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December 5, 2022 • 23 mins
In which Remi confronts the reality of aging, albeit by learning she looks under 21 with sunglasses on... which feels like a compliment until she forgets her ID.
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(00:08):
Welcome to my weekly Panic Attack.I'm your host, Remy Brooks. I've
been a licensed psychotherapist for over twentyyears and run a thriving private practice.
I'm also diagnosed s BI polar anOCD. Often the two do not mix
well, which tends to throw mylife into complete chaos. So as I

(00:32):
do some spiraling, my best friendLiz Win will do her best to ground
me a bit. During this podcast, we'll be talking about the horror and
the humor of the anxieties of dailylife, the things we do that are
embarrassing, funny, but yet veryhuman. Let's get started. So today

(00:57):
we're talking about how time is justflying by. I mean, my kid,
he just turned eighteen, like anactual adult. I'm not ready for
this, and it's like I didn'teven see it coming. I didn't prepare

(01:19):
for this somehow, how did Imiss this? But before we get started
on that, here's a well agilemoment from Lizz's life. You know what's
really annoying? So many things,But what are you talking about? When
you hold the door for people andthey walk through and don't say thank you?

(01:40):
I know, do you then sayvery loudly so they can hear you,
no worries. It was my pleasureto hold the door for you.
No reman. You never know whatkind of day a person is having,
so to avoid confrontation stright, noremedy ever know what kind of day people

(02:00):
are having. So I just avoidconfrontation with strangers, even when you're on
the way out holding the door andthey don't say thank you, then you
don't say you are so welcome.I was just standing here hoping for the
opportunity to hold the door open fora stranger, and look at that.

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My witch came true. No Idon't And this has been a well adjusted
moment from Lizz's life. Well,my baby has turned into a man,
and it has totally caught me offguard. It floors me because literally,

(02:47):
I because you know me, andI'm remembering and linking things to events.
I remember his brist was right afterthe Easter. I go away for Easter
with my family, and I cameback from east to go to his brust,
which was on the Monday after Easter, and I was just thinking,
I'm like, oh my god,that was eighteen years ago, and yet

(03:07):
it feels like yesterday. And that'sthe thing. It's like oh god,
If I close my eyes, Iremember taking my baby to daycare every morning,
you know, like I remember himrunning in to see his best friends.
I remember standing at the bus stopon his first day of kindergarten and

(03:31):
then hopping into my car and followingthe bus and watching him walk into the
school building to make sure that hewas okay. You know, I remember
his bar mitzvah. Oh my god, it seems like, you know,
it was just And then when hisvoice turned from this little boy's voice into

(03:54):
a deep man's voice another first timeI heard, I'm like, what happened
there? What happened there? Andthen, you know, his first day
of high school. And now somehowmy baby is eighteen and a full fledged

(04:17):
adult who is getting ready to graduatehigh school and getting ready for college.
And I swear he was just playingwith his friends in daycare. And now
he has been dating the same girlfor over two years, and he has
a job, and he's driving allover the place. And I don't get
it, Like I don't understand whereall this time went, And I just

(04:43):
how did this happen? And Ithink, more importantly than that, what
how am I old enough to havea kid who's an adult. I mean,
I think that is the real questionhere. How am I old enough
to have a kid who's an adult? I mean, yes, this is

(05:08):
the year that I turn fifty.And it's interesting because I see people that
like I grew up with and Ihave to say, they look fifty.
They have definitely aged. And I'mnot saying that they'll look bad, it's

(05:30):
just that they look older. Well, you know, the funny thing is
I was just watching The All inthe Family last week and Edith is the
same age as we are, likein our late forties when she started that
show, and I thought, mygod, has what a forty eight to
fifty year old has changed since youknow, I was born in the nineteen

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seventies. Yes, yes, absolutelystill some of them that are our age
are like, oh you're you're you'repushing ten years older than what you really
are. I don't really do thewhole Facebook thing, but like, I
have seen pictures of the people thatI grew up with, and you know,

(06:16):
and they look good, they lookgood, but they definitely look older.
And the thing is is that Idon't. You don't look older,
you don't feel older. I both, I don't look older, and I
don't feel older, and I swearI am not being narcissistic. I don't

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look anywhere close to fifty. Andthat is not just me saying that,
like strangers who have no skin inthe game have said that to me.
I recently, somewhat recently, withinthe last couple of months, I had
a networking lunch and during a lunch, age came up and so I said,
I said, yeah, well,I'm turning fifty this year, and

