Courageous Apostolic Women: The Cost of the Call

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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Jesus. But nothing pndoine you, jeez, I'm nothing resarve you, j.

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How nothing psive you? Geez? How nothing resout you? Jesus?

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How nothing desove you, nothing redon you.

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Nothing renied. I need to think about that.

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You think being which somebody makes you somebody? You think
looking up with the right people poll it's what it's
gonna make you somebody?

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You think? He didn't And then I did go down
the book, gotta connected the books and the less. What's
gonna make you something? Money? Putting nothing with you?

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Ge all?

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Nine to basically nothing?

Speaker 1 (01:27):
What do you mean? Oh myle Gray, Please a mercy

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and peace be multiplied to you from God, our Father and.

Speaker 2 (02:03):
The Lord Jesus Christ. Welcome.

Speaker 1 (02:06):
It has been sometime since I've been on a Tuesday
Night Live, but we're back, hallelujah, and we just give
God glory on and praise. I want to welcome all
of you tonight to the courageous Apostolic women broadcast on tonight.

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This is our Tuesday Night Live, and I'm gonna be
going through this here and I'm gonna be sharing with
some of you, and I want you tonight if you
know any women good evening, good evening, Good evening to
everybody coming on in the room, to our Oasis Church
Talahassee family, to our ass Church, Zephyr Hill's family.

Speaker 2 (02:50):
Blessings, grace and peace to you. Thank God for you.

Speaker 1 (02:53):
Good evening, Propatas Stephanie, Prophet's Melissa, Good good evening.

Speaker 2 (02:58):
I sorry say good morning, but even into you, sister Ariyana.

Speaker 1 (03:02):
Holley Lujah, we thank God for all of you that
are joining us on tonight. Doctor and Gee Wigans, we
thank God for you on tonight. Apostle Joline, We thank
God for you. Apostle k back. What's happening heymen. Blessings
and grace in peace. Good evening to you. Prophetes Felicia,

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Oh I like your picture. That nice, Holley Lujah. Amen,
Apostle tying you Williams. Amen, we thank God for you.

Speaker 2 (03:34):
Amen.

Speaker 1 (03:34):
Listen tonight I'm excited. I'm excited. I'm excited. Oh my goodness,
good evening to your sister Tiffany. Blessings, blessings, blessings.

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We thank God for you.

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If that just desiray, Oh my goodness, look at the
woman of God best the Valerie. Bless you, Holley Lujah,
look at my sister and sister Dad.

Speaker 2 (03:54):
Listen, we thank God for each of you. On tonight.

Speaker 1 (03:57):
I want to invite you to do something for me
to I know that everybody when they do their lives,
they say like tag share, share it with somebody. But
I want to tell you something. I mean it tonight. Hey, Lenny,
Lenny prophetes is linee?

Speaker 2 (04:14):
Amen?

Speaker 1 (04:15):
Listen, I mean it tonight. I want you to take
a moment and share this broadcast. Now what I'm sharing
with you tonight. Yes, it's a wee or tonight it
sure is it? Sure is amen, because I'm going to
be sharing with us on tonight.

Speaker 2 (04:33):
I am actually So here's my thing.

Speaker 1 (04:36):
Let me just give a little intro to the intro
and then we're gonna just jump right on into it,
right because property Celicia blessings.

Speaker 2 (04:46):
A good evening to you. Listen. So I'm writing another book.

Speaker 1 (04:52):
I want to tell everybody who ordered you did your
pre orders on Call to Speak, thank you for your love,
thank you for your support. Your books are going to
to be in the mail tomorrow. I was signing everybody's
books on today, so your books will be in the mail.

Speaker 2 (05:06):
You can get a copy of this.

Speaker 1 (05:07):
You can get this in a hardcover and soft cover
on Amazon dot com. Women, if you know that God
has called you to speak and you have issues that
you deal with, Praise God. Bless it to your apostle, Gloria.
Thank God for you. Amen, thank you Jesus. Oh no,
is that mother horn? I don't know who I'm looking at.

Speaker 2 (05:29):
Okay? Is this a postile horn from down in Georgia? Aymen,
bless you.

Speaker 1 (05:34):
But listen, if you've been called to speaking, I don't
want to get into this on tonight, but listen.

Speaker 2 (05:39):
This book is good. Okay. I was proud of my
own self. Okay.

Speaker 1 (05:44):
So everything from social media to handling platforms with all
male dynamic travel, ministry, marriage and family balances, all of
that it is in here, and this is gonna bless you.
Anybody here already got your copy, you started reading already,
Tell them come and get their copy.

Speaker 2 (06:04):
Excuse me, hey man, blessings to you. Yes, this is
my brother here. Brother.

Speaker 1 (06:11):
I will send you a copy for your wife, and
I believe it's gonna bless her. Hey man, and listen,
while I'm talking about books real quick, I have some
other books that are here. If you don't have a
copy of Battle of the Overcoming. You need to get
you a copy. It's on Amazon. It's on Amazon, this
right here. Listen, listen from Ordinary to Extraordinary.

Speaker 2 (06:28):
We did a whole get together with the women.

Speaker 1 (06:32):
And did a class on this and it is in
our portal. You need to get this in your library.
And then for all of you that in ministry, apostolic teams,
get you a copy. If you're building teams, if you're
growing your ministry, you need to do it. And then
what of you want if any of you are doing missions,
We have our own missions manual and guess what. You
can get a copy of our missions manual online. Okay,

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so you need to get that. Can I tell you
everybody who want to go with you ain't ready to
go with you, and you got to prime them to
get ready to go with you.

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Okay, Praise the Lord. My sister Missy is on here.
Bless you.

Speaker 1 (07:08):
I'm so glad to see you. That's my herd, that's
her sister right there. Amen, that's my university right there, sister,
And I thank God for you.

Speaker 2 (07:20):
Amen, p im Global, Amen, We thank God for you.

Speaker 1 (07:23):
Yes, and so we thank God for all of you
that are joining us on tonight. So tonight I'm going
to be sharing with you all. And I know I
just did this.

Speaker 2 (07:31):
And I'm working on two other books. I'm trying to.

Speaker 1 (07:34):
Get these books out, and so I want to be
obedient to the Lord. And so one of the things
that has been on my heart is being able to
address some of the things that we as.

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Women in ministry have to deal with.

Speaker 1 (07:46):
Right and I believe that it is left for us
to step out into this unknown place.

Speaker 2 (07:59):
I thank God. Listen, we try to get these out here.

Speaker 1 (08:01):
We all number fourteen and we're gonna get fourteen out Hey,
man is Jesus' name? But tonight, I really want to
be your teacher. I want to be your midwife of
destiny tonight because I need to talk to you about
some things. I want to push you further into courage,
into your identity and into prophetic obedience to the things

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that God has called you to do. And I know,
letten to your Prophetneses, jan I love you, listen, let
me tell you. Let me tell you these things that
we have to face as Apostolic women. So let me
get this straight first. Like tag and share, Like tag
and share, like tag and share if you know any apostles.

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Oh my God, and I need to put this in
the Apostolic Women's group.

Speaker 2 (08:46):
I just got so.

Speaker 1 (08:47):
Excited and was just in here just YadA, da YadA
and all over the place that I didn't even share
it to our Apostolic women's group, our Depor company.

Speaker 2 (08:57):
So we got to send this over to the Deporah.

Speaker 1 (09:00):
Okay, okay, all right, let me put this on here
right now so that these ladies in our Apostolic women's
group will get this the Deborah Company, Apostolic women working together.

Speaker 2 (09:30):
Okay, all right, here we go.

Speaker 1 (09:38):
I just had to get that up there and this there.
All right, let's continue, and we're gonna thank God for
all of you that are on here with us. Blessings
to your Apostle Terry Stevens. Blessings all the way in Ohio.
We thank God for you, my brother, my FBCNG brother.
So listen, So, ladies, I'm gonna talk to you, and
I know that what I'm gonna say it's gonna bless

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some Apistolic men as well, because there are some trials,
some issues, some problems, some things that we all go
through that are just universal, right, But then there are
some things that we go through as women. And I
was saying, you know, I'm writing a couple of books
right now.

Speaker 2 (10:17):
I'm trying to.

Speaker 1 (10:18):
Get everything that I have been sitting on out of me,
like this book. This book I've been sitting on for
years because I know that we as women that are
traveling and that are doing ministry, that are trying to
juggle family and ministry and business and all.

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Of the things.

Speaker 1 (10:33):
I understand that sometimes it's hard to do that, and
there are expectations that are on us that are not
on men. We love you, brothers, but this is our reality.
And so this is absolutely not man bashing.

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We love the men of God. We aren of the
men of God.

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But I want to speak to the identity. I want
to speak to the courage. I want to speak to
the hearts of the Apostolic women. And when I say
Apostolic women, I'm talking about if you are a prophet,
an apostle, a pastor and evangelist, a teacher. You might
have the ministry of helps, you might have the gift
of administration. You may have you might be a greeter

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at your church. Listen, you are an Apostolic woman. Blessings
to you, Apostle Vivian Swinson. We thank God for you.
You made that Holly Lujah. That's my sense right there.
And so what I'm sharing with you are some of
my notes from my book The Courageous Apostolic Woman, because

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there are things that I have had to have courage
to do that I did not want to do anybody
with me. No, listen, I didn't want to have to
do this by myself. I did not want to have
to face betray you. I didn't want to have to
face being lied on. I didn't want to have to
face all of the things that I went through. Blessings

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to Lisa.

