April 22, 2024 • 20 mins
Join host Mark A. Turnipseed in an insightful episode of the 'Seeds of Change' podcast, weaving reflections on personal struggles, growth, and the power of everyday integrity. Tune in as he explores the importance of small, daily accomplishments, introducing the concept of 'micro-whys' for sustained personal pride and transformation.
Dive into a deep discussion on managing our own expectations and escaping the pitfalls of social media comparison. Take part in a thought-provoking conversation about nurturing self-pride through acts of integrity and cultivating a healthier attitude towards goal achievement and self-worth. Stand by Mark as he shares an inspiring tale symbolizing the role of integrity in self-transformation.
The second section sees Mark talking about the pivotal role of integrity in his life. Learning to imbue this paramount virtue into every action, he witnesses how it fuels self-assuredness, leading to a more gratifying life. The episode encourages listeners to integrate authenticity into their lifestyle, highlighting the profound change it sparkles, extending from fitness and diet to spirituality and thought processes.
This episode concludes with a compelling call to action: leveraging personal integrity to tap into one's potential and embarking on the transformative journey towards self-pride. Tune in to Mark Turnipseed's 'Seeds of Change' podcast and take your first step into a more fulfilling, balanced life today!
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Music.
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Seeds of Change podcast. I am your host, Mark A.
Turnipseed, and I'm thrilled to be here, excited to be talking about another
wonderful, wonderful seed of change that has occurred in my life.
So many years of my life, as long as I can remember, until the past five years,
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I guess, I've never really understood what it's like to be proud of oneself,
to be proud of the things that I've done.
I always, with all these types of things, it's like, why?
There's always the question of why. Why weren't you proud of the things that you did, right?
Why wasn't I proud when I left college?
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I graduated with 3.4, but I wasn't proud.
I wasn't proud of myself. I wasn't proud of myself at all. My parents were proud
of me. They came out to the graduation. I was out in Montana.
I even had a lot of family come out to the graduation all the way out in Montana, really proud about me.
When I was a kid, I remember being in different sports teams and I was never
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proud of my performance.
Even though I might be starting, I was still never truly proud of who and what I was doing.
I kind of, I feel like I always like looked outwards and maybe I I put people
on pedestals too much or something, but I always kind of compared myself to them.
And I would be like, if I was like them, I would be more proud of who I am.
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And I think, I think part of that is largely because when I,
when you see somebody out and about in the street, right.
Or on Instagram, you don't see the, the little dirties, you know,
you don't see the little itty bitty things that go on in their life that can
cause a discontent with oneself. Right.
And that's kind of what I started noticing over the past five years is it wasn't the big things.
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It wasn't the big things. It wasn't going to college. It wasn't completing college.
It wasn't starting on the team.
It wasn't doing an Ironman, right? It wasn't any of those things that were going
to make me proud of myself.
It seemed like my whole life I could do those types of things.
I could do things that I set my mind out to.
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And ultimately, once I achieved it, I could be completely unhappy and not proud of myself.
Now, with that, I'm not okay living that way, right?
I'm not okay living that way because ultimately what it seems like is that the
goals seem like they're futile, right?
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It's like I make these big goals, like I want to be an Ironman,
and so I work so hard to get there, I do it, and if I'm still living under the
way that I grew up, right, if I'm I'm still living with that mindset that I
can't be proud of myself,
then ultimately when I get done doing the thing, I'm just going to need more
or I'm going to start to go, does anything have hope? Does anything have hope?
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And I know that there's a lot of people out there who feel similar to I.
It's like, if I'm not going to feel proud of myself, then what's the point?
If I'm not going going to feel proud or if I'm not going to help some people,
if I'm not going to come away from this feeling like a better person, then what's the point?
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What's the point in fitness when we don't feel like we're bettering ourselves?
I see it all the time. I see it in the gym all the time when I'm in there.
People trying to lift, people trying to push through it, and people having a
a difficult time because where's the why?
