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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to the Season and Self Love Podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:02):
I am your host, Namibanks, and I am thrilled to
have you joined me on this transformative journey. You see,
every day we dive into a powerful conversation about self discovery,
healing and empowerment. This podcast is brought to you by
Ax Naomi and Elevate Me Self Discovery or we believe
that loving yourself is the first step to live in
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a fulfilling life. You can expect insightful discussions, practical tips,
and inspiring stories. Plus were occasionally welcome special guests who
will share their unique perspectives.
Speaker 1 (00:36):
On self love and personal growth. So get comfy, grab
your favorite beverage, and let's embark on this journey together.
Because it's time to embrace the beautiful person that you are.
So let's elevate our lives one episode of time. Now,
let's get started. All right, Hey, hey, my beautiful people
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who will welcome back so to the Season and Self
Love Podcast. I am your host, Naomi Banks, and if
you are hearing me right now, I'm gonna just take
a breath with me. Let's breathe it together because you
know where y'all we made it. We have made it.
Let's welcome season four. I want to welcome you all
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to season four. And this season is this season of
intentional healing. And I want to take a moment right now,
just to take a nice moment right now, because right
now we are two years, two years of celebration, two
years of the Season of Self Love. It was two
years ago, my fifty first birthday month that I created
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the Season of Self Love as as a limited series
on ACX Diaomi Bridginal cap And it was only supposed
to be for one month. And now we are two
years later, three hundred and fifty, three hundred and sixty
episodes in just two full years of us just showing
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up and growing and healing and crying and laughing and
all those transforming together here. You know, this podcast has
been a truly a sacred space, not only for me,
but for us. It's been our sacred space. And then
it's celebrating this two years anniversary. I just want to
thank you all. I want to thank you all for
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just trusting me Monday through Friday with your healing journeys
and with the rebirth stories and all of that good stuff.
You know, this journey has for me and I have
to keep reminding everybody when I say this, because they said,
this is such an amazing podcast, this is our podcast,
this is our journey, and again it's not mine. And
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as we step into this new season, I just want
all of you to know that that when you look
back from the first time we did this podcast again
a limited series, where we are now I can tell
you right now is that I am not the same
woman who started this. I'm not the same woman that
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started this podcast two years ago. And if you've been
here on this journey with me from the very beginning,
you are not the same either. So there's going to
be a new format too this season something so I
want to explain. I want to talk about it right
now now this season that I told you that this
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is the season of attentional healing, and I want to
talk to you about what that looks like because we're
doing something a little different and attentional for season four.
We were shifting to a temporary format and so for
the next few months it will be Mindset Monday and
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Wednesday and Wednesday. And you know, I want to be
real with y'all. Y'all know I am very cabin candid
on here and I tell you exactly why. And as
many as many of you know that I've recently just
undergone expert surgery, I remove my breast impluse, and with them,
I remove years and years of silencing my body's truth
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and years of not listening, you know, years of choosing
what I thought I should be over who I actually am.
So right now I'm healing not just physically, though yes,
my body is doing miraculous, but energetically, emotionally and spiritually.
And I am actively right now in my rebirth. So
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as someone who teaches self love, authenticity and intentional living,
I realized that I had a choice. I could push
through and force the full five day schedule and be
burnt out, be tired just out of the name of
just being perfect or consistent. But I can practice what
I preach, and I can show you what authentic healing
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actually look like. So that's what we're doing. We're doing
two day a week, deep, intentional, powerful content. In season five,
we'll be back, we'll be back with the full Monday
through Friday schedule. But right now, this is what we
do about honoring ourselves, honoring myself for what it looks like.
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This is what boundaries look like. This is what self
love and action look like. So y'all know I told
you it's my birthday, my right and our It's also
our theme of stepping into authenticity. And today I'm just
gonna talk to you about authenticity and intentional healing and
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I want you to realize that I am living it
in real time with you all now. So I want
you all to bucket up, buckle up for this beautiful ride,
because this season is going to be raw real. So
let's take a quick break of right the shagartty God
is going to be making own this season and self
Love Podcast and we'll be right back in Sugart. You
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got it now, me Banks and make sure you tune
in every three Thursday night.
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Nami Washington Well was into two focuses on healing always
for me, if I look good, then I feel good.
