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Do you spend all of your time building and maintaining your business so that you achieve the success you envision? Do you feel frustrated, unfulfilled, and have a loss or disconnect from your creative flow? Are you a conscious leader that is ready for change when it comes to society's views on money, wealth, relationships, and what prosperity truly means? If so, you are in the right place.
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Welcome to the provoking prosperity podcast.
.999I am your host, Miranda Mitchell.
.999I am a two four manage end.
Who is here to empower and equip you to step out of the box of social norms, guide you into using your voice for inspiration and impact and support you in finding what prosperity means for you so that you have the business and life that fulfills you.
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So grab that cup of coffee, get comfy, and get ready to hear the heartwarming and heart wrenching personal stories, all things jinkies plus tangible practices that you can implement right now for your personal and business growth.
Miranda.
Oh my gosh.
I'm so excited for this conversation.
I mean, you and I, I do think that we, there is a connection.
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Maybe it's because our charts are so dang similar.
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Maybe it's just a soul thing.
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I don't know, but I'm so excited to have you here.
Oh, that makes my heart happy.
I love that soul connection and the charts, or maybe it's a yes and really on the charts and the way that we kind of want to shift the world and the way that we be in the world is.
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And I love that you said that makes me happy.
Love it.
I would love for you to share about your story of like coming into your voice because I mean, yes, our charts are similar, but we've had very different lived experiences.
And I think that's as part of what makes everyone special is you can have very similar charts, but your lived experience is completely different, right? Your, what you experienced as a child and Your culture and environment and all those different things play a role in how the energies are expressed.
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.999So I'd love to hear more about your story and your coming into your own voice and how human design played a role in that, or if it didn't and those types of questions.
Well, human design definitely played a role in that, definitely, but it was kind of like an ever evolving type of thing where I wasn't aware of it at that time.
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And the experiences, I truly feel like we come into this world with, A certain thing that we're here to learn about when I go deep into my chart, I realize everything in my chart had to do with support or lack of support.
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My entire life was really created about this lack of support that I had with my mother.
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.999And as I dove into my chart within the astrology aspects and all the gates and the open G and all the things, it kept coming back to that support and evolution as far as not understanding who I am and not being supported in any way and figuring it out on my own.
.999I moved out when I was 14 for my house because there was a lot of us, my mother, we have, there's a lot of children in our family.
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And my mother would always take in, I would like to say strays of children as well.
So we would have always people coming in, but yet we didn't get the support.
She was always giving to other people, but yet she wasn't supportive of us.
At least that's how I felt because she was always having.
.999So as she had us, she kind of let us go and we were basically fending for ourselves.
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.9995I moved out at 14 because there was a lack of support from her within an experience that I had that had to do with my step uncle.
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She basically said I was provoking him when I was, I can't remember the exact age, but it was between nine and 12.
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She said I was provoking him and he was 21.
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So I don't know how a nine to 12 year old can really provoke a 21 year old.
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Although I do have provocation in my son.
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So I guess I, I could see that now.
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So I've given myself some permission there and some forgiveness, but because she didn't stand up for me, I moved out.
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And then when I moved out, I really just went out of control.
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I was drinking, I was drugging, I was being promiscuous, I was looking for love in every area.
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I didn't love myself at all.
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I was a cutter, so I would cut myself so that I could feel.
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because I was numb.
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Trauma does that.
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I was totally numb.
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The only thing I used to say to myself I would rather feel pain than nothing at all.
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So I would cut myself and I don't know, how I got out of that stage.
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I truly feel like even though I felt in this world, I was not supported.
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I truly feel in another dimension.
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I was supported because I was definitely guided.
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Away from that, where I just stopped, so within this entire process, there are many elements that kind of grounded me into each area of my life.
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When I had my first son.
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Grounded me in my purpose.
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Then I had my other son.
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It grounded me into having the strength to get away from an abusive relationship.
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Then I had my daughter who grounded me into loving myself because she's a mirror reflection of me.
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She was actually due on my birth date, but she gave me four days so that I could actually kind of have a little space, but she is still a deep reflection of self love and lack of self love.
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So I feel like she came to me.
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For that reason, and within this time, because my mother didn't support me and listen to me, I created this belief that what I said didn't matter, no one believed me anyway I was stupid, I didn't know anything, I was constantly just telling myself all these things all the time because I wasn't valued, I wasn't listened to.
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Throughout my entire life, I created this whole life around this feeling of not being supported in my voice.
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I even had an abusive relationship where he choked me anytime I used my voice, which then again was like, I'm not allowed to speak, I'm not allowed to share my words, but I didn't realize this until I started going deeper into my human design chart.
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And then I started noticing I have a lot of activation to my throat, three of the four motors are connected to my throat, and yet I was so shy.
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I wouldn't speak.
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my face would get so red anytime a person asked me a question because all the energy is coming up like speak, speak, speak, but I I would cry.
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I'd get embarrassed.
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There are those awarenesses that started coming up for me within human design aspect.
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And then I went into the equine gestalt, which helped me release my anger.
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I didn't feel like I had anger.
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I thought I was this person that was forgiving and loving and I'm good.
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Until my coach gave me the racket and said, start hitting this cube and let me know how you feel.
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And then holy, like everything came out and my voice.
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I was screaming and yelling and by the time I was done, my entire body was shaking.
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I could barely stand.
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I feel like everything that I'm doing for myself now is giving me the opportunity to realize how conditioned I was because of those beliefs I created about myself because of what happened when I was nine.
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I feel we are all conditioned in the voice because almost everyone has either heard you're too much, you're too quiet.
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Why are you so shy? You need to be seen, not heard.
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We have all of this, which suppresses.
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Our authenticity.
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Yeah.
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Which then we create our entire life around.
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So when you look at your human design chart, and I've, even people I've worked with, I ask them this question and every time I get tears, who would you be if you did not have that belief? Mm-Hmm.
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Every single person is like, I don't.
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No, I don't know who I am and it is because we're so conditioned over those little things of suppression of trying to fit in, trying to be seen, but in a way that's not too much, which is a huge one for me.
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I'm very observant of people.
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I know how much they can take and I don't go over that edge so they don't reject me.
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They don't tell me I'm too much.
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They don't say they don't love me.
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I'm suppressing so much because I don't want to be too weird.
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I don't want to be too out there.
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I do the same thing.
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It was actually just talking about this with a coach talking that like I will read the room.
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I will read the person that I'm talking to and the situation and I'll decide how much Do I unleash and like just be versus Boxing in and playing by the rules and doing what everyone is expected to do in this certain situation.