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Now I've developed or I found inside of myself a system of locating the,
they're like micro-whys, right?
Like little micro-whys. Instead of a why being so big, being like,
I want to get my bicep five inches bigger, right?
Instead of it being something so big, or I want to do an Ironman,
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or I want to graduate college, and then I'll be proud of myself,
instead of it being so big, we can dial it all the way back and we can look at the little things,
look at all the little itty bitty things in your life that are making you unproud.
Because once you achieve those big things, the big goals.
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If you still have the little things in your life that you're unproud of,
then by the time you reach the big goal, you're still going to be unproud of
yourself based on those little itty bitty things.
Because those little things are still going to be there.
And they're like, they're like little flies in your life, right?
And if you're trying, if you're trying to live a life that you're proud of,
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you've got to find a way to take care of all those little itty bitty things.
The good news is, is those little itty bitty things, they're super easy to take
care of. They're really small.
And usually they don't require much effort, right? I remember about six years
ago, I was driving this lawnmower and I hit this rock.
This rock said integrity on it. And at this point, I was 230 pounds.
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I was in a miserable state of depression.
And when I hit this rock and saw integrity, it was like I...
Knew that that was the answer to all my problems.
Like if I just took this rock and then I started looking at all the little things,
all the little areas in my life where I wasn't proud of myself,
and I put this rock in it, right?
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And I started setting a foundation of integrity and all those little things that I wasn't proud of,
that then I would begin to foster to a life that I was proud I would begin to
foster to an existence that I was proud of.
I think that's key right there is fostering to an existence.
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Not fostering to what you do, what you become, not fostering to these big lavish goals, right?
It's fostering to the little itty bitty things that create the being of who you are, right?
So when I wake up, for instance, the being of who I am is I wake up and I find
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the positivity in the day.
I find the positivity and I find the excitement, and that is a little thing that I do.
And with integrity, I make myself do that. With integrity, I don't go a day without doing that.
And I do that through practices of meditation, devotions, right?
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Those things, those journaling things, they help me to shift my mindset and
bring me into a state of positivity in a morning where I'm otherwise not ready to go.
I also find my coffee, but I only find my coffee to be something that adds to
it if I do it mindfully. right?
So if I take it and take a deep breath, smell it, feel it,
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enjoy it, if I use integrity in my mindset, in my mindfulness while I'm waking
up in the morning, then it's going to make me enjoy my morning more and enjoy my day more, right?
And that is ultimately where pride comes in.
If I keep layering that stuff on, so if I keep going, okay, I'm feeling a little
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bit uppity because I journaled, I did my devotionals, I'm starting to get inspired,
I know the sun's coming up soon, and then I know, all right,
I'm going to go take care of my first task of the day.
My first task of the day is just simply to make my bed, and I'm the only one
who's going to know if that bed's made or not, right? I'm the only one who knows.
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And if I go and I make that bed and then I make it good and I make it,
I become proud of myself.
I become proud of myself. And then the next thing that I do,
you know, I pack my clothes for the gym, right?
If I didn't pack it the night before, I pack my clothes for the gym.
One way that I become really proud of myself is if I'm leaving the house,
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like I walk down the steps, right?
And I have my bag on and And I don't have to go back up.
I become so fucking proud of myself when I don't have to run back up my steps
to get a car key because a lot of mornings y'all, I have to run up three,
four, maybe even five times to get everything ready for my day as I'm headed out the door.
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And then I'll get on my bike or I'll get on my, in my truck and I'll start driving
and I'll realize I don't have the garage remote and I'll have to run back inside
and then I'll come and then I'll realize I don't have my water bottle.
I have to run back inside.
Right? So that is mindfulness. The error that's going on there and why I'm slipping
up and why I'm slowly beginning to make myself less proud of myself through
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that morning, through that morning routine is I'm starting to rush about it.
I'm starting to rush through things. I'm starting to rush and going, I need to get to this.
