March 14, 2025 • 22 mins
After a long break, The Mariah Effect is back! In this episode, I open up about why I stepped away, what made it hard to come back, and why now feels like the perfect time to return. From struggling with technical issues and self-doubt to managing my health while working part-time, it’s been a lot. But after another transplant and a new diagnosis of partial remission (!!), I’m stronger, working full-time again, and ready to make this podcast sustainable in a whole new way.
I’m sharing what’s been going on behind the scenes, how I’m structuring things differently this time, and what you can expect from Season 3. If you’ve been here since the beginning—thank you for sticking with me. If you’re new—welcome! I can’t wait for what’s ahead.
Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-mariah-effect--5832015/support.
I’m sharing what’s been going on behind the scenes, how I’m structuring things differently this time, and what you can expect from Season 3. If you’ve been here since the beginning—thank you for sticking with me. If you’re new—welcome! I can’t wait for what’s ahead.
Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-mariah-effect--5832015/support.
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Speaker 1 (00:23):
Hey, everybody, Welcome back to the Mariah Effect podcast. I'm
Mariah and let's dig in. So it's been a little
bit of time and I have a lot of explaining
to do. But first of all, I want to say
that I have tried and tried and tried to record
(00:46):
something to come back to this podcast for honestly, the
last five months or so, like I've wanted to start
things up again, at the very least since Chris time,
maybe even a little earlier than that, maybe like Thanksgiving time,
because you know, I feel like I put so much
(01:09):
effort and energy into figuring this out and getting a
domain for my brand and all of that stuff for
me to just throw it away because I'm having a
hard time with listening to my own voice or insecurities
or anything like that, or you know, just feeling overwhelmed,
and to just throw it all away is too much
(01:32):
for me to I think bear honestly, and so I've
been having this feeling for a while. I've been wanting
to get this back up. I've gone in and redone
the website to fit more in line with my capabilities today,
and I am in a position where I finally have
(01:53):
a good schedule set for myself for work, and so
I think that this is about as stable of an
environment as I'll ever get, because wouldn't you know that
life just keeps throwing curveballs at me. But anyway, I
am really, really, really thankful to anybody who listened to
(02:16):
me before and has waited patiently or impatiently for this
to get started back up again. But I just want
to say thank you and thank you so much for
supporting me and being there for me even when I
haven't been able to really say that. I think that
(02:39):
I want to address a couple of things in this episode.
It's going to be less talking about you know, fun
silly things and stories and things like that that is
the basis of the podcast.
Speaker 2 (02:52):
This is kind of going to be a.
Speaker 1 (02:55):
Mariah's life update episode as well as kind of diving
into a little bit of diving into a little bit
of my life and kind of an explanation on some
things that are that I feel like I have to explain,
(03:18):
like the reasons why, and that's again not really an
excuse necessarily, but it is giving background information that I
think people just don't really have and maybe it's just
me overthinking things and thinking that people are reacting a
certain way or what have you, but I want to
(03:43):
give more context to that.
Speaker 2 (03:45):
So life.
Speaker 1 (03:49):
The last time that I posted anything was an episode
that I did with Lucas, and so when we did
that episode, everything with my laptop was fine and everything
was ready set to go and start the podcast again,
and then things just.
Speaker 2 (04:08):
Kind of spiraled.
Speaker 1 (04:09):
I got these microphones so that I could do episodes
with people a little bit easier in person and actually
be able to record. I didn't understand how those worked
when I got them, and it just kind of fell apart.
It went from I don't understand how they're going to work,
(04:29):
to oh, it'll only record on one track, which is
not for the best for me, to their not working
at all. And then so we recorded an entire episode
Meet Lucas and Mallory where they did kind of a.
Speaker 2 (04:49):
Who knows Me better sort of game.
Speaker 1 (04:52):
We did the whole thing, thought it was recording the
whole time, it wasn't. So after that happened, I was
a little disheartened and didn't know what to post, and
I felt like nobody cared if I did post on
time because of like the number of viewers for the
last episodes, and then my computer just took a huge
(05:16):
crap all over me.
Speaker 2 (05:17):
It's decided.
