My Glass Wand Self-Pleasure Practice

Embark on a wonderfully intimate journey with your host, Catrina Armendariz, who opens up about the transformative power of cervical orgasm. A somatic therapist, sex and intimacy coach, and founder of Esencia, Catrina discusses her personal experiences with self-pleasure, erotic energy, and body consciousness. She also shares her insights gained from over 30 years of tantric and embodiment practices.

The conversation revolves around her third experience with cervical orgasm since starting the podcast. Engrossing and poignantly vulnerable, this episode uncovers the deep connection between sex, intimacy, and personal evolution. A unique exploration of orgasm not merely as a release but as an empowering tool of transformation. A transformative leap that depicts just how profoundly sensual energy can impact personal growth and self-empowerment.

Delving into the rarely discussed topic of self-administered orgasm, Catrina recounts her experiences with her clients and personal life, and how they informed her journey. She discusses the idea of self-reliance and balance in sexual pleasure, and how self-practice can contribute to a richer experience with partners.

Beyond the physical, this episode highlights the emotional release involved in cervical orgasms. Catrina shares about the sensations, tenderness and vulnerability that come with such deep and powerful experiences. Her newfound insights further compliment her approach to self-pleasure and affirm the often overlooked potential of orgasm for emotional release and awakening.

The episode extends further discussing the transformative potential of orgasms and the different types of sex. She then extends an invitation to her listeners to be intentional about their evolution by exploring their orgasmic potential. Along the way, she also shares a bit about navigating relationship boundaries and client interactions, showing the real-life applications and impacts of her content.

Join Catrina on this deeply intimate and transformative journey that’s sure to inspire you towards embracing the healing power of pleasure, sex, and self-love.

 

[00:00] Intro

[01:44] Inspo for my Self-Administered Orgasm

[03:20] Yoni De-Armouring Practice & Erotic Energy Cultivation

[04:34] My Wand & Cervical Orgasm

[05:51]  Invitation for Emotional Release

[06:41]  Self-Practice vs. Partnered Practice

[09:28] Transformative Power of Self-Practice: Revealing & Integrating Shame, Vulnerability, Tenderness, Shadow

[11:51] The Four Types of Sex

[15:75] Pleasure-Centered Transformation

[17:31] Invitation to Dive into Your Personal Practice 

Episode Transcript

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Hello, hello my loves, hola hola, bienvenidos, welcome to my podcast.
I'm Katrina Arvindadis and I'm your host.
I'm also a somatic therapist, sex and intimacy coach, and I'm the founder of
Essentia, an online subscription platform launching this fall with sex education,
sensual yoga, and other embodiment practices to support you in feeling fully

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alive in your body again.
Meditation, breath work, movement, you name it. In this podcast,
I invite you into my journey through sexuality and all things live and evolutionary in my heart.
Join me as I open the door to my most intimate and vulnerable moments and share

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some of the wisdom I've gained through over 30 years of tantric and embodiment practices.
This is, disclaimer, a shame-slaying podcast.
So, if you're not quite ready to get rid of that shame,
this might not be the podcast for you but if you are ready to step into
that fire transformation this is the place and this
is the space for you this will nourish your hearts

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blossoming your reclamation of outrageous pleasure
your fuck yes energy and your
transformation into your most empowered self
are you ready for this if you are enjoying this podcast please rate and review
so we can get this out to people all around around the world desiring to dive

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in to this beautiful experience along with us. Okay, love you all.
Let's dive in. Hello, hello, hello, my loves.
Welcome to this episode on my, what seems to be my cervical orgasm journey.
So I'm going to share my third experience with cervical orgasm since the beginning of this podcast. Okay.

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This one was a self-administered orgasm. It was, wow. Yeah.
So I opened up for coaching clients a few weeks ago and I have had such a beautiful
experience and I'm blown away by the vastness and the beauty of all of what's

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presenting in terms of what's on my plate,
What's on the plate for the clients that are coming to me?
And with one of them, specifically a woman, I, I intuited that,
oh yeah, this one, this one, I mean, she also intuited it, right?
It's something that was co-created in the session where we realized like, oh, okay.

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Cervical orgasm is something that's being desired. There are ways to,
or there's a curiosity around it.
There are ways to facilitate it without a partner. so
we don't have to wait in other words for someone else to arrive and
I encouraged her to go into a practice of
exploration with the cervix and a wand immediately after our call that was just

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towards the end of the call so it wasn't a time or space to go into a guided
practice in any sort of way and so I got off the call and I was like hmm this
is also me coming off of I think I think it was just like a couple days prior,
I filmed a Yoni Dearmoring guided meditation.
Which it's been a while since I've engaged these practices just for the sake of engaging them.

