Reintroduction and Celebration: 82

In which Carla revisits her first episode and updates it, to celebrate five years of podcasting.
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The Dark Tower Extended Reading Order: https://app.thestorygraph.com/reading_challenges/2c150bc0-c341-4583-b520-3c61ef8d354c
The Son of Seven Mothers by Benjamin Risha: https://bookshop.org/a/6560/9781952225086
The Bell Jar 50th anniversary edition: https://bookshop.org/a/6560/9780060174903
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https://practicalpie.com/myers-briggs-type-indicator/

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Episode Transcript

(00:14):
Life has been some combination of fairytalecoincidence and Jouis d vive and shocks of
beauty together with some hurtful self questioning. Sylvia Plath, Welcome back to There
Might Be Cupcakes. Hi, thisis Carla. Thank you so much for
joining me. Sorry for the unintendedbreak. My health took a dip,

(00:37):
but now my medications have been adjusted. I have a new set rapist and
I'm using a cane all the time, and the new mental and physical support
has made all the difference. Ifeel like my old self. It was
kind of tough to admit that Ineed a medical device at home that I
can't just limp bebop from the bedroomto the office to the bathroom anymore such

(01:00):
short distances. But my body continuesto change and well deteriorate, and accepting
that fact was a jagged little pill, But once I digested it, I
felt so much lighter. So welcomeback. As I said on the podcast
sub stack, which is linked inthe show notes, I outlined a plan

(01:21):
to celebrate the podcast fifth anniversary.I'm going to revisit the first five years
of episodes and well do a remixof sorts. Updates look at them through
a new lens. Fun stuff.These episodes will of course be surrounded by
new episodes, the new Buffy theVampire Slayer series, the ongoing House of
Leaves deep Dive series, and standalonenew episodes. I really think this is

(01:44):
going to be fun and a goodintroduction to new listeners. So of course,
first, an update to the firstepisode. I think I'm one of
those rare podcasters who doesn't cringe aboutmy first episodes. The only thing that
bothers me is I've learned or aboutsound management. I actually remixed the first
four episodes later with my new knowledge. You can find them remastered after episode

(02:07):
thirty three. Just search your podcastcherfor the word remastered and those four episodes
will pop up and they sound better. I started the podcast with this Poe
quote, so I must use itagain because it's so funny for podcasting.
Quote. Believe only half of whatyou see and nothing of what you hear.

(02:32):
So here's who I am now.I'm a fifty year old disabled writer.
I used to write for the VirginianPilot newspaper when I lived in Norfolk.
I also used to be a therapistbefore I became disabled. I have
a Masters in counseling for Boston University. I went to North Carolina State University

(02:53):
for psychology and Boston University for counseling. I live on a mountain in the
Appalachian Range, in a section knownthe Blue Ridge in the state of Virginia,
ride on the edge of George WashingtonNational Forests. The latter makes the
missing four to one one phenomenon ofpeople going missing on national lands extra spooky.
I may do an episode on thatin the future. Here's the official

(03:15):
description for Apple Podcasts, which maygive you an idea of my bookish and
introverted Shenanigans. Quote. Carla isa book dragon, a fifty something with
psychology and counseling degrees, with postgradwork and grief, loss and trauma,
sex crimes and forensic anthropology. Awoman who has lived in three hunted houses.

(03:38):
A former freelance journalist and counselor whowas never bored. A disabled introvert
who sees connections everywhere like John Nash, only less Mathei. A knitting fidget
who loves horror movies with a skewedpassion Like one of her heroes, Harry
at the Spy. She wants tolearn everything and write it all down in
her commonplace book join her and sometimesher friends, and her strange library is

(04:01):
she I n fj's Everything from UnusedAngles. It's gonna get weird in the
best way. Let's play. Thename of the podcast is for my friend
Greg Barren's comedy routine. There mightbe cake from his album Greg Barnt is
Uncool. I'll link it in theshow notes. It's all about how if
you get out and do the damnthing that you've been avoiding, you might

(04:25):
be near cake and there might besome cake for you. I looked up
my reasons for cupcakes for my initialpromotions leading up to my first episode,
and here they are. One withcupcakes, you can eat your cake and
have it too. More cupcakes remain, And yes, that is the proper
rendition of the saying eat your cakeand have it too. So there's your

