December 28, 2022 • 47 mins
Host Natasha Levinger and her co-host/husband/producer, Brett, talk about setting intentions at this time of New Year's Resolutions.
In this episode, they talk cover
- The very inward, hiberating, restful energy right now
- How much Natasha loves Die Hard and Bruce Willis
- Natasha's good friends Liz and Nene
- Natasha & Brett's Hannukah routine, such as it is
- Brett's journey into magick (with a c-k)
- The power of a regular schedule for spiritual practices
- Setting intentions/resolutions
- The human need for support systems to effect change
- Pairing internal & external goals
- Being drawn to making friends locally
- This week's energy report
- And more!
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Getting to Know Woo is a weekly podcast dedicated to dispelling the rhetoric that so-called "woo-woo" practices such as energy work, energy healing, inner child healing, chakra clearing, and more are impractical and ineffective, and instead are pragmatic, transformative, and powerful.
Mentioned in the show:
- High Magick by Damien Echols
- Amanda Yates Garcia
- Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker
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(00:00):
getting to know,
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getting to know all about,
getting to like getting to hope you like,
whoa,
welcome to getting to know woo.
I'm Natasha Levinger,
a professional intuitive reader,
energy healer and inner child healing expert.
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After being raised with extreme narcissism,
I found talk therapy was helpful,
but it wasn't until I found energy and inner child healing that I was able to break free of family patterns that cut me off from knowing and loving my true self.
I'm passionate about dispelling the rhetoric that these kinds of tools are impractical and ineffective and in this podcast I will be sharing how actually beneficial and transformative they are.
(00:49):
My husband and producer Brett will be joining me in conversation and we will be welcoming experts along the way.
I'm excited to have you here,
welcome back was in a tres users was donators.
I like wasn't actually that just reminded me of pollinators,
(01:12):
like we could have a resonator garden to attract listeners when they finished painting in the spring.
It's true.
We did get a recommendation from my friend jen,
I forget what she meant.
Remember it was on her christmas card,
I remember what it was,
(01:35):
jen,
let me know what it was because we don't remember,
but I liked it.
Well that would after.
Yeah,
that's a good point.
We can do,
I can put it in the show notes.
Um currently it's post obviously we weren't here last week.
(01:56):
Um it's post christmas last week and truly this week um has felt for me very,
I feel like we've gone into a void,
not just us,
it does feel like a general energy thing.
Like just this not,
I wouldn't call it necessarily heavy,
but it just feels very inward.
(02:18):
Yes.
Yeah,
I would agree with that.
Like,
I have felt like a hibernating bear.
Yeah.
In a way that I have never felt before the winter.
Yeah,
I feel that way too.
Oh my God.
David,
our cat is just looking at me and giving me love eyes and he keeps tapping me,
(02:39):
don't extend to pet his head.
Oh,
he's so cute.
We should somehow post a picture of him.
Oh God,
he's anyway,
so yeah,
it's been a very inward time.
I did ask on my instagram and surprisingly a couple of people did not feel that way,
(03:00):
but not everybody,
but most people I know um most people did feel this way a couple people felt in and out of it.
But um yeah,
to me it's really felt like a collective situation.
Oh my God.
Yeah.
I would actually like to amend my description.
I have felt like a bear that should be hibernating,
(03:23):
but isn't right.
You've been fighting the hibernation process a little bit a lot.
What do you mean?
I mean,
I'm annoyed by it because I have,
you know,
that don't like me when I'm being industrious,
but I am actually doing it instead of not doing it.
Like I'm sleeping more when I feel sleepy than I.
(03:46):
Yeah,
that's true.
So the internal struggles are what they are,
but I am trying to give,
you know,
listen to them at least physically.
Yeah,
that's what I meant by fighting it upsetting you.
Um but we did have a very nice christmas um this today on the show,
(04:11):
we don't have a guest and we don't have a guest next week either.
Um and I don't know,
this actually goes along with how I've been feeling lately.
I don't know if this is gonna go on the energy report or not,
but I've just,
I've had a very strong message from my intuition to,
well I actually am gonna talk about this,
(04:31):
but I'll just say to stop efforting,
our episode today is going to be about intentions and what does it mean to set them.
Um but for the new year,
if you celebrate the Gregorian calendar new year,
um but um yeah,
part of that is I've just really been getting the information not to be efforting.
(04:55):
So if I feel like intuition hit to like to ask for a guest,
then I will,
but otherwise yeah,
I guess I haven't told you that you haven't,
well,
I've been feeling that in general and I just realized this moment that it goes along with this as well.
(05:16):
I see,
I see I'm down for it,
I like listening to your intuition um and yeah,
so we had a nice christmas Brett made me a diehard ornament,
which I really loved and I loved I heart and I love I guess I love Bruce Willis?
(05:38):
I feel sad for him anyway,
that's another story.
But we were watching Die Hard.
Oh,
by the way,
if you have suggestions for guests that you're like,
oh,
I would like them to talk about this,
you can email us and I will definitely listen to it.
Yeah,
topics that we could,
you know,
I I refuse even if it's put right in front of me,
(06:00):
um I was gonna say their topics or or specific guests,
like if there are people you want us to,
you would like to have on the show heads up.
We don't have a lot of pull.
So if you're like,
oh,
I wish I'd get Brittany Brown.
So do I.
To be fair,
we have not reached out to bring around that we haven't been turned down yet.
(06:25):
That's true.
Would your who would your,
do you have an ideal guest that you would like to speak to me?
Are you asking me the listeners listeners,
um an ideal guest?
Like do you mean type of guest or person or both?
(06:48):
Either one?
Um No,
I mean,
no,
I don't.
But I mean,
my foray into like uh into the world of people who would be our guests is still pretty limited,
you know what I mean?
I feel like it's a spoiler alert,
but maybe Damien Echols would be someone you would like to talk to?
(07:11):
Oh yeah,
sure,
definitely,
definitely.
That is a little bit of a spoiler alert.
Were you trying to,
you're trying to set me up for that.
I just realized,
oh,
that would be so funny.
My ideal guest would be Liz.
Gilbert.
So just putting it out into the universe is her name Liz on her books.
(07:36):
No,
but I will say that she,
I feel like she talks about herself enough like that in all of the various contexts that a lot of people who don't know her refer to her as Liz is what I like when I meet when I talk to other people about her,
(07:57):
they often will call her Liz and they don't know her.
Right,
Right.
No,
I mean it doesn't,
it's not out of out of character with her voice.
Certainly for someone who doesn't know how to call her Liz,
it's not like you are calling Brown a Brown nay or something.
No,
I would call her name anyway,
so we,
(08:18):
we do want to get to the spoiler alert,
but do you want to say anything else?
If people are curious about our christmas or Hanukkah?
We do what we usually do.
We light the candle on the first night,
Forget for multiple nights,
there'll be a candle that here and there.
I'll do some kind of mishmash of the prayer and I'll you know,
(08:44):
do it wrong.
Listen,
this is what it takes when you were not raised with the actual traditions but you are 100% jewish,
tell me what it takes.
You know that song was on the speakers at some where was,
I don't know,
(09:04):
at some store I was in and I was like,
I haven't heard this song in years,
tell me what it takes to make,
you know um that's a shout out to jen because another shout out to jen,
jen gets to shout out because we were in a band together and I think we covered that song.
(09:28):
Okay,
didn't remember as your,
as your official roadie.
I can verify that you covered that.
I think that's when I was still playing the piano with one hand.
Maybe I added a second.
I didn't don't stop believing.
(09:48):
I only had one hand.
Oh,
I didn't notice that.
Oh yeah,
it was a feature.
Anyway,
moving on.
Oh,
so that's what we did then.
Christmas was really fun bread.
Always makes these really delicious breakfast.
Would you call them sandwiches?
I would call them sandwiches,
although they are made in a nine by 13 casserole dish.
(10:11):
Mhm.
