February 24, 2025 • 60 mins
What lies beyond this life? These existential questions shape our daily choices, from prioritizing financial stability for future generations to navigating health challenges and personal aspirations. Amidst serious reflections, we find lighthearted moments in whimsical pet names and quirky animal-themed footwear.
We also dive into the world of self-expression, where confidence and humor take center stage. From mastering the art of compliments to overcoming shyness and pursuing stand-up comedy, we celebrate the courage to step beyond comfort zones. Through personal stories and laughter, we explore the freedom of honest self-expression and the lessons learned from life’s ups and downs.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to the Heavyweight Podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:04):
The message behind saying the title of the
Heavyweight Podcast is to beable to say that we can weigh in
on some heavy shit.
What we're talking about isimportant from every aspect of
it.
It's a heavy weight.
It's not just about physicalweight, but the weight of things
that can weigh our minds.
So I think it's dope that wecan have this conversation.
Speaker 3 (00:30):
What's good, this is episode 187 of the heavyweight
podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:32):
I am your anti-social host and never your favorite.
Stata McFly back again withthis lady and these two guys.
Go ahead and state your namefor the beautiful people out
chill.
Speaker 1 (00:45):
I guess I'm Kevin Kevin Wendell.
Speaker 3 (00:50):
I don't know why.
I don't know what to cry over.
She just.
Speaker 1 (00:52):
She can't, she can't stop giggling.
Speaker 3 (00:55):
Who is you?
I'm sorry, can you say it inthe mic, please?
Y'all.
Speaker 4 (01:05):
Somebody save me From these niggas?
Is that the diva?
Speaker 1 (01:09):
why we gotta be.
Speaker 4 (01:10):
That's where her name is somebody no it's not because
they don't see the behind thescenes.
You always got a joke overthere that you throw in.
You laugh before you tell ajoke.
So we know you, finna, comewith some bullshit out your
mouth, you tell your jokes realquick and he be whispering his
fucking jokes and don't nobodyhear the shit but me.
Speaker 2 (01:27):
I don't I don't have no idea what anyone's talking
about.
I'm the most unjoking person inthe world.
Speaker 3 (01:34):
I am so serious and, like you, just talk about uh
masturbation right, I've nevertalked about ejaculation on this
show.
Speaker 2 (01:44):
I have no idea what you're talking about.
There is no proof that you guyscan find out there that I do
anything other than just you didme like this no, I was rolling
dice.
Um, I don't know what you'retalking about.
I'm straight straight shooter.
Speaker 4 (01:59):
I am unfunny, I'm very serious and never smile I'm
tired of you, and I was newwhen you did it, so I didn't
know what the fuck to do.
Speaker 2 (02:08):
I was rolling dice.
Speaker 4 (02:09):
People are on their damn dice, Sorry Weeks.
The sound effects, oh my God.
I had a great week, thank you.
Speaker 1 (02:19):
My week.
It's good.
I'm about to board a plane, sowe'll see how that goes.
Speaker 4 (02:24):
Oh God, it's good I'm about to board a plane, so
we'll see how that goes.
Speaker 3 (02:26):
Yeah, oh god, hey they got money for real.
This nigga stay gone nah dog.
Speaker 1 (02:31):
I bought this like three months ago.
Speaker 3 (02:33):
I don't care when you bought it, nigga you stay gone.
Speaker 1 (02:35):
Maybe four, you do stay gone stay gone now after
this one, guess where I'ma be inthe club?
Yep, right in there, right inthere.
Right in there in the club,right in there, kevin.
What you doing today?
Speaker 3 (02:46):
not a thing that's some old nigga shit.
Always the school man um gymand growth.
That's all it is.
Gym and growth, gg, gg what'dyou say?
Speaker 1 (03:02):
you went to school gym and growth.
Speaker 3 (03:06):
Yeah, I'm not talking , I'm not gonna go down the road
.
Speaker 1 (03:08):
You start laughing and shit and I'm like this nigga
think I'm gonna go down.
Speaker 3 (03:11):
I'm not going down a nasty road with you okay, I'll
say I went to the, I went to thegym and, and, and, and, uh,
here we go pursued my personalgrowth yep, that's yep.
Speaker 1 (03:22):
He's trying to go, he's trying to take us there.
I'm like he got the four-wheeldrive on.
Speaker 2 (03:32):
And when you talk about sound effects, I was
thinking about the meth guyagain.
Speaker 1 (03:36):
Oh, my God please get that nigga off your mind.
Like why'd you say that he wasnaked?
Speaker 3 (03:42):
huh, probably sound like a Diddy party, take that
take that, take that, take that,take that, take that.
Speaker 1 (03:52):
What them niggas in there doing.
Speaker 4 (03:53):
I'm tired of y'all.
Speaker 2 (03:54):
They listened to the body cam footage.
Speaker 4 (03:57):
Ew, not they listening to the body?
Speaker 2 (03:59):
They didn't have to watch it, they just.
Speaker 1 (04:01):
Nigga, you can't watch it.
It's just on somebody's bareass.
Speaker 4 (04:04):
Chest what y'all doing oh my god, it got on, jim.
Speaker 3 (04:10):
Oh my god your week, your week that hasn't set her
week she started off.
She's at my school.
Yeah, she did that shit realquick, alright.
I went to the dentist right andmy regular hygienist wasn't
there okay and it bummed me outbecause she makes it easy, she
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makes it easy.
Speaker 2 (04:32):
Um, so it was a.
It was a new lady, she waschill and we ended up bonding
over the fact that her husbandwas a a driver for ups and he
retired.
So I was like that's what's up,you know.
And I'm like, oh, this is goingcool.
She's nice polite.
She fucked up.
What'd she do?
She stabbed me in the fuckinglip did you press charges?
Speaker 3 (04:53):
I wanted to, that's all.
Speaker 2 (04:55):
She apologized, though, but this is the thing
I'm saying.
This is a very common thing.
I want to say it wasn't myfirst brush with getting stabbed
in the lip, but if you sufferfrom big lips like I have, it's
coming.
You get stabbed a lot.
You know what I'm saying, and Idon't think these people of
other races know how to adapt tobig lips when they're working
(05:20):
on cleaning teeth.
Speaker 3 (05:21):
Well, hold on, you don't know.
There may be some other racesout there of the female species
that their lips get stabbed whenthey go for passersby.
Speaker 2 (05:33):
I'm not talking about them.
Lips nigga.
This nigga is ignorant, I swear.
Hey, I've been stabbed in thelips multiple times.
I want to say this is my firsttime.
It wasn't so.
What I'm saying is my otherhygienist.
She don't do that.
So, the risk I take on takingon new hygienists when they
clean my teeth is I could getstabbed.
Speaker 3 (05:54):
Couldn't reschedule.
Speaker 2 (05:55):
No man, I was trying to get it done.
It was early in the morning.
You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1 (06:01):
I think I've been lucky.
Then I've had other shit thatgone wrong but, never been
stabbed in the lips.
Speaker 2 (06:07):
I've stabbed in the lip.
This time I didn't bleed.
Last time I bled, damn.
Speaker 1 (06:11):
Yeah that's always fun.
Speaker 3 (06:13):
You draw blood, I'm pressing charges.
Speaker 1 (06:15):
You probably signed a waiver.
Speaker 3 (06:16):
I was attacked, probably signed a waiver, like
years ago, not for that.
That was violent.
Speaker 2 (06:26):
I can hear you Bitch the whole trying to figure it
like I said.
Maneuvering, that that's it.
We got to be more aware of this.
To that, you know what I'msaying.
That just, it was painful.
I almost won.
Speaker 3 (06:45):
Anyway, I guess we'll get into the shenanigans you
let a nigga shenan one time, yougonna shenan again.
Speaker 2 (06:51):
There we go so what are your biggest strengths and
what are your biggest weaknesses?
What are the three questionsyou wish you could define or get
definite answers to aboutyourself?
Speaker 3 (07:05):
that's a lot.
We just started the first no,it's that.
Speaker 2 (07:09):
That was the whole question.
That was the topic was yourstrengths and weaknesses.
Oh, okay, and then the questionis what are the three questions
you wish you could get definiteanswers to about yourself?
Speaker 3 (07:24):
go ahead, kevin, because because Kevin got
something for you.
Speaker 1 (07:27):
That'll get me thrown off the bus.
Oh man, about myself, aboutyourself, I don't think there's
anything definite like this.
I don't feel I know, know,don't know about myself.
I feel like I took that wrongbecause I was thinking like more
(07:52):
just definite, like periodanswers, like what's after this
and stuff like that.
Speaker 2 (07:57):
you said period and I thought the menstrual thing
earlier.
So I was like why is he goingback to that?
But um, I guess you to that, Iguess you can make it the
definite answer you wantquestions about.
If it makes it easier for you,kevin.
Speaker 4 (08:12):
Why did Dez turn away ?
I'm tired of you.
That's why I am fucking tired.
Speaker 2 (08:18):
I mean he said they were all in sync.
Speaker 4 (08:23):
Had it.
Speaker 2 (08:25):
No, Justin oh my God Ain't no lie.
Bye, bye, bye.
Speaker 4 (08:33):
Kevin, what's your little three questions nigga Get
this going?
Speaker 1 (08:37):
Is there actually anything after this for me Like?
Speaker 3 (08:41):
life nigga yeah.
Speaker 1 (08:43):
I don't know.
Speaker 3 (08:44):
I don't know if it's life?
Speaker 1 (08:45):
or if it's, what is it you know?
Because everybody say you know,there's something or there's
nothing, but we don't know.
Because I don't know, I don'tthink, I want that answer you
know what what but you'll knowthe answer before it happens.
(09:06):
If it's nothing, then you'relike well, that might be bad,
because I might live reckless.
Yeah, because a lot of peoplefind out there's nothing getting
this Lamborghini and gunning it, but nah, I wouldn't do that,
still got them so.
Speaker 3 (09:19):
I wouldn't get in a Lamborghini because I couldn't
get out it's gotta be me uh, I'mgonna let you guys go.
Speaker 1 (09:28):
I'm gonna think of something else, because I can't
like.
That's the only thing I would Ican't really think anything.
The definite answers, I don'tknow because that's a tough one,
like for me, I don't know,because I don't really think of
anything as definite too much.
There's only two thingseverything's relative well, I
mean in a sense, because there'sonly two things that are
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definite.
Speaker 3 (09:53):
Here's the thing I do know.
I think all of my questionswould oh see what you said about
me you can?
it seems to be stomping youanybody so just go ahead and
answer all of my questions wouldbe, like what do I need to do?
Like what steps are what I needto take to ensure the success of
my daughter or to ensure thather life is better and easier
(10:14):
than mine?
Because I feel like that's partof my goal is.
Like now was to make it that,you know, she don't struggle
like daddy and mom had tostruggle.
You know, even though she don'tstruggle like daddy and mom had
to struggle, you know, eventhough she don't feel like we
ever struggled because she'sswollen as shit, she don't
realize that you know me andmama used to wait for that
direct positive hit so we caneat.
She don't know, she ain't neverbeen in the mud.
(10:36):
So I think most of my questionswould be catered towards that
Like what do I need to dopersonally and what steps do I
need to take to ensure that herlife is everything she wants it
to be?
I think that's what I would domy wife.
(10:57):
She fine, as long as she got meshe fine.
Speaker 2 (11:00):
I was going to ask, you didn't think maybe like what
is exact, like the exactmeasurements for the perfect
balcony?
Speaker 3 (11:08):
or no, because we just get it when we fit in.
Okay, respect, I mean, we bothain't got to be on the balcony
as long as one person on there.
Speaker 4 (11:18):
I don't have no questions that I will answer.
To be honest with you, youdon't no.
Speaker 3 (11:23):
You don't.
Speaker 4 (11:23):
No.
Speaker 3 (11:24):
Like why don't crystals in charge?
Speaker 4 (11:26):
motherfuckers charge.
Every time, nigga, every time,thank you.
Every single different mooncharged like a motherfucker moon
, water and everything charged Ihave a question to capacity yes
, how are the shoes doing?
What?
Oh, they're doing.
Good, my dog did try to attackthem.
(11:49):
I had to keep them hiddenbecause Sandy is not a fan.
They are doing.
Speaker 3 (11:59):
So Sandy's not a fan of the animal sandals.
Speaker 4 (12:03):
Yeah, Sandy ain't fucking with it.
September kind of just looks atthem, but Sandy is not a fan of
the animal sandals yeah, sandyain't fucking with it.
September kind of just looks atthem, but Sandy is not fucking
with it.
Speaker 3 (12:08):
The fact that you got a dog named September Is
hilarious to me.
She's cute too.
Speaker 4 (12:13):
You know what she came her name.
When we got her Her name wasSeptember, but at the time that
was Hayden's favorite song, sowe kept the name September,
that's dope.
Speaker 1 (12:25):
That's dope.
Yeah, you came out the gatesWith a tough one there.
Speaker 2 (12:30):
Kept the name September.
Speaker 3 (12:31):
That's dope, that's dope, yeah, yeah you came out
the gates with a tough one there.
Yeah, I just asked my definitequestion.
I'm just what?
Speaker 4 (12:36):
the shoes, I mean the only thing I don't have answers
to about my life is what'sgoing on with my health to where
I can't have children.
If I can get the definiteanswer on that, that would be
cool, but other than that Idon't really have a lot of
questions.
Speaker 2 (12:51):
I don't think I've ever stumped you guys.
Speaker 4 (12:55):
Yeah, you got us.
Speaker 1 (12:58):
Yeah, I just, I don't know.
Speaker 3 (12:59):
I say we're just in the know, in the know, in the
know, like we know ourselves.
Speaker 1 (13:05):
I mean there's still going to be things that come up
here and there.
Speaker 2 (13:08):
Yeah, I mean I would say.
My other definite answer orthat I would like to answer to,
is exactly what steps I need totake in order to be successful
with the podcast, podcasts, andwith any venture that I would
(13:28):
like to do as far as uh, to makesure to ensure success so I can
give my family what you know,what, what I feel they deserve.
That would be a big one, causethere's, there's, a certain
formula that I haven't yetfigured out, but I'm sure I'm
getting there.
Speaker 1 (13:43):
I guess I look at it differently.
You think about self yeah, Iwas trying to figure out like I
don't know it's tough causethat's I don't know it doesn't
sound right, but I'm like Idon't really give a shit.
Like not, like you know, Idon't know I mean, you are a
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hippie, kevin so what is?
Speaker 2 (14:09):
how would you describe yourself in one
sentence?
Speaker 3 (14:12):
once it is, I am, I am which one reincarnated or
that negative I am okay, you're,you realize enough that would
(14:32):
be your that is a full sentenceyes, I am, that would be your
sentence yeah, yeah, because Ihave, I wear many hats, so I
can't, I can't say um, I can'tsay I'm one particular thing.
So I guess I could say I am whoI need to be for myself and for
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those I love.
Speaker 1 (14:58):
That's yeah, okay, that's more of a sentence than I
am Nice.
Nigga Don't ever respect menigga.
Sentence than I am Nas niggadon't even respect me nigga.
No, I am.
Speaker 3 (15:10):
I said that wrong can , I can my bad.
Speaker 1 (15:13):
Who gives a shit?