I need to get to this. I need to get to this. I need to get to this to do it
instead of being, right?
Instead of using integrity and just being. Like that state of being, right?
That state of applying integrity to what you are being in the moment,
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that is going to build so much more pride in what you do than just by doing
what you do, than just by reaching the goal from what you do. you trust me. Trust me.
If you, if you, if you reach a goal, if you reach a goal and you,
you do an Ironman, right.
And you do an Ironman all the way.
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That means you run the whole way. You bike the whole way. You swim the whole
way. You do the whole thing. You don't walk a heartbeat.
That means that you've done it with integrity, right? You've actually run.
You've actually swam. You've actually biked. I've never even done one completely
without walking, right?
I've walked in all of them. And that's because in my training,
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I know that I've slacked a little bit.
I've missed a little bit of integrity.
I've missed valuable training episodes.
I've gone a little bit less than. And when I get out on the race course.
I'm pushing myself a little bit less in. That is integrity.
And I fail at it all the time, y'all.
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But I'm telling you that when I do live more mindful and more based in being
all the way, giving my fullest being in everything,
in every training episode and in every race, then I become more proud of myself.
And it's on a spectrum, right? So my last race, for instance,
since I only walked a couple of minutes and that I walked for a mile 18.
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I guess it was more than a couple of minutes.
I walked from mile 18 to mile 20. I walked two miles.
That's the shortest I've ever walked in an Ironman run.
And I was so proud of myself, right?
I was so proud of myself because based in, based on who I am,
I excelled and I pushed myself beyond something that I thought that I could do.
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And that's what it is. That's all it is. That's all integrity is.
That's it. That's all it is, is really when you, when you want to do something
and you, and you do something that's more right or more full or more good, right?
Then, then what you really wanted to do, like maybe you just,
maybe, maybe you're, maybe you're driving down the road, right?
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And you, and you cut someone off and then you feel a little bit of a tinge inside
that goes, oh, oh, I'm just not a good person, right?
You might have that introspection like I do.
When I cut somebody off, I feel like a selfish asshole, right?
If you have those little things in your life, then the trick is to start cutting
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those out, those little itty-bitty things, like cutting people off.
Or maybe you should let someone in front of you in the grocery line,
right? Maybe you should help somebody grab something off of the shelf.
Maybe these little things are so minutiae that you really need to dive into your life.
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Maybe a way that you're not proud of your life is that you don't always fold
your clothes, and your closet may be immaculate looking, but pull open a drawer
and everything's just unfolded, right?
You may not be proud of yourself because you don't know how to iron your shirt,
and you're 40 years old, and you still have never even practiced ironing your shirt.
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Maybe there's these little itty-bitty things in your life that you can just
adjust just a little bit to make yourself proud.
And as you start to adjust these little itty-bitty things throughout your life,
then you can start to tackle the bigger ones, right?
Like, for instance, for myself, language. I want to learn language, right?
I want to do that so I can commit to myself with integrity to take my classes
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in order to learn a language.
But that's only because I started making my bet.
That's only because I do my dishes. That's only because I do all the other little
things that make me so proud of myself that when I get to the language course,
I have the energy and I have the confidence, right?
The confidence comes from living a life of integrity.
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Confidence is not something that is built up naturally. It comes from living
a life of integrity, right?
At least in my case. If it's not, then confidence is just a lie.
But for me, confidence comes when I'm living a life of integrity.
That means I'm sober-minded. I'm giving in kindness.
I feel compassion for other people. I let people move in front of me.
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I try not to be first, right? I try to give it my best in everything that I
do, and then I think about all the little itty-bitty things.
I think about all the little itty bitty things, even from watching TV at night
or having my phone, I take my phone and I stick it in another room on a charger
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instead of being right by my bed, right? Those little itty bitty things.
And when I don't do that, I become less proud of myself because I know it's
something, these radio frequencies all in my head all night,
I know it's something that disrupts my sleep, right?