(04:45):
proper warning about your host or hergeekiness. Two cupcakes mean extra celebration,
not just icing, but sprinkles.If you overdeck in it totally making that
into a verb. A cake,you either get really strange looks or you
thrust the cakes cost into the stratosphere, or both and nobody wants a piece
of super expensive side eye cake that'stoo unnerving to be fun. But cupcakes

(05:11):
are expected to be over the topand can be easily sprinkles, little candies,
candles, sparklers, chocolate kisses,tripolate, and chocolate kisses on a
cake. That cake will look embarrassed. Now really try it. I'll wait
now, grab a cupcake from thegrocery stores bakery at a pinch of sprinkles
and one little chocolate casts and slidedunder coworker's desk instant smiles. Cupcakes are

(05:38):
less assuming, less fancy pants,and less concerned about what people to think.
I'm way over stretching this metaphor,but it's fun and now I kind
of want to nit myself a hatwith beat of sprinkles on it. Cupcakes
also mean mingling, which means makingnew friends. They allow mingling because they're
more finger food than plate food.Like cake. Think back to your last

(06:00):
shower or reception. Take is servedand everybody sits down or purchase somewhere and
fills well their cake hold. Acupcake fits in your palm, your water
or your cocktail, nestles in theother and you can talk to that friend
you haven't seen him forever or tothat new friendly face. And cupcakes are
festive, So a cupcake in onehand means something festive in the other.

(06:24):
A book, a glass of wine, a pipe lover, think about it,
granola bar, kale smoothie, evenyour favorite Starbucks blend. In one
hand, you could be driving toyour attorney's office or working on a group
project that suddenly doesn't seem so groupy. But a cupcake. It doesn't matter
if it's the boss's surprise birthday partythat he threw from himself and made mandatory,

(06:46):
or the cookie sale launch meeting foryour daughter's girl Scout troope. Whatever
you might hold in your other handlooks brighter and chennier, and let's face
it, usually a box of cupcakesmeans girls night, in which means wine.
Possibly are you throwing yourself in whomeveryou choose, even if that's nobody
else, a Netflix and chill,which means comfort food and or recreational marijuana

(07:09):
for us lucky few. If you'reupset eating a cupcake and have nothing awesome
in the other hand, back slowlyout of the room without breaking eye contact,
then run. They're pod people.We're here for you find one of
our safe houses. Okay. Update. As far as my health, my

(07:30):
disabilities are errol standlos hypermobility type POTS, which is postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome,
and FIBERMAGA. Basically the collagen andall twelve systems of my body is damaged.
My joints are relaxed, and myblood pressure is not stable with a
sudden change in posture which includes ahard sneeze and laughing and standing up and

(07:56):
everything hurts all the time. Yep, I have twenty four seven pain,
which means right now my body ismy friend of me. It's just the
way it is. I can't trustit at all, which makes it very
difficult to make plans, which includesworking on the podcast, as we've seen
so frustrating and embarrassing sometimes quote again, I feel the gulf between my desire

(08:24):
and ambition and my naked abilities Sovietplath. One thing I've learned in the
past five years. Unfortunately, thevery real disorders that I struggle with every
day and have made me disabled arethe very ones that people with muschels and
by Internet I people that have facetiousdisorder and pretend to be sick for attention

(08:48):
on social media, most often pretendto have why well, the type of
ds that I have is the onlyone that does not have a genetic marker
POTS is attack ds N is easy, heavy on the quotation marks to fake

(09:09):
tech fiber male John for extra aspatsas they say. I know it's not
angrier than I usually do, butthere are people online that have been called
out for faking what I have bypeople that know them in real life.
It's bad. They're faking for attentionand because of failure to thrive, which

(09:30):
is the psychological fear of facing adulthood. Meanwhile, here I am waking up
some morning struggling to walk at all, or waking up in the middle of
the night with my knee completely ata joint, and I have to fix
it myself because there's nothing else tobe done. My good days are days
that healthy people would stay home fromwork, and my bad days that I
had just gripped my teeth through andcan do nothing but listen to podcasts and