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And yeah, it's fascinating in some ways that like, are you doing it because you want to be liked? Are you doing it just to be cordial, well, I know my answer.
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What's your answer? I feel like most of the time I just don't want the drama and I don't want people to get upset in any way.
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So it is a little bit of an emotional thing, but it's also, it's like, sometimes I don't really care either way.
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And sometimes it's just easier to blend in with everyone else than to be.
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Who I would normally be with, my best friends, the people that really know me, it's just easier just to, be that surface level person that's agreeable.
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I get that.
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I get that.
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But I truly feel like that is why a lot of us are not happy.
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That's why a lot of us, even with our marketing and our messaging, that's why we're not fully receiving All the recognition for who we are because we're suppressing it.
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So we feel valued and seen and not too much, but what if we actually were that crazy person that said all the things I'm getting there.
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Yeah, I am totally with you and I, I mean, I feel like every time I talk to you, I'm like, Oh, I could definitely open myself up a little bit more.
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Well, it's a good thing that we're going to be doing this podcast thing because you guys are in for a treat for it.
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Well, you do, you just, you have a way of being yourself, but it's never like, I've never felt like it was in my face.
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Or it was too big or too much, either.
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And I totally relate to that, being too much, being too, just too big of an energy, I feel like in my early 20s, I was a lot more outspoken.
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I would, unleash on people and just, and then had several people in my life that were like, no, pull it back.
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You don't need to be that way.
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You don't need, and it was, it was all in from the best of their intentions.
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But it did, it silenced a little bit and made me feel like maybe I should control myself more.
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I am too unhinged in some certain circumstances.
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That's very interesting that you said control because someone said that to me the other day.
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I was talking to someone about.
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Using my voice and like with my relationship, there's a lot of stuff happening with me and my personal relationship with my partner and our relationship is not normal.
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It is not what a lot of people would think was normal, but we've made that decision, but yet there's still a little bit of control.
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And someone asked me, well, why, are you controlling the outcome of it and doing it in a way that's more peaceful? And I said, well, cause my daughter, I don't want this chaos to affect my daughter because that was my life.
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I was affected.
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I lived in chaos all the time and I'm here to protect my daughter.
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So I have to do things in a way that is also mindful.
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You know, there's, you have to be mindful, but then it's also like, but that's not authentic either.
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Cause you're controlling things for someone else.
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Ooh.
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Yeah.
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That's so man.
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I totally relate to that because I do as a parent feel.
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Responsibility for their experience in some way, at least helping them understand things and being a guide and not necessarily telling them how to whatever, but the way that we parent the situations of the life that we have designed all is dictating their life experience.
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And it is.
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I don't, I don't see that as a bad thing per se, but it is something to be aware of for sure.
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Like, are you protecting them from something that could ultimately serve them? That's a tough question.
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Oh, yeah, it is.
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How I actually contemplated that afterwards, because at first I was like, well, I have to protect my daughter.
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And then after I had to sit with it being a two four, you know, you have to sit with it and your own energy and feel into it.
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And I realized then okay, I can protect her, but I also need to communicate with her.
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I can't hide things.
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So we're going to keep this space in a secure because I didn't have a secure space when I was younger.
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I didn't have a grounded space.
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And luckily my partner and I, Agree on this, which I'm so grateful for because he came into my life definitely for, I feel like this reason so that I can heal this karmic pattern that goes on in my family and also be there for her because she has this thing with talking to males.
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She doesn't feel kind of safe where she can with him.
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So we have opened up our relationship in a way that is very grounded and open, but still very secure and I've also let her be a part of it.
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So, she understands that relationships don't have to look like a certain way to be a relationship.
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Mm.
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And she's like 14, right? She's 12.
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12.
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Okay.
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Yeah.
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And I mean, that is such an age to be diving into those deeper conversations too, because she can understand and she's starting to already form her own opinions and beliefs and ideas about relationships.
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So, to open up that dialogue, oh.
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That's, that's beautiful.
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Yeah.
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Well, are kids are always so much more aware than we even realize.
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And the minute that she started asking questions, I had to say, okay, I need to have this conversation because she's I'm not going to hide things from her.
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She's going to understand things.
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So this is an opportunity to help her have new perspectives in the way to have friendships, new perspectives in how to relationships, new perspectives in the way a family works.
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It is truly actually a gift in being able to speak with her about this so she can have a choice when she's older.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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Ugh.
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That's awesome.
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Being a parent always keeps us learning.
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Oh, it is always pushing an edge.
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I feel like, oh, once you think you get it figured out, there's a curveball that's like, nope, I don't.
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Yeah.
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And that even goes to self expression with parenting because I, I feel like before I truly cared.
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And I know a lot of parents care about what others think of them.
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They want their kids to behave because if they don't behave, then they're a bad parent.
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It has nothing to do with the kid.
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It has to do with their perspective and what people judge them out.
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Right? Yeah, 100%.
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So, yeah.
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So it, it gives the opportunity.
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To go deeper into your own stuff.
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Mm-Hmm.
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and your belief and, Mm-Hmm.
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And like what people see you as a parent and judge you and, and using your voice and saying, I'm not sticking in the conformity of what Good parent.
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Mm-Hmm mm-Hmm.
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it looks like Mm-Hmm.
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Well, and even I think our choice in deciding to homeschool has been very provoking and I found it even.
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When we in our old house, we sent the kids to a private school and that was provoking initially as well to the people that we around there were all sending their kids to the public school and they were like, why are you sending your kid to a private school? Like, what's wrong with the public? They instantly felt like they were judging me.
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Right.
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And for my decision, even though I don't judge you for your decision.
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I don't care where you send your child.
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It is your decision.
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And I want the same respect and found that even when we decided to homeschool, it was like people would defend What they did, they would defend.
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Oh, well, I can't do that.
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Oh, I don't have the time for that.
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And they were like, that has nothing to do with our decision.
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It was just interesting to see how people react to someone living outside of the box.
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Yeah, That is a great point.
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And what comes up is usually their fears and inadequacies of what they're doing.
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Cause it even, I don't drink and I haven't drank for six years and people get weird about it.
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Like, why don't you drink? Why don't you have one drink? It's like, why does it even matter? I'm not judging you.
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Right? Like, why are you drinking alcoholic? Why does it matter if I do or not? Exactly, but that goes to show why so many people stay in that conformity.
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Yes.
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It does.
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It really does is because they are afraid of their own, their own judgments for one, because they're judging other people for living outside of the box.
