April 28, 2025 • 39 mins
The moment my son transitioned beyond physical form, my entire spiritual practice was put to the ultimate test. That night, sitting before my altar, drowning in grief, I witnessed something extraordinary—points of white light shooting upward across the planet. Through my son's consciousness, I realized I was seeing prayers rising for our family, an experience that would launch me into a profound spiritual awakening.
This episode explores the metaphor of the ego as a wild horse trapped in the pen of grief. When crisis strikes—whether through death, diagnosis, or devastating betrayal—our ego thrashes against unchangeable reality, desperate to escape what cannot be undone. But what if the purpose isn't to break free? What if instead, these moments of confinement are opportunities for the deepest spiritual growth?
Through my journey of connecting with my son's consciousness on the other side, I discovered that the relationship between soul and ego isn't meant to be one of dominance but partnership. Traditional spiritual practices often approach the ego with masculine discipline, forcefully bringing it under control. Yet there exists another path—loving the ego into surrender rather than whipping it into submission.
When we fully accept what cannot be changed—including our own eventual transition beyond physical form—something remarkable happens. We begin to "wake up in the game" of life while still playing it. Our presence becomes more sacred, our actions more purposeful, as we move through the world with the understanding that we are souls having a temporary human experience.
For those navigating grief or spiritual awakening, this episode offers a roadmap for reconciling the human experience with spiritual truth. By creating coherence between our soul and our "wild horse" ego, we can live from an expanded perspective that transforms even our most painful experiences into catalysts for growth. The way, as my son told me from beyond, "is not complicated, but it's not easy."
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Joya (00:00):
Hello, beloved souls, reverend Joya, with Vibologie
here and this is the we Woke Up,like this podcast and YouTube
because I'm going to make this aYouTube video today, because I
want to talk about awakening, adeeper, deeper awakening, and
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what the point of awakening is,since Weston vibrationally
transformed into anotherdimension, which is what I call
death, because we only leavethis physical body, but we
certainly do not leave ourconsciousness.
And when I first began to feelhim, which was on the second
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night after he passed and I wasjust sitting in front of my
altar, sobbing, and the onlyplace I could find any kind of
smidge of peace was sitting infront of my altar, and I had
this experience that I was justcrying, sobbing, deeply sobbing,
and all of a sudden I saw thesepoints of light start shooting
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up.
I could see like this bird'seye view of the planet and I
could see these points of whitelight shooting up everywhere.
And then I had this feelingflood through my body.
That was later I identified itas the feeling of being honored,
like when you're just likehumbled and being honored, and
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it felt like that.
And I heard him say to me wow,mom, I didn't know you had such
a big community and I realizedthrough his awareness that I was
seeing and witnessing all ofthe people that were praying for
him and for our family.
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Because just as much as I wasbrokenhearted in my own
brokenheartedness, I was alsoconcerned about his soul on the
other side, because I couldsense that the accident had
happened so fast and that hisenergy before the accident was
so low, so down, so negative,that when he immediately was
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transitioned into the other side, that he was confused on the
other side and he was trying toget back into his body.
And I could just feel hisconfusion.
I could feel the heaviness ofhis sadness and his confusion
and and this, oh shit, I can'tgo back, I can't undo what just
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happened, this can't be undone.
And I could feel that.
And so the first time that Iexperienced his vibration of
consciousness was when I sawthis prayer light for lack of a
better word through his eyes andthis feeling of feeling honored
.
In this experience time I wouldgo sit in front of my altar in
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that sobbing grief and heavinessof losing him.
I would be flooded with peacewhen I would say his name.
I would just say Weston, inthat sobbing, crying, I'd say
his name, and then I would feelthis melting feeling of warm
peace descend upon my heart fromthe inside of my body.
This would happen.
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So, of course, being the mysticthat I am and that I always have
been, I'm experiencing histransition energetically.
And this sought me askingquestions.
This sought me seeking answersto these questions I was then
asking, and as I sought theanswers and found bits of the
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parts of the questions that Iwas seeking, I would find new
questions would arrive andevolve inside of me.
And so when I came tomeditation, maybe three, four
weeks afterwards, and I waspraying and crying and asking
how can I make this consistent,how can I reach you on a
consistent basis?
And the answer dropped in quick, as a wink, and he said come
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with a calm mind.
And so I began that work ofreally calming my mind, really
going into deeper meditation,deeper practices of my
meditation, where now I spendprobably between not probably, I
do spend between two to threehours a day in meditation.
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I do it in the morning and I doit again in the evening, and
it's not now just to find peace,it's to get myself into a
coherent field state, and I havefound that now, since I started
having these interestingexperiences in my meditations
recently, within the last coupleof weeks, where I slip into
this vast formlessness andthere's just light and energy
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moving and sacred geometryappears and disappears and it's
just light and color and energymoving around in my field and my
body vanishes and I feel myselfas being formless.
And so I started measuring mybrainwave states to find out
what was going on in that, and Ifound that I was in a gamma
brainwave state.
In my meditations I wasmaintaining constant gamma,
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which, of course, is the higheststate of meditation that
connects you to those mysticalexperiences of the divine, that
formlessness that I wasexperiencing and have been
experiencing still, and so thismorning, lately, this catches us
up to today.
I mean, there's so much more tothis story, but what I want to
share I've been having thisfeeling, and I couldn't quite
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put my finger on what it was.
It's preventing me from havinga deeper contact with the other
side.
I knew that, and so I reallystarted asking what is this
feeling?
What is this feeling?
What is this feeling I'mfeeling?
And this visual completelydropped in, and this just
happened this morning, and itwas this vision of a horse being
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in a pen and it's a wild horsethat's now been corralled in a
small, tight pen and it'skicking and it's whacking its
head against the walls and it'sbiting anybody who comes near it
and it's rearing up.
It's just like throwing amassive fit in this pen.
And I experienced myself as thishorse in the pen, this wild,
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crazed feeling of being penned.
And when I dropped into mymeditative state about this, I
quickly realized that this wildhorse is the ego and this pen
that I'm in is the pen of grief,that this pen that pens the
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wild horse that pens the ego, isthe crisis that inadvertently
reaches all people, who reallyjust catapult into a much more
awakened space, that there'sthis major before and after,
there's this major crisis thatundoes everything in your life
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that you think is real,everything in your life that you
feel is solid, everything inyour life that you feel like you
have the illusion of controlover is gone and it throws the
ego into quite the fit as itwill.