(09:52):
audiobooks and lie. Still are daysthat generally healthy people would go to the
emergency room. And then there arethese people pretending with no pain. That's
hard to swallow. The EDS hasbecome a fun way to get attention on
TikTok and avoid life's responsibilities. Look, I'm bendy. EDS is actually the

(10:20):
time I got stubborn and decided todo the laundry, which I cannot safely
do, and I dislocated my hipbone putting the clothes in the dryer.
I dislocated my hip joint. Justsit with that for a minute. Facetious
disorder both fascinates me and infuriates mefor its wasted medical, financial, and

(10:41):
emotional resources. Also, I can'tstand a liar, and that's the bottom
line. Enough of that. Anupdate to my help since my last introduction
episode five years ago, I nowhave medical marijuana. Oooh my dispensary is

(11:01):
now making topical THHC and CBD payingcream and it's marvelous. Marijuana and all
its forms down to the new topicalcream has been an excellent addition in my
health toolbox. Thank you, Commonwealthof Virginia. I also finally received my
disability benefits after fighting for them forseven years. Oh. It was a

(11:28):
degrading, exhausting process obviously set upto make people quit and give up,
but my final judge at my finalhearing was kind and listened to me.
You truly listened, and I'm nowreceiving the benefits that I worked for.
Finally, I don't have to befrightened about money anymore, which was truly

(11:50):
taken a toll on my health.The grueling disability process was as well as
for my mental health, I startedusing frive works and I have a tell
health therapists and psychiatrists, so Idon't have to spend time in the car,
which is kind of hard on me, hard on my body, and
it's wonderful. As for my physicalhealth, I'm also currently being evaluated for

(12:11):
Cushing's disease, which is the oppositetwin to what my little brother had Addison's
disease. I'll keep you updated onthat, and I have mentioned him in
episodes add one sibling and younger brotherEric. He developed Addison's disease in the
womb, which is apparently rare.He was also developmentally delayed and had a

(12:31):
Grandma seizure disorder, which greatly affectedmy life and the development of complex PTSD
because he could have a terrifying tosee seizure at any moment where we were
playing, and he died when Iwas nine and he was seven, dud
the stress that all of the aboveput on his heart. He was a

(12:52):
light. He truly loved everyone,and he thought everyone loved him, which
meant trips to the mall could betricky because he would run up to strangers
with louds hi and hug them.It really did. If you want to
hear stories about him, you canlisten to episode forty eight The Use of

(13:15):
Sorrows and episode thirty one Christmas Cupcakes. He was both a stress due to
his hyperactivity and the stranger hugging,and a delight. My health has been
an odd blessing. I feel somehowthat I'm more myself now than I've ever
been in my whole life. I'mnot certain I can explain why, but

(13:35):
we can explore that in later episodes. And now to my temperament and personality,
I'm an intense indivert. I getnervous about social situations. I had
to rank myself up to guests onBi Pumpkin Podcast on Friday, the episode
sir Lesque and Lisa's Angels on thosetwo episodes of season two vanderpup Roles.

(14:01):
It's linked in the show notes.It came out today, by the way,
and it went so well. Itwas so much fun. But I
get nervous, like a little kidgetting ready to go to school for the
first time. I don't go toparties a group of people I don't know,
mingling and drinking. That's a nightmare. That's the punishment. I've taken

(14:24):
the Myers Briggs Personality Inventory several timesover the years and always come up I
n FJ the rarest type. Weare one percent of the population. I
told you I was weird. In FJ stands for introverted, intuitive,
feeling and judging, and it refersto the different ways I perceive and approach

(14:45):
the world. It means that Inever ever stopped thinking, which does interfere
asleep. I love, love,love, love, love learning and pursuing
knowledge. I know I called myselfa book dragon, but I think I
prefer a book vacuum. I likethat a book hoover. And I see
connections and things everywhere. If you'rea regular listener, our a reader away.