Speaker 1 (05:19):
The screen stopped working, and so then I had to
figure out something else to do for that. So then
I started working on another screen, and it just was
a little too overwhelming to do editing and stuff like
that on a computer that wasn't working properly. And then
my cousin sent me a laptop, which came after Halloween
(05:44):
is when I got that, and I just like every
single time I thought, okay, let me record an episode,
I would get in front of the mic, I would
record something to be like, hey, welcome back, and I
would listen to myself and just be so disgusted and
annoyed with myself and frustrated because I had been out
(06:09):
of editing my own voice.
Speaker 2 (06:11):
For so long.
Speaker 1 (06:12):
And there's just so many things that I'm sure everyone
feels this way, or at least most people feel this way,
where like, you listen to yourself do things that you
don't recognize you were doing when you were speaking, and
it's little ticks or littles stems or whatever that that
(06:35):
you just naturally do when you talk, which is fine
for everyday conversation normally speaking, but I want to come
across as somebody who is a little bit more put
together in speaking. And even though I have valuable things
to say and I know that about myself, I don't
(06:57):
want people to disregard that because of the w that
I'm speaking, which maybe I should just get over. But
I want to be able to present myself in a
better way than sometimes I talk. So it's just so
frustrating to try and figure that out and work through
(07:17):
those insecurities or what have you. But that being said,
I've re recorded this so many times since then with
my new laptop. Finally I have a new microphone, and
I was like, let me just sit down and talk.
And so I've done this so many times, and every
single time I just get off topic. For sure, it
(07:43):
is so crazy, but I think I finally have organized
my thoughts to be able to talk about this. So
that is a little bit of an explanation on why
things stopped in the first place and kind of why
they haven't started back up. I also, you know, for
(08:03):
a lot of that time, my health was kind of
this crazy fluctuation of like feeling perfectly fine to having
no energy whatsoever, which is not new at all, but
it was a little bit more on the extreme side.
It did feel a little bit like you know when
(08:25):
people talk about mania versus like depression. It was like that,
but in like like physically within my body. I felt
like I would have these highs where I'd be like, yes,
let me make a dinner for everyone in the neighborhood,
and then I would transition into I can't even get
(08:47):
out of bed, I can't even take a shower, and
struggling with those things on top of struggling with other
things going on in my life. It just again, it
was just too much. And I think that a lot
of people might be wondering why I wouldn't continue with
(09:11):
updating people online, like with the blog and stuff, and
I just got to a point where I just didn't
even know what to say because I felt embarrassed about
not posting podcast episodes. I felt annoyed that I couldn't
do that, and I didn't want everybody to see those
negative emotions, which is so silly because the whole point
(09:33):
of this is to show all of me, and that's
the good and the bad. But I just felt embarrassed,
I think is the main reason, and posting updates about
my health on Facebook has been really difficult for me
because I don't I get overwhelmed with the number of
(09:55):
people that respond. I get sad when not a lot
of people respond. It's just so silly and so.
Speaker 2 (10:04):
Ridiculous.
Speaker 1 (10:05):
But I think my mom was taking care of that
for me, really, like letting people know how I was
and stuff, which obviously not everybody that listens to the
podcast are people that are in my family or friends
of my mom. So the updates on that, let's dive
(10:26):
into that, and let's see. In November, I think is
when I kind of found out that there was somebody
who was willing to be a donor for me. I
kind of got like official clarification of that in December
the beginning of December, and part of me was kind
(10:50):
of nervous and kind of scared about the whole thing,
and so I said that I would rather, you know,
push things until January, if possible, after Christmas and things
like that, just so that way I wouldn't have to
worry about it necessarily during that time and and or
(11:12):
have you know, people to take care of me. But
I ended up having another stem cell transplant at the
beginning of January, and it was so wonderful and so amazing,
and leading up to it after the holidays, I just
(11:33):
had this crazy feeling in like my heart of hearts
that it was going to work out, that it was
going to be okay. And I can't even describe it
necessarily because it's it's just so it was like an
innate sense that I had, And I can think of
(11:56):
some reasons why possibly or things that I've given to
that feeling, which were a lot of job opportunities that
were coming up for me and quite a number of
exciting things that I want to do this upcoming year.
I got a sense of like kind of like a
five year plan that I wanted to put in place,
(12:17):
even with everything going on and not knowing if I
was going to make it for five years.
Speaker 2 (12:22):
But I've been.