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I did not.

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Want to have to face being abandoned by people who
said that they was gonna be with me to the end.
I mean, I'm sticking with you to thick and thin,
and when things get thick, you thin out on me.

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Oh my god.

Speaker 1 (12:11):
I'm gonna talk about all of those things because it
has become a taboo issue. Blessings Pastor, Angie, listen.

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And so it has become a taboo thing because amen,
ay man, Amen, because you know what.

Speaker 1 (12:31):
Has happened is people leave church and they talk about
the pastor, but the pastor have.

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To be quiet where y'all laugh. And so this is
a transparent moment. These Tuesday night lives are gonna be transparent.

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They're gonna be wrong, they gonna be real, they gonna
be serious.

Speaker 2 (12:51):
We're gonna deal with issues.

Speaker 1 (12:53):
We're gonna deal with all of our idio secrecies as leaders,
the things that we are afraid and ashamed to talk about.
Come on, somebody, get some more leaders on here, some
more apostolic women, because they need to hear this. We
need a place where we could be vulnerable. We need
a place.

Speaker 2 (13:11):
Amen. I ain't saying where we can run people down.
That's not what I'm saying. But it takes courage to
walk this walk for the Lord. And so let's talk
about what the purpose of this.

Speaker 1 (13:24):
The purpose of this is for us to be able
to provide prophetic insight right and to maximize our impact
as leaders, so that whatever it is that God has
called us to do, even in the midst of our tears,
because we know there are times that we got.

Speaker 2 (13:42):
To keep crying and keep preaching. You know what I'm saying, We.

Speaker 1 (13:45):
Gotta wipe our tears, we gotta we gotta you know what.

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I'm saying, change the baby, and keep going.

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You gotta do whatever is necessary and not really have a.

Speaker 2 (13:55):
Break because because the rules don't really allow for you
to have break.

Speaker 1 (14:00):
Anybody know what I'm talking about. So I want to
share some things.

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With us. I want to make some decrees over us.

Speaker 1 (14:11):
I want this to be a safe and respectful space
that you.

Speaker 2 (14:14):
Hear what I said. I know what's online, but I want.

Speaker 1 (14:16):
This to be a safe and respectful and spirit land
space because we need to be able to get free.

Speaker 2 (14:24):
So that we can do what God calls us to do.

Speaker 1 (14:26):
And even though we online, everybody can't see all of
our faces. So Sis, if you got to go get
your tissue while we going through these these courageous women's sessions,
then I want you to get your tissue, and I
want you to be ready hallelujah, so that God can
speak to you, so that God can minister to you,
so that you can get all of the stuff that's

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been blocking you from being the best that God has
called you to be. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (14:51):
And I always ran from women's ministry. Let me tell
you why.

Speaker 1 (14:54):
Let's talk about this for a second, because I'm gonna
get to the point I always ran from women's ministry
because I felt like I didn't want.

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To be pigeonholed, because.

Speaker 1 (15:03):
I understood that there was an apostolic mantle on my
life to apostle, right, and when I finally received and accepted.

Speaker 2 (15:12):
What God was saying, there were times that there were
others who.

Speaker 1 (15:15):
Wanted just wanted me to just do women's conversations. You
can talk to the women. You can have a women's meeting, right,
and that has its place like tonight, right. But what
happened is I had to learn that it is okay
and all of the issues I was running from facing
come on because I felt like somebody was trying to

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keep me stuck doing one thing. But can I tell
you you can specialize in something and not be diminished in.

Speaker 2 (15:45):
Another One more time for the replay.

Speaker 1 (15:48):
You can specialize in something and not be diminished in
another area.

Speaker 2 (15:53):
Blessings to you, my Tika.

Speaker 1 (15:55):
All right, So it's okay for you to spread your
wings and for you to have a vast array of
skill set that you can share your gifts, your talents,
your annointings and the things that God have given to you.

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So we're gonna talk about some things.

Speaker 1 (16:14):
We're gonna talk about some real heavy stuff. And we're
gonna pray, We're gonna read some scripture, we're gonna, we're gonna,
we're gonna talk.

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Is what we're gonna do.

Speaker 1 (16:24):
And so I'm writing this book, The Courageous Apostolic Woman.

Speaker 2 (16:28):
And in this book, I'm.

Speaker 1 (16:30):
Dealing with some stuff that was really difficult. I went
through some hard stuff feeling, you know, dealing with my call.
I ran from God. You know what I'm saying. And
now I'm I'm ready to share wisdom. Now I'm ready
to share practical advice. Now I'm ready to tell the story.
Because we are called to lead, and the enemy wants

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to try to shut you down, to keep you from
doing what God has called you to do. He wants
to keep you from telling your story. Can I tell
you that he wants.

Speaker 2 (17:03):
To keep you? Yes, a vad skill set. Come on,
talk about it.

Speaker 1 (17:08):
Blessed to your apostle. Good to see you on the here,
apostle Tea. So you know what I'm saying. We got
to be equipped so that we can stand firm and
what God has called us to do. All right, And
so this book is an invitation. These sessions are an
invitation for you apostolic woman. Right, We're gonna talk about
loneliness on this journey. We're gonna talk about the courage.

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I can't see what all of these I gotta switch
these glasses up because they be acting funny. We're gonna
talk about the battle against jealousy and betrayal.

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If anybody ever been betrayed?

Speaker 1 (17:41):
Have you ever had people who walk with you and
they compete with your assignment?

Speaker 2 (17:48):
Oh my god? Today? Now see, I told you I'm
gonna talk tonight. I'm gonna talk when we come together
for these sessions.

Speaker 1 (17:55):
Okay, but then we also gonna share what is the
reward for obedience. We're gonna talk about what talk about
this weight of this apostolic mantle, and and how when
you are carrying dismantle and you have to deal with
jealousy and betrayal, how it stings you? Oh my god,

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Oh my god, Oh my god, oh my god. Right,
how that there are times that people that God call
you to love, that he call you to minister too,
that he called you to pour your life out on
and and and for will turntail and kill you, will

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do things to tear you down. And let me tell
you something, I am so thankful for every rejection. I
am so thankful for every dagger. I'm thankful for every
person who sold me out for thirty pieces of.

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Silver or less.

Speaker 1 (18:52):
I'm thankful for every person who wrote a Facebook post
about me after they left the ministry. Bless the name
of the Lord, my God, how they Loujah, because all
of those things were squeezing the oil.

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Of the Lord out of my life.

Speaker 1 (19:10):
Anybody hear what I'm saying the telling about, so Rabbi
da ikaya, all of those things that were happening, all
of the groups that would get together when they write
their posts and get up underneath the posts, and they second, third,
and fourth the posts come on share the posts like
I know that's right, and all of the things, thank

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you because it is those things that pulled the anointing
out of my life. It is all of your betrayals
that helped me to bear under the weight of what
God called me to do. Call my God today. It
is all of those things. And had it not been

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for those things, the grace of God would never have
opened up to me.

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Did you hear what I said? And I need you
to I understand this.

Speaker 1 (20:01):
And I was listening to this, and I was sharing
with this with my daughters this morning on our ADMIN
meeting about how I was listening to this man talking
about grace and how there is a grace that comes
to us that only comes to us as we bear
down under the weight of test and trial and difficulty.

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There is no way that you can.

Speaker 1 (20:23):
Step into what God had for you until you are broken,
until God brings you to the place.

Speaker 2 (20:29):
Listen, you can't get thee.

Speaker 1 (20:30):
Oil out of the olive until the olive is crushed.
And we hate the crushing. But I'm here to tell you,
woman of God, hallelujah.

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Blessings to you.

Speaker 1 (20:41):
Blessings to you, Pastor thank God for you, hallelujah, Blessings
to you, Pastor Stacy, hallelujah. I'm here to tell you
that unless you go through this crushing, unless you go
through the shame, unless you go through.

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The breaking, you kidnap me.

Speaker 1 (20:58):
This is why this is called correct just Apostolic woman,
because I'm telling you it takes courage to stand under
the trials of rejection.

Speaker 2 (21:08):
It takes courage to stand under the test of people
that you love killing you. Listen to me.

Speaker 1 (21:15):
I know what Jesus felt when Judas sold him out.
Oh my God, and I know listen because Jesus kept
Judas right next to him.

Speaker 2 (21:25):
I miss you too, Lady Daniels, I miss you. Let
me tell you something.

Speaker 1 (21:31):
I know what it feels like, and so let me
get you my notes all of this stuff I'm dealing
with in this book. So my prayer is that by October,
by the grace of God, that this book comes out,
because we got to get this out. So I want
to read a couple of verses to us. I want
you to write these verses down. Philippians three and eight,

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second Corinthians two and fourteen, and John fifteen sixteen.

Speaker 2 (21:57):
Write those down. I want you to understand that this
apostolic mantle.

Speaker 1 (22:02):
And I want you to understand even though I'm saying apostolic,
it doesn't mean that you have to be an apostle
to carry the apostolic mantle.

Speaker 2 (22:08):
The kind of ministry.

Speaker 1 (22:09):
That God is building, the ecclasy of that God is
building in this hour is an Apostolic church. Because our
chief apostle, Jesus Christ, is our chief apostle. So what
kind of house is he building? An Apostolic house. So,
now that we have settled that let us let's.

