November 28, 2025 • 35 mins
THE HEAT CHECK - Morning Mind Dump from Inside the Sauna Blanket (Episode 1)
In this first-ever episode from inside the sauna, I get real about something I’ve been wrestling with for a long time… losing my joy for creating. And i'm publishing this "disaster" of an episode to finally attempt to rid myself of this OCD perfectionism I have that makes creating content less enjoyable..
Since stepping away from baseball, my identity, my routines, and the way I show up online have all shifted. Somewhere along the way, content stopped feeling like something I get to do, and started feeling like something I have to do — and that slow shift into perfectionism and pressure has been eating away at me.
Inside the sauna blanket (yes, literally sweating through this), I talk openly about:
• burnout, overthinking, and losing the “one-take Robby” authenticity
• the identity crisis that hits when baseball is no longer the center
• why being perceived as “perfect” has held me back
• how I’m trying to reconnect with my actual voice
• and why I’m starting this new raw, unfiltered mini-series
If you’re into mindset, creativity, growth, or just want to hear what’s going on behind the scenes of my life right now, I think you’ll take something from this one.
Discounts to Products I Use (Including the Sauna Blanket) can be found here
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Personally reach out to me using my Question Platform here
https://therobbyrowshow.com/ask/
In this first-ever episode from inside the sauna, I get real about something I’ve been wrestling with for a long time… losing my joy for creating. And i'm publishing this "disaster" of an episode to finally attempt to rid myself of this OCD perfectionism I have that makes creating content less enjoyable..
Since stepping away from baseball, my identity, my routines, and the way I show up online have all shifted. Somewhere along the way, content stopped feeling like something I get to do, and started feeling like something I have to do — and that slow shift into perfectionism and pressure has been eating away at me.
Inside the sauna blanket (yes, literally sweating through this), I talk openly about:
• burnout, overthinking, and losing the “one-take Robby” authenticity
• the identity crisis that hits when baseball is no longer the center
• why being perceived as “perfect” has held me back
• how I’m trying to reconnect with my actual voice
• and why I’m starting this new raw, unfiltered mini-series
If you’re into mindset, creativity, growth, or just want to hear what’s going on behind the scenes of my life right now, I think you’ll take something from this one.
Discounts to Products I Use (Including the Sauna Blanket) can be found here
https://therobbyrowshow.com/productdiscounts/
Personally reach out to me using my Question Platform here
https://therobbyrowshow.com/ask/
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hum babe, we uh should be live. We got a
We got a new series for you guys, and by we,
I mean I I have a new series for you guys.
I'm gonna utilize my sauna blanket time in the morning,
sitting inside one hundred and eighty degree burrito rap and
just talk. It's gonna be different than the typical podcasting
(00:21):
you've heard me do in the past. I am going
to be opening up. I'm in a season of vulnerability
now that I am no longer actively pursuing a b
spell dream. But hey, you know other things to life. Today,
my vulnerability is going to start. And again you're gonna
(00:41):
have to give me like seven maybe to ten minutes
at the start of this episode that you're gonna listen
to once I once I start that for you guys
to listen, it's uh, it takes a while for me
to get going. But again, I got no script, dude,
I got no notes. I'm just freaking turning the mic
on and I'm getting going. So today's episode the overall
theme and again this is probably more so for me
(01:01):
than it is for you guys to listen to. But
if there's one thing you take away from it. I
would say, it's that, you know, life is hard, man.
You're not always going to have everything figured out and
it's okay, and it's okay. The thing that you can
control is just truly identifying where you're at and what
you want and then putting forth a plan to get there,
(01:21):
you know what I mean. So for me today, it's
going to be talking more so about my content creation
and how I would say that I've kind of lost
my joy, my overall joy around content creation because it's
different now. I started content creation when I was an
active when I was in active pursuit of a baseball dream,
(01:42):
and I would just say the creation of content was
a little bit easier then. I don't know easier. I
don't know if that's the right word, but you know,
and now we're at the season where now it's kind
of my job, it's literally my job, and it's different.
So I'm going to talk through it. You guys can listen,
hope you and I'm going to be doing these, you know,
(02:02):
basically every day now. I mean maybe four times a
week honestly, because that's a lot of talking. I enjoy talking, though,
I enjoy podcasting. And if you guys are listening. I
really appreciate you. Just know you guys can always reach
out the Robber roashow dot com slash ask there's any
things you want me to talk about in podcasts. I
would greatly appreciate any suggestions. I'm also going to be
(02:23):
doing like ig story polls or question poll things and
TikTok has a question pole thing now where I'll start
actively getting people's questions. I'll probably take a few episodes
where I use my question platform to answer questions, do
some Q and a's, and you know, do my part
to help any way I can. But first few episodes.
(02:44):
I've recorded two of these already and they're just going
to be like my diary, dude, my inner workings of
my mind. If you will, so hope you guys enjoy
as always much love, God bless and I will be
talking to you a lot more if you decide to
listen in on these. Let's get to that first episode.
What do you guys think about this title of this
mini series? The Heat Check Morning Mine Dump from inside
(03:07):
the sna Bee. It's kind of fire right, all right,
let's get to this first episode, shall we. I'm babe,
I've kind of turned into this hermit. You know, not
gonna lie to you, guys. I've kind of turned into
this hermit since I've gotten I'm never gonna say retired. Nope,
still doesn't feel right. Even just thinking about saying ever
(03:30):
since I retired, it just makes me my stomach hurt.
So I'm not gonna say that. Ever since I stopped
playing baseball, that's a little bit more better. I don't know,
stop doesn't really sound right either. Ever since I've halted, No,
that's not it. Ever since I paused pause sounds kind
(03:51):
of better. Honestly, I am no longer a active baseball player.
I don't even remember what I was saying. Now my
brain went into a totally different fricking clause of thoughts,
and I don't want to be in that one, so
I'm going to choose a different one. Yeah, Like I said,
this is probably gonna be more so for me, especially
the first round of this. Dude, first round of this,
(04:12):
I'm definitely gonna just nah, dude, I should shock the
world and throw it up. Now, you guys can see
the true in our workings of my brain. I don't
even know who would want to like listen to this.
Some say I have a soothing voice. Though. You know,
what's a good idea is doing this but yeah, and
having some episodes and sometimes where I actually answer questions
(04:33):
and try to help people, but also just using this
to tell some stories. I feel like stories though, like
on podcasts, are always so much more dope when there's
like another person around and this is just me. But
I don't know, maybe maybe I'll do it. I'll start
thinking of some stories. What stories could I tell? I
(04:54):
have some stories, you know. Honestly, this is just a
really good outlet to tell my story, right. I mean,
I've told my story before, but I feel like my
story is always updating, and there's always things that I
leave out of my story that I think about later
and I'm like, dang, that's good. Yeah I might do that.
So uh huh. Anyways, I got freaking sweat in my ear.
(05:18):
That's the worst part of it, all right, just to
paint ooh there. It is just to paint a picture
for you guys. So I am on the floor in
a sauna blanket. Shout out higher dose, higher dose sauna blanket.