And I know that if I don't do it, although it's a little thing,
it's going to make me a little less proud of my nightly routine.
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If I sit there and watch TV every single night until I fall asleep,
I know I'm going to become a little less proud because when I was in the throes
of my addiction, that's all I did.
I watched TV until I fell asleep. I would do that all day and I would nap throughout
the day. Then I would do it all night.
And I got to a point where I almost didn't know what time it was.
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And I was so unproud of myself, right?
Right? So all I had to do was dial it back a little bit.
So the first thing I did was just stop watching TV right when you go to bed.
My ex-wife came into my life and she was like, there's absolutely no TV in the bedroom.
So she took it out of the bedroom and it kind of forced me into that.
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But guys, you don't have to be forced into that. You could do it yourself.
You can implement these types of things yourself. self. And if you don't, it's only on you, right?
If you don't, these little itty bitty things in your life that you're not proud
of, if you don't take care of them, then you're not going to be proud of yourself
no matter what you end up doing.
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At least that's my story. That's my case. That's my experience.
So anyway, if you want to hop on the bandwagon, find out this wonderful thing
that's happened to me, right?
Find out this wonderful thing that happens to millions and millions of people
all over the planet when they start to shift their perspective and go, you know what?
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I'm going to start living a life of integrity.
When that starts to happen, guys, your diet will change,
your relationship to all sorts of things, wellness, from exercise to diet to
how you appreciate nature, right, is going to change, to your appreciation of spirituality.
That's all encompassing inside the wellness factor.
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And when you start to implement integrity into your life, you're going to want
to have integrity with mind, body, and spirit, right? You're going to want to
have integrity with even the thoughts that come into your mind.
You're going to want to have integrity with the body and every single little
motion that you do in your workout is going to have integrity.
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And if it doesn't, you're going to slow down and find your mindful moment,
and then you're going to get back into your workout and you're going to find integrity.
And that's how you're going to prevent yourself from getting injured,
right? Because you're going to be so mindful. You're going to be inside of there.
You're going to be inside of there experiencing it like a master,
because you could be the master of this being if you start to communicate with
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yourself, am I doing this?
Am I doing this? Am I feeling this? Am I in it? Am I doing this with complete integrity?
And that's not, that's not, did I push this all the way up? Am I doing this
with the right form? Am I doing this with the right thoughts?
Am I thinking bad about myself while I'm doing this? Or am I lifting myself
up, right? Am I doing everything with integrity?
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Y'all, just dive into this thought a little bit for me. Dive into this.
Are you living your life with integrity?
And are you proud of the man that you are today?
I can say with 100% certainty, I am proud of the man who I am today.
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I am proud and I'm happy with the man I am today.
And I know that I will be proud and
happy with the man I am tomorrow because I know the things that are making me
proud and happy today will continue to be within my control control and limit
tomorrow because I can give it my best and I can continue to change my mindset
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and I can continue to give it my all in everything that I do.
And that's where I can become proud of myself, right?
And if I start to become less proud of myself, I can dial it back.
I can find the things where I might need to give it a little bit more.
So anyway, give it a shot. Become proud of yourself.
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I'm telling you what, there is no better feeling than being proud of yourself.
When you're proud of yourself, y'all, you can take the message out into the
world. When you're proud of yourself, you have something to give.
And I know you, every single one of you has something amazing to give because
at one point I believed I have nothing.
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At one point, I believed I had nothing to give. And that's not the case.
We all have a great message to give. We all have our experience,
strength, and hope, and we all have this being inside of us that can flourish
and give off what the Bible calls the salt of the earth.
You are the salt of the earth. That means you add the spice to life, man.
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You can make this life better when you start to live proud of who you are by
the vehicle of integrity.
So hop on out there today, guys. Do your best. Live with integrity.
Live with compassion. Live with kindness.
