August 18, 2025 • 42 mins
This week on The Heavyweight Podcast, we’re having a real conversation about identity and self-discovery. We open up about who we really are when no one is watching, what we’ve had to unlearn, and the boundaries we’ve learned to set.
It’s a vulnerable discussion about growth, survival, and becoming your authentic self—one that will have you thinking about the parts of you that rarely see the light of day.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to the Heavyweight Podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:04):
The message behind saying the title of the
Heavyweight Podcast is to beable to say that we can weigh in
on some heavy shit.
What we're talking about isimportant from every aspect of
it.
It's a heavy weight.
It's not just about physicalweight, but the weight of things
that can weigh our minds.
So I think it's dope that wecan have this conversation minds
.
So I think it's dope that wecan have this conversation.
Speaker 3 (00:27):
The reason I don't go to the gym is because I don't
like being there by myself.
I'd be stressed the fuck out.
So would my wife.
I'd be stressed the fuck out.
I can't go with her because,baby, she could pick me up.
Speaker 1 (00:35):
Take some AI glasses and just talk to her.
Speaker 3 (00:37):
Baby and throw me, and you're not by yourself.
That's a strong-ass lady, heyman.
Speaker 1 (00:42):
How are you today?
Speaker 4 (00:44):
Honestly, like honestly, the gym is actually
safe for girls because most guysdon't want to be accused.
Speaker 2 (00:48):
They don't want the trouble.
Speaker 4 (00:49):
Don't want to be accused of shit, so they avoid
girls all the time.
It's going to be the othergirls that talk to you.
Speaker 3 (00:53):
I don't know what the equipment.
Like some of it.
Speaker 2 (01:00):
Nigga, there's YouTube and TikTok.
Did he say TikTok?
Speaker 3 (01:05):
Yeah, he did, he did, he did, he did.
Speaker 1 (01:14):
Yep, I'll shut down.
I'll shut down, I'm done, I'mover it.
Speaker 2 (01:18):
Nigga said TikTok, I'm over it All right, let's go,
let's roll.
Speaker 4 (01:23):
That's my new app.
Speaker 1 (01:24):
That's my new date app.
This needs to be done in 15minutes.
Alright, girl, I'm over this,let's go you up with Dick Todd
let's record okay, what's?
Speaker 4 (01:34):
wrong with Dick Todd girl?
Speaker 3 (01:35):
John Wayne okay what episode number is this 180?
86 okay, the most importantperson for you to know is
yourself.
Today, we are going to talkabout some concepts that really
will highlight things aboutyourself that maybe the world
didn't know and you're willingto share.
Today.
I am Desi Diva.
(01:55):
This is episode 210.
And I'm back again with mythree favorite gentlemen and one
of my new faves what's up man?
What's up, what's up it?
Of my new faves.
Speaker 5 (02:05):
What's up, man?
What's up, what's up?
It's Pat on the building.
Speaker 3 (02:07):
What's up, Pat?
What's up Guys?
Introduce yourself.
Y'all know this routine, youknow the routine.
Speaker 1 (02:14):
Oh, my bad, I'm Screenshot Jack.
Speaker 3 (02:16):
Oh my gosh, what is Screenshot?
Speaker 1 (02:18):
Hey, he said he got the receipt.
Hey, screenshot jack, that's mejack got the receipt.
Speaker 4 (02:25):
It's your boy.
Speaker 2 (02:26):
Positivity, oh my god once again huh, I'm the often
shy, the guy they call mcfly and, as I mentioned, I am your girl
.
Speaker 3 (02:41):
There's a diva.
How was your weeks?
Speaker 1 (02:44):
a smorgasbord Fuck it .
Speaker 2 (02:48):
Of meat Paws.
Speaker 1 (02:52):
That makes yourself bad.
Speaker 2 (02:56):
Paws makes himself bad.
Speaker 3 (02:58):
Oh God, okay, what about you, molito?
Speaker 1 (03:01):
Damn.
I'm just kidding, I can't evenget a real one out I went to
therapy and shit, they got thistherapy.
You you know, but fuck it, hey,whatever I'm proud of you,
kevin.
Speaker 4 (03:09):
Thanks, I appreciate it.
Speaker 3 (03:10):
I mean, it's a you might inspire somebody who out
there watching that need to goto therapy I know at least two
people in here I go to therapy,so the fuck are you talking
about a new therapist I don'tneed to do therapist me and hers
on the right page.
You know what doing I'm inschool to be a therapist.
I don't need no help, leave mealone, go ahead.
Next person Therapist.
Speaker 4 (03:26):
Therapist Piss, is that like therapy Piss?
Because?
Speaker 3 (03:30):
all the pissed off people will be coming to me and
I will be getting them right.
Thank you, please go ahead.
Speaker 2 (03:36):
So you're in a new state.
Speaker 3 (03:49):
I got, I like to just say rim shot, pat, how was your
week?
Speaker 5 (03:55):
My week was good man.
Speaker 3 (03:56):
Jump in there.
You a regular.
Now Jump in there, buddy.
Speaker 5 (03:59):
My week is good, man, just chilling, working.
You know the drill.
Speaker 1 (04:04):
What are?
Speaker 5 (04:05):
you working on.
Speaker 1 (04:07):
I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
They tell you what to work onMe too.
Speaker 5 (04:12):
PMS.
Speaker 1 (04:15):
I know what that means.
It don't mean what you think.
It means Plan maintenance.
Speaker 3 (04:19):
Baby, I got confused how you working on that.
This nigga got research, holdon.
Speaker 2 (04:26):
The two semen have an inside joke.
Speaker 3 (04:28):
Oh man, yeah, we talking about PMS, semen talking
about PMS, and when they saysemen y'all, they talking about
the Navy, because I didn't know,are we?
I hope so Are we?
Speaker 1 (04:38):
I hope so.
We might be talking about nut.
Speaker 3 (04:40):
I got a clock out.
If you are, I'm going to fuckhome.
I am off my shift, if you are.
Speaker 4 (04:51):
My week was cool, just stressful getting ready for
the baby girl's birthday, Yayhappy birthday princess.
She has a whole weekend of funcoming up.
Speaker 1 (04:58):
It's already spent, huh.
Speaker 4 (05:01):
Yeah, man, you know.
And on top of that we took herto the fair.
Yeah, I just hear it in yourvoice and uh alright once again
she ate my goddamn turkey leg.
Speaker 1 (05:11):
I don't understand why don't you just buy two,
because they're $20 a piece.
Speaker 3 (05:15):
So you already know when you go to the fair you need
40 extra dollars.
Speaker 1 (05:18):
Yeah, just put 40 aside.
Speaker 4 (05:20):
I look forward to the turkey.
All I want is a turkey leg.
Just let me eat the goddamnturkey leg.
I want the smoked turkey leg.
Speaker 3 (05:25):
Because, oh my mama, I feel like you said she ate
your turkey leg last time shedid, so I feel like you know now
.
Speaker 4 (05:31):
Every time we go to the fair, to the Halloween
festival, anything she eats mygoddamn turkey leg.
Speaker 2 (05:37):
So get to it, why not ?
Get to it you can go to in therural area off of Highway 74.
Catch you, a live turkey.
Speaker 4 (05:47):
In Paris, California.
Speaker 1 (05:48):
They got wild turkeys Not to drink.
Speaker 2 (05:51):
but Just go to the country parts of Paris off of
Highway 74.
Speaker 4 (05:57):
Ain't turkeys mean, though I told you I got chased
by a peacock.
I ain't fucking with no turkey.
Speaker 1 (06:04):
I feel like, just the way it sounds, it should be
paused I ain't pausing that.
Speaker 2 (06:10):
Goddamn peacocks are aggressive as shit yeah, that's
why they pee so maybe you'llmeet a jive turkey we ain't
finna do this all morning I hada.
Speaker 3 (06:20):
I had a uh we ain't finna do this all morning.
I had a pretty good week myselfjust work, you know, doing the
regular old stuff.
Mcfly, did you say how yourweek was?
I think you did.
Speaker 2 (06:31):
I was just making puns.
Speaker 4 (06:34):
Were you the Punisher .
Speaker 2 (06:35):
You can call me the Punisher.
I'm Frank Castle at this bitch.
Speaker 1 (06:41):
Okay, I was like you don't want to be the punisher
because that's that nigga justtestified so.
Speaker 3 (06:48):
So, in light of the fact that we we are definitely
in, in my humble opinion, one ofie's best podcasts, I'm going
to ask you guys to highlightsome of your say that or
conviction, I know, I knowthere's know you these niggas
already know what the fuck Ifeel.
They know the motherfuckingheavyweights is coming heavy.
Speaker 2 (07:08):
And that's what the fuck we is.
They already know there we go.
Speaker 3 (07:11):
How the fuck I feel about that shit.
I was trying to be humble butyou said bring it out.
You know what?
I'm definitely coming.
I wish you wouldn't Not sittingnext to me.
You said we was coming heavy.
I was with it.
But what we're going to do nowis we're going to highlight some
of our favorites, and it couldbe something well known, it
(07:33):
could be a more local podcast,but let's highlight some of our
favorite podcasts and what welike about them.
Okay, let's go with you.
First, mcfly.
Speaker 2 (07:41):
I'm a big fan of the Joe Button podcast.
Speaker 3 (07:43):
Okay, joe, you niggas .
I recently watched it and it isactually really good.
I'm not even gonna hold you,joe.
Good, joe, you on your shit,joe 20 mil.
Go Joe.
What about you?
Speaker 1 (07:56):
I don't know the name .
There's two of them, there'sMost Deaths and Dave the
Midnight Shit.
Speaker 2 (08:03):
The Midnight shit, the Midnight, yeah, the Midnight
Miracle.
Speaker 1 (08:05):
Quest Loves is pretty good too.
Forget the name, but it's justnerd shit.
Them niggas just talking musicand stuff and different artists.
I like that stuff.
Speaker 3 (08:17):
Okay, so they resonate with you.
Speaker 1 (08:19):
Yeah, it's a different level of just banter,
and then I watch NPR and shitlike that.
Speaker 4 (08:26):
This week on NPR.
What about you Me?
It's Life After I Do.
Speaker 3 (08:32):
Yeah, I fuck with you .
I ain't gonna hold you.
Speaker 4 (08:34):
I plug all my shit All right, you should the.
Speaker 5 (08:37):
Joe Budden podcast and then Carmelo's Anthony's
podcast.
Speaker 4 (08:40):
Okay, you see that shit he do with his son who,
carmelo, we had that on episodeI probably did.
Speaker 5 (08:46):
He schooled him, he cooked him.
Speaker 4 (08:48):
He was like talking about his son's game and he was
like Daddy, I don't know whatyou're talking about.
He thought I'd cook you this.
Nigga want the smoke.
Speaker 1 (08:55):
Oh, wow, yeah, yeah, that's how you get the clicks.
Speaker 4 (09:05):
I think the name of that podcast that lady crazy,
that lady funny as shit Boy it'scalled.
Don't Call Me White Girl.
Speaker 3 (09:08):
She's black, she's so funny.
Speaker 1 (09:10):
I think she about to be on Joe Budden's podcast.
Speaker 3 (09:13):
I need to see it because she's fucking hilarious.
And I'm not even going to holdyou, and I'm not even just
saying it because the nigga isin here, but Life After.
I literally wake up onWednesday and I'm in the bed
with my phone on purpose to rollover and see what song y'all
are singing.
Speaker 1 (09:29):
Subscribe to Patreon, nigga.