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think show notes will have I miss podcasting, dude, I
(05:43):
miss because I put these I put headphones on. I
guess they're EarPods, and I can like hear my voice,
you know, through the through the mic. All right, here's
a story for you guys. I'm on a plane and
I believe I was with doctor Heenan, right, yeah, I
think so, Yeah, I was with Doctoran. I flew from Oakland.
This is when I was living in California. I flew
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from Oakland to Denver. So I met him in Denver
Airport and then we were going to fly to where
I am actually currently living in Stanford, Connecticut, while we
were flying to the Guardia. But anyways, for those of
you guys that know doctor Heenoni his relationship, I don't
want to even call him doctor Hendon. I want to
just call him Josh. For those of you guys that
know Josh AND's relationship, very playful, a lot of banter, right,
(06:28):
like you know how boys are. And there was this
girl that sat across from me, across from me in
a rope in front of me. Josh and I were
like bantering all plane flight, and finally at the end
when we land, she like turned around and she was
just like, I gotta say, you have such a soothing voice.
(06:52):
And I'll tell you what, man, I'm a big affirms guy,
you know, like nothing really fires me up more than
a fricking affirmation. But when it comes to my voice
and affirming my voice, oh my gosh, we've reached like
a new level of affirms. Because when I first started
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creating content, and like I first started vlogging and podcasting
all these things, it would grind me, dude, to like
hear my voice, I just did not like it. And
it's not even just my voice per se. I guess
it's more so the way that I talk. And I
got better talking as I started getting more familiar with
(07:37):
creating content. But I never really liked my voice, Like
even like if my girlfriend watches one of my freaking
edits and the sound is on, like I kind of cringe.
I think most people are like that though, right, I
really haven't met a whole lot of people that love
their voice. But moral of the story is, there are
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still beautiful souls in this world and I'll never ever
forget that compliment. And and I just about freaking lost
it right there on the plane. I mean, honestly, it's
It's just a testament to how frickin dope compliments are
like and how powerful people's words can be. You know, Like, gosh, dude,
think about it. You think that girl that gave me
(08:23):
that compliment that day, Like, do you even think that
she recalls that moment, because I'm sitting here still reminiscent
about it. And I mean, think about that, right, the
power of what you can say to somebody. And it's
like we talk about how your words matter and how
like you have the power to make someone else's day. Dude,
(08:43):
she just she had the power to like make my
life better, you know what I mean. Because the reason
I bring this up is because I can hear myself
talking to this mic right now. And my initial reaction
was kind of like shut it down, don't talk anymore.
But then I like remembered that because I was also
like in the state of mind where I was thinking
(09:05):
about stories to tell, because I do enjoy telling stories,
and I thought of that one, and I was like,
oh my gosh, that's so dense. I like that word.
It's so powerful though, you know, and it does put
me in a way better mindset kind of approaching my day.
And that's just another reason why I want to do
these little mini pod solo Johnson's in the morning, just
(09:31):
talking random nonsense. I think it's a win win. I mean,
I gotta stop caring about like the views, man, and
I gotta stop. I mean, yeah, they're nice things to
care about in terms of the performance of my content
and the metrics. But I gotta be honest with you guys.
This is a great outlet to speak into my vulnerability
(09:54):
phase because I gotta be honest. Man. I started creating
content because I saw a need for it. I've always
kind of felt like this responsibility to give back what
the game has kind of taught me, and obviously like
having a big league father and having that lifestyle ever
since I was born, of just being on the road
(10:15):
and living out of a suitcase, and just all of
the little intangibles that like professional baseball can teach you,
and just not even just professional baseball, just baseball in general, man,
just being a game of built on failure, you know.
And I always felt that sense of responsibility to kind
of like shine light on it and encourage and use
(10:37):
a platform I guess, but I started. I started creating
it with like no real monetization value in mind. I mean,
I think if I can recall, like, was it twenty
eighteen January of twenty eighteen when I first was like,
all right, I'm doing a podcast, Like I know, I know,
(11:00):
I know. I don't know how to do it. I
don't know what that looks like. I don't know how
to set it up. I don't know any of the
things that go into it. But I know, I just
I'm going to do it. And like I said, it
wasn't like, oh, I need to do it because I
need to like make a few extra bucks here and there. Again,
this was twenty eighteen, so like podcasts were just starting
to become pretty mainstream content in general hadn't really taken
(11:24):
off yet. And I'm not just sitting here saying that
I'm a pioneer in this content space. I mean you
could say that if you wanted to, but there was
no real like ooh, this is going to be like
my lifestyle, this is going to be what's like my job.
It was honestly just because I thought it was so fun, man,
(11:45):
I thought it was so fun, Like even just the
idea of like what I say matters, you know, and
like what I post about or what I talk about,
like people want to listen to that. It's that idea,
I guess, you know, obviously the foundation of just purpose, right,
anytime someone has a sense of like purpose, but it's
it's kind of like an oblivious sense of purpose too,
(12:07):
because I remember I started my podcast, dude, and like,
I'd be so stoked if like I got twenty downloads,
because I was like, wow, that's twenty people, dude, twenty
people probably fifteen if you exclude my family that want
to hear what I'm talking about. That's so dope. And
these are back in the days where I would like
go ig live and I would just hang out with people.
(12:30):
My red light just turned off, so that that kind
of like made my heart sink a little bit. I
got scared. That was back when it was just like
I love you know, I'd go live and I'd get
like ten people watching me eat freaking ketogenic one meal
a days, a bunch of steak. You know, it's funny.
People still talk about that. It's amazing. But even back then,
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it was like the motive, right, the purpose of what
I was doing. It's like so different now, and it's
like different, but it's not weird. I don't know how
am I going to explain this all? Right? Back then,
it was like I kind of just I just enjoyed
the fact that we had the tools available to do it,
like go live and literally just like have a meal
(13:15):
or be eating a meal with people from like all
over the world that just cared to tune in. And
then I think the other aspect of it too back
then was that there wasn't a lot of people creating content.
I remember feeling like almost almost a sense of responsibility
because there wasn't a whole lot of people in the
space of like baseball that was doing like content obviously
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pertaining to baseball, but also just pertaining to like overall
human optimization, right, like nutrition, sleep, training, diet, like all that,
And so I was like, ooh, this is me, Like
I gotta fill that space. And I think what happened
along with a couple other things too that I'll probably
try to dive into just honestly for my sake if
(13:57):
you guys want to listen, great, but this is like
my personal diary therapy session. I think what happened was
I felt a sense of value from being like one
of the few that was doing it. And I think
over time, right, like especially after COVID, where people were
like ooh, content, content content. Now I feel like everyone's
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creating and everyone's talking and everyone has this voice online
that I just I guess I kind of felt watered down,
you know, like I felt like it wasn't as purposeful
or wasn't as valuable. And when I say it, I
mean like I you know, like now that there's so
many other voices out there, I feel like, Okay, I
don't need to do it, or I feel like people
(14:42):
don't want me to do it. That's that's probably some
insecurities there at the baseline level, right, and that's okay.
But yeah, I mean now, I guess the way I
approach things now is for some reason, I fell into
this mindset of like, okay, now this is my job.
I know why I fell into the mindset. Like I said,
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I stopped playing baseball. Baseball was like always my number one.