Trust me, it feels better than the alternative, and it will get you further
in short amounts of time, right?
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I've gone a lot of places in five years, and you can do it too if you start
to look at those little itty bitty things.
So this is Mark Turnipseed with Seeds of Change.
If you are interested in helping out the cause over here at Seeds of Change
and would like to donate, please, you can contact me or you can go to the Patreon
website that's linked inside of all of my social medias and stuff.
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I could definitely use your support to continue to push out the good nudes that
little itty bitty seeds can create a lot of change.
Again, I'm Mark Turnipseed, your host. It's been wonderful. I love you all.
Thank you very much and have a beautiful day.
Music.
Music.
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Seeds of Change podcast. I am your host, Mark A.
Turnipseed, and I'm thrilled to be here, excited to be talking about another
wonderful, wonderful seed of change that has occurred in my life.
So many years of my life, as long as I can remember, until the past five years,
(00:29):
I guess, I've never really understood what it's like to be proud of oneself,
to be proud of the things that I've done.
I always, with all these types of things, it's like, why?
There's always the question of why. Why weren't you proud of the things that you did, right?
Why wasn't I proud when I left college?
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I graduated with 3.4, but I wasn't proud.
I wasn't proud of myself. I wasn't proud of myself at all. My parents were proud
of me. They came out to the graduation. I was out in Montana.
I even had a lot of family come out to the graduation all the way out in Montana, really proud about me.
When I was a kid, I remember being in different sports teams and I was never
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proud of my performance.
Even though I might be starting, I was still never truly proud of who and what I was doing.
I kind of, I feel like I always like looked outwards and maybe I I put people
on pedestals too much or something, but I always kind of compared myself to them.
And I would be like, if I was like them, I would be more proud of who I am.
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And I think, I think part of that is largely because when I,
when you see somebody out and about in the street, right.
Or on Instagram, you don't see the, the little dirties, you know,
you don't see the little itty bitty things that go on in their life that can
cause a discontent with oneself. Right.
And that's kind of what I started noticing over the past five years is it wasn't the big things.
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It wasn't the big things. It wasn't going to college. It wasn't completing college.
It wasn't starting on the team.
It wasn't doing an Ironman, right? It wasn't any of those things that were going
to make me proud of myself.
It seemed like my whole life I could do those types of things.
I could do things that I set my mind out to.
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And ultimately, once I achieved it, I could be completely unhappy and not proud of myself.
Now, with that, I'm not okay living that way, right?
I'm not okay living that way because ultimately what it seems like is that the
goals seem like they're futile, right?
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It's like I make these big goals, like I want to be an Ironman,
and so I work so hard to get there, I do it, and if I'm still living under the
way that I grew up, right, if I'm I'm still living with that mindset that I
can't be proud of myself,
then ultimately when I get done doing the thing, I'm just going to need more
or I'm going to start to go, does anything have hope? Does anything have hope?
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And I know that there's a lot of people out there who feel similar to I.
It's like, if I'm not going to feel proud of myself, then what's the point?
If I'm not going going to feel proud or if I'm not going to help some people,
if I'm not going to come away from this feeling like a better person, then what's the point?
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What's the point in fitness when we don't feel like we're bettering ourselves?
I see it all the time. I see it in the gym all the time when I'm in there.
People trying to lift, people trying to push through it, and people having a
a difficult time because where's the why?
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Now I've developed or I found inside of myself a system of locating the,
they're like micro-whys, right?
Like little micro-whys. Instead of a why being so big, being like,
I want to get my bicep five inches bigger, right?
Instead of it being something so big, or I want to do an Ironman,
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or I want to graduate college, and then I'll be proud of myself,
instead of it being so big, we can dial it all the way back and we can look at the little things,
look at all the little itty bitty things in your life that are making you unproud.
Because once you achieve those big things, the big goals.
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If you still have the little things in your life that you're unproud of,
then by the time you reach the big goal, you're still going to be unproud of
yourself based on those little itty bitty things.