Speaker 3 (09:32):
Yeah, subscribe nigga .
I couldn't give him lovewithout him saying something.
Okay, but anyways, this podcastis dope.
I definitely love it.
And Heavyweight definitely myabsolute favorite and it was my
favorite before I was comingheavy.
And definitely my absolutefavorite and it was my favorite
before I was Coming heavy and itwas my favorite before I was
sitting here.
You're definitely coming,definitely.
He can vouch for that.
This was my favorite before Ieven got to be a part of it, so
(10:00):
definitely always my favorite.
So that was us just showing alittle bit of love to all of you
out there that are podcasting.
We appreciate everybody in thespace with us, because you know
what I'm saying.
Speaker 5 (10:06):
We are amongst some of the best people.
Speaker 4 (10:08):
Yeah, we do we?
Speaker 3 (10:10):
I appreciate everybody in the space with us
because you either you either golearn from them one way or
learn another damn way.
So I appreciate everybody inour space.
But, as I mentioned, we'regoing to be speaking about self
today.
So the first question let's getthis going who are you when
nobody's watching?
Speaker 4 (10:28):
I'm the nigga, I'm the one, just make sure you're
keeping up.
Speaker 2 (10:32):
He just quoted McFly.
Speaker 3 (10:35):
Okay, I'll give him that.
I'll give him that.
Mcfly.
Who are you when no one'swatching?
Who are you when nobodywatching?
Nigga.
Speaker 2 (10:45):
Let me turn because I want to know.
I am a often uh disturbedindividual dexter that, uh, I'm
not gonna say that out becauseit's it's, it's it's expected to
say I vigorously masturbateanyway.
I am a disturbed individual wholikes music a lot and is often
(11:08):
annoyed by how people act andhow they act in public.
There you go.
Speaker 1 (11:16):
So you hate Walmart.
Speaker 3 (11:18):
You gotta hate Walmart.
Speaker 2 (11:19):
Walmart does irritate me.
Yes.
Speaker 3 (11:21):
Walmart has a page called People of Walmart.
Go look at it.
It's some shit on there.
Who are you when no one'swatching?
Pat?
Speaker 5 (11:29):
Quiet, chill, reserved, disturbed at times,
but annoyed by people's actionsand just sometimes being around.
Speaker 3 (11:45):
Yeah, you, you that nigga when people watching too.
Speaker 2 (11:47):
Yeah, that's who you is.
I often like to laugh a lot too.
That's the thing that I don'tthink people realize I love to
laugh a lot I've only learnedthat simplest, that's the most
simplistic shit that make melaugh.
Speaker 3 (11:56):
So I've only learned that about you in maybe like the
last like six or six to eightmonths that I've seen you kind
of like open up more and laughmore and you have a really funny
personality.
Speaker 4 (12:09):
Well, McFly, don't be out here starting something.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
That nigga?
Whoever's putting that old manup to do playing michael?
Speaker 3 (12:22):
jackson god damn who are you when nobody's watching
you?
Speaker 4 (12:27):
uh, I am just a uh dedicated friend, husband and
father, that's it and he lovesme.
Speaker 3 (12:35):
When no one's watching, guys, he do not care
he is lying I, I tolerate, I'mlike, I'm like, I'm like, I'm
like an additional sister thathe's I tolerate desire he's
lying the lies only because lifea dominion how the fuck you
gonna tolerate me only becausesomebody you ain't seen the hell
if she even say hi to.
(12:55):
If she even say hi to you, it'sbecause I said she could.
That's my sister.
Speaker 4 (13:00):
Damn it, she the better one.
Speaker 3 (13:02):
And you know what?
I don't deny that.
I think she's the better one.
Oh my god, cool.
Speaker 4 (13:16):
Kev, who are you when no one's watching?
Speaker 1 (13:19):
yeah, I'm an absolute basket case oh just crazy huh
yeah, just everywhere.
I like the arts.
I like arts and shit history asmuch as I didn't think I like
history.
Speaker 3 (13:30):
I like history and shit like that and just wanna be
a history teacher no, fuck nothat's great, yeah into like
serial killers and shit thoughtoo so.
Speaker 4 (13:47):
Dexter probably closer.
So you like the true crime shit?
Yeah, a lot too much.
Speaker 1 (13:52):
I've been liking that shit for a long time though
it's all the mice standing upwatching unsolved mysteries.
Yeah right, maybe into thatshit.
For a long time now it's allthe mice standing up watching
Unsolved Mysteries.
Yeah right, maybe into thatshit.
Why do?
Speaker 3 (14:02):
you kill people.
That's funny.
So who are you?
Me, I'm actually a reallygentle person when no one's
watching.
When nobody's watching.
Speaker 5 (14:11):
I'm gentle.
Speaker 3 (14:12):
Stop the cat hey cuz.
Speaker 4 (14:17):
Let me tell you something.
What happened to gentle you?
I know?
Speaker 3 (14:20):
you said you was gentle.
You Don't know me nigga.
Speaker 1 (14:22):
Okay, please Don't let this nigga Get you fucked up
.
So let's all look away, so shecan be nice Please.
Speaker 3 (14:28):
Please don't get fucked up On this nigga behalf,
because you trying to help thisnigga out, we ain't looking.
You supposed to be nice.
Fuck nigga, I'll be on.
Speaker 5 (14:36):
I'll slide this way.
Speaker 3 (14:37):
I'll slide this way on your ass too.
I'll be cool.
I'm cool if you cool, but I'mcool with tripping too.
Speaker 1 (14:45):
You gotta stop trying to fight everybody.
Speaker 4 (14:47):
But she's calm and nice.
Speaker 3 (14:48):
But I am very nice and very calm.
I am very calm.
I think I'll be chilling.
You niggas be gassing.
I think I'd be chilling.
You niggas be gassing.
Do we got the Rick?
Speaker 2 (14:58):
James thing, y'all be fucking with me.
Speaker 3 (14:59):
Play the tape back, y'all be fucking with me.
You say shit to trigger me, andthen I get triggered, and then
you be like see, oh my God, andthen she's in the car.
And then what's going on?
You nigga, you do know.
Speaker 2 (15:09):
You do know so much hostility.
Speaker 3 (15:22):
And I'm not done yet.
Don't press that fucking button, are you done?
Are you done?
Shit?
Y'all get on my fucking nerves,okay, so excited?
And what part of yourself haveyou had to unlearn?
Nigga, I'm gonna stay talkingshit, okay, till I die.
Okay, might pop up off thecasket real quick and say a few
more damn things, then lay thefuck back down.
Speaker 2 (15:39):
So when you did pop out of the casket, do you then
say sometimes you gotta pop outand show niggas.
Speaker 3 (15:45):
Okay, niggas, thank you.
What part of yourself have youunlearned to become more
authentic?
Ooh, that's different than whatI thought, surprise, I had to
unlearn not giving a fuck whatpeople thought of me.
Okay, okay.
What about you?
Speaker 5 (16:06):
Plays with more confidence than myself.
Speaker 3 (16:08):
Okay, friend, that's a good one Okay.
Speaker 4 (16:13):
Keep working, oh my.
Speaker 3 (16:14):
God, you're doing great.
Fuck you Mo.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
Let him talk, cause a minuteago you was letting him cook.
Now, all of a sudden, he saysomething to you and then fuck
you Mo, fuck you Mo go ahead, mo, I don't know.
Speaker 4 (16:31):
Go ahead, kevin.
Speaker 1 (16:32):
I think I'm working on it still too.
Um, saying no doesn't mean Idon't care.
Oh, it means you care about you.
Speaker 4 (16:41):
No.
Speaker 1 (16:42):
I got to learn that that's not what that means
either yeah it is Fuck them.
Sometimes it's got to be no.
Speaker 3 (16:48):
Yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 (16:50):
I shouldn't feel bad for no.
Speaker 3 (16:53):
What you got Mo.
Speaker 4 (16:56):
I'm just trying to be positive.
I'm like a month in and thisshit is rough.
He's positive.
Speaker 1 (17:03):
Mr Positive, that's rough.
Speaker 3 (17:06):
Go ahead.
Speaker 2 (17:06):
You'll get there.
Speaker 4 (17:10):
I'm positive about myself.
You'll get there.
Speaker 1 (17:14):
He didn't put that in there.
Speaker 3 (17:17):
You'll get there.
You come a long way already.
Speaker 4 (17:20):
Patrick know I be fucking with him.
Speaker 3 (17:21):
You'll get there.
Speaker 4 (17:23):
If I don't mess with Patrick, he'll be like man.
What's wrong with you, nigga?
You ain't saying this shit.
Speaker 2 (17:26):
See, he's got that built into everyone, that's fair
.
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (17:30):
You almost feel like traumatized when he not talking
shit.
Speaker 1 (17:33):
So he gaslit the fuck out of you.
Speaker 2 (17:36):
Did I do something wrong?
Why?
Speaker 1 (17:37):
are you not?
Speaker 5 (17:41):
But that's how he introduced himself to me.
Speaker 4 (17:43):
I probably said something about the first time I
met you.
I don't remember.
Speaker 3 (17:48):
So being positive is yours.
You're working on beingpositive to self.
Speaker 4 (17:52):
Everybody, but mostly self oh.
Speaker 1 (17:55):
I like it.
Speaker 4 (17:56):
Yeah, mostly self.
Speaker 3 (17:57):
Okay, so when I got here today, you didn't think
about that I had to get somedrugs off.
You had it because you missedme.
Just say it no, you missed me,you did it's okay, I missed you
guys too no we didn't.
Yeah, yeah, you did, it's okaywe did I had my thing that I had
to unlearn and relearn was thatit is okay to have an
unapologetic, deep love for self.
(18:20):
Like I think, I almost feltguilty or I never lost that I
think I almost felt guilty, or Ifelt like, um, like I wasn't
loving others if I poured tootoo much into myself.
And then I had to learn that itwas okay to be unapologetically
in love with self.
It's okay to be selfish, yeah.
(18:40):
So so first is never selfish.
I had a friend that used totell me that all the time, and I
definitely agree with that.
So that was my thing, that Ihad my nigga.
Are you cool?
I like them.
Like what's up.
Is you cool over here?
You okay.
Speaker 2 (18:55):
I just wanted to see how long it take.
What's that For someone to say?
Speaker 3 (18:59):
something I felt you doing it and I was trying to
ignore you.
I felt you doing it, but Icouldn't.
I couldn't fucking take it nomore Like what can I buy Some of
them.
Speaker 2 (19:09):
Well played.
Speaker 3 (19:12):
How much of who you are today is shaped on survival
and how much is a choice?
95% survival.
Speaker 2 (19:21):
Okay, 85% survival 99%.
Speaker 1 (19:29):
I don't know, just flying, seated my pants.
Yeah, I'm glad, 100% choice.
Speaker 3 (19:35):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (19:42):
Survival.
I guess I got these kids andshit and family.
Speaker 2 (19:44):
So I gotta survive and make sure that shit work.
But that's right, I just poppedin my head um, it's survival.
Speaker 1 (19:48):
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah I see somebody lying no man,
don't do that.
This is drake's time.
Speaker 2 (19:55):
It's drake's time what did I miss?
Speaker 4 (19:58):
yeah, let's go, let's go let's go, let's go mine is
what is that?
Speaker 3 (20:04):
it's probably like a good I would say like 98
survival and it's really justbecause I'm just now starting to
, in last year, to make morechoices that are not completely
based on survival.
Speaker 1 (20:17):
Oh, okay, yeah, so you're getting out of the.