And he always makes me really great gifts and um the kids had a good time and it was a good day.
Yeah,
I don't know.
Yeah,
you don't know what,
I don't know why,
but I,
I really loved this christmas morning like as much even or possibly more than when they were like little little Yeah,
(10:37):
it just was really,
it was a really nice connected feeling our daughter got a bunch of what she calls vinyl records.
I mean they are vinyl records.
She refuses to just call them records or vinyl you don't um Okay,
so let's talk about before we get to intention setting.
(10:59):
Um let's talk about what's been going on for you,
although let's just do a quick little thing and say,
hey,
have you reviewed the podcast?
Oh,
we love it.
If you would that be so great or just read it on i on Spotify,
thank you so much for everybody who already has.
We're so appreciative.
(11:19):
I was going to come up with something and I intend to,
you know,
Yeah,
I have a lot of intention.
Speaking of intentions.
But yeah,
but we really would appreciate it helps people,
I don't know how much it affects the algorithm,
but I think it does affect things like people who see it.
(11:41):
They're like,
oh,
people actually listen to this and they like it.
There's there's been a couple of silent one stars.
Yeah.
And I appreciate them.
Yeah,
it's okay.
Can I thought you were calling them out for their cowardice?
Oh,
I was calling them out for being ***.
(12:03):
Wait,
were they hitting on us when they did it and gave us a backhanded compliment.
That's what that's what that's my understanding of nagging is when you when you say something that sounds like a compliment,
but also undermines the person's self esteem slightly.
(12:23):
Um it's I thought it was just being negative nelly just like nagging something.
Well certainly it could be that that is not the context that I know it in.
Um I'm looking it up an urban dictionary dictionary says a slang way too slang way to it.
(12:44):
There's a there's a typo in the urban slang to imply that someone or something is not good enough to insult with a backhanded compliment or with or with qualified approval.
Especially as a ploy to lower the self esteem of a person or cheapen an object before showing romantic interest or making an offer.
(13:08):
I see you were right.
Well I haven't gotten the you know the nobody's asked me out as a result of this.
Yeah so maybe it's just it's just an hour insult.
I don't know.
(13:29):
Um Tell us what's been going on.
I thought it would be good we thought it would be good to talk about.
Um Because Brett has been how would you put it?
I was gonna say delving into magic.
Well that feels um inaccurate at the moment only because there's been more a decision to delve than actual delving.
(13:53):
But I I was I to make the story short that there was a series of events that that sort of led me to listening to the audiobook of Damien Echols.
Um Oh I should know the title but his it's a guidebook for practicing magic with a C.
K.
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And um as opposed to just a C.
Okay but anyway I the I'm excited about it and also you know I have some trepidation about it but I'm feeling very drawn to it.
Um And um the kind of the way that he practices magic is pretty um structured but in a way that I find appealing and that I think will be helpful for me as I start to study it.
(14:48):
But is it called high Magic a guide to spiritual practices that saved my life on death row?
Yes that sounds right.
That sounds right.
I mean it's mostly it's a little bit it's an introduction.
I mean his story is fascinating for he was one of the west Memphis three.
(15:08):
He was wrongly accused of having killed um uh I think multiple Children in satanic rituals and was on death row for a long time I think possibly decades before he was released.
And he lost his a lot of his eyesight because of how he was kept in like low light conditions.
(15:31):
Yeah he was kept in in solitary confinement for a lot of that.
I believe his his eyesight has has returned but it was it was failing um I could be wrong about that.
He should sit in front of a red light.
Yeah if he doesn't know about that already.
He might side by,
yeah when we have him on we can talk to him about it.
(15:55):
But anyway I'm excited about starting that.
I haven't actually delved into it but there's he's got it's a pretty prescribed course uh and um I am setting an intention to begin doing that.
So and it's like there's a breath technique around meditating and then there's the Banishing Rich,
(16:19):
how do you call it?
The lower banishing ritual of the pentagram?
Right.
Um that is,
I have not even gotten to that.
There are several steps before you get there.
That was the one that tests uh former co host of magic monday test.
Whitehurst was was big into doing and I believe it's from that book.
But there's she did that one.
(16:40):
Yeah,
I was,
I've done it before.
You've done that.
I've done it.
Yeah,
there's Amanda Yates Garcia,
I think that's her name.
She has one on Youtube.
I think that you can follow her along and I did that one time.
What was it like?
I really liked it.
(17:01):
It's so it uses your body,
it is extensive but at the time I was also doing the Markaba meditation every morning which is also extensive but doesn't use your body.
Um it does feel really grounding.
There's something very beautiful and um aligning and to do something that extensive as a meditation every morning like setting yourself up if you have the ability to do something like that.
(17:33):
It's just,
it's very,
to me it really connects me to my higher self in a very clear way and one of the things I love about this is I found to be very true that if you do the same practice even if it isn't a long one at the same time every day.
It amplifies the energy.
(17:54):
Yeah.
Damien Echols would agree with you.
The very first thing that you're supposed to do is the is practice the fourfold breath at least five minutes every day for a month before you move on to anything else at the same time.
Um He's well yeah,
I mean I don't remember him saying specifically do it at the same time but he made recommendations for there.
(18:18):
There are three variations of the fourfold breath that you start with.
Um And he recommended specific times to do them.
But he didn't,
I mean I guess it's kind of implied he didn't say do this at the same time every day.
Yeah.
But there is something very magical about that.
Like I mean you can like it can be within a few minutes but there's something about doing it at the same exact time,
(18:44):
night or morning,
whatever.
It amplifies energy.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I know.
I mean I'm it's that is part of the ritual of,
it is part of what I'm being,
what I'm drawn,
finding myself drawn to and that you seem a little down and out in Beverly hills.
(19:06):
Am I reading into this or is your energy low?
I don't feel like either of those is true.
I'm definitely not feeling down.
I thought my energy level was I would say normal,
which is not ebullient,
but here I turn it up here,
(19:29):
I am.
My energy is up.
I but it did bring didn't bring up some religious trauma stuff for you.
Oh yeah,
no,
for sure.
I mean like the whole,
well the I mean part of the I was sort of shortcut this part of the story,
but like the stuff that came up for me when we interviewed Jonathan Coe on the last episode um was was part of what led me to this and I mean I just have a lot of stuff about trusting authority when I can't,
(20:10):
when it's hard for me to know why what they're saying is the way it is and like and so I am doing this partly as an exercise to push back against that because that that part of me is also extremely scared of like getting tricked and like hurt as a result of it.
(20:34):
Like emotionally yeah,
hurt.
And um because that's what happened as a kid.
Yeah,
Well that's yeah,
I mean that's I left the religion that I was raised with because it is nonsense.
(20:56):
But I mean,
I feel like I I feel like clarifying what that what the trick part means because like I wasn't like I was not like abused by anyone by leaders of the,
you know,
any of my like leaders in the church or anything like that.
It was just that I was raised to believe this thing that I came to no longer believe and that the mistrust that that raised is something that I'm you know,
(21:27):
still contending with.
Um but anyway,
so I'm doing this partly as a way to push back against that part that is scared of that because I don't have,
you know,
like just to show myself that I can try things and like they don't have to become my whole life and and you know,
(21:51):
I don't have to commit to them the way I was asked to commit to the to the church.
So and also you can do it and you can like it without necessarily understanding on an intellectual level why it's working.
Yes.
Yes.
I mean that's the less part of I mean,
(22:14):
I mean,
yes,
that is that is definitely true.
But like I already have experience with that with with like your energy healings.
Like that's like I have no idea how they work.
I mean,
I know the part of me that would want to really understand how uh is not,
does not have a satisfying answer,
but I know that they do.
So like I don't like I don't struggle with that that part anymore.
(22:38):
But um but I also like about it.
Like one thing that I love about the way you practice um all of your uh various woo endeavors and also this is you know what Damien Echols said in the book was that it's you take and refine what works and what doesn't like,
(22:59):
here's how I'm suggesting to do it.