And so, when I sat in thisfeeling of being the wild horse,
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which is what I've beenexperiencing, because in these
midst of peace, in these midstof tremendous peace and
meditation, in the midst of allof the mystical experiences I've
had since my son transitionedin the midst of being
spiritually prepared for it in2024, which I know I was.
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Despite all that, in the midstof all of that, there was still
something in me that's clingingto doubt.
Clinging to doubt, questioningmy own inner experiences.
And so when I went into thismeditation and I saw this wild
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horse being penned, immediatelythe message came through and it
said you don't trust yourself,you don't trust yourself, you
don't trust your higher self,you're not trusting your soul,
you're being the wild horsecaged, throwing a fit and trying
to find a way out, except thereis no way out.
There is no way out.
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There is no undoing my son'sdeparture from this planet and
for other people, there's noundoing the death of a parent or
a sibling, or a spouse or aloved one.
There's no undoing a diagnosis,there's no undoing a massive
betrayal that happens in ourlife.
There's a before and there's anafter, and it cages the ego.
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And so, depending on how wehandle these kinds of situations
, our fight, flight or freezeresponses of the ego, how it's
coped with life up until thispoint it's gotten caught, is
what we're going to try to do ona massively tight scale.
And I want to show yousomething, because just the
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notes that I took this morningin my meditation are these.
This is the notes that I tookthis morning in my meditation
are these?
This is the notes.
The ego is the survival programof the body.
The ego is the survival programof the body that says I am my
story, I am my experiences, I amwhat happened to me, I am my
possessions, I am my success, Iam my looks, my age, my sex, my
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religion, my relationships.
I am what I value myself to be.
This is the story of the ego.
But here's the kicker with theego.
The ego is not a thing, it is aprocess, and it's either
grasping to things, which iswhat the ego loves to do grasp
and attach, grasp and attach orit resists things.
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The ego is always grasping orresisting.
And in the case of being stuckin the pen, now that you're the
wild horse, you resist being inthe pen.
We want to undo what's beendone, we want to wrestle with it
, we want to fight with it.
I want to change it.
And so I found myself slippingback into these old habits of
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self-soothing, of numbing,except when you numb yourself
with one thing, you numbyourself with everything, and I
already knew this was a path Ididn't want to go down.
And in my case it's with sugar.
I found myself just wanting tohave cake, wanting to have
cookies, wanting to have candy,wanting to have sugar, because
sugar is addictive, sugarchanges your felt state and
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sugar numbs you out because it'sa drug.
And I didn't want to go downthat path.
And so, when I stopped doingthis to myself, I found that the
wild horse was kicking up againreally crazily inside of me.
And so it's in this resistancethat the struggle was happening.
And so, in this moment, when Ifelt myself being the wild horse
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, when I realized that the egois not a thing, it's a process
that's grasping or it'sresisting all the time, I said
well then, why do we have an ego?
Why would we come to thisplanet as a soul, take on this
bodily identity with an ego?
That we know we have an ego, weknow we're going to have an ego
.
Why take that on?
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And the answer dropped in soclearly, and it was your ego is
meant to be your companionthrough life, your soul's
companion.
There's a companionship therewith this wild horse and the
soul, that the soul is supposedto ride the wild horse through
life and direct it and tell itwhere to go and how to express
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and what to do and how to usethis power.
But we don't do that because wehave what I've always called
the ow, which is the originalwound and I've talked about it
before on other podcast episodesand also on other YouTube shows
.
We have this ow that happened,the original wound within our
tribe, within our family, thattaught us it's not safe to be
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who we are.
Except I had a realizationabout this recently that it
wasn't the external thing,wasn't the people, wasn't the
situation, it wasn't theexternals that were the cause of
the ow.
It was your agreement thatthere is something wrong with
you, that it's not safe to beyourself.
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We judged ourselves as little,tiny beings.
We judged ourselves and wedidn't do the judging.
The soul didn't do the judging.
The ego did the judging.
That wild horse did the judging.
The soul didn't do the judging.
The ego did the judging.
That wild horse did the judgingand it's like, oh, it's not
safe for you to be in control ofme because we're just not
fitting in, we're getting introuble, and so it judges you,
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the wild soul, the little babysoul, the little soul self, as
being what's wrong with it, andso it takes off on its own, and
this is what the ego does, andthere's such a beautiful story
here.
So as the ego takes off and itleaves behind the truest part of
ourselves, we spend our wholelives then either projecting or
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protecting our pain and ourwoundedness out into the world.
We start to recreate thesecycles that we've lived in.
We recreate the cycles of ourparents and the cycles of our
communities and the cycles ofour society wherever we live,
our culture, our religion,whatever that tiny belief system
is that we were born into.
That we might have resisted atfirst, because we're standing
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out.
We're born to stand out.
We're born to be who we are.
We're born to expressauthentically, from our soul's
light, through the lens of thiswild ego that we've been given,
which is in alignment with ourastrology, our human design, our
gene keys, whatever path youwant to look at it through, to
distill who am I, what's mydesign.
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It's no different thanunderstanding how your car
operates or how your phone works.
Beyond just.
You know, we have this phone inmy hands that I can use to
either just make phone calls andtext people, or I can really
dive into what this thing can do.
Same thing with a car these newcars do all kinds of things
besides just put in the key anddrive from point A to point B.
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There's all kinds of otherthings that your car can do.
And so it's no different withus, with our operating system,
with our ego the wild horse, ifyou will.
And so, as I was sitting in thisfeeling, I realized that I
didn't have to be the wild horse, I could be the witnessing
observer of the wild horse.
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And so I suddenly saw myselfsitting on a fence just watching
the wild horse, which led me toanother question.
And I said to myself you know,I've spent 10 years plus in
meditation.
I've spent 10 years plusnegating or like
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self-deprivation through force,making myself have discipline
through force.
And I saw that there'sdifferent ways to tame this wild
horse.
There's different ways to tamethe ego, and the old school way
is the masculine energy way,which is through that force,
through that discipline.
And I asked myself you know, Ihave this wild horse.
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I have this wild horse, thisbeautiful wild horse that came
with me, it's mine, this is mywild horse.
And how do you tame a wild horse?
Does it have to be that youdiscipline it into submission or
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can I love it into surrender?
And I saw, like this whip right, that you have this whip with
this horse and, yes, you cantame a horse that way, but
you're always going to have toride the horse with a bit and
the reins and the saddle and thewhip in your hand, because the
wild horse is going to get outof control any chance.
It senses that you're notpaying attention.
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And this is like thetraditional path that we've all
been taught and we've all gonedown I have, with meditation and
doing the branch of yoga that Ipracticed.