I think I got a lot of choices.
Yeah, that's what's up.
Speaker 3 (20:21):
I'm getting out of that, that survival and more
like choice.
Speaker 1 (20:25):
I mean, if you would just listen to me.
Speaker 3 (20:27):
You know what.
Don't listen.
Speaker 1 (20:29):
Definitely get into choices.
Speaker 3 (20:31):
I hear every piece of advice, advice that you give me
and and you don't listen I do,I do listen and, uh, I also hear
that it comes from a veryloving space.
Because no?
It doesn't yes, it does yes onething I learned about you one
thing I learned about you is ifyou didn't give a fuck, you
wouldn't waste your breath.
So you definitely.
It does come from a lovingspace for sure, for sure when
(20:53):
you do this, you look like Idon't.
Don't do that.
Speaker 4 (20:57):
Hello.
Speaker 3 (21:00):
It's stressing me out Like a good cartoon or
something.
Don't do that.
Speaker 1 (21:03):
Shit Are you guys still selling them selfish.
Speaker 4 (21:11):
Y'all, you know this is random, but anybody know
where I can get some goodcatfish?
Speaker 1 (21:16):
Can't you eat that place in Mova I?
Speaker 3 (21:18):
panicked.
I literally panicked, likeJesus, please.
Speaker 1 (21:24):
I don't do catfish really cause most people fuck it
up is that fish?
Speaker 2 (21:27):
and fries still there , that one place where you fry,
we buy or you buy, we fry.
Speaker 1 (21:31):
Ralph's.
The Ralph's in Canyon Crestfries it.
Alright, sorry, we went ontangent my fault.
Hey, you had one more Ralph'sand then and Chris fries it.
Nah, I'm good, all right.
So we went on tangent.
Speaker 3 (21:38):
My fault, hey, hey, hey, you had one more Ralphs and
then it was finna be done, so Iwas gonna loop you back in,
it's okay.
What do you think that you'regonna be in 10 years?
And who, as opposed to who youare now?
Like, where do you think you'regoing in 10 years?
You whisper, come on, whisper.
Speaker 4 (21:53):
I'm gonna be one year out from being free cause she's
gonna be 17.
She's about to turn 18.
Speaker 5 (21:58):
I'm gonna be free 10 more years, hopefully, on the
verge of retirement and thenpicking that forever spot from
when me and the wife settleddown alright 10 years to
retirement and thinking aboutforever with your wife sounds
perfect.
Speaker 3 (22:12):
I like that forever sounds dated.
Speaker 4 (22:14):
no, you, this, I Forever sounds dated.
No, I think what you're sayingI'm not saying forever spot.
Speaker 5 (22:18):
I'm saying the spot, the home that you choose, where
you're not moving from.
Speaker 4 (22:21):
Yeah, I'm saying I want to pick more light until
I'm tired of her.
Speaker 3 (22:25):
Your kid's going to be big as shit in 10 years.
Yeah, I saw it on your face.
God damn, it's going to be bigas shit.
Speaker 4 (22:37):
In 10 19 and or shit.
20 and 18, yeah and 13 right or12 and 12 yeah, andrea's gonna
be about 6, 7, ava's gonna beabout 5, 10.
Speaker 2 (22:47):
They already measured it'll be at least 6, 3.
Speaker 4 (22:49):
Ava's gonna be about 5, 10.
No, uh, andrea's Ava's gonna beabout 5, 10.
I think Ava's gonna be about 5,10, and then that just it's
going to be about 5'10" it'slike 10 years.
She can't wear heels around me.
Speaker 3 (23:02):
She's going to tower over your ass.
Sit down, uncle Shit, sit yourass down.
I'm going to send her to you.
Go get them.
Speaker 2 (23:09):
I am tokaboka'd out.
Speaker 3 (23:10):
Ava 10 years.
Talk to me.
Speaker 2 (23:16):
I am tokaboka'd out.
Speaker 1 (23:19):
Have this shit paid off at work fuck yeah, that's
the plan, man, fuck this shit.
I'm sick of all this shittrying to have a lot of shit
just paid off and just justrelive it yeah, fuck.
Yeah, we got that dumb asstimeshare too.
It's not dumb cause we chose toget it, but I wanna be using
that and just hopefully themniggas got their shit together
(23:42):
oh, oh that is one thing.
Speaker 4 (23:47):
That's what I was in 10 years, like if I feel like
she's mature enough.
Where I can, I'm I am confidentthat she can handle herself
when she leaves home.
Speaker 3 (23:55):
Now I feel like I've won yeah, yeah, then you already
on the right path.
You have a very good, good babygirl.
You're on the right path,you're doing great.
Speaker 4 (24:03):
This girl asked me to put her pants on for her
yesterday that's alright.
Speaker 3 (24:05):
she's a baby and when you're sharing, when you share
a lot of your parenting skills,they they seem elevated to what
received as children.
So I really I don't think theywork.
I should go back to old schooland just beat her ass.
Speaker 4 (24:16):
No, no, no you got this.
Speaker 2 (24:17):
No, you got this.
What's that?
I was just thinking it took melike two years to get in dress,
to put the right shoe on theright foot.
Put a sticker in the inside oftheir shoe and then just tell
them oh he's good now they justlike to test your patience, yeah
they don't give a fuck, andsometimes you think they're
(24:38):
doing it on purpose and you'relike you just fucking with me on
purpose, you want me to befrustrated, and then they'd
start doing it by themselves andyou're like oh yeah, so you
know how to do this.
The whole fucking time, mm-hmm,you were just the lying.
Speaker 4 (24:52):
yeah, yeah, see that they do some crazy shit, so she
literally told me the other daythat when her room gets too
dirty, she gets overwhelmed andshe can't clean it and I
understand, I said, but you theone that made it fucking dirty
so before you get to the pointwhere you get overwhelmed.
Stop and clean up the old shitbefore you make new shit she
(25:12):
said it's too much.
Speaker 3 (25:13):
I get it pumpkin.
It's okay, princess and hermama help her every time.
Speaker 4 (25:16):
How about you could still live in the fields?
I'm not going in there.
I'll close the door.
Ain't my problem, huh.
Speaker 3 (25:22):
I don't clean shit.
Well, in 10 years I hope mynonprofit is off the ground and
helping millions of women.
Speaker 2 (25:27):
It will be Right.
Speaker 3 (25:28):
Thank you.
Yes, millions I want to.
One in four women have amiscarriage, so I'm hoping that
it's off the ground and we'reable to help lots and lots of
women.
Why not a billion?
We could do a billion.
I want to be able to be globalat some point, so I'm hoping
that in 10 years we're at leaston the path of being able to be
(25:49):
global.
I hope I've had a child by then.
Just one, because I reallydon't want all them kids living
in my house.
It's something about a bunch ofkids living in my house just to
be the fuck out.
I can probably do one or two,but two is the tap off.
Two, two is the tap off.
So hopefully I've had childrenby then.
And um, yeah, that's about it.
Speaker 4 (26:06):
I want to travel and just be if you want to travel,
don't handle that them kids.
I want to travel with my kidsbecause I was something about my
I want to, I want to travelwith my kids, because I want to
travel with my kids and that'ssomething that I wish.
I would have never had to carryfour suitcases at one time.
Speaker 3 (26:22):
I don't know about none of that, and you got to
remember that, although I don'thave biological children, I have
hate.
We have hated for a great dealof time, and then I had.
I had somebody, oh Lord.
So I was married before Johnand that person I was married to
had a child and I raised thatchild.
So I'm familiar with parenting.
(26:42):
I just don't have anybiological children the story of
death unfolds more, you know,because it just I mean because
she ain't never mentioned thatin this part.
Speaker 2 (26:53):
That's why I just said oh lord but what I'll say
is the more you get, the moreheadcount you have to make,
because you realize you're like,wait a minute, there was one,
two, because sometimes you'll belike just with two of them and
you're like there was a third.
Speaker 3 (27:06):
Oh, that third one's not here, cool that's why I
can't have no hope, but your kid, because one of them?
Speaker 5 (27:16):
absolutely no, they won't.
Speaker 3 (27:18):
No, they won't listen , listen.
Speaker 1 (27:20):
When you pay for that ticket, you go.
Speaker 3 (27:22):
Everybody's gonna be on this, goddamn yeah, I can
definitely see me losing the kidbecause, yeah, but uh, two kids
max for me.
But then, other than that,that's it, just traveling and
being at peace.
I'll be 50 by then, so I don'tplan on on working for nobody.
By the time I'm 50, I plan onhaving all my businesses
established so that I can justhire people to run them for me
(27:44):
and I can collect the money sothat is.
That is um and oh and my, myother business that I have, my
llc.
I plan to reinvest in that heresoon so that I can start to
build that.
Speaker 4 (27:58):
Is that the lingerie one?
Speaker 3 (27:59):
Yeah, the plus size lingerie.
I'm hoping that I can.
Speaker 1 (28:04):
Are we going to try to get four other niggas to sit
here so we can go some places?
We're going to do something.
Hey, so we're going to leave.
Speaker 2 (28:15):
So it'll be Devin.
Speaker 1 (28:21):
Joris.
Destiny Tess we're gonna haveLes, les and Mudder.
Speaker 4 (28:29):
Mudder.
Speaker 3 (28:31):
Mudder stick fly sitting here in 10 years.
He sound like he from London in10 years, and maybe we would
have elevated this to somethingelse.
And we're, we're now on tv oror something in that nature.
Speaker 1 (28:44):
Um, you never know you.
I'm not saying I don't fuck ifthat's where we go and I'm with
it.
I just don't want to be on tvthe occasional guest of
hatattrick.
Speaker 3 (28:55):
Yep, yep, pulling through, pulling through.
We might be on TV, who knows,who knows?
Speaker 1 (29:01):
Yeah we'll be, in London.
I'll show up.
Yes, I'll be like hey guys, Ialso think I want to act a
little bit you think, yeah, I'vebeen thinking about it, you
want to do it, you want to beout there it's definitely I.
Speaker 3 (29:18):
I don't mind the people knowing me, I just don't.
I want.
I think I want to act a littlebit and I think I want to dive a
little bit deeper into thecomedy I don't want to catch who
are these niggas?
Speaker 2 (29:30):
yeah, who are these niggas?
Speaker 1 (29:35):
I like that.
You want to do the red carpetand all that shit.
Speaker 3 (29:37):
I would love that I would love that, because I'm
trying to get as close tomotherfucking Chris Brown as
humanly possible.
Speaker 1 (29:45):
Never mind.
Speaker 3 (29:46):
So you think that ain't going to be.
Speaker 1 (29:47):
Never mind, I can't wish nothing like that.
Speaker 3 (29:49):
In 10 years, Chris Brown will be alive and well.
I didn't mean dead.
Speaker 1 (29:52):
I just meant, if he gonna have, he gonna have some
bracelets on each.
Speaker 3 (29:57):
No, don't do, don't do, don't do him like that,
don't do him like that, don'tChris.
Speaker 1 (30:00):
I know.
That's why I shouldn't say that.
Speaker 3 (30:01):
Don't do Chris.
Speaker 1 (30:02):
He gonna have some Grammys.
Speaker 3 (30:04):
Thank you, Because my man, my man my man.
Speaker 2 (30:07):
You know who really bangs the set out there.
Speaker 1 (30:09):
YG.
Speaker 3 (30:21):
CB.
Oh yeah, cb, do huh.
Drake said it.
What I missed, drake did sayyeah, what did I miss?