If that if something slightly different works for you,
then do it that way.
So um well it's exciting.
I can't wait for you to start.
Do you know when you're going to start,
do you have a start date?
I would have started already if I knew when I was going to start.
It's just the inertia of picking up a new habit.
That's,
that's stopping me at the moment.
(23:21):
And also the weirdness of two weeks off during christmas time and also the bear energy.
Yeah.
Well,
I mean,
yeah,
yeah,
I mean that's that is less an obstacle for this.
Um,
for,
you know,
for starting this so much as my difficulty in changing routines.
(23:42):
I think it'll be good to come up with.
Well this is maybe my um,
how I look at things,
but I think it'd be good to just like decide when you're going to do it and then you can report back here to this very spot.
Are you saying say a date right now?
No,
no,
no.
I'm saying like in your mind be like,
okay,
I'm gonna start tomorrow or whenever and you know,
(24:05):
make a plan,
otherwise it probably won't happen.
Oh yeah,
no,
no,
I agree with that.
I mean,
yeah,
the way we can talk about the logistics of,
I mean off air.
Okay,
so let's talk about intentions or resolutions and what that is like because like I said this time I personally resonate more with the um jewish new year,
(24:31):
which is in september,
it always feels more new year.
E to me,
I don't know if it's because it's like back to school or what,
like that kind of feeling,
but um,
I still like the idea of it and I'll get into this maybe a little bit in the energy report,
I'll do a quick energy report.
But um,
(24:51):
but what I do,
I still do like the idea of checking in with and and making resolutions and intentions.
Um,
and so what I'm,
what I realized a couple of things that helped me feel,
um good about it.
So one of them is looking at it as instead of like a new year resolution,
(25:17):
looking at it as like the next three months or just like a smaller time period because otherwise when I start to think of the year,
my literally,
I just feel like I just start seeing static energy in front of me.
It just feels like I don't even know how to manage that,
that feels like too large of a chunk of time and I was thinking about it actually wrote about this a little bit in the energy report for mind,
(25:45):
body green,
but like when you tell it like,
like a kid doesn't have a really good concept of time,
time isn't real anyway,
but like if you're like,
oh,
we'll do that in a year to a little kid,
it feels like you may as well just say it's never going to happen.
And I feel like for a lot of our inner Children,
(26:06):
when we set goals like that our intentions,
the inner child feels like that and I feel like that's a lot of the reason why there's rebellion about it or resistance because it's like,
it feels too much.
It feels like at least that's that's just my heartache.
Yeah,
(26:27):
Well,
no,
that makes a lot of sense and I mean,
I feel like a lot of people don't even set resolutions for a year.
It's like my life is different starting now,
like your whole life,
like I am no longer going to do the things that are natural to me,
I am going,
(26:48):
It actually makes me a little sad because I remember in high school a lot of times I had no support.
I mean,
I never had support but a lot of times I'd be like,
I'm gonna turn a new leaf.
That was like my big thing that I would tell myself like if I was failing in school or whatever and I was like,
I'm gonna turn a new leaf and then it just,
(27:09):
I I did have momentum for a little bit,
but I just had no way to do deal,
I had no support systems in place.
So that's another thing,
like,
I think it's really important to know that humans need support systems,
even if that is you yourself have created these support systems around yourself to help you create these things because yeah,
(27:34):
so the other thing I realized is so first of all,
smaller chunks.
Second of all I realized that it's good to have an internal goal if you have an external goal to have an internal goal associated with it.
So like for instance for me,
of course,
(27:54):
just because this is how I operate,
I came up with the internal goal first but I realized like that I really want to this,
you know,
over this next little chunk of time,
have an internal sense of safety in a bigger way.
I just realized like how much this feeling inside that that I have a lot of freeze response still and that's coming from an inner child not feeling safe.
(28:22):
And so I want to cultivate that sense of safety,
that's a goal of mine,
wow!
Part of that is like,
so I have a book coming out in april um I am developing a group program because that's something I'm feeling really drawn to doing.
(28:43):
I don't know what that's going to be yet,
but I want to have this sense of safety,
like let's just choose the book when the book comes out,
whatever happens with it.
I want to be notice when I go into freeze response.
No,
like have a real,
that's really the biggest thing for me at this point is noticing it and I have been noticing actually and the universe is amazing because you,
(29:09):
once you set these sort of any kind of intentions,
like if you're noticing you start to get a lot of signs about it.
So I started noticing I wake up every morning basically in that like that my body is in freeze response,
which in Pete walker's book,
see ptsd from thriving,
(29:31):
surviving to thriving.
He talks about,
you can have emotional flashbacks even in your sleep and like wake up like that.
And so anyway,
this is all the way of saying that.
So I started to notice that and then I,
I would just start reading little snippets of books that talk about internal power and I started to like for instance,
(29:55):
um essentially that about giving your power away,
that if you want something else,
let's take the book again.
Okay,
I want the book to sell a lot and reach a lot of people,
but I could look at that in a holistic way and like,
wouldn't that be great,
that would make me feel so fulfilled that I was helping people or could be in a freeze response way,
(30:17):
which is,
oh my God,
I'm giving my power away to this,
this has to happen or I'm a failure.
So there's a lot of,
I'm realizing how much my freeze responses associated with giving my power to something like that,
like instagram or you know,
um if people like this thing or whatever,
have I really got off on a tangent anyway,
(30:38):
my point being that the internal finding the internal goal that to support yourself um is a support system kind of like what I was talking about with turning a new leaf,
like if I had had some kind of,
oh I noticed that I'm not feeling safe,
I never could have come to that at that point.
(30:59):
But now how do I create my sense of safety within?
So obviously for me it's in our child work,
its energy healing.
It's okay just noticing helps it to move because I've already done so much inner child work just noticing it.
Then I already have all this love for my inner child in place and it moves pretty quickly.
(31:19):
Um but so yeah,
so having that with that um and yeah,
for just as I've been exploring that more,
the other part is just realizing how much um I've been that urgent inner child part is part of this,
(31:40):
like,
oh God,
I have to do,
like I have to write to these people to get my,
you know,
because I um like want to promote the book on different sites,
but there's a feeling of urgency with the unsafe t and then I realized,
oh that has to do with winning.
I talked to that inner child part and I saw it has to do with I have this inner child that thinks she can win or lose?
(32:04):
It's one or the other?
So does that make sense?
Okay,
so it's like that once I create safety with her,
like,
oh my God,
no,
there's no winning or losing.
It's just like,
you know your this is not your worthy regardless.
That helps create more safety.
(32:25):
And then I can start listening like I know when my intuition tells me,
oh right too,
you know whatever Oprah Daily or whatever that it's coming from a place of oh that feels like a good fit as opposed to I have to do this.
So that's how I'm feeling about intentions,
(32:48):
small chunks um and ideally having an inner and if you and you know what,
you don't even have to have an external goal,
you don't have any any goals if you don't want to,
that's fine.
But if you feel drawn to it,
I would suggest um Choosing one of them.
(33:12):
So are you,
are you using intentions synonymous lee with the way like in this instance with the way people use um resolutions,
like it is my intention to do X,
Y or Z.
Yeah.
Yeah,
I think so.
I think um resolutions feels harsher to me,
(33:34):
like intentions feels more like I intend to do this and it feels more flexible to me,
but if you're somebody that likes the idea of resolution and if that resonates better than either way,
it can be interchangeable.
But yes,
that's how I'm looking at it,
is it different than doing something with intention,
(33:58):
like is that a different use of that word,
you know what I mean,
like when you light your candles with intention as opposed to just lighting them to light them right?
Um I guess it feels to me in this case it is a goal or it is like it's my intention to notice when I'm not feeling safe in my body,
(34:23):
but it also is like goal isn't exactly the right word.