So it was like I had this and agin like
later in my career, I didn't make a lot of
money playing baseball, but it was like my brain knew
that that was my job, and then everything else I
did aside from baseball was just like a hobby. So
I was going to gravitate towards things that my brain
enjoyed and got dopamine over right, So that fell into
(15:24):
the category of podcasting creating content. And I think it's
easy to Yeah, that's probably that's probably true. It's the
same notion in baseball too. It's like when you don't care,
when it like doesn't matter your like performance. Maybe this
isn't for everyone, but I know a lot of people
like this. The ones that care so much perform a
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little bit worse than the ones that don't care at all,
because it just frees you up, dude, right, so much
more freedom in that. And it's it's not this I
have to, it's I get to. And I think that
is the overall reason on which why I am laying
on my living room turf pad speaking into a microphone
(16:11):
while I'm in a heated sauna blanket with a which
was a red light on my head, but now it's
turned off because I need to get back to that
state of like, oh, I get to do all this right,
Like it doesn't matter if everyone else is doing it.
What matters is like I get to do it. And
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what I was going to say earlier was that once
I stopped playing baseball, this now, right, like my brand
became like my job. And man, I mean, I'm just
sitting here talking through all this, and you guys got
to know about me. I am a thinker, dude. I overthink.
It's probably why I wasn't as good as I wanted
(16:54):
to be in baseball. And that's okay. But I love thinking.
I love overanalyzing. I love overthinking. It's what I find
joy in. So I think a lot on these things, man,
Like why all of a sudden do I feel like
this responsibility but not responsibility like I was mentioning earlier,
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Like this responsibility like almost this burden, Like I have
to do these things, and then if I don't like,
my quality of life goes down and I don't enjoy
it as much because now it's the thing that I
have to do, Whereas when I just got to do
it right, like when I got to speak and post
it online, it was so much more joyful. So I
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need to get back to that. I mean, I guess
the implementation is just doing it right. Oh and the
other thing I was going to say was I started
carrying a lot more about like my viewer's perception of
me when I first started, dude, and this is just
me as a character. Like my personality, I've never really
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cared about what other people think of me. I've always
been very loud, obnoxious, exuberant, some would say flamboyant, and
I love that about me. I still love that about me,
and I never cared what other people thought. And I
think when I stopped playing baseball and this became my job, subconsciously,
(18:23):
I had to start caring about other people's perception because
in reality, it's like that perception that's going to make
me more valuable. Right, So that makes sense. Dude, thank
you guys for letting me talk this out. This is
super dope. That makes sense. I think. I don't think
that's ever something that you can just identify it and
it goes away. I think it's something that you just
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work on every single day by just putting yourself in
the environment, right, Like I'm putting myself in this environment
by speaking in to this microphone to where people can listen,
and I need to continuously reassure this notion of like
I don't care, I'm gonna put it out there. I'm
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gonna put it out into the world and like, let's
do it right. I think somewhere along the way, I
got trapped into thinking like, oh if I put out
one piece of content that someone either like, doesn't agree
with or thinks I'm a fool or it doesn't value
what I am saying, like almost that timidness tibbot whoa man.
Words are hard, timidness, over failing. But it's not like
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it's a subjective failing, you know what I mean? Because
everyone's so freaking subjective towards their opinions, and I think
I just tried to start pleasing everyone. Dude. I mean
that's the same freaking theme that I had throughout my
almost entire baseball career. Oh go sweating my ear glands.
The sauna blanket gets hot, Dude. I like it a lot.
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And another good thing about just podcasting is, dude, I'm
I'm getting like a full sauna session. Sometimes I'd get
anxious around minute twenty and I usually want to stay
in here for thirty to forty five. That's when body
activates to eat shock proteins. Now, this is good. I
think there's a lot of lessons learned here. What's really
(20:12):
frustrating for me personally, And I don't know how you
guys are about this stuff, but like, you go through
your life, right, and you kind of you go through
experiences and you know you fail or whatever, you just experience, right,
and you kind of figure out who you are in
that process, and you kind of figure out how you
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typically cope with things or how you typically approach certain experiences,
and the way you see yourself approaching those isn't necessarily
what you want to approach it like or how you
want to approach it, and so you like identify it.
But then you just keep repeating that same response. Like
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I just mentioned with my baseball career, right, I was
kind of a people pleaser, and I don't I need
to rephrase that I am. I am a people pleaser,
especially when it came to coaches. Man, I wanted everyone
to like me, so I would I would like kind
of conform to their ideas and perception of me. And
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I spoke a lot about that in the early stages
of my brand, about how you got to like stay
true to who you are. It's a gateway into like
kind of losing your identity and performing worse because I
just I overall think that your performance isn't going to
really be up to standard when you're like kind of inauthentic.
But you can also make the argument in baseball, especially
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as a picture, like going into that alternate persona could
be a value. But I think there's got to be
this subconscious and conscious commonality that you know you're doing it,
because the things that I did is like I was
doing it just out of like habit, like that was
my habitual response. And I did it with my baseball
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career and it's not dope. And I did it with
my brand, my content, my business. I mean, shoot, dude,
even like I did a mechanical screening yesterday and I
used to be able to like do three mechanical screenings
a day. And this was dude, during COVID, Like I
was probably one of a handful of people online that
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was doing remote coaching for like baseball and pitching mechanics.
So during COVID, I would probably have like two or
three remote clients a day, and I would be able
to do them all like in that day. And I
mean I'm talking like enjoy doing them. And it's not
that I don't enjoy doing them now, I actually really do.
And I can say that truthfully and honestly. If there's
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one thing you can take from this podcast is me
being super vulnerable. So everything I'm going to say is
very freaking blunt and honest. So I still do enjoy
doing them. But I did one yesterday and I freaking
had to throw it in the editor, and like I
had to chop up like eight minutes worth of things
because I was like insecure about the things that I
was saying. Like I think maybe two, I've recognized so
(23:09):
many things about me as like a coach, and my
tendencies as a coach and the specific tendencies that I
still have that I think make it harder for the
people that I'm working with. Like I over explain things.
I try to translate things in ninety five different languages,
so I kind of just go into this circle and
(23:31):
probably confuse some people. Again, that goes into that whole
idea of like my overthinking brain right, which is interesting
because I love it, but I know it's not of
great value sometimes, like there's it's kind of like this
fine line right of I understand simplicity is the key
(23:51):
to athletic performance, and like the individuals that I work with,
I don't want them falling into the same bad patterns
that I fell into when I was playing, like at
the in the middle of my career, knowing like how
much I became obsessed with the mechanics of things, and
how much I became obsessed with like perfecting the unperfectible.
