April 13, 2025 • 26 mins
*after this episode I will be sharing the last of my pre-recorded episodes with guests and going forward I am going to Rebrand this podcast as the frequency Temple podcast. Each episode will feature a spiritual talk, a frequency to embody what you just learned along with a spiritual activation. My New Earth mission has been solidified, and everything I do from here on out will be in alignment and honoring the sacred calling that I have in my life which is resurrecting the heart, embodying and reclaiming the souls frequency and expression so you can live a sacred life.
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Grace arrives unexpectedly, often when we least anticipate it yet need it most. My journey with grace began in Bali during a transformative sound bath that catalyzed a profound spiritual awakening. The next morning, sobbing uncontrollably in a tropical rain, I experienced something rare—a complete life review while still alive. Every hurt I had caused others washed through me, not as judgment but as pure awareness, offering me the choice between forgiveness or condemnation. This experience of "at-one-ment" fundamentally changed me.
Looking back, I now understand this gift of grace was preparing me for the unimaginable. Eight weeks ago, my 18-year-old son left this planet in a car accident. This devastating loss broke me open rather than closing me down, confirming what I sensed—that his departure was part of a soul contract between us, catapulting me into depths of my heart I didn't know existed.
Through this journey, I've discovered that truly loving yourself isn't a spiritual cliché but a profound recognition of both your divine nature and your conditioned patterns. It means seeing yourself as you truly are—acknowledging the small, conditioned self that seeks pleasure, escapes pain, and sometimes hurts others, while simultaneously embracing your higher self with compassion. Only when we love ourselves with this clear-eyed grace can we extend that same unconditional love to others.
My purpose has crystallized through these experiences: to resurrect hearts, help people reclaim their soul's expression, and guide them toward living a sacred life. We are each beautiful, precious souls having a temporary human experience. The question remains—what will you do with this wild and precious life you've been given? Join me in attuning to the frequency of grace, where we remember we don't need to earn love—we already are love embodied.
You can find Rev. Joya at vibologie.com and on IG and YouTube @vibologie
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Joya (00:00):
Joya with the Vibologie Frequency Temple here, and I
want to start sharing some talksabout the experiences I've had
in the last year, and they'vebeen so sacred and so mysterious
, so shrouded in mysticalmystery, and wonder that I've
(00:23):
actually been a little hesitantto talk about them.
Because, you know, I questionmyself, not about the
experiences, but in how I'mexperiencing the experience,
meaning I don't want to think ofmyself as being special or set
apart or chosen or any of thosewords that people like to use
(00:48):
for their ego.
And I really am always checkingin with my ego, and especially
in this experience, I've beenchecking in a lot about
spiritual narcissism, becausethat's so rampant now, and so
I'm always checking in deeply,and especially because I feel
like, if I'm talking aboutanything having to do with
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spirituality, which is your soulguiding someone's soul through
sharing your own experiences, issomething to be taken really,
really, really seriously andreverently, like it comes with a
big responsibility.
I really feel the weight ofthat and so that's why it's been
(01:31):
a while for me to sit in thisand, as some of you know if you
follow me on social media, thatmy son passed away from this
planet.
Oh, coming up on eight weeksago tomorrow, this planet Coming
(01:51):
up on eight weeks ago tomorrow,he left, on February 17th, via
a car accident at the age of 18.
And I know beyond a shadow of adoubt that these experiences
that I'm going to start talkingabout were spiritually preparing
me for his departure, and thathis departure was a soul
(02:13):
contract between he and I, andthat it was going to be the
catapult, not a catalyst I wasalready lit a catapult that
thrust me full warp speed aheadinto depths of my heart and my
soul that I didn't even knowwere there Places in me I didn't
(02:36):
even know existed so that I canreally step much more into the
sacredness of the work that Icame here to do as a soul.
So the first thing I want totalk about is this experience of
grace, and I shared onInstagram this morning that you
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can't love another person purelyuntil you purely love yourself,
until you purely love yourself.
And we hear a lot about thislove yourself in the you know
the jargon, if you will of thespiritual communities.
But what does it really mean tolove yourself?
(03:17):
And for some reason, I wasgifted the experience of grace
last May, in May of 2024, when Iwas in Bali, and I'm going to
share that story with youbecause it was a life review
that I had while I'm still alive, and I don't know why I was
(03:39):
gifted this experience, otherthan to say it was part of the
spiritual preparation of 2024for everything that's happened
in 2025, because this was thebeginning catalyst that really
started to shift me aside fromearlier.