2001 we're still banging 2001'sbangers how would I explain
myself in one sentence that makeis dope like like drugs dope or
(15:33):
like dope yeah okay, all of it.
Okay, all of it.
Addictive, also fresh, like infresh, you know like fresh fit.
Yeah, I've always been dope.
Okay, I've probably been weirdfor a while but subjective.
Speaker 3 (15:50):
But okay yeah not to me.
Speaker 1 (15:52):
I think you're pretty dope subjective.
Speaker 4 (15:54):
Thank you, yeah, I mean he cool, he dope like dope.
Alright, then I can't be umdefined by one sentence me fly,
let me just ain't no way.
Unregrettably, I can't bedefined by one sentence McFly,
ain't no way unregrettably methat's dope that's a phrase.
I am unregrettably me boomsentence pop him in the mouth.
Speaker 1 (16:20):
Is she still yours, or was that yours?
Speaker 2 (16:23):
were you unregrettably me.
Speaker 4 (16:24):
I put it in sentence form for him, since this nigga
want to be technical.
Speaker 3 (16:27):
First of all, my friend is smart enough to make
his own sense.
He don't need you, okay.
Speaker 4 (16:31):
Everybody needs me.
That's my sentence.
Everybody needs me.
Speaker 3 (16:37):
You out here lying to the world.
Speaker 4 (16:38):
Not lying to not one motherfucker up in here, but
since you attacked my friendhere here, I put it into
sentence form for him.
But that was a really good one,mcfly shut your ass.
Speaker 3 (16:48):
That would just prove that a lot of females don't
understand the male friendshipdynamic.
Speaker 4 (16:52):
I don't give a fuck about your friendship dynamic.
Nick, suck my dick.
Go on to the next question yougot one in my backpack, should I
go?
Speaker 2 (16:59):
to the car, should I?
Speaker 4 (17:00):
go to the car why, do you have to?
Speaker 3 (17:03):
so hold on hold on hold on, hold on Hold on.
She got the dick.
Kevin, do you have the meth?
We want to see it.
Period.
Speaker 4 (17:09):
Why would I have the meth?
You need to reenact me Becauseyou the hippie.
What?
Speaker 1 (17:13):
is the next question.
Speaker 3 (17:14):
Why would a hippie?
I don't know.
Speaker 2 (17:17):
What is the mistake you learned from the most?
Speaker 4 (17:21):
fuck what they think I overplay the fuck out of my
part.
Is that possible?
Yeah, absolutely, absolutely.
I have um tried to hell.
I got a list of mistakes I donetried to teach men how to be
men can't do that, cannot dothat.
The shit that never did that.
I've overplayed my part andcome out and and shown people
(17:45):
all my cards in the beginninghere.
This is what I am, this is whatI can be for you, this is what
I do and I can do this for you.
And men have eaten that shitthe fuck up, and not poured
anything else back into mebecause they wasn't fucked for
it.
The bitch done gave it to me.
Y'all in the first damn monthof us knowing each other, don't
say shit smart to me while I'mbeing vulnerable, because I will
.
I've been listening.
Speaker 1 (18:05):
I don't think it was, those wasn't men, but we with
you but that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (18:10):
I have done too much too soon all I was gonna say was
so you know, you felt like youwas one of those women that give
guys a playbook exactly whatthey do absolutely, I was,
absolutely, I was, absolutely Iwas.
Speaker 4 (18:22):
I'm not even going to lie about that.
That has been the biggestmistake.
Speaker 3 (18:26):
If I know, there's a young lady at our place of
appointment and I'm like the wayshe talks.
She gives you the playbook toplay her like a fiddle.
Speaker 4 (18:35):
I think a lot of women do that though, to be
honest, not all of them, ofcourse, not all of them but I
think a lot of women are likethat where we just go in and we
show you all our cards becausewe want to be what it is.
It's a self-confidence thing.
There's not enough confidencein you that you yourself will be
desirable to somebody.
You go mesh, naturally, withsomebody, so you just go in and
you show everything you thinkwill be desirable to that person
(18:59):
in hopes that they will pickyou.
Look here, um.
Speaker 3 (19:04):
I think I was in eighth grade and I said if Sam
Cassell could find a wife,listen why you do that.
There's somebody out here forme, damn.
Speaker 2 (19:19):
You used to suck shots at Sam Cassell Damn,
that's like damn, that's noreason.
Speaker 1 (19:24):
He got it straight for no reason.
Speaker 3 (19:26):
That was a great me.
I looked at Sam Cassell, Ilooked at Reggie Miller.
I said these niggas, especiallyReggie Miller.
Speaker 2 (19:32):
He was probably at home right now eating a nutter
butter and was like, well, Igotta take a hit you better
leave them nuts alone.
Speaker 1 (19:40):
Who Reggie Sam Sam?
I was like.
Speaker 4 (19:44):
Reggie Miller, he was cracking them all.
Speaker 2 (19:47):
He had that one piece of nutter butter sitting on his
lip.
Well, I got to take a strip.
Speaker 3 (19:53):
Not sitting on his lip, but that's a bit serious
though, like what, like thiskind of off track, but like what
you said, right.
What you just said right now iskind of like why I try to teach
my daughter to beself-confident.
Right, because I do understandthat when you lack confidence,
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it's easy for someone to come upand portray one thing and be
something else, because just yougetting a compliment if you're
not used to compliments, it'seasy it makes you a little less
reserved when dealing withsomeone because they're feeding
into you in a way that interestsyou because you're not used to
that.
So I do think it's importantfor me, especially in my role
with my daughter, to let herknow like, no, like, build up
(20:35):
her confidence and herself-worth so that you know
these dusty ass niggas out herecan't approach her, I agree, and
they can just impress her.
Speaker 4 (20:43):
I absolutely agree.
You're going to save her from alot of mediocrity that way, I
mean we can try.
Speaker 3 (20:49):
She might grow up like bad boys.
Speaker 2 (20:51):
All we can do is hope , yeah, for all we know, sam
Cassell was a fan of ours, andthen we just lost one follower.
Speaker 3 (20:56):
He was like man I love this heavyweight pop?
Speaker 2 (20:58):
Why the fuck I got to take it straight?
Speaker 3 (21:02):
Sam you know your teeth was fucked.
Speaker 1 (21:05):
We want a Cheryl anyway, I know, but we could
have got them Wendy'scommercials.
Speaker 2 (21:15):
My mistake is it was often was trying to prove my
worth instead of just knowingthat I was was dope, but trying
to constantly prove that, hey,I'm dope.
It's like I don't have to showthat shit.
Dope sells itself.
So I just had to learn that.
Speaker 4 (21:33):
I agree.
In the beginning of the songI'm dope.
Is that you saying this?
Nigga done, put me back on thepayroll.
Is that your voice?
Yeah, okay, I thought it was,but I just wasn't sure.
I wanted to ask you.
Speaker 3 (21:48):
Oh, that was a reference to when they were on
the label together.
Speaker 4 (21:51):
I didn't know.
Speaker 3 (21:54):
Oh, just so you know, I'm a real McFly fan.
Speaker 4 (21:56):
Oh, thank you, I didn't know.
Just so you know I'm very newto this local music.
Speaker 2 (22:03):
There's no way that's necessary I bust nuts before I
leave, so I don't forget where Icome from.
Speaker 4 (22:07):
Oh my goodness, Jesus , jesus, jesus, oh, my gosh Bars
.
It's a beautiful nut, the bestnut that anyone's ever netted
before it's time to go.
What's the next question?
I'm hungry.
Speaker 2 (22:24):
What compliment do you like to hear the most, and
why?
Speaker 4 (22:27):
That you like to hear the most?
Hmm, what compliment do youlike to hear the most and why
that you like to hear the most?
Hmm, not that, motherfucking.
I'm strong Sick of that shit.
My granny recently saw thepodcast which I did not want
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grandma to see because I'm onher cussing every day and I was
very happy to hear how much sheliked this and she felt like it
was kind of cool to see that Iwas a smart girl and I was able
to hold my own up here with theguys and although I really
(23:08):
didn't want her to see me onhere because I know that I'd be
cussing- you do more thancussing yeah, boy, I said what
fucking episode did y'all showher?
like who the fuck who got onyoutube for granny?
But um, but just hearing hersay that she was proud of me
being up here amongst the malesand how good we work together
and how much she liked the, theepisode she saw, I thought that
(23:31):
was dope and don't let her seethe top of this episode the
cousin, the cousin that Isuspect showed her ass.
I hope she see this.
She better show granny shit elsethe top of this, one will be I
definitely didn't ask her to dothat shit, but she saw it I'm
pretty sure.
I mean she would have saidsomething Well, I don't know, my
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grand kind of vulgar, so shemight have.
Speaker 2 (23:55):
I don't know, or you're back and forth about how
many more bitches you get thanyeah, yeah.
Speaker 4 (24:00):
Well, I mean granny, know who the hell I am.
Oh so so she wasn't tripping.
Speaker 3 (24:08):
She wasn't tripping at all.
Speaker 4 (24:10):
What did you just say ?
Speaker 3 (24:11):
I said most grannies do.
Speaker 4 (24:12):
Okay, they know who their grandkids are.
Why are you staying turned on?
Because with him I never knowI've been cool all day With him.
Speaker 3 (24:19):
I never know.
She stayed turned on.
Speaker 4 (24:23):
I can't turn down with you, because as soon as I
turn down with you, then youharass me anybody harass
somebody Kevin your answer, sir.
That's smart that's smart.
Speaker 1 (24:31):
Uh, sounds like she's living in a war zone.
Speaker 4 (24:34):
I'm a good person and he is, you are a good person.
Speaker 1 (24:39):
I think that's.
That's probably my favoritecompliment.
Speaker 4 (24:43):
I like that my favorite compliment I can only
give for one person alright,mcfly, what's your favorite, and
it's when it's my favorite,compliment I can only give for
one person.
Speaker 3 (24:52):
All right, mcfly.
What's your favorite?
And it's when my daughter looksat me and says you're the best
dad ever.
Speaker 4 (24:56):
Oh, I love that.
See, I thought you was going tosay something about your wife
appreciating being bent over thebalcony or something.
Speaker 3 (25:03):
She do appreciate that.
But I mean I'm used to that.
I like seeing the joy on mydaughter's face when and I get
her snap of approval.
Speaker 4 (25:13):
I love that.
Speaker 3 (25:14):
Those are nice that is the best, because when she
said that I'm like man, what youwant when you finna, get it.
Speaker 1 (25:21):
That's good, that's oh, you fold every time, yeah,
every time.
Speaker 3 (25:24):
I don't mean folding.
Speaker 1 (25:25):
I'm like you.
You can watch the tablet forfive more minutes.
They're like can we get this?
Speaker 3 (25:33):
Like no, she looks so cute when she say it, so that's
probably my best compliment.
Speaker 1 (25:42):
So you want to answer , you got one.
Speaker 2 (25:45):
Oh, my favorite one.
Someone doesn't realize howfunny I am and they go.
Oh my God, when, uh, someonedoesn't realize how funny I am
when they go.
Oh my god, I didn't realize youwere this funny I didn't until
I, until I started being here.
Speaker 4 (25:55):
You're hilarious.
I told niggas I've been tellingthis for a lifetime well, we
had never really had like aconversation that would have
warranted for us to be jokingwith each other, so I didn't
know.
Speaker 2 (26:05):
And then you just came out the bag on the dead
face I just I like it the mostbecause when I was younger I
would say things and it would goover people's heads and I'm
like that was fucking funny.
You didn't hear the humor inthat like and it felt like as I
got older, the same like as I,my humor hasn't changed, it's
just people started going oh,this is actually funny.
Like it almost like it tooktime to catch up.
(26:26):
So the mcfly um moniker fits,because it's like I was ahead of
my time when this shit I wasdoing in ninth grade that people
were like it's not funny andI'm like I should be telling
older, older people jokes yeah,they're like what?
Speaker 3 (26:44):
so when, like now, it's like, oh man, you're funny,
it's like yeah, I've beenacting this way this whole
fucking time there's beencountless times we've been
talking and like I'm working,like we're talking at work and
I'm working, and he'll saysomething and I'll be in front
of a customer.
I can't laugh and I'm trying tohold and laugh.
I'll talk to a customer andthen when I get back in the
truck I'll be like fuck younigga, I wasn't laughing, oh
yeah, you guys got theheadphones.
Speaker 1 (27:05):
Okay, I was like, is he just behind you?
Speaker 3 (27:07):
Oh, that shit was funny that is there's been a
couple times I had to pull overmy humor is.
Speaker 2 (27:17):
It's my humor is comes from a certain place.
So, like when people get it,I'm like oh, you get it, you get
me Cool, all right.
What challenges have you facedin the past and that you're
proud?
You're over, you've overcame?
Speaker 1 (27:36):
uh, shyness, like a motherfucker still like there,
but it's like I've learned howto like fight through it.
Like shyness towards like women, or like just all of the women
people, just yeah.
Speaker 3 (27:51):
OK.
Speaker 1 (27:53):
You don't believe it, but I believe, I believe it.
Speaker 3 (27:56):
I feel like a lot, a lot of like like creative people
are shy, have a level ofshyness, like they're reserved
in that way, like when they'reperforming they're very
extroverted, but in daily lifethey're more introverted, kind
of off themselves, kind of shytype situation.
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I can't believe that.
I believe that.
Speaker 4 (28:21):
Danny Murphy says that all the time that he
prefers to be by himself, andthen he comes alive when they're
taping.
Speaker 1 (28:28):
Well, yeah, they're starting to get started on
checks.
I think that was my biggest one.
Speaker 4 (28:38):
Des I think being more open and, for example,
being able to come on thepodcast and have people view me,
and being able to get on thestage last year and tell my
little jokes were bigaccomplishments for me.
Because I stopped saying I wouldnever, well, because I told him
little jokes.
(28:58):
I said not another damn jokesince, but I think those were
still big accomplishments for me, because I wasn't.
I wouldn't have never been ableto really do either, because
I'm not necessarily shy, but Iam real chill and laid back in
my normal life, so I wouldn'thave never got up there, yeah.
Speaker 1 (29:17):
You didn't.
You didn't do little jokes,though you did.
Speaker 2 (29:21):
You killed yeah.
Speaker 4 (29:23):
I appreciate that, but I don't know if I'll be able
to get up there and do it again.
Speaker 3 (29:27):
I mean I was, it was funny.
You surprised me what.
That's why I get your flowers.
I think he was actually funny.
I appreciate that well, becauseif you wasn't, I was gonna tell
you, nigga, don't do it again.
Speaker 4 (29:37):
Why?
Because I would have to reworkmyself back up to be able to get
back up there.
Yeah, that's the fun, becausethat's the first.
Speaker 1 (29:42):
Did you not enjoy it?
I did enjoy it.
I was stressed the fuck out.
Speaker 4 (29:44):
But I did.
I did enjoy it.
I was stressed fuck out, but Idid.
Speaker 1 (29:47):
I did enjoy it.
Would you like to know how thatfeels to not be stressed and be
like, oh, I'm about to go nailthis shit.
And then just go nail this shit, probably feel dope, huh I, I
would imagine.