If I feel good, then I share the good. If
I share the good, then I celebrate the good. If
I celebrate the good, then I live the good. So
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I can be paid to be my greatest. But I
have to learn the good to be the good.
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So what does it take to be the greatest.
Speaker 4 (07:00):
It's as simple as a free fifteen minute consultation.
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Be kind to yourself.
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If you'll always, I'll write my beautiful people will Welcome
back to the season A Cephalove Podcast Again.
Speaker 1 (07:15):
I am your host, Naomi Banks, and we are in
our fourth season. We are celebrating our two year anniversary.
Here on the season A Soft Love Podcast Again. We
started this all two years ago and October it was
my fifty first birthday. Was a gift to myself just
as again as a limited series on as bridging podcasts
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and as I as I continue to say, I said
it my altar, and I heard it say daily and
I've been rocking daily with this podcast and we're just
coming back from a quick break. And as I mentioned,
before the break is that I'm just recovering from my
ex surgery. So we're kind of doing a new format
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starting today, is that we're only doing two shows a
week and that's Mindset Mondays. Doctor World will be joining
me on some of those Mondays as well as Wednesday
and Wednesday when we bring some amazing guests in to
tell that story. But we still say I'm staying with
the full thing, the same thing with the monthly series
topic series that we're talking about, and this month we're
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talking about stepping into authenticity and how right is that
for me to come back with my authentic self during
my month birthday and just really being able to show
a lot of things that have been going on with me,
but also to help you all just get through it,
if that makes sense. If that makes sense, so.
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You know how we do it.
Speaker 1 (08:38):
Before we get into our topic and hand, let's just
take a moment to ground ourselves, all right, So if
we can just bow our hands at this moment time,
if you feel comfortable, all right, okay, now I want
you to take a deep breath in through your nose.
Speaker 3 (08:55):
Now really slowly through your mouth. I wanted to close
your eyes. If you feel comfortable to and I want
you to place one hand on your heart in one
of your building.
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And I want you to breathe in authenticity and breathe
out pretense. Now, for this next breath, I want you
to breathe in courage and breathe out fear. And on
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this next breath, I want you to breathe in self love.
And I want you to breathe out judgment.
Speaker 1 (09:40):
Feel the heartbeat.
Speaker 3 (09:41):
Beneath your mind.
Speaker 1 (09:44):
That is your truth, that it's your.
Speaker 3 (09:48):
Power, because you are exactly where you need now, I
want you to whisper to yourself. I am enough, I
am authentic, I am I take one more deeper them
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be the house, and when you are ready, shouldly open
your eyes.
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All right, my beautiful people with things you. Thank you
for sharing that moment with me. And if you are
new here too, the season and stuff love. That's something
that we do every show, every single show here, just
to help ground us before we get into the top
of your hand. All right, So y'all ready to get
into it. Let's get into it, you know. So I'm
currently right now, I'm officially tomorrow, I'll officially be eight
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weeks post explant surgery POSTO and I'm not going to
sugar coated about my recovery because it has been one
of the most humbling, one of the most humbling experience
in my life. So when when I made the decision
to remove my implantse I thought I understood what I
was signing up for. I did my research, I talked
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to other women, I prayed on it, I prepared mentally.
But you know what, I don't think you could ever
truly prepare for it. You can't truly prepare for what
it feels like to just reclaim your body after years
of not fooling being yourself, you know what I mean.
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It's like the physical healing has happened, which has taught
me patients and when I say patience, I was down
for like six six or seven weeks actively with the
search after the surgery, but I was down way before that.
But through this whole thing, it has truly taught me patience.
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Truly taught me patience, and especially now, I didn't know
that I needed. I know now, excuse me, I know now,
But before I didn't think that I needed. But I'm
so glad that I did go through that transformation. You know,
there was days after the surgery that I could not
left my arms. I could have left my arms over
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my shoulders at all. You know. There was days that
I had to ask people to help me to do
the simplest task. There was days when I looked in
the mirror and didn't recognize the swelling and abusing that
changed my body. But here's what I learned. Healing is
not linear. There are some days that I felt strong,
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ready to conquer the world, you know what I mean.
And other days I just needed to have that cry,
that moment, or just to be in that discomfort. And
both of those days were very necessary, especially when you're
going through a transformation like this. Both of those days
were a part of my reaper. They truly were. I've
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had to just a lot of my expectations, not load
them down, I had to adjust them. And I'm so
glad that that we went through this journey for two
years on the season and self love, because I don't know,
and I'm honest, I don't know if I would have
been able to know how to adjust because in this time,
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I had to honor my body's timeline and not the
timeline that I've already always created.