It was very masculine, it'svery much.
You notice it and you whipyourself back into shape.
You notice it and you whipyourself back into shape, and it
doesn't have to be violent, butit's still a controlling aspect
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of the self versus.
There's a feminine flow.
There's a feminine energy Icould feel into of flow.
There's a feminine energy Icould feel into.
What if I just loved this partof myself so much that it
surrenders to me?
What if we became partnersagain?
What if, instead of having towhip my wild horse into
submission, I could love it,into surrender, and it could
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surrender to the divine willthat is the will of my soul,
because the will of my soul isconnected to the will of the
creator.
There's no separation there.
All separation is an illusion.
And I could really feel thesoftness of that.
I could feel the softness ofjust loving this part of myself
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so much that I just need to sitstill and not identify with the
wild horse anymore.
Not identify as the wild horseanymore, but identify as fully
as the soul that's justwitnessing it, in its pain, in
its temper tantrums, in itswoundedness, in its stories.
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It wants to tell itself butthis happened, but that happened
.
Just witness it and love itthrough all of it.
This is the path of the divinefeminine.
This is the path of the divinefeminine to fully embody all of
ourselves.
This is the path of the divinefeminine to bring this horse, if
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you will, not under yourcontrol, but into your
partnership, into yourco-operation, into your soul,
companionship.
That I have, this ego, I havethis vessel, I have this vehicle
called me, but how do I not letit?
Its wounded self, its woundednature that's always seeking,
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forever and ever seeking.
How do I not let that thewounded horse and the pen run
the show, and I realize I can'tlet it out of the pen to wander
with me in the wild until I cantrust it and it can trust me.
And this is a mutual trustingbecause, remember, at the point
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of the separation, the fallinside of us, the ow, the
original wound, I'm the one,you're the one, who made the
decision to not honor thisrelationship between the ego and
the soul.
We are the ones who said, oh,this is wrong, because nobody
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else is doing this in our family.
My wildness is too much, mylight is too bright, my voice is
too loud, my energy is too high.
Whatever it is, it's too muchfor the people who feel like
they themselves are not enoughbecause they too have cut off
this connection between theirego and their soul.
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And this is the fall and thedivine union happens inside of
us when we can reclaim thisrelationship, happens inside of
us when we can reclaim thisrelationship and undoing these
paradigms of the, whipping itinto shape, this harsh
discipline of I'm going to makemyself and, yes, we can make
ourselves all day long, but whenyou're not looking, when you're
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not on your awareness, whenyou're not in your awareness,
when you're not in your hyperattention, assuming you have
that and you're not just lettingthe ego run the show.
The ego takes over again All thetime.
It takes over again all thetime, and we always have to
bring it back, bring it back,bring it back, whip it back into
submission.
And so I'm, in this newpractice of softening toward my
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whole experience, as the soulwho is witnessing this life
happening, as the soul who iswitnessing the grief, this
physical self-feels, thisheartbreak and the feeling of no
control.
But deeper than that, as I doveinto the feelings of what this
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is, that the horse that this egoself is feeling, there's this
fear of knowing I too am goingto leave this planet.
I too will no longer be thisvessel and vehicle.
I too will dissolve back intomy soul, back into the oneness
of all it is.
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And that feeling, that thought,actually conjured up terror
inside of me.
I could feel it and I was likedoes it mean that I don't matter
?
Does it mean that I'm nothing?
Does it mean that Weston is nownothing?
And of course no.
That is not what it means.
Energy doesn't get destroyed,but it means that it's absorbed
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back into the sea this drop ofwater Think of it as one drop of
water being absorbed back intothe sea that it is now
identified as the sea.
It can feel the vastness, theexpansiveness of what it really
is and its consciousness ofitself as a separate but not
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separate identified point oflight drop of water in the sea.
And I've had so manyconversations with Weston about
life, the soul, what happensafter we die, all of these
things which I'm not going toshare yet because it's not time
to share it yet.
It's not time to share it yetbecause it's all unfolding.
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And what I realized in thisexperience this morning, with
this metaphor of the horse asthe wild horse, is my ego and my
soul as being my ego'scompanion, my ego's rider, for
lack of a better word.
I'm supposed to ride this horsethrough life.
Right, this body that, when Isoften into that love that I can
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feel for this body, it'sbeautiful.
It's beautiful and it takesaway that fear and instead it
instills in me this feeling ofthere's just no time to waste,
because life here is so short.
It's the blink of an eye, whichis one of the beautiful gifts
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of getting to come here as asoul is that we know it's not
forever.
We're playing a game, and Westonliterally told me it's a game
and our work is to wake up inthe game.
That's why we're here.
We came to say can I wake up inthe game?
And what happens?
When we wake up in the game?
We change our life.
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We're not the same personanymore.
We're now reunited with oursoul and our ego, and that means
we change how we live our life.
That means that the ego is notrunning the show.
This part of us that'sresisting or grasping all the
time is now instead in service.
What do we want to do today?
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Where do we want to go?
And, as the way of mastery says,it's to create the good, the
holy and the beautiful, which Iabsolutely believe.
Those are the creations andemanations of source, and we are
creators.
We are creative beings, andwhen people say they're not
creative, I'm like you donothing but create.
We just have been misidentifiedand mis.
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What's the word here I'mlooking for?
Misidentified and mis.
What's the word here I'mlooking for misdefined about
what creativity means, whatcreation means.
It doesn't mean being able topaint that painting back there,
even though I did that.
It doesn't mean being able todraw something that looks
realistic.
It doesn't mean being able toplay a perfect concerto on the
piano.
We're all always creatingperfect concerto on the piano.
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We're all always creating.
We are all always creators.
We are never not creating, andthe thing we are creating is our
life.
What is the point of your life?
What is the point of all of it?
What is the point of this?
And as I went through thisexperience this morning, with
this awareness and this deeperawakening into this divine union
inside of myself, not with mymasculine and my feminine,
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feminine counterparts, but withoh I'm just feeling this right
now, as I draw this, as I seethis, to the left, I have the
feminine.
To the right, I have mymasculine energy, which is also
the hemispheres of the brainright, except it's opposite in
the brain.
In the brain, the left is themasculine and the right is the
feminine.
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It's crisscrossing like this.
But then there's also the aboveand the below, my ego and my
soul.
It's all a paradox.
And we're here to be unifiedbeings, which is that reunion of
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the soul self and the ego self.
We're not here to kill our ego,to squash our ego, to dismantle
our ego, to control our ego.