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Keep moving on.

Speaker 1 (22:26):
So this apostolic mantle is weighty and it requires sacrifice.
You're not gonna be able to do what God wants
you to do unless you're willing to pay the price
for the oil that must flow from your life. And
I know that we are in the blessed, blessed, blessed.
I'm living my blessed life. We in that season, and

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we love to hear those kinds of messages.

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But I'm telling you.

Speaker 1 (22:50):
There is a people that God is raising up. There
are women that God is raising up that have beared
down under the weight of the pressure of a life
and have been courageous through their tests and their trials,
through their difficulties.

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Blessings and grace and peace to you, hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (23:11):
They have gone through a man hell, and how well
they have lost everything, everything has been on the line.
You say that Jesus, go with me. I'll go and
I'll go by myself. And God said, all right, let
me test you. And then now you got to go
by yourself. And you never thought you were gonna have
to go by yourself, But here you are going on,

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courageous woman by yourself.

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Cannot tell you.

Speaker 1 (23:34):
That it was the plan of God all along, because
He wanted you to be able to know that, by
His grace you can do this thing.

Speaker 2 (23:46):
Oh my God, hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (23:48):
By his grace is Philippians three and eight's second Corinthians
two fourteen, and John fifteen and sixteen. I really just
want to read John fifteen and sixteen. If you mind, y'all,
go get the other verses, amen, But I want to
read John fifteen and sixteen because I've been meditating on
this today. So I want to read this to you,

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all right. I want you to hear this word glory
for God.

Speaker 2 (24:15):
I want to read. I want to read this to you.

Speaker 1 (24:16):
I'm gonna read John fifteen and sixteen, and I want
to read this to you and the less let me
find a good old version to read this, SA hallelujah,
because I'm telling you, the enemy ben trying to talk
us out of our assignments because of our pain. He've
been trying to convince us that we can't do what
God want us to do because we've been hurt or

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somebody left us, or somebody made us mad, or somebody you.

Speaker 2 (24:42):
Know dropped us or whatever.

Speaker 1 (24:44):
Can I tell you this comes with the territory. It
comes with the territory.

Speaker 2 (24:50):
I'm gonna read it to you in the New King James,
but listen to it.

Speaker 1 (24:53):
It says, you did not choose me. This is John
fifteen sixteen. You did not choose me. But I show you,
y'all see this verse he said, but I chose you.
I got stuff popping up on my screen that you
should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain.

Speaker 2 (25:12):
Y'all hear this. This is what he say.

Speaker 1 (25:13):
This is Jesus talking to us that whatever you ask
the Father in my name, he may give to you.

Speaker 2 (25:21):
Listen to me, even when hell is break loose. Can
I tell you something?

Speaker 1 (25:26):
Don't you understand that the thing that helps you to
grow when you anybody ever built, ever planted a garden,
the thing that helps your garden grow was when you
throw a little pool pool on it. So you got
to go through life, and God got to throw a little.

Speaker 2 (25:44):
Pool pool on you. You gotta go through, and you
gotta go through with.

Speaker 1 (25:49):
People taking a dump on you, sugar, And you like,
I don't deserve this. I've been good to you, I
have loved you, I've cared for you. And Jesus said listen.
Even in that I chose you and I'm calling you
the bear fruit. But you can't badness fruit because the
scripture tells us a lesser grad we fall to the

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ground and die. It a bids alone. You can't bear
fruit till you die. Your seed can't bear fruit. It's
got to break open and what's in it got to
come out. And the only place that that happens is
in the dark, underneath the dirt, under the pooh pooh.
So I'm trying to tell you, courageous apostolic people of gods, listen,

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I wanna talk about the fact that betray you and
jealousy that comes upon your life. Can I tell you
don't hate them because they betrayed you. Don't hate them
because they was jealous and they would never admit that
that's what it is.

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But that's okay. You gotta be all right with that.

Speaker 1 (26:54):
They would never say and they would never come back
and say sorry.

Speaker 2 (26:57):
But that's okay too.

Speaker 1 (27:00):
Don't be mad about it. Let me tell you this.
Let me tell you this. Your betuay yos and the
jealousy and the lies.

Speaker 2 (27:10):
Listen.

Speaker 1 (27:11):
There are people that I have moved into my house
that turned on me like a low down, two face,
dirty la track and I had to take it. And
I wasn't out here trying to defend myself. I'm not
out here writing no Facebook posts because I understood that
he chose me, and we used to sing a song

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in church.

Speaker 2 (27:35):
He chose me.

Speaker 1 (27:38):
He chose me out of all the people in the world.

Speaker 2 (27:44):
The Lord choos me. And we don't sing no songs
no more. And you know why we don't sing no
songs no more because.

Speaker 1 (27:52):
We are too busy focusing on our pain and we
have forgotten that if they persecuted Jesus, they gonna persecute us.
You gotta be okay because this is part of God's
curriculum for your life.

Speaker 2 (28:05):
Don't you know.

Speaker 1 (28:06):
It doesn't matter if you got your doctriment. It doesn't
matter if you got all the did's behind your name PhD, ABCDEFG.

Speaker 2 (28:13):
None of that matters.

Speaker 1 (28:14):
God has his own curriculum and he is going to
make you.

Speaker 2 (28:19):
He's gonna take you through his school.

Speaker 1 (28:21):
There are no short because there's no testing out of
the assignment. You gotta go through the assignment. You got
to be croshed and come on, soria tabah.

Speaker 2 (28:31):
You got to be broken.

Speaker 1 (28:33):
You gotta be lied on, You gotta go through all
of those.

Speaker 2 (28:38):
Things because He's making you.

Speaker 1 (28:40):
So let me tell you about what your betrayal, what
the lies, what the jealousy is. These are the refining fires.
These are not disqualifiers. And even as I was writing
this on tonight, the Lord beginning to speak to me,
and he said, people.

Speaker 2 (28:53):
Think that when they leave you that he leaves too.

Speaker 1 (28:57):
But can I tell you hallelujah? He said, out will
never leave you, neither will I forsake you. They thought
that because they left, that the ministry was gonna fall.
Come on, Episolic women, where y'all at, anybody ever left you?
They thought that because they weren't. They're giving their tithes
and their offering. And I'm not throwing off on nobody.
I'm trying to tell you that these are the things
that have crushed me and brought me to the place

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of prayer and fasting. These are the things that brought
the other shun that they've been hold shot.

Speaker 2 (29:24):
These are the things.

Speaker 1 (29:25):
That brought the oil out.

Speaker 2 (29:26):
Of my life. These are the.

Speaker 1 (29:28):
Things that taught me that if God before me, who
can be against me?

Speaker 2 (29:34):
Can I tell you something.

Speaker 1 (29:35):
When I've had to walk this thing by myself, sitting
in the room by myself, no almor bearers, are no
family members or no church folk, having to carry my
own bag, having to walk by myself, pray myself through.
Come on here, somebody without nobody, to understand, nobody to
be there. I had to understand that God would never

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believe me.

Speaker 2 (30:00):
Oh my, oh my, I'm.

Speaker 1 (30:04):
Trying to tell you something. So they thought that when
they left, that God was leaving, even though they you know,
they took your name and ran it through the mud.
Even though they loved you while they was here, they
sang your praises. But when you didn't do what they
wanted you to do, they became public enemy number one.

Speaker 2 (30:27):
And they're not just that, not just that. But then
they all get in cohoots with each other.

Speaker 1 (30:32):
And then now you are the Facebook posts, and you
are the Instagram message, and you are the TikTok video,
and you are all of those things. Can you bear
that without defending yourself? Let me tell you something that
pastaric women, you don't have to defend yourself, And let
me tell you it is hurt me. I have cried
some real tears over people that I have loved Hollylujah,

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Glory be to God, hallelujah. And I've had to give
my heart to Jesus so that he would be able
to keep this heart so that I will keep loving
him and keep loving his people and keep doing what
he said. Dude, come on here, hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (31:09):
Listen to me.

Speaker 1 (31:09):
They talk about church hurt, they talk about pastors.

Speaker 2 (31:12):
Doing this and pastors doing that. But let's talk about
these biting sheep. Let me take a sip.

Speaker 1 (31:22):
Let's talk about these sheep that bite and they gnaw
at you. Halleluis. They don't just take a chunk. Come on,
hond they bite and keep coming back in the bite.
You gotta be okay with it because God is ordering
your steps.

Speaker 2 (31:36):
This is your refining.

Speaker 1 (31:38):
God is allowing it so that he can make you
who he called you to be. If you said that,
he called you to the ministry and he called you
to the nation.

Speaker 2 (31:47):
But you can't handle being bitten. You can't handle being
talked about.

Speaker 1 (31:51):
You can't handle them writing a Facebook post, one person
writing a Facebook post about you. You can't handle two
or three people writing a Facebook post about you. Gonna
do if he take you to the nation's for real,
and you got thirty forty fifty one hundred people writing
about you. What you're gonna do, Apostolic Woman, What you're
gonna do? You gotta be able to endure it. You

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gotta be okay. This is when I set myself all
the time. Be okay with it, Be okay with them
walking away, Be okay as long as God don't.

Speaker 2 (32:23):
Leave my side.

Speaker 1 (32:25):
David said it like this, he said, whatever you do,
he said, uphold me with thy free spirit, he said,
but don't take your spirit from me.