What moment?
Because we have to do this allin the morning?
What, what moment in life hasmade you question your identity?
Speaker 1 (30:27):
my identity.
Speaker 3 (30:28):
Yeah, like who you is like who you is, like
definitely who you is.
I think I can go, I canactually answer this.
I think when I realized that Ihad people please the fuck out
of a lot of my friendships, itmade me question like who
exactly am I and why do I thinkthis shit is necessary?
Speaker 1 (30:46):
yeah, I think maybe recently that's some shit that's
happened and I'm like why doniggas think they could do this?
And it's because I do do.
So, yeah, yeah.
I'm not going to say anythingspecific, but yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 3 (30:59):
Yeah, I honestly feel like.
Speaker 1 (31:00):
Fuck all this.
Speaker 3 (31:01):
Yeah, I take full accountability for that, because
people there's going to be inlife, people that are going to
do exactly what the fuck youallow them to do.
Speaker 1 (31:09):
Yeah, I need to just start flying off on niggas.
Speaker 3 (31:11):
You might need to just tee off on the nigga real
quick Hold on Hold the fuck up.
So you wait until I getpositive.
Speaker 4 (31:24):
So the whole time I was a grouch nigga and I was in
it, I was with it.
Speaker 1 (31:29):
We could have did that together, nah, nah, I got
to do this still, though.
Speaker 4 (31:36):
Being a provider?
Speaker 2 (31:37):
ah, it made you question well, yeah, it could be
like a positive way.
What the fuck, like you startsaying, is that all I am?
Speaker 4 (31:48):
oh jeez, you feel that way.
Speaker 2 (31:50):
Sometimes talk to me you just feel like is that all I
am?
And then you start questioningis that?
Then you have to?
And then you start questioningis that?
Then you have to start diggingdeeper and realizing that you
are more than that and you haveto go.
Well, what am I outside of that?
And then you start delving deepinto shit, then you start
(32:13):
taking those paths, down theroads, to keep her sanity.
Speaker 3 (32:18):
You know what I could relate to that?
Because I think I felt that wayas a wife, like I legitimately
felt, like all I am is thisnigga's wife and his son's
stepmama, and I couldn't reallylike you had no identity,
nothing, and it was driving menuts because I just missed me.
So I think I I relate to whatyou're saying.
Speaker 5 (32:39):
Hmm.
Speaker 2 (32:41):
Fucking Robitussin.
And this shit don't we'vetalked about it before this shit
don't make it worse when, or itmakes it any better when you,
your kid, says some shit like so, like when you walk in the
house.
So what did you get me?
You're like fuck nigga.
Speaker 4 (32:56):
I told you last week, nigga, she's asking for sushi
for lunch but that's not.
Speaker 2 (33:01):
How are you?
How was your day?
Speaker 1 (33:02):
no, I don't get none of that shit.
Oh yeah, I don't care it's canwe get what?
Speaker 2 (33:05):
did you get me?
What did you bring?
I'm like you know dad's fine.
Thanks for asking.
Like fuck, like motherfuckerssurvived motherfuckers with road
rage.
But you know no, I you repeatthe question for me.
Speaker 3 (33:16):
Yes, I can, let me say this real quick.
I lucked up in that area withmy stepson because he is the
most caring child ever, like I Isay this a lot on the show like
he's been my most favoriteexperience of my whole being
married not to play my husband,because at one point he was cool
, but hayden has been the bestexperience, because he does when
(33:36):
you walk through the door.
He doesn't want to know howyour day was and what did you do
and what are you thinking.
And I mean I can watch a moviewith Hayden and he want to know
well, how was this for you?
Well, what did you like?
What was your favorite part?
He's very like, engaged in thatway.
Speaker 2 (33:56):
I love that kid.
Yeah, what's the time stamp?
11 15?
You hear that, ava?
Speaker 4 (33:58):
no he's a good kid um no, I mean, I get the how are
you dad and all that shit, butit's it's.
It's rushed to get to thequestion oh let's get to the
question.
Well, can you repeat?
Speaker 3 (34:13):
the question.
Yes, I was asking um.
What moments in life has madeyou question your identity?
Speaker 4 (34:20):
Only I can think of, like last year, when I went
through what I went through, andit made me actually step back
and realize that I was justrunning myself rampant trying to
be everything I could be foreveryone but me.
So that put things in, putthings, things made a clear
picture for me and that's when Ireally started working on
(34:41):
myself it's a deep revelation.
Speaker 3 (34:44):
Something beautiful came out of such a bad
experience and so.
But I love that for you, andI'm and you.
We can see the change in you.
Yes, clock it.
What about you, pat um?
Speaker 5 (35:01):
the moment that uh made me question my identity was
basically becoming a father oh,you got kids yeah how many kids
do you have?
Speaker 3 (35:09):
one okay, boy or girl boy okay, how was that?
How was being a boy dad for you?
Speaker 4 (35:16):
good, challenging a headache, just square up with
him how old is he?
Speaker 3 (35:23):
mine is 18 now no, no , you got an 18 year old yeah
it's because you black snatchedskin still.
Okay, okay, okay, don't squareup with your child.
Don't listen to this thing.
Don't hit your baby.
He won't square with me becausehe know better.
Huh, yeah, you know what timeit is period.
That's a good revelation.
Having having your child andyour child kind of making you
(35:45):
question.
What about having the baby madeyou question um, just like the
moments we went through, thegrowing pains because he is, uh,
he's not biologically mine, butit was just the growing pains
of me and him coming togetherand making our bond I understand
that and that's not spokenabout a lot, because there are a
(36:07):
lot of stand-up bonus fathersthat step in in places where the
biological father should haveand they create some of the most
amazing children.
So kudos to you for having aheart to do that, because I
think bonus moms get highlighteda lot.
A lot of people tell me greatjob for what I do with Hayden,
but I don't think it happens alot for bonus dads.
(36:28):
So kudos to you for that.
That's dope Did everyone answer.
Yes, I think so.
Speaker 2 (36:33):
Hey Patrick, I got a question for you.
Did everyone answer yes, Ithink so.
Hey, Patrick, I got a questionfor you.
What's good.
Speaker 3 (36:40):
What was going through your mind when that
raccoon was at your driver door.
Speaker 5 (36:44):
On your truck In his car.
So yeah, this is when we wasgetting off work.
Ups in the warehouse RiversideWas walking to the car, me and
Andy was talking, and then heparked a couple cars down, but
then I walked up to the car Meand Andy was talking, and then
he parked a couple cars down,but then I walked up to my car.
Speaker 2 (37:04):
I think it was a rat.
This has got to be the mostannoying day.
Speaker 5 (37:07):
But what was going through my head?
How the hell am I going to gethome?
Speaker 3 (37:10):
You didn't flash your lights at his car and that
doesn't get the raccoon to run.
Speaker 2 (37:13):
I didn't know about that.
He told me about the raccoonthe next day.
How your lights in his car andthat doesn't get the raccoon to
run.
I didn't know about that.
He told me about the raccoonthe next day.
How did you get in the car?
Yeah, how'd you get in the car,Patrick?
Speaker 5 (37:23):
How did I get in the?
Speaker 2 (37:24):
car, you got into the passenger seat.
Speaker 5 (37:25):
Yeah, that's what I was about to say.
I was like I knew I didn't getinto the driver's seat real
quick.
Hell.
No, you gonna hug that raccoon.
Speaker 2 (37:33):
Yeah, man, that motherfucker, that was a big ass
raccoon.
Speaker 1 (37:37):
That was the UPS raccoon.
They could have got up and likehugged you.
Speaker 4 (37:41):
You should have caught that coon and made some
coon soup.
Speaker 3 (37:43):
Oh God, Country ass Soup Ain't no damn coon chowder.
Speaker 1 (37:48):
I was just curious what was going through your mind
because me I was like no, I'mnot a coon guy.
Speaker 2 (37:56):
No, no, sorry, coons, don't do it for me there's an
interesting tip about my dad'snickname was coon oh really
because he used to love climbingtrees, so they called him coon
I was like ace, boom, someracist shit.
Speaker 1 (38:10):
I mean, is it racist when all your siblings are all
niggas.
Speaker 2 (38:11):
Yes, we had this discussion earlier.
Yeah, we was talking about, butI mean, it's all niggas?
Speaker 1 (38:14):
Yes, we had this discussion earlier.
Yeah, we was talking about, Imean, it's all niggas.
Speaker 3 (38:19):
We have time for one last question.
Who helped you become thisversion of you that feels the
most real?
Jesus, my kids.
Speaker 4 (38:28):
Babies, did you say Jesus?
Speaker 3 (38:30):
Babies, what about you?
Speaker 5 (38:32):
Wifey.
Speaker 1 (38:33):
Your wifey Don't make me say that.
Speaker 3 (38:35):
Okay.
Speaker 1 (38:37):
Oh me.
Speaker 3 (38:39):
You period.
I like to thank me, Thank you.
Speaker 4 (38:42):
All of it.
Speaker 3 (38:43):
No, he was asking the question me, oh you, okay, that
wasn't the answer All of them.
Speaker 1 (38:48):
It's all of it.
It's just a lot of shit.
Everything molded me, so I knowit's a generic shit, but that's
the truth Least honest.
Speaker 3 (38:58):
What about you?
Speaker 4 (39:00):
My wife.
Speaker 3 (39:01):
Your wife.
And that ass.
Speaker 1 (39:03):
The ass molded you.
Speaker 4 (39:06):
Yeah, it motivated me to get in that more.
Speaker 3 (39:08):
I think every bad experience that I had Positive,
for real, for real.
Every bad experience, all ofthem, I think they molded me to
who I am and and I think that,um, just being married, I think
being married molded me to thewho, the wife I will be in if I
ever get married again.
That's a big if, cause I don'tknow how I feel about that, but
(39:30):
hmm, I think what the fuck wasthat?
Hmm, go ahead, talk your shit.
I do.
Honestly, I I make it seem likemy husband's a bad person, and
he's not.
It may come off that way withsome of the things that I say,
but he's not he's not we just we, just, we just two people that
(39:52):
don't don't work well as a team.
we work great in a two peoplethat don't work well as a team.
We work great in a friendship,but we don't work well as a team
, and I think I learned throughthat that some things can't be
forced.
Speaker 2 (40:04):
Those facts.
Speaker 3 (40:05):
Even if you try, you know something you can
definitely try, but somethingjust ain't meant to be so I
think that's something that Ialso, you know, shaped me to
understand and it also gave me abetter understanding of self,
because was not him that wasdoing the forcing, it was me.
So that was something that youknow.
He he was very transparent andclear in the beginning that
marriage wasn't something thathe was ready for, but did it
(40:29):
because I was ready, or at leastI thought.
I was at least I thought I wasso more info you have.
I think that don't be fuckingwith me.
I'm just being transparent forthose people out there that may
be going through what I'm goingthrough and I noticed that
there's a lot of women that willlike force bug, I want to marry
you.
We need to be together and a manwill do it because they love
(40:51):
them, they don't want to losethem, but they're just not ready
.
So I learned that I can't forcenothing and things need to just
happen organically and I needto be okay with with not having
control over everything.
So that that was one of thebiggest things that shaped me.
Speaker 2 (41:06):
That's what's up.
Speaker 3 (41:07):
Thank you, thank you, thank you anyways this has been
another spill the teaeye-opening episode of the
heavyweight podcast you don'tknow what you did it to me.
Okay, as always like, subscribe, share, comment, all that shit,
all of that shit.