Speaker 4 (29:57):
I mean you got to keep working I would imagine so
well, we'll see, we'll see yeah,the first initial thing is
usually the hardest, and afterthat it's just uh persistence.
Speaker 2 (30:10):
And then, after persistence, you get to a point
where you kind of getcomfortable with what you're no,
you know what you're capable ofdoing.
Then you create better becauseyou're like.
I like doing this.
Let me dabble with this alittle bit.
Now you have more uh tools towork with, so you start going.
I'm gonna try to dabble overhere, I'm going to go over here,
I'm going to try this over here.
But that comes from persistence.
Speaker 4 (30:32):
I think with being on the podcast, it's easier for me
because we bounce off of eachother, so it's easier for me.
But being up there by myself isdifficult, because I'm
constantly getting told I shouldbe a comedian and then I'm
scared to not be as funny aspeople think I'm supposed to be.
Speaker 1 (30:50):
But here's the beauty of that too, is there is no
supposed to be like.
The one thing I learned fromall of it is somebody was like
try everything.
Who the fuck are you?
You don't know this shit.
It's like you don't know whatyou like, you don't know what
you're good at, you don't knowany of this.
So it's like try the improvpart, try this part, try deadpan
, try this, try that.
He's like oh, fuck it, let metry it.
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And when you try it, it's likeanything.
You build up a toolbox and thenyou're like oh, this is what I
actually really like.
A lot of you might not evenlike this part of stand-up.
Like when I tried improv, I waslike oh, this shit is dope as
fuck.
Like I love that shit, but Ilearned how to take that and put
it into what I'm doing.
(31:31):
But like you don't know whatyou're gonna like until you try
it all can you repeat thequestions?
sorry, we went on tangent huh,your favorite compliment cuz,
was it?
Speaker 2 (31:45):
no, that wasn't it are we past challenges have you
faced in the past and thatyou're proud, the most proud, of
overcoming.
Oh yeah, you're right, I wastwo questions back.
Speaker 3 (31:55):
I would say for me personally, um, the challenge of
dealing with myself as far as,like my personal growth, my
internal dialect, and what I'mmost proud of is the version of
me that I'm creating.
As far as like being healthyall around, so not just physical
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, emotionally healthy, beingable to process articulate
things that I couldn'tarticulate in the past, being
able to tie my shoe withoutpassing out Stuff like that.
I'm proud of that.
This is rough and you can't tieyour shoe.
Speaker 2 (32:42):
Alright, I'll say this this is exclusive.
There's so many differentvariations to why I got my name.
Speaker 3 (32:52):
Which one?
Speaker 2 (32:53):
Stutter.
Speaker 3 (32:54):
Okay.
Speaker 2 (32:55):
Cause.
Originally I would say it wason the fly Cause when I used to
rap I would fuck up so much andno rap, no verse was ever the
same.
Because I would.
It was literally I was makingup things in the verses I would
go.
So that's originally why it'sstutter, but because I fucked up
a lot.
But when I started thinkingabout my growing up, one of the
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big things I had to overcome asa is when I was a kid was
stuttering, and I would stutterbad because I was afraid of
public speaking.
So I were.
I've said this story before.
There would be times I rememberI would read a paragraph aloud
in class and I would bestruggling through that
motherfucker and then, like it,got to a point it got so bad.
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One time they clapped for me Isaid Nick.
Speaker 1 (33:43):
I'm not that slow.
Speaker 2 (33:44):
Damn, kids are assholes.
But as I got older, I forcedmyself to take public speaking
classes at RCC and one of theprojects was you had to make a
commercial and the teacher usedto point out certain things for
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us to learn and focus on, and Iwas determined to be a rapper.
Point out certain things for usto learn and focus on, and I
was determined to be a rapper.
So I wanted to be dope atpublic speaking, dope at stage
presence, dope at everything.
So once I got past that, I feelthe most proud of knowing that
(34:25):
when I perform and all that,that was all literally me facing
my fears head on and, eventhough they used to terrify me
as a kid, I overcame them.
And, uh, every time I hit astage, every time I do this
podcast, every time I've hadsome time where I had to do some
form of public speaking, it wasall based on me being
determined, uh, not to allowsomething that was a setback to
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define how I decide to beperceived.
So, even though there's so manydifferent variations to why I
got my name, the biggest one wasstuttering.
Was a?
Was a over?
It was a problem?
I overcame that.
I then embraced as a monikerand originally was Stutter Boy
(35:13):
and it became Stutter McFlybecause I said I did feel like I
was ahead of my time.
So, yeah, that was what I wasmost proud of.
Speaker 3 (35:24):
That's what's up.
Speaker 2 (35:25):
Because in fourth grade me just saying that whole
sentence would have been.
Oh man oh man, another episode.
They're like oh, we'll probablyget to the end of this by 189,
but we don't know.
But yeah, that was what I feelmost proud of dope what would
(35:46):
you do differently if you knewnobody would judge you for it?
Speaker 3 (35:51):
Nothing, nothing.
I wouldn't do anythingdifferent because the only
people, the only opinions I careabout are my family, are my
immediate family, my closefriends and my wife, and I felt
like I wouldn't do anythingdifferent because I feel like
the people in my circle wouldn'tjudge me for any decision I
make or any action I take.
Speaker 2 (36:16):
That's everybody else .
Speaker 4 (36:19):
I might just be single and collecting hoes.
Yeah, des might judge me forsomething.
Bitches, niggas, everybody.
No, I'm just kidding.
Speaker 3 (36:27):
She's not kidding.
Speaker 4 (36:29):
I don't pass judgment on you.
Why would you?
Speaker 3 (36:31):
say that.
No, I said, you're not kiddingabout one more hoe yep
collecting.
Speaker 4 (36:36):
Gotta catch them all throwing niggas in a pokeball
like a motherfucker.
Um, I do not pass judgment onyou, said I would probably judge
you.
I said, might I don't judge you, I'm not, I might not give you
compliments, no more.
But that's just because you saycrazy shit when I give you
compliments.
But I don't judge you.
Speaker 2 (36:57):
What was it?
I am.
Speaker 3 (37:01):
I am Des.
Speaker 2 (37:01):
No, I'm Shut your ass up, please.
I'm inevitable.
She's like I got these hoesSnap Period.
Yeah, I can see that I gotthese hoes Snap.
Speaker 4 (37:12):
Period I just collect them all Like Pokemon.
Speaker 3 (37:16):
Yep, she got three Chargers right now.
Speaker 4 (37:19):
I'll be at your job collecting them first, Kevin.
Speaker 3 (37:22):
Why Wow?
Speaker 1 (37:26):
You probably collect one.
Speaker 4 (37:28):
Coming just for that one.
The rest of me playing yourfine ass in this pokeball.
Let's go.
Speaker 1 (37:34):
I won't catch none of these, so did she finish?
Yeah, I'm done, I'm done.
Speaker 4 (37:44):
I was kidding.
I don't know what I would dodifferently, because I ain't
really worried about no judgment.
Speaker 3 (37:49):
I would have taken, because I ain't really worried
about no judgment.
Speaker 1 (37:52):
Yeah, I would have taken something back, but it's
because I judged myself.
Are you going to tell us?
I don't know if I should, Imean we're here.
I'm still judging myself tothis day.
Speaker 3 (38:06):
How long ago did this happen?
To this day, how long did thishappen?
High school oh, okay, highschool, I mean, you were a kid.
How long ago did this happen?
Speaker 1 (38:09):
how long did?
Speaker 3 (38:09):
this happen.
High school, oh okay, highschool.
I mean, you were a kid, don'tcount.
Speaker 1 (38:13):
I was old enough, I had a car and shit, so I
probably wouldn't have shit inthat dugout what so you did it
you took a shit in a dugout soI'm in the opposite opposite of
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it.
So that's what I wouldn't havedone.
It's only because of my regret,I know that's not the question,
but that's the only thing thatpopped in my head.
I was like you know what?
I wouldn't have shit in it.
You gotta go.
(38:57):
When you gotta go.
Speaker 2 (38:59):
Yeah, I don't think I would have done nothing
different right now in lifeother than yeah, for me I would
have just openly said what thefuck I felt in high school,
cause I was always like withgirls and shit, I was always the
letter writer.
I was never the let me go sayhow I openly feel thing, so if I
felt like I wasn't gonna getjudged for it, I would probably
be that but your pen's nice mypen is nice, but I'm saying.
(39:22):
I want to be able to say openlywhat I feel and not feel judged
for as far as talking yeah, youwrite letters now.
Speaker 3 (39:29):
You write letters now .
Judge for it.
Speaker 2 (39:30):
As far as talking yeah, yeah, right, there's now
right you said, right, there'snow right.
Speaker 3 (39:32):
Yeah, like fuck you bitch.
You know what you did no, no,no.
Speaker 2 (39:37):
I'll probably openly say it now.
Well, I'm saying then oh man Ijust am not back then I would
have been like oh no, it wouldmake me seem like I'm like mean
or something like now I'm like Iwish I would have just said
what the fuck I feel like.
Honestly, that'd be it.
(39:58):
I just say what the fuck I feelwas what came to mind.
This is how I feel.
This is how I look at you.
This is is it like and not belike?
Oh, they're gonna probably lookat me weird for saying you know
, all right, yeah, uh.
Like.
Oh, they're going to probablylook at me weird for saying it
All right, yeah.
No, I don't like that one.
(40:18):
I'm going to skip that one.
What's?
Speaker 4 (40:24):
hindering you from becoming what you really want to
be Money yeah, definitely thefunds.
Yeah, the financial aspects.
Yeah, definitely the funds, thefinancial aspects.
Speaker 3 (40:36):
Yeah, this equipment costs money.
Speaker 1 (40:40):
Myself.
I think me, yeah, just me Alittle.
I mean money is part of it, butI feel like that's all out
there Uncertainty.
Attain and stuff yeah.
Speaker 3 (40:53):
We can always go rock big.
Speaker 4 (40:56):
I wouldn't openly say that no, probably not the last
guy who openly told me that hewent to jail.
Speaker 1 (41:02):
He called me on the phone.
Speaker 2 (41:04):
He was like yeah, it didn't work out.
Speaker 1 (41:07):
No, he didn't tell me I was like where's so-and-so
he's work out?
No, he didn't tell me I waslike where's so-and-so he's?
Speaker 2 (41:16):
oh, he's in jail like oh, oh, he got cut kevin he got
a great opportunity.
Speaker 3 (41:20):
Anytime, spice headshot like what I'm not
buying, whatever you sell.
Speaker 1 (41:23):
Yeah, that was how we started.
Speaker 4 (41:24):
I was like, nah, dog, you're going to jail I think I
unrealistically stay loyal tothings that are no longer
serving me and that holds meback.
Speaker 3 (41:35):
And why is that?
Speaker 4 (41:36):
I ain't figured it out yet.
I'll get back to you on that.
I'm not sure, but I really justrecently realized that I
unrealistically feel obligatedto stay in situations that are
no longer serving me.
I almost feel bad when I haveto separate myself from
situations, and I think thatdoes hold me back in some
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aspects.
Also, the money is still aproblem.
I do.
I definitely need money, but ifwe're talking about me and what
I do, I think that's a problem.
I may have a better answer foryou in two weeks after I see my
therapist.
Speaker 1 (42:16):
Okay, okay, I'll see that I like it.
Speaker 3 (42:24):
I think a lot of people do that.
They stick around becausethey're trying to be a good
person, even when the situationis not serving them.
Speaker 4 (42:31):
Yes, definitely, I see that I don't know.
Speaker 1 (42:38):
I really don't know, Charlie.
I got it's a mental block thing.
Speaker 3 (42:43):
I was dead serious about the mic.
Speaker 2 (42:45):
I know you were, I mean I think everyone on here
and listening can relate to thatI don't think that that's a
common hindrance.
Speaker 3 (42:55):
I think the money.
Then the other thing isprobably because I'm trying to
pursue success.
Happiness is internal.
No one can make me happy but me.
You're happy based off thedecisions you make, not by what
people give you.
Speaker 2 (43:11):
What about Jaden Smith?
Speaker 3 (43:15):
Yes, that's trauma.
He's dealing with trauma.
Speaker 2 (43:19):
House nigga.
Speaker 3 (43:21):
I would say for me is that I most likely need to be
more sociable.
Speaker 2 (43:29):
Yeah, the house on the head House nigga.
Speaker 3 (43:30):
Yeah, I got it.
Speaker 4 (43:31):
I got the joke oh my goodness, yeah, the house on the
head House, nigga.
Yeah, I got it, I got the joke.
Oh, my goodness, I sure thehell did.
I seen him and I said, lord, wedon't need nothing else this
week, jaden, because babyTrepper already did a lot.
Speaker 3 (43:41):
I would just say be more sociable.
Can you blame him?
No, I can't.
Speaker 1 (43:45):
Can you blame a nigga with that much money to be the?
Speaker 3 (43:47):
house nigga.
Every you blame a nigga withthat much money to be the
housekeeper.
Every time I see I'm like he doshit because he bored and
trauma.
Speaker 4 (43:56):
He definitely has a lot of trauma.
That mother of his.
She was fine.
Speaker 3 (44:00):
She was fine and shamed, though.
Speaker 4 (44:02):
She was fine her whole the whole 90s, but she's
nuts now.
Speaker 1 (44:06):
Do you mean like sociable, as in like start
talking to people in the groceryline?
No, what I?
Speaker 3 (44:12):
mean like.
What I mean like when I, when Isay social is like because we
are technically in anentertainment field for what we
do, right, so it would, it wouldbe in my best interest and the
interest of the podcast if I wasmore vocal and social, talking
to other people about theventures and about the podcast
and not being as because I'm notbeing the reserved person I
normally am right.
(44:32):
So as far as like you know,kind of like what des does with
the stickers and stuff, right,like they're like people they
see my sweater, they they ask meand I tell me I'm part of
podcast, but but I like I don'treally like push, you know what
I'm saying so that that's thepart of like, so I guess that's
hindering your back and that'sfor both of my ventures.
I don't really push like eitheryou you see it or you don't.
(44:54):
And the ones that support, Iappreciate the ones that don't.
But your life, like Clyde, youknow, this is me.
That's my favorite.
Speaker 1 (45:02):
I get you don't do the follow up that's my favorite
part too.
Speaker 4 (45:07):
I talk about our podcast and yours all the time.
Speaker 1 (45:09):
Yeah, my homie at the dispensary, he be watching it.
He bought the security guard.
He said oh yeah, yeah, yeah,Checked y'all out, I'm like hell
yeah.
What you think, dog.
Speaker 4 (45:18):
I like that shit.
No, I didn't want my coworkersto see it, but they done found
it and I guess that's okay.
Speaker 1 (45:24):
Oh yeah, they located me.
I said how?
Speaker 3 (45:26):
did he know Because your number was in their phone.
Speaker 4 (45:31):
Really no, no, no, no , because somebody at my job
found it like a week ago and hemessaged me and was like hey, I
saw you on a podcast and I waslike no, not me.
And he's like no, it was you,it was definitely you.
And I was like damn, but hedon't have my number, or nothing
like that.
I was like yeah, but he don'thave my number or nothing like
(45:52):
that.
I don't let people follow mefrom work on the on the internet
, yeah.