(15:09):
Back from when I wrote the websitefor the Dollart Podcast, all of
that is still on the podcast website, by the way. You know,
I believe that everything is connected somehow. Speaking of being a book book vacuum,
I looked at my reading challenges forthe years I've been doing the podcast
on good Reads. In two thousandand seven, I read one hundred and
twenty four books. In two thousandand eight, I wrote one hundred and

(15:31):
fifty seven books. In two nineteen, I read one hundred and twenty six
books. In twenty twenty I readone hundred and fifty three books, and
last year I read one hundred andthirty four books. This year so far,
I've read seventy so in the durationof the planning and production of this
podcast, it started in April oftwo and seventeen. I started planning and

(15:52):
promoting it in January of that year. I have read six hundred and ninety
four books bookcum. I do notplay around when it comes to my books.
This is a book driven podcast fora reason. I said in the
first episode that edg Allan Poe wasan I NFP simpler in temperament to myself.

(16:14):
His personality type is known as thehealer and mine as the counselor,
which is what I actually did fora living until I can no longer work.
I think this showed him post desireto take care of his aunt and
his cousin, who was also hiswife, who with his writing income.
Being as introverted as he was,as much of a loner as he was,
he could have gone up with Virginia, his wife, and hold up

(16:34):
somewhere and written. But yet theyalso lived with his aunt and her mother,
and he cared for I wanted togo back to that book Riot article
that I sourced that inventory's famous authoras Myers Briggs typed and look at other
authors that have been important in mydevelopment besides Poe, and see if they're
similar to mine. Let's see quote. I am a victim of introspection,

(16:59):
So the plath I S TJ.The inspector sharing introversion and judgment with me
is Sigmund Freud. I read theentire works of Freud and graduate school at
Boston University. I am strangely proudof that. I've joked that I want
that bragging rite on my tombstone.Inspectors are logical, pragmatic, and have

(17:22):
a strong sense of personal responsibility.I do wonder if this contributed to Freud's
cocaine addiction. Interesting E. NFJ. The extroverted version of my personality
is the teacher. They care intenselyabout people as I do, and need
people to get along. I dothe same. I really try to stop
arguments, it's a bad habit.They want people to be the best they

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can be and are empathic as areI n FJS. One n FJ writer
that has shaped me is the psychologistand philosopher Eric from I n FJ.
Writers that I love and or Ihave studied are Plato, Mary Walston,
Kraft, Nathano Hawthorne, Dante,Doskievsky, Agatha Christie, Carl Young,

(18:07):
and Tulstoy. Poe is an incrediblecompany as an I n f P healer
with other amazing writers that I havestudied and or admire. These writers have
a vivid internal life and cared deeplyabout their beliefs and ideals include Rousseau,
Albert Kemo j R. Ol Tolquien, Virginia Wolf, Antoine d Saint Xberry

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who wrote The Little Prince, AAMile who wrote Winnie the Pooh, John
Milton, William Blake, Hans,Christian Anderson, Shakespeare and Homer. So
much lovely art. The final introvertsI n t J. The Mastermind live
with the inner world of possibilities,what can be, and they are C.

(18:52):
S. Lewis and Lewis Carroll.I've taken the types for these authors
from the book write article linked tothe show notes, the same one I
use for Seasons for episode one,and this article took their typing infro from
the Center for Applications of Psychological Type, which will also linked to the show
notes. Obviously, none of thesedeceased authors took the Myers bricks. They

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were backdoor typed using what is knownfor their lives and personal letters and diaries.
This is what the Center for Applicationof Psychological Type says about my type
I NJ quote. For I nfjs, the dominant quality in their lives
is their attention to the inner worldof possibilities, ideas, and symbols.
Knowing by way of insight is paramountfor I n fjs, and they often

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manifest a deep concern for people andrelationships as well. I nfjs often have
deep interests in creative expression as wellas issues of spirituality and human development.
While the energy and attention of In fj's are naturally drawn to the inner
world of ideas and insights, whatpeople often first encounter with I n FJS
is their drive for closure and forthe application of their ideas to people's concerns.