Speaker 2 (32:34):
That's all I want God, I want.

Speaker 1 (32:36):
You to hold to hold on to me. Don't let
me fall into a pit. Let's talk about what is betrayal.
And I deal with this in The Courageous Apostolic Woman,
And in chapter one we talk about the cost of
the call. Counting it all joy. You gotta be able
to count it all joy when they lie on you.
You gotta be able to count it all joy when
your family and your maverager's falling apart.

Speaker 2 (32:57):
And that's not what you signed up for. In you
were waiting for.

Speaker 1 (33:01):
God to ask and to answer your prayering, you waiting,
and you waiting, and you waiting and it's not what
you you know, what you signed up for. You gotta
be okay with it. You gotta count it all joy
when you fall into diverse temptations. When when your car
get repossessed, when you get put out of the house,
when you don't have the money that you need, when

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you lose your building, When when when the people is
supposed to be your circle, your leadership team. We was
talking this morning about with one of my Alma bears
who've been with me for a long time, and we
were talking about how one of the sisters said that
she was taking a break and she was gonna be
at home, but she was really having meetings at the

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house and inviting people to her house from our church
so she could start her own ministry.

Speaker 2 (33:50):
But but, but but.

Speaker 1 (33:51):
When she was sitting and talking to me, she was
saying to me, you know, Apostle, whatever you need, I
got your back.

Speaker 2 (33:57):
I'm here for you.

Speaker 1 (33:59):
And did that, Yes, because I went through hell with her,
because I prayed her through, because I believed God with her,
because I prayed her through a terrible situation and stood
with her. But you know what, God let me know
that I was supposed to That's the cost of the call.
Are you ready to pay the cost? Take him out?

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Soya tamansa?

Speaker 2 (34:22):
How that best? Shiki da da dah blah. You got
to be able to do it and not be sorry.
Did you hear what I said?

Speaker 1 (34:30):
No regrets for the life that you have poured out,
for the tears, for the for the pain that you
have suffered, for the oil that you have poured into wounds,
for the money that you have spent, for the nights
that you sat up late at night. You gotta be okay,
no regrets. And now I'm soya, I would do it again.

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What did I say?

Speaker 2 (34:55):
I would do it again? Because I was called for this.

Speaker 1 (34:59):
I've been created at it for this apostolic woman you
have been. You have been created for this very reason.

Speaker 2 (35:07):
You can be.

Speaker 1 (35:08):
Misunderstood by many. You love them, you be there with them,
and then you hear they go running off on something.

Speaker 2 (35:15):
You know what I'm saying. Because gifted people are the
hardest people.

Speaker 1 (35:18):
Let me put it like this, Gifted people who know
that they gift that they are the hardest people to
lead because they got the big bibblehead syndrome. Because because
God told me, because God told me, and you gotta
let them go in there. God told me, because one
of the things I found out is if they don't
follow what you're saying and they see you, they're not
gonna follow Jesus who they don't see.

Speaker 2 (35:39):
Did you hear what I said?

Speaker 1 (35:41):
Yes, indeed You've been created for this, no regrets none.
I would do it again because this is what I
was created for. So let's talk about what is the
etymology of this word betrayal.

Speaker 2 (35:54):
It is to prove false.

Speaker 1 (35:57):
You had to suffer betrayal so that God could show
you that those who said that they were with you
were false. Ah, you thought they were real, but He
had to show you that your colors.

Speaker 2 (36:12):
Listen, Jesus had to go through the same thing. Right.

Speaker 1 (36:16):
He sat with the disciples around the table and he said,
one of you that's dipping this bread in this bowl
is a devil and you gonna betray me.

Speaker 2 (36:24):
And they all got their hand in the ball, so
they're like, is it me? Is it me? Who is it?

Speaker 1 (36:30):
And the one who did it knew who it was.
You got people around you that don't mean you no good,
but you got to be okay with it. This is
the cost of the call. It is the cost that
come on, sireh, of the oil coming out of your life.
If you want this oil, you got to suffer betrayal

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those who God have proven to you that they are false.
Even though they said a poss I'm with you. You know
they talking behind your back. You know they questioning every
decision you make. They got a problem with everything you say.
But you gotta be alright with it because it's not
you that questioning its God. Because when you are God's woman,
you stand in his mantle, you standing under his authority.

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You speak by his authority. So they, by by extension,
are questioning God's authority because they don't receive you.

Speaker 2 (37:21):
I'm gonna put it like this. Jesus said he never
received it, you receiving. He never received me, receiving he
that sent me.

Speaker 1 (37:28):
So you gotta understand that when they receive you, they
receive you who have sent you, the one who have
sent you.

Speaker 2 (37:38):
And if you.

Speaker 1 (37:39):
Don't receive, you are apozzle. You're an apostolic woman. You
don't receive the God that center. Oh, y'all, ain't ready
for that. This Bible. We come back to the Bible, y'all.
If you don't receive the people that God have sent
you don't receive him. So all this I love God.

Speaker 2 (37:59):
You don't love God. You don't love God.

Speaker 1 (38:01):
Stop lying cause you don't love the leader that he
put in your life either. Cause you don't want nobody
saying nothing to you. You don't want nobody talking to you.
Come on here, somebody. So you gotta be able to
deal with all.

Speaker 2 (38:15):
The good the bad. Ugly.

Speaker 1 (38:17):
Betrayal means to be violated by unfaithfulness.

Speaker 2 (38:21):
Have you been violated by unfaithfulness?

Speaker 1 (38:27):
Have those who said that they got your back ha ha,
turn they back on you? You gotta be okay. Listen,
this got to be your mantra from now on. I'm
okay with it.

Speaker 2 (38:38):
Listen. One of my daughters is on here. She'll tell you.

Speaker 1 (38:41):
One of my favorite things to say is when stuff
start happening, people start saying what they say, and they'll
be like, well, Apostle, you're not gonna say I said, no, no, no,
let it play yourself out. Let it play yourself out.
I'm not chasing those stories. I'm not tearing down tho lies.
I'm gonna let God vindicate me because when God fights
for me, Hallylujah, Glorory to God. The way that God

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vindicates is so much better than me because seeing you
already misunderstand me. But when God vindicates me, you can't
misunderstand that His favor is on my life. You can't
misunderstand that even though you said I wasn't said he
showed you that I am.

Speaker 2 (39:15):
You can't.

Speaker 1 (39:16):
You can't misunderstand, Hallelujah, that even though you told everybody
that I wasn't what God said I am, Hallelujah, he
showed you that I really was because He was with
me through the good, the bad, the ugly, the happy,
is sad, and He never left me and never forsook me. See,
so you got to be okay with it. Let it
play itself out. You not chasing no stories, You not

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worried about what nobody got to say. Halley Lujah, you understand,
bless you. You understand Hallelujah, that God orders my steps.
So even though I'm in the midst of difficulty, he
ordered me here. How else are you gonna walk under
disanointing How else are you gonna walk under the oil

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that God has ordained for you.

Speaker 2 (40:03):
You haven't even tapped into.

Speaker 1 (40:04):
The fullness of who you are in Him yet, and
you got to understand that all of these things that
God is allowing us because He wants to bring out
the best.

Speaker 2 (40:15):
Listen.

Speaker 1 (40:16):
Vanessa Bell Armstrong sang the song years ago, He'll bring
out the best in me. Always listen. I'm getting over
a sore throat, But you understand. He knows how to
bring out the best in you, and the best in
you comes out in the worst of your times, in
the worst of your trials, in the worst of your persecution.

Speaker 2 (40:40):
If you let him.

Speaker 1 (40:42):
Hey, the best will come out of you when He
orders you into hell into trial.

Speaker 2 (40:49):
Listen. Betrayal is deliverance or exposure to.

Speaker 1 (40:55):
The power of the enemy. You've been delivered to your enemy.

Speaker 2 (41:03):
Can I tell you.

Speaker 1 (41:04):
The same God that orders your steps into the blessed
place is the same God that orders you into the
hand of your enemy.

Speaker 2 (41:11):
Because God wants.

Speaker 1 (41:12):
That oil to come out of your life, Apostolic woman,
and the only way it's gonna come out is you
got to be crushed. You gotta be betrayed by the
ones that you love. They got to tell all of
your heart, your secrets that you shared with them. They
gotta blast it on Facebook. They gotta tell everybody that
you are liar. Even though you know you ain't a liar.

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They know you paid they rent. They know that you
helped by their kids stuff.

Speaker 2 (41:39):
They know that you.

Speaker 1 (41:40):
Kept that electric from being cut off. We all know
that it's all right. Take it, get under the weight,
and let him deliver you to your enemy so that
the oil can flow.

Speaker 2 (41:56):
Mighty God, let's talk about.

Speaker 1 (41:59):
This loneliness in leadership when you don't have anybody to
talk to. Everybody coming to talk to you. Everybody's coming
to pour their heart out to you. Everybody want to
tell you their problems because you seem to be a
good listening ear, everybody wants to come and tell you
their problems.

Speaker 2 (42:17):
Everybody wants to be able to talk to you about.