(07:03):
they both thought I was lying,and there was no reason for them to
say that. So this is notjust like a me thing, like I
do not look like I am evenclose to fifty. I have to say,
you never realize until you become theseages that when that comes up,
because I had that happened about ayear ago when we were talking and they

(07:26):
thought that I was in my latethirties early forties, and I it was.
So it was a year ago,and I'm like, turning forty eight
next week, and oh, yourcard just went out today in the mail,
just so you know, like you'llkeep an eye on it, because
the way things have been going inthe mail, I may get it,
you know, Mother's Day, fourthof Delay right before the pandemic, I

(07:53):
stopped at wah wah Okay coffee andfor cigarettes, and I don't I don't
know what was going on that day. There was like one line open,
and that one line it stretched allthe way back to the like the end
of the store. I don't know. I have no idea why they didn't
open up the second line. Iwas so annoyed by the time I reached

(08:16):
the cashier, I put down mycoffee, I asked for my cart and
his cigarettes, and the guy behindthe counter asked to see my ID right
for the pandemic. Forty seven yearsold, so okay, kind of cute,
except unfortunately I had only brought inmy debit card with me, So

(08:37):
I said to him, I assureyou I am most certainly older than twenty
one. You can you can sellme the cigarettes. It really, it's
okay. Only he said to me, no, I really need to see
your ID. So this went fromlike I'm a cute ha ha ha,

(09:01):
that's funny, to like, notcute at all. But I'm like,
dude, I'm forty seven. Ihave a kid who's probably older than you,
Like, my mortgage is older thanyou. Believe me, you can
sell me the fucking cigarettes. Andhe's stuck to it. He's like,

(09:24):
I'm sorry, I need to seeyour ID, manja. So for as
long as this line is, I'mnow the one who's holding it up.
This very sweet man behind me says, like, think of it this way.

(09:45):
How often are you mistaken for beingtwenty one? It's really actually a
compliment, totally playing into my vanity. I know he's playing into my vanity.
It doesn't matter. He's playing intomy vanity. He was a very
smart man and it worked. I'llbe back with my ID. Sorry,

(10:16):
walk out of the store, getthe ID with ID in hand. I
wait in this incredibly one still onlyone line open, right, finally make
it to the front of this line. I tick off my sunglasses. I

(10:39):
slam down my ID and I say, here's my ID forty seven, just
like I told you my carton ofcigarettes. Please. And he looked at
me, not the ID, andhe says, oh, sorry, ma'am,

(11:00):
I'll get that for you. Now. You went to mam and you
came that age back. Sorry,man, like even ma'am today, I'm
like, I'm not ady, pleasedon't mam me. Uh. He was
just like parting me. So I'mknow what, like, how is he

(11:24):
not looking at the ID? Thathe didn't look at it? That he
just forced me to get He forcedme out of the store to get the
ID and wait in this exceptionally longline, Like the fuck what is happening?
He wrung me up without looking atthe ID. He made me get

(11:52):
so I say, um, whataren't you looking? And then ah,
it's me with my sunglasses on.I looked young. Oh with them off,

(12:16):
I must have looked what Yeah,and you were big sunglasses. So
not that you have wrinkles, butbig sunglasses cover a myriad of issues.
Peak black sunglasses. We're gonna takea quick break and we'll be right back.

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So clearly this cashier is calling meold les, poor boys, you

(13:07):
know, the poor boys. Followingis first thing he's thinking. I'm just
doing my job, job, Iam throwing. Okay, another Wala experience.
But throughout the pandemic, I stoppedgoing to like all unnecessary places,

(13:28):
and that includes Wahwa. So throughoutthe last two years, I think I
had gone to Wawa all of liketwo times. And I used to go
there every single day for a cupof coffee and maybe twice a day,
but over the last two years,one of those dinormous bats of coffee thing

(13:52):
going forty some ounces, like yeah, two weeks ago, maybe three weeks
ago, two three, I don'tknow. Um. I had to take
my little one over to the dentist, and our way home from the dentist
we literally pass my wah Wah andas I'm approaching, I'm trying to decide

(14:18):
Wawa no wah Wa wa Wa nowah wah. And I needed to decide
quickly because if I'm going to Wahwa, I need to be in the left
lane. And I go to theleft. I'm going to go to wah
Wah. I have not had themocha alert in like again, I've had

(14:39):
it twice in two years. SoI'm gonna go to Wahwa. So I
go and I fill up my coffee, and since I was there, I
figured I might as well get acarton of cigarettes. So the woman behind
the counter asked my ID. NowI'm nine years old, okay, and