Speaker 1 (12:24):
On pause for so long with all of this going on,
and you know, even before this, I felt like my
life was on pause. Well, once I decided that I
wanted to have a plan, this fell into my lap,
this transplant, and so I was like, that has to
(12:46):
be for a reason, like whatever anybody believes. I'm not
very religious, but I kept thinking, this has to be
for a reason. There's no way I'm being offered all
of these job opportunities and this amazing plan that I
have just for it to not happen, Like life can
be cruel, but like that would be pushing it, you
(13:08):
know what I mean. So I definitely got things figured out,
put together and decided that I was going to do
this transplant and that in the after I wasn't going
(13:31):
to even give it the possibility that it wasn't going
to work. Obviously, there were low moments when I physically
couldn't do certain things because of the transplant, but I
felt very strongly that this was going to work and
that I and that I just needed to kind of
(13:56):
believe in it. And so, after long process of recovery
and dealing with all sorts of drawbacks to dealing with
my health afterwards, as of Valentine's Day twenty twenty five,
(14:17):
I am in partial remission, which means a lot of things,
but the main takeaway is that this is incredible news.
It means that the cancer is pretty much in some
ways considered dormant in my body, which means that no
(14:38):
new cancer cells are growing, the ones that I have
are dwindling. It's all good things, And so for right now,
I'm on the road to being healthy again. And so
with that I'm doing, I'm working full time again. I
am putting all of energy into getting back my strength physically.
(15:06):
And I think that with all of this that happened
with the cancer diagnosis, with all the ups and downs
and turns over the last three years almost I think
that what it's done for me is created more growth
(15:27):
for me emotionally because of all the self reflection time
that I had and all of the amazing, wonderful alone
time that just forced me to kind of think. I mean,
(15:48):
obviously I watched TV to try to get my mind
off things, but like, there's only so much that you
can do to get your mind off of something that's
happening inside.
Speaker 2 (15:58):
Of your body. So I think with all of that,
I am.
Speaker 1 (16:04):
In a lot of ways grateful for it, and I
think that it's put me in a better position. I
definitely have so much to be thankful for. I mean,
there's so many new people in my life because this happened.
In some ways, like I reconnected with Jason, we started
this podcast because of it. He connected me to Abby
(16:27):
who's now my boss, and just the most amazing person
who connected me to Jylyth, who is my other boss,
who is just so incredible and so loving and so
sweet and is just there for me whenever, and even
(16:48):
by extension through that, just so many other people that
I've met through Jaylyth too. Now it's just it's it's
wonderful and it's amazing. And now that the like fear
and the you know, the urgency of my situation is
less slash disappearing, I think that I just have nothing
(17:14):
but good feelings about it all.
Speaker 2 (17:17):
And that's crazy.
Speaker 1 (17:20):
Like me from two and a half years ago when
I got the diagnosis, like I just was so miserable.
Speaker 2 (17:26):
I was so disheartened. I thought, you know, this is it.
Speaker 1 (17:30):
I had kind of a throw my hands up in
the air attitude about it and just like of course,
of course I would get cancer, Like of course. And
now I'm looking back on it and I'm like, I'm
kind of glad that I went through that, you know.
Speaker 2 (17:50):
So it's it's definitely different.
Speaker 1 (17:53):
It's definitely like a weird thing to say, for sure.
But my main takeaway is that it's been good for
me to go through this. And I think that regardless
of what happens in the future. Regardless of where this goes,
I think that this was good for me, at least
(18:15):
emotionally to deal with. I mean, I'm in therapy now
going through things. I am feeling good about my jobs,
Like there are jobs that I actually treasure, that I'm
actually doing good creative work within, and that I'm actually
appreciated for, which is the real kicker. But yeah, it's incredible,
(18:39):
It's amazing, and I'm so happy to be a part
of it.
Speaker 2 (18:42):
I think that.
Speaker 1 (18:45):
Where this will lead to I don't know for sure.
I don't know what that means for my future within
like my career necessarily, but it all looks good to
me now. And of course I have plans and goals,
and we'll get into that on another episode because I'd
(19:05):
love to share. But yeah, I think that this is
a good kind of like introduction back into things. I'm
going to call this season three, even though I definitely
don't have enough episodes to even really say that there
was a season one. But I mean, who makes those rules, really,
I don't think anybody is there counting episodes necessarily, But yeah,
(19:31):
so this is going to be season three. I hope
to have more conversations with different people, with people that
I've talked to already before. I think that there's a
lot of things that are happening right now in my
life that are going to be good to kind of
vent to you guys about.