Speaker 1 (42:20):
What's ailing them, what's going on in their life, and
what's happening in their marriages, and what's happening with their children,
what's happening in their ministries, and what's not going right
in Until you got a few minutes so we can talk.
Can you pray with me? Can you talk about it?
And then you lonely yourself because you don't have nobody
to talk to while everybody else is coming to talk

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to you. Come on, anybody know what I'm talking about
where you ad Apostolic women, where you at. There's a
lonely ness in leadership. And when you go through these
seasons of a loneliness, when you go through the seasons
of everybody wanting to talk to you, but you ain't

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got nobody to talk to. King, I tell you, can
I identify. I want to give you some some mile
markers in the road. I wanna you know, because the
mild markers tell you where you at. When you break
down and you call Triple A to ask you what
mild marker are you on so we know where to
come pick you up at. Let me tell you where
God's gonna come pick you up at. Let me tell
you about this. Let me give you the mild marker

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on the highway so that you know where you at.

Speaker 2 (43:27):
Purse Shah, Glory be to God, Hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (43:32):
When you are experiencing loneliness in your leadership journey, God
is trying to teach you about intimacy.

Speaker 2 (43:40):
He's trying to teach you to come unto me. All
you are heavy, lady, and I'm gonna give you rest.

Speaker 1 (43:46):
Cast your cast on me, for my yoke is easy
and my burden it's like, come on this, the mild
marker in the road. Hallelujah, Triple A is coming to
pick you up tonight. This is how come you can't
talk to nobody right now, because God wants you to
come and talk to him. He wants you to come

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and pour out your heart. He wants you to come
and empty yourself of your pain of how they're leaving
broke you, and how your maavage disappointed you, and how the.

Speaker 2 (44:21):
Things that your children are doing.

Speaker 1 (44:23):
Even though you are still walking by faith and you
still saying you believe God and you don't see anything turning. Hallelujah,
Triple A is here to pick you up. He's trying
to teach you intimacy. Come on back and pour this
out on me. This is God talking to you to night, Apostolic.

Speaker 2 (44:38):
Woman, pot Jesus, when.

Speaker 1 (44:42):
You're trying to figure this out. Lord, how is it
that I can talk to everybody can come and talk
to me. I can't find nobody. Do you know somebody? Nobody?

Speaker 2 (44:57):
And here we are this y. It is the cost.
You don't know the cost of the oil. Listen, I
sing a song for everything. Ha ha. Let me tell you this.

Speaker 1 (45:12):
You gotta understand that God is teaching you how to
build intimacy with him. He's teaching you that it is
okay for you to lay your hand on his lap
and cry, how Thatylujah in the arms of your father.
It is okay, Yes, it is. God has given us

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an invitation. And this call to you, woman of God,
this is not a whisper. This is a thunderous decree
from Heaven. That God is calling you.

Speaker 2 (45:42):
He is summoning you.

Speaker 1 (45:43):
And he is shaking the foundations of every tradition.

Speaker 2 (45:47):
And people are getting mad because.

Speaker 1 (45:49):
God is shaking up tradition and he's challenging the status.

Speaker 2 (45:52):
Quo, because he's calling his apostolic women.

Speaker 1 (45:56):
Out of the shadows to stand in the forefront to
declare the word of the Lord.

Speaker 2 (46:02):
And it does not matter if they don't receive you.

Speaker 1 (46:05):
There are a people, Holley Lujah, There are a people.

Speaker 2 (46:11):
There is a people who are assigned to the sound
of your voice.

Speaker 1 (46:17):
Cootam your coach, shuttah, and they've been waiting for you, honey.
But you got to come out of your wilderness. This
is why, this is why I wrote this. You've been
called to speak. You got to get out of the closet,
and you got to open your mouth. I don't care
who said you ain't supposed to speak? And God's God's
have pophand I suffer not a woman to teach or
that supatharty over man. We ain't even got time to

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get into that. There is such an urgency, there is
such a dearth for the truth of the world of
God in the earth, that we ain't even got time
to worry about what you got between your legs. Before
you start preaching.

Speaker 2 (46:49):
We need you to open your mouth and declare what
thus saith the Lord.

Speaker 1 (46:53):
Ain't nobody worried about whether you male or female? Listen
to me because the Bible already says it, no male
or female in Jesus Christ. Can Can you just answer
the call? All I said what I said, and I ain't.

Speaker 2 (47:07):
Taking it back. Ain't taking it back. There's a summons
from heaven.

Speaker 1 (47:15):
And when God calls a woman into apostolic ministry, he
is not asking for a man's permission. He's not asking
for anybody's permission. Did you hear what I said? He
is declaring his sovereign will over your life by calling you.
He is declaring his sovereign will in the earth by

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declaring that He has called you.

Speaker 2 (47:38):
And so this call is met with opposition. This call
is met with resistance.

Speaker 1 (47:43):
And it's not just from the world, but it's from
the very people who should be your greatest allies.

Speaker 2 (47:48):
And sometimes it doesn't make any sense.

Speaker 1 (47:51):
I thought you were for me. I thought you at
my back. I thought we were gonna do this together.
But God said no, I needed you to be able
to deal with this. I needed you to be able
to experience this resistance.

Speaker 2 (48:04):
Come on here, somebody, Halley lujah.

Speaker 1 (48:06):
Sometimes it's fellow believers, sometimes it's family members. Sometimes it's
your own spouse. You don't know who it is. But
this you as an Apostolic woman. You gotta remember that
your mandate does not originate from human approval.

Speaker 2 (48:20):
Did you hear what I said? Let me say one
more time.

Speaker 1 (48:23):
Your mandate does not originate from human approval, from the
approval of men, Holley lujah, But it is the commissioning
from the heart of God. You have been commissioned by
the Heart of God, by the sovereignty of God, into
the earth realm, to declare what saith the Lord. Not

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because you the backup plan. You was playing a all along.

Speaker 2 (48:49):
Hear me. Huh, oh, my God. Somebody said this to
some women that are struggling with a call.

Speaker 1 (48:57):
Somebody tell them that there is the sovereignty of God
that have carved them out of darkness and into the light.
Somebody tell them that is the sovereignty of God that
challenges the status quo and the traditions of men.

Speaker 2 (49:14):
And this church.

Speaker 1 (49:18):
You was playing a all along, but they played you
like you was playing B C, D and E like
you was God's backup plan. God ain't got no backup plan.

Speaker 3 (49:32):
His plan is his plan, is his plan, is his plan,
and that's all is his plan, and you are his plan.

Speaker 1 (49:46):
The sovereignty of God. Come on, you have been commissioned from.

Speaker 2 (49:53):
The heart of God.

Speaker 1 (49:55):
And so when Paul starts writing in the scripture, he's
writing to the Galatians. He said, but when God this
is glacious Chapter one, verses fifteen to sixteen.

Speaker 2 (50:03):
I love this, he said.

Speaker 1 (50:05):
But when God, who set me apart from my mother's woman,
who did it?

Speaker 2 (50:09):
God did it? He set me apart from my mother's woman,
called me.

Speaker 1 (50:14):
By his grace, was pleased to reveal his son in
me so that I might preach him among the gentiles.
My immediate response was not to consult with any human being.

Speaker 2 (50:26):
Bad Bang. My days of consulting with man are over.

Speaker 1 (50:30):
I don't need your approval, I don't want your approval.

Speaker 2 (50:34):
I don't care if you don't stay here. I love you.

Speaker 1 (50:37):
There are a thousand churches all over the world, and
wherever God tell you to set your feet, go set
your feet their sugar, Holly and Lujah, bless the name
of the Lord, halln lujah.

Speaker 2 (50:48):
But I'm gonna do with God because when it pleads
the Lord, he called me from my mother's womb, Oh, my.

Speaker 1 (50:54):
Dear a shada the baho Shah, halln Lujah, halln lujah,
so that he could reveal old himself and reveal his
son to me, so that I would be able to
be called among.

Speaker 2 (51:06):
The gentiles, hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (51:08):
And my response is halayluya.

Speaker 2 (51:12):
I'm not looking for man's approval.

Speaker 1 (51:16):
Ah. And every time we turn around, we looking for
somebody saying, is it okay?

Speaker 2 (51:21):
Is it okay? Is it okay? Can God use me?
Is it okay? If I be his apostle?

Speaker 1 (51:27):
Is it okay if I follow what he's saying?

Speaker 2 (51:29):
But what if everybody walk away from me?

Speaker 1 (51:31):
Then baby ain't let them walk, because God have people
that have been telling made to walk with you. And
you got to be able to experience the death in
order for life to come into you.

Speaker 2 (51:41):
You got to be able to experience the loss in
order to know what winning really is.

Speaker 1 (51:46):
Can I tell you that the Kingdom of God is
upside down? So really, losing is winning? Come on, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, hallelujah.
Losing is really what winning is. So you got to
have the shame unshakable conviction, and it's got to reside

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in the heart of every Apostolic woman.

Speaker 2 (52:12):
This call is not contingent upon any.

Speaker 1 (52:14):
Human validation, but upon the appointment by God. When God
appointed you, that's enough.

Speaker 2 (52:21):
Somebody said, I'm appointed by God.

Speaker 1 (52:24):
Come on, put it in the comments. I'm appointed by God.
That's enough. And so for us, many of us that
in ministry we have had the faith, all of.

Speaker 2 (52:32):
The painful realities are being overlooked.

Speaker 1 (52:35):
All the painful realities are being silenced right and being ostracized,
even by people that we loved, because our calling did
not neatly fit into, you know, the little religious structures
that were around us. But it's all right because when
I look at history. Yeah, come on, so yahdah by Shiah.
When I look at history, it bears a witness to

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the undeniable truth that when God calls a woman, he
also equips her.