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And therefore, like, I can't step out of the box.
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Holy crap, like what's going to happen to me if I do that, and that does bring fears up too, because usually when you do step out of the box, there is a little bit of chaos.
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People fall away, friends fall away if you're shifting your business, business shifts, and a lot of people, like that starts to happen and then they restrict and like, oh no, I messed up, this is showing me that I messed up, when in reality it's more so you're realigning and you have to let things fall away so that you can fully step into who you're that next evolution of who you are, but most people.
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Get scared and they hold back and they stay the same and stay safe.
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I've been doing this.
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I've honestly been stepping out of the box.
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Consistently for over six months now.
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And let me tell you, so much has changed, but so many things have happened that are helping me step into my voice more, helping me be more bold, helping me understand myself more and not really letting others, keep me stuck or down.
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So it's, yeah, it's a lot of messiness.
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And it's overwhelming at times, but once you get to the place where it's like, Ooh, something's falling away, something else is coming.
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What is it? You know, it's, it's all on your perspective.
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It is.
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It so is.
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And I know I have felt that way where I stepped outside the box and went, Oh my God, what's happening? That was a really bad decision.
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Or I feel like I made the wrong decision or whatever, but now it is more of, okay Things are falling away.
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The things that were no longer serving me can fall away and something new can come in its place.
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Like you can't add more.
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You have to get rid of first in order to really fully express and be yourself.
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Do you feel like the word alignment, when people say alignment in their business life, all that kind of stuff, do you feel like people understand that alignment is not easy? No.
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Because alignment and realignment...
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Is messy.
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Yeah.
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I would say most people, and honestly, I think it's the messaging that's out there is just, just align to yourself and everything will be hunky dory and flow.
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I did not have that experience.
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I feel like it's been messy.
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It's been rocky and scary and kind of feels like, I don't know what the heck I'm doing most of the time.
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And most people don't, most people don't understand.
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That things have to fall away before they can be in true alignment.
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Yeah.
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And a lot of trust.
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There has to be trust in that and knowing that even though things are a mess right now and you don't know what's going to happen, that you are supported, that the things that will show up for you in right timing, that yeah, you may struggle and things may be hard, but.
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You will move through it as long as you let yourself move through it and not hold on to things.
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Yeah.
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And not make the falling away mean anything about you, not let it mean that you did something wrong or did it wrong, did anything wrong or that you're not worthy or not enough or any of that.
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And just let it just be, it is what it is.
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Like allow the emotion to come up, come through whatever it needs to be.
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My friend that I spent the weekend with.
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She's going through a lot and I was like, just be with it.
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I know it sucks.
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And she has always, always, always had a great perspective of things are happening for me, not to me.
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And I told her that like, you're doing, you're, you're in the thick of it and it's okay to be in the thick of it.
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Just be present in it.
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You'll get to the other side.
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Who knows what that looks like? I don't know what it looks like.
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You don't either.
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That's okay.
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Just be in the muck.
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Learn what you need to learn in this muck so that you can come out the other side and go, holy shit, I'm a whole new person, whole new person for the better.
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That goes with your messaging too, because we came together because of human design and messaging and the voice.
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And that's why we are doing these podcasts, there's going to be numerous, where we just come together, have conversations, probably have people ask questions.
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I don't know.
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Ooh, that could be fun.
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I like that idea.
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Yeah.
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Like have people listen and have questions where we can respond to them because they're Yeah.
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I know, and just see what happens and I know that we came together because You are my podcast and we have a lot of things in common with our charts.
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So I want to ask you then, yeah, since you asked me about the embodiment of the voice, cause that's what I'm focusing on.
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What is this collaboration or connection that you feel with us with the messaging and the voice and why is it that you wanted to do this? I love this cause we get to take turns asking questions.
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I feel like there's just certain people that you meet and you're like, you feel like you can go deep and ask the harder questions with, right? And I feel like those people, I want more in my life.
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I want more interactions like that.
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And maybe it's the sixth lane, the fourth line, whatever.
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But those are the people that I'm like, I want to hang on to you in some way.
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I want to keep you in my sphere.
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I want to like nurture this relationship because there's.
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That's not an easy thing to find.
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I feel like it's not, it's not common.
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I don't know.
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I meet a lot of people.
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Yeah.
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I agree with that too.
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With the depth and going deeper, not being afraid to share the deeper stuff and the messy stuff.
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Whereas a lot of people don't want to go there.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Do you go into the deeper stuff and the messy stuff with the messaging or do you feel like a lot of the people aren't ready to go there? One on one, yes.
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Because I think when you haven't.
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I've been in feeling safe to say what you want to say and you've just been conforming your message to what you think is going to sell to what you think is supposed to be good messaging.
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It can feel really scary to come out and actually talk about what you want to talk about.
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I felt that way.
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I mean, it's why I created a private Facebook group for a year and a half and only talked about what I wanted to talk about in that group.
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I didn't have Instagram.
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I didn't have like.
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It was exclusively this private Facebook group because I didn't feel safe talking about it.
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And it wasn't until I did it long enough and felt like, Oh yeah, I do have something to say.
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People are listening.
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It was validation.
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I, I don't think I did it seeking the validation, but when it came, I was like, okay.
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Now, I feel like I have a piece that was missing in my confidence to be able to go out and face the masses, face the whatever's out there, be able to talk about what I want to talk about.
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So you create that, that four line, that safety first, you felt grounded and safe.
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You felt good in yourself.
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You understood yourself.
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And then.
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You stepped more so out.
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So where is the provocation in your chart again? 39 is my sun gate.
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So I mean we have basically it's the same numbers, they're just in different order for our incarnation crosses.
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Conscious sun is 39 and unconscious is 21 for me.
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And mine's like the conscious sun is 48 and the unconscious 39 and then the conscious earth is 21.
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Yeah.
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Well, no wonder why we kind of like our energies like bounce off each other, right? Like it's just a tiny little difference, but it's very similar.
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Yeah.
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I love the 39 in the conscious son because that energy is what you're here to be is that provocation and provoking thing.
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So you knew that by creating that space, getting comfortable in that sharing.
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And then it's like, okay, now I know more, so I'm going to bring it out more into the world with the provoking more.
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and it had to be on my own timeline too.
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I have had several people in that timeframe say, you need to be doing like stuff on your Facebook profile, and just being louder and more, I don't know, like putting plastering it everywhere, what I was doing and I was like, no, that is no It's not, not the way I wanna do it, I guess.
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I want to do it.
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Not yet.
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Not yet.
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You can't exactly because yeah, I felt that way too.