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Interesting. My fascination with his personalitytyping comes from my undergraduate work in
psychology and NCSU. I fell inlove with the idea of scales and inventories
as I learned about Aaron Beck andhis groundbreaking back depression inventory. When you
go to the therapist or the psychiatristand you take that quote unquote quiz about

(20:22):
in the last two weeks, haveyou felt you can thank doctor Beck for
developing that idea. I became fascinatedwith research and statistic based inventories that can
evaluate individuals and help them, andthey're helping professionals understand themselves better. And
then I learned about Myers breaks,and the actual Myers breaks goes so much
deeper. Once you have your resultof which of the sixteen personality types you

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fall under, allow me to furthergeek out for a minute. That's why
you listen to me. There aresixteen types that break down into four modules.
One where do you get your energyinto version versus extra version? Two?
How do you take in information sensingversus intuition? Three, how do

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you make decisions thinking versus feeling?And four how do you organize your world
judgment versus perception? Isn't that interesting? I love psychology. Okay, I'll
stop for now. Hopefully my beingan I n f J helps you understand
me better. I get my energyfrom being alone and in my own head.
I'm intuitive, I trust my feelings, and I organize my word through

(21:30):
world through internal works. Basically,I live in my own head times four,
Basically I might be a hobbit.So other than that, my first
favorite television show see my first favoritetelevision show is Fame, and I still

(21:51):
love it. At the top ofmy list was also it's also my so
called life, Big Love. Iteared up when I was done watching Big
Love because the journey was over,because the storytelling was so good. And
yes, I am a friends fan. I also love me some reality TV.

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It's a good escape and good knittingcompanion. I don't want to look
up at it all the time andconcentrate on what I'm doing. Plus,
I left watching people make questionable decisions. Back to the psychology. It's right
back to my psychology and counsel anddegrees. I'm currently watching Sister Wives,
Oh my God, Seeking Sister Wivesdouble Oh my god. Rewatching vander Pump

(22:37):
Rules, don't forget to listen toMe and Princess talk about it in our
latest episode. It's in the shownotes. And I watched some of the
Real Housewives, not all of them. Also the Love After lock Up Universe
and the Team Mom Universe because Istarted with it. So I'm kind of
just Okay, what's happening now,and I'm going back thanks thanks to Peacock

(23:03):
and rewatching The Real World because Igrew up with it. The Real World
was my first reality show. I'mreally enjoying the homecoming shows. I hope
they keep doing it. Oh,let's see the Reality TV world. You
know, it has nothing to dowith my world, my disability, my
chronic illnesses, none of that stress. I can just watch mostly wealthy people

(23:27):
do stupid stuff and it's relaxing.It's oddly relaxing. I'm still a huge
horror movie and literature fan. I'vebeen adding my horror movie letterbox reviews to
the website. I need to startadding my book reviews to the website as
well. I also read high qualitytrue crime and nonfiction history. I'm working

(23:52):
on finishing Stephen King's Dark Tower seriesand the full universe of the Dark Tower.
A really nice person created a readingchallenge for the Dark Tower Extended Universe
to the story Graph, which isan excellent alternative to good Reads. A
link to it in the show notes, and if you want to follow me
on the story graph, there mightbe cupcakes. It's easy to find me.

(24:12):
My avatar is the avatar for thepodcast. According to this reading challenge,
I've completed sixty two percent of ittwenty one prompts completed at a thirty
four total. I'm also taking partin a book club slash class on Sylvia
Plath, which meets every Sunday overZoom and then chats all week on Slack

(24:36):
and Facebook, and I am lovingevery minute of it. We started by
reading Her Husband by Dan Mettlebrook,which is a faulty but interesting biography,
and examining certain poems, and nowwe're reading The Bell Jar decolutely will be
comparing Ted Hughes version of Ariel toSylvia Plath's intended version of Ariel. This

(24:57):
has been enchanting. I love schooland if my pocketbook and my health would
allow me, it's not gonna haveone. I would be in college for
us of my life. I wouldbe one of those really eccentric people with
five doctorates for no reason, youknow, with the alphabet soup after my
name. I thrive when I'm learning, which goes right back to my personality

(25:19):
type. Talking about movies, Ijust saw Halloween the original in the theater
again thanks to Allen my Drafthouse Charlotte'sFall. I love you guys. Every
time it's on the big screen,I go. It's personal rule I hold.
I also took Dad to see TopGun Maverick for early Father's Day present,
and he said it was better thanthe original, and Top Guns one

(25:41):
of his favorite movies, so thereyou go. Eric would have loved it
because the flight sequences were similar tothe Death Star flight sequences and Star Wars
and New Hope really similar, liketight and just really similar. He would
have been on his feet yelling becausethat was one of our major plays.