Speaker 1 (41:28):
Peace that's a wrap, y'all.
That's how she wrote, so makesure you click like and
subscribe.
Tune in we on the Austrianplatform Until next time bye,
lads.
Welcome to the Heavyweight Podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:04):
The message behind saying the title of the
Heavyweight Podcast is to beable to say that we can weigh in
on some heavy shit.
What we're talking about isimportant from every aspect of
it.
It's a heavy weight.
It's not just about physicalweight, but the weight of things
that can weigh our minds.
So I think it's dope that wecan have this conversation minds
.
So I think it's dope that wecan have this conversation.
Speaker 3 (00:27):
The reason I don't go to the gym is because I don't
like being there by myself.
I'd be stressed the fuck out.
So would my wife.
I'd be stressed the fuck out.
I can't go with her because,baby, she could pick me up.
Speaker 1 (00:35):
Take some AI glasses and just talk to her.
Speaker 3 (00:37):
Baby and throw me, and you're not by yourself.
That's a strong-ass lady, heyman.
Speaker 1 (00:42):
How are you today?
Speaker 4 (00:44):
Honestly, like honestly, the gym is actually
safe for girls because most guysdon't want to be accused.
Speaker 2 (00:48):
They don't want the trouble.
Speaker 4 (00:49):
Don't want to be accused of shit, so they avoid
girls all the time.
It's going to be the othergirls that talk to you.
Speaker 3 (00:53):
I don't know what the equipment.
Like some of it.
Speaker 2 (01:00):
Nigga, there's YouTube and TikTok.
Did he say TikTok?
Speaker 3 (01:05):
Yeah, he did, he did, he did, he did.
Speaker 1 (01:14):
Yep, I'll shut down.
I'll shut down, I'm done, I'mover it.
Speaker 2 (01:18):
Nigga said TikTok, I'm over it All right, let's go,
let's roll.
Speaker 4 (01:23):
That's my new app.
Speaker 1 (01:24):
That's my new date app.
This needs to be done in 15minutes.
Alright, girl, I'm over this,let's go you up with Dick Todd
let's record okay, what's?
Speaker 4 (01:34):
wrong with Dick Todd girl?
Speaker 3 (01:35):
John Wayne okay what episode number is this 180?
86 okay, the most importantperson for you to know is
yourself.
Today, we are going to talkabout some concepts that really
will highlight things aboutyourself that maybe the world
didn't know and you're willingto share.
Today.
I am Desi Diva.
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This is episode 210.
And I'm back again with mythree favorite gentlemen and one
of my new faves what's up man?
What's up, what's up it?
Of my new faves.
Speaker 5 (02:05):
What's up, man?
What's up, what's up?
It's Pat on the building.
Speaker 3 (02:07):
What's up, Pat?
What's up Guys?
Introduce yourself.
Y'all know this routine, youknow the routine.
Speaker 1 (02:14):
Oh, my bad, I'm Screenshot Jack.
Speaker 3 (02:16):
Oh my gosh, what is Screenshot?
Speaker 1 (02:18):
Hey, he said he got the receipt.
Hey, screenshot jack, that's mejack got the receipt.
Speaker 4 (02:25):
It's your boy.
Speaker 2 (02:26):
Positivity, oh my god once again huh, I'm the often
shy, the guy they call mcfly and, as I mentioned, I am your girl
.
Speaker 3 (02:41):
There's a diva.
How was your weeks?
Speaker 1 (02:44):
a smorgasbord Fuck it .
Speaker 2 (02:48):
Of meat Paws.
Speaker 1 (02:52):
That makes yourself bad.
Speaker 2 (02:56):
Paws makes himself bad.
Speaker 3 (02:58):
Oh God, okay, what about you, molito?
Speaker 1 (03:01):
Damn.
I'm just kidding, I can't evenget a real one out I went to
therapy and shit, they got thistherapy.
You you know, but fuck it, hey,whatever I'm proud of you,
kevin.
Speaker 4 (03:09):
Thanks, I appreciate it.
Speaker 3 (03:10):
I mean, it's a you might inspire somebody who out
there watching that need to goto therapy I know at least two
people in here I go to therapy,so the fuck are you talking
about a new therapist I don'tneed to do therapist me and hers
on the right page.
You know what doing I'm inschool to be a therapist.
I don't need no help, leave mealone, go ahead.
Next person Therapist.
Speaker 4 (03:26):
Therapist Piss, is that like therapy Piss?
Because?
Speaker 3 (03:30):
all the pissed off people will be coming to me and
I will be getting them right.
Thank you, please go ahead.
Speaker 2 (03:36):
So you're in a new state.
Speaker 3 (03:49):
I got, I like to just say rim shot, pat, how was your
week?
Speaker 5 (03:55):
My week was good man.
Speaker 3 (03:56):
Jump in there.
You a regular.
Now Jump in there, buddy.
Speaker 5 (03:59):
My week is good, man, just chilling, working.
You know the drill.
Speaker 1 (04:04):
What are?
Speaker 5 (04:05):
you working on.
Speaker 1 (04:07):
I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
They tell you what to work onMe too.
Speaker 5 (04:12):
PMS.
Speaker 1 (04:15):
I know what that means.
It don't mean what you think.
It means Plan maintenance.
Speaker 3 (04:19):
Baby, I got confused how you working on that.
This nigga got research, holdon.
Speaker 2 (04:26):
The two semen have an inside joke.
Speaker 3 (04:28):
Oh man, yeah, we talking about PMS, semen talking
about PMS, and when they saysemen y'all, they talking about
the Navy, because I didn't know,are we?
I hope so Are we?
Speaker 1 (04:38):
I hope so.
We might be talking about nut.
Speaker 3 (04:40):
I got a clock out.
If you are, I'm going to fuckhome.
I am off my shift, if you are.
Speaker 4 (04:51):
My week was cool, just stressful getting ready for
the baby girl's birthday, Yayhappy birthday princess.
She has a whole weekend of funcoming up.
Speaker 1 (04:58):
It's already spent, huh.
Speaker 4 (05:01):
Yeah, man, you know.
And on top of that we took herto the fair.
Yeah, I just hear it in yourvoice and uh alright once again
she ate my goddamn turkey leg.
Speaker 1 (05:11):
I don't understand why don't you just buy two,
because they're $20 a piece.
Speaker 3 (05:15):
So you already know when you go to the fair you need
40 extra dollars.
Speaker 1 (05:18):
Yeah, just put 40 aside.
Speaker 4 (05:20):
I look forward to the turkey.
All I want is a turkey leg.
Just let me eat the goddamnturkey leg.
I want the smoked turkey leg.
Speaker 3 (05:25):
Because, oh my mama, I feel like you said she ate
your turkey leg last time shedid, so I feel like you know now
.
Speaker 4 (05:31):
Every time we go to the fair, to the Halloween
festival, anything she eats mygoddamn turkey leg.
Speaker 2 (05:37):
So get to it, why not ?
Get to it you can go to in therural area off of Highway 74.
Catch you, a live turkey.
Speaker 4 (05:47):
In Paris, California.
Speaker 1 (05:48):
They got wild turkeys Not to drink.
Speaker 2 (05:51):
but Just go to the country parts of Paris off of
Highway 74.
Speaker 4 (05:57):
Ain't turkeys mean, though I told you I got chased
by a peacock.
I ain't fucking with no turkey.
Speaker 1 (06:04):
I feel like, just the way it sounds, it should be
paused I ain't pausing that.
Speaker 2 (06:10):
Goddamn peacocks are aggressive as shit yeah, that's
why they pee so maybe you'llmeet a jive turkey we ain't
finna do this all morning I hada.
Speaker 3 (06:20):
I had a uh we ain't finna do this all morning.
I had a pretty good week myselfjust work, you know, doing the
regular old stuff.
Mcfly, did you say how yourweek was?
I think you did.
Speaker 2 (06:31):
I was just making puns.
Speaker 4 (06:34):
Were you the Punisher .
Speaker 2 (06:35):
You can call me the Punisher.
I'm Frank Castle at this bitch.
Speaker 1 (06:41):
Okay, I was like you don't want to be the punisher
because that's that nigga justtestified so.
Speaker 3 (06:48):
So, in light of the fact that we we are definitely
in, in my humble opinion, one ofie's best podcasts, I'm going
to ask you guys to highlightsome of your say that or
conviction, I know, I knowthere's know you these niggas
already know what the fuck Ifeel.
They know the motherfuckingheavyweights is coming heavy.
Speaker 2 (07:08):
And that's what the fuck we is.
They already know there we go.
Speaker 3 (07:11):
How the fuck I feel about that shit.
I was trying to be humble butyou said bring it out.
You know what?
I'm definitely coming.
I wish you wouldn't Not sittingnext to me.
You said we was coming heavy.
I was with it.
But what we're going to do nowis we're going to highlight some
of our favorites, and it couldbe something well known, it
(07:33):
could be a more local podcast,but let's highlight some of our
favorite podcasts and what welike about them.
Okay, let's go with you.
First, mcfly.
Speaker 2 (07:41):
I'm a big fan of the Joe Button podcast.
Speaker 3 (07:43):
Okay, joe, you niggas .
I recently watched it and it isactually really good.
I'm not even gonna hold you,joe.
Good, joe, you on your shit,joe 20 mil.
Go Joe.
What about you?
Speaker 1 (07:56):
I don't know the name .
There's two of them, there'sMost Deaths and Dave the
Midnight Shit.
Speaker 2 (08:03):
The Midnight shit, the Midnight, yeah, the Midnight
Miracle.
Speaker 1 (08:05):
Quest Loves is pretty good too.
Forget the name, but it's justnerd shit.
Them niggas just talking musicand stuff and different artists.
I like that stuff.
Speaker 3 (08:17):
Okay, so they resonate with you.
Speaker 1 (08:19):
Yeah, it's a different level of just banter,
and then I watch NPR and shitlike that.
Speaker 4 (08:26):
This week on NPR.
What about you Me?
It's Life After I Do.
Speaker 3 (08:32):
Yeah, I fuck with you .
I ain't gonna hold you.
Speaker 4 (08:34):
I plug all my shit All right, you should the.
Speaker 5 (08:37):
Joe Budden podcast and then Carmelo's Anthony's
podcast.
Speaker 4 (08:40):
Okay, you see that shit he do with his son who,
carmelo, we had that on episodeI probably did.
Speaker 5 (08:46):
He schooled him, he cooked him.
Speaker 4 (08:48):
He was like talking about his son's game and he was
like Daddy, I don't know whatyou're talking about.
He thought I'd cook you this.
Nigga want the smoke.
Speaker 1 (08:55):
Oh, wow, yeah, yeah, that's how you get the clicks.
Speaker 4 (09:05):
I think the name of that podcast that lady crazy,
that lady funny as shit Boy it'scalled.
Don't Call Me White Girl.
Speaker 3 (09:08):
She's black, she's so funny.
Speaker 1 (09:10):
I think she about to be on Joe Budden's podcast.
Speaker 3 (09:13):
I need to see it because she's fucking hilarious.
And I'm not even going to holdyou, and I'm not even just
saying it because the nigga isin here, but Life After.
I literally wake up onWednesday and I'm in the bed
with my phone on purpose to rollover and see what song y'all
are singing.
Speaker 1 (09:29):
Subscribe to Patreon, nigga.
Speaker 3 (09:32):
Yeah, subscribe nigga .
I couldn't give him lovewithout him saying something.
Okay, but anyways, this podcastis dope.
I definitely love it.