Speaker 2 (45:56):
A combination of finances and what she said and
at the end of it uh mainly time,more time to uh get to where
I'm trying.
More time to uh get to whereI'm trying to get to.
Um, that's the the.
Those three work in conjunction.
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Finances uh attach to thingsthat no longer uh serve my
growth and time.
Speaker 4 (46:29):
When we get rich, can we keep this table.
Speaker 3 (46:32):
I don't see why not.
Like we have we might make it alittle shorter than we're going
to be inside.
You think it'd?
Speaker 2 (46:38):
actually work as a surfboard.
Speaker 4 (46:39):
We could just we could have a hole.
We could have a hole in themiddle.
Speaker 1 (46:42):
I mean you could fill the hole.
Yeah, we could just put ha ha,I don't like y'all.
Speaker 4 (46:48):
Y'all really just.
And then it'd be going over myhead for a second and then I'd
be like that's what she saidshut up why?
Speaker 1 (46:55):
would she say that I was like.
Why did she say that?
Speaker 3 (47:00):
that's my wife always says being a man must be an
exhausting cause.
You cause, y'all can't focus onone thing for too long, man.
I agree what can I say?
We always thinking about that.
I always say that first one isreally a set up, because you
always trying to get it back.
Speaker 2 (47:16):
So what is something that you love in your life right
now that you could not haveimagined liking in the past,
could not imagine even liking ityeah.
And now it's part of you.
Speaker 3 (47:31):
Yes, Greek yogurt.
Speaker 4 (47:34):
I love Greek yogurt.
Speaker 3 (47:36):
As much Greek yogurt as I eat now trying to get this
goddamn protein in Greek yogurtand cottage cheese.
Speaker 2 (47:45):
I really can't stand cottage cheese.
Do you like it?
Speaker 3 (47:49):
Not really like it, but it's for the gans.
Speaker 2 (47:55):
So if you don't like it, you're forcing yourself to
eat it.
It's not the same as Well?
Speaker 3 (47:58):
I mean it's being mixed with stuff so you don't
really taste the cottage cheese,but I know it's in there.
Speaker 2 (48:04):
Right, that's peace.
Speaker 1 (48:13):
Oh man, that's peace.
Oh man, oddly enough, flyinglike I couldn't stand that shit
when I was little, but now it'slike, yeah, but I'm like.
Now, if you're like, hey, we'reover here, I'm not driving like
there's no way, I'm driving toyou yeah, I can't not even
Arizona like, hey, we're overhere, like I'm not driving, like
there's no way I'm driving toyou.
No like, yeah, I can't, not evenarizona, I mean, if the
(48:35):
flight's cheap enough.
Fuck, yeah, I'm flying, that'san hour.
Yeah, that's true, you knowwhat I'm saying?
Like that's yeah, I don't thinkI could do it, I can't.
Well, I could drive and shit,but it's like nah, but I used to
like think we were gonna dieevery time, every time, and
(48:57):
cottage cheese, yeah, but Ican't say that I could live
without cottage cheese.
Nevermind, I could definitelylive without it a more honest
answer.
Speaker 3 (49:07):
Well, no, the other shit was honest too, but the
honest I would think thatputting myself out there, in
there doing shit like this, Iwouldn't, I didn't, I, you know,
I never thought I would do shitlike this.
But now I don't, really, causeI used to be concerned about
what people would say, now Ijust don't care, like you didn't
have myspace and shit.
Speaker 1 (49:25):
I had a myspace in my space but like you, didn't put
nothing out there no, I mean youjust contradicted your last, a
question from like threequestions.
Speaker 2 (49:31):
What about being social?
No, you just literally saidthat the reason why you wouldn't
put yourself out there isbecause of what people would say
well, no, no, I'm talking aboutas far as what I was saying
what would you do differently?
So you technically would haveput yourself out there more
because you didn't care ifpeople would judge you well, I
didn't.
Speaker 3 (49:48):
I didn't.
I didn't not necessarily judge,but I didn't care if people
would judge you.
Well, I didn't, I didn't.
I didn't not necessarily judge,but I didn't care about other
people's opinions, right?
Speaker 2 (49:53):
Yeah, but because I think you would have done it
more if you were if I wouldn't,if I wouldn't, I wouldn't have
cared.
Speaker 3 (49:57):
Yeah, cause you would have probably already been like
I I never like you talkingabout the sociable question, or
yeah, like where you said youwould have done differently if
no one would ever judge you oh,I wouldn't do anything different
.
Yeah, oh, cause I was cause.
Again, I said that because Ionly care about my immediate
family.
I don't think they would judgeme well, I think you would have.
Speaker 2 (50:19):
If that was the case, I think you would have been
more open.
Speaker 3 (50:21):
No, it's just cause no, because reserved, so it
wasn't like something doingsomething like this wouldn't be
something I would like, eveninitially, try to do without
being pushed.
Speaker 2 (50:32):
I've known you for a good minute now and I don't
think you're a reserved nigga asyou think, huh.
Speaker 3 (50:37):
I defend myself.
Speaker 2 (50:38):
I get that, but I don't think you're as reserved
as you think.
Speaker 3 (50:41):
Now, but I did say that I'm talking about earlier
me.
Now I told you my wife didchange me.
She made me, she did make memore sociable, because she's a
goddamn social butterfly.
She had talked, she had talkedto the crickets on the floor.
If they talked back to her, Idon't understand it.
I'd probably step on them.
Speaker 2 (50:57):
I don't understand it .
Speaker 4 (50:57):
You wouldn't Wait you'd step on the crickets.
That's talking.
Speaker 2 (51:01):
You wouldn't say, hey , what's the devil?
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (51:13):
But like I would, I would, I would let me, I guess,
to rephrase I would do more ofthe, the more of the, the
podcast and social media stuff alittle more Cause I think when
I first started social, I hadthe MySpace, I had a black
planetcom nigga, I'm old.
Speaker 1 (51:29):
Okay, space you can.
Speaker 3 (51:30):
I had a black planetcom nigga, I'm old, okay,
but but it was like I talked topeople.
I knew it wasn't like I was outthere like trying to make
connection or anything like that.
I wasn't trying to like promotemyself as I felt like I do on
these platforms.
I think I probably that thatwould probably be the one thing
I would change.
I probably just do that becauseI've always posted online.
Somebody says, okay, whateveryou'd interact, then I would
(51:51):
interact because I had angerissues and I'm like nigga, pull
up here.
It wouldn't be no back andforth, like I'd be here at this
time.
If you really bought this life,meet me here you ever watch a
lethal shooter?
Speaker 2 (52:01):
lethal shooter no, the motherfucker that shoots
like gummy bears into randomwater bottles.
Speaker 3 (52:05):
I understand now he shoots gummy bears in the random
water bottles.
Speaker 2 (52:09):
Yeah, just want to show you how good he is, so
he'll miss the first one and allof a sudden make the second one
, oh like shoots him like a balloh shit.
Speaker 3 (52:16):
Oh, because I'm thinking like pow, pow.
Speaker 1 (52:18):
That's what I was thinking.
I was like where he get a gummybear good.
Speaker 2 (52:23):
First of all, let me understand now.
Speaker 1 (52:26):
Yeah, but he ain't.
Speaker 2 (52:28):
I'm not finishing.
Speaker 1 (52:28):
He missed the layup Right.
Speaker 3 (52:32):
Right, and I knew I was going to miss it too the
whole time, yeah he did.
Speaker 2 (52:35):
I saw that I said the same thing.
I mean, you did understand nowyeah.
I didn't say that I said youweren't going to make it.
Speaker 3 (52:41):
I told you, my eyes told you nigga.
I don't even know why I cut itwas a clean cut.
That's hilarious.
It was a clean cut and I waswide open.
Speaker 2 (52:49):
Wide open.
I said I gave you all the spacein the world.
Speaker 3 (52:51):
You still missed that shit, yeah.
Speaker 1 (52:55):
The look you gave me.
That's hilarious More button.
Speaker 3 (52:56):
I think I make it now though.
Speaker 2 (53:03):
I got more win.
Yeah, that's what I think itpopped in my head is.
Speaker 3 (53:05):
you said something in the group about, though I'm in
better shape right now than lukenotches I was like, but the
fuck.
That was a joke, and lucasshould be in better shape than
me.
That nigga.
He get paid to be in shape Imean there's zion.
Speaker 1 (53:21):
Yeah, he's trying to get training.
He's doing everything he can.
Speaker 4 (53:26):
I got babies.
What was the question?
Speaker 2 (53:29):
The uh, the, the, the , the, the, the, the, the, the
Well, no, I think you actuallyanswered.
Speaker 4 (53:34):
Did I?
Yeah, you started us off.
Okay, cool, go on to the nextone.
Speaker 1 (53:37):
I can't remember what the question was.
Speaker 3 (53:39):
What would you do different?
Speaker 1 (53:41):
With the regret, are you?
Speaker 2 (53:45):
sure.
Speaker 3 (53:46):
Yeah, we believe so.
Speaker 2 (53:49):
Oh no, it was about what's something, what you love
in your life right now that youcouldn't imagine living without.
Oh yes, right Something likethat.
Speaker 3 (53:55):
Did you answer that?
No, I didn't answer that.
Oh sorry, Go ahead and answer.
I know your answer.
Go ahead and answer.
What was my answer Me?
I saw that coming.
Speaker 4 (54:03):
You walked into that um, I think hayden I don't like
that.
That's peace yeah, I think Ithink hayden, um, because it's I
mean, it's possible at thispoint that he's probably going
to be my only opportunity toever have experienced parenthood
, so I appreciate him hispresence for that.
(54:24):
But he is by far the dopest kidI have ever met.
Speaker 3 (54:30):
He's like super intelligent, that's because you
didn't meet me as a kid Gotta bewhy he's super intelligent.
Speaker 4 (54:36):
He keeps a balance in my house and I love that about
him.
And to have well, I mean, theentire world knows his daddy get
on my nerves, but for thatmother that he have to be the
way she is.
And he turned out to be such adope ass kid like he is, just
(54:56):
like living proof of all thegood in the world.
To me he's such a good kid.
He's respectful, well mannered,intelligent he's dope.
Speaker 3 (55:06):
I wouldn't, I wouldn't want to be, without
hating that's what's up like, ifthat ain't god yeah, definitely
, definitely it's a good answerthank you.
What's funny, nigga he's a goodanswer.
I thought a family feud oh god,I'm steve harley, I'm gonna no,
because the the team's likegood answer, like no, it wasn't
(55:27):
it, nigga.
Speaker 4 (55:28):
It was terrible.
Go ahead, bro.
That lady was like ma ma, theywere like good answer.
Speaker 2 (55:38):
It was uh.
Speaker 3 (55:40):
It's the porcupine one for me.
Speaker 2 (55:42):
A house.
Speaker 3 (55:43):
What that one you wish you did sooner.
Speaker 2 (55:46):
No, it was something I never thought and never really
kind of wanted before.
And then I realized now it'slike I can't imagine not.
Yeah not having it yeah yeah,because when I was growing up it
was it was never a big thing,my dad we were jumping around,
rent, rent, rent.
So I I never really saw thepurpose in the house.
(56:06):
And now I'm like I can't seehow not having a house like when
you really think about some ofthe things like and I would talk
to people about like their rentand how the rent keeps going up
and you have a locked inmortgage as opposed to like your
shit jumping up to everyfucking.
Speaker 1 (56:23):
you're smart because apparently there's that, that,
uh, what is it not fixed?
Oh yeah, adjustable, adjustable.
I've heard of some horrorstories in that shit.
What is it Not fixed?
Oh yeah, adjustable, adjustable.
I've heard of some horrorstories in that shit.
Speaker 4 (56:38):
You're only supposed to keep them for five years
while the interest rate islocked, and then, once the
interest rate locks, it'srefinance.
Supposed to, but it's shit,yeah, some shit happened.
Speaker 2 (56:48):
That sucks yeah.
Speaker 1 (56:52):
Anyway, that was depressing, I'm sorry.
Speaker 3 (56:57):
I'm straight, nigga.
I'm sitting around with my tube.
What is?
Speaker 2 (57:02):
something surprising you learned about yourself.
Speaker 3 (57:04):
Surprising I think I'm going to find out soon, I
think for me is I I do have thecapacity to be critical enough
(57:24):
of myself to better myself, andnot just critical, and not just
being critical for the purposeof putting my own self down, but
being critical for the purposeof bettering myself and
bettering my thought processgoing forward.
So like being able to breakdown and actually break down and
(57:46):
evaluate why I made thisdecision in that time and see
what factors actually drove meto that decision, so I know how,
what to avoid if that evercomes back up again.
Speaker 4 (58:02):
I think I have more self-control than I thought I
did.
I do because if I didn't havemore self-control than I thought
I did, I would have been injail a long-ass time ago.
So I do have a goodself-control.
Nigga, are you typing me?
Speaker 2 (58:18):
No, I just took a picture.
Why?
Because that's what I'm doing.
I'm trying to be in the moment.
Speaker 1 (58:23):
He's in the moment.
I'm trying to flare my nostrils.
I honestly think it's somethingI don't know.
It's what I'm about to find outsoon.
I think it's going to take alot of discipline to accomplish
this and I want to see, becauseI have a lot of doubt.
(58:44):
So I think that'll be thesurprising part for me.
I know it's bad.
Doubt is normal.
Speaker 3 (58:48):
I think what matters is how you handle.
For me, I think, doubt isnormal.
I think what matters is how youhandle it.
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (58:53):
So I'm curious.
You know what I mean.
I've never taken it serious andthen embark on some shit like
that.
So it's going to be a journey.
Speaker 2 (59:03):
Well, I'm rooting for you, thank you, I've learned.
My cutoff game is strong,pretty wicked.
I've learned my cutoff game isstrong, pretty wicked.
I didn't realize that till I got, as I got older, I can.
I can be a cold nigga.
My dad used to say it all thetime.
I didn't believe him.
I was like, nah, you want me tobe a cold nigga?
I was like oh no, I can cut offlike a faucet.
I learned that.
(59:25):
It's surprising to me.
Surprising to me, it's like.
But I was like damn, I reallycan't cut, like it's not even
intentional anymore.
Sometimes it's just you justhave the, it just happens, and
you're like oh fuck, it's done.
Speaker 3 (59:34):
You think that's a defensive thing?
Speaker 2 (59:35):
It could be a defense thing, it could just be, but
it's real surprising to me.
Speaker 3 (59:42):
Has everyone you ever cut off deserved it?
Speaker 1 (59:44):
Yes, oh man, I you like damn nigga.
Speaker 2 (59:56):
It's shit.
It's been from family membersEven at a time, with me and my
dad the ability to just cut itoff.
Yeah, when you know something'snot good for you just yeah,
fuck away.
But the cutoff game is isfucking surprising when I learn
now like damn, I'm really, I canreally be that nigga if I need
(01:00:18):
to be, so sometimes I guess it'sjust one of those things where
you realize you gotta protectyour peace.
But with that being said, thishas been episode 187 of the
Heavyweight Podcast.
Yay yay.
Like, subscribe, share, comment,comment.
(01:00:38):
All that shit.
We appreciate you.
We love you, till next time.