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Because I used to spend so much time with them and I took a pause to explore,
you know, my sexual energy in different ways.
And so revisiting them in this new embodiment that I'm in has been so fascinating
for me and so beautiful and such a beautiful opening. So I filmed that Yoni
D. Armory and guided meditation.
And I was alive with erotic energy in a way that was just like,

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oh, should I go? Should I give myself an orgasm?
And I decided against it. And I moved on to take on other activities. But that energy stays.
It stays with me. You know, I feel that aliveness.
And so in a subtle way, it's guiding. It's always kind of there and asking me
like, or I'm asking it, hey, do you want to be expressed in any other way?

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You know, because there's so many ways that I'm working with that energy.
And I'm like, do you want to...
Do you want to like be expressed through orgasm, manually stimulated?
And after our call, it felt like the right thing to do.
I was like, okay, I think I'm going to take that energy and I'm going to experience
a cervical orgasm with the wand.

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And so I went to my bed and I went into that same dearmoring practice that I
guided in the meditation, though a shorter version of it.
And and then I went through like
a slow insertion of the wand and funny
enough it felt for me like a very slow insertion and
a very shallow insertion but I did

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feel it up against my cervix at some point which felt
very like nice it was like a beautiful kiss it was like hello to the cervix
and once I felt that there I held it there and I really didn't do a whole lot
of movement there There was clitoral stimulation and there was a bit of pelvic like gyrating,

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but very subtle.
Very subtle, very subtle.
And it didn't take long for me to get that cervical orgasm. Then once it came, it was so powerful.
And the thing about the cervical orgasm is it could keep going and going and going.
So I could have stayed in that at the same time.

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I was like, whoa. whoa, this was not the time and place for me to go deep into
this. This is good enough.
Because I felt a tenderness and I felt a raw vulnerability and I felt like,
wow, this is a deep opening of like a dark mystery that I can enter into in

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a huge like space of exploration of emotional release and meeting myself in
a new way and integrating. grating.
And I was like, oh, I did not curate the time and space to go to the depths of this.
But literally just having that little kiss of the experience of that cervical
orgasm for me was like, oh gosh, I forgot.

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I forgot how powerful this is in my own self-practice.
And, you know, one of the reasons why I stopped doing the self-practice is because
I didn't want to become I'm so self-reliant and attached to what I can experience
on my own and not be open and fully available and present to the mystery of
what that could look like with a partner.

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And I've come to a part of my evolution where I can start to navigate and negotiate
and harmonize a balance between the two.
I do still prefer like the mystery and the openness of what I can have with my partner, but.
Not that much larger than the, oh, wow, there's so much deep work and integration

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and expansion and liberation in my self-practice with this.
So much emotional release, so much awakening.
And wow, that's going to inform even more expansion in my partnerships rather
than feeling the fear or the lack around what it was going to cause,
which is what was dominating.

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Dominating most of my approach to self-pleasure.
My dog's looking at me like she's actually kind of interested in what I'm talking
about. Yeah, Ooshus? Nice. I like it.
What was really interesting though is I actually had a client appointment at
the time that I went into my self-pleasure practice.

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And I book my clients primarily like 99% of them through Calendly and I made
an exception in this case to accommodate someone who didn't seem to use Calendly
and it went against my instinct and my intuition at the same time.
I was like, hmm, intuition says
make an exception and I did and I'm glad I did because I learned that,

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you know, if I'm going to make exceptions to my boundaries, then I need to be
very clear on what that means for me and a responsibility,
extra responsibility I need to take on.
And, you know, really kind of explore and evaluate the value of that. So it was beautiful.
It was a beautiful experience. And it was just interesting to see how.

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How I missed a session for the sake of going into this depth of beauty.
And, you know, sometimes that's just how life works.
Everything is moving and organizing for our highest evolution when we're receptive to, to the flow.
And so I trust and lean into that. And it's just kind of comical.

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So all of that to say that, let me talk a bit, let me explain a bit about what
I was feeling, that tenderness.
God, there's a bit of shame there. And I think that was what caused me to be
like, oh, we've got to close the door on this.
This isn't the time to go deep into this awakening right now.
There is shame tied in with the sensation of what I felt as I orgasmed.

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And that sucking sensation that the os or that the cervix does when it's orgasm,
when it's pulsating and it's sort of like dripping and sucking in. It's like pulling.
It's almost as if it's like meant to pull the sperm further into the canal.
Like this motion, it's soft and it's undulating and it's a suck, suck.