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Before I felt like I needed to have a safe space.
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I didn't need to have all of this.
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All of this energy with provoking out there.
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But now that I've been really diving into letting go of the anger and letting my voice out, it's like, no, I'm here to provoke.
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I'm here to bring that out.
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And if people get provoked, then I'm doing my job.
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So I'm doing what I'm here for.
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Exactly.
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Yeah.
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And that's the difference with messaging.
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When you mentioned, some people don't even know human design and they're automatically following their strategy and they already do it.
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But I do feel like once you have that knowing and then you no longer have any doubt whatsoever, your messaging is in the face and there's no holding back.
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Whatever anyone said, it, it may hurt a little, it may sting, but you know that's what you're here to bring.
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Yeah.
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Right? Oh, totally.
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Going deeper into that with the messaging, even if you don't know your strategy or you do know your strategy, but you haven't really been fully putting it out there, maybe it's not right timing.
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You have to feel into it.
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I feel like we have to try things on first and then we get to be more bold.
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Mm hmm.
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Mm hmm.
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Yeah, get to filter it through your own.
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Awareness.
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And I think with, as with anything in human design and filtering it through your own awareness, do you feel like that's true or not? Are you ready to be there? Are you ready to really talk about that? If you're not, that's okay.
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Yeah.
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I've been there.
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We have so much to talk about.
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I want to know what has been the hardest part of stepping out? Like you talked about like lovability.
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But what has been the scary, almost like it's not the scary part that you think is going to happen.
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It's almost like the, the hidden benefit of staying small and not using your voice.
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I've been going through a lot right now with the being too much.
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I've noticed that I would observe.
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So I knew what people could take, so it wouldn't be too much.
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So that I was loved and valued and seen for who I was.
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So, the too muchness.
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It's still a lot because I am afraid when I say too much, people are just going to be like, what the hell, like, what is going on with you? Like you're going through a midlife crisis Maybe that is when people get to a specific age, they start to say, you know what, I'm sick of pretending I'm sick of wearing these masks.
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And then maybe that's what the midlife crisis is, is truly being authentic and no longer caring what anyone thinks.
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Right? So I am definitely still afraid of People lashing out and kind of rejecting me and telling me that I'm crazy, basically, you're too much.
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You're way out there.
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Why are you being too much? Those are the things that still come up for me.
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And sometimes there was a, a person, I think it was about a year ago that said to a colleague of mine that.
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I triggered her.
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And at first it hurt me because I didn't want to trigger people, but now it's like, yes, I want to trigger people.
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Cause that's something it means there's something there.
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And I have to understand that even when people say I'm too much.
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It's their stuff.
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It's not me.
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But because I've been holding on for this for so long, it still hurts when people say that to me or say that I'm going through something because it's like I'm not going through anything.
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I'm emerging into who I always was and you don't even know who I am.
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So that it's scary to me of judgment of people.
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Oh yeah.
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And I feel like If you talk cross the board, MG vote, have you been considered or do you consider yourself too much? And I guarantee you like 95 percent of us would be like, yup, feel like way too much in some way, shape or form.
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Mine has always been, if I speak up, if I talk and just be myself, that I am an idiot.
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That I'm stupid, that somehow I'm not smart enough.
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I don't even know where that comes from.
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I'm sure it's from a childhood, and that I don't want to look stupid.
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So if I keep my mouth shut, I can't look stupid.
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Well, that's the 48 and adequacy, not knowing enough.
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Yeah.
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Right.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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And even in that, I love that you brought that up too, because that even goes deeper than the too muchness is of.
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the depth that we can go into.
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Like, some of the things that I'm studying right now, people would seriously think I'm crazy.
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Like, what the heck are you even thinking about, right? Like, you're so blue.
370
00:32:13,440.1585 --> 00:32:24,760.1575
I love conspiracy theories and like, not that I believe most, you're generally not, but they're so fascinating to me to go, how someone can go so deep down a rabbit hole.
371
00:32:25,610.1575 --> 00:32:26,590.1575
It's fascinating to me.
372
00:32:27,255.1585 --> 00:32:34,375.1585
Yeah, yeah, and then people I feel like that don't go deep kind of like think we're weird.
373
00:32:34,605.1585 --> 00:32:34,835.1585
Yeah.
374
00:32:34,885.1585 --> 00:32:36,645.1585
And that's a huge thing for me.
375
00:32:36,705.1575 --> 00:32:40,775.1575
I've always been attracted to people that are different.
376
00:32:40,965.1575 --> 00:32:45,825.157
I've always been Oh my gosh, I admire you for walking around with a rat on your shoulder.
377
00:32:46,55.157 --> 00:32:49,765.157
You know what I mean? Like, I've always loved people that were not afraid.
378
00:32:49,785.157 --> 00:32:52,195.157
And now I know it's because I was.
379
00:32:52,815.157 --> 00:33:01,795.157
I'm one of those people, I'm seriously one of those people that go deep into the things that are different, that is attracted to the darker side of things.
380
00:33:01,825.156 --> 00:33:05,645.156
And I couldn't do that because I felt like people would think I'm weird.
381
00:33:05,695.157 --> 00:33:13,835.158
I'm studying right now, galactic astrology on how our past lives, we jumped through portals and aliens.
382
00:33:13,845.158 --> 00:33:18,715.1585
I mean, there's so much that I'm studying right now that people would think Oh my gosh.
383
00:33:19,70.1585 --> 00:33:19,960.1585
Love it.
384
00:33:22,620.1585 --> 00:33:24,830.1585
So I think that's a little bit of the too muchness too.
385
00:33:26,220.1585 --> 00:33:27,240.1585
You're like, you're crazy.
386
00:33:27,770.1585 --> 00:33:28,940.1585
Right, exactly.
387
00:33:30,250.1585 --> 00:33:33,480.1585
It's so funny.
388
00:33:33,670.1585 --> 00:33:34,100.1585
Mm hmm.
389
00:33:34,130.1585 --> 00:33:41,780.1585
I, you know, projectors really call that out on you because my daughter in law, she's a projector.
390
00:33:42,120.1585 --> 00:33:44,865.1585
And at, Christmas I forgot what game we're playing.
391
00:33:44,865.1585 --> 00:33:45,685.1585
We're playing this game.
392
00:33:45,695.1585 --> 00:33:55,105.1585
It had to do with like talking about planets and extraterrestrials and like they had to pick who would it be and it was me and she's a projector.
393
00:33:55,115.1585 --> 00:34:00,915.1575
And at first I was like, what? What are you talking about? Like, because I hadn't even found galactic astrology yet.