(26:04):
Is. We would take our littlefigurines and we had a I can't say
what it's called, the Bland Cruiserand we would act out chasings all day
every day, and we would takecardboard tubes from Christmas wrapping and we would
use them as escape shoots with thelittle minifigs, the original minifigs from Star

(26:27):
Wars, and they would escape fromthe top of my stereo to the carpet
and then all day. So Ericwould have lost his mind at Maverick.
I really wish he could have beenthere. Anyway, I'm getting ready to
go see Joe Hill's The Black Phone, and I cannot wait. I'm also

(26:49):
going to snag mea goths X,that horror movie from the Red Box box
in Amherst, which is probably gonnabe a really wild rage, I certainly
hope. So. I'm also goingto rewatch the director's version of Mid Sumar
because tis the season. I'm currentlyreading. Besides The Bell Jar, The

(27:11):
Son of Seven Mothers by Benjamin Rishaabout the Tony and Susan Alamo cult.
I'm fascinated by Colts. By theway, It's quite disturbing. I'll either
link to it the show notes,or if the sharottes get too long,
I'll put it in the website entryfor this episode. And I will leave
you this episode with my fuzzy butts. I have two dogs a cat.

(27:36):
Our cat stays in our mother inlaw's house, which is attached to our
house. We have a little motherin law easement that she built, you
know. She made it safe withno stairs, wide doors, and it's
attached to our house by a door. Her name is Penelope Garcia, after

(27:57):
the hacker and computer expert uncle Realminds. She's a rescue, as are
both our docks. Arlow is oursenior doc. Yes, his full name
is Arlo Guthrie Huffsteller. The storyof his name is really funny. We
adopted him after my beloved long haireddocks and Gretchen died at age of nineteen.

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She nearly made it to twenty.We were still settling in on our
mountain, moving into the main houseand get my mother in law settled into
her mother in law edition, andmy husband was still traveling back and forth
to Norfolk. His friend bought ourold house to flip it, and there
were still some our things in it, and he was meeting with the paper
pushers to complete the sale all thatgood stuff. And Arlow didn't have his

(28:41):
name yet because my husband couldn't agreewith me on one. So I vividly
remember sitting in a car with himat the stoplight after he finally agreed on
the category. I've seen her songwriternames. We're going through a list of
them, and he was still beingwishywashy on each one. Leatly exasperated,
I said, if you leave,you go to Norfolk without choosing a name

(29:03):
while you were gone. This time, I will train him to respond to
something outrageous, like dildo. Sopick one Arlow. It was. He
looks like an Arlow. I can'texplain why. If you're around my age,
Arlow looks like the original Fisher priceddog, you know, with the

(29:25):
hard round bottom and then the blackand white face with the black ears that
stick up. That's exactly what Arlolooks like. He's so kind in general,
he's a benevolent dictator. He wouldlet first Ellie my docks and then
I've talked about on the podcast andshared photos with, and now our new
puppy take bones and toys out ofhis mouth. He's only right that he

(29:47):
claims, is he gets to bethe first one to go out the door.
We didn't embark DNA test on him, mainly to test for medical issues,
and there are no concerns. Yayand our black and white polka dotted
boy. It is mostly American pitbull terrier. He doesn't have the big
square head though with Chow Chow,Collie and super Mut, I wouldn't around

(30:08):
calling him super Mut, but fordays after getting the result, Ellie,
my sweet shorthaired dockson, who Icalled the producer of the show, unfortunately
died right before last Thanksgiving. I'mstill grieving her losses much as I love
our new boy Toby. She wastwelve. I'll talk about that on another

(30:32):
episode. We were concerned about howArlow was grieving her loss. He was
having a lot of separation anxiety,which was unusual for him, and trouble
sleeping, and he wasn't eating.So in January we went to the Lynchburg
Commane Society and met the dog previouslyknown as Guppy. That shelter picks really
perky names for each dog to getpeople's attention. The giant eared brown puppy,

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assumed to be about two months old, had been found on the edge
of the creek in a park inthe middle of winter. After he was
checked out for neck pain. Hestrained it while he was in the park
and he was neutered. He camehome with us and was christened October holding.
Hubsteller called Toby October because he's thecolor of attom waves and his mom