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It's as if like lips are on the bosom, on the breast, sucking the nipple.
It's this very like raw and primal energy connected to nourishment.
And and that also for
me was like oh something about this there's so much

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shame here and I don't know entirely where that's going to take me but I know
that there's like so much that it's going to reveal itself to me emotionally
and mentally around allowing myself to be in this unique sensation in my body
which is pleasurable pleasurable but also well scary Gary.

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And also curious. Scary because I just didn't have the time and space to attend
to it in that moment and scary in the sense of, wow,
I didn't know that there was another part of me locked in here and actually
now, yeah, it makes sense.
So I hope that that was a little bit informative for anyone listening in to

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this episode. It's very short and very quick.
The power that we have when we go into to orgasm.
It's not just for a release. It can be for transformation.
And I believe that ISTA, I don't know if they created it, if someone within
that system created the four different types of sex, like reasons we go to sex.

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And frameworks are wonderful. I love them.
And I don't attach to them. I don't think it's evolutionary to attach to frameworks.
Frameworks are meant to catapult us into more expansion, to be a stepping stone.
So in this framework, the four types of sex, if I recall correctly,
one is for fun, recreation, just having a little enjoyment.

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And another is for restoration, deeply just restoring yourself in that moment.
Maybe you've got headache, maybe you're feeling disembodied, dissociating a bit,
you're feeling some sort of like lower
energy and you have some sort

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of a sensation that once you get the orgasm it's going to bring some
integration into the body again to restore you back to like a neutral state
of being or a regulated nervous system right some sort of like discharge of
extra energy that needs to be released or integrated and then we have let's
see recreational Relational, Restorational.

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Transformational and are i'm
not remembering the other oh right hello
reproductive for the
sake of having offspring and this is obviously like the most normalized in traditional

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traditional upbringings traditional
cultures this is how sex is like accepted in most social spaces.
Recreational we have a lot of shame stored with that and then we have restorative
and then we have transformational so transformational is this is going to take

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you from dark night of the soul into expansive awakening like this is going
to provide you some sort of spiritual awakening.
Helping you to release old paradigms old
patterns and bring you into a new way
of being more integrated in yourself and this is the cervical orgasm for example

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it offers a transformational experience now ultimately you know the way that
i see it is we aspire to to all of these four can be integrated beautifully.
And it's just a matter of our personal evolution as we're kind of making our
way along the path to experiencing life less segmented and experiencing more

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wholism and holisticness in the way that we approach all aspects of our life and especially sex.
Of course, reproductive is a different story. Not all of us are looking to have
children or time and place for that.
Whereas recreation, we wanna have fun. We wanna be in pleasure and we wanna enjoy it.

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And we wanna trust too. We wanna be so embodied that we can trust that being
in our pleasure is safe and it's okay and it's beautiful and actually it's restorative
and actually it's transformative.
Pleasure-centered transformation. We go through a dark night. It is uncomfortable.

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At the same time, when we've equalized our safety, when we've established safety
within ourselves, we experience this pleasurably in the body.
We're not escaping.
We're not in fear. We recognize our capacity to be present with intensity of dark and light,

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and we can be with it in pleasure and
that's anand or bliss and again
this is not something that's going to happen overnight for everybody but
it's something that we can aspire to and it's something that's possible in
the body to experience the emotional states the spectrum and the breadth of
emotions whilst in bliss to go through a transformative experience and to feel

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the unlocking of emotional release.
Of a vast unknown array of emotions and feel so light and purified and beautiful
in the process of that letting go and that transformation, that pleasure,
the pleasure of physical sensation,

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as you're going through that release.
Having fun in that joy of abandoning your patterns that are toxic for you,
taking pure contentment and happiness in that experience of,
wow, I am stepping into a new version of me and this is so cool.
And what beauty to be in the mystery of this new expansive way of being.

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I certainly wanted to go there with my orgasm, but I didn't have the time and
space for it, you know, work.
But I can curate that and I invite you to do that for yourself too be intentional
about the time that you're going to make for your evolution and as it comes to orgasm same thing.
Curate an hour and start with something small if you need to 10-15 minutes just

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to be with the body in a way that's pleasurable and to be with the erotic energy
and to bring it alive within you not needing to have a goal,
not needing to consummate it with an orgasm but
being with the energy itself and then
having an ongoing practice of that exploration and then
also extending it and having longer practices where you

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can explore orgasmic potential and completion
of that orgasmic energy in a way
and distribution of that energy and
transmutation and sublimation whatever
it is you're wanting to do whatever you're desiring to do
with that energy there's so much there's so much okay i'm

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rambling i feel like that's enough for this episode big hugs
to you and yeah i'll catch
you in the next episode bye thank you my loves for joining me on this journey
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