Speaker 3 (13:27):
In my head.
Speaker 1 (13:28):
I shared with you all millions and millions of time
about me being a sprinter and that now I'm learning
to be a long distance runner, a marathon runner, and
in this process of me healing, this is something that
I truly had to do. But again, I am thankful
for this journey that I've been through because it prepared
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me for this very moment, because it's been one of
the greatest, one of the greatest acts of self love
that I've ever practiced. So if you are in your
season of healing, whether it's physical, emotional, or spiritual, I
want you to hear this. Your healing is not behind schedule.
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Your healing is not behind schedule. You are not broken,
You are becoming. You are becoming. So let's talk about
the part that don't always get told. We tell about
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those emotional layers you see. Removing my implants wasn't just
a physical procedure for me. It was shedding, It was
a releasing. It was an unraveling or every belief that
I held on about my worth, about my beauty, about
my enoughness. For years, I wore a mask and I
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looked at my implants as part of my costume of
the mask that I had been wearing for years. You see,
for years I didn't realize that I was carrying shame
as well, Shame about my body, Shame about the choices
that I made to get my implants in the first place,
Shame about admitting that something once that I wanted was
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now making me sick physically and spiritually. You see these
breasts implants, you see, they're real. But beyond the physical symptoms,
there was that energetic weight. I wasn't fully in my body,
I wasn't fully in my power. I was performing a
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version of myself that I thought the world wanted to see.
And when I finally said enough, I'm taking my body back,
I'm taking my voice back. That's when the real healing,
when the real healing when it begun. So there were moments,
there was moments in my recovery where you know, I cried.
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And let me explain this. When I say about me crying,
it was and I'm trying to find the right words
to say it. It was truly a humbly and experience.
I remember the very first time that I saw myself
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in the mirror, naked, without the without the tape, without
any of the gods of none of that, and I
remember standing in it in my mirror, and I remember
looking at myself and I remember just ailling out my
body because now I'm getting ready to do lymphetic massages.
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And I remember this overwhelming feeling of gratitude and relief,
and it just felt like my body was glowing. And
I just said, thank you. I just told myself in
the mirror, just thank you, thank you for being obedient,
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thank you for listening to your body, thank you for
being raw, you know, to this whole experience. And as
I sat there, and I'm not trying to be nasty here,
but I felt them. I had to because I hadn't
excuse me, because I hadn't felt my chest, my breast,
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my natural breast in over twenty twenty one, twenty two years.
My breast is older than one of my daughters. The
breast impulse that I had was older than one of
my youngest baby. And when I got my impluse done,
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I believe my middle baby was six months old. So
I lived the whole life with the men and so
me seeing that it was very emotional, and I went
through a stream of emotions with that cry. It was
a cry of gratitude because my story is not like
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the like a lot of other women's stories. You know,
I was blessed for my story, but also there was
a moment that there were the shame and guilt that
came through, like why would you ever do that to
your body? But then I had to remember the conversations
that I had right here on this podcast, and I
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have to remember the healing that I went through myself
and understand that was a part of my journey, that
was a part of my past. But also I had
to get through that to understand what my purpose is
in life full around to make it so complete. But again,
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there are moments in our breakthrough moments that I look
at the mirror and I saw me. I saw the
real me again for the first time in years. You know.
I can say this one thing is my new practices,
of my practices of my altar that saved me during
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this time, lighting my candles, praying, meditating, asking my ancestors
and God and spirits to just guide me for strength.
That connection kept me grounded when everything felt uncertain. I
want to share a story with you a real quick
and I want to thank my Auntie and I'm gonna
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say her name and my uncle Tank my Auntie Sue
and my uncle Tank, who has opened up their home
to me and my family when I was going through
when I was having surgery, and I just remember being
in the bedroom and I remember my husband and her
you know, they were, you know, really serving me, bringing
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me food and stuff like that. But it was a moment,
and I'm about to share with you that I felt
so low because I couldn't even put my arms around
excuse my language, and wipe my ass. And even though
I knew what I was going through to better my life,
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just in that moment, I'm like, wow. So it's like
this whole experience.
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That I've had.