And Heavyweight definitely myabsolute favorite and it was my
favorite before I was comingheavy.
And definitely my absolutefavorite and it was my favorite
before I was Coming heavy and itwas my favorite before I was
sitting here.
You're definitely coming,definitely.
He can vouch for that.
This was my favorite before Ieven got to be a part of it, so
(10:00):
definitely always my favorite.
So that was us just showing alittle bit of love to all of you
out there that are podcasting.
We appreciate everybody in thespace with us, because you know
what I'm saying.
Speaker 5 (10:06):
We are amongst some of the best people.
Speaker 4 (10:08):
Yeah, we do we?
Speaker 3 (10:10):
I appreciate everybody in the space with us
because you either you either golearn from them one way or
learn another damn way.
So I appreciate everybody inour space.
But, as I mentioned, we'regoing to be speaking about self
today.
So the first question let's getthis going who are you when
nobody's watching?
Speaker 4 (10:28):
I'm the nigga, I'm the one, just make sure you're
keeping up.
Speaker 2 (10:32):
He just quoted McFly.
Speaker 3 (10:35):
Okay, I'll give him that.
I'll give him that.
Mcfly.
Who are you when no one'swatching?
Who are you when nobodywatching?
Nigga.
Speaker 2 (10:45):
Let me turn because I want to know.
I am a often uh disturbedindividual dexter that, uh, I'm
not gonna say that out becauseit's it's, it's it's expected to
say I vigorously masturbateanyway.
I am a disturbed individual wholikes music a lot and is often
(11:08):
annoyed by how people act andhow they act in public.
There you go.
Speaker 1 (11:16):
So you hate Walmart.
Speaker 3 (11:18):
You gotta hate Walmart.
Speaker 2 (11:19):
Walmart does irritate me.
Yes.
Speaker 3 (11:21):
Walmart has a page called People of Walmart.
Go look at it.
It's some shit on there.
Who are you when no one'swatching?
Pat?
Speaker 5 (11:29):
Quiet, chill, reserved, disturbed at times,
but annoyed by people's actionsand just sometimes being around.
Speaker 3 (11:45):
Yeah, you, you that nigga when people watching too.
Speaker 2 (11:47):
Yeah, that's who you is.
I often like to laugh a lot too.
That's the thing that I don'tthink people realize I love to
laugh a lot I've only learnedthat simplest, that's the most
simplistic shit that make melaugh.
Speaker 3 (11:56):
So I've only learned that about you in maybe like the
last like six or six to eightmonths that I've seen you kind
of like open up more and laughmore and you have a really funny
personality.
Speaker 4 (12:09):
Well, McFly, don't be out here starting something.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
That nigga?
Whoever's putting that old manup to do playing michael?
Speaker 3 (12:22):
jackson god damn who are you when nobody's watching
you?
Speaker 4 (12:27):
uh, I am just a uh dedicated friend, husband and
father, that's it and he lovesme.
Speaker 3 (12:35):
When no one's watching, guys, he do not care
he is lying I, I tolerate, I'mlike, I'm like, I'm like, I'm
like an additional sister thathe's I tolerate desire he's
lying the lies only because lifea dominion how the fuck you
gonna tolerate me only becausesomebody you ain't seen the hell
if she even say hi to.
(12:55):
If she even say hi to you, it'sbecause I said she could.
That's my sister.
Speaker 4 (13:00):
Damn it, she the better one.
Speaker 3 (13:02):
And you know what?
I don't deny that.
I think she's the better one.
Oh my god, cool.
Speaker 4 (13:16):
Kev, who are you when no one's watching?
Speaker 1 (13:19):
yeah, I'm an absolute basket case oh just crazy huh
yeah, just everywhere.
I like the arts.
I like arts and shit history asmuch as I didn't think I like
history.
Speaker 3 (13:30):
I like history and shit like that and just wanna be
a history teacher no, fuck nothat's great, yeah into like
serial killers and shit thoughtoo so.
Speaker 4 (13:47):
Dexter probably closer.
So you like the true crime shit?
Yeah, a lot too much.
Speaker 1 (13:52):
I've been liking that shit for a long time though
it's all the mice standing upwatching unsolved mysteries.
Yeah right, maybe into thatshit.
For a long time now it's allthe mice standing up watching
Unsolved Mysteries.
Yeah right, maybe into thatshit.
Why do?
Speaker 3 (14:02):
you kill people.
That's funny.
So who are you?
Me, I'm actually a reallygentle person when no one's
watching.
When nobody's watching.
Speaker 5 (14:11):
I'm gentle.
Speaker 3 (14:12):
Stop the cat hey cuz.
Speaker 4 (14:17):
Let me tell you something.
What happened to gentle you?
I know?
Speaker 3 (14:20):
you said you was gentle.
You Don't know me nigga.
Speaker 1 (14:22):
Okay, please Don't let this nigga Get you fucked up
.
So let's all look away, so shecan be nice Please.
Speaker 3 (14:28):
Please don't get fucked up On this nigga behalf,
because you trying to help thisnigga out, we ain't looking.
You supposed to be nice.
Fuck nigga, I'll be on.
Speaker 5 (14:36):
I'll slide this way.
Speaker 3 (14:37):
I'll slide this way on your ass too.
I'll be cool.
I'm cool if you cool, but I'mcool with tripping too.
Speaker 1 (14:45):
You gotta stop trying to fight everybody.
Speaker 4 (14:47):
But she's calm and nice.
Speaker 3 (14:48):
But I am very nice and very calm.
I am very calm.
I think I'll be chilling.
You niggas be gassing.
I think I'd be chilling.
You niggas be gassing.
Do we got the Rick?
Speaker 2 (14:58):
James thing, y'all be fucking with me.
Speaker 3 (14:59):
Play the tape back, y'all be fucking with me.
You say shit to trigger me, andthen I get triggered, and then
you be like see, oh my God, andthen she's in the car.
And then what's going on?
You nigga, you do know.
Speaker 2 (15:09):
You do know so much hostility.
Speaker 3 (15:22):
And I'm not done yet.
Don't press that fucking button, are you done?
Are you done?
Shit?
Y'all get on my fucking nerves,okay, so excited?
And what part of yourself haveyou had to unlearn?
Nigga, I'm gonna stay talkingshit, okay, till I die.
Okay, might pop up off thecasket real quick and say a few
more damn things, then lay thefuck back down.
Speaker 2 (15:39):
So when you did pop out of the casket, do you then
say sometimes you gotta pop outand show niggas.
Speaker 3 (15:45):
Okay, niggas, thank you.
What part of yourself have youunlearned to become more
authentic?
Ooh, that's different than whatI thought, surprise, I had to
unlearn not giving a fuck whatpeople thought of me.
Okay, okay.
What about you?
Speaker 5 (16:06):
Plays with more confidence than myself.
Speaker 3 (16:08):
Okay, friend, that's a good one Okay.
Speaker 4 (16:13):
Keep working, oh my.
Speaker 3 (16:14):
God, you're doing great.
Fuck you Mo.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
Let him talk, cause a minuteago you was letting him cook.
Now, all of a sudden, he saysomething to you and then fuck
you Mo, fuck you Mo go ahead, mo, I don't know.
Speaker 4 (16:31):
Go ahead, kevin.
Speaker 1 (16:32):
I think I'm working on it still too.
Um, saying no doesn't mean Idon't care.
Oh, it means you care about you.
Speaker 4 (16:41):
No.
Speaker 1 (16:42):
I got to learn that that's not what that means
either yeah it is Fuck them.
Sometimes it's got to be no.
Speaker 3 (16:48):
Yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 (16:50):
I shouldn't feel bad for no.
Speaker 3 (16:53):
What you got Mo.
Speaker 4 (16:56):
I'm just trying to be positive.
I'm like a month in and thisshit is rough.
He's positive.
Speaker 1 (17:03):
Mr Positive, that's rough.
Speaker 3 (17:06):
Go ahead.
Speaker 2 (17:06):
You'll get there.
Speaker 4 (17:10):
I'm positive about myself.
You'll get there.
Speaker 1 (17:14):
He didn't put that in there.
Speaker 3 (17:17):
You'll get there.
You come a long way already.
Speaker 4 (17:20):
Patrick know I be fucking with him.
Speaker 3 (17:21):
You'll get there.
Speaker 4 (17:23):
If I don't mess with Patrick, he'll be like man.
What's wrong with you, nigga?
You ain't saying this shit.
Speaker 2 (17:26):
See, he's got that built into everyone, that's fair
.
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (17:30):
You almost feel like traumatized when he not talking
shit.
Speaker 1 (17:33):
So he gaslit the fuck out of you.
Speaker 2 (17:36):
Did I do something wrong?
Why?
Speaker 1 (17:37):
are you not?
Speaker 5 (17:41):
But that's how he introduced himself to me.
Speaker 4 (17:43):
I probably said something about the first time I
met you.
I don't remember.
Speaker 3 (17:48):
So being positive is yours.
You're working on beingpositive to self.
Speaker 4 (17:52):
Everybody, but mostly self oh.
Speaker 1 (17:55):
I like it.
Speaker 4 (17:56):
Yeah, mostly self.
Speaker 3 (17:57):
Okay, so when I got here today, you didn't think
about that I had to get somedrugs off.
You had it because you missedme.
Just say it no, you missed me,you did it's okay, I missed you
guys too no we didn't.
Yeah, yeah, you did, it's okaywe did I had my thing that I had
to unlearn and relearn was thatit is okay to have an
unapologetic, deep love for self.
(18:20):
Like I think, I almost feltguilty or I never lost that I
think I almost felt guilty, or Ifelt like, um, like I wasn't
loving others if I poured tootoo much into myself.
And then I had to learn that itwas okay to be unapologetically
in love with self.
It's okay to be selfish, yeah.
(18:40):
So so first is never selfish.
I had a friend that used totell me that all the time, and I
definitely agree with that.
So that was my thing, that Ihad my nigga.
Are you cool?
I like them.
Like what's up.
Is you cool over here?
You okay.
Speaker 2 (18:55):
I just wanted to see how long it take.
What's that For someone to say?
Speaker 3 (18:59):
something I felt you doing it and I was trying to
ignore you.
I felt you doing it, but Icouldn't.
I couldn't fucking take it nomore Like what can I buy Some of
them.
Speaker 2 (19:09):
Well played.
Speaker 3 (19:12):
How much of who you are today is shaped on survival
and how much is a choice?
95% survival.
Speaker 2 (19:21):
Okay, 85% survival 99%.
Speaker 1 (19:29):
I don't know, just flying, seated my pants.
Yeah, I'm glad, 100% choice.
Speaker 3 (19:35):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (19:42):
Survival.
I guess I got these kids andshit and family.
Speaker 2 (19:44):
So I gotta survive and make sure that shit work.
But that's right, I just poppedin my head um, it's survival.
Speaker 1 (19:48):
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah I see somebody lying no man,
don't do that.
This is drake's time.
Speaker 2 (19:55):
It's drake's time what did I miss?
Speaker 4 (19:58):
yeah, let's go, let's go let's go, let's go mine is
what is that?
Speaker 3 (20:04):
it's probably like a good I would say like 98
survival and it's really justbecause I'm just now starting to
, in last year, to make morechoices that are not completely
based on survival.
Speaker 1 (20:17):
Oh, okay, yeah, so you're getting out of the.
I think I got a lot of choices.
Yeah, that's what's up.
Speaker 3 (20:21):
I'm getting out of that, that survival and more
like choice.