Speaker 3 (01:00:42):
Peace, peace.
Speaker 1 (01:00:45):
Oh, I'm sweating.
That's a wrap.
Yo, that's how she rap, so makesure you click like subscribe.
Tune in we on the Austrianplatform.
So until next time we'llhighlight you.
Welcome to the Heavyweight Podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:04):
The message behind saying the title of the
Heavyweight Podcast is to beable to say that we can weigh in
on some heavy shit.
What we're talking about isimportant from every aspect of
it.
It's a heavy weight.
It's not just about physicalweight, but the weight of things
that can weigh our minds.
So I think it's dope that wecan have this conversation.
Speaker 3 (00:30):
What's good, this is episode 187 of the heavyweight
podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:32):
I am your anti-social host and never your favorite.
Stata McFly back again withthis lady and these two guys.
Go ahead and state your namefor the beautiful people out
chill.
Speaker 1 (00:45):
I guess I'm Kevin Kevin Wendell.
Speaker 3 (00:50):
I don't know why.
I don't know what to cry over.
She just.
Speaker 1 (00:52):
She can't, she can't stop giggling.
Speaker 3 (00:55):
Who is you?
I'm sorry, can you say it inthe mic, please?
Y'all.
Speaker 4 (01:05):
Somebody save me From these niggas?
Is that the diva?
Speaker 1 (01:09):
why we gotta be.
Speaker 4 (01:10):
That's where her name is somebody no it's not because
they don't see the behind thescenes.
You always got a joke overthere that you throw in.
You laugh before you tell ajoke.
So we know you, finna, comewith some bullshit out your
mouth, you tell your jokes realquick and he be whispering his
fucking jokes and don't nobodyhear the shit but me.
Speaker 2 (01:27):
I don't I don't have no idea what anyone's talking
about.
I'm the most unjoking person inthe world.
Speaker 3 (01:34):
I am so serious and, like you, just talk about uh
masturbation right, I've nevertalked about ejaculation on this
show.
Speaker 2 (01:44):
I have no idea what you're talking about.
There is no proof that you guyscan find out there that I do
anything other than just you didme like this no, I was rolling
dice.
Um, I don't know what you'retalking about.
I'm straight straight shooter.
Speaker 4 (01:59):
I am unfunny, I'm very serious and never smile I'm
tired of you, and I was newwhen you did it, so I didn't
know what the fuck to do.
Speaker 2 (02:08):
I was rolling dice.
Speaker 4 (02:09):
People are on their damn dice, Sorry Weeks.
The sound effects, oh my God.
I had a great week, thank you.
Speaker 1 (02:19):
My week.
It's good.
I'm about to board a plane, sowe'll see how that goes.
Speaker 4 (02:24):
Oh God, it's good I'm about to board a plane, so
we'll see how that goes.
Speaker 3 (02:26):
Yeah, oh god, hey they got money for real.
This nigga stay gone nah dog.
Speaker 1 (02:31):
I bought this like three months ago.
Speaker 3 (02:33):
I don't care when you bought it, nigga you stay gone.
Speaker 1 (02:35):
Maybe four, you do stay gone stay gone now after
this one, guess where I'ma be inthe club?
Yep, right in there, right inthere.
Right in there in the club,right in there, kevin.
What you doing today?
Speaker 3 (02:46):
not a thing that's some old nigga shit.
Always the school man um gymand growth.
That's all it is.
Gym and growth, gg, gg what'dyou say?
Speaker 1 (03:02):
you went to school gym and growth.
Speaker 3 (03:06):
Yeah, I'm not talking , I'm not gonna go down the road
.
Speaker 1 (03:08):
You start laughing and shit and I'm like this nigga
think I'm gonna go down.
Speaker 3 (03:11):
I'm not going down a nasty road with you okay, I'll
say I went to the, I went to thegym and, and, and, and, uh,
here we go pursued my personalgrowth yep, that's yep.
Speaker 1 (03:22):
He's trying to go, he's trying to take us there.
I'm like he got the four-wheeldrive on.
Speaker 2 (03:32):
And when you talk about sound effects, I was
thinking about the meth guyagain.
Speaker 1 (03:36):
Oh, my God please get that nigga off your mind.
Like why'd you say that he wasnaked?
Speaker 3 (03:42):
huh, probably sound like a Diddy party, take that
take that, take that, take that,take that, take that.
Speaker 1 (03:52):
What them niggas in there doing.
Speaker 4 (03:53):
I'm tired of y'all.
Speaker 2 (03:54):
They listened to the body cam footage.
Speaker 4 (03:57):
Ew, not they listening to the body?
Speaker 2 (03:59):
They didn't have to watch it, they just.
Speaker 1 (04:01):
Nigga, you can't watch it.
It's just on somebody's bareass.
Speaker 4 (04:04):
Chest what y'all doing oh my god, it got on, jim.
Speaker 3 (04:10):
Oh my god your week, your week that hasn't set her
week she started off.
She's at my school.
Yeah, she did that shit realquick, alright.
I went to the dentist right andmy regular hygienist wasn't
there okay and it bummed me outbecause she makes it easy, she
(04:31):
makes it easy.
Speaker 2 (04:32):
Um, so it was a.
It was a new lady, she waschill and we ended up bonding
over the fact that her husbandwas a a driver for ups and he
retired.
So I was like that's what's up,you know.
And I'm like, oh, this is goingcool.
She's nice polite.
She fucked up.
What'd she do?
She stabbed me in the fuckinglip did you press charges?
Speaker 3 (04:53):
I wanted to, that's all.
Speaker 2 (04:55):
She apologized, though, but this is the thing
I'm saying.
This is a very common thing.
I want to say it wasn't myfirst brush with getting stabbed
in the lip, but if you sufferfrom big lips like I have, it's
coming.
You get stabbed a lot.
You know what I'm saying, and Idon't think these people of
other races know how to adapt tobig lips when they're working
(05:20):
on cleaning teeth.
Speaker 3 (05:21):
Well, hold on, you don't know.
There may be some other racesout there of the female species
that their lips get stabbed whenthey go for passersby.
Speaker 2 (05:33):
I'm not talking about them.
Lips nigga.
This nigga is ignorant, I swear.
Hey, I've been stabbed in thelips multiple times.
I want to say this is my firsttime.
It wasn't so.
What I'm saying is my otherhygienist.
She don't do that.
So, the risk I take on takingon new hygienists when they
clean my teeth is I could getstabbed.
Speaker 3 (05:54):
Couldn't reschedule.
Speaker 2 (05:55):
No man, I was trying to get it done.
It was early in the morning.
You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1 (06:01):
I think I've been lucky.
Then I've had other shit thatgone wrong but, never been
stabbed in the lips.
Speaker 2 (06:07):
I've stabbed in the lip.
This time I didn't bleed.
Last time I bled, damn.
Speaker 1 (06:11):
Yeah that's always fun.
Speaker 3 (06:13):
You draw blood, I'm pressing charges.
Speaker 1 (06:15):
You probably signed a waiver.
Speaker 3 (06:16):
I was attacked, probably signed a waiver, like
years ago, not for that.
That was violent.
Speaker 2 (06:26):
I can hear you Bitch the whole trying to figure it
like I said.
Maneuvering, that that's it.
We got to be more aware of this.
To that, you know what I'msaying.
That just, it was painful.
I almost won.
Speaker 3 (06:45):
Anyway, I guess we'll get into the shenanigans you
let a nigga shenan one time, yougonna shenan again.
Speaker 2 (06:51):
There we go so what are your biggest strengths and
what are your biggest weaknesses?
What are the three questionsyou wish you could define or get
definite answers to aboutyourself?
Speaker 3 (07:05):
that's a lot.
We just started the first no,it's that.
Speaker 2 (07:09):
That was the whole question.
That was the topic was yourstrengths and weaknesses.
Oh, okay, and then the questionis what are the three questions
you wish you could get definiteanswers to about yourself?
Speaker 3 (07:24):
go ahead, kevin, because because Kevin got
something for you.
Speaker 1 (07:27):
That'll get me thrown off the bus.
Oh man, about myself, aboutyourself, I don't think there's
anything definite like this.
I don't feel I know, know,don't know about myself.
I feel like I took that wrongbecause I was thinking like more
(07:52):
just definite, like periodanswers, like what's after this
and stuff like that.
Speaker 2 (07:57):
you said period and I thought the menstrual thing
earlier.
So I was like why is he goingback to that?
But um, I guess you to that, Iguess you can make it the
definite answer you wantquestions about.
If it makes it easier for you,kevin.
Speaker 4 (08:12):
Why did Dez turn away ?
I'm tired of you.
That's why I am fucking tired.
Speaker 2 (08:18):
I mean he said they were all in sync.
Speaker 4 (08:23):
Had it.
Speaker 2 (08:25):
No, Justin oh my God Ain't no lie.
Bye, bye, bye.
Speaker 4 (08:33):
Kevin, what's your little three questions nigga Get
this going?
Speaker 1 (08:37):
Is there actually anything after this for me Like?
Speaker 3 (08:41):
life nigga yeah.
Speaker 1 (08:43):
I don't know.
Speaker 3 (08:44):
I don't know if it's life?
Speaker 1 (08:45):
or if it's, what is it you know?
Because everybody say you know,there's something or there's
nothing, but we don't know.
Because I don't know, I don'tthink, I want that answer you
know what what but you'll knowthe answer before it happens.
(09:06):
If it's nothing, then you'relike well, that might be bad,
because I might live reckless.
Yeah, because a lot of peoplefind out there's nothing getting
this Lamborghini and gunning it, but nah, I wouldn't do that,
still got them so.
Speaker 3 (09:19):
I wouldn't get in a Lamborghini because I couldn't
get out it's gotta be me uh, I'mgonna let you guys go.
Speaker 1 (09:28):
I'm gonna think of something else, because I can't
like.
That's the only thing I would Ican't really think anything.
The definite answers, I don'tknow because that's a tough one,
like for me, I don't know,because I don't really think of
anything as definite too much.
There's only two thingseverything's relative well, I
mean in a sense, because there'sonly two things that are
(09:52):
definite.
Speaker 3 (09:53):
Here's the thing I do know.
I think all of my questionswould oh see what you said about
me you can?
it seems to be stomping youanybody so just go ahead and
answer all of my questions wouldbe, like what do I need to do?
Like what steps are what I needto take to ensure the success of
my daughter or to ensure thather life is better and easier
(10:14):
than mine?
Because I feel like that's partof my goal is.
Like now was to make it that,you know, she don't struggle
like daddy and mom had tostruggle.
You know, even though she don'tstruggle like daddy and mom had
to struggle, you know, eventhough she don't feel like we
ever struggled because she'sswollen as shit, she don't
realize that you know me andmama used to wait for that
direct positive hit so we caneat.
She don't know, she ain't neverbeen in the mud.
(10:36):
So I think most of my questionswould be catered towards that
Like what do I need to dopersonally and what steps do I
need to take to ensure that herlife is everything she wants it
to be?
I think that's what I would domy wife.
(10:57):
She fine, as long as she got meshe fine.
Speaker 2 (11:00):
I was going to ask, you didn't think maybe like what
is exact, like the exactmeasurements for the perfect
balcony?
Speaker 3 (11:08):
or no, because we just get it when we fit in.
Okay, respect, I mean, we bothain't got to be on the balcony
as long as one person on there.
Speaker 4 (11:18):
I don't have no questions that I will answer.
To be honest with you, youdon't no.
Speaker 3 (11:23):
You don't.
Speaker 4 (11:23):
No.
Speaker 3 (11:24):
Like why don't crystals in charge?
Speaker 4 (11:26):
motherfuckers charge.
Every time, nigga, every time,thank you.
Every single different mooncharged like a motherfucker moon
, water and everything charged Ihave a question to capacity yes
, how are the shoes doing?
What?
Oh, they're doing.
Good, my dog did try to attackthem.
(11:49):
I had to keep them hiddenbecause Sandy is not a fan.
They are doing.
Speaker 3 (11:59):
So Sandy's not a fan of the animal sandals.
Speaker 4 (12:03):
Yeah, Sandy ain't fucking with it.
September kind of just looks atthem, but Sandy is not a fan of
the animal sandals yeah, sandyain't fucking with it.
September kind of just looks atthem, but Sandy is not fucking
with it.
Speaker 3 (12:08):
The fact that you got a dog named September Is
hilarious to me.
She's cute too.
Speaker 4 (12:13):
You know what she came her name.
When we got her Her name wasSeptember, but at the time that
was Hayden's favorite song, sowe kept the name September,
that's dope.
Speaker 1 (12:25):
That's dope.
Yeah, you came out the gatesWith a tough one there.
Speaker 2 (12:30):
Kept the name September.
Speaker 3 (12:31):
That's dope, that's dope, yeah, yeah you came out
the gates with a tough one there.
Yeah, I just asked my definitequestion.
I'm just what?
Speaker 4 (12:36):
the shoes, I mean the only thing I don't have answers
to about my life is what'sgoing on with my health to where
I can't have children.
If I can get the definiteanswer on that, that would be
cool, but other than that Idon't really have a lot of
questions.
Speaker 2 (12:51):
I don't think I've ever stumped you guys.
Speaker 4 (12:55):
Yeah, you got us.
Speaker 1 (12:58):
Yeah, I just, I don't know.
Speaker 3 (12:59):
I say we're just in the know, in the know, in the
know, like we know ourselves.
Speaker 1 (13:05):
I mean there's still going to be things that come up
here and there.
Speaker 2 (13:08):
Yeah, I mean I would say.
My other definite answer orthat I would like to answer to,
is exactly what steps I need totake in order to be successful
with the podcast, podcasts, andwith any venture that I would
(13:28):
like to do as far as uh, to makesure to ensure success so I can
give my family what you know,what, what I feel they deserve.
That would be a big one, causethere's, there's, a certain
formula that I haven't yetfigured out, but I'm sure I'm
getting there.
Speaker 1 (13:43):
I guess I look at it differently.
You think about self yeah, Iwas trying to figure out like I
don't know it's tough causethat's I don't know it doesn't
sound right, but I'm like Idon't really give a shit.
Like not, like you know, Idon't know I mean, you are a
(14:03):
hippie, kevin so what is?
Speaker 2 (14:09):
how would you describe yourself in one
sentence?
Speaker 3 (14:12):
once it is, I am, I am which one reincarnated or
that negative I am okay, you're,you realize enough that would
(14:32):
be your that is a full sentenceyes, I am, that would be your
sentence yeah, yeah, because Ihave, I wear many hats, so I
can't, I can't say um, I can'tsay I'm one particular thing.
So I guess I could say I am whoI need to be for myself and for
(14:53):
those I love.
Speaker 1 (14:58):
That's yeah, okay, that's more of a sentence than I
am Nice.
Nigga Don't ever respect menigga.
Sentence than I am Nas niggadon't even respect me nigga.
No, I am.
Speaker 3 (15:10):
I said that wrong can , I can my bad.
Speaker 1 (15:13):
Who gives a shit?
2001 we're still banging 2001'sbangers how would I explain
myself in one sentence that makeis dope like like drugs dope or
(15:33):
like dope yeah okay, all of it.
Okay, all of it.
Addictive, also fresh, like infresh, you know like fresh fit.