(03:59):
That year.
In 2024 was when I did my firstconnecting with the creator
class and went through aninitiation, and then I joined
the luminaries of sound, whichwas a Kundalini mantra group.
So I began a rigorous Kundalinipractice for myself and then,
(04:20):
in conjunction with doing thosetwo things, in conjunction with
doing those two things, I thinkit was this experience in Bali
that really kicked it off.
So we went to Bali and I talkeda group of people into going to
a sound bath, of course, and Ifound this beautiful place
(04:40):
called the Pyramids of Chi andwe all went and when I walked in
, there was a man doing thesound bath and I've never had a
sound bath from a dude before.
I've had them co-ed, but nevera man by himself doing a sound
journey and I observed that youwalk into the Pyids of Chi and
(05:02):
it's this big metal pyramid andright when you walk in you see
his setup, and there was alittle pit that he steps down
into, surrounded by three giantgongs facing three sides, and
then he had set up a whole bunchof Tibetan bowls around this
(05:23):
whole U-shaped setup.
He had a big gathering drum, hehad a didgeridoo and, of course
, his voice, and so I knew, justby looking at all of these
instruments with what he had,that this was going to be a very
activating sound bath, becausegongs are activating, tibetan
(05:45):
bulls are activating, the drumis grounding, the didgeridoo is
so grounding from the earth.
And then he, his voice, wasvery beautiful, and so during
the sound bath, I was spinningout of my body so much that I
had to sit up because it wasmaking me so dizzy.
And so I was sitting up and hecame in the sound bath, had my
(06:09):
eyes closed and he came right infront of me.
I could sense his presence andhe started to sing right in my
face, and so I'm feeling thisvibration coming from him, this
energy, and then he moved onaround the sound journey.
So at the end of it I've walkedover.
Of course, he's standing at thedoor and I gave him a hug and I
(06:32):
said thank you, that was areally beautiful, sound journey.
And he said you do this for aliving, don't you?
And I said I do, how did youknow that?
And he just smiled at me and hesaid I could just tell His name
was Sky and he was from Denmark, I believe.
So that next morning I went tobed that night and I woke up the
next morning and I was sobbingin my bed.
(06:53):
I woke up sobbing, feelingintense grief, and I didn't know
why.
I just woke up like this and itwas that kind of crying where
you're like shaking and I wasshaking the of crying where
you're like shaking and I wasshaking the bed because I was
crying so hard.
So I got up and I went outsidebecause I didn't want to wake up
my husband and it was rainingbeautiful Bali, tropical rain,
(07:18):
and we were staying at thisbeautiful hotel and we had our
own private villa that had ourown private pool that overlooked
the jungle, and so I took offall of my clothes and I got into
the pool.
So I'm immersed in the waterand it's raining and I'm crying.
And I started asking why am Icrying?
What is this grief that I'mexperiencing and all of a sudden
(07:40):
I was taken into this space ofconsciousness where I was an
observer of my life and I couldsee from this very
non-judgmental place, this verynon-judgmental point of view.
I could see myself and witnessmyself and feel and experience
(08:02):
myself as the eyes of love andas me.
And so I saw, all of a sudden,I saw this life review go
through my life Like it was, andit was so fast it was like.
But each moment I could feeland see every word, every
thought, every action I had donethat had hurt another person.
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And I saw it not only from myeyes of love, seeing myself as
love and seeing these errors injudgment I had made in hurting
another person, and Iexperienced the hurt that they
felt.
It was so intensely painful toexperience this and it wasn't a
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grief that was from judgmentit's so hard to articulate.
It was from a grief that, atrue sorrow, that when you know
you've done something and youknow you've done something wrong
, you know you've done somethingwrong and you can see with such
clarity the error that you madeand you feel so sorry for
having done that thing andyou're experiencing the pain
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that you caused at the same time, which makes the sorrow even
that much more intense.
And so I had this experience ofhaving a life review while I was
still alive.
It was very intense, it wasvery painful, and when it was
finished and I was caught up tothe moment where I was back in
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Bali, back in the pool, I hadthis awareness come over me that
I could choose forgiveness,that I could choose love or I
could choose judgment, like itwas totally up to me how I
wanted to interpret thisexperience that I just had, and
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so I very humbly choseforgiveness.