Our ego is our companion, it'sour soul's companion, and when
you awaken truly to your soul'sexpression inside of you, then
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that's when your aura changes.
You become lighter, you moveslower through the world, more
present and much more sacred,like treating life like it is
your sacred altar because it isand asking what am I serving
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here?
Who am I serving here?
What am I serving here?
What am I serving here Doingthese check-ins?
And what I'm super blown awayabout is going through this
experience myself is that Irealized that I had been having
these downloads nonstop sinceprobably September, october, and
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I've shared a little bit abouta Magdalene Mystery School that
I've just been dropping in,dropping in, dropping in.
I knew a threshold was comingin 2025.
I could feel it with everyfiber of my being.
I just didn't know it was goingto be the loss of my son in his
physical presence, but I'vegained a soul guide.
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On the other side.
I had a soul guide, but he's mynew one and he told me he's my
new guide and that I am guidedand it's my job to use my will
to surrender and trust.
And that's ultimately what thisboils back down to.
Is that trust in therelationship between your own
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ego and your own soul.
Do you trust yourself?
Do you trust yourself not tobetray yourself?
Do you trust yourself not tohurt yourself?
Do you trust yourself to speakup when you know it's time to
speak up and to be quiet whenit's time to be quiet?
Do you trust yourself to staywhen it's time to stay and to go
when it's time to go?
Do you trust yourself to letyour yes be yes and your no be
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no, and to keep it that simple?
And Weston told me, the way isnot complicated, but it's not
easy.
And that is so true, becausewhen we're letting our ego run
amok, when we're letting thewild horse run the show, boy, do
we make a mess of our lives.
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I know I have, and even stilland right now, at this point,
that I'm recording this talk,I'm not on my wild horse yet,
I'm not on my ego, riding it outinto the wilderness of the
world.
I would say that I'm stillsitting in the pen, learning to
trust more fully, learning tomore fully trust my soul and my
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experiences inside of myself,these vibrational and energetic
connections that I have withWeston, with the other side,
with my own intuition that it'ssafe to trust inside, it's safe
to listen inside and it's safeto show up as that, in that full
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, aligned presence, without themask, without the show, without
the pretense, without all thestuff that the ego puts on the
show pony.
I'm not a show pony, I'm a wildhorse.
This work in me has beenunfolding really over my life
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and I've shared so many timesabout the consciousness asking
me what vibration ofconsciousness do you want
animating your body.
And as I went to work to answerthat question, the answer has
come full circle.
As I've gone through thisinitiation, as I stepped across
this threshold, as my ego wasput in a pen of no return.
There's no getting out of this.
And to know that fully and toaccept that fully is to stop
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fighting with it, to stopresisting it.
And when I wasn't resisting thedeath of Weston anymore, his
vibrational transformation, Ididn't resist that, I accepted
that.
But what I wasn't accepting wasmy own.
Accepting was my own.
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What I wasn't accepting was myown eventual demise myself in
this physical vessel.
And when we really sit withthat, when we really feel into
that energy, when we can reallysit in that, you can realize and
feel just how scary that is,for your ego, absolutely
terrifying.
We all say we're not afraid ofdeath, but we gloss over it like
we don't mean it, because we'renot sitting in the energy of it
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until someone we love is gone,and then we're confronted with
it and there's no getting out ofthe pen.
We're experiencing it firsthand.
And what does it mean for you?
What does it mean for your life?
Not only the absence, thephysical absence of this
person's physical space, whichis so hard to explain, this
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feeling of someone not beingthere, and just how much space
they're not taking up and howmuch you miss it, and the fear
that you're going to be thatsame missing space.
It's intense.
It's intense, but it alsoshould light the fire of purpose
under you.
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Then it's like okay, so what'sthe purpose?
Why did my soul come here?
Why did my soul decide to playthis game of life?
How do I wake up in the gameand live the game consciously,
in cooperation with my own self?
That's the whole work.
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That's the whole game.
That's the whole path.
That's the whole work.
That's the whole game.
That's the whole path.
That's the whole point.
And it's not easy.
It's not easy, and most peoplehave to have this major crisis
in order to shift who they are,in order to do this kind of
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transformation.
Because, as Yeshua said to theman, the wealthy man, who said I
want to follow you, I want tohave what you have.
What do I need to do?
And he said give up everythingyou own and come walk with me.
And he said I'm not going to dothat.
Most of us won't do that.
The Buddha did it, yeshua didit, but there are masters on
this planet who still do it.
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It's not easy.
So how do we do that ashouseholders?
How do we do that in our dailylife?
How do we be unattached but soinvolved?
How do we be unattached butdedicated?
And that's the trick rightthere.
Complicated, and that's the.
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That's the trick right there.
So how do we align and ride ourhorse in cooperation, rather
than letting the horse ride us?
And I think it was frank stfrancis assisi who called it the
donkey.
Same thing I want to ride thedonkey.
I will not let the donkey rideme.
But most people are justblindfolded and asleep on this
wild horse that's just runningthem through life and they're
completely unaware of the messand what they're creating and
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that they have a choice in that.
So I just wanted to share thistalk with you today, and this is
the deep work.
This is the deep work that oursoul came here to do.
This is my passion.
I'm grateful to have woken upin the game.
I wish it could have beeneasier.
I wish I didn't have to wake upthe way that I woke up, and I'm
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sure you do too.
It hurts, it hurts the human alot, but the soul is unfettered
and unfazed.
The soul is nothing but love.
The soul is connected to thedivine source eternally and we
have that choice.
And as a soul, as a vibrationalbeing, when I can get myself
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into that coherent gamma state,that heart-brain coherence, that
soul-horse coherence, then Ican be in contact and live a
life that is so much bigger thanthe tiny little view I was
living it through before.
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If you've listened this far,thank you.
This is the beautiful workwe're here to do.
I am releasing a mystery school,my mystery school that's been
not mine, sorry spirits mysteryschool that's been downloaded
through me from the magdalenesisterhood.
That involves this process justas much as everything else.
So, with that dear beloved soul, I invite you to visit my
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website, vibologycomV-I-B-O-L-O-G-I-Ecom, where I am
releasing lots of classes, mymystery school, 31-day continual
soluminous meditation processeswith me and, of course,
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starting in May, I'm going to bedoing free, as a honor of my
ministry, as a reverend, to dotalks and readings from the way
of mastery, followed by soundsessions that I would love to
invite you to.