Yeah, I've always been dope.
Okay, I've probably been weirdfor a while but subjective.
Speaker 3 (15:50):
But okay yeah not to me.
Speaker 1 (15:52):
I think you're pretty dope subjective.
Speaker 4 (15:54):
Thank you, yeah, I mean he cool, he dope like dope.
Alright, then I can't be umdefined by one sentence me fly,
let me just ain't no way.
Unregrettably, I can't bedefined by one sentence McFly,
ain't no way unregrettably methat's dope that's a phrase.
I am unregrettably me boomsentence pop him in the mouth.
Speaker 1 (16:20):
Is she still yours, or was that yours?
Speaker 2 (16:23):
were you unregrettably me.
Speaker 4 (16:24):
I put it in sentence form for him, since this nigga
want to be technical.
Speaker 3 (16:27):
First of all, my friend is smart enough to make
his own sense.
He don't need you, okay.
Speaker 4 (16:31):
Everybody needs me.
That's my sentence.
Everybody needs me.
Speaker 3 (16:37):
You out here lying to the world.
Speaker 4 (16:38):
Not lying to not one motherfucker up in here, but
since you attacked my friendhere here, I put it into
sentence form for him.
But that was a really good one,mcfly shut your ass.
Speaker 3 (16:48):
That would just prove that a lot of females don't
understand the male friendshipdynamic.
Speaker 4 (16:52):
I don't give a fuck about your friendship dynamic.
Nick, suck my dick.
Go on to the next question yougot one in my backpack, should I
go?
Speaker 2 (16:59):
to the car, should I?
Speaker 4 (17:00):
go to the car why, do you have to?
Speaker 3 (17:03):
so hold on hold on hold on, hold on Hold on.
She got the dick.
Kevin, do you have the meth?
We want to see it.
Period.
Speaker 4 (17:09):
Why would I have the meth?
You need to reenact me Becauseyou the hippie.
What?
Speaker 1 (17:13):
is the next question.
Speaker 3 (17:14):
Why would a hippie?
I don't know.
Speaker 2 (17:17):
What is the mistake you learned from the most?
Speaker 4 (17:21):
fuck what they think I overplay the fuck out of my
part.
Is that possible?
Yeah, absolutely, absolutely.
I have um tried to hell.
I got a list of mistakes I donetried to teach men how to be
men can't do that, cannot dothat.
The shit that never did that.
I've overplayed my part andcome out and and shown people
(17:45):
all my cards in the beginninghere.
This is what I am, this is whatI can be for you, this is what
I do and I can do this for you.
And men have eaten that shitthe fuck up, and not poured
anything else back into mebecause they wasn't fucked for
it.
The bitch done gave it to me.
Y'all in the first damn monthof us knowing each other, don't
say shit smart to me while I'mbeing vulnerable, because I will
.
I've been listening.
Speaker 1 (18:05):
I don't think it was, those wasn't men, but we with
you but that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (18:10):
I have done too much too soon all I was gonna say was
so you know, you felt like youwas one of those women that give
guys a playbook exactly whatthey do absolutely, I was,
absolutely, I was, absolutely Iwas.
Speaker 4 (18:22):
I'm not even going to lie about that.
That has been the biggestmistake.
Speaker 3 (18:26):
If I know, there's a young lady at our place of
appointment and I'm like the wayshe talks.
She gives you the playbook toplay her like a fiddle.
Speaker 4 (18:35):
I think a lot of women do that though, to be
honest, not all of them, ofcourse, not all of them but I
think a lot of women are likethat where we just go in and we
show you all our cards becausewe want to be what it is.
It's a self-confidence thing.
There's not enough confidencein you that you yourself will be
desirable to somebody.
You go mesh, naturally, withsomebody, so you just go in and
you show everything you thinkwill be desirable to that person
(18:59):
in hopes that they will pickyou.
Look here, um.
Speaker 3 (19:04):
I think I was in eighth grade and I said if Sam
Cassell could find a wife,listen why you do that.
There's somebody out here forme, damn.
Speaker 2 (19:19):
You used to suck shots at Sam Cassell Damn,
that's like damn, that's noreason.
Speaker 1 (19:24):
He got it straight for no reason.
Speaker 3 (19:26):
That was a great me.
I looked at Sam Cassell, Ilooked at Reggie Miller.
I said these niggas, especiallyReggie Miller.
Speaker 2 (19:32):
He was probably at home right now eating a nutter
butter and was like, well, Igotta take a hit you better
leave them nuts alone.
Speaker 1 (19:40):
Who Reggie Sam Sam?
I was like.
Speaker 4 (19:44):
Reggie Miller, he was cracking them all.
Speaker 2 (19:47):
He had that one piece of nutter butter sitting on his
lip.
Well, I got to take a strip.
Speaker 3 (19:53):
Not sitting on his lip, but that's a bit serious
though, like what, like thiskind of off track, but like what
you said, right.
What you just said right now iskind of like why I try to teach
my daughter to beself-confident.
Right, because I do understandthat when you lack confidence,
(20:14):
it's easy for someone to come upand portray one thing and be
something else, because just yougetting a compliment if you're
not used to compliments, it'seasy it makes you a little less
reserved when dealing withsomeone because they're feeding
into you in a way that interestsyou because you're not used to
that.
So I do think it's importantfor me, especially in my role
with my daughter, to let herknow like, no, like, build up
(20:35):
her confidence and herself-worth so that you know
these dusty ass niggas out herecan't approach her, I agree, and
they can just impress her.
Speaker 4 (20:43):
I absolutely agree.
You're going to save her from alot of mediocrity that way, I
mean we can try.
Speaker 3 (20:49):
She might grow up like bad boys.
Speaker 2 (20:51):
All we can do is hope , yeah, for all we know, sam
Cassell was a fan of ours, andthen we just lost one follower.
Speaker 3 (20:56):
He was like man I love this heavyweight pop?
Speaker 2 (20:58):
Why the fuck I got to take it straight?
Speaker 3 (21:02):
Sam you know your teeth was fucked.
Speaker 1 (21:05):
We want a Cheryl anyway, I know, but we could
have got them Wendy'scommercials.
Speaker 2 (21:15):
My mistake is it was often was trying to prove my
worth instead of just knowingthat I was was dope, but trying
to constantly prove that, hey,I'm dope.
It's like I don't have to showthat shit.
Dope sells itself.
So I just had to learn that.
Speaker 4 (21:33):
I agree.
In the beginning of the songI'm dope.
Is that you saying this?
Nigga done, put me back on thepayroll.
Is that your voice?
Yeah, okay, I thought it was,but I just wasn't sure.
I wanted to ask you.
Speaker 3 (21:48):
Oh, that was a reference to when they were on
the label together.
Speaker 4 (21:51):
I didn't know.
Speaker 3 (21:54):
Oh, just so you know, I'm a real McFly fan.
Speaker 4 (21:56):
Oh, thank you, I didn't know.
Just so you know I'm very newto this local music.
Speaker 2 (22:03):
There's no way that's necessary I bust nuts before I
leave, so I don't forget where Icome from.
Speaker 4 (22:07):
Oh my goodness, Jesus , jesus, jesus, oh, my gosh Bars
.
It's a beautiful nut, the bestnut that anyone's ever netted
before it's time to go.
What's the next question?
I'm hungry.
Speaker 2 (22:24):
What compliment do you like to hear the most, and
why?
Speaker 4 (22:27):
That you like to hear the most?
Hmm, what compliment do youlike to hear the most and why
that you like to hear the most?
Hmm, not that, motherfucking.
I'm strong Sick of that shit.
My granny recently saw thepodcast which I did not want
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grandma to see because I'm onher cussing every day and I was
very happy to hear how much sheliked this and she felt like it
was kind of cool to see that Iwas a smart girl and I was able
to hold my own up here with theguys and although I really
(23:08):
didn't want her to see me onhere because I know that I'd be
cussing- you do more thancussing yeah, boy, I said what
fucking episode did y'all showher?
like who the fuck who got onyoutube for granny?
But um, but just hearing hersay that she was proud of me
being up here amongst the malesand how good we work together
and how much she liked the, theepisode she saw, I thought that
(23:31):
was dope and don't let her seethe top of this episode the
cousin, the cousin that Isuspect showed her ass.
I hope she see this.
She better show granny shit elsethe top of this, one will be I
definitely didn't ask her to dothat shit, but she saw it I'm
pretty sure.
I mean she would have saidsomething Well, I don't know, my
(23:53):
grand kind of vulgar, so shemight have.
Speaker 2 (23:55):
I don't know, or you're back and forth about how
many more bitches you get thanyeah, yeah.
Speaker 4 (24:00):
Well, I mean granny, know who the hell I am.
Oh so so she wasn't tripping.
Speaker 3 (24:08):
She wasn't tripping at all.
Speaker 4 (24:10):
What did you just say ?
Speaker 3 (24:11):
I said most grannies do.
Speaker 4 (24:12):
Okay, they know who their grandkids are.
Why are you staying turned on?
Because with him I never knowI've been cool all day With him.
Speaker 3 (24:19):
I never know.
She stayed turned on.
Speaker 4 (24:23):
I can't turn down with you, because as soon as I
turn down with you, then youharass me anybody harass
somebody Kevin your answer, sir.
That's smart that's smart.
Speaker 1 (24:31):
Uh, sounds like she's living in a war zone.
Speaker 4 (24:34):
I'm a good person and he is, you are a good person.
Speaker 1 (24:39):
I think that's.
That's probably my favoritecompliment.
Speaker 4 (24:43):
I like that my favorite compliment I can only
give for one person alright,mcfly, what's your favorite, and
it's when it's my favorite,compliment I can only give for
one person.
Speaker 3 (24:52):
All right, mcfly.
What's your favorite?
And it's when my daughter looksat me and says you're the best
dad ever.
Speaker 4 (24:56):
Oh, I love that.
See, I thought you was going tosay something about your wife
appreciating being bent over thebalcony or something.
Speaker 3 (25:03):
She do appreciate that.
But I mean I'm used to that.
I like seeing the joy on mydaughter's face when and I get
her snap of approval.
Speaker 4 (25:13):
I love that.
Speaker 3 (25:14):
Those are nice that is the best, because when she
said that I'm like man, what youwant when you finna, get it.
Speaker 1 (25:21):
That's good, that's oh, you fold every time, yeah,
every time.
Speaker 3 (25:24):
I don't mean folding.
Speaker 1 (25:25):
I'm like you.
You can watch the tablet forfive more minutes.
They're like can we get this?
Speaker 3 (25:33):
Like no, she looks so cute when she say it, so that's
probably my best compliment.
Speaker 1 (25:42):
So you want to answer , you got one.
Speaker 2 (25:45):
Oh, my favorite one.
Someone doesn't realize howfunny I am and they go.
Oh my God, when, uh, someonedoesn't realize how funny I am
when they go.
Oh my god, I didn't realize youwere this funny I didn't until
I, until I started being here.
Speaker 4 (25:55):
You're hilarious.
I told niggas I've been tellingthis for a lifetime well, we
had never really had like aconversation that would have
warranted for us to be jokingwith each other, so I didn't
know.
Speaker 2 (26:05):
And then you just came out the bag on the dead
face I just I like it the mostbecause when I was younger I
would say things and it would goover people's heads and I'm
like that was fucking funny.
You didn't hear the humor inthat like and it felt like as I
got older, the same like as I,my humor hasn't changed, it's
just people started going oh,this is actually funny.
Like it almost like it tooktime to catch up.
(26:26):
So the mcfly um moniker fits,because it's like I was ahead of
my time when this shit I wasdoing in ninth grade that people
were like it's not funny andI'm like I should be telling
older, older people jokes yeah,they're like what?
Speaker 3 (26:44):
so when, like now, it's like, oh man, you're funny,
it's like yeah, I've beenacting this way this whole
fucking time there's beencountless times we've been
talking and like I'm working,like we're talking at work and
I'm working, and he'll saysomething and I'll be in front
of a customer.
I can't laugh and I'm trying tohold and laugh.
I'll talk to a customer andthen when I get back in the
truck I'll be like fuck younigga, I wasn't laughing, oh
yeah, you guys got theheadphones.
Speaker 1 (27:05):
Okay, I was like, is he just behind you?
Speaker 3 (27:07):
Oh, that shit was funny that is there's been a
couple times I had to pull overmy humor is.
Speaker 2 (27:17):
It's my humor is comes from a certain place.
So, like when people get it,I'm like oh, you get it, you get
me Cool, all right.
What challenges have you facedin the past and that you're
proud?
You're over, you've overcame?
Speaker 1 (27:36):
uh, shyness, like a motherfucker still like there,
but it's like I've learned howto like fight through it.
Like shyness towards like women, or like just all of the women
people, just yeah.
Speaker 3 (27:51):
OK.
Speaker 1 (27:53):
You don't believe it, but I believe, I believe it.
Speaker 3 (27:56):
I feel like a lot, a lot of like like creative people
are shy, have a level ofshyness, like they're reserved
in that way, like when they'reperforming they're very
extroverted, but in daily lifethey're more introverted, kind
of off themselves, kind of shytype situation.
(28:17):
I can't believe that.
I believe that.
Speaker 4 (28:21):
Danny Murphy says that all the time that he
prefers to be by himself, andthen he comes alive when they're
taping.
Speaker 1 (28:28):
Well, yeah, they're starting to get started on
checks.
I think that was my biggest one.
Speaker 4 (28:38):
Des I think being more open and, for example,
being able to come on thepodcast and have people view me,
and being able to get on thestage last year and tell my
little jokes were bigaccomplishments for me.
Because I stopped saying I wouldnever, well, because I told him
little jokes.
(28:58):
I said not another damn jokesince, but I think those were
still big accomplishments for me, because I wasn't.
I wouldn't have never been ableto really do either, because
I'm not necessarily shy, but Iam real chill and laid back in
my normal life, so I wouldn'thave never got up there, yeah.
Speaker 1 (29:17):
You didn't.
You didn't do little jokes,though you did.
Speaker 2 (29:21):
You killed yeah.
Speaker 4 (29:23):
I appreciate that, but I don't know if I'll be able
to get up there and do it again.
Speaker 3 (29:27):
I mean I was, it was funny.
You surprised me what.
That's why I get your flowers.
I think he was actually funny.
I appreciate that well, becauseif you wasn't, I was gonna tell
you, nigga, don't do it again.
Speaker 4 (29:37):
Why?
Because I would have to reworkmyself back up to be able to get
back up there.
Yeah, that's the fun, becausethat's the first.
Speaker 1 (29:42):
Did you not enjoy it?
I did enjoy it.
I was stressed the fuck out.
Speaker 4 (29:44):
But I did.
I did enjoy it.
I was stressed fuck out, but Idid.
Speaker 1 (29:47):
I did enjoy it.
Would you like to know how thatfeels to not be stressed and be
like, oh, I'm about to go nailthis shit.
And then just go nail this shit, probably feel dope, huh I, I
would imagine.
Speaker 4 (29:57):
I mean you got to keep working I would imagine so
well, we'll see, we'll see yeah,the first initial thing is
usually the hardest, and afterthat it's just uh persistence.