And in this choosing offorgiveness, this atonement this
is really the experience of theatonement which, if you look at
the spelling of the wordatonement, is at-one-ment.
It's like this reconciling backto the creator.
And I chose that and with thatcame this very intense feeling
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of humility, reverence, awe,responsibility, like it's a big
choice to make, to carry thatand to be aware of that.
And it wasn't long after thatexperience that God, creator,
source, the universe,no-transcript and false light
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and also began removing from memy own behaviors that I was
doing that was keeping me stuckin my conditioned self, most of
which was drinking and bingeeating, drinking alcohol, binge
drinking alcohol.
I was a binge drinker, evenlast year I did it four times.
I did it four times and eachtime it's such a disaster
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Because my self would check out,my conscious self, my new self
that's coming on board, wouldcheck out and my conditioned
primal self would come online,these primal desires of
sexuality and wanting to drinkmore and just wanting to dance.
I mean, it was just ridiculous.
Just ridiculous, rooted in pain.
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But also makes me wonder if,when we are highly intoxicated,
our soul has checked out of ourbody and this something else can
come and inhabit us.
These fourth dimensional,disembodied entities can take
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over and inhabit our body forits pleasure, which of course
causes us misery.
And so I stopped doing that aswell because of this experience
of grace and grace if you'rewondering what that is, and
because I had always wonderedabout grace I always, you know,
(12:23):
I hear the word and I would readthe definitions, but I didn't
know the experience of grace,and to experience something is
to know it.
Now you have gnosis, so I justwanted to read some definitions
of grace and it says unmeritedfavor or divine assistance given
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by source often described as agift not earned or bargained for
A spiritual presence thatblesses, heals, forgives and
uplifts blesses, heals, forgivesand uplifts.
In mystical terms, grace is theactive presence of love that
descends into the heart when onesurrenders the illusion of
separation and allows the divineto move through them.
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And that's exactly what it was.
Was this kind of surrenderingthat happened?
And if you've listened to anyof my talks or my podcasts or
anything, I also share thisexperience.
That wasn't grace, but I thinkit was the precursor to this,
which was in December of 2022.
So two years before this, I wasout drinking, was highly
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intoxicated, in a bar late atnight, and I had this experience
where my consciousness flew upand out of my body and went into
this pure state ofobservational witnessing, like
there was zero judgment.
And as a mere human back in mybody with my brain functioning,
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mere human back in my body withmy brain functioning, I cannot
experience that experience ofzero judgment because we're
always making judgments, we'realways looking like do I want
this?
Do I not want this?
Does this agree with me?
Does this not agree with me?
Is this true for me?
Is this not true for me?
Do I desire this?
Do I not desire this?
Do I like this?
Do I not like this?
What do I think about this?
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What's my opinion about this?
Like we can't help it.
That's what our mind does.
We can notice it after it doesit and then stop it.
But I know that our firstinstinct is to self-validate our
own reality.
So, to go into thisconsciousness space of pure
witnessing, observation in thisbar, I looked down at myself, I
looked at everybody in there andthere was no judgment.
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I could just see the pain andthe wounding that everybody in
there was in and experiencingand inebriating themselves from
as a distraction.
And then I looked down atmyself and said what vibration
of consciousness do you wantanimating your body?
And I popped back into my bodyand I've been answering that
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question ever since.
And so then I got to have thisexperience of grace in Bali, and
there is so much more to thestory of 2024 having to do with
the divine masculine.
But I know that this man, sky,carried the frequency of grace
and he transmitted the frequencyof grace onto the field of
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everybody at that sound bath,which is why it awakened in me,
because I also know, as a soundhealer, that the most important
instrument in a sound bath is me, and it's for me to get out of
the way, my personal self to getout of the way, my small,
conditioned self to get out ofthe way, so that this much
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higher force can flow through me.
And I know that mine is also afield of grace.
It's the most powerful gift wecan receive, and so I know that
he transmitted that vibrationalfrequency of grace and I
received it because I was in aplace to receive it, because I
had already been doing so muchwork and this experience of
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really truly falling in lovewith myself and then freeing
people from my life that werenot good for me and I wasn't
good for them either, right?
So let's be honest here.
The relationship itself was notharmonious.
Relationships there's been morethan one, and this releasing
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doesn't come with this attitudeof I'm better than you or I'm I
don't know, all of these thingsyou hear in the quote unquote
high vibe communities of I'm alllight and love.