Yeah,
I mean it's a very,
it's a much more like directed sort of productivity,
Yeah,
yeah,
yeah and it does feel like I want that,
you know,
(34:43):
this is something that I am wanting to do right,
right,
and it is,
do you agree also that like with intention there is a certain amount of like if not giving that intention to the universe at least like you're calling on help from wherever it comes from,
(35:06):
do you agree with that?
Yeah,
yeah,
I think that's part of why I did start seeing all of it,
like literally three different books,
I was reading that discussion of power came in and but I was like wow,
I am really supposed to hear this,
so yeah,
I think it does bring in that element of it if you're open to it,
(35:30):
Yeah,
I like that um what about,
oh,
so I guess your intention or resolution is to do the magic stuff um yeah,
I mean that's definitely one of them.
Um,
we uh,
me and the kids started taekwondo,
so I have an intention to uh devote myself to that practice to do it three times a week.
(35:56):
Uh,
and some other things that I definitely want to want to do that aren't maybe fully formed enough to express eloquently at the moment,
but yeah,
I mean the magic is a,
is a big one because it feels,
it feels like a big opportunity for reasons I can't fully put my finger on you like that.
(36:18):
Yeah,
I also,
um,
for some reason I have been feeling a draw to make friends locally because I have a lot of friends across the United States of America and I don't know why I've been having this impulse,
like I want to have friends locally and I've been running.
(36:41):
So,
um,
I'm combining those two potentially and joining this little running thing.
Um well anyway,
the point is that I'm going to start that next,
well I might start meeting up with people to run is what I'm trying to say.
Hmm,
I'm just gonna also,
(37:03):
yeah,
do different kinds of,
there's something else I can't remember right now.
But anyway,
so because I was going to run the half marathon with you,
but Covid is,
has taken a toll on your stamina.
So I'm not,
I don't really want to train for that by myself.
Um,
but I still want to run more,
(37:25):
which I have been doing.
Um And also I got this or a ring I splurged on myself and got this ordering which has been um documenting my movement and a little chastising time to stretch your legs,
question mark will say and but I do think I maybe haven't been moving enough.
(37:50):
So that's something anyway,
those are the things.
Oh yeah and I mean that I'm intending to do move a little bit more and then the other thing is not,
it's this goes along with the safety thing and the urgent part is allowing things to come to me that I guess I already said it like noticing what I'm efforting and attempting to do less of that.
(38:19):
It's hard.
I mean it's really,
definitely my,
I feel like it's a,
the energy I'm talking about is a very jewish.
It might be old school jewish energy.
I don't know though because a lot of my jewish friends when they talk about their parents who are younger than my parents were.
(38:39):
Um It's the same kind of like like this kind of pushing oh god,
energy that I'm trying to make peace with and um not bringing it to my life.
So that's something that I'm working on.
(39:00):
Um Okay so I would like to do a quick little energy report,
I will say just real quick um If you would like to work with me um I would love to work with you.
Um I have a,
what were you acting like I was saying it to you okay.
Um yeah,
(39:21):
I really,
I really love my um one on one work and I've started working with people in a mentorship capacity three months at a time and I have a couple of people ending now.
So I'm going to be having two more openings for this three month container which talk about like when we were talking about that,
(39:42):
the lessons,
once you make this like okay,
I'm going to do this,
the support the help,
the lessons they all come into play.
And um it's just so it's such an honor for me working with people in this capacity and um I really love it.
So if you would like to learn more about that,
you can go to highest light healing dot com and I guess just it's on there,
(40:05):
right?
Yeah.
Which I with the container.
It's a nice light healing dot com slash awakening.
Okay.
And you can also find it under the work with me section.
Okay,
Thank you.
That's my tech guy.
And um he sounds a lot like Brett and also I do one on one sessions.
(40:26):
I have cut back in that capacity a lot so that I can work.
I mean I've cut back in that so that I can um focus more on the awakening.
But um you,
I do love working with people like that as well and we look deeply into if there's something going on,
whatever the issue,
(40:47):
as I look at the energy underneath it and we clear out the energy that is coming up that you're ready to clear out be it with picture chakras,
past lives energy patterns the whole shebang.
And um I always give tools and tips to help you and it's a really wonderful clearing and getting to know yourself better about what's going on and um feel some relief and expansion and happiness,
(41:16):
why not?
So yeah,
um reach out if you would like to do that,
okay,
to do that cat an inside joke,
I'll just tell it real quick and it's not even gonna be interesting,
but now I feel like I have to,
my cat was 18,
I took him to this Danish vet and he jumped,
(41:38):
my cat jumped off the counter and the vet goes,
oh,
you can still do that cat,
and now I say that all the time.
Okay,
okay,
so quick energy report.
And basically what's happening is if you're listening to this tomorrow,
today Wednesday tomorrow Wednesday.
If you're listening to this Wednesday the 28th,
(42:01):
is that the right date?
Yeah,
okay,
Tomorrow the 29th,
which is a week.
A month from my birthday.
Hello,
fellow 20 niners.
Um it's Mercury retrograde.
So listen,
I'm feeling I already felt it and my Mercury,
it's in Capricorn.
So,
(42:22):
um I'm not in this child since time,
but my Mercury is in Capricorn and I did ask Britain are a friend of the show.
Astrologer,
does this mean it's going to be more for me because it's in Capricorn,
and she said yes,
um but what I'm saying to you is the energy that I'm feeling is I'll just skip to what would be most supportive,
(42:48):
which is to let yourself rest if you can let yourself go with whatever flow is happening,
deep breaths connecting to the body,
noticing,
oh,
I'm getting tense right now,
because this thing isn't working out the way I'd like to,
okay,
how does it feel to just allow myself to be here in this moment?
(43:08):
Can I allow it is to be all of that stuff?
Because it does feel a little um like you want to take a step forward,
but the,
you're doing it in,
in some wind,
there's some wind pushing you back.
That's how it feels to me.
Uh you know,
(43:29):
speaking of tests again,
she always mentions clutter clearing around this time.
Um I don't know if she's going to have a Mercury retrograde um challenge,
but it's fun to do with her.
If she does,
you can find her at test 444,
I think on the script anyway.
Um that's fun to do.
I've naturally been doing a lot of clearing and cleaning and I'm very sensitive to Mercury retrograde shadow,
(43:58):
which we've been in and it's been helpful to do that to clear out,
it's nice to clear out because then when I don't know like things come up where it's like oh this communication isn't right or um I don't know,
there's something about having a clear sense of your energy before any kind of miscommunications may or may not happen.
(44:24):
Um Doing a chakra healing is great,
clearing your energy regularly.
You can imagine a vacuum at the bottom of your grounding cord which goes from your first chakra to the middle of the earth.
Imagine vacuuming out anything that isn't yours that you don't want and then just explode the vacuum.
The earth will recycle it,
(44:44):
call in gold light,
you can sign up for my newsletter and I have a chakra healing that many people enjoy.
Um So yeah Brett does it on the walk sometimes with the dogs um so yeah doing those types of things clearing and then mostly I would just say really what I'm also getting a sense of is coziness if you can like do you enjoy a nice cozy cup of tea and feel warm and yeah then do that.
(45:17):
Oh my gosh my big splurge for um christmas that Brett got me was a towel warmer,
it's so heavenly,
you can also like oh my God so luxurious.
It's funny because my one friend I told she was like how european so european and then I told Laura,
(45:40):
my best friend and she was like they have those in europe and when my first friend told me,
I thought she was just saying that sounded european and I was like oh yes I'm european.
Yeah exactly like european meant fancy but apparently that is something I've never seen it when I've been to europe,
but apparently that's something they have in your I enjoy it greatly.
(46:04):
It's like the cozy,
oh my God,
just such nice warm thanks.
So anyway doing just being really um gentle with yourself.
I know I always say that anyway,
but I just keep getting like warm vibes energy like t being cozy,
(46:24):
allowing what is to be.
That's a nice mantra.
Can I allow is to B and B.