Speaker 1 (20:25):
I mean, if you would just listen to me.
Speaker 3 (20:27):
You know what.
Don't listen.
Speaker 1 (20:29):
Definitely get into choices.
Speaker 3 (20:31):
I hear every piece of advice, advice that you give me
and and you don't listen I do,I do listen and, uh, I also hear
that it comes from a veryloving space.
Because no?
It doesn't yes, it does yes onething I learned about you one
thing I learned about you is ifyou didn't give a fuck, you
wouldn't waste your breath.
So you definitely.
It does come from a lovingspace for sure, for sure when
(20:53):
you do this, you look like Idon't.
Don't do that.
Speaker 4 (20:57):
Hello.
Speaker 3 (21:00):
It's stressing me out Like a good cartoon or
something.
Don't do that.
Speaker 1 (21:03):
Shit Are you guys still selling them selfish.
Speaker 4 (21:11):
Y'all, you know this is random, but anybody know
where I can get some goodcatfish?
Speaker 1 (21:16):
Can't you eat that place in Mova I?
Speaker 3 (21:18):
panicked.
I literally panicked, likeJesus, please.
Speaker 1 (21:24):
I don't do catfish really cause most people fuck it
up is that fish?
Speaker 2 (21:27):
and fries still there , that one place where you fry,
we buy or you buy, we fry.
Speaker 1 (21:31):
Ralph's.
The Ralph's in Canyon Crestfries it.
Alright, sorry, we went ontangent my fault.
Hey, you had one more Ralph'sand then and Chris fries it.
Nah, I'm good, all right.
So we went on tangent.
Speaker 3 (21:38):
My fault, hey, hey, hey, you had one more Ralphs and
then it was finna be done, so Iwas gonna loop you back in,
it's okay.
What do you think that you'regonna be in 10 years?
And who, as opposed to who youare now?
Like, where do you think you'regoing in 10 years?
You whisper, come on, whisper.
Speaker 4 (21:53):
I'm gonna be one year out from being free cause she's
gonna be 17.
She's about to turn 18.
Speaker 5 (21:58):
I'm gonna be free 10 more years, hopefully, on the
verge of retirement and thenpicking that forever spot from
when me and the wife settleddown alright 10 years to
retirement and thinking aboutforever with your wife sounds
perfect.
Speaker 3 (22:12):
I like that forever sounds dated.
Speaker 4 (22:14):
no, you, this, I Forever sounds dated.
No, I think what you're sayingI'm not saying forever spot.
Speaker 5 (22:18):
I'm saying the spot, the home that you choose, where
you're not moving from.
Speaker 4 (22:21):
Yeah, I'm saying I want to pick more light until
I'm tired of her.
Speaker 3 (22:25):
Your kid's going to be big as shit in 10 years.
Yeah, I saw it on your face.
God damn, it's going to be bigas shit.
Speaker 4 (22:37):
In 10 19 and or shit.
20 and 18, yeah and 13 right or12 and 12 yeah, andrea's gonna
be about 6, 7, ava's gonna beabout 5, 10.
Speaker 2 (22:47):
They already measured it'll be at least 6, 3.
Speaker 4 (22:49):
Ava's gonna be about 5, 10.
No, uh, andrea's Ava's gonna beabout 5, 10.
I think Ava's gonna be about 5,10, and then that just it's
going to be about 5'10" it'slike 10 years.
She can't wear heels around me.
Speaker 3 (23:02):
She's going to tower over your ass.
Sit down, uncle Shit, sit yourass down.
I'm going to send her to you.
Go get them.
Speaker 2 (23:09):
I am tokaboka'd out.
Speaker 3 (23:10):
Ava 10 years.
Talk to me.
Speaker 2 (23:16):
I am tokaboka'd out.
Speaker 1 (23:19):
Have this shit paid off at work fuck yeah, that's
the plan, man, fuck this shit.
I'm sick of all this shittrying to have a lot of shit
just paid off and just justrelive it yeah, fuck.
Yeah, we got that dumb asstimeshare too.
It's not dumb cause we chose toget it, but I wanna be using
that and just hopefully themniggas got their shit together
(23:42):
oh, oh that is one thing.
Speaker 4 (23:47):
That's what I was in 10 years, like if I feel like
she's mature enough.
Where I can, I'm I am confidentthat she can handle herself
when she leaves home.
Speaker 3 (23:55):
Now I feel like I've won yeah, yeah, then you already
on the right path.
You have a very good, good babygirl.
You're on the right path,you're doing great.
Speaker 4 (24:03):
This girl asked me to put her pants on for her
yesterday that's alright.
Speaker 3 (24:05):
she's a baby and when you're sharing, when you share
a lot of your parenting skills,they they seem elevated to what
received as children.
So I really I don't think theywork.
I should go back to old schooland just beat her ass.
Speaker 4 (24:16):
No, no, no you got this.
Speaker 2 (24:17):
No, you got this.
What's that?
I was just thinking it took melike two years to get in dress,
to put the right shoe on theright foot.
Put a sticker in the inside oftheir shoe and then just tell
them oh he's good now they justlike to test your patience, yeah
they don't give a fuck, andsometimes you think they're
(24:38):
doing it on purpose and you'relike you just fucking with me on
purpose, you want me to befrustrated, and then they'd
start doing it by themselves andyou're like oh yeah, so you
know how to do this.
The whole fucking time, mm-hmm,you were just the lying.
Speaker 4 (24:52):
yeah, yeah, see that they do some crazy shit, so she
literally told me the other daythat when her room gets too
dirty, she gets overwhelmed andshe can't clean it and I
understand, I said, but you theone that made it fucking dirty
so before you get to the pointwhere you get overwhelmed.
Stop and clean up the old shitbefore you make new shit she
(25:12):
said it's too much.
Speaker 3 (25:13):
I get it pumpkin.
It's okay, princess and hermama help her every time.
Speaker 4 (25:16):
How about you could still live in the fields?
I'm not going in there.
I'll close the door.
Ain't my problem, huh.
Speaker 3 (25:22):
I don't clean shit.
Well, in 10 years I hope mynonprofit is off the ground and
helping millions of women.
Speaker 2 (25:27):
It will be Right.
Speaker 3 (25:28):
Thank you.
Yes, millions I want to.
One in four women have amiscarriage, so I'm hoping that
it's off the ground and we'reable to help lots and lots of
women.
Why not a billion?
We could do a billion.
I want to be able to be globalat some point, so I'm hoping
that in 10 years we're at leaston the path of being able to be
(25:49):
global.
I hope I've had a child by then.
Just one, because I reallydon't want all them kids living
in my house.
It's something about a bunch ofkids living in my house just to
be the fuck out.
I can probably do one or two,but two is the tap off.
Two, two is the tap off.
So hopefully I've had childrenby then.
And um, yeah, that's about it.
Speaker 4 (26:06):
I want to travel and just be if you want to travel,
don't handle that them kids.
I want to travel with my kidsbecause I was something about my
I want to, I want to travelwith my kids, because I want to
travel with my kids and that'ssomething that I wish.
I would have never had to carryfour suitcases at one time.
Speaker 3 (26:22):
I don't know about none of that, and you got to
remember that, although I don'thave biological children, I have
hate.
We have hated for a great dealof time, and then I had.
I had somebody, oh Lord.
So I was married before Johnand that person I was married to
had a child and I raised thatchild.
So I'm familiar with parenting.
(26:42):
I just don't have anybiological children the story of
death unfolds more, you know,because it just I mean because
she ain't never mentioned thatin this part.
Speaker 2 (26:53):
That's why I just said oh lord but what I'll say
is the more you get, the moreheadcount you have to make,
because you realize you're like,wait a minute, there was one,
two, because sometimes you'll belike just with two of them and
you're like there was a third.
Speaker 3 (27:06):
Oh, that third one's not here, cool that's why I
can't have no hope, but your kid, because one of them?
Speaker 5 (27:16):
absolutely no, they won't.
Speaker 3 (27:18):
No, they won't listen , listen.
Speaker 1 (27:20):
When you pay for that ticket, you go.
Speaker 3 (27:22):
Everybody's gonna be on this, goddamn yeah, I can
definitely see me losing the kidbecause, yeah, but uh, two kids
max for me.
But then, other than that,that's it, just traveling and
being at peace.
I'll be 50 by then, so I don'tplan on on working for nobody.
By the time I'm 50, I plan onhaving all my businesses
established so that I can justhire people to run them for me
(27:44):
and I can collect the money sothat is.
That is um and oh and my, myother business that I have, my
llc.
I plan to reinvest in that heresoon so that I can start to
build that.
Speaker 4 (27:58):
Is that the lingerie one?
Speaker 3 (27:59):
Yeah, the plus size lingerie.
I'm hoping that I can.
Speaker 1 (28:04):
Are we going to try to get four other niggas to sit
here so we can go some places?
We're going to do something.
Hey, so we're going to leave.
Speaker 2 (28:15):
So it'll be Devin.
Speaker 1 (28:21):
Joris.
Destiny Tess we're gonna haveLes, les and Mudder.
Speaker 4 (28:29):
Mudder.
Speaker 3 (28:31):
Mudder stick fly sitting here in 10 years.
He sound like he from London in10 years, and maybe we would
have elevated this to somethingelse.
And we're, we're now on tv oror something in that nature.
Speaker 1 (28:44):
Um, you never know you.
I'm not saying I don't fuck ifthat's where we go and I'm with
it.
I just don't want to be on tvthe occasional guest of
hatattrick.
Speaker 3 (28:55):
Yep, yep, pulling through, pulling through.
We might be on TV, who knows,who knows?
Speaker 1 (29:01):
Yeah we'll be, in London.
I'll show up.
Yes, I'll be like hey guys, Ialso think I want to act a
little bit you think, yeah, I'vebeen thinking about it, you
want to do it, you want to beout there it's definitely I.
Speaker 3 (29:18):
I don't mind the people knowing me, I just don't.
I want.
I think I want to act a littlebit and I think I want to dive a
little bit deeper into thecomedy I don't want to catch who
are these niggas?
Speaker 2 (29:30):
yeah, who are these niggas?
Speaker 1 (29:35):
I like that.
You want to do the red carpetand all that shit.
Speaker 3 (29:37):
I would love that I would love that, because I'm
trying to get as close tomotherfucking Chris Brown as
humanly possible.
Speaker 1 (29:45):
Never mind.
Speaker 3 (29:46):
So you think that ain't going to be.
Speaker 1 (29:47):
Never mind, I can't wish nothing like that.
Speaker 3 (29:49):
In 10 years, Chris Brown will be alive and well.
I didn't mean dead.
Speaker 1 (29:52):
I just meant, if he gonna have, he gonna have some
bracelets on each.
Speaker 3 (29:57):
No, don't do, don't do, don't do him like that,
don't do him like that, don'tChris.
Speaker 1 (30:00):
I know.
That's why I shouldn't say that.
Speaker 3 (30:01):
Don't do Chris.
Speaker 1 (30:02):
He gonna have some Grammys.
Speaker 3 (30:04):
Thank you, Because my man, my man my man.
Speaker 2 (30:07):
You know who really bangs the set out there.
Speaker 1 (30:09):
YG.
Speaker 3 (30:21):
CB.
Oh yeah, cb, do huh.
Drake said it.
What I missed, drake did sayyeah, what did I miss?
What moment?
Because we have to do this allin the morning?
What, what moment in life hasmade you question your identity?
Speaker 1 (30:27):
my identity.