Until you piss me off, I'm like, nope, that's not it, that's
ego, that's not it.
Love releases a person to theirown journey, without the
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judgment, without the attachment, without the need to change
them, without the need to makethem wrong for their journey,
but just in a loving realizationthat it's not in a vibrational
alignment with me anymore, thatI'm not, in order to transform
my vibration.
Or when you do transform yourvibration, things that are not
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in resonance with you, peoplewho are not in resonance with
you, will simply just vibrateout of your life and there
doesn't have to be any.
You're wrong about it so muchas we are now just on different
journeys and I love every singleperson that I've had in my life
.
They served such a tremendouspurpose and I know that I have
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in theirs as well, and how theyinterpret their relationship
with me is none of my business.
That's everybody's ownindividual experience.
But what's mine to carry isthis grace, which doesn't judge,
and that the same grace thatI've been given in seeing the
mistakes that I've made and howI've hurt other people, I give
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that loving compassion andkindness to others as grace
given back.
So this is the first part ofthe story.
Is grace, this love, thiskindness toward the self, to
love oneself purely, which is tosee your truth about yourself,
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not a delusion about yourself,but to see the truth about your
true nature, the conditionedself, the small self, the self
that is selfish, the self thathurts other people, the self
that seeks gain, the self thatis greedy, the self that is
pleasure seeking, the self thatwants to escape, the self that
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likes to distract and numb.
This small self, the smallconditioned self, this egoic
self, that is the mask we wear,that tells the world this is who
I am.
And when we're coming from thissmall conditioned self, we're
wearing a mask that's false.
And oftentimes, when we don'teven know who we are, we mask
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and mirror the people in frontof us.
We're just chameleons,pretending to be whoever we're
like.
We're around because we don'tknow who we are, rather than
staying in this strong sense ofknowing who we are, which is
where I'm at now.
I am not the same woman I was ayear ago.
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I'm not even the same woman Iwas eight weeks ago.
I'm not the same woman.
I was on February 16th, andI'll never be that woman again.
I'll never be that woman again.
I'll never be that woman again.
Anybody who's lost a child,anybody who's lost anybody that
they really love, is foreverchanged by that experience.
But I would say, even more sowhen it's your child, because
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that is a living, breathing partof you that you created, that
came from your body.
There's no pain like it.
But I've let that pain break me, open instead of closed,
because death is a part of life.
It's the inevitable period atthe end of all of our sins.
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It's coming for every singleone of us, and so this fire has
been lit under me now to live mypurpose even more than was
already there to serve god,goddess, to serve humanity, the
soul of humanity, and thatdropped in very clearly for me
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just within the last eight weekswhat my purpose and mission is
here, and it's to resurrect thehearts of women, to reclaim the
soul's expression.
That's our true self, the selfwe weren't allowed to be, the
self we were told to stop it.
You know, you see parents withthese little spunky kids and
they're like stop it, stop it,stop it, stop it, no, no.
And I'm like, oh, let'srechannel that energy, because
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they're being who they are.
We don't want to squash who weare, and almost all of us have
been squashed who we really are,and we're afraid to be that
person, and that's why we livefrom our ow.
The original wound that taughtus who we are is wrong, and so
we want to reclaim that soulexpression.
Resurrect our heart, reclaim oursoul expression and live a
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sacred life.
And what does it mean to live asacred life?
It means to treat your time assacred, to treat the world as
sacred, to treat yourrelationships as sacred and to
love yourself purely.
And when you purely loveyourself, then you can purely
love others, because the samegrace that you have been given,
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because the same grace that youhave been given, you can give to
others, because as you give,you receive, and you only
receive through the giving ofthat which you are.
And I'm going to start sharinga lot of these experiences and
these talks because my hope isfor everybody to awaken their
heart, the true nature of whothey are, who you are, which is
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a beautiful, precious soulhaving a human experience for a
little while.
And, as Mary Oliver said, whatdo you plan to do with this wild
and precious life?
So this week's frequency is thefrequency of love, 528 hertz,
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and I've octavized it down to264 hertz for those who can't
sing that high.
And I invite you to tone thisfrequency for the next 30
seconds, while holding theintention to experience grace
for yourself, taking a deepbreath in.
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So, so, and now let's get yourfreak on my beloved.
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This is this week's frequencytransmission and I invite you to
close your eyes, place yourhand on your heart and repeat
these words of activation afterme and this is a grace
activation prayer I attune tothe frequency of grace.