Speaker 2 (19:52):
And like I.
Speaker 1 (19:54):
Said, the Patreon, I kind of refreshed it a little bit,
things up, changed it around. I'm actually gonna post to
that again. And the website has a new refresh, a
new look to it. That's the dash Mariah dash effect
(20:18):
dot Com, which I'm going to be posting blogs too
on Saturdays, like was the intention before, and that's gonna
be every Saturday, and then episodes are going to be
coming out on Tuesdays and Fridays at seven am so
that people can listen to it on the way to
work or on the way home if they feel like it.
Speaker 2 (20:40):
But that's the plan.
Speaker 1 (20:43):
And I think what I'm gonna do is that if
there's any episodes that won't be posting because of you.
Speaker 2 (20:52):
Know, whatever reason, I'm gonna.
Speaker 1 (20:56):
Update and say that they won't be being posted instead
of just not hosting, so that I can be a
little bit more predictable with that. So I again just
want to say thank you to everybody that's listening, everybody
that was listening, everybody that supported me through money or
love or whatever like. This has been such an interesting
(21:20):
experience and I'm so grateful to everyone for helping out.
If you want to help out more, I am working
full time again, but I'm not I haven't been paid
for full time work just quite yet, and I also
have some other plans that I want to do in
(21:41):
regards to the podcast itself, and I still have tons
and tons and tons.
Speaker 2 (21:46):
Of medical debt, so.
Speaker 1 (21:50):
If you want to support me that way, I also
have links to my GoFundMe on the website as well
as on most of my social media, so if you can,
if you've already thank you so much, I would really
appreciate it, and I do really appreciate it. But that
is all for today, so please tune in on Tuesday
(22:13):
for the next episode.
Speaker 2 (22:15):
Can't wait to Talk.
Speaker 1 (22:17):
Bye,
Hey, everybody, Welcome back to the Mariah Effect podcast. I'm
Mariah and let's dig in. So it's been a little
bit of time and I have a lot of explaining
to do. But first of all, I want to say
that I have tried and tried and tried to record
(00:46):
something to come back to this podcast for honestly, the
last five months or so, like I've wanted to start
things up again, at the very least since Chris time,
maybe even a little earlier than that, maybe like Thanksgiving time,
because you know, I feel like I put so much
(01:09):
effort and energy into figuring this out and getting a
domain for my brand and all of that stuff for
me to just throw it away because I'm having a
hard time with listening to my own voice or insecurities
or anything like that, or you know, just feeling overwhelmed,
and to just throw it all away is too much
(01:32):
for me to I think bear honestly, and so I've
been having this feeling for a while. I've been wanting
to get this back up. I've gone in and redone
the website to fit more in line with my capabilities today,
and I am in a position where I finally have
(01:53):
a good schedule set for myself for work, and so
I think that this is about as stable of an
environment as I'll ever get, because wouldn't you know that
life just keeps throwing curveballs at me. But anyway, I
am really, really, really thankful to anybody who listened to
(02:16):
me before and has waited patiently or impatiently for this
to get started back up again. But I just want
to say thank you and thank you so much for
supporting me and being there for me even when I
haven't been able to really say that. I think that
(02:39):
I want to address a couple of things in this episode.
It's going to be less talking about you know, fun
silly things and stories and things like that that is
the basis of the podcast.
Speaker 2 (02:52):
This is kind of going to be a.
Speaker 1 (02:55):
Mariah's life update episode as well as kind of diving
into a little bit of diving into a little bit
of my life and kind of an explanation on some
things that are that I feel like I have to explain,
(03:18):
like the reasons why, and that's again not really an
excuse necessarily, but it is giving background information that I
think people just don't really have and maybe it's just
me overthinking things and thinking that people are reacting a
certain way or what have you, but I want to
(03:43):
give more context to that.
Speaker 2 (03:45):
So life.
Speaker 1 (03:49):
The last time that I posted anything was an episode
that I did with Lucas, and so when we did
that episode, everything with my laptop was fine and everything
was ready set to go and start the podcast again,
and then things just.