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From my body being disabling to me now not even
able to wipe my backside, having to have someone else
to wipe my backside. What I saw from them, that's love.
That's unconditional love when you find somebody that will come
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and wash your back because you can't. Those are things
that I learned in these last six weeks. I learned
about the unconditional love. I learned about the strength of
my family, and I learned about my strength. You see,
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this experience is that has deepened my understanding of everything,
of love, of authenticity, in ways that I couldn't even imagine,
and because of authenticity isn't just about speaking my truth,
isn't about living your truth even when it's uncomfortable, But
it's also allowing yourself to be vulnerable when you want
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to be strong, be vulnerable enough and humble enough to
allow somebody to wipe your ass because you can't do it.
Did it feel scary? Yeah for a moment it did.
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But I'm all good now, I really am so. I know.
The question is is why did I choose to reduce
the schedule. Well, one thing is because I refuse to
burn out in the name of perfection and consistency, and
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I refuse to just show up half present, half had it.
I couldn't do that anymore. I refuse to continue to
keep preaching and talking to you all about self love
and how to treat yourself. In treating myself like I'm disposable,
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then I wouldn't be authentic. I would be alive. It
would be a performance. If y'all been listening to this
show from day one, especially from the first day of
this year, you know that we do this real route
and uncut here. Authenticity is all that we have here.
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I know that God in the universe is using me
as a vessel. So when I go through things in
real time, I share those experiences with you all and
my prayers that you can resonate, that you can see
a solution for you through my journey, or even if
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you were to step into your journey, that now I
can maneuver because I listened to Naomi on this season
of Self Level, I listened to one of her guests
there on the season of self Love. So but what
I chose to take my in plans out. I chose
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that the only performance that I was gonna do is
when I'm acting, and meaning what I'm acting in a
movie or doing something like that. But when I'm here,
no no more. This season is truth from inside out,
from inside out, So me saying no to my full
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five day schedule. It wasn't easy, but it was needed.
I had to confront my fears of disappointing you all,
my fear of not being enough, my fear of being
judged for resting. But here is what I know now
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is if the most powerful thing that I can teach
you is not perfection, but it's enter, y'all have to
excuse me right now, because this is the first day
that I'm back, and it's so emotional right now because
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I do feel anew and I want to go back
a little bit because I know I'm talking about perfection
and integrity, but I want to go back a little
bit because I remember wanting to do this every day,
five days a week. And I remember when Doctor Will
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came onto this show, joined me almost two years ago,
and I remember saying, you really want to do all that,
knowing that I had another podcast as well, and I said, yeah,
I got it, I got it, I can do it,
and I could be very honest. Some days it was
very draining, but I knew I had to do it,
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and a lot of times when I came on here,
this is what motivated me and kept going was talking
because I was literally going through my own teaching, through
my own learning at that moment and at that time.
So remember I used to say that I'm a retiring perfectionist. Yeah,
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but now it's all about the integrity of what we're
doing here. It's the willingness to live my message and
just not speaking. So I'm asking you, all of you
that's listening right now, what does authenticity look like in
your healing journey. Where are you performing when you could
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be resting? Where are you saying yes when your body
is screaming now? And where are you deming? Where are
you deming your truth to make others comfortable? You see
this season with stepping into our authenticity together, and it
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starts with permission, with permission to heal at your own pace,
permission to change your mind, permission to choose yourself. So
now I want to share something with you. Know, in
the October my birthday, I always do something special. I
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always do something special, and I'm kind of excited to
share this with all of you and those that follow
me on social media, kind of know a idea of
what I'm getting ready to talk to you about again.
My birthday month. This is my birthday month, and I
released see a new project under a new alias name.
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It's the God's spelled d A God is of Self
Love and the album is called Soundtrack to the Rebirth,
sound Track to the Reaper, the Rebirth, the Rebirth, however
you want to say, be that, but it's called the
Soundtrack to the Rebirth and it's my album. I know
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now some of you thinking like okay, Naomi, now you
got a podcast. You're a healer, you're a speaker, you
a cold to your mama, your wife. You know you're
doing all this and so since since when you're making music?