Speaker 2 (30:10):
And then, after persistence, you get to a point
where you kind of getcomfortable with what you're no,
you know what you're capable ofdoing.
Then you create better becauseyou're like.
I like doing this.
Let me dabble with this alittle bit.
Now you have more uh tools towork with, so you start going.
I'm gonna try to dabble overhere, I'm going to go over here,
I'm going to try this over here.
But that comes from persistence.
Speaker 4 (30:32):
I think with being on the podcast, it's easier for me
because we bounce off of eachother, so it's easier for me.
But being up there by myself isdifficult, because I'm
constantly getting told I shouldbe a comedian and then I'm
scared to not be as funny aspeople think I'm supposed to be.
Speaker 1 (30:50):
But here's the beauty of that too, is there is no
supposed to be like.
The one thing I learned fromall of it is somebody was like
try everything.
Who the fuck are you?
You don't know this shit.
It's like you don't know whatyou like, you don't know what
you're good at, you don't knowany of this.
So it's like try the improvpart, try this part, try deadpan
, try this, try that.
He's like oh, fuck it, let metry it.
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And when you try it, it's likeanything.
You build up a toolbox and thenyou're like oh, this is what I
actually really like.
A lot of you might not evenlike this part of stand-up.
Like when I tried improv, I waslike oh, this shit is dope as
fuck.
Like I love that shit, but Ilearned how to take that and put
it into what I'm doing.
(31:31):
But like you don't know whatyou're gonna like until you try
it all can you repeat thequestions?
sorry, we went on tangent huh,your favorite compliment cuz,
was it?
Speaker 2 (31:45):
no, that wasn't it are we past challenges have you
faced in the past and thatyou're proud, the most proud, of
overcoming.
Oh yeah, you're right, I wastwo questions back.
Speaker 3 (31:55):
I would say for me personally, um, the challenge of
dealing with myself as far as,like my personal growth, my
internal dialect, and what I'mmost proud of is the version of
me that I'm creating.
As far as like being healthyall around, so not just physical
(32:18):
, emotionally healthy, beingable to process articulate
things that I couldn'tarticulate in the past, being
able to tie my shoe withoutpassing out Stuff like that.
I'm proud of that.
This is rough and you can't tieyour shoe.
Speaker 2 (32:42):
Alright, I'll say this this is exclusive.
There's so many differentvariations to why I got my name.
Speaker 3 (32:52):
Which one?
Speaker 2 (32:53):
Stutter.
Speaker 3 (32:54):
Okay.
Speaker 2 (32:55):
Cause.
Originally I would say it wason the fly Cause when I used to
rap I would fuck up so much andno rap, no verse was ever the
same.
Because I would.
It was literally I was makingup things in the verses I would
go.
So that's originally why it'sstutter, but because I fucked up
a lot.
But when I started thinkingabout my growing up, one of the
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big things I had to overcome asa is when I was a kid was
stuttering, and I would stutterbad because I was afraid of
public speaking.
So I were.
I've said this story before.
There would be times I rememberI would read a paragraph aloud
in class and I would bestruggling through that
motherfucker and then, like it,got to a point it got so bad.
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One time they clapped for me Isaid Nick.
Speaker 1 (33:43):
I'm not that slow.
Speaker 2 (33:44):
Damn, kids are assholes.
But as I got older, I forcedmyself to take public speaking
classes at RCC and one of theprojects was you had to make a
commercial and the teacher usedto point out certain things for
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us to learn and focus on, and Iwas determined to be a rapper.
Point out certain things for usto learn and focus on, and I
was determined to be a rapper.
So I wanted to be dope atpublic speaking, dope at stage
presence, dope at everything.
So once I got past that, I feelthe most proud of knowing that
(34:25):
when I perform and all that,that was all literally me facing
my fears head on and, eventhough they used to terrify me
as a kid, I overcame them.
And, uh, every time I hit astage, every time I do this
podcast, every time I've hadsome time where I had to do some
form of public speaking, it wasall based on me being
determined, uh, not to allowsomething that was a setback to
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define how I decide to beperceived.
So, even though there's so manydifferent variations to why I
got my name, the biggest one wasstuttering.
Was a?
Was a over?
It was a problem?
I overcame that.
I then embraced as a monikerand originally was Stutter Boy
(35:13):
and it became Stutter McFlybecause I said I did feel like I
was ahead of my time.
So, yeah, that was what I wasmost proud of.
Speaker 3 (35:24):
That's what's up.
Speaker 2 (35:25):
Because in fourth grade me just saying that whole
sentence would have been.
Oh man oh man, another episode.
They're like oh, we'll probablyget to the end of this by 189,
but we don't know.
But yeah, that was what I feelmost proud of dope what would
(35:46):
you do differently if you knewnobody would judge you for it?
Speaker 3 (35:51):
Nothing, nothing.
I wouldn't do anythingdifferent because the only
people, the only opinions I careabout are my family, are my
immediate family, my closefriends and my wife, and I felt
like I wouldn't do anythingdifferent because I feel like
the people in my circle wouldn'tjudge me for any decision I
make or any action I take.
Speaker 2 (36:16):
That's everybody else .
Speaker 4 (36:19):
I might just be single and collecting hoes.
Yeah, des might judge me forsomething.
Bitches, niggas, everybody.
No, I'm just kidding.
Speaker 3 (36:27):
She's not kidding.
Speaker 4 (36:29):
I don't pass judgment on you.
Why would you?
Speaker 3 (36:31):
say that.
No, I said, you're not kiddingabout one more hoe yep
collecting.
Speaker 4 (36:36):
Gotta catch them all throwing niggas in a pokeball
like a motherfucker.
Um, I do not pass judgment onyou, said I would probably judge
you.
I said, might I don't judge you, I'm not, I might not give you
compliments, no more.
But that's just because you saycrazy shit when I give you
compliments.
But I don't judge you.
Speaker 2 (36:57):
What was it?
I am.
Speaker 3 (37:01):
I am Des.
Speaker 2 (37:01):
No, I'm Shut your ass up, please.
I'm inevitable.
She's like I got these hoesSnap Period.
Yeah, I can see that I gotthese hoes Snap.
Speaker 4 (37:12):
Period I just collect them all Like Pokemon.
Speaker 3 (37:16):
Yep, she got three Chargers right now.
Speaker 4 (37:19):
I'll be at your job collecting them first, Kevin.
Speaker 3 (37:22):
Why Wow?
Speaker 1 (37:26):
You probably collect one.
Speaker 4 (37:28):
Coming just for that one.
The rest of me playing yourfine ass in this pokeball.
Let's go.
Speaker 1 (37:34):
I won't catch none of these, so did she finish?
Yeah, I'm done, I'm done.
Speaker 4 (37:44):
I was kidding.
I don't know what I would dodifferently, because I ain't
really worried about no judgment.
Speaker 3 (37:49):
I would have taken, because I ain't really worried
about no judgment.
Speaker 1 (37:52):
Yeah, I would have taken something back, but it's
because I judged myself.
Are you going to tell us?
I don't know if I should, Imean we're here.
I'm still judging myself tothis day.
Speaker 3 (38:06):
How long ago did this happen?
To this day, how long did thishappen?
High school oh, okay, highschool, I mean, you were a kid.
How long ago did this happen?
Speaker 1 (38:09):
how long did?
Speaker 3 (38:09):
this happen.
High school, oh okay, highschool.
I mean, you were a kid, don'tcount.
Speaker 1 (38:13):
I was old enough, I had a car and shit, so I
probably wouldn't have shit inthat dugout what so you did it
you took a shit in a dugout soI'm in the opposite opposite of
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it.
So that's what I wouldn't havedone.
It's only because of my regret,I know that's not the question,
but that's the only thing thatpopped in my head.
I was like you know what?
I wouldn't have shit in it.
You gotta go.
(38:57):
When you gotta go.
Speaker 2 (38:59):
Yeah, I don't think I would have done nothing
different right now in lifeother than yeah, for me I would
have just openly said what thefuck I felt in high school,
cause I was always like withgirls and shit, I was always the
letter writer.
I was never the let me go sayhow I openly feel thing, so if I
felt like I wasn't gonna getjudged for it, I would probably
be that but your pen's nice mypen is nice, but I'm saying.
(39:22):
I want to be able to say openlywhat I feel and not feel judged
for as far as talking yeah, youwrite letters now.
Speaker 3 (39:29):
You write letters now .
Judge for it.
Speaker 2 (39:30):
As far as talking yeah, yeah, right, there's now
right you said, right, there'snow right.
Speaker 3 (39:32):
Yeah, like fuck you bitch.
You know what you did no, no,no.
Speaker 2 (39:37):
I'll probably openly say it now.
Well, I'm saying then oh man Ijust am not back then I would
have been like oh no, it wouldmake me seem like I'm like mean
or something like now I'm like Iwish I would have just said
what the fuck I feel like.
Honestly, that'd be it.
(39:58):
I just say what the fuck I feelwas what came to mind.
This is how I feel.
This is how I look at you.
This is is it like and not belike?
Oh, they're gonna probably lookat me weird for saying you know
, all right, yeah, uh.
Like.
Oh, they're going to probablylook at me weird for saying it
All right, yeah.
No, I don't like that one.
(40:18):
I'm going to skip that one.
What's?
Speaker 4 (40:24):
hindering you from becoming what you really want to
be Money yeah, definitely thefunds.
Yeah, the financial aspects.
Yeah, definitely the funds, thefinancial aspects.
Speaker 3 (40:36):
Yeah, this equipment costs money.
Speaker 1 (40:40):
Myself.
I think me, yeah, just me Alittle.
I mean money is part of it, butI feel like that's all out
there Uncertainty.
Attain and stuff yeah.
Speaker 3 (40:53):
We can always go rock big.
Speaker 4 (40:56):
I wouldn't openly say that no, probably not the last
guy who openly told me that hewent to jail.
Speaker 1 (41:02):
He called me on the phone.
Speaker 2 (41:04):
He was like yeah, it didn't work out.
Speaker 1 (41:07):
No, he didn't tell me I was like where's so-and-so
he's work out?
No, he didn't tell me I waslike where's so-and-so he's?
Speaker 2 (41:16):
oh, he's in jail like oh, oh, he got cut kevin he got
a great opportunity.
Speaker 3 (41:20):
Anytime, spice headshot like what I'm not
buying, whatever you sell.
Speaker 1 (41:23):
Yeah, that was how we started.
Speaker 4 (41:24):
I was like, nah, dog, you're going to jail I think I
unrealistically stay loyal tothings that are no longer
serving me and that holds meback.
Speaker 3 (41:35):
And why is that?
Speaker 4 (41:36):
I ain't figured it out yet.
I'll get back to you on that.
I'm not sure, but I really justrecently realized that I
unrealistically feel obligatedto stay in situations that are
no longer serving me.
I almost feel bad when I haveto separate myself from
situations, and I think thatdoes hold me back in some
(41:59):
aspects.
Also, the money is still aproblem.
I do.
I definitely need money, but ifwe're talking about me and what
I do, I think that's a problem.
I may have a better answer foryou in two weeks after I see my
therapist.
Speaker 1 (42:16):
Okay, okay, I'll see that I like it.
Speaker 3 (42:24):
I think a lot of people do that.
They stick around becausethey're trying to be a good
person, even when the situationis not serving them.
Speaker 4 (42:31):
Yes, definitely, I see that I don't know.
Speaker 1 (42:38):
I really don't know, Charlie.
I got it's a mental block thing.
Speaker 3 (42:43):
I was dead serious about the mic.
Speaker 2 (42:45):
I know you were, I mean I think everyone on here
and listening can relate to thatI don't think that that's a
common hindrance.
Speaker 3 (42:55):
I think the money.
Then the other thing isprobably because I'm trying to
pursue success.
Happiness is internal.
No one can make me happy but me.
You're happy based off thedecisions you make, not by what
people give you.
Speaker 2 (43:11):
What about Jaden Smith?
Speaker 3 (43:15):
Yes, that's trauma.
He's dealing with trauma.
Speaker 2 (43:19):
House nigga.
Speaker 3 (43:21):
I would say for me is that I most likely need to be
more sociable.
Speaker 2 (43:29):
Yeah, the house on the head House nigga.
Speaker 3 (43:30):
Yeah, I got it.
Speaker 4 (43:31):
I got the joke oh my goodness, yeah, the house on the
head House, nigga.
Yeah, I got it, I got the joke.
Oh, my goodness, I sure thehell did.
I seen him and I said, lord, wedon't need nothing else this
week, jaden, because babyTrepper already did a lot.
Speaker 3 (43:41):
I would just say be more sociable.
Can you blame him?
No, I can't.
Speaker 1 (43:45):
Can you blame a nigga with that much money to be the?
Speaker 3 (43:47):
house nigga.
Every you blame a nigga withthat much money to be the
housekeeper.
Every time I see I'm like he doshit because he bored and
trauma.
Speaker 4 (43:56):
He definitely has a lot of trauma.
That mother of his.
She was fine.
Speaker 3 (44:00):
She was fine and shamed, though.
Speaker 4 (44:02):
She was fine her whole the whole 90s, but she's
nuts now.
Speaker 1 (44:06):
Do you mean like sociable, as in like start
talking to people in the groceryline?
No, what I?
Speaker 3 (44:12):
mean like.
What I mean like when I, when Isay social is like because we
are technically in anentertainment field for what we
do, right, so it would, it wouldbe in my best interest and the
interest of the podcast if I wasmore vocal and social, talking
to other people about theventures and about the podcast
and not being as because I'm notbeing the reserved person I
normally am right.
(44:32):
So as far as like you know,kind of like what des does with
the stickers and stuff, right,like they're like people they
see my sweater, they they ask meand I tell me I'm part of
podcast, but but I like I don'treally like push, you know what
I'm saying so that that's thepart of like, so I guess that's
hindering your back and that'sfor both of my ventures.
I don't really push like eitheryou you see it or you don't.
(44:54):
And the ones that support, Iappreciate the ones that don't.
But your life, like Clyde, youknow, this is me.
That's my favorite.
Speaker 1 (45:02):
I get you don't do the follow up that's my favorite
part too.
Speaker 4 (45:07):
I talk about our podcast and yours all the time.
Speaker 1 (45:09):
Yeah, my homie at the dispensary, he be watching it.
He bought the security guard.
He said oh yeah, yeah, yeah,Checked y'all out, I'm like hell
yeah.
What you think, dog.
Speaker 4 (45:18):
I like that shit.
No, I didn't want my coworkersto see it, but they done found
it and I guess that's okay.
Speaker 1 (45:24):
Oh yeah, they located me.
I said how?
Speaker 3 (45:26):
did he know Because your number was in their phone.
Speaker 4 (45:31):
Really no, no, no, no , because somebody at my job
found it like a week ago and hemessaged me and was like hey, I
saw you on a podcast and I waslike no, not me.
And he's like no, it was you,it was definitely you.
And I was like damn, but hedon't have my number, or nothing
like that.
I was like yeah, but he don'thave my number or nothing like
(45:52):
that.
I don't let people follow mefrom work on the on the internet
, yeah.
Speaker 2 (45:56):
A combination of finances and what she said and
at the end of it uh mainly time,more time to uh get to where
I'm trying.
More time to uh get to whereI'm trying to get to.