394
00:34:01,365.1575 --> 00:34:01,965.0585
And yet.
395
00:34:02,265.1585 --> 00:34:08,785.1585
She, as a projector, called that out last year, and I'm just putting that together right now.
396
00:34:09,135.1585 --> 00:34:15,915.1575
She saw that before I even saw it, which just gives the brilliance of the projectors.
397
00:34:16,255.1585 --> 00:34:34,635.1585
And what is even weird? What is like what is normal? And I was reading it was a parenting book and it was talking about left brain, right brain, and how school, especially K through like sixth, seventh grade is really set up for left brain.
398
00:34:34,845.1585 --> 00:34:42,225.1585
It's very memorizing, consecutive, it's structured, but if you're right brained, you don't do well in that environment, especially if you're very much right brained.
399
00:34:42,235.1585 --> 00:34:50,265.1585
There's kind of a spectrum from right to left, but if you're very much right brained, like you're not going to do well with memorizing.
400
00:34:50,265.1585 --> 00:34:52,285.1575
And I very much right brained.
401
00:34:52,285.2575 --> 00:34:53,545.1585
I don't memorize.
402
00:34:53,595.1585 --> 00:34:54,415.1585
I don't care.
403
00:34:55,595.1585 --> 00:35:20,430.157
I want to know how can I apply this to my life? What does it mean for my life? Give me some application like that versus just memorize these things and you're going to be smart, which is probably why I never felt like I was smart because I can't memorize, It was fascinating because she said in the book that most, 30 percent are very, very right brained.
404
00:35:20,500.157 --> 00:35:26,500.157
Another 30 percent of kids are kind of in that middle spectrum, more in the middle, but leaning on the right.
405
00:35:27,190.157 --> 00:35:39,880.156
And so that's 60 percent of the kids that are leaning on the right side, some more heavily than others, but yet our entire school system is set up for left and how much we are labeling kids.
406
00:35:40,280.157 --> 00:35:51,830.157
Because that their, their brain just works different, and I've heard that argument so many times about ADHD and autism and all these things that we're labeling them because their brain just thinks differently.
407
00:35:51,830.157 --> 00:35:58,30.158
They're not weird, they're not abnormal, it's just different, it's fascinating to me and it makes me...
408
00:35:58,200.158 --> 00:36:18,530.158
Really mindful of how I am schooling my kids as MGs and allowing them to, one, my daughter is definitely very right brained and my son is probably more in the middle, but leans towards the right, I think, but how you notice if it has to do with the Ajna.
409
00:36:20,590.158 --> 00:36:24,770.158
Let's see, my daughter's defined in the Ajna and my son and I are not.
410
00:36:25,620.158 --> 00:36:26,10.158
Okay.
411
00:36:26,620.158 --> 00:36:29,500.158
So I'm wondering if it has to do with the circuitry.
412
00:36:29,670.158 --> 00:36:37,700.158
I thought that too, that like if you are really good with numbers and putting things together that you would be defined.
413
00:36:38,120.157 --> 00:36:39,620.158
Like that was my, my theory.
414
00:36:39,860.158 --> 00:36:41,500.158
And my daughter totally threw that one out the window.
415
00:36:42,640.157 --> 00:36:43,700.158
That's interesting.
416
00:36:43,800.157 --> 00:36:47,140.158
Yeah, that is because I thought that too, because my autism is totally open.
417
00:36:47,410.158 --> 00:36:47,660.158
Yeah.
418
00:36:47,700.158 --> 00:36:48,990.158
So for me, like.
419
00:36:49,245.158 --> 00:36:58,825.158
In one ear out the other basically unless I embody it if I embody if I enjoy it and I practice it in repetition over and over and I embody it, then I remember it.
420
00:36:59,25.157 --> 00:37:01,555.157
But if I don't embody it, then I don't remember.
421
00:37:04,40.158 --> 00:37:22,780.158
Mine is more, it's like, it's tied more to an emotion, which is interesting because I'm undefined in emotions too, that if I'm excited about learning about something or there's like a reason, or I don't know, there's more emotion attached to it, the more I'm apt to remember the lesson versus if it's just.
422
00:37:24,350.158 --> 00:37:26,710.158
Like a math problem and you have to figure out this problem.
423
00:37:27,750.158 --> 00:37:28,230.158
I don't care.
424
00:37:30,360.158 --> 00:37:42,85.159
I truly feel like if a person, I mean, do you really truly feel like a person that I had difficulty with a certain aspect or certain subject.
425
00:37:42,325.159 --> 00:37:50,265.159
Do you feel like they found a job in their life that they're primarily focusing on that one subject that they disliked? No.
426
00:37:53,195.159 --> 00:38:06,535.159
Unless they were conditioned to because their parents pushed them, conditioning of, oh, you want to be a doctor, you, I need you to do this rather than finding something that really lights them up.
427
00:38:06,865.159 --> 00:38:07,255.159
Yeah.
428
00:38:07,605.158 --> 00:38:21,635.159
I mean, I definitely felt that, that there were certain professions that my parents really wanted because they knew it would equal X amount of dollars, right? I loved photography and I loved drawing houses as a kid.
429
00:38:22,35.159 --> 00:38:29,845.159
And they pushed me towards architecture because that was going to make money versus being a photographer, which was artsy and you never know.
430
00:38:29,845.159 --> 00:38:32,475.159
And who knows where you would go? Let's do the architecture route.
431
00:38:32,515.159 --> 00:38:33,335.158
That's the safe route.
432
00:38:34,465.159 --> 00:38:42,475.159
Here's the thing that I've learned about MGs too, is just because you love to do something doesn't mean that you should do that thing as a profession.
433
00:38:45,390.159 --> 00:38:46,650.159
Especially MGs.
434
00:38:46,950.159 --> 00:38:47,940.159
Especially MGs.
435
00:38:48,330.159 --> 00:38:49,60.159
Especially.
436
00:38:50,260.159 --> 00:38:51,680.159
Because we love so many things.
437
00:38:52,0.159 --> 00:38:52,990.159
We love so many things.
438
00:38:52,990.259 --> 00:38:56,350.159
And we are not destined to do all of them as a career.
439
00:38:56,970.159 --> 00:38:57,550.159
Forever.
440
00:38:58,40.159 --> 00:38:58,420.159
Nope.
441
00:38:58,430.159 --> 00:38:58,690.159
Nope.