Since when you're making music. Now, if you've been with
me for a while listening to this show, I want
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to remind you remember a few months back back when
we did this series, and I think I took it
was every Tuesday of that series, we did like a
tune Tuesday where we took it was like four or
five songs and we broke down the lyrics and exploring
on how you know, we can truly applied them in
our lives, of how healing music can be or how
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power or it was right. And then there was also
an episode that me and doctor Will talked about in
the I think it was May, about creating and about
we talked about the soundtrack to one's life. Well, that
conversation was planted in my seed, unbeknowns to me, and
now I am definitely living at it. But here's what
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I learned in the process that just like there are
chapters in books and many books in a lifetime, right, well,
there are soundtracks, multiple soundtracks, and in this season of
My life. Rebirth is my soundtrack, and I'm gonna tell
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you this, it would not be my last. So I
know I shared with you all before. If anybody just
listening for the first time, now, music is my first love.
I was signed to Columbia Records many many years ago.
I formed a girl group with my sister and my cousin,
and I actually had my own record label called Family
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boot Camp Records. This was towards the end of my
adult career. I think for the last three or four
years I had Family boot Camp Renpers. I had several artists.
I think I had about four or five artists on
that record label. And I just always want to be
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a part of music. But somehow I convinced myself that
somewhere along the way, that I wasn't good enough to
do that, that I wasn't good enough to do music again,
that I couldn't sing anymore, you know. But here is
what I discovered. That I don't have to be a
vocalist to be the artist. My gifts are in my words,
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my artistry is in my story, my power is in
my testimony. And I am so so very happy that
a few years ago that I had read the full agreements,
and in that first agreement, it's about being impeccable with
your words, but not only that, it's about when we
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talk on here, about having compassion for yourself, about using
positive words and affirmation to be able to talk to yourself,
to have that communication with yourself. So I'm gonna tell
you how this started off. Okay, So this album actually
started off as a melody. I woke up out of
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my sleep. It had to be like maybe two three
o'clock in the morning maybe, and I never heard this
melody before. The words who just started to flow, and
it's just I guess it's just something that I needed
to say to myself. And you know, in my head,
I was like, you know, dear dear me, love letter,
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dear me, and that comes out to be my first song.
Then fast forward twenty four hours late, I literally wrote
I want to say twenty two songs in twenty four hours.
Twenty two songs and my testimony, my healing, my journey,
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my transformation sent to music. So while I am writing
the lyrics as I'm sitting there, so I want to
go back some. I want to go back some because
this is another scene that was put in my head
I remember one of my good girlfriends, her and my
best friend, came and visited me in Chicago when I
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was at my aunt's as I was recovering, and I
remember her telling me about this app that will take
your music, your songs, your lyrics, and turn it into music.
You let them know what generally you rather. You want
to mail a fever and sing it when you put
your hook, your bridge, your verse, you know, all of
that in there, and it will come out to be
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an amazing song. So when I did this, So when
I did this and I heard the very first song,
which was Dear Me, y'all, I cried. I cried because
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I heard my voice so loud and clear. You know
a lot of times that we writing our journal, of
putting it on paper, putting it in music, and allowing
somebody with an amazing voice to sing it. Oh my god,
it put it the emotion of it. It gave it
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a whole other persona for me. But it was so
much healing that came with that. And then I kept writing.
They kept writing, kept writing, and it came very therapeutical
for me, It really did. So as I was writing
the music, I had a revelation about the buying timing
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that I needed to share with you all right now, now,
this happened on Thursday. This happened on Thursday, and if again,
if you follow me on social media, I had posted
a video explaining that because you know, I was supposed
to started everything last week. I was supposed to started
on the first with everything came back with a brand
new season with ask Naomi, the season of Self Love.
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You know, all of that my projects. I had two
other projects that I was going to drop, the Daily
Love Letter and Elevate with Naomi, and I had everything planned.
I was ready. I was ready. But during my recovery,
I had to put my computer in the shop for
a full upgrade. I needed a new drive everything, you know,
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get all the bugs out. And so when I went
to go pick it up two weeks ago, I was
decided to get back to work. But when I tried
to use it at home in my studio, there was nothing, nothing,
nothing like I would bring it up, I would see
a little screen and I would try to go into
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some of my files and it would not allow me
to go into my files. Any of the programs that
were still on there, they wouldn't come up and then
I realized majority of my files and content was erased
from my computer. Yes, so then I took it back.
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I took it back to the shop, and the crazy
thing is, as soon as we took it back to
the shop, the tech plugged it in and it worked perfectly. Everything,
everything worked perfectly. The mouse was running, every every file
opened up, every every program opened up, every software opened up,
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and me and my husband sitting there like, what the hell?