Speaker 2 (04:08):
Kind of spiraled.
Speaker 1 (04:09):
I got these microphones so that I could do episodes
with people a little bit easier in person and actually
be able to record. I didn't understand how those worked
when I got them, and it just kind of fell apart.
It went from I don't understand how they're going to work,
(04:29):
to oh, it'll only record on one track, which is
not for the best for me, to their not working
at all. And then so we recorded an entire episode
Meet Lucas and Mallory where they did kind of a.
Speaker 2 (04:49):
Who knows Me better sort of game.
Speaker 1 (04:52):
We did the whole thing, thought it was recording the
whole time, it wasn't. So after that happened, I was
a little disheartened and didn't know what to post, and
I felt like nobody cared if I did post on
time because of like the number of viewers for the
last episodes, and then my computer just took a huge
(05:16):
crap all over me.
Speaker 2 (05:17):
It's decided.
Speaker 1 (05:19):
The screen stopped working, and so then I had to
figure out something else to do for that. So then
I started working on another screen, and it just was
a little too overwhelming to do editing and stuff like
that on a computer that wasn't working properly. And then
my cousin sent me a laptop, which came after Halloween
(05:44):
is when I got that, and I just like every
single time I thought, okay, let me record an episode,
I would get in front of the mic, I would
record something to be like, hey, welcome back, and I
would listen to myself and just be so disgusted and
annoyed with myself and frustrated because I had been out
(06:09):
of editing my own voice.
Speaker 2 (06:11):
For so long.
Speaker 1 (06:12):
And there's just so many things that I'm sure everyone
feels this way, or at least most people feel this way,
where like, you listen to yourself do things that you
don't recognize you were doing when you were speaking, and
it's little ticks or littles stems or whatever that that
(06:35):
you just naturally do when you talk, which is fine
for everyday conversation normally speaking, but I want to come
across as somebody who is a little bit more put
together in speaking. And even though I have valuable things
to say and I know that about myself, I don't
(06:57):
want people to disregard that because of the w that
I'm speaking, which maybe I should just get over. But
I want to be able to present myself in a
better way than sometimes I talk. So it's just so
frustrating to try and figure that out and work through
(07:17):
those insecurities or what have you. But that being said,
I've re recorded this so many times since then with
my new laptop. Finally I have a new microphone, and
I was like, let me just sit down and talk.
And so I've done this so many times, and every
single time I just get off topic. For sure, it
(07:43):
is so crazy, but I think I finally have organized
my thoughts to be able to talk about this. So
that is a little bit of an explanation on why
things stopped in the first place and kind of why
they haven't started back up. I also, you know, for
(08:03):
a lot of that time, my health was kind of
this crazy fluctuation of like feeling perfectly fine to having
no energy whatsoever, which is not new at all, but
it was a little bit more on the extreme side.
It did feel a little bit like you know when
(08:25):
people talk about mania versus like depression. It was like that,
but in like like physically within my body. I felt
like I would have these highs where I'd be like, yes,
let me make a dinner for everyone in the neighborhood,
and then I would transition into I can't even get
(08:47):
out of bed, I can't even take a shower, and
struggling with those things on top of struggling with other
things going on in my life. It just again, it
was just too much. And I think that a lot
of people might be wondering why I wouldn't continue with
(09:11):
updating people online, like with the blog and stuff, and
I just got to a point where I just didn't
even know what to say because I felt embarrassed about
not posting podcast episodes. I felt annoyed that I couldn't
do that, and I didn't want everybody to see those
negative emotions, which is so silly because the whole point
(09:33):
of this is to show all of me, and that's
the good and the bad. But I just felt embarrassed,
I think is the main reason, and posting updates about
my health on Facebook has been really difficult for me
because I don't I get overwhelmed with the number of
(09:55):
people that respond. I get sad when not a lot
of people respond. It's just so silly and so.
Speaker 2 (10:04):
Ridiculous.