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I let go of the story of earning, striving or proving my worth.
I am already loved.
I am already loved.
I am already chosen.
I open the temple of my heart.
I breathe in the sacredsoftness of love.
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I exhale every layer ofresistance.
Grace is the music my soulremembers.
Its warmth flows through melike a golden nectar, bathing my
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cells in light, rewriting everymemory with love I receive.
I allow, I become.
I choose forgiveness, I choosethe atonement.
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I choose the atonement.
I am the frequency of graceembodied.
I do not need to earn it.
It is freely given because I amdivine.
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With these words, I resurrectmy heart.
I embody the frequency of mysoul's expression and I choose
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to live a sacred life.
I let it be so, and so it isAmen.
Thank you for listening.
I invite you to remember thatyou are the temple.
You are made of music and lightand you are the vibration of
the divine.
Hum your truth, speak from yoursoul and walk in the frequency
of the new earth.
I invite you to like, subscribeand share this podcast and
until we meet again, may everysound lead you home.
Joya with the Vibologie Frequency Temple here, and I
want to start sharing some talksabout the experiences I've had
in the last year, and they'vebeen so sacred and so mysterious
, so shrouded in mysticalmystery, and wonder that I've
(00:23):
actually been a little hesitantto talk about them.
Because, you know, I questionmyself, not about the
experiences, but in how I'mexperiencing the experience,
meaning I don't want to think ofmyself as being special or set
apart or chosen or any of thosewords that people like to use
(00:48):
for their ego.
And I really am always checkingin with my ego, and especially
in this experience, I've beenchecking in a lot about
spiritual narcissism, becausethat's so rampant now, and so
I'm always checking in deeply,and especially because I feel
like, if I'm talking aboutanything having to do with
(01:08):
spirituality, which is your soulguiding someone's soul through
sharing your own experiences, issomething to be taken really,
really, really seriously andreverently, like it comes with a
big responsibility.
I really feel the weight ofthat and so that's why it's been
(01:31):
a while for me to sit in thisand, as some of you know if you
follow me on social media, thatmy son passed away from this
planet.
Oh, coming up on eight weeksago tomorrow, this planet Coming
(01:51):
up on eight weeks ago tomorrow,he left, on February 17th, via
a car accident at the age of 18.
And I know beyond a shadow of adoubt that these experiences
that I'm going to start talkingabout were spiritually preparing
me for his departure, and thathis departure was a soul
(02:13):
contract between he and I, andthat it was going to be the
catapult, not a catalyst I wasalready lit a catapult that
thrust me full warp speed aheadinto depths of my heart and my
soul that I didn't even knowwere there Places in me I didn't
(02:36):
even know existed so that I canreally step much more into the
sacredness of the work that Icame here to do as a soul.
So the first thing I want totalk about is this experience of
grace, and I shared onInstagram this morning that you
(02:57):
can't love another person purelyuntil you purely love yourself,
until you purely love yourself.
And we hear a lot about thislove yourself in the you know
the jargon, if you will of thespiritual communities.
But what does it really mean tolove yourself?
(03:17):
And for some reason, I wasgifted the experience of grace
last May, in May of 2024, when Iwas in Bali, and I'm going to
share that story with youbecause it was a life review
that I had while I'm still alive, and I don't know why I was
(03:39):
gifted this experience, otherthan to say it was part of the
spiritual preparation of 2024for everything that's happened
in 2025, because this was thebeginning catalyst that really
started to shift me aside fromearlier.
(03:59):
That year.
In 2024 was when I did my firstconnecting with the creator
class and went through aninitiation, and then I joined
the luminaries of sound, whichwas a Kundalini mantra group.
So I began a rigorous Kundalinipractice for myself and then,
(04:20):
in conjunction with doing thosetwo things, in conjunction with
doing those two things, I thinkit was this experience in Bali
that really kicked it off.
So we went to Bali and I talkeda group of people into going to
a sound bath, of course, and Ifound this beautiful place
(04:40):
called the Pyramids of Chi andwe all went and when I walked in
, there was a man doing thesound bath and I've never had a
sound bath from a dude before.
I've had them co-ed, but nevera man by himself doing a sound
journey and I observed that youwalk into the Pyids of Chi and
(05:02):
it's this big metal pyramid andright when you walk in you see
his setup, and there was alittle pit that he steps down
into, surrounded by three giantgongs facing three sides, and
then he had set up a whole bunchof Tibetan bowls around this
(05:23):
whole U-shaped setup.