M.
P.
Yeah,
it's always a very nice mantra.
So that's where we're leaving you.
We hope you have a wonderful uh New Year.
If you celebrate it,
we're sending you lots of love and light and thank you so much for listening.
(46:49):
Listen,
tell people we would appreciate that so much.
We love it to have more people on board.
I've stopped,
I don't check anymore download so I have no idea what's happening.
But um it's very much appreciated because we love we love to talk to myself.
(47:11):
All right,
we'll see you next time.
Bye everybody
getting to know,
(00:02):
getting to know all about,
getting to like getting to hope you like,
whoa,
welcome to getting to know woo.
I'm Natasha Levinger,
a professional intuitive reader,
energy healer and inner child healing expert.
(00:24):
After being raised with extreme narcissism,
I found talk therapy was helpful,
but it wasn't until I found energy and inner child healing that I was able to break free of family patterns that cut me off from knowing and loving my true self.
I'm passionate about dispelling the rhetoric that these kinds of tools are impractical and ineffective and in this podcast I will be sharing how actually beneficial and transformative they are.
(00:49):
My husband and producer Brett will be joining me in conversation and we will be welcoming experts along the way.
I'm excited to have you here,
welcome back was in a tres users was donators.
I like wasn't actually that just reminded me of pollinators,
(01:12):
like we could have a resonator garden to attract listeners when they finished painting in the spring.
It's true.
We did get a recommendation from my friend jen,
I forget what she meant.
Remember it was on her christmas card,
I remember what it was,
(01:35):
jen,
let me know what it was because we don't remember,
but I liked it.
Well that would after.
Yeah,
that's a good point.
We can do,
I can put it in the show notes.
Um currently it's post obviously we weren't here last week.
(01:56):
Um it's post christmas last week and truly this week um has felt for me very,
I feel like we've gone into a void,
not just us,
it does feel like a general energy thing.
Like just this not,
I wouldn't call it necessarily heavy,
but it just feels very inward.
(02:18):
Yes.
Yeah,
I would agree with that.
Like,
I have felt like a hibernating bear.
Yeah.
In a way that I have never felt before the winter.
Yeah,
I feel that way too.
Oh my God.
David,
our cat is just looking at me and giving me love eyes and he keeps tapping me,
(02:39):
don't extend to pet his head.
Oh,
he's so cute.
We should somehow post a picture of him.
Oh God,
he's anyway,
so yeah,
it's been a very inward time.
I did ask on my instagram and surprisingly a couple of people did not feel that way,
(03:00):
but not everybody,
but most people I know um most people did feel this way a couple people felt in and out of it.
But um yeah,
to me it's really felt like a collective situation.
Oh my God.
Yeah.
I would actually like to amend my description.
I have felt like a bear that should be hibernating,
(03:23):
but isn't right.
You've been fighting the hibernation process a little bit a lot.
What do you mean?
I mean,
I'm annoyed by it because I have,
you know,
that don't like me when I'm being industrious,
but I am actually doing it instead of not doing it.
Like I'm sleeping more when I feel sleepy than I.
(03:46):
Yeah,
that's true.
So the internal struggles are what they are,
but I am trying to give,
you know,
listen to them at least physically.
Yeah,
that's what I meant by fighting it upsetting you.
Um but we did have a very nice christmas um this today on the show,
(04:11):
we don't have a guest and we don't have a guest next week either.
Um and I don't know,
this actually goes along with how I've been feeling lately.
I don't know if this is gonna go on the energy report or not,
but I've just,
I've had a very strong message from my intuition to,
well I actually am gonna talk about this,
(04:31):
but I'll just say to stop efforting,
our episode today is going to be about intentions and what does it mean to set them.
Um but for the new year,
if you celebrate the Gregorian calendar new year,
um but um yeah,
part of that is I've just really been getting the information not to be efforting.
(04:55):
So if I feel like intuition hit to like to ask for a guest,
then I will,
but otherwise yeah,
I guess I haven't told you that you haven't,
well,
I've been feeling that in general and I just realized this moment that it goes along with this as well.
(05:16):
I see,
I see I'm down for it,
I like listening to your intuition um and yeah,
so we had a nice christmas Brett made me a diehard ornament,
which I really loved and I loved I heart and I love I guess I love Bruce Willis?
(05:38):
I feel sad for him anyway,
that's another story.
But we were watching Die Hard.
Oh,
by the way,
if you have suggestions for guests that you're like,
oh,
I would like them to talk about this,
you can email us and I will definitely listen to it.
Yeah,
topics that we could,
you know,
I I refuse even if it's put right in front of me,
(06:00):
um I was gonna say their topics or or specific guests,
like if there are people you want us to,
you would like to have on the show heads up.
We don't have a lot of pull.
So if you're like,
oh,
I wish I'd get Brittany Brown.
So do I.
To be fair,
we have not reached out to bring around that we haven't been turned down yet.
(06:25):
That's true.
Would your who would your,
do you have an ideal guest that you would like to speak to me?
Are you asking me the listeners listeners,
um an ideal guest?
Like do you mean type of guest or person or both?
(06:48):
Either one?
Um No,
I mean,
no,
I don't.
But I mean,
my foray into like uh into the world of people who would be our guests is still pretty limited,
you know what I mean?
I feel like it's a spoiler alert,
but maybe Damien Echols would be someone you would like to talk to?
(07:11):
Oh yeah,
sure,
definitely,
definitely.
That is a little bit of a spoiler alert.
Were you trying to,
you're trying to set me up for that.
I just realized,
oh,
that would be so funny.
My ideal guest would be Liz.
Gilbert.
So just putting it out into the universe is her name Liz on her books.
(07:36):
No,
but I will say that she,
I feel like she talks about herself enough like that in all of the various contexts that a lot of people who don't know her refer to her as Liz is what I like when I meet when I talk to other people about her,
(07:57):
they often will call her Liz and they don't know her.
Right,
Right.
No,
I mean it doesn't,
it's not out of out of character with her voice.
Certainly for someone who doesn't know how to call her Liz,
it's not like you are calling Brown a Brown nay or something.
No,
I would call her name anyway,
so we,
(08:18):
we do want to get to the spoiler alert,
but do you want to say anything else?
If people are curious about our christmas or Hanukkah?
We do what we usually do.
We light the candle on the first night,
Forget for multiple nights,
there'll be a candle that here and there.
I'll do some kind of mishmash of the prayer and I'll you know,
(08:44):
do it wrong.
Listen,
this is what it takes when you were not raised with the actual traditions but you are 100% jewish,
tell me what it takes.
You know that song was on the speakers at some where was,
I don't know,
(09:04):
at some store I was in and I was like,
I haven't heard this song in years,
tell me what it takes to make,
you know um that's a shout out to jen because another shout out to jen,
jen gets to shout out because we were in a band together and I think we covered that song.
(09:28):
Okay,
didn't remember as your,
as your official roadie.
I can verify that you covered that.
I think that's when I was still playing the piano with one hand.
Maybe I added a second.
I didn't don't stop believing.
(09:48):
I only had one hand.
Oh,
I didn't notice that.
Oh yeah,
it was a feature.
Anyway,
moving on.
Oh,
so that's what we did then.
Christmas was really fun bread.
Always makes these really delicious breakfast.
Would you call them sandwiches?
I would call them sandwiches,
although they are made in a nine by 13 casserole dish.
(10:11):
Mhm.
And he always makes me really great gifts and um the kids had a good time and it was a good day.
Yeah,
I don't know.
Yeah,
you don't know what,
I don't know why,
but I,
I really loved this christmas morning like as much even or possibly more than when they were like little little Yeah,
(10:37):
it just was really,
it was a really nice connected feeling our daughter got a bunch of what she calls vinyl records.
I mean they are vinyl records.
She refuses to just call them records or vinyl you don't um Okay,
so let's talk about before we get to intention setting.