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Is that a word? Imperfectible? Is that a word we'll
try again later? You know what I mean? Though, And
it's kind of what I'm doing now, but it's now
it's more based off of like maybe this false perception
that I'm trying to portray. And I think the reality
is with what I do pitching mechanics stuff, coaching baseball right,
(24:39):
like baseball instruction. Dude, it's so subjective, man, And I
think I need to get out of the mindset of like, oh,
I need to be perceived as this all knowing guru,
because that's what's going to make people want to come
and work with me. If I sound smart, if the
words that I use are pristine and the edits that
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they see from me are fancy and attention, you know, like,
that's not it, dude, Like that the goal is the
betterment of the athlete. But I guess it's tricky because
you got to kind of market yourself in that way, right,
because no one's gonna want to work with the guy
that markets himself in a in a minor league way,
you know. So yeah, it's tricky, dude. I think I
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think it's tricky because you're constantly walking the fine line
of like that perfectionism and the authenticness of yourself. Because
I did the screening yesterday and I took like three
hours to chop it up because I was like, Oh,
this isn't going to make sense to them, Like I'm
so worried about it. Back in back in COVID, Dude,
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I would do so many of them, and it was
like I would just take one take say what I
need to say. There was simplicity within it, and I
think I had a lot of good success and it
wasn't like I was taking away from the value of
the product, honestly, Like I put so much time into
the product now, like with my remote coach, in my
analysis and my screens, and it kind of takes away
(26:05):
maybe the joy of it, Like I still get the
joy from working with guys nowadays, because like at the
end of it, like when I'm done with it, I'm
like dang, dude, I have so much pride, Like I'm
so proud of my work here and I think it's
so valuable and I'm like so proud of knowing how
much time and effort I put into the product. And
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the only downside of that is like it took a
lot away from me, or it took a lot out
of me, and I don't want that, Like I don't
want that burnout back in the day. Man. I know,
I hate I really I don't like to use the
word hate, but I very dislike when my brain automatically
gravitates to like when times were smooth, right and things
(26:48):
were what is it easy or efficient? I don't want
to use the word easy, but efficient. And I just
had this more grounded joy over like everything Now I
said to someone, said, whoa, I said this. I'm getting
really hot, guys. I'm probably gonna cut this off here
pretty soon because I am like starting to see stars.
(27:09):
As you can tell, my breath is not locked in
as it should be. But yeah, and it goes into
not even just like my online coaching, but it goes
into like my brand, like my content as well. And
it's because of this notion that like there's so many
people doing it that now for me to stick out
and for me to grab people's attention or for me
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to matter or get noticed or have value or have purpose,
I have to do so many different things. I got
to jump through so many different hoops that I think
over time, it's gotten to the point where, like now,
for me to create content, it does take a lot
out of me, and it over time just gradually burns
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me out. And yeah, I can acknowledge that's that's the
nature of the beast. I mean, content is hard. Content
is hard. I think I had the luxury early on
where not a lot of people were doing it. So
it's like my content. The value of my content, not
the value. I wouldn't say the value, because the value
is very very subjective, right, Like there can be a
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lot of value in a post, but it's not like
the shiniest, flashiest bells and whistles type thing, you know
what I mean. But I didn't have to have that
back then because there just wasn't a whole lot of
people creating content. Now that there is, and now that
people are getting really good at it, and there's advancements
with content creation everywhere, there's platforms that do it for you. Basically,
like now it's like, oh, shoot, for me to matter,
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I got to do all this, and then for me
to do all that, it's like I naturally get burned out.
So I don't know, what do you guys? What do
you guys think? Dude? Like I kind of fall into
this this h question for myself often lately, probably within
the last year or two, like what would my goal be?
Would my goal still kind of be quantity over quality
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or would it be quality over quantity. There's so many
differ diferent things now that I have to kind of
ponder in my mind now that like my brand has
turned into my lifestyle essentially, Right when I was a
baseball player, like I said, it was just more so
that I got to do it as a hobby and
that hobby was a little bit more joyful and it
led into a lot of different things. And obviously, like
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just the way your brain is operated, when you experience
new things, you try new things, you're going to have
a natural positive, more positive outlook mentally towards it. And
then you know, you get your systems dialed in and
then you just kind of repeat and you go through
the monotony of it, which is interesting too because it's
kind of the monotony of the baseball process, you know,
the pitching development that I really enjoyed the monotony of. Like,
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I know this is hard, but it's not hard physically.
It's the same stuff every day, but it's hard mentally.
And I think that's what I'm learning now. It's like
almost I'm relearning it, right, I'm relearning that I just
have to do the things that I know from a
conscious foundation that I don't really want to do. I
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need to do those to then be better equipped to
continuously do them. It's like the thing where it's like,
if you have a decision on to act, to make, like,
to do something, you got to do it within five seconds.
And that's so me, dude, because if I wait more
than five seconds and I start overthinking it, not doing it,
no chance. And then if I if I don't do
that one thing, I'm more than likely not going to
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do the next thing, the next task. And man, if
you've been following me listening to me for a while,
there's one thing that you probably know, and it's I
love like task completion. I love like, dude. Every day
I fill a page of to do's and I maybe
cross like six percent of it off. But I love
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like just checking the boxes. Man, I love that about
the process. Right. This has been fun, dude. I need
to find the stones to like publish this. I think
what is my biggest fear surrounding this? People are going
to see my vulnerability unfollow me, never listen to me again,
ish to me, or talk ish about me towards other people,
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and then I lose my credibility, I lose my my brand.
I get made fun of, like should I not? I
should know? I don't really care about that. I guess
what I do care is like I want to bring value.
I want to I want people to like what I do.
I want people to like me. Yeah, but I also
have to know that like not you know, so subjective.
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Not everyone's gonna have that. Not everyone's gonna want and
they can skip right If you guys weren't feeling this vibe,
you can skip it. Does that mean you'll never listen
to me again? Maybe? Maybe? And that's a fear, but
it's okay, It's okay. Yeah. Man. When I first started
this game, and by game, I mean like my brand,
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like I prided myself on like one takes, you know,
hit record and record, publish, and it was just like
whatever I said, whether I messed up, whether I stuttered,
whether I couldn't figure out a word, whether I had
a long pause, whatever, I was like, let a ride, dude,
this is me. I want to be authentic. There's one
thing that I can hang my hat on at the
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end of the day. It's my authenticity. And I think
I've just kind of slowly gotten away from that just
because of my internal perception of what value looks like.
I think, yeah, that's so good, dude. How about this.
My internal perception of what value looks like is perfectionism.
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But I also consciously understand that perfectionism is unobtainable. But
then I unconsciously recognize that if I don't try to
obtain perfection, then my personal value is limited and restricted.
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Oof Is that the SoundBite? All right? So hey, thank
you guys for listening to my journal. My podcast Journal
Diary log entry number one eleven, twenty six, twenty twenty five,
The Robbie Roshow dot Com slash ask if you listen
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to this and you like, enjoyed it, and you want
more of this raw, unfiltered. I mean, I don't know
what you would have to filter with me. I'm pretty PG,
but I'm gonna be honest with you, dude. If I
wasn't in the sauna blanket at freaking one hundred and
eighty degrees sweating my beans off, I would probably still
be sweating. Because I am this is pretty vulnerable. I'm
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opening up a lot of like these are the things
I already knew, but speaking them into existence. I think
that's the season of life that I am in currently,
or I want to be in, is not just thinking
internal thoughts and recognizing things internally, but actually speaking them
into existence and shining the light on these things so
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I can better move forward. That's good. That's good. Rob Yep.
I'm about to turn thirty four in December, guys, and
I'll tell you what I still feel like. I'm freaking
eighteen and it's crazy, dude. Life just goes by so fast.