442
00:39:00,150.159 --> 00:39:10,880.058
I mean, I think that's why I've been a personal trainer, I've been a yoga teacher, I've been a pranayama teacher, I've been, a meditation teacher, Those are all in the same realm, at least.
443
00:39:10,880.058 --> 00:39:14,400.058
I went from architecture to photography to now messaging and copywriting.
444
00:39:16,500.058 --> 00:39:23,160.058
I think we get so much pressure that we, that somehow our passion is going to be the thing that.
445
00:39:23,530.058 --> 00:39:24,140.058
We do.
446
00:39:24,170.058 --> 00:39:37,250.058
And, and I totally agree with the sentiment that whatever you're doing, you should have passion for and love it because you do spend so much time doing it, but just because something is a passion doesn't mean that it's going to be the thing that you do to make money.
447
00:39:37,630.058 --> 00:39:43,460.058
And also you could just do it for a certain amount of time and then once it no longer is your passion, you can leave it.
448
00:39:43,460.058 --> 00:39:46,310.058
Whereas in society we're told, like I was a trainer.
449
00:39:46,695.058 --> 00:39:49,275.058
For 20 years, I trained a lot of people.
450
00:39:49,275.058 --> 00:39:57,435.057
I was like really known for training, then it's like, ah, it no longer fulfills me because it's just about the physical body and I want to get deeper.
451
00:39:57,965.057 --> 00:39:59,145.058
So then I went to yoga.
452
00:39:59,365.058 --> 00:40:03,125.0575
And then again, I was yoga for the, the football team and all that kind of stuff.
453
00:40:03,125.0575 --> 00:40:05,955.0575
But then I was like, okay, but now I want to ask the right question.
454
00:40:05,965.0575 --> 00:40:06,225.0575
So.
455
00:40:07,75.0575 --> 00:40:21,845.0575
It's like having the mentality of I'm going full in right now, but it doesn't mean I'm going to be there forever and not letting society or friends or family say to you, well, you spent 20 years on this and so you should stay.
456
00:40:22,210.0575 --> 00:40:23,200.0575
Even though you're miserable.
457
00:40:23,420.0575 --> 00:40:25,190.0575
That even goes with messaging, I feel like.
458
00:40:25,320.0575 --> 00:40:25,890.0575
It does.
459
00:40:26,120.0575 --> 00:40:27,10.0575
Oh my gosh.
460
00:40:27,20.0575 --> 00:40:27,440.0575
Yes.
461
00:40:27,480.0575 --> 00:40:29,170.0575
Oh, we could go down a whole rabbit hole with that.
462
00:40:29,470.0575 --> 00:40:29,910.0575
Yes.
463
00:40:29,920.0565 --> 00:40:31,390.0565
Your messaging is going to change.
464
00:40:31,670.0565 --> 00:40:33,90.0575
Hands down, it's going to change.
465
00:40:33,100.0575 --> 00:40:41,210.0575
And I think this is why I've shifted into teaching people instead of writing for them because your messaging change.
466
00:40:41,220.0575 --> 00:40:43,450.0575
You need to be able to do this on your own.
467
00:40:43,880.0575 --> 00:40:51,470.0575
In at least the basic capacity, because if you can't, you're never you're just stuck relying on other people to figure out what your voice is.
468
00:40:51,470.0575 --> 00:40:53,170.0565
And that's not always an easy thing.
469
00:40:53,180.0575 --> 00:40:54,550.0575
You got to know it for yourself.
470
00:40:54,560.0575 --> 00:40:57,490.0575
You got to know what you want to do, what you want to communicate.
471
00:40:57,540.0565 --> 00:41:03,430.0575
What is the transformation of whatever you're creating is be able to explain it to people.
472
00:41:03,910.0575 --> 00:41:08,0.0575
And know that it's going to change in six months, a year, two years.
473
00:41:08,345.0575 --> 00:41:09,185.0575
Like, that's okay.
474
00:41:10,575.0575 --> 00:41:13,735.0575
And honestly, I feel like if it doesn't change, you're not doing your work.
475
00:41:14,175.0575 --> 00:41:14,755.0575
Yeah.
476
00:41:16,355.0575 --> 00:41:20,415.0565
Because if we're growing and evolving, then we're going to change our messaging.
477
00:41:20,675.0575 --> 00:41:21,665.057
We become more bold.
478
00:41:21,665.057 --> 00:41:22,915.0575
We become whatever it is.
479
00:41:23,975.0575 --> 00:41:24,825.0575
It changes.
480
00:41:25,15.0575 --> 00:41:30,605.0575
So if it doesn't change, then that's a time for you to reflect on like, Ooh, I'm stuck because I'm not doing my work.
481
00:41:30,905.0575 --> 00:41:31,255.0575
Yeah.
482
00:41:31,755.0575 --> 00:41:39,745.0565
And I think, I think generators I've noticed can do the same messaging longer than on most of the types.
483
00:41:39,745.0575 --> 00:41:39,875.0575
Thanks.
484
00:41:40,545.0575 --> 00:41:47,785.0575
Most of us get, we're done after like one round, but generators can do it a little longer.
485
00:41:47,785.0575 --> 00:41:56,475.0575
And I find that their messaging just deepens, like it starts out a little more surface level and they'll maybe turn that thing a little more passive.
486
00:41:56,475.0575 --> 00:42:01,675.0575
They don't really want to be in it as much after a few rounds and they want to deepen it.
487
00:42:01,675.0575 --> 00:42:04,545.0575
And so they'll take the clients to another level deeper.
488
00:42:05,210.0575 --> 00:42:10,230.0575
Like, they're just deepening, in their mastery, which is what they're supposed to be doing.
489
00:42:11,0.0575 --> 00:42:11,350.0575
Yeah.
490
00:42:11,350.0575 --> 00:42:14,890.0575
Like deconditioning the layers, going deeper, the things.
491
00:42:15,140.0575 --> 00:42:23,420.0575
What about projectors? What have you noticed the projectors and messaging? They bounce around until they find.
492
00:42:24,460.0575 --> 00:42:32,450.0575
Their system can be, I've found their system can be like, human design is just their system and that's what they wanna dive deep on.
493
00:42:32,810.0575 --> 00:42:40,370.0575
Or it can be something that's like totally outta left field and something they've created from their own life.
494
00:42:40,400.0575 --> 00:42:46,110.0575
They pulled in yoga, they pulled in reiki, they pulled in like all these different things.
495
00:42:46,170.0575 --> 00:42:47,430.0575
A little mg ish.
496
00:42:47,580.0575 --> 00:42:51,985.0575
Right? But it's laid out in a different fashion than what an MG would do.