They're free and that's myservice to contribute to the
awakening, to contribute to thewaking up in the game and
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helping everybody else do thesame, because when you wake up
in the game, yes, it still hurtsto be a human, yes, it's still
challenging to be a human, andit feels more purposeful, it
feels more light, there's adisentangling that happens.
That's really freedom, and it'sthe frequency of freedom that
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I'm here to transmit.
And with that I'm going tocomplete this talk and offer you
a little sound bath for just aminute.
I could feel how much energymoved through in that
transmission because I have aheadache.
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Thank you, the.
Thank you the.
I'm going to take a deep breath.
Shhh, shhh, shhh, sh, sh, sh.
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Shemaiah, thank you forlistening to.
We Woke Up Like this.
I would appreciate a like, asubscribe and a follow wherever
you listen to this podcast andif you would like to be a guest
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on the show.
Send me an email, joya atvibologycom.
Thank you so much.
Hello, beloved souls, reverend Joya, with Vibologie
here and this is the we Woke Up,like this podcast and YouTube
because I'm going to make this aYouTube video today, because I
want to talk about awakening, adeeper, deeper awakening, and
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what the point of awakening is,since Weston vibrationally
transformed into anotherdimension, which is what I call
death, because we only leavethis physical body, but we
certainly do not leave ourconsciousness.
And when I first began to feelhim, which was on the second
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night after he passed and I wasjust sitting in front of my
altar, sobbing, and the onlyplace I could find any kind of
smidge of peace was sitting infront of my altar, and I had
this experience that I was justcrying, sobbing, deeply sobbing,
and all of a sudden I saw thesepoints of light start shooting
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up.
I could see like this bird'seye view of the planet and I
could see these points of whitelight shooting up everywhere.
And then I had this feelingflood through my body.
That was later I identified itas the feeling of being honored,
like when you're just likehumbled and being honored, and
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it felt like that.
And I heard him say to me wow,mom, I didn't know you had such
a big community and I realizedthrough his awareness that I was
seeing and witnessing all ofthe people that were praying for
him and for our family.
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Because just as much as I wasbrokenhearted in my own
brokenheartedness, I was alsoconcerned about his soul on the
other side, because I couldsense that the accident had
happened so fast and that hisenergy before the accident was
so low, so down, so negative,that when he immediately was
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transitioned into the other side, that he was confused on the
other side and he was trying toget back into his body.
And I could just feel hisconfusion.
I could feel the heaviness ofhis sadness and his confusion
and and this, oh shit, I can'tgo back, I can't undo what just
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happened, this can't be undone.
And I could feel that.
And so the first time that Iexperienced his vibration of
consciousness was when I sawthis prayer light for lack of a
better word through his eyes andthis feeling of feeling honored
.
In this experience time I wouldgo sit in front of my altar in
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that sobbing grief and heavinessof losing him.
I would be flooded with peacewhen I would say his name.
I would just say Weston, inthat sobbing, crying, I'd say
his name, and then I would feelthis melting feeling of warm
peace descend upon my heart fromthe inside of my body.
This would happen.
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So, of course, being the mysticthat I am and that I always have
been, I'm experiencing histransition energetically.
And this sought me askingquestions.
This sought me seeking answersto these questions I was then
asking, and as I sought theanswers and found bits of the
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parts of the questions that Iwas seeking, I would find new
questions would arrive andevolve inside of me.
And so when I came tomeditation, maybe three, four
weeks afterwards, and I waspraying and crying and asking
how can I make this consistent,how can I reach you on a
consistent basis?
And the answer dropped in quick, as a wink, and he said come
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with a calm mind.
And so I began that work ofreally calming my mind, really
going into deeper meditation,deeper practices of my
meditation, where now I spendprobably between not probably, I
do spend between two to threehours a day in meditation.
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I do it in the morning and I doit again in the evening, and
it's not now just to find peace,it's to get myself into a
coherent field state, and I havefound that now, since I started
having these interestingexperiences in my meditations
recently, within the last coupleof weeks, where I slip into
this vast formlessness andthere's just light and energy
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moving and sacred geometryappears and disappears and it's
just light and color and energymoving around in my field and my
body vanishes and I feel myselfas being formless.
And so I started measuring mybrainwave states to find out
what was going on in that, and Ifound that I was in a gamma
brainwave state.
In my meditations I wasmaintaining constant gamma,
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which, of course, is the higheststate of meditation that
connects you to those mysticalexperiences of the divine, that
formlessness that I wasexperiencing and have been
experiencing still, and so thismorning, lately, this catches us
up to today.
I mean, there's so much more tothis story, but what I want to
share I've been having thisfeeling, and I couldn't quite
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put my finger on what it was.
It's preventing me from havinga deeper contact with the other
side.
I knew that, and so I reallystarted asking what is this
feeling?
What is this feeling?
What is this feeling I'mfeeling?
And this visual completelydropped in, and this just
happened this morning, and itwas this vision of a horse being
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in a pen and it's a wild horsethat's now been corralled in a
small, tight pen and it'skicking and it's whacking its
head against the walls and it'sbiting anybody who comes near it
and it's rearing up.
It's just like throwing amassive fit in this pen.
And I experienced myself as thishorse in the pen, this wild,
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crazed feeling of being penned.
And when I dropped into mymeditative state about this, I
quickly realized that this wildhorse is the ego and this pen
that I'm in is the pen of grief,that this pen that pens the
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wild horse that pens the ego, isthe crisis that inadvertently
reaches all people, who reallyjust catapult into a much more
awakened space, that there'sthis major before and after,
there's this major crisis thatundoes everything in your life
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that you think is real,everything in your life that you
feel is solid, everything inyour life that you feel like you
have the illusion of controlover is gone and it throws the
ego into quite the fit as itwill.
And so, when I sat in thisfeeling of being the wild horse,
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which is what I've beenexperiencing, because in these
midst of peace, in these midstof tremendous peace and
meditation, in the midst of allof the mystical experiences I've
had since my son transitionedin the midst of being
spiritually prepared for it in2024, which I know I was.
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Despite all that, in the midstof all of that, there was still
something in me that's clingingto doubt.
Clinging to doubt, questioningmy own inner experiences.
And so when I went into thismeditation and I saw this wild
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horse being penned, immediatelythe message came through and it
said you don't trust yourself,you don't trust yourself, you
don't trust your higher self,you're not trusting your soul,
you're being the wild horsecaged, throwing a fit and trying
to find a way out, except thereis no way out.
There is no way out.
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There is no undoing my son'sdeparture from this planet and
for other people, there's noundoing the death of a parent or
a sibling, or a spouse or aloved one.