It's like, wow, what is what is? What is happening here?
So I was excited. I'm like, well, lep, now, let's
go home. I can't, you know, get up and do it.
So I brought it home thinking everything was great. And
so the next morning I come downstairs to start working
on the two major projects that needed to drop in
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five days now, and guess what, the computer would not
show up on the monitor at all at all. So
I'm like, wait, hold on, what's going on. Maybe it's
the maybe it's the screen, maybe it's something. So I
grabbed my laptop. I plug my laptop in. Everything everything
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is working. So I'm what is happening? So I took
a dig breath and I asked God, I said, God,
what are you trying to tell me, am I moving
too fast? What am I missing? What am I missing?
So the next day I took it back to the shop. Well,
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that Monday, I took it back to the shop, and
then the tech told me that they had to hold
my computer for three to five days. Remind you, when
I took it in, I only had really three days
for the official release, the drop of the two new projects.
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So I remember sitting at the shop, in that store,
and I looked at her and she said, well, what
do you want to do? I said, well, I can't
do nothing. Believe it here, That's the only way we're
going to get this fixed. We already spent three four
hundred dollars on it, you know, fixing it. So I'm
being told to sit down in some way pay attention
to something, you know, when I think about it, At
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that moment, I could have I could have spiraled, I
could have gotten angry. I could have got anxious about
missing the deadlines. But the thing is I did. I
didn't get angry. I didn't get nervous because I knew
deep in my spirit that God, the universe, my ancestors.
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Was trying to tell me something.
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And as I was sitting at my altar and I
was writing these lyrics. That is what it hit me like,
God shut me down. God shut down my computer so
I can hear my music. God shut down my computer
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so I can hear my music. He had to take
he had to take away what I thought I was
supposed to be doing, so I can remember a gift
and a love that I've forgotten. You see music in
that gift, that was a part of my true essence,
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That was a part of me, not just listening to it,
but creating it. But creating it. Music is a part
of my soul again, not just for listening to dancing
to it, but also to give it a voice. You see,
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this process for me has been truly incredible, very incredible,
and healing healing from me spiritually, emotionally, physically. And this
is definitely something that I will be doing again. But
more than that, this, this is a part of my ministry,
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has been given to me yet another voice to serve others.
So let me tell you about the soundtra The soundtrack
they rebirth is exactly what it sounds like, the soundtrack
to my transformation. Every track represents a different phase of
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this journey. The pain, the reclaiming, the awakening, the celebration.
This is probably my most vulnerable work and I cannot
wait for you all to hear it. So let me
tell you about these songs real fast. So I told
you about the first song, Dear Me. That's where it
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all began, and that's the moment that I decided to
write myself.
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That love letter.
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Is very tender, it is vulnerable, and again it's the
beginning of everything. And then the next track is Mirror Mirror,
and it's about looking in the mirror and finally seeing
myself clearly, not through society's eyes and not through shame,
but through love, through the love of my eyes, a
reflection of me. And this song is about reclaiming your reflection.
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Now the divine nine. This one right here was deeply
personal for me because, as you know, my spiritual number
is five. And as I was writing, I remember sitting
and writing this story, and I remember getting up and
going to I have a picture I have a friend
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with my father's obituary, and I've took several different of
his obituaries, and you know, and tore it open, so
we kind of put it in a picture atte and
something would say go, look at the date that you
all laid them the rest, and we laid my father
the ress on March fifteenth. March is the third month
of the year. Fifteenth is one plus five. That equals nine.
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And then this year twenty twenty five two plus zero
plus two plus five is nine. And then my year,
this is my year to rebirth. And then I was
born in seventy two. Seventh plus two is what it's nine.
So you see all of this adds up to what
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to nine. When I tell you that I truly went
deep into this song, because that is this divine nine
in the song, in the way that it was written,
it was truly a healing moment. But that was an
AHA moment for me because even in my mother's womb,
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I was a humanitarian, I was someone of love. I
was a divine nine. This song is about ancestral healing.
It's about generational patterns. It's about stepping into the divine
assignment that you were born into that I was born into.
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And then my next one is probably one of my favorites.