What am I doing still talking? I don't know the
Robbie roachhow dot com slash ask if you like this,
(34:14):
if you want more of this stuff, I'm gonna need
you to reach out because I need to show my
subconscious that there's value in this and someone could obtain
value from this, because if not, then I'll probably Yeah,
I mean, if not, I get it a little bit insecure,
and that's it. That's that. I think. The next one
I'll do is a little bit more lighthearted. Next one
I'll do is probably like on the World Series, talk
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about the World Series or the just the playoffs in general.
Such a good fricking postseason. Gosh, so much to talk about.
I mean, I've been doing breakdowns NonStop. So yeah, I'm
also gonna, like I said, throw up some some question
pulls on my Instagram and TikTok for you guys to
ask questions, and I can do some like Q and
A's in here as well. I mean, I sawna every
(34:57):
single day, right, so I can essentially do every single day.
And I miss podcasting, dude, I miss it all right
much love guys until next time, God bless, happy, thanksgiven.
If I don't talk to you till after that, I
hope you have a wonderful day. And my sweat just
I can't hear anything. My sweat is in my ear
(35:18):
and I'm drowning, all right, Love you guys, see you
Hum babe, we uh should be live. We got a
We got a new series for you guys, and by we,
I mean I I have a new series for you guys.
I'm gonna utilize my sauna blanket time in the morning,
sitting inside one hundred and eighty degree burrito rap and
just talk. It's gonna be different than the typical podcasting
(00:21):
you've heard me do in the past. I am going
to be opening up. I'm in a season of vulnerability
now that I am no longer actively pursuing a b
spell dream. But hey, you know other things to life. Today,
my vulnerability is going to start. And again you're gonna
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have to give me like seven maybe to ten minutes
at the start of this episode that you're gonna listen
to once I once I start that for you guys
to listen, it's uh, it takes a while for me
to get going. But again, I got no script, dude,
I got no notes. I'm just freaking turning the mic
on and I'm getting going. So today's episode the overall
theme and again this is probably more so for me
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than it is for you guys to listen to. But
if there's one thing you take away from it. I
would say, it's that, you know, life is hard, man.
You're not always going to have everything figured out and
it's okay, and it's okay. The thing that you can
control is just truly identifying where you're at and what
you want and then putting forth a plan to get there,
(01:21):
you know what I mean. So for me today, it's
going to be talking more so about my content creation
and how I would say that I've kind of lost
my joy, my overall joy around content creation because it's
different now. I started content creation when I was an
active when I was in active pursuit of a baseball dream,
(01:42):
and I would just say the creation of content was
a little bit easier then. I don't know easier. I
don't know if that's the right word, but you know,
and now we're at the season where now it's kind
of my job, it's literally my job, and it's different.
So I'm going to talk through it. You guys can listen,
hope you and I'm going to be doing these, you know,
(02:02):
basically every day now. I mean maybe four times a
week honestly, because that's a lot of talking. I enjoy talking, though,
I enjoy podcasting. And if you guys are listening. I
really appreciate you. Just know you guys can always reach
out the Robber roashow dot com slash ask there's any
things you want me to talk about in podcasts. I
would greatly appreciate any suggestions. I'm also going to be
(02:23):
doing like ig story polls or question poll things and
TikTok has a question pole thing now where I'll start
actively getting people's questions. I'll probably take a few episodes
where I use my question platform to answer questions, do
some Q and a's, and you know, do my part
to help any way I can. But first few episodes.
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I've recorded two of these already and they're just going
to be like my diary, dude, my inner workings of
my mind. If you will, so hope you guys enjoy
as always much love, God bless and I will be
talking to you a lot more if you decide to
listen in on these. Let's get to that first episode.
What do you guys think about this title of this
mini series? The Heat Check Morning Mine Dump from inside
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the sna Bee. It's kind of fire right, all right,
let's get to this first episode, shall we. I'm babe,
I've kind of turned into this hermit. You know, not
gonna lie to you, guys. I've kind of turned into
this hermit since I've gotten I'm never gonna say retired. Nope,
still doesn't feel right. Even just thinking about saying ever
(03:30):
since I retired, it just makes me my stomach hurt.
So I'm not gonna say that. Ever since I stopped
playing baseball, that's a little bit more better. I don't know,
stop doesn't really sound right either. Ever since I've halted, No,
that's not it. Ever since I paused pause sounds kind
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of better. Honestly, I am no longer a active baseball player.
I don't even remember what I was saying. Now my
brain went into a totally different fricking clause of thoughts,
and I don't want to be in that one, so
I'm going to choose a different one. Yeah, Like I said,
this is probably gonna be more so for me, especially
the first round of this. Dude, first round of this,
(04:12):
I'm definitely gonna just nah, dude, I should shock the
world and throw it up. Now, you guys can see
the true in our workings of my brain. I don't
even know who would want to like listen to this.
Some say I have a soothing voice. Though. You know,
what's a good idea is doing this but yeah, and
having some episodes and sometimes where I actually answer questions
(04:33):
and try to help people, but also just using this
to tell some stories. I feel like stories though, like
on podcasts, are always so much more dope when there's
like another person around and this is just me. But
I don't know, maybe maybe I'll do it. I'll start
thinking of some stories. What stories could I tell? I
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have some stories, you know. Honestly, this is just a
really good outlet to tell my story, right. I mean,
I've told my story before, but I feel like my
story is always updating, and there's always things that I
leave out of my story that I think about later
and I'm like, dang, that's good. Yeah I might do that.
So uh huh. Anyways, I got freaking sweat in my ear.
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That's the worst part of it, all right, just to
paint ooh there. It is just to paint a picture
for you guys. So I am on the floor in
a sauna blanket. Shout out higher dose, higher dose sauna blanket.
You can use discount code for Robby Robbie ten. I
think show notes will have I miss podcasting, dude, I
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miss because I put these I put headphones on. I
guess they're EarPods, and I can like hear my voice,
you know, through the through the mic. All right, here's
a story for you guys. I'm on a plane and
I believe I was with doctor Heenan, right, yeah, I
think so, Yeah, I was with Doctoran. I flew from Oakland.
This is when I was living in California. I flew
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from Oakland to Denver. So I met him in Denver
Airport and then we were going to fly to where
I am actually currently living in Stanford, Connecticut, while we
were flying to the Guardia. But anyways, for those of
you guys that know doctor Heenoni his relationship, I don't
want to even call him doctor Hendon. I want to
just call him Josh. For those of you guys that
know Josh AND's relationship, very playful, a lot of banter, right,
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like you know how boys are. And there was this
girl that sat across from me, across from me in
a rope in front of me. Josh and I were
like bantering all plane flight, and finally at the end
when we land, she like turned around and she was
just like, I gotta say, you have such a soothing voice.
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And I'll tell you what, man, I'm a big affirms guy,
you know, like nothing really fires me up more than
a fricking affirmation. But when it comes to my voice
and affirming my voice, oh my gosh, we've reached like
a new level of affirms. Because when I first started
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creating content, and like I first started vlogging and podcasting
all these things, it would grind me, dude, to like
hear my voice, I just did not like it. And
it's not even just my voice per se. I guess
it's more so the way that I talk. And I
got better talking as I started getting more familiar with
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creating content. But I never really liked my voice, Like
even like if my girlfriend watches one of my freaking
edits and the sound is on, like I kind of cringe.