Because those little things are still going to be there.
And they're like, they're like little flies in your life, right?
And if you're trying, if you're trying to live a life that you're proud of,
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you've got to find a way to take care of all those little itty bitty things.
The good news is, is those little itty bitty things, they're super easy to take
care of. They're really small.
And usually they don't require much effort, right? I remember about six years
ago, I was driving this lawnmower and I hit this rock.
This rock said integrity on it. And at this point, I was 230 pounds.
(05:25):
I was in a miserable state of depression.
And when I hit this rock and saw integrity, it was like I...
Knew that that was the answer to all my problems.
Like if I just took this rock and then I started looking at all the little things,
all the little areas in my life where I wasn't proud of myself,
and I put this rock in it, right?
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And I started setting a foundation of integrity and all those little things that I wasn't proud of,
that then I would begin to foster to a life that I was proud I would begin to
foster to an existence that I was proud of.
I think that's key right there is fostering to an existence.
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Not fostering to what you do, what you become, not fostering to these big lavish goals, right?
It's fostering to the little itty bitty things that create the being of who you are, right?
So when I wake up, for instance, the being of who I am is I wake up and I find
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the positivity in the day.
I find the positivity and I find the excitement, and that is a little thing that I do.
And with integrity, I make myself do that. With integrity, I don't go a day without doing that.
And I do that through practices of meditation, devotions, right?
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Those things, those journaling things, they help me to shift my mindset and
bring me into a state of positivity in a morning where I'm otherwise not ready to go.
I also find my coffee, but I only find my coffee to be something that adds to
it if I do it mindfully. right?
So if I take it and take a deep breath, smell it, feel it,
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enjoy it, if I use integrity in my mindset, in my mindfulness while I'm waking
up in the morning, then it's going to make me enjoy my morning more and enjoy my day more, right?
And that is ultimately where pride comes in.
If I keep layering that stuff on, so if I keep going, okay, I'm feeling a little
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bit uppity because I journaled, I did my devotionals, I'm starting to get inspired,
I know the sun's coming up soon, and then I know, all right,
I'm going to go take care of my first task of the day.
My first task of the day is just simply to make my bed, and I'm the only one
who's going to know if that bed's made or not, right? I'm the only one who knows.
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And if I go and I make that bed and then I make it good and I make it,
I become proud of myself.
I become proud of myself. And then the next thing that I do,
you know, I pack my clothes for the gym, right?
If I didn't pack it the night before, I pack my clothes for the gym.
One way that I become really proud of myself is if I'm leaving the house,
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like I walk down the steps, right?
And I have my bag on and And I don't have to go back up.
I become so fucking proud of myself when I don't have to run back up my steps
to get a car key because a lot of mornings y'all, I have to run up three,
four, maybe even five times to get everything ready for my day as I'm headed out the door.
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And then I'll get on my bike or I'll get on my, in my truck and I'll start driving
and I'll realize I don't have the garage remote and I'll have to run back inside
and then I'll come and then I'll realize I don't have my water bottle.
I have to run back inside.
Right? So that is mindfulness. The error that's going on there and why I'm slipping
up and why I'm slowly beginning to make myself less proud of myself through
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that morning, through that morning routine is I'm starting to rush about it.
I'm starting to rush through things. I'm starting to rush and going, I need to get to this.
I need to get to this. I need to get to this. I need to get to this to do it
instead of being, right?
Instead of using integrity and just being. Like that state of being, right?
That state of applying integrity to what you are being in the moment,
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that is going to build so much more pride in what you do than just by doing
what you do, than just by reaching the goal from what you do. you trust me. Trust me.
If you, if you, if you reach a goal, if you reach a goal and you,
you do an Ironman, right.
And you do an Ironman all the way.
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That means you run the whole way. You bike the whole way. You swim the whole
way. You do the whole thing. You don't walk a heartbeat.