It is I call this reclaiming unashame. It's about my
this will be my experian anthem. It's about my body's
sobriety and removing what never belonged to me and reclaiming
my original self. This is for every woman who's ever
felt less thin because of how her body looks. And
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it's always been you. That's another beautiful track. This is
a spiritual awakening song. This is where my three AM
downloads came in back in a very critical year of
everyone life. And this is a realization that everything that
I was searching for was already inside of me. It's
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always been me, It's always been you. And s S
is another song. This one is an amazing one. This
was a nice little twist and I can I can
tell you this I was actually I don't want to
say that I was afraid of it because of verdicts
still out on that if you know how it's going
to go, but it's as sexuality central and spiritual spirituality,
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and you know, when I truly begin on my healing journey,
is something that I wanted to do, was the few
spirituality and sexuality. Knowing that I've come from the adult industry,
It's been part of my life, but all of my life,
but I'm also a very spiritual individual and understanding and
knowing that sexuality, spirituality, and central are part of our core,
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is a part of our essence. One of the challenges
is that that when you trying to combine and fuse
those three, that's one of the challenges. Everything that society
told me about being sexual and spiritual that it is not.
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In this song is says I do not have to choose.
They are all part of me, they are all sacred.
And God never left me, even when people said that
I left God. So this is a very very transformational song,
is very spiritual. It's good. It's a good one. It's
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playing in my head right now. And then it's God
is rising, you know, I had to say speaking on that.
So this is a nice little fuse because it's a
nice little hip hop R and B type of fusion.
And it's about elevation. It's a glow up. It's a
moment when you step into your power and you refuse
to you refuse to play small. And as I know
that trump stamp on my back of me, God in spirit,
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the God in me. That's what makes me the goddess,
and that's what makes my persona, my character, the goddess
of self love. And then the finality. The last song
is the rebirth, and this is a triumphic closing. That's
the declaration and that I am reborn at fifty three,
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stronger and wiser and freer and unapologetic to me. So
when I created these nine core songs with multiple versions
of different viyes, different energies, different healing frequencies, because healing
isn't one size but all. Sometimes you need you need
that tender version and sometimes you need that bold one.
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And so all of these are free. All nine of
these are free. It's a part of my ministry, it's
a part of my service. This is my offering to
anyone on their healing journey. Now here's how I'm rolling
it out, all right. So I started a few days
ago leading up to my birthday October fourteenth. I'll be
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releasing one track snippet per day on Instagram. At the
Goddess of Self Loving is da Goddess of self love,
all one thing, nothing in between. And so when I
talked about it, when I thought about it sitting at
my altar, it was nine days, nine songs for the
rollout and just building it in the four release. So
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again when I was sitting at that altar and just
going through it. I had to laugh when I was
writing them songs come and said, okay, this is what
I'm supposed to be paying attention to. I was awaking
out of my sleep on Thursday morning to write that
very first song. I was done. I'm not even gonna
say twenty four hours. I was done by ten o'clock
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at night. The next day, I think it was that
I post the first song. It was the next day
or Saturday in one of those days. I think it
was Saturday that I posted the first one and I said, okay,
I'm going to release this. I'm gonna release this. So again,
each post will feature the song at them and some
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of them I might get a give a little story
behind it. But I'm just inviting you all to just
walk this journey with me and just to hear my words,
to feel the transformation. And here's my only ask is
that no distractions when you're listening to it. Just close
your eyes and hear my words. Now, on October fourteenth,
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when that's gonna be when the full album drops, I'm
gonna give you a little surprise. But again, remember this
is completely free, so there will be a link in
everything that you can download the music or you can
go to the link and get it and just enjoy it.
And here is a very beautiful part of it. I
wrote that those songs in twenty four hours. And I
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know you yourself can write your own soundtrack to your
own life. To that. You don't need to be a
trained singer. You don't need to have a record deal.
You just don't need. You just need your story. You
need your truth, and you need your words. When I
tell you, listening to your words and real time to music,
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to soul for my soul for to soul for music,
it's a healing process. Just yesterday, I had one of
my good friends over and I had him listening to
the tracks, and before I knew it, he was into it.
He was like, wow, like this is very healing, Naomi,
Like this is he said, will like you? You got
me and my feelings right now. And he asked me,
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he said, when you first heard your words, how did
you feel? I said, I felt it through my soul.
I felt it through every single one of my chakras.