Speaker 3 (30:28):
Yeah, like who you is like who you is, like
definitely who you is.
I think I can go, I canactually answer this.
I think when I realized that Ihad people please the fuck out
of a lot of my friendships, itmade me question like who
exactly am I and why do I thinkthis shit is necessary?
Speaker 1 (30:46):
yeah, I think maybe recently that's some shit that's
happened and I'm like why doniggas think they could do this?
And it's because I do do.
So, yeah, yeah.
I'm not going to say anythingspecific, but yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 3 (30:59):
Yeah, I honestly feel like.
Speaker 1 (31:00):
Fuck all this.
Speaker 3 (31:01):
Yeah, I take full accountability for that, because
people there's going to be inlife, people that are going to
do exactly what the fuck youallow them to do.
Speaker 1 (31:09):
Yeah, I need to just start flying off on niggas.
Speaker 3 (31:11):
You might need to just tee off on the nigga real
quick Hold on Hold the fuck up.
So you wait until I getpositive.
Speaker 4 (31:24):
So the whole time I was a grouch nigga and I was in
it, I was with it.
Speaker 1 (31:29):
We could have did that together, nah, nah, I got
to do this still, though.
Speaker 4 (31:36):
Being a provider?
Speaker 2 (31:37):
ah, it made you question well, yeah, it could be
like a positive way.
What the fuck, like you startsaying, is that all I am?
Speaker 4 (31:48):
oh jeez, you feel that way.
Speaker 2 (31:50):
Sometimes talk to me you just feel like is that all I
am?
And then you start questioningis that?
Then you have to?
And then you start questioningis that?
Then you have to start diggingdeeper and realizing that you
are more than that and you haveto go.
Well, what am I outside of that?
And then you start delving deepinto shit, then you start
(32:13):
taking those paths, down theroads, to keep her sanity.
Speaker 3 (32:18):
You know what I could relate to that?
Because I think I felt that wayas a wife, like I legitimately
felt, like all I am is thisnigga's wife and his son's
stepmama, and I couldn't reallylike you had no identity,
nothing, and it was driving menuts because I just missed me.
So I think I I relate to whatyou're saying.
Speaker 5 (32:39):
Hmm.
Speaker 2 (32:41):
Fucking Robitussin.
And this shit don't we'vetalked about it before this shit
don't make it worse when, or itmakes it any better when you,
your kid, says some shit like so, like when you walk in the
house.
So what did you get me?
You're like fuck nigga.
Speaker 4 (32:56):
I told you last week, nigga, she's asking for sushi
for lunch but that's not.
Speaker 2 (33:01):
How are you?
How was your day?
Speaker 1 (33:02):
no, I don't get none of that shit.
Oh yeah, I don't care it's canwe get what?
Speaker 2 (33:05):
did you get me?
What did you bring?
I'm like you know dad's fine.
Thanks for asking.
Like fuck, like motherfuckerssurvived motherfuckers with road
rage.
But you know no, I you repeatthe question for me.
Speaker 3 (33:16):
Yes, I can, let me say this real quick.
I lucked up in that area withmy stepson because he is the
most caring child ever, like I Isay this a lot on the show like
he's been my most favoriteexperience of my whole being
married not to play my husband,because at one point he was cool
, but hayden has been the bestexperience, because he does when
(33:36):
you walk through the door.
He doesn't want to know howyour day was and what did you do
and what are you thinking.
And I mean I can watch a moviewith Hayden and he want to know
well, how was this for you?
Well, what did you like?
What was your favorite part?
He's very like, engaged in thatway.
Speaker 2 (33:56):
I love that kid.
Yeah, what's the time stamp?
11 15?
You hear that, ava?
Speaker 4 (33:58):
no he's a good kid um no, I mean, I get the how are
you dad and all that shit, butit's it's.
It's rushed to get to thequestion oh let's get to the
question.
Well, can you repeat?
Speaker 3 (34:13):
the question.
Yes, I was asking um.
What moments in life has madeyou question your identity?
Speaker 4 (34:20):
Only I can think of, like last year, when I went
through what I went through, andit made me actually step back
and realize that I was justrunning myself rampant trying to
be everything I could be foreveryone but me.
So that put things in, putthings, things made a clear
picture for me and that's when Ireally started working on
(34:41):
myself it's a deep revelation.
Speaker 3 (34:44):
Something beautiful came out of such a bad
experience and so.
But I love that for you, andI'm and you.
We can see the change in you.
Yes, clock it.
What about you, pat um?
Speaker 5 (35:01):
the moment that uh made me question my identity was
basically becoming a father oh,you got kids yeah how many kids
do you have?
Speaker 3 (35:09):
one okay, boy or girl boy okay, how was that?
How was being a boy dad for you?
Speaker 4 (35:16):
good, challenging a headache, just square up with
him how old is he?
Speaker 3 (35:23):
mine is 18 now no, no , you got an 18 year old yeah
it's because you black snatchedskin still.
Okay, okay, okay, don't squareup with your child.
Don't listen to this thing.
Don't hit your baby.
He won't square with me becausehe know better.
Huh, yeah, you know what timeit is period.
That's a good revelation.
Having having your child andyour child kind of making you
(35:45):
question.
What about having the baby madeyou question um, just like the
moments we went through, thegrowing pains because he is, uh,
he's not biologically mine, butit was just the growing pains
of me and him coming togetherand making our bond I understand
that and that's not spokenabout a lot, because there are a
(36:07):
lot of stand-up bonus fathersthat step in in places where the
biological father should haveand they create some of the most
amazing children.
So kudos to you for having aheart to do that, because I
think bonus moms get highlighteda lot.
A lot of people tell me greatjob for what I do with Hayden,
but I don't think it happens alot for bonus dads.
(36:28):
So kudos to you for that.
That's dope Did everyone answer.
Yes, I think so.
Speaker 2 (36:33):
Hey Patrick, I got a question for you.
Did everyone answer yes, Ithink so.
Hey, Patrick, I got a questionfor you.
What's good.
Speaker 3 (36:40):
What was going through your mind when that
raccoon was at your driver door.
Speaker 5 (36:44):
On your truck In his car.
So yeah, this is when we wasgetting off work.
Ups in the warehouse RiversideWas walking to the car, me and
Andy was talking, and then heparked a couple cars down, but
then I walked up to the car Meand Andy was talking, and then
he parked a couple cars down,but then I walked up to my car.
Speaker 2 (37:04):
I think it was a rat.
This has got to be the mostannoying day.
Speaker 5 (37:07):
But what was going through my head?
How the hell am I going to gethome?
Speaker 3 (37:10):
You didn't flash your lights at his car and that
doesn't get the raccoon to run.
Speaker 2 (37:13):
I didn't know about that.
He told me about the raccoonthe next day.
How your lights in his car andthat doesn't get the raccoon to
run.
I didn't know about that.
He told me about the raccoonthe next day.
How did you get in the car?
Yeah, how'd you get in the car,Patrick?
Speaker 5 (37:23):
How did I get in the?
Speaker 2 (37:24):
car, you got into the passenger seat.
Speaker 5 (37:25):
Yeah, that's what I was about to say.
I was like I knew I didn't getinto the driver's seat real
quick.
Hell.
No, you gonna hug that raccoon.
Speaker 2 (37:33):
Yeah, man, that motherfucker, that was a big ass
raccoon.
Speaker 1 (37:37):
That was the UPS raccoon.
They could have got up and likehugged you.
Speaker 4 (37:41):
You should have caught that coon and made some
coon soup.
Speaker 3 (37:43):
Oh God, Country ass Soup Ain't no damn coon chowder.
Speaker 1 (37:48):
I was just curious what was going through your mind
because me I was like no, I'mnot a coon guy.
Speaker 2 (37:56):
No, no, sorry, coons, don't do it for me there's an
interesting tip about my dad'snickname was coon oh really
because he used to love climbingtrees, so they called him coon
I was like ace, boom, someracist shit.
Speaker 1 (38:10):
I mean, is it racist when all your siblings are all
niggas.
Speaker 2 (38:11):
Yes, we had this discussion earlier.
Yeah, we was talking about, butI mean, it's all niggas?
Speaker 1 (38:14):
Yes, we had this discussion earlier.
Yeah, we was talking about, Imean, it's all niggas.
Speaker 3 (38:19):
We have time for one last question.
Who helped you become thisversion of you that feels the
most real?
Jesus, my kids.
Speaker 4 (38:28):
Babies, did you say Jesus?
Speaker 3 (38:30):
Babies, what about you?
Speaker 5 (38:32):
Wifey.
Speaker 1 (38:33):
Your wifey Don't make me say that.
Speaker 3 (38:35):
Okay.
Speaker 1 (38:37):
Oh me.
Speaker 3 (38:39):
You period.
I like to thank me, Thank you.
Speaker 4 (38:42):
All of it.
Speaker 3 (38:43):
No, he was asking the question me, oh you, okay, that
wasn't the answer All of them.
Speaker 1 (38:48):
It's all of it.
It's just a lot of shit.
Everything molded me, so I knowit's a generic shit, but that's
the truth Least honest.
Speaker 3 (38:58):
What about you?
Speaker 4 (39:00):
My wife.
Speaker 3 (39:01):
Your wife.
And that ass.
Speaker 1 (39:03):
The ass molded you.
Speaker 4 (39:06):
Yeah, it motivated me to get in that more.
Speaker 3 (39:08):
I think every bad experience that I had Positive,
for real, for real.
Every bad experience, all ofthem, I think they molded me to
who I am and and I think that,um, just being married, I think
being married molded me to thewho, the wife I will be in if I
ever get married again.
That's a big if, cause I don'tknow how I feel about that, but
(39:30):
hmm, I think what the fuck wasthat?
Hmm, go ahead, talk your shit.
I do.
Honestly, I I make it seem likemy husband's a bad person, and
he's not.
It may come off that way withsome of the things that I say,
but he's not he's not we just we, just, we just two people that
(39:52):
don't don't work well as a team.
we work great in a two peoplethat don't work well as a team.
We work great in a friendship,but we don't work well as a team
, and I think I learned throughthat that some things can't be
forced.
Speaker 2 (40:04):
Those facts.
Speaker 3 (40:05):
Even if you try, you know something you can
definitely try, but somethingjust ain't meant to be so I
think that's something that Ialso, you know, shaped me to
understand and it also gave me abetter understanding of self,
because was not him that wasdoing the forcing, it was me.
So that was something that youknow.
He he was very transparent andclear in the beginning that
marriage wasn't something thathe was ready for, but did it
(40:29):
because I was ready, or at leastI thought.
I was at least I thought I wasso more info you have.
I think that don't be fuckingwith me.
I'm just being transparent forthose people out there that may
be going through what I'm goingthrough and I noticed that
there's a lot of women that willlike force bug, I want to marry
you.
We need to be together and a manwill do it because they love
(40:51):
them, they don't want to losethem, but they're just not ready
.
So I learned that I can't forcenothing and things need to just
happen organically and I needto be okay with with not having
control over everything.
So that that was one of thebiggest things that shaped me.
Speaker 2 (41:06):
That's what's up.
Speaker 3 (41:07):
Thank you, thank you, thank you anyways this has been
another spill the teaeye-opening episode of the
heavyweight podcast you don'tknow what you did it to me.
Okay, as always like, subscribe, share, comment, all that shit,
all of that shit.
Speaker 1 (41:28):
Peace that's a wrap, y'all.
That's how she wrote, so makesure you click like and
subscribe.
Tune in we on the Austrianplatform Until next time bye,
lads.
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