There's no undoing a diagnosis,there's no undoing a massive
betrayal that happens in ourlife.
There's a before and there's anafter, and it cages the ego.
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And so, depending on how wehandle these kinds of situations
, our fight, flight or freezeresponses of the ego, how it's
coped with life up until thispoint it's gotten caught, is
what we're going to try to do ona massively tight scale.
And I want to show yousomething, because just the
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notes that I took this morningin my meditation are these.
This is the notes that I tookthis morning in my meditation
are these?
This is the notes.
The ego is the survival programof the body.
The ego is the survival programof the body that says I am my
story, I am my experiences, I amwhat happened to me, I am my
possessions, I am my success, Iam my looks, my age, my sex, my
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religion, my relationships.
I am what I value myself to be.
This is the story of the ego.
But here's the kicker with theego.
The ego is not a thing, it is aprocess, and it's either
grasping to things, which iswhat the ego loves to do grasp
and attach, grasp and attach orit resists things.
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The ego is always grasping orresisting.
And in the case of being stuckin the pen, now that you're the
wild horse, you resist being inthe pen.
We want to undo what's beendone, we want to wrestle with it
, we want to fight with it.
I want to change it.
And so I found myself slippingback into these old habits of
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self-soothing, of numbing,except when you numb yourself
with one thing, you numbyourself with everything, and I
already knew this was a path Ididn't want to go down.
And in my case it's with sugar.
I found myself just wanting tohave cake, wanting to have
cookies, wanting to have candy,wanting to have sugar, because
sugar is addictive, sugarchanges your felt state and
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sugar numbs you out because it'sa drug.
And I didn't want to go downthat path.
And so, when I stopped doingthis to myself, I found that the
wild horse was kicking up againreally crazily inside of me.
And so it's in this resistancethat the struggle was happening.
And so, in this moment, when Ifelt myself being the wild horse
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, when I realized that the egois not a thing, it's a process
that's grasping or it'sresisting all the time, I said
well then, why do we have an ego?
Why would we come to thisplanet as a soul, take on this
bodily identity with an ego?
That we know we have an ego, weknow we're going to have an ego
.
Why take that on?
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And the answer dropped in soclearly, and it was your ego is
meant to be your companionthrough life, your soul's
companion.
There's a companionship therewith this wild horse and the
soul, that the soul is supposedto ride the wild horse through
life and direct it and tell itwhere to go and how to express
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and what to do and how to usethis power.
But we don't do that because wehave what I've always called
the ow, which is the originalwound and I've talked about it
before on other podcast episodesand also on other YouTube shows
.
We have this ow that happened,the original wound within our
tribe, within our family, thattaught us it's not safe to be
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who we are.
Except I had a realizationabout this recently that it
wasn't the external thing,wasn't the people, wasn't the
situation, it wasn't theexternals that were the cause of
the ow.
It was your agreement thatthere is something wrong with
you, that it's not safe to beyourself.
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We judged ourselves as little,tiny beings.
We judged ourselves and wedidn't do the judging.
The soul didn't do the judging.
The ego did the judging.
That wild horse did the judging.
The soul didn't do the judging.
The ego did the judging.
That wild horse did the judgingand it's like, oh, it's not
safe for you to be in control ofme because we're just not
fitting in, we're getting introuble, and so it judges you,
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the wild soul, the little babysoul, the little soul self, as
being what's wrong with it, andso it takes off on its own, and
this is what the ego does, andthere's such a beautiful story
here.
So as the ego takes off and itleaves behind the truest part of
ourselves, we spend our wholelives then either projecting or
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protecting our pain and ourwoundedness out into the world.
We start to recreate thesecycles that we've lived in.
We recreate the cycles of ourparents and the cycles of our
communities and the cycles ofour society wherever we live,
our culture, our religion,whatever that tiny belief system
is that we were born into.
That we might have resisted atfirst, because we're standing
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out.
We're born to stand out.
We're born to be who we are.
We're born to expressauthentically, from our soul's
light, through the lens of thiswild ego that we've been given,
which is in alignment with ourastrology, our human design, our
gene keys, whatever path youwant to look at it through, to
distill who am I, what's mydesign.
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It's no different thanunderstanding how your car
operates or how your phone works.
Beyond just.
You know, we have this phone inmy hands that I can use to
either just make phone calls andtext people, or I can really
dive into what this thing can do.
Same thing with a car these newcars do all kinds of things
besides just put in the key anddrive from point A to point B.
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There's all kinds of otherthings that your car can do.
And so it's no different withus, with our operating system,
with our ego the wild horse, ifyou will.
And so, as I was sitting in thisfeeling, I realized that I
didn't have to be the wild horse, I could be the witnessing
observer of the wild horse.
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And so I suddenly saw myselfsitting on a fence just watching
the wild horse, which led me toanother question.
And I said to myself you know,I've spent 10 years plus in
meditation.
I've spent 10 years plusnegating or like
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self-deprivation through force,making myself have discipline
through force.
And I saw that there'sdifferent ways to tame this wild
horse.
There's different ways to tamethe ego, and the old school way
is the masculine energy way,which is through that force,
through that discipline.
And I asked myself you know, Ihave this wild horse.
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I have this wild horse, thisbeautiful wild horse that came
with me, it's mine, this is mywild horse.
And how do you tame a wild horse?
Does it have to be that youdiscipline it into submission or
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can I love it into surrender?
And I saw, like this whip right, that you have this whip with
this horse and, yes, you cantame a horse that way, but
you're always going to have toride the horse with a bit and
the reins and the saddle and thewhip in your hand, because the
wild horse is going to get outof control any chance.
It senses that you're notpaying attention.
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And this is like thetraditional path that we've all
been taught and we've all gonedown I have, with meditation and
doing the branch of yoga that Ipracticed.
It was very masculine, it'svery much.
You notice it and you whipyourself back into shape.
You notice it and you whipyourself back into shape, and it
doesn't have to be violent, butit's still a controlling aspect
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of the self versus.
There's a feminine flow.
There's a feminine energy Icould feel into of flow.
There's a feminine energy Icould feel into.
What if I just loved this partof myself so much that it
surrenders to me?
What if we became partnersagain?
What if, instead of having towhip my wild horse into
submission, I could love it,into surrender, and it could
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surrender to the divine willthat is the will of my soul,
because the will of my soul isconnected to the will of the
creator.
There's no separation there.
All separation is an illusion.
And I could really feel thesoftness of that.
I could feel the softness ofjust loving this part of myself
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so much that I just need to sitstill and not identify with the
wild horse anymore.