It was so much healing to it. And I said,
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I was gonna wait to stay, but I'm gonna say
it now i'm i'm, I'm, I'm working on uh, I'm
working on a program right now, and it's gonna take
me a few months to do it, but I I
definitely want to do a healing module using music, especially
when it comes to my clients. And i'm i'm, I'm
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back in the next few weeks taking you know, getting
back into my one on one coaching. But I definitely
believe that's gonna be one of the h healing modules
for you know, my clients, as well as doing other
amazing things with it. But I know, for you all,
I know a lot of times we write in our
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journal and sometimes it feels flat. But maybe if you
take some of those words and then your feelings and
you put 'em into a song and later I'll share,
you know, what the app is and all of that stuff.
But it's so good to just share your rebirth story,
share your what you're going through at this moment in
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this time and your transformation, and you create your own
soundtrack of the reperth. So also tell me what you're reclaiming,
you know, once you hear it and come back and
I'll do some post up or something like that. I
want you to tell me what you're becoming, all right,
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all right, So again follow my alter ego, the Goddess
of Self Love. That's d as a Dog d a
Goddess of Love on Instagram for the Daily road Out,
and I want you to market all calendars for October fourteenth,
and get ready to receive this soundtrack. Get ready to
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see this contract. All right. So before we get off,
I want to remind you all about October. It's not
only my birthday, but it's also Breast cancer Awareness month,
and this year it holds very deep meaning for me.
Is because my ex Journey and breast health advocate has connected.
So because here's what we don't talk about enough, right
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it's women's bodies are not commodities and our health should
never be compromised or our aesthetic for societal expectations for profit. Right,
So breast implant is much larger than that. But I
want to say this because I'm running out of time
right now and I hate to do this, but we're
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doing a fundraiser. You can go to the Season and
Self Love now right now. I'm right here telling the
story because I'm still working on that website now. But
you go to Askniaomi dot com and it'll be right
there on the front page. Our slogan this year is
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Body Love and Hope United. That is what it is.
And our goal is one thousand dollars. Our goal is
one thousand dollars. And also I want to tell you
all about this too. Is for one week is Men
Breast Cancer Awareness Week. But October seventeenth to the twenty
third is always the third week on tobe word. There's
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something that we're going to definitely talk about over their
asks Naomi this month because that's something new I really
never heard. I mean I heard of men having breast cancer,
but just us to make aware of this. I want
to make sure that I'm able to use my platform,
you know, for this. And again again it is one
thousand dollars. Is up there right now. It's called Body
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Love and Hope United at aks naomi dot com. And
hopefully by the end of this week, I've been revamped
the season and self Love and it will be there
as well. And again our goal is one thousand dollars.
A thousand dollars, okay, a thousand dollars. You know, we
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want to go beyond the fund raiser too, you know,
we want to go beyond that thousand dollars. All right,
all right, all right, so again I'll be back here
for Wisdom Winnesday here on the season and self Love.
We got some amazing guests that's coming on on Wednesday.
I'm excited. I'm just so excited to be back. I'm
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excited to be back. Oh, let me give you this
little tipbit why going through all of this, there will
be a new launching in twenty twenty six, body Choice
and Voice Podcasts. It's going to be a space where
everyone from women, men of all of us can speak
our truth with our fear of shame, of judgment, of
space where we can talk about body autonomy, medical advocacy,
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and reclaiming our power. All right, but right now, I
just need your help. I need you to go donate
right now, share the campaign when I posted, Tag people
who need to hear the message, and let's create a movement. Okay,
all right, So I'm just thinking, I'm just going through
my notes right now. One more thing that we need
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to say. No, not really, not really, I'm just so
excited to be back. Remember to rollout for of the
soundtrack to the Rebirth. That's about it.
Speaker 3 (55:13):
That is about it.
Speaker 1 (55:15):
That is about it. Oh no, no, yeah, that's about
it because I'll be back on Monday. I'll be back
next Monday to talk to more. Right, I write my
beautiful people, as I always say, be good to one
another in yourselves and I always keep it sexy. Thank you,
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my beautiful people, for continue to support me here on
the Season and Self Love so let have gone. Thank
you for joining us on this journey of discovering and
empowerment here at the Season and Self Love Podcast. Remember,
embracing self love is a continuous journey and we're so
glad to have you with us. So if you enjoy
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So until next time, take a moment for yourself today
and remember you are worthy of.
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Love, joy, and all the beautiful things that life has
to offer you.
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A go