That means that you've done it with integrity, right? You've actually run.
You've actually swam. You've actually biked. I've never even done one completely
without walking, right?
I've walked in all of them. And that's because in my training,
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I know that I've slacked a little bit.
I've missed a little bit of integrity.
I've missed valuable training episodes.
I've gone a little bit less than. And when I get out on the race course.
I'm pushing myself a little bit less in. That is integrity.
And I fail at it all the time, y'all.
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But I'm telling you that when I do live more mindful and more based in being
all the way, giving my fullest being in everything,
in every training episode and in every race, then I become more proud of myself.
And it's on a spectrum, right? So my last race, for instance,
since I only walked a couple of minutes and that I walked for a mile 18.
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I guess it was more than a couple of minutes.
I walked from mile 18 to mile 20. I walked two miles.
That's the shortest I've ever walked in an Ironman run.
And I was so proud of myself, right?
I was so proud of myself because based in, based on who I am,
I excelled and I pushed myself beyond something that I thought that I could do.
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And that's what it is. That's all it is. That's all integrity is.
That's it. That's all it is, is really when you, when you want to do something
and you, and you do something that's more right or more full or more good, right?
Then, then what you really wanted to do, like maybe you just,
maybe, maybe you're, maybe you're driving down the road, right?
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And you, and you cut someone off and then you feel a little bit of a tinge inside
that goes, oh, oh, I'm just not a good person, right?
You might have that introspection like I do.
When I cut somebody off, I feel like a selfish asshole, right?
If you have those little things in your life, then the trick is to start cutting
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those out, those little itty-bitty things, like cutting people off.
Or maybe you should let someone in front of you in the grocery line,
right? Maybe you should help somebody grab something off of the shelf.
Maybe these little things are so minutiae that you really need to dive into your life.
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Maybe a way that you're not proud of your life is that you don't always fold
your clothes, and your closet may be immaculate looking, but pull open a drawer
and everything's just unfolded, right?
You may not be proud of yourself because you don't know how to iron your shirt,
and you're 40 years old, and you still have never even practiced ironing your shirt.
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Maybe there's these little itty-bitty things in your life that you can just
adjust just a little bit to make yourself proud.
And as you start to adjust these little itty-bitty things throughout your life,
then you can start to tackle the bigger ones, right?
Like, for instance, for myself, language. I want to learn language, right?
I want to do that so I can commit to myself with integrity to take my classes
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in order to learn a language.
But that's only because I started making my bet.
That's only because I do my dishes. That's only because I do all the other little
things that make me so proud of myself that when I get to the language course,
I have the energy and I have the confidence, right?
The confidence comes from living a life of integrity.
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Confidence is not something that is built up naturally. It comes from living
a life of integrity, right?
At least in my case. If it's not, then confidence is just a lie.
But for me, confidence comes when I'm living a life of integrity.
That means I'm sober-minded. I'm giving in kindness.
I feel compassion for other people. I let people move in front of me.
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I try not to be first, right? I try to give it my best in everything that I
do, and then I think about all the little itty-bitty things.
I think about all the little itty bitty things, even from watching TV at night
or having my phone, I take my phone and I stick it in another room on a charger
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instead of being right by my bed, right? Those little itty bitty things.
And when I don't do that, I become less proud of myself because I know it's
something, these radio frequencies all in my head all night,
I know it's something that disrupts my sleep, right?
And I know that if I don't do it, although it's a little thing,
it's going to make me a little less proud of my nightly routine.
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If I sit there and watch TV every single night until I fall asleep,
I know I'm going to become a little less proud because when I was in the throes
of my addiction, that's all I did.
I watched TV until I fell asleep. I would do that all day and I would nap throughout
the day. Then I would do it all night.
And I got to a point where I almost didn't know what time it was.
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And I was so unproud of myself, right?
Right? So all I had to do was dial it back a little bit.
So the first thing I did was just stop watching TV right when you go to bed.