I think most people are like that though, right, I
really haven't met a whole lot of people that love
their voice. But moral of the story is, there are
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still beautiful souls in this world and I'll never ever
forget that compliment. And and I just about freaking lost
it right there on the plane. I mean, honestly, it's
It's just a testament to how frickin dope compliments are
like and how powerful people's words can be. You know, Like, gosh, dude,
think about it. You think that girl that gave me
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that compliment that day, Like, do you even think that
she recalls that moment, because I'm sitting here still reminiscent
about it. And I mean, think about that, right, the
power of what you can say to somebody. And it's
like we talk about how your words matter and how
like you have the power to make someone else's day. Dude,
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she just she had the power to like make my
life better, you know what I mean. Because the reason
I bring this up is because I can hear myself
talking to this mic right now. And my initial reaction
was kind of like shut it down, don't talk anymore.
But then I like remembered that because I was also
like in the state of mind where I was thinking
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about stories to tell, because I do enjoy telling stories,
and I thought of that one, and I was like,
oh my gosh, that's so dense. I like that word.
It's so powerful though, you know, and it does put
me in a way better mindset kind of approaching my day.
And that's just another reason why I want to do
these little mini pod solo Johnson's in the morning, just
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talking random nonsense. I think it's a win win. I mean,
I gotta stop caring about like the views, man, and
I gotta stop. I mean, yeah, they're nice things to
care about in terms of the performance of my content
and the metrics. But I gotta be honest with you guys.
This is a great outlet to speak into my vulnerability
(09:54):
phase because I gotta be honest. Man. I started creating
content because I saw a need for it. I've always
kind of felt like this responsibility to give back what
the game has kind of taught me, and obviously like
having a big league father and having that lifestyle ever
since I was born, of just being on the road
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and living out of a suitcase, and just all of
the little intangibles that like professional baseball can teach you,
and just not even just professional baseball, just baseball in general, man,
just being a game of built on failure, you know.
And I always felt that sense of responsibility to kind
of like shine light on it and encourage and use
(10:37):
a platform I guess, but I started. I started creating
it with like no real monetization value in mind. I mean,
I think if I can recall, like, was it twenty
eighteen January of twenty eighteen when I first was like,
all right, I'm doing a podcast, Like I know, I know,
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I know. I don't know how to do it. I
don't know what that looks like. I don't know how
to set it up. I don't know any of the
things that go into it. But I know, I just
I'm going to do it. And like I said, it
wasn't like, oh, I need to do it because I
need to like make a few extra bucks here and there. Again,
this was twenty eighteen, so like podcasts were just starting
to become pretty mainstream content in general hadn't really taken
(11:24):
off yet. And I'm not just sitting here saying that
I'm a pioneer in this content space. I mean you
could say that if you wanted to, but there was
no real like ooh, this is going to be like
my lifestyle, this is going to be what's like my job.
It was honestly just because I thought it was so fun, man,
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I thought it was so fun, Like even just the
idea of like what I say matters, you know, and
like what I post about or what I talk about,
like people want to listen to that. It's that idea,
I guess, you know, obviously the foundation of just purpose, right,
anytime someone has a sense of like purpose, but it's
it's kind of like an oblivious sense of purpose too,
(12:07):
because I remember I started my podcast, dude, and like,
I'd be so stoked if like I got twenty downloads,
because I was like, wow, that's twenty people, dude, twenty
people probably fifteen if you exclude my family that want
to hear what I'm talking about. That's so dope. And
these are back in the days where I would like
go ig live and I would just hang out with people.
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My red light just turned off, so that that kind
of like made my heart sink a little bit. I
got scared. That was back when it was just like
I love you know, I'd go live and I'd get
like ten people watching me eat freaking ketogenic one meal
a days, a bunch of steak. You know, it's funny.
People still talk about that. It's amazing. But even back then,
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it was like the motive, right, the purpose of what
I was doing. It's like so different now, and it's
like different, but it's not weird. I don't know how
am I going to explain this all? Right? Back then,
it was like I kind of just I just enjoyed
the fact that we had the tools available to do it,
like go live and literally just like have a meal
(13:15):
or be eating a meal with people from like all
over the world that just cared to tune in. And
then I think the other aspect of it too back
then was that there wasn't a lot of people creating content.
I remember feeling like almost almost a sense of responsibility
because there wasn't a whole lot of people in the
space of like baseball that was doing like content obviously
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pertaining to baseball, but also just pertaining to like overall
human optimization, right, like nutrition, sleep, training, diet, like all that,
And so I was like, ooh, this is me, Like
I gotta fill that space. And I think what happened
along with a couple other things too that I'll probably
try to dive into just honestly for my sake if
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you guys want to listen, great, but this is like
my personal diary therapy session. I think what happened was
I felt a sense of value from being like one
of the few that was doing it. And I think
over time, right, like especially after COVID, where people were
like ooh, content, content content. Now I feel like everyone's
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creating and everyone's talking and everyone has this voice online
that I just I guess I kind of felt watered down,
you know, like I felt like it wasn't as purposeful
or wasn't as valuable. And when I say it, I
mean like I you know, like now that there's so
many other voices out there, I feel like, Okay, I
don't need to do it, or I feel like people
(14:42):
don't want me to do it. That's that's probably some
insecurities there at the baseline level, right, and that's okay.
But yeah, I mean now, I guess the way I
approach things now is for some reason, I fell into
this mindset of like, okay, now this is my job.
I know why I fell into the mindset. Like I said,
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I stopped playing baseball. Baseball was like always my number one.
So it was like I had this and agin like
later in my career, I didn't make a lot of
money playing baseball, but it was like my brain knew
that that was my job, and then everything else I
did aside from baseball was just like a hobby. So
I was going to gravitate towards things that my brain
enjoyed and got dopamine over right, So that fell into
(15:24):
the category of podcasting creating content. And I think it's
easy to Yeah, that's probably that's probably true. It's the
same notion in baseball too. It's like when you don't care,
when it like doesn't matter your like performance. Maybe this
isn't for everyone, but I know a lot of people
like this. The ones that care so much perform a
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little bit worse than the ones that don't care at all,
because it just frees you up, dude, right, so much
more freedom in that. And it's it's not this I
have to, it's I get to. And I think that
is the overall reason on which why I am laying
on my living room turf pad speaking into a microphone
(16:11):
while I'm in a heated sauna blanket with a which
was a red light on my head, but now it's
turned off because I need to get back to that
state of like, oh, I get to do all this right,
Like it doesn't matter if everyone else is doing it.
What matters is like I get to do it. And
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what I was going to say earlier was that once
I stopped playing baseball, this now, right, like my brand
became like my job. And man, I mean, I'm just
sitting here talking through all this, and you guys got
to know about me. I am a thinker, dude. I overthink.
It's probably why I wasn't as good as I wanted
(16:54):
to be in baseball. And that's okay. But I love thinking.