(15:03):
I laugh outright. Only this timeI take it as a compliment because I
do have my ID on me.But I ask her for real, like
I say, I say to herlike seriously, I turn fifty this year
and she says, no, youdon't, and I say I do,

(15:30):
I really really do. And shesays, you definitely don't look it.
Well, that is very nice ofyou, but I think we can both
admit that I also don't look anywhereclose to twenty one. So she explains

(15:52):
to me anyone questionable they had id. So I'm confused because I am not
even questionably close to twenty one.So what their thing is is questionable is
considered if you look thirty or younger, they need to ide you. And

(16:19):
I'm like, so you think Ilook thirty or younger? And she said
I do, and I said it'ssaid. Okay, you must always remember
this moment. This is a veryspecial moment in time. Your mother is
turning fifty this year, and Iwas carted. And he says, I

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don't know what any of that means. Looking at your life, you're out
of your mind, and this isa big it's a big moment for me.
Okay, it's a big moment.So I to try to explain this
to him and he cuts me offand says, can I just say I
really don't care? Oh no,no, he won't care. Until you

(17:10):
know, in another thirty or fortyyears when he gets parted or someone thinks
that he's ten or fifteen years younger. We all get that way when I
when I told my nieces and nephews, take your naps now, because when
you've become an adult, you can'tdo it, and none of them is
to take their naps. And nowI talk to like my oldest niece and
I'm like, I told you totake your naps. She's like, yeah,

(17:30):
I wish I had done that.I'm like, say, I arrange
my clients around my nap schedule.I take a nap every single day.
It is as important for me tonap as it is to see clients and
make money. Just saying okay,I haven't taken a nap in years,

(17:52):
So I don't know. I feelvery sorry for you because I look forward
to my knaps every single day.So I kind of just want to go
back for a minute, because Idon't I really don't know how I could
be old enough to have a childwho's an adult. And by the way,

(18:14):
you know how on kids birthdays it'stheir day, like they get present,
they get cake, they are celebrated. Everyone claps and sings happy birthday
to them. I think all mommiesare going to understand what I'm about to

(18:37):
say. As I'm smiling and clappingand happy for my kids, what I'm
really thinking is why aren't they clappingfor me? All my kids did was

(18:57):
live, Yes you want that.Yeah, I'm the one who kept them
alive. It was all me,all me, and it's a fucking hard
ass job. So all of youpeople turn around and clap for me.

(19:18):
My kid made it to adulthood becauseI'm the one who got him there.
I am fucking amazing, like maybeeven perhaps the best mother in the world.
And yes, I know many manyother mothers have done this before me,

(19:41):
and many many will do this afterme, and I get that.
But here's the thing. We areoh amazing, like every single one of
us. We are incredible human beings. I am be on impressed with myself

(20:03):
and I still have like one wayto go and it's fucking exhausting and I
don't know how I do it.So for all the mommies out there who
have reached the milestone of keeping yourchild alive and even thriving to adulthood,

(20:23):
good for you. Like major paddlein the back, like forget about singing
for your kid and clapping for yourkid, pet yourself on the back,
and like, Okay, well,my little boy is now a man,
and I mean like a man who'safraid to kill spiders, but a man

(20:47):
all the same. And I justwant to take a moment because I am
so unbelievably proud of who he hashas become. He has achieved something that
most adults in life haven't achieved.This kid, oh god, this kid

(21:12):
adult has managed to create balance inhis life, which I think in general,
most people can't do. He wowthe school and comes home and does
his homework, and he works likefive days a week, and he has

(21:36):
managed to save so much money.And he hangs out with his guy friends,
and he makes a point of hangingout with his girlfriend, and he
still records music. Like he hascreated balance in his life. And I'm
so proud of him, and solike he's becoming this unbelievable, this wonderful,

(22:08):
incredible man person. And so aslife continues to change, right,
and I'm not really sure now ashe's an adult, you know what this
new dynamic is going to be likeand how the roles in this household and

(22:32):
outside of this household, and howeverything is going to change. I think
one thing within this conversation has broughtme some comfortlet and what is that that?
At least I can always count thewawas it's the constant. I can

(23:02):
always go to Wah Wah for theirmoocha alert coffee and make it through your
day and make it through the day. That is, everything else is changing
so fucking rapidly, I can alwaysgo to blah wah God. Oh,

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So that is that time keeps flyingby, but we remain by bayh bay
my bay. You can reach usat Voyage Media at Twitter, Instagram,
and on Facebook, and you canreach out directly to me at Panicked Remy

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on Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook.
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