Not identify as the wild horseanymore, but identify as fully
as the soul that's justwitnessing it, in its pain, in
its temper tantrums, in itswoundedness, in its stories.
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It wants to tell itself butthis happened, but that happened
.
Just witness it and love itthrough all of it.
This is the path of the divinefeminine.
This is the path of the divinefeminine to fully embody all of
ourselves.
This is the path of the divinefeminine to bring this horse, if
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you will, not under yourcontrol, but into your
partnership, into yourco-operation, into your soul,
companionship.
That I have, this ego, I havethis vessel, I have this vehicle
called me, but how do I not letit?
Its wounded self, its woundednature that's always seeking,
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forever and ever seeking.
How do I not let that thewounded horse and the pen run
the show, and I realize I can'tlet it out of the pen to wander
with me in the wild until I cantrust it and it can trust me.
And this is a mutual trustingbecause, remember, at the point
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of the separation, the fallinside of us, the ow, the
original wound, I'm the one,you're the one, who made the
decision to not honor thisrelationship between the ego and
the soul.
We are the ones who said, oh,this is wrong, because nobody
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else is doing this in our family.
My wildness is too much, mylight is too bright, my voice is
too loud, my energy is too high.
Whatever it is, it's too muchfor the people who feel like
they themselves are not enoughbecause they too have cut off
this connection between theirego and their soul.
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And this is the fall and thedivine union happens inside of
us when we can reclaim thisrelationship, happens inside of
us when we can reclaim thisrelationship and undoing these
paradigms of the, whipping itinto shape, this harsh
discipline of I'm going to makemyself and, yes, we can make
ourselves all day long, but whenyou're not looking, when you're
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not on your awareness, whenyou're not in your awareness,
when you're not in your hyperattention, assuming you have
that and you're not just lettingthe ego run the show.
The ego takes over again All thetime.
It takes over again all thetime, and we always have to
bring it back, bring it back,bring it back, whip it back into
submission.
And so I'm, in this newpractice of softening toward my
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whole experience, as the soulwho is witnessing this life
happening, as the soul who iswitnessing the grief, this
physical self-feels, thisheartbreak and the feeling of no
control.
But deeper than that, as I doveinto the feelings of what this
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is, that the horse that this egoself is feeling, there's this
fear of knowing I too am goingto leave this planet.
I too will no longer be thisvessel and vehicle.
I too will dissolve back intomy soul, back into the oneness
of all it is.
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And that feeling, that thought,actually conjured up terror
inside of me.
I could feel it and I was likedoes it mean that I don't matter
?
Does it mean that I'm nothing?
Does it mean that Weston is nownothing?
And of course no.
That is not what it means.
Energy doesn't get destroyed,but it means that it's absorbed
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back into the sea this drop ofwater Think of it as one drop of
water being absorbed back intothe sea that it is now
identified as the sea.
It can feel the vastness, theexpansiveness of what it really
is and its consciousness ofitself as a separate but not
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separate identified point oflight drop of water in the sea.
And I've had so manyconversations with Weston about
life, the soul, what happensafter we die, all of these
things which I'm not going toshare yet because it's not time
to share it yet.
It's not time to share it yetbecause it's all unfolding.
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And what I realized in thisexperience this morning, with
this metaphor of the horse asthe wild horse, is my ego and my
soul as being my ego'scompanion, my ego's rider, for
lack of a better word.
I'm supposed to ride this horsethrough life.
Right, this body that, when Isoften into that love that I can
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feel for this body, it'sbeautiful.
It's beautiful and it takesaway that fear and instead it
instills in me this feeling ofthere's just no time to waste,
because life here is so short.
It's the blink of an eye, whichis one of the beautiful gifts
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of getting to come here as asoul is that we know it's not
forever.
We're playing a game, and Westonliterally told me it's a game
and our work is to wake up inthe game.
That's why we're here.
We came to say can I wake up inthe game?
And what happens?
When we wake up in the game?
We change our life.
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We're not the same personanymore.
We're now reunited with oursoul and our ego, and that means
we change how we live our life.
That means that the ego is notrunning the show.
This part of us that'sresisting or grasping all the
time is now instead in service.
What do we want to do today?
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Where do we want to go?
And, as the way of mastery says,it's to create the good, the
holy and the beautiful, which Iabsolutely believe.
Those are the creations andemanations of source, and we are
creators.
We are creative beings, andwhen people say they're not
creative, I'm like you donothing but create.
We just have been misidentifiedand mis.
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What's the word here I'mlooking for?
Misidentified and mis.
What's the word here I'mlooking for misdefined about
what creativity means, whatcreation means.
It doesn't mean being able topaint that painting back there,
even though I did that.
It doesn't mean being able todraw something that looks
realistic.
It doesn't mean being able toplay a perfect concerto on the
piano.
We're all always creatingperfect concerto on the piano.
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We're all always creating.
We are all always creators.
We are never not creating, andthe thing we are creating is our
life.
What is the point of your life?
What is the point of all of it?
What is the point of this?
And as I went through thisexperience this morning, with
this awareness and this deeperawakening into this divine union
inside of myself, not with mymasculine and my feminine,
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feminine counterparts, but withoh I'm just feeling this right
now, as I draw this, as I seethis, to the left, I have the
feminine.
To the right, I have mymasculine energy, which is also
the hemispheres of the brainright, except it's opposite in
the brain.
In the brain, the left is themasculine and the right is the
feminine.
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It's crisscrossing like this.
But then there's also the aboveand the below, my ego and my
soul.
It's all a paradox.
And we're here to be unifiedbeings, which is that reunion of
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the soul self and the ego self.
We're not here to kill our ego,to squash our ego, to dismantle
our ego, to control our ego.
Our ego is our companion, it'sour soul's companion, and when
you awaken truly to your soul'sexpression inside of you, then
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that's when your aura changes.
You become lighter, you moveslower through the world, more
present and much more sacred,like treating life like it is
your sacred altar because it isand asking what am I serving
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here?
Who am I serving here?
What am I serving here?
What am I serving here Doingthese check-ins?
And what I'm super blown awayabout is going through this
experience myself is that Irealized that I had been having
these downloads nonstop sinceprobably September, october, and
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I've shared a little bit abouta Magdalene Mystery School that
I've just been dropping in,dropping in, dropping in.
I knew a threshold was comingin 2025.
I could feel it with everyfiber of my being.
I just didn't know it was goingto be the loss of my son in his
physical presence, but I'vegained a soul guide.