My ex-wife came into my life and she was like, there's absolutely no TV in the bedroom.
So she took it out of the bedroom and it kind of forced me into that.
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But guys, you don't have to be forced into that. You could do it yourself.
You can implement these types of things yourself. self. And if you don't, it's only on you, right?
If you don't, these little itty bitty things in your life that you're not proud
of, if you don't take care of them, then you're not going to be proud of yourself
no matter what you end up doing.
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At least that's my story. That's my case. That's my experience.
So anyway, if you want to hop on the bandwagon, find out this wonderful thing
that's happened to me, right?
Find out this wonderful thing that happens to millions and millions of people
all over the planet when they start to shift their perspective and go, you know what?
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I'm going to start living a life of integrity.
When that starts to happen, guys, your diet will change,
your relationship to all sorts of things, wellness, from exercise to diet to
how you appreciate nature, right, is going to change, to your appreciation of spirituality.
That's all encompassing inside the wellness factor.
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And when you start to implement integrity into your life, you're going to want
to have integrity with mind, body, and spirit, right? You're going to want to
have integrity with even the thoughts that come into your mind.
You're going to want to have integrity with the body and every single little
motion that you do in your workout is going to have integrity.
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And if it doesn't, you're going to slow down and find your mindful moment,
and then you're going to get back into your workout and you're going to find integrity.
And that's how you're going to prevent yourself from getting injured,
right? Because you're going to be so mindful. You're going to be inside of there.
You're going to be inside of there experiencing it like a master,
because you could be the master of this being if you start to communicate with
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yourself, am I doing this?
Am I doing this? Am I feeling this? Am I in it? Am I doing this with complete integrity?
And that's not, that's not, did I push this all the way up? Am I doing this
with the right form? Am I doing this with the right thoughts?
Am I thinking bad about myself while I'm doing this? Or am I lifting myself
up, right? Am I doing everything with integrity?
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Y'all, just dive into this thought a little bit for me. Dive into this.
Are you living your life with integrity?
And are you proud of the man that you are today?
I can say with 100% certainty, I am proud of the man who I am today.
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I am proud and I'm happy with the man I am today.
And I know that I will be proud and
happy with the man I am tomorrow because I know the things that are making me
proud and happy today will continue to be within my control control and limit
tomorrow because I can give it my best and I can continue to change my mindset
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and I can continue to give it my all in everything that I do.
And that's where I can become proud of myself, right?
And if I start to become less proud of myself, I can dial it back.
I can find the things where I might need to give it a little bit more.
So anyway, give it a shot. Become proud of yourself.
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I'm telling you what, there is no better feeling than being proud of yourself.
When you're proud of yourself, y'all, you can take the message out into the
world. When you're proud of yourself, you have something to give.
And I know you, every single one of you has something amazing to give because
at one point I believed I have nothing.
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At one point, I believed I had nothing to give. And that's not the case.
We all have a great message to give. We all have our experience,
strength, and hope, and we all have this being inside of us that can flourish
and give off what the Bible calls the salt of the earth.
You are the salt of the earth. That means you add the spice to life, man.
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You can make this life better when you start to live proud of who you are by
the vehicle of integrity.
So hop on out there today, guys. Do your best. Live with integrity.
Live with compassion. Live with kindness.
Trust me, it feels better than the alternative, and it will get you further
in short amounts of time, right?
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I've gone a lot of places in five years, and you can do it too if you start
to look at those little itty bitty things.
So this is Mark Turnipseed with Seeds of Change.
If you are interested in helping out the cause over here at Seeds of Change
and would like to donate, please, you can contact me or you can go to the Patreon
website that's linked inside of all of my social medias and stuff.
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I could definitely use your support to continue to push out the good nudes that
little itty bitty seeds can create a lot of change.
Again, I'm Mark Turnipseed, your host. It's been wonderful. I love you all.
Thank you very much and have a beautiful day.
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