He had a big gathering drum, hehad a didgeridoo and, of course
, his voice, and so I knew, justby looking at all of these
instruments with what he had,that this was going to be a very
activating sound bath, becausegongs are activating, tibetan
(05:45):
bulls are activating, the drumis grounding, the didgeridoo is
so grounding from the earth.
And then he, his voice, wasvery beautiful, and so during
the sound bath, I was spinningout of my body so much that I
had to sit up because it wasmaking me so dizzy.
And so I was sitting up and hecame in the sound bath, had my
(06:09):
eyes closed and he came right infront of me.
I could sense his presence andhe started to sing right in my
face, and so I'm feeling thisvibration coming from him, this
energy, and then he moved onaround the sound journey.
So at the end of it I've walkedover.
Of course, he's standing at thedoor and I gave him a hug and I
(06:32):
said thank you, that was areally beautiful, sound journey.
And he said you do this for aliving, don't you?
And I said I do, how did youknow that?
And he just smiled at me and hesaid I could just tell His name
was Sky and he was from Denmark, I believe.
So that next morning I went tobed that night and I woke up the
next morning and I was sobbingin my bed.
(06:53):
I woke up sobbing, feelingintense grief, and I didn't know
why.
I just woke up like this and itwas that kind of crying where
you're like shaking and I wasshaking the of crying where
you're like shaking and I wasshaking the bed because I was
crying so hard.
So I got up and I went outsidebecause I didn't want to wake up
my husband and it was rainingbeautiful Bali, tropical rain,
(07:18):
and we were staying at thisbeautiful hotel and we had our
own private villa that had ourown private pool that overlooked
the jungle, and so I took offall of my clothes and I got into
the pool.
So I'm immersed in the waterand it's raining and I'm crying.
And I started asking why am Icrying?
What is this grief that I'mexperiencing and all of a sudden
(07:40):
I was taken into this space ofconsciousness where I was an
observer of my life and I couldsee from this very
non-judgmental place, this verynon-judgmental point of view.
I could see myself and witnessmyself and feel and experience
(08:02):
myself as the eyes of love andas me.
And so I saw, all of a sudden,I saw this life review go
through my life Like it was, andit was so fast it was like.
But each moment I could feeland see every word, every
thought, every action I had donethat had hurt another person.
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And I saw it not only from myeyes of love, seeing myself as
love and seeing these errors injudgment I had made in hurting
another person, and Iexperienced the hurt that they
felt.
It was so intensely painful toexperience this and it wasn't a
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grief that was from judgmentit's so hard to articulate.
It was from a grief that, atrue sorrow, that when you know
you've done something and youknow you've done something wrong
, you know you've done somethingwrong and you can see with such
clarity the error that you madeand you feel so sorry for
having done that thing andyou're experiencing the pain
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that you caused at the same time, which makes the sorrow even
that much more intense.
And so I had this experience ofhaving a life review while I was
still alive.
It was very intense, it wasvery painful, and when it was
finished and I was caught up tothe moment where I was back in
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Bali, back in the pool, I hadthis awareness come over me that
I could choose forgiveness,that I could choose love or I
could choose judgment, like itwas totally up to me how I
wanted to interpret thisexperience that I just had, and
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so I very humbly choseforgiveness.
And in this choosing offorgiveness, this atonement this
is really the experience of theatonement which, if you look at
the spelling of the wordatonement, is at-one-ment.
It's like this reconciling backto the creator.
And I chose that and with thatcame this very intense feeling
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of humility, reverence, awe,responsibility, like it's a big
choice to make, to carry thatand to be aware of that.
And it wasn't long after thatexperience that God, creator,
source, the universe,no-transcript and false light
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and also began removing from memy own behaviors that I was
doing that was keeping me stuckin my conditioned self, most of
which was drinking and bingeeating, drinking alcohol, binge
drinking alcohol.
I was a binge drinker, evenlast year I did it four times.
I did it four times and eachtime it's such a disaster
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Because my self would check out,my conscious self, my new self
that's coming on board, wouldcheck out and my conditioned
primal self would come online,these primal desires of
sexuality and wanting to drinkmore and just wanting to dance.
I mean, it was just ridiculous.
Just ridiculous, rooted in pain.
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But also makes me wonder if,when we are highly intoxicated,
our soul has checked out of ourbody and this something else can
come and inhabit us.