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On the other side.
I had a soul guide, but he's mynew one and he told me he's my
new guide and that I am guidedand it's my job to use my will
to surrender and trust.
And that's ultimately what thisboils back down to.
Is that trust in therelationship between your own
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ego and your own soul.
Do you trust yourself?
Do you trust yourself not tobetray yourself?
Do you trust yourself not tohurt yourself?
Do you trust yourself to speakup when you know it's time to
speak up and to be quiet whenit's time to be quiet?
Do you trust yourself to staywhen it's time to stay and to go
when it's time to go?
Do you trust yourself to letyour yes be yes and your no be
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no, and to keep it that simple?
And Weston told me, the way isnot complicated, but it's not
easy.
And that is so true, becausewhen we're letting our ego run
amok, when we're letting thewild horse run the show, boy, do
we make a mess of our lives.
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I know I have, and even stilland right now, at this point,
that I'm recording this talk,I'm not on my wild horse yet,
I'm not on my ego, riding it outinto the wilderness of the
world.
I would say that I'm stillsitting in the pen, learning to
trust more fully, learning tomore fully trust my soul and my
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experiences inside of myself,these vibrational and energetic
connections that I have withWeston, with the other side,
with my own intuition that it'ssafe to trust inside, it's safe
to listen inside and it's safeto show up as that, in that full
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, aligned presence, without themask, without the show, without
the pretense, without all thestuff that the ego puts on the
show pony.
I'm not a show pony, I'm a wildhorse.
This work in me has beenunfolding really over my life
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and I've shared so many timesabout the consciousness asking
me what vibration ofconsciousness do you want
animating your body.
And as I went to work to answerthat question, the answer has
come full circle.
As I've gone through thisinitiation, as I stepped across
this threshold, as my ego wasput in a pen of no return.
There's no getting out of this.
And to know that fully and toaccept that fully is to stop
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fighting with it, to stopresisting it.
And when I wasn't resisting thedeath of Weston anymore, his
vibrational transformation, Ididn't resist that, I accepted
that.
But what I wasn't accepting wasmy own.
Accepting was my own.
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What I wasn't accepting was myown eventual demise myself in
this physical vessel.
And when we really sit withthat, when we really feel into
that energy, when we can reallysit in that, you can realize and
feel just how scary that is,for your ego, absolutely
terrifying.
We all say we're not afraid ofdeath, but we gloss over it like
we don't mean it, because we'renot sitting in the energy of it
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until someone we love is gone,and then we're confronted with
it and there's no getting out ofthe pen.
We're experiencing it firsthand.
And what does it mean for you?
What does it mean for your life?
Not only the absence, thephysical absence of this
person's physical space, whichis so hard to explain, this
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feeling of someone not beingthere, and just how much space
they're not taking up and howmuch you miss it, and the fear
that you're going to be thatsame missing space.
It's intense.
It's intense, but it alsoshould light the fire of purpose
under you.
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Then it's like okay, so what'sthe purpose?
Why did my soul come here?
Why did my soul decide to playthis game of life?
How do I wake up in the gameand live the game consciously,
in cooperation with my own self?
That's the whole work.
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That's the whole game.
That's the whole path.
That's the whole work.
That's the whole game.
That's the whole path.
That's the whole point.
And it's not easy.
It's not easy, and most peoplehave to have this major crisis
in order to shift who they are,in order to do this kind of
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transformation.
Because, as Yeshua said to theman, the wealthy man, who said I
want to follow you, I want tohave what you have.
What do I need to do?
And he said give up everythingyou own and come walk with me.
And he said I'm not going to dothat.
Most of us won't do that.
The Buddha did it, yeshua didit, but there are masters on
this planet who still do it.
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It's not easy.
So how do we do that ashouseholders?
How do we do that in our dailylife?
How do we be unattached but soinvolved?
How do we be unattached butdedicated?
And that's the trick rightthere.
Complicated, and that's the.
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That's the trick right there.
So how do we align and ride ourhorse in cooperation, rather
than letting the horse ride us?
And I think it was frank stfrancis assisi who called it the
donkey.
Same thing I want to ride thedonkey.
I will not let the donkey rideme.
But most people are justblindfolded and asleep on this
wild horse that's just runningthem through life and they're
completely unaware of the messand what they're creating and
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that they have a choice in that.
So I just wanted to share thistalk with you today, and this is
the deep work.
This is the deep work that oursoul came here to do.
This is my passion.
I'm grateful to have woken upin the game.
I wish it could have beeneasier.
I wish I didn't have to wake upthe way that I woke up, and I'm
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sure you do too.
It hurts, it hurts the human alot, but the soul is unfettered
and unfazed.
The soul is nothing but love.
The soul is connected to thedivine source eternally and we
have that choice.
And as a soul, as a vibrationalbeing, when I can get myself
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into that coherent gamma state,that heart-brain coherence, that
soul-horse coherence, then Ican be in contact and live a
life that is so much bigger thanthe tiny little view I was
living it through before.
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If you've listened this far,thank you.
This is the beautiful workwe're here to do.
I am releasing a mystery school,my mystery school that's been
not mine, sorry spirits mysteryschool that's been downloaded
through me from the magdalenesisterhood.
That involves this process justas much as everything else.
So, with that dear beloved soul, I invite you to visit my
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website, vibologycomV-I-B-O-L-O-G-I-Ecom, where I am
releasing lots of classes, mymystery school, 31-day continual
soluminous meditation processeswith me and, of course,
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starting in May, I'm going to bedoing free, as a honor of my
ministry, as a reverend, to dotalks and readings from the way
of mastery, followed by soundsessions that I would love to
invite you to.
They're free and that's myservice to contribute to the
awakening, to contribute to thewaking up in the game and
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helping everybody else do thesame, because when you wake up
in the game, yes, it still hurtsto be a human, yes, it's still
challenging to be a human, andit feels more purposeful, it
feels more light, there's adisentangling that happens.
That's really freedom, and it'sthe frequency of freedom that
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I'm here to transmit.
And with that I'm going tocomplete this talk and offer you
a little sound bath for just aminute.
I could feel how much energymoved through in that
transmission because I have aheadache.
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Thank you, the.
Thank you the.
I'm going to take a deep breath.
Shhh, shhh, shhh, sh, sh, sh.
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Shemaiah, thank you forlistening to.
We Woke Up Like this.
I would appreciate a like, asubscribe and a follow wherever
you listen to this podcast andif you would like to be a guest
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on the show.
Send me an email, joya atvibologycom.
Thank you so much.
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