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loves horror and holding because he knowswhen you're being a phony. Back to
books, He's incredibly smart. Myfavorite trick he's learned is I asked him
where's mommy? He then makes eyecontact with me and taps me on the
leg with his big paw. Andwho loves it. I'll record it and

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put it on TikTok and Instagram foryou. He can also give high fives.
We embarked him as well, andhe has known him in the medical
genetic concerns. And he's also pitbull both Labrador Retriever and bulldock. Oh
and did I mentioned he has greeneyes? Oh, so that might be

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even more than he wanted to knowabout this podcaster A one more thing.
As I've talked about episodes three andfour and sixty two and sixty three,
the linked in the show notes,I have room. I live in a
haunted house. Things are still happening, sounds of glass breaking when nothing broke,
sounds of doors shutting when they didn't, voices, and I hear Ellie

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a lot, which is lovely.I've also seen Ellie twice, which is
even more lovely. I'll update youon all the paranormal happenings on a later
episode. I've always lived on hauntedhouses. I am apparently a hunted person
and I'm okay with that. Joinme for updates on my sub stack.

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I share when I'm up to.I send the website entries to it can
get them in your email box,and I share private entries that don't quite
fit on the podcast. On thepaid level, it's there might be cupcakes
dot substat dot com. On thePatreon, which is also there might be
cupcakes. I upload ad free versionsof the episodess PDFs that the episode scripts

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and more links in the show notes. As for current events, there's a
pin post on my Instagram which isalso there might be cupcakes, with a
lot of abortion rest resources both emotionaland practical, and a planned parenthood fundraiser.
Please help out if you can.This morning, as I've said,

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Princess Jones Curtis dropped her episode onBipumpkin Podcasts that I guessed it on.
I had so much fun. Wetalked for two hours about season two vander
pump Rolls. I think it's episodefive and six. They are called sir
Lesque and Lisa's Angels. We talkedabout the ethics of can your employees dance

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and skimpy costumes for their boss andfor the public, and why reality TV
stars lie when they know they're beingrecorded. It was so much fun and
both of us laugh the entire time. She's already invited me back and I
cannot wait. I love you,Princess. Princess said in her intro that

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she was nervous too, but she'smade a new friend. I about died
me too, Princess, Love yougirl. Their podcasts are linked the episodes
in the show notes, and I'llput it in the website entry. And
one more thing, and I amlate on this, and I am so

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sorry. I received my first presentfrom a listener, Aaron, you doll.
Aaron sent me an unemployed Philosopher's Guildmug from my wish list. It's
the first Lines from literature mug.It's covered in famous first lines and I

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love it, Aaron. I criedwhen I opened it. Thank you so
much. Aaron's a Patreon. Iowe you stickers and stuff and it's coming
this week. You are so supportiveonline on social media. You are the
best and I love you, bunches, and I'm so sorry I am delayed
on this. Thank you, Thankyou so much. I really I cried.

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Guys. I know this week issomber and beyond rough and scary.
I hope my eccentric and kind ofgoofy rambling here and my silliness on Bi
Pumpkin has brought you some distraction andsome cupcakes. Remember, I do love
you. Coming up more revisiting episodesfor my first five years, you know,

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for example, going to look atwhat Susan Smith has been up to
since I recorded episode twenty one.Hint it's dark. And going to go
deeper into the murders and the missingon Highway twenty nine from episode eleven.
Stuff like that. More in theHouse of Leaves series, starting the Buffy

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the Vampire series, finishing the Sspiriathree Mother series. So young Ian and
there's gonna be so many books,so many books for those who've been listening
and supporting me now into this sixthyear. Thank you, Thank you beyond
words for my new listeners. Hello, and welcome into my little study,

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cramped full of bookshelves and commonplace notebooks. Have some coffee or tea and a
cupcake. Taylor, just you're likingyou deserve it and thank you. Given
what's going on, I will leaveyou with one more Sylvia Plath quote about
men manipulating and controlling women's bodies.Check out the sources I posted on Instagram

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and stay safe quote. Girls arenot machines that you put kindness coins into
until sex falls out. I willsee you next time with more fascinations of
mind and hopefully yours,