These fourth dimensional,disembodied entities can take
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over and inhabit our body forits pleasure, which of course
causes us misery.
And so I stopped doing that aswell because of this experience
of grace and grace if you'rewondering what that is, and
because I had always wonderedabout grace I always, you know,
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I hear the word and I would readthe definitions, but I didn't
know the experience of grace,and to experience something is
to know it.
Now you have gnosis, so I justwanted to read some definitions
of grace and it says unmeritedfavor or divine assistance given
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by source often described as agift not earned or bargained for
A spiritual presence thatblesses, heals, forgives and
uplifts blesses, heals, forgivesand uplifts.
In mystical terms, grace is theactive presence of love that
descends into the heart when onesurrenders the illusion of
separation and allows the divineto move through them.
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And that's exactly what it was.
Was this kind of surrenderingthat happened?
And if you've listened to anyof my talks or my podcasts or
anything, I also share thisexperience.
That wasn't grace, but I thinkit was the precursor to this,
which was in December of 2022.
So two years before this, I wasout drinking, was highly
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intoxicated, in a bar late atnight, and I had this experience
where my consciousness flew upand out of my body and went into
this pure state ofobservational witnessing, like
there was zero judgment.
And as a mere human back in mybody with my brain functioning,
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mere human back in my body withmy brain functioning, I cannot
experience that experience ofzero judgment because we're
always making judgments, we'realways looking like do I want
this?
Do I not want this?
Does this agree with me?
Does this not agree with me?
Is this true for me?
Is this not true for me?
Do I desire this?
Do I not desire this?
Do I like this?
Do I not like this?
What do I think about this?
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What's my opinion about this?
Like we can't help it.
That's what our mind does.
We can notice it after it doesit and then stop it.
But I know that our firstinstinct is to self-validate our
own reality.
So, to go into thisconsciousness space of pure
witnessing, observation in thisbar, I looked down at myself, I
looked at everybody in there andthere was no judgment.
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I could just see the pain andthe wounding that everybody in
there was in and experiencingand inebriating themselves from
as a distraction.
And then I looked down atmyself and said what vibration
of consciousness do you wantanimating your body?
And I popped back into my bodyand I've been answering that
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question ever since.
And so then I got to have thisexperience of grace in Bali, and
there is so much more to thestory of 2024 having to do with
the divine masculine.
But I know that this man, sky,carried the frequency of grace
and he transmitted the frequencyof grace onto the field of
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everybody at that sound bath,which is why it awakened in me,
because I also know, as a soundhealer, that the most important
instrument in a sound bath is me, and it's for me to get out of
the way, my personal self to getout of the way, my small,
conditioned self to get out ofthe way, so that this much
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higher force can flow through me.
And I know that mine is also afield of grace.
It's the most powerful gift wecan receive, and so I know that
he transmitted that vibrationalfrequency of grace and I
received it because I was in aplace to receive it, because I
had already been doing so muchwork and this experience of
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really truly falling in lovewith myself and then freeing
people from my life that werenot good for me and I wasn't
good for them either, right?
So let's be honest here.
The relationship itself was notharmonious.
Relationships there's been morethan one, and this releasing
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doesn't come with this attitudeof I'm better than you or I'm I
don't know, all of these thingsyou hear in the quote unquote
high vibe communities of I'm alllight and love.
Until you piss me off, I'm like, nope, that's not it, that's
ego, that's not it.
Love releases a person to theirown journey, without the
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judgment, without the attachment, without the need to change
them, without the need to makethem wrong for their journey,
but just in a loving realizationthat it's not in a vibrational
alignment with me anymore, thatI'm not, in order to transform
my vibration.
Or when you do transform yourvibration, things that are not
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in resonance with you, peoplewho are not in resonance with
you, will simply just vibrateout of your life and there
doesn't have to be any.
You're wrong about it so muchas we are now just on different
journeys and I love every singleperson that I've had in my life
.
They served such a tremendouspurpose and I know that I have
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in theirs as well, and how theyinterpret their relationship
with me is none of my business.
That's everybody's ownindividual experience.
But what's mine to carry isthis grace, which doesn't judge,
and that the same grace thatI've been given in seeing the
mistakes that I've made and howI've hurt other people, I give
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that loving compassion andkindness to others as grace
given back.
So this is the first part ofthe story.