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Somebody, somebody, somebody, anybody with me.

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When God calls a woman, he also equips her. And
when God equips her, he also sustains her.

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Come on here, somebody, hallelujah.

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And not only does he sustain you, but he ensures
that his purposes prevail even if you tried to sit
down on him. He will cause people to find you
in your hiding place. Did you hear what I said?
He will cause people to find you even when you

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say no.

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Can I tell you I said I want pastor in
no church.

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Half of these jokers that's on this day right here
was my push into back into ministry because I said
I wasn't doing it, and the Lord said them, and
I was like, ohlah, I don't want to do it
because I was worried about the cost because I already

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sucked for so many losses and I didn't know if
I was gonna be able to be sustained through more losses.
But can I tell you that loss comes with it?
But the joy of the Lord is your strength. And
I you can't tell mother so or y'all. I'm telling you,
the joy of the Lord is your strength. Epistolic woman,

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the joy of the Lord is your strength. You need
to start asking yourself, where is it that I've been
seeking validation from man for what God has said. I'm
not talking about walking in alignment with your assignment and
not going out here being a renegade.

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That ain't what I'm talking about.

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I'm talking about a genuine fight to try to keep
you from doing what God is saying. I ain't talking
about this stuff that people be making up in their
head because they rebels.

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I ain't talking about that. I'm talking about.

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When God is calling you and every time you do
what he's saying, you get bashed upside the head. What
is it that you have delayed because of fear of
standing alone?

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What has He been telling you to do? You like?
I don't know if I could do that by myself.
Let me tell you something.

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Don't talk about this loneliness, talking about this standing by yourself.

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Listen to me.

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For years I did ministry with my husband. I loved
my husband and married thirty six years. I thank God
for him. We did ministry together for years, but the
moment that the Lord had me to step out by myself,
it was hard because he was like an appendage. And
not only that, I was trying to follow him. I
didn't want to do this like this.

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So when all of the things happened, that happened, and.

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God was still putting his putting pressure on me and
still speaking to me and still calling me and still
telling me what I had to do, and I was
in denialedge I'm groaning in my spirit about the assignment
that is all my life. I'm trevailing in prayer and
I'm feeling the brokenness.

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And like when I'm.

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You know, you having a baby, and you are tavailing
because this thing on you with the pains, the burnt
pains are so great, hallelujah. These contractions are coming one
after the other and you're not getting no relief.

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And as soon as you think that.

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You got it together on one side, here it comes God,
another pain, come on here. And all the while God
is saying, are you gonna obey me? Or are you
gonna obey man? Are you gonna follow what I said?

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Or are you looking to be validated by gifts that
I gave you. I will take those gifts from you.
Come on here, somebody. So we all been through all
of those things, right, we've been through all of those
things when we look at Deborah. Deborah is a pro
for example for us, right, prophetess, judge wife. Come on,

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She did not move into her call because men of
her time were incapable.

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That's not why she stepped into her call.

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She stepped into her call because God or danger her
for such a time as her call.

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Come on here.

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You're not stepping into your call because nobody else is qualified.

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That's the backup plan. You're not the backup her. Shame
I glory be to God.

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You are stepping into your call because you are called.
You are stepping into your call because God has mandated it.
You gotta stop worrying about religiosity. You gotta stop worrying
about what people but what they're gonna say.

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Listen to me.

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I thought all I was gonna be was a wife
and a mother, and I was content right there.

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Let me just be the wife. Let me that's what
God created me for. And even when God was speaking
about you're gonna do this, You're gonna do that.

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You're gonna travel here, you going over the world. You're
gonna do da da da. And I'm like, Lord, who's gonna.

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Take care of these kids? Lord, who's gonna do this?
Lord who's gonna do that? Come on here?

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And because we have not had, we have not had
the right people in our life that we needed to
be able to speak into our life, we have not
had midwives of destiny to be able to speak into
us and say, you are not at backup plan, since
you are God's plan A.

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You are the plan.

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You are the provision, You are the answer because God
set you here for this.

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So you got to embrace this truth early in your journey.

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Your call is not an accident, and it's not a mistake.

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It is a divine assignment. Did you hear what I said?

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And with it comes but great responsibility and great authority.

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And you gotta be able to carry both. Did you
hear me? You gotta be able to carry both. The
enemy will come to.

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Try to seek to undermine your confidence, to try to
make you doubt whether you truly hearn from God or
whether you are qualified to lead.

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But let me tell you something.

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The apostolic woman of this hour must affirm in the
knowledge that our qualification comes from God and not from
the opinions of others.

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And it doesn't matter who leaves.

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It doesn't matter if they write a Facebook post tonight.
God bless them, Lord, do it for them, open the
door for them, do what they need or God, it
does not matter. Thank you Lord that you're allowing it
to press this.

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Oil out of me, whether or not they see the call.

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And it's funny, the Lord said to me one time,
he said, some people don't think you're that smart. Some
people don't think you're really intelligent. And that's how calm
they don't receive your god'll be okay with that, and
I am. I'm okay with it because if I'm not
for you, I'm not for you, But I'm called for

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somebody and those that I have been called to, I
don't have to beg them to hear the voice.

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Of the Lord.

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My sound rings true in their ear. Hold the bad
shake kanda ba soul.

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The word of.

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The Lord coming out of my mouth resonates in their
spirit because it's the sound that they have been waiting for.

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It's the thing that they have been waiting for. Because Hallelujah, I.

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Am a destiny midwife, and my call is to awaken
destiny and to speak of life into every area of
those that have been called to do the will of God,
even in the midst of the the denials of others.
Come on here, somebody, hallelujah. And so you gotta face
your prophetic challenges.

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You gotta be okay.

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That's our word, Honey, is okay because I am called
to somebody. It doesn't matter if I'm facing loneliness in
my journey. Come on here, hallelujah. And sometimes that loneliness
is deep, it's crushing. Anybody ever experienced that, and it
comes with your call and.

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That's you know. Some of our male counterparts.

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Don't go through that like that because they be like.

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Man, hey doc, hey Doc, we got your back, Doc.
We're gonna be with you dog. But for women it's different.

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And so this is how this is how come we
got to stand together hallelujah and speak a life over
one another and every area of our life.

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We got to make the declaration.

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I'm gonna win in my marriage, even if it looked
like trash right now, I'm gonna win in my ministry,
even if people are walking away Hall in Louis. Even
if I lose my building, it don't matter. I'm still
gonna win.

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I'm gonna win.

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In my personal life. I'm gonna have my mind together,
I'm gonna have my heart together. I'm gonna walk in love,
Halley Loujah, I'm gonna walk and forgiveness. I'm gonna love
God's people. Hear me, Holley Loujah, Glovey.

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Be the God.

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Even if I lose it all, I'm still winning. I'm
still gonna win. I'm gonna win in every area. I
refuse to lose in any area. I refuse to give
up in any area because God did not bring me
this far for me to lose in any area. He

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has already made me more than a conqueror through Him
that ever loved me. So I am going to finish
the work, even in the midst of loneliness.

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I'm gonna finish this work.

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And I'm gonna stand for God, even if I gotta
stand by myself, even if I don't have no support,
even if I don't have the caaraderie of fellow female leaders.

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And I desired that.

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I want that. I want that around me. But if
it don't come ladies, you gotta be okay with it.
Come on, even if you struggling, struggling in your finances,
or if you're struggling in your emotions, whatever it is,
all of those things, whatever that is that you're facing.
Loneliness is not just physical. It's not about having something physical.

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It's sometimes spiritual, it's emotional, and sometimes.

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It can be existential. When we read the scripture, we
look at Elijah.

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He was one of the greatest prophets that we saw
in the Old Testament, and he experienced the same isolation
when he was crying.

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Out to God and he was like God, only me
by myself.

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He experienced existential loneliness because he didn't find anybody around
him to be able to go with him, to sit
with him, to talk him through his dark times after
he had great winds. And that's one of the things
that I learned that after every great victory comes great valleys.

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Did you hear what I said? After every great victory
comes great valleys.

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And so you gotta be all right. You gotta prepare
yourself while you're on the mountaintop so that when that
mountain experience comes to a close and God brings you
down into the valley, that you have enough to sustain you,
that you brought faith down off of the mountaintop with you,

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that you brought hope down with you off of the mountaintop,
that you had all of those things, so that when
God brings you out of that mountain experience, you.

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Don't say, like a lodger, I'm just it's just me
by myself. Let me tell you the truth.

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Sisters, women of God, Apostolic women, you are never alone.

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God is with you in the wilderness.

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He's with you in the moments when nobody else sees
your tears.

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He's with you in the season when it feels like
the entire world has turned his back on you.

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Listen to me, Apostolic women, you gotta learn to draw
strength from the presence of God, because this call is
going to demand the strength that you didn't even know
that you had.

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You didn't even know you were strong enough to bear
through this.