(10:59):
Um let's talk about what's been going on for you,
although let's just do a quick little thing and say,
hey,
have you reviewed the podcast?
Oh,
we love it.
If you would that be so great or just read it on i on Spotify,
thank you so much for everybody who already has.
We're so appreciative.
(11:19):
I was going to come up with something and I intend to,
you know,
Yeah,
I have a lot of intention.
Speaking of intentions.
But yeah,
but we really would appreciate it helps people,
I don't know how much it affects the algorithm,
but I think it does affect things like people who see it.
(11:41):
They're like,
oh,
people actually listen to this and they like it.
There's there's been a couple of silent one stars.
Yeah.
And I appreciate them.
Yeah,
it's okay.
Can I thought you were calling them out for their cowardice?
Oh,
I was calling them out for being ***.
(12:03):
Wait,
were they hitting on us when they did it and gave us a backhanded compliment.
That's what that's what that's my understanding of nagging is when you when you say something that sounds like a compliment,
but also undermines the person's self esteem slightly.
(12:23):
Um it's I thought it was just being negative nelly just like nagging something.
Well certainly it could be that that is not the context that I know it in.
Um I'm looking it up an urban dictionary dictionary says a slang way too slang way to it.
(12:44):
There's a there's a typo in the urban slang to imply that someone or something is not good enough to insult with a backhanded compliment or with or with qualified approval.
Especially as a ploy to lower the self esteem of a person or cheapen an object before showing romantic interest or making an offer.
(13:08):
I see you were right.
Well I haven't gotten the you know the nobody's asked me out as a result of this.
Yeah so maybe it's just it's just an hour insult.
I don't know.
(13:29):
Um Tell us what's been going on.
I thought it would be good we thought it would be good to talk about.
Um Because Brett has been how would you put it?
I was gonna say delving into magic.
Well that feels um inaccurate at the moment only because there's been more a decision to delve than actual delving.
(13:53):
But I I was I to make the story short that there was a series of events that that sort of led me to listening to the audiobook of Damien Echols.
Um Oh I should know the title but his it's a guidebook for practicing magic with a C.
K.
(14:13):
And um as opposed to just a C.
Okay but anyway I the I'm excited about it and also you know I have some trepidation about it but I'm feeling very drawn to it.
Um And um the kind of the way that he practices magic is pretty um structured but in a way that I find appealing and that I think will be helpful for me as I start to study it.
(14:48):
But is it called high Magic a guide to spiritual practices that saved my life on death row?
Yes that sounds right.
That sounds right.
I mean it's mostly it's a little bit it's an introduction.
I mean his story is fascinating for he was one of the west Memphis three.
(15:08):
He was wrongly accused of having killed um uh I think multiple Children in satanic rituals and was on death row for a long time I think possibly decades before he was released.
And he lost his a lot of his eyesight because of how he was kept in like low light conditions.
(15:31):
Yeah he was kept in in solitary confinement for a lot of that.
I believe his his eyesight has has returned but it was it was failing um I could be wrong about that.
He should sit in front of a red light.
Yeah if he doesn't know about that already.
He might side by,
yeah when we have him on we can talk to him about it.
(15:55):
But anyway I'm excited about starting that.
I haven't actually delved into it but there's he's got it's a pretty prescribed course uh and um I am setting an intention to begin doing that.
So and it's like there's a breath technique around meditating and then there's the Banishing Rich,
(16:19):
how do you call it?
The lower banishing ritual of the pentagram?
Right.
Um that is,
I have not even gotten to that.
There are several steps before you get there.
That was the one that tests uh former co host of magic monday test.
Whitehurst was was big into doing and I believe it's from that book.
But there's she did that one.
(16:40):
Yeah,
I was,
I've done it before.
You've done that.
I've done it.
Yeah,
there's Amanda Yates Garcia,
I think that's her name.
She has one on Youtube.
I think that you can follow her along and I did that one time.
What was it like?
I really liked it.
(17:01):
It's so it uses your body,
it is extensive but at the time I was also doing the Markaba meditation every morning which is also extensive but doesn't use your body.
Um it does feel really grounding.
There's something very beautiful and um aligning and to do something that extensive as a meditation every morning like setting yourself up if you have the ability to do something like that.
(17:33):
It's just,
it's very,
to me it really connects me to my higher self in a very clear way and one of the things I love about this is I found to be very true that if you do the same practice even if it isn't a long one at the same time every day.
It amplifies the energy.
(17:54):
Yeah.
Damien Echols would agree with you.
The very first thing that you're supposed to do is the is practice the fourfold breath at least five minutes every day for a month before you move on to anything else at the same time.
Um He's well yeah,
I mean I don't remember him saying specifically do it at the same time but he made recommendations for there.
(18:18):
There are three variations of the fourfold breath that you start with.
Um And he recommended specific times to do them.
But he didn't,
I mean I guess it's kind of implied he didn't say do this at the same time every day.
Yeah.
But there is something very magical about that.
Like I mean you can like it can be within a few minutes but there's something about doing it at the same exact time,
(18:44):
night or morning,
whatever.
It amplifies energy.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I know.
I mean I'm it's that is part of the ritual of,
it is part of what I'm being,
what I'm drawn,
finding myself drawn to and that you seem a little down and out in Beverly hills.
(19:06):
Am I reading into this or is your energy low?
I don't feel like either of those is true.
I'm definitely not feeling down.
I thought my energy level was I would say normal,
which is not ebullient,
but here I turn it up here,
(19:29):
I am.
My energy is up.
I but it did bring didn't bring up some religious trauma stuff for you.
Oh yeah,
no,
for sure.
I mean like the whole,
well the I mean part of the I was sort of shortcut this part of the story,
but like the stuff that came up for me when we interviewed Jonathan Coe on the last episode um was was part of what led me to this and I mean I just have a lot of stuff about trusting authority when I can't,
(20:10):
when it's hard for me to know why what they're saying is the way it is and like and so I am doing this partly as an exercise to push back against that because that that part of me is also extremely scared of like getting tricked and like hurt as a result of it.
(20:34):
Like emotionally yeah,
hurt.
And um because that's what happened as a kid.
Yeah,
Well that's yeah,
I mean that's I left the religion that I was raised with because it is nonsense.
(20:56):
But I mean,
I feel like I I feel like clarifying what that what the trick part means because like I wasn't like I was not like abused by anyone by leaders of the,
you know,
any of my like leaders in the church or anything like that.
It was just that I was raised to believe this thing that I came to no longer believe and that the mistrust that that raised is something that I'm you know,
(21:27):
still contending with.
Um but anyway,
so I'm doing this partly as a way to push back against that part that is scared of that because I don't have,
you know,
like just to show myself that I can try things and like they don't have to become my whole life and and you know,
(21:51):
I don't have to commit to them the way I was asked to commit to the to the church.
So and also you can do it and you can like it without necessarily understanding on an intellectual level why it's working.
Yes.
Yes.
I mean that's the less part of I mean,
(22:14):
I mean,
yes,
that is that is definitely true.
But like I already have experience with that with with like your energy healings.
Like that's like I have no idea how they work.
I mean,
I know the part of me that would want to really understand how uh is not,
does not have a satisfying answer,
but I know that they do.
So like I don't like I don't struggle with that that part anymore.
(22:38):
But um but I also like about it.
Like one thing that I love about the way you practice um all of your uh various woo endeavors and also this is you know what Damien Echols said in the book was that it's you take and refine what works and what doesn't like,
(22:59):
here's how I'm suggesting to do it.
If that if something slightly different works for you,
then do it that way.
So um well it's exciting.
I can't wait for you to start.
Do you know when you're going to start,
do you have a start date?
I would have started already if I knew when I was going to start.
It's just the inertia of picking up a new habit.
That's,
that's stopping me at the moment.
(23:21):
And also the weirdness of two weeks off during christmas time and also the bear energy.
Yeah.
Well,
I mean,
yeah,
yeah,
I mean that's that is less an obstacle for this.
