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October 26, 2020 48 min
A year after she revisited her own Program (Spring Creek Lodge; WATCH on her YouTube), and just days after losing everything in the fires ravaging our country, Cadilina Deville cashed her last coins into her classic car gas tank and set across the country and through the desert to join the few Survivors who could make it out to Provo Canyon to protest with Paris Hilton on a weeks notice and a prayer.  Since we're moms and broke and couldn't transcendental meditate our way to Utah in time, we're grateful to have been kidnapped by our elder Survivor Sister and you're coming along for the ride.   The Troubled family would like to give a BIG Congratulations to Provo Survivor Courtney for protesting outside her vortex of torment and closing the door on that trauma, rising into her Survivor highness, and doing all this just in time to marry her soulmate. WTF Sister, can't wait to read your book. Definitely call in and let us know how you feel! We forgot what dopamine and her sero/oxy friends are like.   It was great to hear from Agape & Bethel Survivor, Allen Knoll! If you have not yet read his book Surviving Bethel, definitely prioritize resolving that. Also, the short for his upcoming documentary Bethel Boys is a definite cathartic trigger warning and we cannot wait for that project to be released!  We would like to apologize for the typical Troubling of technological audio derps, but we hope you already know that we're functioning in a barely functioning capacity. So we appreciate your patience and are always happy to accept tech donations. We bring this up because perhaps the most touching of interviews with an Ex Provo Boy is deeply swallowed by the speakers in the background. However, we're pretty sure Mikaela Shwer, director of The Kids are Not Alright captured the moment so we can all ugly sob together someday. To that Survivor Brother, we see you. We need Brothers like yourself on the frontline because our brothers walk the thinnest line between overcoming and overcame. Definitely reach out.   Sooo, we had the biggest squee moment when one of our idols (who is the inspiration for one of our favorite movies) calls out Amanda Househoulder in her interview with Cadilina. OMG we want to tell you but AHHH. We planted her as the first interview for many reasons and mostly because, patience, or lack thereof. So much to unpack but we'll shh.   On another note, but not entirely, respect to our Survivor Sisters who joined the psych, social psych, social work, fields as a result of being the subject of a social psychology experiment deliberate gone wronger than wrong. Laura Rouse is one of the most brilliant and supportive Survivors we've ever virtually met and of everyone that we didn't get to hangout with at the Provo Protest, this is the voice we heard pop on during editing where we were genuinely bummed out to have missed it. She lives in Hawaii y'all, the opportunities aren't plentiful.   Reminder that this was officially #BreakingCodeSilence 's first event and their coming out party if you will from a virtual social media campaign to a real life movement. They're working towards creating an organization and are already accepting donations through nonprofit partner NYRA (which you should have heard of otherwise you're missing too many episodes). So if you haven't already familiarized yourself with this campaign, their team and their mission, make sure you head over to and do not forget to sign their petition.   Speaking of Petitions, keep sharing Paris Hilton's Petition to Shut Down Provo Canyon. And yes Paris does make an appearance on the podcast but you'll have to listen to whole thing to find her cameo with Cadilina.  --- Send in a voice message: Support this podcast:
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