Speaker 1 (01:05:33):
You didn't even know that you were strong enough to
deal with the kind of loneliness that you have to experience. Listen,
God is with you. You gotta learn how to draw strength
from the presence of God so that you can cultivate
this intimacy. You gotta cultivate it in this secret place

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because there's gonna be times that he's the only one
who's gonna really understand the burden that you can. Anybody
with me tonight, nobody understands. Sometimes the things that you can,
you can't articulate. It can't tabo shakianda behaya, Oh my God.
Sometimes being able to put put put language to the pain,

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put language to the seas. Eh yeah, no, Ma'm so, y'all.
You don't always have it, but God is with you.
So you gotta cultivate this intimacy with him in a
secret place. And David sated like this. He said, even
with my father and my mother forsake me, then the

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Lord will take me up.

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He's gonna hold me close.

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That So I'm twenty seven and ten, I'm still just
in chapter one. This is the cost of the call.
This is the bed rock for every apostolic woman's confidence.
It's not in the support that comes from people, but
it's in the faithfulness of God. Can I say it again,
It's not in the support that comes from people.

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And we thank God for the people who support us.

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We need support, But let me tell you when support
Dwindosay yeah, yah man, take win support Dwindles. You got
to know that God is faithful, and when he said
he would never leave you north for.

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Sake, he meant what he's said.

Speaker 1 (01:07:24):
He meant what he said, and he said what he meant.
So you can either allow loneliness to be a stumbling.

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Block or stepping stone for you.

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You can either let this thing drive you into despair,
or you can propel yourself into a.

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Deeper dependence of God.

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Come on here, somebody, Howlaylujah, Glory be to God. You
as an apostolic woman, you're gonna have to choose the ladder.

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What's the ladder? You gotta let this.

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Propel you into dependence upon God. You gotta learn how
to see your solitude not as a curse, but.

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As a divine set up. Come on here, somebody, Your.

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Solitude, your loneliness, your lord of bar, your empty place.
You gotta see this as a setup for greater intimacy
with the Father. Hawne Louish. Some of the most powerful
moments that we see in scripture happened when a.

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Woman was alone with God. Oh my lord, Oh my lord.
When a woman got alone with God.

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When you think about Hey, God, who got cast out
into the wilderness in Genesis sixteen. She found out who
el Roy was. She found out that God saw her
when Abraham didn't, when Sarah didn't want to.

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Hey, God saw her.

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Your loneliness, your empty place is a setup for God
to see you.

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Let's talk about the Samaritan woman.

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That woman at the well in John chapter four. When
she got by.

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Herself, she encountered Jesus.

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She turned from her adulterous way and became a preacher
and evangelize it for Jesus. What about Mary sitting at
the feet of Jesus in Luke chapter ten, verse thirty nine.

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These are not accidents.

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These are divine appointments that God.

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Set them up.

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And just like God set them up, God set you up,
Epostolic woman, hallelujah. He set you up because you have
to understand that your call is not coincidental.

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Hally lujah. Your call was on purpose and.

Speaker 1 (01:09:29):
You gotta count it all joy, Halley lujah. Everything that
you are facing, everything that you are experiencing, every person that.

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Walked away from you was ordained by God.

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It was ordained you would not be where you are
today had you not cried those tears.

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You wouldn't. You wouldn't.

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You wouldn't be here, You wouldn't have the understanding that
you have now. I don't even have time to deal
with the jealousy and the betrayal, getting into the heaviness
of it. That's a silent killer. Jealousy is a silent killer.

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Sometimes it disguises itself.

Speaker 1 (01:10:08):
As concern, you know, with spiritual desernment or even accountability,
but at his core, it's demonic, and it's a demonic
force that seeks to derail Apostolic women from their assignment.
The enemy knows that if he can get you to
focus on betrayal then and the whispers and the side glances,

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you know, when you see somebody looking at you sideways,
he knows that he can distract you from the work
that God called you to do. You ain't got time
to worry about who's side eyeing you. Come on, you
got to rise above it. You gotta refuse to engage
in petty battles of gossip and backbiting, and instead you

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gotta follow the example.

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That Jesus set right. What did he do?

Speaker 1 (01:10:54):
He entrusted himself to hear him who judges justly said fast,
real fast. Three times he entrusted himself to.

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Him who judges justly One Peter, Chapter two, twenty three.

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Have you entrusted yourself to him that judges righteously even
when outhers don't judge righteously, God will judge righteously. When
they said that you said this and you didn't say it,
Trust the one who judges righteously. God will fight your battles,

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Apostolic woman. He will fight your battles. He will stick
with you. And I'm gonna tell you something. Some of
you may have had to deal with divorce, You may
have had to deal with the death of a spouse,
You may have had to deal with marital issues, betrayal
in your marriage.

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Cannot tell you something. Listen to me.

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Your calling is not dependent on your marital status.

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Put this in your pipe and smoke. It says.

Speaker 1 (01:12:03):
Your call is not dependent on your marital status. It's
not dependent on whether or not you are single, divorced, married,
it's complicated or whatever.

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It's not on any of that.

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Your calling, Hallelujah, is based on the grace that has
been placed upon your life so that you can serve
God with or without the support of your spouse.

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I ain't knocking nobody. I'm just saying because.

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I know that we all have different situations that we
may have to traverse through. And like we said, you
gotta be okay with it because your steps are ordered
by God. You gotta commit your way unto the Lord,
trust also in him and he will bring it to pass.
Understanding that your times and your seasons are in God's hand.

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And because God judges righteously when you wait on him,
when you obey his voice.

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And you make priority above every.

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Voice, even when it feels like everything around you is
falling apart, he will come back and judge righteously.

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Did you hear what I said?

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He will judge righteously. So God is not concerned about
that status. He just wants you to have the courage
to step out. Do you have the courage? This is
about courageous Apostolic woman. There comes a moment and I'm
getting ready to end because I'm over my time. There
comes a moment where every Apostolic woman's journey, in your journey,

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where you got to make a decision. Will you step
out in faith even if nobody else is stepping out
with you?

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Are you hearing me.

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This is the divining or i should say defining moment,
the test of your courage. Many women have been held
back because, you know, not because they not annointed, come on,
but because of fear of standing alone, the fear of failure,
the fear of rejection, the fear of being misunderstood, and

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all of these things can paralyze you if you don't
confront them head on.

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I need y'all here, they said. Listen, I'm telling you,
I'm sharing notes.

Speaker 1 (01:14:20):
With y'all from my book. I'm gonna release this book
in October. Courageous, Apostolic woman, you got to choose to
step out, even if you got to step out alone.

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Courage is not the.

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Absence of fear, ladies, but it's the decision to move
forward in spite of it.

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Let's think about Esther.

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Even though she was afraid, she declared, if I perish,
I perish.

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Let's think about Ruth.

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Ruth, though a foreigner and a widow, she stepped into
an unknown future with nothing but faith in God, who
was the God of Israel, wasn't even the God she
was acquainted with.

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Come on, This means that you.

Speaker 1 (01:15:03):
Gotta let God be able to reveal another dimension of
himself to you that you don't know about. And so
these women didn't wait for perfect conditions. They obeyed God
in the midst of uncertainty. Can you obey in your
uncertainty while hell is breaking loose, while the storm is raging,

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while the wind is blowing, while your kids are cutting
the food, while your husband and your wife or whoever?
Because I know there is probably some men watching too.
So men, can you obey God when your wife is
doing whatever?

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Can you?

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Because there is a reward for obedience. You're gonna have
to cultivate boldness.

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You're gonna have.

Speaker 1 (01:15:47):
To cultivate a man a tenacity that is gonna move
no matter what. You gotta learn to trust God when
the path is unclear, when you don't know where you're going.
Everybody say, well where we're going, baby, I don't know.
I just know we're following Jesus. And some people might say, well,

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God don't do that, But yes he did, and yes
he does, and he did it to Abraham. Abraham follow
God going where he did not know. He said, go
on and leave your father's house and go to the
place I'm gonna show you. So Abraham walked in a
circle just for God to test his obedience. You gotta

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learn how to trust God when the path is unclear
and when the resources are scarce. Oh my god, Oh
my God, Oh my God, when the voice is around
you a filled with doubt and nobody.

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Else don't believe what you believe like you believe it.

Speaker 1 (01:16:48):
You still got to stand on God's word. You gotta
be comfortable with discomfort. Are you comfortable with discomfort? Because
the Apostolic journey is not for the faint of heart.

Speaker 2 (01:17:03):
It's for those who are willing to walk by faith
and not by sight. You gotta be able to do it.

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And even though the road is difficult, there is a
reward for your obedience, and the reward for your obedience
is immeasurable. Come on here, Apostolic women, the Apostolic woman
that remains faithful despite your loneliness, despite the betrayal.

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Despite the lack of support. You're gonna see the fruit
of your labor.

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And it might take some time for that fruit to
come up, but baby, the fruit ain't gonna lie.

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Come on here, hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (01:17:34):
You've been planting your seed, You've been watering your ground
with your tears. You've been obeying God, You've been doing
what he's saying. The fruit is not gonna lie, baby,
It's not gonna lie. And so you're gonna be able
to witness lives being transformed.

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You gonna see nations impacted.

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I've seen it with my own eyes, looking in wonder
at what God is doing, and while hell is breaking
loose in my background. But I'm going to the nations
and seeing the power of God. There's a reward for
obedient obedience to God. You'll see the Kingdom of God

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advanced in ways that you could never imagine because you obeyed.

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And when you read the scripture, you see that the.

Speaker 1 (01:18:22):
Bible is filled with promises for those who endure. When
you regulation sixty ninety tells us you will reap a
harvest if you don't faint.