497
00:42:52,825.0575 --> 00:42:57,105.0575
And they, once they kind of figure out what that system is, then, then they can go all in.
498
00:42:57,195.0575 --> 00:42:58,675.0575
But sometimes it takes time to find that.
499
00:42:59,605.0575 --> 00:43:00,75.0575
Mm hmm.
500
00:43:01,485.0575 --> 00:43:10,125.0575
I do also have a question about MGs, because, you know, the, we're all different, all the MGs.
501
00:43:10,155.0575 --> 00:43:26,530.0585
I've really noticed people that have the 34, I feel like, have a lot more Hands in the pot, I guess, I feel like because I don't have the 34, but I do have the 952, the 952 is a, format channel.
502
00:43:26,830.0575 --> 00:43:28,150.0575
So this format channel.
503
00:43:28,560.0585 --> 00:43:32,720.0585
Really, it actually reflects my entire chart.
504
00:43:32,780.0585 --> 00:43:36,90.0585
Everything is through that lens of the nine 52.
505
00:43:36,940.0575 --> 00:43:41,620.0575
So for me, I, I feel like I'm sometimes not a full mg.
506
00:43:42,200.0575 --> 00:43:46,250.0595
I have a lot of activation to my throat, but I don't feel like I have that.
507
00:43:46,785.0585 --> 00:43:49,975.0585
It's that shiny object syndrome where I kind of like go all over the place.
508
00:43:49,975.0585 --> 00:43:55,515.0585
It's like, I find something, I have the 48, I go deep for years and years and focus and deep and deep.
509
00:43:55,745.0575 --> 00:43:59,475.0575
And then as soon as I'm no longer excited, it's like, okay, time to move on.
510
00:43:59,685.0585 --> 00:44:06,110.0585
So have you noticed that with different? Types of MGs.
511
00:44:06,540.0585 --> 00:44:07,460.0585
Yeah, definitely.
512
00:44:07,470.0585 --> 00:44:13,780.0585
I mean, the 34, if you have that, it's definitely a hands in the every kind of pot all over the place.
513
00:44:13,810.0585 --> 00:44:14,740.0585
I have the 34.
514
00:44:14,740.0585 --> 00:44:16,930.0585
It's not connected to my throat, but I have the 34.
515
00:44:17,870.0585 --> 00:44:19,740.0585
Both my kids have the 34 too.
516
00:44:20,740.0585 --> 00:44:35,10.0585
And they're You very much kind of all over the place too and what they like and yeah, I think the shiny object syndrome for MGs is tied very much to the 34.
517
00:44:35,650.0575 --> 00:44:38,990.0585
That's interesting that you have noticed that so much about yourself too.
518
00:44:39,530.0585 --> 00:44:48,882.859
Because I, I realized I would ask myself, I'd be working with people and they jump from one thing to the other and I'd be like, I need to focus.
519
00:44:48,882.859 --> 00:44:52,30.059
Like I need to sit and focus and go deep into this.
520
00:44:52,30.059 --> 00:44:52,80.059
Yeah.
521
00:44:52,80.159 --> 00:44:52,99.959
Thanks.
522
00:44:52,570.059 --> 00:45:01,505.059
For like however long I need to and then I'll move to the next maybe the next day or maybe half day Later, I can really focus on something for a couple hours.
523
00:45:01,505.059 --> 00:45:06,165.059
I can't be all over the place because it makes me feel like I'm all over the place.
524
00:45:06,305.059 --> 00:45:08,785.059
And I have, I have a defined route.
525
00:45:09,75.059 --> 00:45:10,745.058
I have the nine 52.
526
00:45:11,25.059 --> 00:45:12,955.059
I really like to go deep and focus.
527
00:45:12,985.059 --> 00:45:14,855.057
And I always wondered why, I'm an MG.
528
00:45:14,865.058 --> 00:45:25,625.058
Why am I not like that? But then I realized that it is a a format channel that the channel actually kind of is the whole lens, my entire human design body graph.
529
00:45:25,925.058 --> 00:45:26,695.058
Reflects that.
530
00:45:26,895.058 --> 00:45:27,775.058
And that's how I am.
531
00:45:27,795.058 --> 00:45:29,215.058
So I do go deep.
532
00:45:29,645.058 --> 00:45:33,15.058
And I kind of bounce back and forth between the two.
533
00:45:33,115.057 --> 00:45:41,215.057
Like I want to go deep, but I also, if I were to spend an entire day on one thing, I would feel like a failure that day.
534
00:45:42,55.057 --> 00:45:43,985.058
See for me, I feel like.
535
00:45:44,480.058 --> 00:45:52,390.058
Wow, I got like this, this amazing thing done and it's so good and it's so in depth and I'm done.
536
00:45:52,510.058 --> 00:45:55,560.058
And now I get to go to the next thing and go deep into that.
537
00:45:57,240.058 --> 00:46:02,170.057
No, I feel like I didn't even scratch the surface of the depth and I'm like, now I'm all consumed with it.
538
00:46:02,180.057 --> 00:46:03,680.057
And I'm like, versus...
539
00:46:04,405.058 --> 00:46:12,275.058
going deep for a a shorter amount of time and then I can do that with a couple different areas throughout the day.
540
00:46:12,475.057 --> 00:46:21,785.057
That feels like a win of a day where I get to do all the pots and go deep on all the pots for a short period of time.
541
00:46:22,645.058 --> 00:46:23,305.058
Yeah.
542
00:46:23,465.058 --> 00:46:24,435.057
Oh, that's so interesting.
543
00:46:24,435.057 --> 00:46:30,255.058
So that's interesting for anyone listening, you know, because even though we're both MGs.
544
00:46:30,885.058 --> 00:46:40,935.058
Yeah, it's, we do things differently because of our, our definition, so it, it just goes to show that we're all unique in our way of being that our messaging is our messaging.
545
00:46:40,945.058 --> 00:46:44,65.0575
It's not what someone tells us to do or anything like that.
546
00:46:44,65.0575 --> 00:46:48,915.058
You have to feel into it because for like me with my clients, I like to go deep.
547
00:46:49,195.058 --> 00:46:54,5.058
Like I want to go into that depth, that time, that space where we get into that heaviness.
548
00:46:54,595.058 --> 00:46:57,685.058
That's what fills me up where a lot of people are like, I don't want that.
549
00:46:57,695.058 --> 00:46:58,815.058
That is scary.
550
00:47:00,675.058 --> 00:47:01,795.058
Shadow work is scary.
