALDAWNALCHEMY4 (32:51):
I would love to yes.
Thank you Amazing.
MARIA @THEFEMMECAST (32:53):
Thank you so much and thank you all of you
for tuning in.
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