Speaker 2 (01:18:33):
Here's the key, sins. Don't faint. We're looking for God.

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To pay us, but we want to get a pay
without enduring. You gotta endure. You can't quit. You gotta
keep going. Wipe your eyes and keep going. Come on
and develop your resistance, develop your resilience. Develop come on
this tenacity to keep going.

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Hallelujah.

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You gotta keep going and Apostolic women that you look at.

Speaker 2 (01:19:02):
You see your counterparts in scripture, Deborah Esther, Priscilla Phoebe.

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They didn't operate in their full authority because it was easy.

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They did it because they knew.

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The cost of disobedience was far greater than the cost
of perseverance. Can I say it again, Deborah Esther, Priscilla Phoebe.
They operated in the fullness of the authority of their call,
not because.

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It was easy. They did it because they knew.

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The cost of disobedience was far greater than the cost
of perseverance.

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It's gonna cost you to.

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Persevere, but the cost of disobedience is too expensive.

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You can't afford it. You can't afford it. So I
want to speak to you Epistolic women today.

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You got to hold fast to the truths that I've
shared with you on tonight. Your obedience is not in vain,
your tears are not wasted. Your sacrifices will be rewarded.

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Did you hear what I said?

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Your sacrifices will be rewarded. Your sacrifices will be rewarded.
I want to declare this over you on tonight. Hallelujah.
Anybody that is on here and you're receiving this on tonight.
I want to declare this over you tonight. I want

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to speak this word over you on tonight. I want
to declare God's grace over you on tonight. To be
able to endure all things, to be able to hallelujah,
be able to speak to what God Amen is speaking,
you know over your life.

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To be able to declare that no matter what's.

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Happening around you, God is faithful.

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God is faithful.

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He's faithful, and you gotta be okay with whatever's coming
your way because He will never leave you. Neither will
he forsake you. Your God will be okay with this.
Stop belly aching about who left or who said what
and whatever whatever, whatever.

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Okay, he got you. God know how to pay and
when he paid, He don't. He don't. He don't pay
like man pay.

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You heard what I said. He don't pay like man
pay man. Be like I ain't giving you that. I
ain't doing that. But listen to me. God pays, and
he gives. He pays with interest. So I want you
to pray this prayer with me.

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Now. I want you to make this declaration over yourself.
I'm called by God's heart, by God's come.

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I've been summoned by God's command and not by man.
You got to make this declaration over yourself. I have
been called and summoned.

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By God, by God.

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And so Father, we embrace the call that You're placed
upon our life tonight. And though we might have resisted
in certain areas of our life, we come tonight and
we ask you to forgive us for resisting the call.
Forgive us for resisting Lord, this that you have placed
upon us. But we declare over ourselves tonight that we

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will not retreat.

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We will not give up.

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Blessings to you, my sister, lady, Lady Janet Steven's bless you.
We will not retreat, but we step forward with courage.
I am a courageous Apostolic woman. Yes I am. I
know that obedience will produce eternal fruit, and I speak

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patience over myself to wait for the manifestation of that fruit.
I declare over myself that I will not be bitter
about my betrayals, but I will guard my heart in
the name of Jesus. I will count it all joy.

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When I fall into diverse temptations, Glory be to God.
The Koa Tabata. I will count it all joy. No
matter what is going on in my life, I will
count it all joy.

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Halln Lujah. I thank you Lord that my fruit.

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Will endure, my fruit will last, halle lujah. And everything
that you have declared to me, God, my eyes shall
see it, my hands shall handle it, my feet shall
stand in the land that you have declared. Come on,
speaking of over your life, declare this over yourself on tonight.

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I am a courageous apostolic woman.

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I will not delay because of fear.

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I will not delay because I'm standing by myself. As
matter of fact, I'm not by myself because God said.

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He will never leave me, neither will he forsake me.

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And I know that my obedience is gonna birth eternal fruit.
And I will not quit until I see this fruit
born in the.

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Lives of others.

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And even if I have to go and see the
nations being transformed while hell is breaking loose behind me,
I will take solace knowing that God will never leave
me nor forsake me. I will take solace knowing that
God judges righteously, and though he may not have answered yet.

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He will answer.

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And just like hey, God, I'm gonna take this long
time by myself time. There's loneliness in the desert, knowing
that el Roy is their Kmma Sokodian dah bah, that
el Roy is there. The God who sees he sees me.

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I might be invisible to you, but I'm not invisible
to God. Oh God, we thank you Father. We blame
our number hole Chattah. We honor you and magnify your name.
We give you glory and honor. We give you thanksgiving, Father, God,
Oh God, on this live on tonight because we are

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courageous Apostolic women and we bless you for all that
you are doing in our life. We thank you, holl
that Lujah for the good, the bad, the ugly, the
happy to sayd We thank you that we have been
caught and commissioned by God, not by the will a man.

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So we're not going to convey with flesh to find
out what the world got to say.

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About what we're doing.

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No, We're standing on God's business and we're gonna stand
on this call in his faithfulness because I am a
courageous after stolid woman. Listen, if you've been blessed on tonight,
I want to challenge you so accede into the ministry.
There are the ways to give. You can do cash
app o APN and the number two. If you do PayPal,

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it is Oasis Church RL at gmail dot com. Or
you can go to our website. That's the wrong web
address on there. I pray that you have been blessed
and encouraged.

Speaker 2 (01:26:48):
Let me fix this ticker. Hold on for a second.

Speaker 1 (01:26:50):
That's the wrong email address. It should be Oasis Church.
You can go and give by givli five Oasis Church.

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Fl org. Or you could do vemm. You can do
venmo which is at oap N and the number one.
There you have it. So I encourage you so into
good ground.

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On tonight this was This is not a call for begging.
I'm just saying put some seed in the ground. On
what you heard on tonight. You are a courageous Apostolic woman.
You are not called by the traditions of men or
the whims of man, but you been called by God.
You not a backup plan you Plan A. You was

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Plan A before Plan A even existed. You was in
the heart of God as Plan A. You were in
the nothingness of eternity as Plan A.

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For the glory of God.

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I pray that you have been blessed, that you have
been encouraged, that you have been strengthen that you have
been challenged.

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I pray Holy Spirit a minister to your heart.

Speaker 1 (01:28:04):
And when this book is ready, it's gonna be out there.
But right now, I just want to share my notes
with you Apostolic women, the cost of the call, counting
it all joy. Next week, when we come together, we're
gonna talk about the power of perseverance and enduring hardship
for the call. Oh my God, have you had to

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endure some hardship perseverance? How many challenges have you faced
pertaining to perseverance?

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Thank God. For those of you that are sowing, we
pray the Lord bless you. We pray the Lord.

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Return everything that you have sown back to you in
Jesus' name one hundredfold.

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I pray the Lord bless you and keep you. That
is always my prayer. Don't forget. Go to Amazon get
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This is not even all of them.

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There's fourteen books on Amazon. You can get fourteen. Amen,
by the grace of God, go get them and let
the Lord minister to you through the Word. You gotta
begin to speak over your own self what God is
saying to you. Take courage. This is your season. This
is our season. I pray and thank God for all

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of you.

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A man.

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Amen, y'all are encouraging my heart on tonight. Halled lujah.

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Listen to me. We didn't go through for nothing.

Speaker 1 (01:29:32):
We didn't go through for nothing, says we did not
cry for nothing.

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We didn't suffer loss for nothing.

Speaker 1 (01:29:42):
Everything we went through, every hardship we experience, every tear
that we have cried, every betrayal we have experienced. You
hear me, Come on here, every loss that we have suffered.
Oh my God, hallelujah.

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Ever eat think he's.

Speaker 1 (01:30:01):
Been orchestrated by God, because your steps are ordered by
the Lord. Get them all, Get them all, get them all,
Get them all. Blessing to you, Grace and peace to
all of you. Thank you for those of you that
are sowing your seat into good ground. I will see you.
I'll be on here tomorrow. I'll be on here in
the morning for prayer. I was trying to get my

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throat ar rest because Amen.

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Thank God for you. I appreciate you. Pastor I thank
God for you, Holley Lujah.

Speaker 1 (01:30:31):
Nothing is wasted, apostle nothing, Holle lujah, A man prophetence
to alsiha, holl hey Lujah, Glory be to God. I'm
telling you everything that we have endured. But I was
trying to rest my throat because I'm getting over this
sore throat and I'm taking these antibiotics and trying to
get my throat together.

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Amen. So if I got it, Amen, I love you too,
Sha Shan girl.

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I miss you, and I love them babies all the
way over here. I still love you and I love
them babies. Amen, Holly lujah, And so I pray the
Lord bless you and keep you.

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Thank you again.

Speaker 1 (01:31:10):
Join us next week right here on Courageous Apostolic Women
Tuesday night Live at eight pm Eastern Standard Time. And
Jesus's name, we love you. Have a blessed night.

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God too. You to seal what you want to seal in.

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Us, so that the world in night and yes and
child and schedules and.

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Difficulty whatever else that await today.

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Monday.

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Well you must.

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Nothing nothing, nothing.

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You would you nothing?

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Would you have your way in us way, have your
way in.

Speaker 2 (01:32:25):
This way, have your way in your people have your
way in us. Somebody lift your hands and just say God,
have your way, and hang you like have your way
and be or word, have your way. Have your way,

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actually than acupting for actually