I love overanalyzing. I love overthinking. It's what I find
joy in. So I think a lot on these things, man,
Like why all of a sudden do I feel like
this responsibility but not responsibility like I was mentioning earlier,
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Like this responsibility like almost this burden, Like I have
to do these things, and then if I don't like,
my quality of life goes down and I don't enjoy
it as much because now it's the thing that I
have to do, Whereas when I just got to do
it right, like when I got to speak and post
it online, it was so much more joyful. So I
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need to get back to that. I mean, I guess
the implementation is just doing it right. Oh and the
other thing I was going to say was I started
carrying a lot more about like my viewer's perception of
me when I first started, dude, and this is just
me as a character. Like my personality, I've never really
(18:00):
cared about what other people think of me. I've always
been very loud, obnoxious, exuberant, some would say flamboyant, and
I love that about me. I still love that about me,
and I never cared what other people thought. And I
think when I stopped playing baseball and this became my job, subconsciously,
(18:23):
I had to start caring about other people's perception because
in reality, it's like that perception that's going to make
me more valuable. Right, So that makes sense. Dude, thank
you guys for letting me talk this out. This is
super dope. That makes sense. I think. I don't think
that's ever something that you can just identify it and
it goes away. I think it's something that you just
(18:45):
work on every single day by just putting yourself in
the environment, right, Like I'm putting myself in this environment
by speaking in to this microphone to where people can listen,
and I need to continuously reassure this notion of like
I don't care, I'm gonna put it out there. I'm
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gonna put it out into the world and like, let's
do it right. I think somewhere along the way, I
got trapped into thinking like, oh if I put out
one piece of content that someone either like, doesn't agree
with or thinks I'm a fool or it doesn't value
what I am saying, like almost that timidness tibbot whoa man.
Words are hard, timidness, over failing. But it's not like
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it's a subjective failing, you know what I mean? Because
everyone's so freaking subjective towards their opinions, and I think
I just tried to start pleasing everyone. Dude. I mean
that's the same freaking theme that I had throughout my
almost entire baseball career. Oh go sweating my ear glands.
The sauna blanket gets hot, Dude. I like it a lot.
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And another good thing about just podcasting is, dude, I'm
I'm getting like a full sauna session. Sometimes I'd get
anxious around minute twenty and I usually want to stay
in here for thirty to forty five. That's when body
activates to eat shock proteins. Now, this is good. I
think there's a lot of lessons learned here. What's really
(20:12):
frustrating for me personally, And I don't know how you
guys are about this stuff, but like, you go through
your life, right, and you kind of you go through
experiences and you know you fail or whatever, you just experience, right,
and you kind of figure out who you are in
that process, and you kind of figure out how you
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typically cope with things or how you typically approach certain experiences,
and the way you see yourself approaching those isn't necessarily
what you want to approach it like or how you
want to approach it, and so you like identify it.
But then you just keep repeating that same response. Like
(20:55):
I just mentioned with my baseball career, right, I was
kind of a people pleaser, and I don't I need
to rephrase that I am. I am a people pleaser,
especially when it came to coaches. Man, I wanted everyone
to like me, so I would I would like kind
of conform to their ideas and perception of me. And
(21:17):
I spoke a lot about that in the early stages
of my brand, about how you got to like stay
true to who you are. It's a gateway into like
kind of losing your identity and performing worse because I
just I overall think that your performance isn't going to
really be up to standard when you're like kind of inauthentic.
But you can also make the argument in baseball, especially
(21:38):
as a picture, like going into that alternate persona could
be a value. But I think there's got to be
this subconscious and conscious commonality that you know you're doing it,
because the things that I did is like I was
doing it just out of like habit, like that was
my habitual response. And I did it with my baseball
(22:00):
career and it's not dope. And I did it with
my brand, my content, my business. I mean, shoot, dude,
even like I did a mechanical screening yesterday and I
used to be able to like do three mechanical screenings
a day. And this was dude, during COVID, Like I
was probably one of a handful of people online that
(22:25):
was doing remote coaching for like baseball and pitching mechanics.
So during COVID, I would probably have like two or
three remote clients a day, and I would be able
to do them all like in that day. And I
mean I'm talking like enjoy doing them. And it's not
that I don't enjoy doing them now, I actually really do.
And I can say that truthfully and honestly. If there's
(22:46):
one thing you can take from this podcast is me
being super vulnerable. So everything I'm going to say is
very freaking blunt and honest. So I still do enjoy
doing them. But I did one yesterday and I freaking
had to throw it in the editor, and like I
had to chop up like eight minutes worth of things
because I was like insecure about the things that I
was saying. Like I think maybe two, I've recognized so
(23:09):
many things about me as like a coach, and my
tendencies as a coach and the specific tendencies that I
still have that I think make it harder for the
people that I'm working with. Like I over explain things.
I try to translate things in ninety five different languages,
so I kind of just go into this circle and
(23:31):
probably confuse some people. Again, that goes into that whole
idea of like my overthinking brain right, which is interesting
because I love it, but I know it's not of
great value sometimes, like there's it's kind of like this
fine line right of I understand simplicity is the key
(23:51):
to athletic performance, and like the individuals that I work with,
I don't want them falling into the same bad patterns
that I fell into when I was playing, like at
the in the middle of my career, knowing like how
much I became obsessed with the mechanics of things, and
how much I became obsessed with like perfecting the unperfectible.
(24:13):
Is that a word? Imperfectible? Is that a word we'll
try again later? You know what I mean? Though, And
it's kind of what I'm doing now, but it's now
it's more based off of like maybe this false perception
that I'm trying to portray. And I think the reality
is with what I do pitching mechanics stuff, coaching baseball right,
(24:39):
like baseball instruction. Dude, it's so subjective, man, And I
think I need to get out of the mindset of like, oh,
I need to be perceived as this all knowing guru,
because that's what's going to make people want to come
and work with me. If I sound smart, if the
words that I use are pristine and the edits that
(25:00):
they see from me are fancy and attention, you know, like,
that's not it, dude, Like that the goal is the
betterment of the athlete. But I guess it's tricky because
you got to kind of market yourself in that way, right,
because no one's gonna want to work with the guy
that markets himself in a in a minor league way,
you know. So yeah, it's tricky, dude. I think I
(25:20):
think it's tricky because you're constantly walking the fine line
of like that perfectionism and the authenticness of yourself. Because
I did the screening yesterday and I took like three
hours to chop it up because I was like, Oh,
this isn't going to make sense to them, Like I'm
so worried about it. Back in back in COVID, Dude,
(25:42):
I would do so many of them, and it was
like I would just take one take say what I
need to say. There was simplicity within it, and I
think I had a lot of good success and it
wasn't like I was taking away from the value of
the product, honestly, Like I put so much time into
the product now, like with my remote coach, in my
analysis and my screens, and it kind of takes away
(26:05):
maybe the joy of it, Like I still get the
joy from working with guys nowadays, because like at the
end of it, like when I'm done with it, I'm
like dang, dude, I have so much pride, Like I'm
so proud of my work here and I think it's
so valuable and I'm like so proud of knowing how
much time and effort I put into the product. And
(26:26):
the only downside of that is like it took a
lot away from me, or it took a lot out
of me, and I don't want that, Like I don't
want that burnout back in the day. Man. I know,
I hate I really I don't like to use the
word hate, but I very dislike when my brain automatically
gravitates to like when times were smooth, right and things
(26:48):
were what is it easy or efficient? I don't want
to use the word easy, but efficient. And I just
had this more grounded joy over like everything Now I
said to someone, said, whoa, I said this. I'm getting
really hot, guys. I'm probably gonna cut this off here
pretty soon because I am like starting to see stars.
