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At the age of 32,
a friend suggested (00:04):
Sitting in the nude and Staring into a mirror.
So for 10 minutes, I did exactly that. And after staring at my face,
arms,
stomach,
eyes,
feet and legs,
I realized the mirror reflection did not match up with the words pouring out of my mouth.
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I realized that there was more to life than guzzling alcohol,
snorting cocaine, ingesting ecstasy,
speaking of what others need to work on, and bathing and self-pity.
Therefore,
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I stopped hanging out at The End Up.
I put down the cocaine. And, I searched out a healthier community of friends.
Days later while walking the streets of San Francisco,
I viewed a flyer for California AIDS Ride #2 [now titled (01:14):
AIDS/Lifecycle],
a 540-mile, 7-day bike event sponsored by Tangeray.
Immediately I thought (01:30):
I can cycle from San Francisco to Los Angeles,
I can improve my physical health & I can support the programs of the San Francisco AIDS Foundation.
In the following weeks, I began my first training ride.
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I rode my Trek Antelope bike for one mile,
[which nearly killed me].
Yet with perseverance and fortitude,
after four weeks, I pedaled seven miles.
After eight weeks I pedaled 21 miles to Sausalito and back. After which, my self-confidence grew. And then I began to participate in group rides offered by the California AIDS Ride community.
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Over time, I was able to cycle 45 miles,
then 60 miles,
then 75 miles. And finally, I was able to endure 100-mile bike rides,
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At which point, I felt I was physically ready for my ride.
However,
financially,
I was not,
You see;
In order to participate in the California AIDS ride;
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cyclists were required to fundraise an approximate $1,500 minimum.
If one failed to raise the fundraising minimum,
one could not participate in the event.
Now, some participants possessed wealth. Therefore easily they themselves could donate $1,500. While other participants [like myself] lived paycheck to paycheck.
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Therefore,
I had to rely on donations from others.
I organized several bake sales and flower sales.
I sold 8 x 10 nude images of myself.
I auctioned off donated material. And, I humbly accepted contributions from friends,
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family and strangers. And thanks to a large contribution from Susan Foord Catering,
I successfully raised the 1500 minimum to participate.
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In May 1994, I arrived at the start line of the California AIDS Ride #2. And as I navigated my way through Pier #3,
a big smile stretched across my face.
I realized (05:11):
I did it.
I gave up cocaine.
I immersed myself in a community of healthy individuals.
I persevered through physical pain & psychological doubt.
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I raised $1500 in the support of the San Francisco AIDS Foundation. And, I changed the "impossible" to the "I'm Possible."
Yet another challenge appeared.
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You see; being that I lived paycheck to paycheck,
I arrived at the start line with only $3 in my pocket.
I had no hotel accommodations awaiting my arrival in Los Angeles. ,
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And I had no plane, train, or bus ticket for my return to San Francisco.
Yet, I remember the story from the book "Autobiography of A Yogi."
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In the story, Paramahansa Yogananda's guru sent him on a journey.
His guru insisted he traveled with no money,
His guru insisted he asked no one for assistance.
Paramahansa Yogananda was instructed to rely on his faith of a greater power. And therefore, I followed suit.
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With the faith that things would work out; I began my journey.
Day#1,
envisioning the tour de France,
I cycled from Fort Mason to Harvey West Park Santa cruz 88.1 miles.
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Day #2, feeling sore as fuck.I cycled from Santa Cruz to San Lorenzo Park,
King City 101.9 miles.
Day #3, although pumped up on 1200g Ibproben,
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I cycled from King City to Mid State Fairgrounds Paso Robles 74.9 mi.
Day #4, with fortitude, I cycled from Paso Robles to Oceano Airport, Oceano
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69.8 miles.
Day #5, like a gazelle,
I cycled from Oceano to River Park, Lompoc 54.4 miles.
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Day #6.
Anticipating the end of this journey,
I cycled from Lompoc to San Buenaventura State Beach, Ventura 77.2 miles.
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Day #7, enduring five flat tires, I cycled from Ventura to Exposition Park, Los Angeles.
And
after receiving the finisher T-shirt,
I sat on the curb and witnessed fellow cyclists greeting friends and family.
And then, I began to cry.
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After all,
I had $3 in my pocket & no place to go.
Minutes later I heard someone call out my name.
And as I turned to look, I noticed a friend,
The friend offered me a place to rest my head & sponsored my plane flight home.
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Days later in san Francisco, I understood the objective of the California AIDS ride founder, Dan Pallotta.
You see the vision of Dan Pallota & Pallota Team Works
Was to change the world.
First; by helping people see beyond the limits they had placed on themselves.
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Second; by helping people see beyond the limits they have placed on the world And third; by spreading the simple power of human kindness.
Thank you Dan Pallota!
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Mission accomplished