Um,
for,
you know,
for starting this so much as my difficulty in changing routines.
(23:42):
I think it'll be good to come up with.
Well this is maybe my um,
how I look at things,
but I think it'd be good to just like decide when you're going to do it and then you can report back here to this very spot.
Are you saying say a date right now?
No,
no,
no.
I'm saying like in your mind be like,
okay,
I'm gonna start tomorrow or whenever and you know,
(24:05):
make a plan,
otherwise it probably won't happen.
Oh yeah,
no,
no,
I agree with that.
I mean,
yeah,
the way we can talk about the logistics of,
I mean off air.
Okay,
so let's talk about intentions or resolutions and what that is like because like I said this time I personally resonate more with the um jewish new year,
(24:31):
which is in september,
it always feels more new year.
E to me,
I don't know if it's because it's like back to school or what,
like that kind of feeling,
but um,
I still like the idea of it and I'll get into this maybe a little bit in the energy report,
I'll do a quick energy report.
But um,
(24:51):
but what I do,
I still do like the idea of checking in with and and making resolutions and intentions.
Um,
and so what I'm,
what I realized a couple of things that helped me feel,
um good about it.
So one of them is looking at it as instead of like a new year resolution,
(25:17):
looking at it as like the next three months or just like a smaller time period because otherwise when I start to think of the year,
my literally,
I just feel like I just start seeing static energy in front of me.
It just feels like I don't even know how to manage that,
that feels like too large of a chunk of time and I was thinking about it actually wrote about this a little bit in the energy report for mind,
(25:45):
body green,
but like when you tell it like,
like a kid doesn't have a really good concept of time,
time isn't real anyway,
but like if you're like,
oh,
we'll do that in a year to a little kid,
it feels like you may as well just say it's never going to happen.
And I feel like for a lot of our inner Children,
(26:06):
when we set goals like that our intentions,
the inner child feels like that and I feel like that's a lot of the reason why there's rebellion about it or resistance because it's like,
it feels too much.
It feels like at least that's that's just my heartache.
Yeah,
(26:27):
Well,
no,
that makes a lot of sense and I mean,
I feel like a lot of people don't even set resolutions for a year.
It's like my life is different starting now,
like your whole life,
like I am no longer going to do the things that are natural to me,
I am going,
(26:48):
It actually makes me a little sad because I remember in high school a lot of times I had no support.
I mean,
I never had support but a lot of times I'd be like,
I'm gonna turn a new leaf.
That was like my big thing that I would tell myself like if I was failing in school or whatever and I was like,
I'm gonna turn a new leaf and then it just,
(27:09):
I I did have momentum for a little bit,
but I just had no way to do deal,
I had no support systems in place.
So that's another thing,
like,
I think it's really important to know that humans need support systems,
even if that is you yourself have created these support systems around yourself to help you create these things because yeah,
(27:34):
so the other thing I realized is so first of all,
smaller chunks.
Second of all I realized that it's good to have an internal goal if you have an external goal to have an internal goal associated with it.
So like for instance for me,
of course,
(27:54):
just because this is how I operate,
I came up with the internal goal first but I realized like that I really want to this,
you know,
over this next little chunk of time,
have an internal sense of safety in a bigger way.
I just realized like how much this feeling inside that that I have a lot of freeze response still and that's coming from an inner child not feeling safe.
(28:22):
And so I want to cultivate that sense of safety,
that's a goal of mine,
wow!
Part of that is like,
so I have a book coming out in april um I am developing a group program because that's something I'm feeling really drawn to doing.
(28:43):
I don't know what that's going to be yet,
but I want to have this sense of safety,
like let's just choose the book when the book comes out,
whatever happens with it.
I want to be notice when I go into freeze response.
No,
like have a real,
that's really the biggest thing for me at this point is noticing it and I have been noticing actually and the universe is amazing because you,
(29:09):
once you set these sort of any kind of intentions,
like if you're noticing you start to get a lot of signs about it.
So I started noticing I wake up every morning basically in that like that my body is in freeze response,
which in Pete walker's book,
see ptsd from thriving,
(29:31):
surviving to thriving.
He talks about,
you can have emotional flashbacks even in your sleep and like wake up like that.
And so anyway,
this is all the way of saying that.
So I started to notice that and then I,
I would just start reading little snippets of books that talk about internal power and I started to like for instance,
(29:55):
um essentially that about giving your power away,
that if you want something else,
let's take the book again.
Okay,
I want the book to sell a lot and reach a lot of people,
but I could look at that in a holistic way and like,
wouldn't that be great,
that would make me feel so fulfilled that I was helping people or could be in a freeze response way,
(30:17):
which is,
oh my God,
I'm giving my power away to this,
this has to happen or I'm a failure.
So there's a lot of,
I'm realizing how much my freeze responses associated with giving my power to something like that,
like instagram or you know,
um if people like this thing or whatever,
have I really got off on a tangent anyway,
(30:38):
my point being that the internal finding the internal goal that to support yourself um is a support system kind of like what I was talking about with turning a new leaf,
like if I had had some kind of,
oh I noticed that I'm not feeling safe,
I never could have come to that at that point.
(30:59):
But now how do I create my sense of safety within?
So obviously for me it's in our child work,
its energy healing.
It's okay just noticing helps it to move because I've already done so much inner child work just noticing it.
Then I already have all this love for my inner child in place and it moves pretty quickly.
(31:19):
Um but so yeah,
so having that with that um and yeah,
for just as I've been exploring that more,
the other part is just realizing how much um I've been that urgent inner child part is part of this,
(31:40):
like,
oh God,
I have to do,
like I have to write to these people to get my,
you know,
because I um like want to promote the book on different sites,
but there's a feeling of urgency with the unsafe t and then I realized,
oh that has to do with winning.
I talked to that inner child part and I saw it has to do with I have this inner child that thinks she can win or lose?
(32:04):
It's one or the other?
So does that make sense?
Okay,
so it's like that once I create safety with her,
like,
oh my God,
no,
there's no winning or losing.
It's just like,
you know your this is not your worthy regardless.
That helps create more safety.
(32:25):
And then I can start listening like I know when my intuition tells me,
oh right too,
you know whatever Oprah Daily or whatever that it's coming from a place of oh that feels like a good fit as opposed to I have to do this.
So that's how I'm feeling about intentions,
(32:48):
small chunks um and ideally having an inner and if you and you know what,
you don't even have to have an external goal,
you don't have any any goals if you don't want to,
that's fine.
But if you feel drawn to it,
I would suggest um Choosing one of them.
(33:12):
So are you,
are you using intentions synonymous lee with the way like in this instance with the way people use um resolutions,
like it is my intention to do X,
Y or Z.
Yeah.
Yeah,
I think so.
I think um resolutions feels harsher to me,
(33:34):
like intentions feels more like I intend to do this and it feels more flexible to me,
but if you're somebody that likes the idea of resolution and if that resonates better than either way,
it can be interchangeable.
But yes,
that's how I'm looking at it,
is it different than doing something with intention,
(33:58):
like is that a different use of that word,
you know what I mean,
like when you light your candles with intention as opposed to just lighting them to light them right?
Um I guess it feels to me in this case it is a goal or it is like it's my intention to notice when I'm not feeling safe in my body,
(34:23):
but it also is like goal isn't exactly the right word.
Yeah,
I mean it's a very,
it's a much more like directed sort of productivity,
Yeah,
yeah,
yeah and it does feel like I want that,
you know,
(34:43):
this is something that I am wanting to do right,
right,
and it is,
do you agree also that like with intention there is a certain amount of like if not giving that intention to the universe at least like you're calling on help from wherever it comes from,
(35:06):
do you agree with that?