(27:09):
As you can tell, my breath is not locked in
as it should be. But yeah, and it goes into
not even just like my online coaching, but it goes
into like my brand, like my content as well. And
it's because of this notion that like there's so many
people doing it that now for me to stick out
and for me to grab people's attention or for me
(27:31):
to matter or get noticed or have value or have purpose,
I have to do so many different things. I got
to jump through so many different hoops that I think
over time, it's gotten to the point where, like now,
for me to create content, it does take a lot
out of me, and it over time just gradually burns
(27:53):
me out. And yeah, I can acknowledge that's that's the
nature of the beast. I mean, content is hard. Content
is hard. I think I had the luxury early on
where not a lot of people were doing it. So
it's like my content. The value of my content, not
the value. I wouldn't say the value, because the value
is very very subjective, right, Like there can be a
(28:15):
lot of value in a post, but it's not like
the shiniest, flashiest bells and whistles type thing, you know
what I mean. But I didn't have to have that
back then because there just wasn't a whole lot of
people creating content. Now that there is, and now that
people are getting really good at it, and there's advancements
with content creation everywhere, there's platforms that do it for you. Basically,
like now it's like, oh, shoot, for me to matter,
(28:36):
I got to do all this, and then for me
to do all that, it's like I naturally get burned out.
So I don't know, what do you guys? What do
you guys think? Dude? Like I kind of fall into
this this h question for myself often lately, probably within
the last year or two, like what would my goal be?
Would my goal still kind of be quantity over quality
(28:57):
or would it be quality over quantity. There's so many
differ diferent things now that I have to kind of
ponder in my mind now that like my brand has
turned into my lifestyle essentially, Right when I was a
baseball player, like I said, it was just more so
that I got to do it as a hobby and
that hobby was a little bit more joyful and it
led into a lot of different things. And obviously, like
(29:18):
just the way your brain is operated, when you experience
new things, you try new things, you're going to have
a natural positive, more positive outlook mentally towards it. And
then you know, you get your systems dialed in and
then you just kind of repeat and you go through
the monotony of it, which is interesting too because it's
kind of the monotony of the baseball process, you know,
the pitching development that I really enjoyed the monotony of. Like,
(29:40):
I know this is hard, but it's not hard physically.
It's the same stuff every day, but it's hard mentally.
And I think that's what I'm learning now. It's like
almost I'm relearning it, right, I'm relearning that I just
have to do the things that I know from a
conscious foundation that I don't really want to do. I
(30:01):
need to do those to then be better equipped to
continuously do them. It's like the thing where it's like,
if you have a decision on to act, to make, like,
to do something, you got to do it within five seconds.
And that's so me, dude, because if I wait more
than five seconds and I start overthinking it, not doing it,
no chance. And then if I if I don't do
that one thing, I'm more than likely not going to
(30:21):
do the next thing, the next task. And man, if
you've been following me listening to me for a while,
there's one thing that you probably know, and it's I
love like task completion. I love like, dude. Every day
I fill a page of to do's and I maybe
cross like six percent of it off. But I love
(30:42):
like just checking the boxes. Man, I love that about
the process. Right. This has been fun, dude. I need
to find the stones to like publish this. I think
what is my biggest fear surrounding this? People are going
to see my vulnerability unfollow me, never listen to me again,
ish to me, or talk ish about me towards other people,
(31:04):
and then I lose my credibility, I lose my my brand.
I get made fun of, like should I not? I
should know? I don't really care about that. I guess
what I do care is like I want to bring value.
I want to I want people to like what I do.
I want people to like me. Yeah, but I also
have to know that like not you know, so subjective.
(31:24):
Not everyone's gonna have that. Not everyone's gonna want and
they can skip right If you guys weren't feeling this vibe,
you can skip it. Does that mean you'll never listen
to me again? Maybe? Maybe? And that's a fear, but
it's okay, It's okay. Yeah. Man. When I first started
this game, and by game, I mean like my brand,
(31:45):
like I prided myself on like one takes, you know,
hit record and record, publish, and it was just like
whatever I said, whether I messed up, whether I stuttered,
whether I couldn't figure out a word, whether I had
a long pause, whatever, I was like, let a ride, dude,
this is me. I want to be authentic. There's one
thing that I can hang my hat on at the
(32:05):
end of the day. It's my authenticity. And I think
I've just kind of slowly gotten away from that just
because of my internal perception of what value looks like.
I think, yeah, that's so good, dude. How about this.
My internal perception of what value looks like is perfectionism.
(32:26):
But I also consciously understand that perfectionism is unobtainable. But
then I unconsciously recognize that if I don't try to
obtain perfection, then my personal value is limited and restricted.
(32:48):
Oof Is that the SoundBite? All right? So hey, thank
you guys for listening to my journal. My podcast Journal
Diary log entry number one eleven, twenty six, twenty twenty five,
The Robbie Roshow dot Com slash ask if you listen
(33:08):
to this and you like, enjoyed it, and you want
more of this raw, unfiltered. I mean, I don't know
what you would have to filter with me. I'm pretty PG,
but I'm gonna be honest with you, dude. If I
wasn't in the sauna blanket at freaking one hundred and
eighty degrees sweating my beans off, I would probably still
be sweating. Because I am this is pretty vulnerable. I'm
(33:30):
opening up a lot of like these are the things
I already knew, but speaking them into existence. I think
that's the season of life that I am in currently,
or I want to be in, is not just thinking
internal thoughts and recognizing things internally, but actually speaking them
into existence and shining the light on these things so
(33:51):
I can better move forward. That's good. That's good. Rob Yep.
I'm about to turn thirty four in December, guys, and
I'll tell you what I still feel like. I'm freaking
eighteen and it's crazy, dude. Life just goes by so fast.
What am I doing still talking? I don't know the
Robbie roachhow dot com slash ask if you like this,
(34:14):
if you want more of this stuff, I'm gonna need
you to reach out because I need to show my
subconscious that there's value in this and someone could obtain
value from this, because if not, then I'll probably Yeah,
I mean, if not, I get it a little bit insecure,
and that's it. That's that. I think. The next one
I'll do is a little bit more lighthearted. Next one
I'll do is probably like on the World Series, talk
(34:35):
about the World Series or the just the playoffs in general.
Such a good fricking postseason. Gosh, so much to talk about.
I mean, I've been doing breakdowns NonStop. So yeah, I'm
also gonna, like I said, throw up some some question
pulls on my Instagram and TikTok for you guys to
ask questions, and I can do some like Q and
A's in here as well. I mean, I sawna every
(34:57):
single day, right, so I can essentially do every single day.
And I miss podcasting, dude, I miss it all right
much love guys until next time, God bless, happy, thanksgiven.
If I don't talk to you till after that, I
hope you have a wonderful day. And my sweat just
I can't hear anything. My sweat is in my ear
(35:18):
and I'm drowning, all right, Love you guys, see you
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