551
00:47:01,845.058 --> 00:47:04,125.058
I mean, it's scary when you haven't done it.
552
00:47:04,605.058 --> 00:47:06,585.058
The more you do it, you're like, yeah, bring it on.
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00:47:07,705.058 --> 00:47:08,215.058
Yeah.
554
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It's like, Ooh, there's something there.
555
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Let's see what that's about.
556
00:47:11,525.058 --> 00:47:17,455.059
Cause you know that on the other side, it's so much better when you release and get rid of that shadow and work and just see the shadow.
557
00:47:17,485.059 --> 00:47:18,25.059
Just see it.
558
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Not even get rid of it.
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Just see it.
560
00:47:21,430.059 --> 00:47:23,890.059
That even goes even more into our messaging and our voice.
561
00:47:24,340.059 --> 00:47:24,600.059
Yeah.
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Right.
563
00:47:25,50.059 --> 00:47:28,130.059
Because once you understand that about your chart.
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You understand more of your niche.
565
00:47:30,400.059 --> 00:47:32,230.059
You understand who your ideal client is.
566
00:47:32,230.059 --> 00:47:34,640.059
You understand, like for me personally, it has to go deep.
567
00:47:34,700.059 --> 00:47:35,870.059
I want to spend time.
568
00:47:35,880.059 --> 00:47:36,680.059
I want space.
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00:47:37,90.059 --> 00:47:49,960.058
Whereas other people don't, they want many, many people or whatever touching on things and that's, that's their chart, but that's where the messaging comes in and that's where the voice comes in too.
570
00:47:49,960.058 --> 00:47:51,390.058
And how to find that aligned.
571
00:47:52,135.059 --> 00:48:05,665.059
Strategy, the containers that you're putting around your offers and how it works for you and what you really wanna do, not what makes money, or not what industry standard is, or what people think it sells or anything like that.
572
00:48:05,670.059 --> 00:48:08,995.059
It's like, no, this is how I wanna work with clients.
573
00:48:10,515.059 --> 00:48:16,785.059
Well, we're gonna be doing one of these a month and I'm so excited and I feel like I wanna tease.
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what we're making.
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Go ahead.
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Go ahead.
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Tease it.
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Tease it.
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00:48:23,200.059 --> 00:48:30,290.058
Miranda and I are gonna put together a container where we're going deep, obviously.
580
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We're provoking you.
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00:48:34,260.059 --> 00:48:39,370.059
But really, we're creating a container for people that are afraid to step out into who they truly are.
582
00:48:39,840.059 --> 00:48:49,340.059
And we're going to look at the shadow, we're going to look at why and what's holding you back and then really step forward with a message that.
583
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Is authentically you and feels exciting to you.
584
00:48:52,710.059 --> 00:49:05,200.058
And like, this is what I've been really wanting and craving to do, but didn't give myself permission to, we're giving the space to like, we're holding space for you to be able to do that because it's not always easy.
585
00:49:05,350.058 --> 00:49:07,240.059
There is a shadow there.
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And.
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I think.
588
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This collaboration between the two of us really helps people go deep in a way that I have never been able to do with clients and I'm excited about being able to heal some shadow and really look at like, why can't, why haven't I been able to do this, even though I know that I want to.
589
00:49:29,589.959 --> 00:49:31,789.959
But I just, there's something holding you back.
590
00:49:33,929.959 --> 00:49:45,789.959
What this feels like is a little bit of a container where you have the permission and opportunity to go into the things that you are always afraid of before.
591
00:49:45,789.959 --> 00:49:54,679.959
Because whether people push away, you're afraid to say it to people, you're afraid of reaction, you're afraid, like, is this truly me? These beliefs.
592
00:49:54,979.959 --> 00:49:56,659.959
So we go into like the deconditioning.
593
00:49:56,659.959 --> 00:50:00,399.959
Where are you conditioned the most? How you're expressing yourself.
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How are you not expressing yourself and why? So we go into that like going heavy into this stuff and it will be.
595
00:50:09,404.959 --> 00:50:50,899.958
It will be heavy at times, but it's in a safe space, and I've done these containers, and the magic that unfolds happens almost within the first week, because as soon as people start sharing those scary things, and you're witnessed, and you're uplifted, and you're congratulating each other, and you're, you're not Putting people down or making them feel bad for feeling a certain way you start to realize how many times you've actually suppressed Yourself, so this container is gonna give you that space and then we get to do all that work And then we get to do the messaging so that you get to bring that out into the world So I think it's gonna be really magical.
596
00:50:51,119.958 --> 00:50:59,889.958
I think so, too So that'll come out not till the first of the year after the new year, let that percolate in people's minds, I think, right now.
597
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We are going to be doing a monthly podcast, so, if you guys want to ask questions, definitely, send questions, either either one our way.
598
00:51:11,759.958 --> 00:51:18,849.958
We can answer them, that way we can give you a little bit more insight of what we're doing, more of what you want to hear from us.
599
00:51:19,369.958 --> 00:51:20,749.958
We're doing this in a way because...
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We're learning how to work with one another as well.
601
00:51:23,129.958 --> 00:51:26,969.958
So I love that you brought this up for us to do, because we get to know each other.
602
00:51:26,969.958 --> 00:51:30,119.958
We get to practice, we get to, to kind of be in each other's energy.
603
00:51:30,119.958 --> 00:51:33,489.958
And then we're going to get to create this container for everyone too.
604
00:51:33,849.958 --> 00:51:37,539.958
So this way, you guys will all know us together.
605
00:51:37,629.957 --> 00:51:44,139.958
You don't know us, our energies together and learn from us before we even really bring that container out into the world.
606
00:51:45,829.958 --> 00:51:46,549.957
Well, Miranda.
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I'll see you next month.
608
00:51:48,619.958 --> 00:51:49,49.958
Yes.
609
00:51:49,229.958 --> 00:51:50,309.958
Thank you so much.
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Can't wait.
611
00:51:51,229.958 --> 00:51:51,869.958
Bye guys.
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My hope is that you walked away with something today that has opened your mind, your heart, or both listening to new perspectives, not only help you grow and expand, but it helps humanity as a whole.
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So if you have someone that you feel would benefit from this podcast and you feel that you want to share.
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Please do.
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00:52:11,533.8955 --> 00:52:14,343.8955
Also would love to connect with you on Instagram.
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So please follow me at Miranda J.
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Mitchell.
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And if you want to know more or wondering how we can work together, please go to Miranda Mitchell.
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Click on the contact in the menu and send me a message.
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