Um, that's the the.
Those three work in conjunction.
(46:19):
Finances uh attach to thingsthat no longer uh serve my
growth and time.
Speaker 4 (46:29):
When we get rich, can we keep this table.
Speaker 3 (46:32):
I don't see why not.
Like we have we might make it alittle shorter than we're going
to be inside.
You think it'd?
Speaker 2 (46:38):
actually work as a surfboard.
Speaker 4 (46:39):
We could just we could have a hole.
We could have a hole in themiddle.
Speaker 1 (46:42):
I mean you could fill the hole.
Yeah, we could just put ha ha,I don't like y'all.
Speaker 4 (46:48):
Y'all really just.
And then it'd be going over myhead for a second and then I'd
be like that's what she saidshut up why?
Speaker 1 (46:55):
would she say that I was like.
Why did she say that?
Speaker 3 (47:00):
that's my wife always says being a man must be an
exhausting cause.
You cause, y'all can't focus onone thing for too long, man.
I agree what can I say?
We always thinking about that.
I always say that first one isreally a set up, because you
always trying to get it back.
Speaker 2 (47:16):
So what is something that you love in your life right
now that you could not haveimagined liking in the past,
could not imagine even liking ityeah.
And now it's part of you.
Speaker 3 (47:31):
Yes, Greek yogurt.
Speaker 4 (47:34):
I love Greek yogurt.
Speaker 3 (47:36):
As much Greek yogurt as I eat now trying to get this
goddamn protein in Greek yogurtand cottage cheese.
Speaker 2 (47:45):
I really can't stand cottage cheese.
Do you like it?
Speaker 3 (47:49):
Not really like it, but it's for the gans.
Speaker 2 (47:55):
So if you don't like it, you're forcing yourself to
eat it.
It's not the same as Well?
Speaker 3 (47:58):
I mean it's being mixed with stuff so you don't
really taste the cottage cheese,but I know it's in there.
Speaker 2 (48:04):
Right, that's peace.
Speaker 1 (48:13):
Oh man, that's peace.
Oh man, oddly enough, flyinglike I couldn't stand that shit
when I was little, but now it'slike, yeah, but I'm like.
Now, if you're like, hey, we'reover here, I'm not driving like
there's no way, I'm driving toyou yeah, I can't not even
Arizona like, hey, we're overhere, like I'm not driving, like
there's no way I'm driving toyou.
No like, yeah, I can't, not evenarizona, I mean, if the
(48:35):
flight's cheap enough.
Fuck, yeah, I'm flying, that'san hour.
Yeah, that's true, you knowwhat I'm saying?
Like that's yeah, I don't thinkI could do it, I can't.
Well, I could drive and shit,but it's like nah, but I used to
like think we were gonna dieevery time, every time, and
(48:57):
cottage cheese, yeah, but Ican't say that I could live
without cottage cheese.
Nevermind, I could definitelylive without it a more honest
answer.
Speaker 3 (49:07):
Well, no, the other shit was honest too, but the
honest I would think thatputting myself out there, in
there doing shit like this, Iwouldn't, I didn't, I, you know,
I never thought I would do shitlike this.
But now I don't, really, causeI used to be concerned about
what people would say, now Ijust don't care, like you didn't
have myspace and shit.
Speaker 1 (49:25):
I had a myspace in my space but like you, didn't put
nothing out there no, I mean youjust contradicted your last, a
question from like threequestions.
Speaker 2 (49:31):
What about being social?
No, you just literally saidthat the reason why you wouldn't
put yourself out there isbecause of what people would say
well, no, no, I'm talking aboutas far as what I was saying
what would you do differently?
So you technically would haveput yourself out there more
because you didn't care ifpeople would judge you well, I
didn't.
Speaker 3 (49:48):
I didn't.
I didn't not necessarily judge,but I didn't care if people
would judge you.
Well, I didn't, I didn't.
I didn't not necessarily judge,but I didn't care about other
people's opinions, right?
Speaker 2 (49:53):
Yeah, but because I think you would have done it
more if you were if I wouldn't,if I wouldn't, I wouldn't have
cared.
Speaker 3 (49:57):
Yeah, cause you would have probably already been like
I I never like you talkingabout the sociable question, or
yeah, like where you said youwould have done differently if
no one would ever judge you oh,I wouldn't do anything different
.
Yeah, oh, cause I was cause.
Again, I said that because Ionly care about my immediate
family.
I don't think they would judgeme well, I think you would have.
Speaker 2 (50:19):
If that was the case, I think you would have been
more open.
Speaker 3 (50:21):
No, it's just cause no, because reserved, so it
wasn't like something doingsomething like this wouldn't be
something I would like, eveninitially, try to do without
being pushed.
Speaker 2 (50:32):
I've known you for a good minute now and I don't
think you're a reserved nigga asyou think, huh.
Speaker 3 (50:37):
I defend myself.
Speaker 2 (50:38):
I get that, but I don't think you're as reserved
as you think.
Speaker 3 (50:41):
Now, but I did say that I'm talking about earlier
me.
Now I told you my wife didchange me.
She made me, she did make memore sociable, because she's a
goddamn social butterfly.
She had talked, she had talkedto the crickets on the floor.
If they talked back to her, Idon't understand it.
I'd probably step on them.
Speaker 2 (50:57):
I don't understand it .
Speaker 4 (50:57):
You wouldn't Wait you'd step on the crickets.
That's talking.
Speaker 2 (51:01):
You wouldn't say, hey , what's the devil?
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (51:13):
But like I would, I would, I would let me, I guess,
to rephrase I would do more ofthe, the more of the, the
podcast and social media stuff alittle more Cause I think when
I first started social, I hadthe MySpace, I had a black
planetcom nigga, I'm old.
Speaker 1 (51:29):
Okay, space you can.
Speaker 3 (51:30):
I had a black planetcom nigga, I'm old, okay,
but but it was like I talked topeople.
I knew it wasn't like I was outthere like trying to make
connection or anything like that.
I wasn't trying to like promotemyself as I felt like I do on
these platforms.
I think I probably that thatwould probably be the one thing
I would change.
I probably just do that becauseI've always posted online.
Somebody says, okay, whateveryou'd interact, then I would
(51:51):
interact because I had angerissues and I'm like nigga, pull
up here.
It wouldn't be no back andforth, like I'd be here at this
time.
If you really bought this life,meet me here you ever watch a
lethal shooter?
Speaker 2 (52:01):
lethal shooter no, the motherfucker that shoots
like gummy bears into randomwater bottles.
Speaker 3 (52:05):
I understand now he shoots gummy bears in the random
water bottles.
Speaker 2 (52:09):
Yeah, just want to show you how good he is, so
he'll miss the first one and allof a sudden make the second one
, oh like shoots him like a balloh shit.
Speaker 3 (52:16):
Oh, because I'm thinking like pow, pow.
Speaker 1 (52:18):
That's what I was thinking.
I was like where he get a gummybear good.
Speaker 2 (52:23):
First of all, let me understand now.
Speaker 1 (52:26):
Yeah, but he ain't.
Speaker 2 (52:28):
I'm not finishing.
Speaker 1 (52:28):
He missed the layup Right.
Speaker 3 (52:32):
Right, and I knew I was going to miss it too the
whole time, yeah he did.
Speaker 2 (52:35):
I saw that I said the same thing.
I mean, you did understand nowyeah.
I didn't say that I said youweren't going to make it.
Speaker 3 (52:41):
I told you, my eyes told you nigga.
I don't even know why I cut itwas a clean cut.
That's hilarious.
It was a clean cut and I waswide open.
Speaker 2 (52:49):
Wide open.
I said I gave you all the spacein the world.
Speaker 3 (52:51):
You still missed that shit, yeah.
Speaker 1 (52:55):
The look you gave me.
That's hilarious More button.
Speaker 3 (52:56):
I think I make it now though.
Speaker 2 (53:03):
I got more win.
Yeah, that's what I think itpopped in my head is.
Speaker 3 (53:05):
you said something in the group about, though I'm in
better shape right now than lukenotches I was like, but the
fuck.
That was a joke, and lucasshould be in better shape than
me.
That nigga.
He get paid to be in shape Imean there's zion.
Speaker 1 (53:21):
Yeah, he's trying to get training.
He's doing everything he can.
Speaker 4 (53:26):
I got babies.
What was the question?
Speaker 2 (53:29):
The uh, the, the, the , the, the, the, the, the, the
Well, no, I think you actuallyanswered.
Speaker 4 (53:34):
Did I?
Yeah, you started us off.
Okay, cool, go on to the nextone.
Speaker 1 (53:37):
I can't remember what the question was.
Speaker 3 (53:39):
What would you do different?
Speaker 1 (53:41):
With the regret, are you?
Speaker 2 (53:45):
sure.
Speaker 3 (53:46):
Yeah, we believe so.
Speaker 2 (53:49):
Oh no, it was about what's something, what you love
in your life right now that youcouldn't imagine living without.
Oh yes, right Something likethat.
Speaker 3 (53:55):
Did you answer that?
No, I didn't answer that.
Oh sorry, Go ahead and answer.
I know your answer.
Go ahead and answer.
What was my answer Me?
I saw that coming.
Speaker 4 (54:03):
You walked into that um, I think hayden I don't like
that.
That's peace yeah, I think Ithink hayden, um, because it's I
mean, it's possible at thispoint that he's probably going
to be my only opportunity toever have experienced parenthood
, so I appreciate him hispresence for that.
(54:24):
But he is by far the dopest kidI have ever met.
Speaker 3 (54:30):
He's like super intelligent, that's because you
didn't meet me as a kid Gotta bewhy he's super intelligent.
Speaker 4 (54:36):
He keeps a balance in my house and I love that about
him.
And to have well, I mean, theentire world knows his daddy get
on my nerves, but for thatmother that he have to be the
way she is.
And he turned out to be such adope ass kid like he is, just
(54:56):
like living proof of all thegood in the world.
To me he's such a good kid.
He's respectful, well mannered,intelligent he's dope.
Speaker 3 (55:06):
I wouldn't, I wouldn't want to be, without
hating that's what's up like, ifthat ain't god yeah, definitely
, definitely it's a good answerthank you.
What's funny, nigga he's a goodanswer.
I thought a family feud oh god,I'm steve harley, I'm gonna no,
because the the team's likegood answer, like no, it wasn't
(55:27):
it, nigga.
Speaker 4 (55:28):
It was terrible.
Go ahead, bro.
That lady was like ma ma, theywere like good answer.
Speaker 2 (55:38):
It was uh.
Speaker 3 (55:40):
It's the porcupine one for me.
Speaker 2 (55:42):
A house.
Speaker 3 (55:43):
What that one you wish you did sooner.
Speaker 2 (55:46):
No, it was something I never thought and never really
kind of wanted before.
And then I realized now it'slike I can't imagine not.
Yeah not having it yeah yeah,because when I was growing up it
was it was never a big thing,my dad we were jumping around,
rent, rent, rent.
So I I never really saw thepurpose in the house.
(56:06):
And now I'm like I can't seehow not having a house like when
you really think about some ofthe things like and I would talk
to people about like their rentand how the rent keeps going up
and you have a locked inmortgage as opposed to like your
shit jumping up to everyfucking.
Speaker 1 (56:23):
you're smart because apparently there's that, that,
uh, what is it not fixed?
Oh yeah, adjustable, adjustable.
I've heard of some horrorstories in that shit.
What is it Not fixed?
Oh yeah, adjustable, adjustable.
I've heard of some horrorstories in that shit.
Speaker 4 (56:38):
You're only supposed to keep them for five years
while the interest rate islocked, and then, once the
interest rate locks, it'srefinance.
Supposed to, but it's shit,yeah, some shit happened.
Speaker 2 (56:48):
That sucks yeah.
Speaker 1 (56:52):
Anyway, that was depressing, I'm sorry.
Speaker 3 (56:57):
I'm straight, nigga.
I'm sitting around with my tube.
What is?
Speaker 2 (57:02):
something surprising you learned about yourself.
Speaker 3 (57:04):
Surprising I think I'm going to find out soon, I
think for me is I I do have thecapacity to be critical enough
(57:24):
of myself to better myself, andnot just critical, and not just
being critical for the purposeof putting my own self down, but
being critical for the purposeof bettering myself and
bettering my thought processgoing forward.
So like being able to breakdown and actually break down and
(57:46):
evaluate why I made thisdecision in that time and see
what factors actually drove meto that decision, so I know how,
what to avoid if that evercomes back up again.
Speaker 4 (58:02):
I think I have more self-control than I thought I
did.
I do because if I didn't havemore self-control than I thought
I did, I would have been injail a long-ass time ago.
So I do have a goodself-control.
Nigga, are you typing me?
Speaker 2 (58:18):
No, I just took a picture.
Why?
Because that's what I'm doing.
I'm trying to be in the moment.
Speaker 1 (58:23):
He's in the moment.
I'm trying to flare my nostrils.
I honestly think it's somethingI don't know.
It's what I'm about to find outsoon.
I think it's going to take alot of discipline to accomplish
this and I want to see, becauseI have a lot of doubt.
(58:44):
So I think that'll be thesurprising part for me.
I know it's bad.
Doubt is normal.
Speaker 3 (58:48):
I think what matters is how you handle.
For me, I think, doubt isnormal.
I think what matters is how youhandle it.
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (58:53):
So I'm curious.
You know what I mean.
I've never taken it serious andthen embark on some shit like
that.
So it's going to be a journey.
Speaker 2 (59:03):
Well, I'm rooting for you, thank you, I've learned.
My cutoff game is strong,pretty wicked.
I've learned my cutoff game isstrong, pretty wicked.
I didn't realize that till I got, as I got older, I can.
I can be a cold nigga.
My dad used to say it all thetime.
I didn't believe him.
I was like, nah, you want me tobe a cold nigga?
I was like oh no, I can cut offlike a faucet.
I learned that.
(59:25):
It's surprising to me.
Surprising to me, it's like.
But I was like damn, I reallycan't cut, like it's not even
intentional anymore.
Sometimes it's just you justhave the, it just happens, and
you're like oh fuck, it's done.
Speaker 3 (59:34):
You think that's a defensive thing?
Speaker 2 (59:35):
It could be a defense thing, it could just be, but
it's real surprising to me.
Speaker 3 (59:42):
Has everyone you ever cut off deserved it?
Speaker 1 (59:44):
Yes, oh man, I you like damn nigga.
Speaker 2 (59:56):
It's shit.
It's been from family membersEven at a time, with me and my
dad the ability to just cut itoff.
Yeah, when you know something'snot good for you just yeah,
fuck away.
But the cutoff game is isfucking surprising when I learn
now like damn, I'm really, I canreally be that nigga if I need
(01:00:18):
to be, so sometimes I guess it'sjust one of those things where
you realize you gotta protectyour peace.
But with that being said, thishas been episode 187 of the
Heavyweight Podcast.
Yay yay.
Like, subscribe, share, comment,comment.
(01:00:38):
All that shit.
We appreciate you.
We love you, till next time.
Speaker 3 (01:00:42):
Peace, peace.
Speaker 1 (01:00:45):
Oh, I'm sweating.
That's a wrap.
Yo, that's how she rap, so makesure you click like subscribe.
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