Is grace, this love, thiskindness toward the self, to
love oneself purely, which is tosee your truth about yourself,
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not a delusion about yourself,but to see the truth about your
true nature, the conditionedself, the small self, the self
that is selfish, the self thathurts other people, the self
that seeks gain, the self thatis greedy, the self that is
pleasure seeking, the self thatwants to escape, the self that
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likes to distract and numb.
This small self, the smallconditioned self, this egoic
self, that is the mask we wear,that tells the world this is who
I am.
And when we're coming from thissmall conditioned self, we're
wearing a mask that's false.
And oftentimes, when we don'teven know who we are, we mask
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and mirror the people in frontof us.
We're just chameleons,pretending to be whoever we're
like.
We're around because we don'tknow who we are, rather than
staying in this strong sense ofknowing who we are, which is
where I'm at now.
I am not the same woman I was ayear ago.
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I'm not even the same woman Iwas eight weeks ago.
I'm not the same woman.
I was on February 16th, andI'll never be that woman again.
I'll never be that woman again.
I'll never be that woman again.
Anybody who's lost a child,anybody who's lost anybody that
they really love, is foreverchanged by that experience.
But I would say, even more sowhen it's your child, because
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that is a living, breathing partof you that you created, that
came from your body.
There's no pain like it.
But I've let that pain break me, open instead of closed,
because death is a part of life.
It's the inevitable period atthe end of all of our sins.
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It's coming for every singleone of us, and so this fire has
been lit under me now to live mypurpose even more than was
already there to serve god,goddess, to serve humanity, the
soul of humanity, and thatdropped in very clearly for me
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just within the last eight weekswhat my purpose and mission is
here, and it's to resurrect thehearts of women, to reclaim the
soul's expression.
That's our true self, the selfwe weren't allowed to be, the
self we were told to stop it.
You know, you see parents withthese little spunky kids and
they're like stop it, stop it,stop it, stop it, no, no.
And I'm like, oh, let'srechannel that energy, because
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they're being who they are.
We don't want to squash who weare, and almost all of us have
been squashed who we really are,and we're afraid to be that
person, and that's why we livefrom our ow.
The original wound that taughtus who we are is wrong, and so
we want to reclaim that soulexpression.
Resurrect our heart, reclaim oursoul expression and live a
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sacred life.
And what does it mean to live asacred life?
It means to treat your time assacred, to treat the world as
sacred, to treat yourrelationships as sacred and to
love yourself purely.
And when you purely loveyourself, then you can purely
love others, because the samegrace that you have been given,
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because the same grace that youhave been given, you can give to
others, because as you give,you receive, and you only
receive through the giving ofthat which you are.
And I'm going to start sharinga lot of these experiences and
these talks because my hope isfor everybody to awaken their
heart, the true nature of whothey are, who you are, which is
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a beautiful, precious soulhaving a human experience for a
little while.
And, as Mary Oliver said, whatdo you plan to do with this wild
and precious life?
So this week's frequency is thefrequency of love, 528 hertz,
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and I've octavized it down to264 hertz for those who can't
sing that high.
And I invite you to tone thisfrequency for the next 30
seconds, while holding theintention to experience grace
for yourself, taking a deepbreath in.
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So, so, and now let's get yourfreak on my beloved.
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This is this week's frequencytransmission and I invite you to
close your eyes, place yourhand on your heart and repeat
these words of activation afterme and this is a grace
activation prayer I attune tothe frequency of grace.
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I let go of the story of earning, striving or proving my worth.
I am already loved.
I am already loved.
I am already chosen.
I open the temple of my heart.
I breathe in the sacredsoftness of love.
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I exhale every layer ofresistance.
Grace is the music my soulremembers.
Its warmth flows through melike a golden nectar, bathing my
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cells in light, rewriting everymemory with love I receive.
I allow, I become.
I choose forgiveness, I choosethe atonement.
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I choose the atonement.
I am the frequency of graceembodied.
I do not need to earn it.
It is freely given because I amdivine.
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With these words, I resurrectmy heart.
I embody the frequency of mysoul's expression and I choose
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to live a sacred life.
I let it be so, and so it isAmen.
Thank you for listening.
I invite you to remember thatyou are the temple.
You are made of music and lightand you are the vibration of
the divine.
Hum your truth, speak from yoursoul and walk in the frequency
of the new earth.
I invite you to like, subscribeand share this podcast and
until we meet again, may everysound lead you home.
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