Yeah,
yeah,
I think that's part of why I did start seeing all of it,
like literally three different books,
I was reading that discussion of power came in and but I was like wow,
I am really supposed to hear this,
so yeah,
I think it does bring in that element of it if you're open to it,
(35:30):
Yeah,
I like that um what about,
oh,
so I guess your intention or resolution is to do the magic stuff um yeah,
I mean that's definitely one of them.
Um,
we uh,
me and the kids started taekwondo,
so I have an intention to uh devote myself to that practice to do it three times a week.
(35:56):
Uh,
and some other things that I definitely want to want to do that aren't maybe fully formed enough to express eloquently at the moment,
but yeah,
I mean the magic is a,
is a big one because it feels,
it feels like a big opportunity for reasons I can't fully put my finger on you like that.
(36:18):
Yeah,
I also,
um,
for some reason I have been feeling a draw to make friends locally because I have a lot of friends across the United States of America and I don't know why I've been having this impulse,
like I want to have friends locally and I've been running.
(36:41):
So,
um,
I'm combining those two potentially and joining this little running thing.
Um well anyway,
the point is that I'm going to start that next,
well I might start meeting up with people to run is what I'm trying to say.
Hmm,
I'm just gonna also,
(37:03):
yeah,
do different kinds of,
there's something else I can't remember right now.
But anyway,
so because I was going to run the half marathon with you,
but Covid is,
has taken a toll on your stamina.
So I'm not,
I don't really want to train for that by myself.
Um,
but I still want to run more,
(37:25):
which I have been doing.
Um And also I got this or a ring I splurged on myself and got this ordering which has been um documenting my movement and a little chastising time to stretch your legs,
question mark will say and but I do think I maybe haven't been moving enough.
(37:50):
So that's something anyway,
those are the things.
Oh yeah and I mean that I'm intending to do move a little bit more and then the other thing is not,
it's this goes along with the safety thing and the urgent part is allowing things to come to me that I guess I already said it like noticing what I'm efforting and attempting to do less of that.
(38:19):
It's hard.
I mean it's really,
definitely my,
I feel like it's a,
the energy I'm talking about is a very jewish.
It might be old school jewish energy.
I don't know though because a lot of my jewish friends when they talk about their parents who are younger than my parents were.
(38:39):
Um It's the same kind of like like this kind of pushing oh god,
energy that I'm trying to make peace with and um not bringing it to my life.
So that's something that I'm working on.
(39:00):
Um Okay so I would like to do a quick little energy report,
I will say just real quick um If you would like to work with me um I would love to work with you.
Um I have a,
what were you acting like I was saying it to you okay.
Um yeah,
(39:21):
I really,
I really love my um one on one work and I've started working with people in a mentorship capacity three months at a time and I have a couple of people ending now.
So I'm going to be having two more openings for this three month container which talk about like when we were talking about that,
(39:42):
the lessons,
once you make this like okay,
I'm going to do this,
the support the help,
the lessons they all come into play.
And um it's just so it's such an honor for me working with people in this capacity and um I really love it.
So if you would like to learn more about that,
you can go to highest light healing dot com and I guess just it's on there,
(40:05):
right?
Yeah.
Which I with the container.
It's a nice light healing dot com slash awakening.
Okay.
And you can also find it under the work with me section.
Okay,
Thank you.
That's my tech guy.
And um he sounds a lot like Brett and also I do one on one sessions.
(40:26):
I have cut back in that capacity a lot so that I can work.
I mean I've cut back in that so that I can um focus more on the awakening.
But um you,
I do love working with people like that as well and we look deeply into if there's something going on,
whatever the issue,
(40:47):
as I look at the energy underneath it and we clear out the energy that is coming up that you're ready to clear out be it with picture chakras,
past lives energy patterns the whole shebang.
And um I always give tools and tips to help you and it's a really wonderful clearing and getting to know yourself better about what's going on and um feel some relief and expansion and happiness,
(41:16):
why not?
So yeah,
um reach out if you would like to do that,
okay,
to do that cat an inside joke,
I'll just tell it real quick and it's not even gonna be interesting,
but now I feel like I have to,
my cat was 18,
I took him to this Danish vet and he jumped,
(41:38):
my cat jumped off the counter and the vet goes,
oh,
you can still do that cat,
and now I say that all the time.
Okay,
okay,
so quick energy report.
And basically what's happening is if you're listening to this tomorrow,
today Wednesday tomorrow Wednesday.
If you're listening to this Wednesday the 28th,
(42:01):
is that the right date?
Yeah,
okay,
Tomorrow the 29th,
which is a week.
A month from my birthday.
Hello,
fellow 20 niners.
Um it's Mercury retrograde.
So listen,
I'm feeling I already felt it and my Mercury,
it's in Capricorn.
So,
(42:22):
um I'm not in this child since time,
but my Mercury is in Capricorn and I did ask Britain are a friend of the show.
Astrologer,
does this mean it's going to be more for me because it's in Capricorn,
and she said yes,
um but what I'm saying to you is the energy that I'm feeling is I'll just skip to what would be most supportive,
(42:48):
which is to let yourself rest if you can let yourself go with whatever flow is happening,
deep breaths connecting to the body,
noticing,
oh,
I'm getting tense right now,
because this thing isn't working out the way I'd like to,
okay,
how does it feel to just allow myself to be here in this moment?
(43:08):
Can I allow it is to be all of that stuff?
Because it does feel a little um like you want to take a step forward,
but the,
you're doing it in,
in some wind,
there's some wind pushing you back.
That's how it feels to me.
Uh you know,
(43:29):
speaking of tests again,
she always mentions clutter clearing around this time.
Um I don't know if she's going to have a Mercury retrograde um challenge,
but it's fun to do with her.
If she does,
you can find her at test 444,
I think on the script anyway.
Um that's fun to do.
I've naturally been doing a lot of clearing and cleaning and I'm very sensitive to Mercury retrograde shadow,
(43:58):
which we've been in and it's been helpful to do that to clear out,
it's nice to clear out because then when I don't know like things come up where it's like oh this communication isn't right or um I don't know,
there's something about having a clear sense of your energy before any kind of miscommunications may or may not happen.
(44:24):
Um Doing a chakra healing is great,
clearing your energy regularly.
You can imagine a vacuum at the bottom of your grounding cord which goes from your first chakra to the middle of the earth.
Imagine vacuuming out anything that isn't yours that you don't want and then just explode the vacuum.
The earth will recycle it,
(44:44):
call in gold light,
you can sign up for my newsletter and I have a chakra healing that many people enjoy.
Um So yeah Brett does it on the walk sometimes with the dogs um so yeah doing those types of things clearing and then mostly I would just say really what I'm also getting a sense of is coziness if you can like do you enjoy a nice cozy cup of tea and feel warm and yeah then do that.
(45:17):
Oh my gosh my big splurge for um christmas that Brett got me was a towel warmer,
it's so heavenly,
you can also like oh my God so luxurious.
It's funny because my one friend I told she was like how european so european and then I told Laura,
(45:40):
my best friend and she was like they have those in europe and when my first friend told me,
I thought she was just saying that sounded european and I was like oh yes I'm european.
Yeah exactly like european meant fancy but apparently that is something I've never seen it when I've been to europe,
but apparently that's something they have in your I enjoy it greatly.
(46:04):
It's like the cozy,
oh my God,
just such nice warm thanks.
So anyway doing just being really um gentle with yourself.
I know I always say that anyway,
but I just keep getting like warm vibes energy like t being cozy,
(46:24):
allowing what is to be.
That's a nice mantra.
Can I allow is to B and B.
M.
P.
Yeah,
it's always a very nice mantra.
So that's where we're leaving you.
We hope you have a wonderful uh New Year.
If you celebrate it,
we're sending you lots of love and light and thank you so much for listening.
(46:49):
Listen,
tell people we would appreciate that so much.
We love it to have more people on board.
I've stopped,
I don't check anymore download so I have no idea what's happening.
But um it's very much appreciated because we love we love to talk to myself.
(47:11):
All right,
we'll see you next time.
Bye everybody
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