Speaker 1 (10:05):
But I think my mom was taking care of that
for me, really, like letting people know how I was
and stuff, which obviously not everybody that listens to the
podcast are people that are in my family or friends
of my mom. So the updates on that, let's dive
(10:26):
into that, and let's see. In November, I think is
when I kind of found out that there was somebody
who was willing to be a donor for me. I
kind of got like official clarification of that in December
the beginning of December, and part of me was kind
(10:50):
of nervous and kind of scared about the whole thing,
and so I said that I would rather, you know,
push things until January, if possible, after Christmas and things
like that, just so that way I wouldn't have to
worry about it necessarily during that time and and or
(11:12):
have you know, people to take care of me. But
I ended up having another stem cell transplant at the
beginning of January, and it was so wonderful and so amazing,
and leading up to it after the holidays, I just
(11:33):
had this crazy feeling in like my heart of hearts
that it was going to work out, that it was
going to be okay. And I can't even describe it
necessarily because it's it's just so it was like an
innate sense that I had, And I can think of
(11:56):
some reasons why possibly or things that I've given to
that feeling, which were a lot of job opportunities that
were coming up for me and quite a number of
exciting things that I want to do this upcoming year.
I got a sense of like kind of like a
five year plan that I wanted to put in place,
(12:17):
even with everything going on and not knowing if I
was going to make it for five years.
Speaker 2 (12:22):
But I've been.
Speaker 1 (12:24):
On pause for so long with all of this going on,
and you know, even before this, I felt like my
life was on pause. Well, once I decided that I
wanted to have a plan, this fell into my lap,
this transplant, and so I was like, that has to
(12:46):
be for a reason, like whatever anybody believes. I'm not
very religious, but I kept thinking, this has to be
for a reason. There's no way I'm being offered all
of these job opportunities and this amazing plan that I
have just for it to not happen, Like life can
be cruel, but like that would be pushing it, you
(13:08):
know what I mean. So I definitely got things figured out,
put together and decided that I was going to do
this transplant and that in the after I wasn't going
(13:31):
to even give it the possibility that it wasn't going
to work. Obviously, there were low moments when I physically
couldn't do certain things because of the transplant, but I
felt very strongly that this was going to work and
that I and that I just needed to kind of
(13:56):
believe in it. And so, after long process of recovery
and dealing with all sorts of drawbacks to dealing with
my health afterwards, as of Valentine's Day twenty twenty five,
(14:17):
I am in partial remission, which means a lot of things,
but the main takeaway is that this is incredible news.
It means that the cancer is pretty much in some
ways considered dormant in my body, which means that no
(14:38):
new cancer cells are growing, the ones that I have
are dwindling. It's all good things, And so for right now,
I'm on the road to being healthy again. And so
with that I'm doing, I'm working full time again. I
am putting all of energy into getting back my strength physically.
(15:06):
And I think that with all of this that happened
with the cancer diagnosis, with all the ups and downs
and turns over the last three years almost I think
that what it's done for me is created more growth
(15:27):
for me emotionally because of all the self reflection time
that I had and all of the amazing, wonderful alone
time that just forced me to kind of think. I mean,
(15:48):
obviously I watched TV to try to get my mind
off things, but like, there's only so much that you
can do to get your mind off of something that's
happening inside.
Speaker 2 (15:58):
Of your body. So I think with all of that,
I am.
Speaker 1 (16:04):
In a lot of ways grateful for it, and I
think that it's put me in a better position. I
definitely have so much to be thankful for. I mean,
there's so many new people in my life because this happened.
In some ways, like I reconnected with Jason, we started
this podcast because of it. He connected me to Abby
(16:27):
who's now my boss, and just the most amazing person
who connected me to Jylyth, who is my other boss,
who is just so incredible and so loving and so
sweet and is just there for me whenever, and even
(16:48):
by extension through that, just so many other people that
I've met through Jaylyth too. Now it's just it's it's
wonderful and it's amazing. And now that the like fear
and the you know, the urgency of my situation is
less slash disappearing, I think that I just have nothing
(17:14):
but good feelings about it all.
Speaker 2 (17:17):
And that's crazy.
Speaker 1 (17:20):
Like me from two and a half years ago when
I got the diagnosis, like I just was so miserable.
Speaker 2 (17:26):
I was so disheartened. I thought, you know, this is it.
Speaker 1 (17:30):
I had kind of a throw my hands up in
the air attitude about it and just like of course,
of course I would get cancer, Like of course. And
now I'm looking back on it and I'm like, I'm
kind of glad that I went through that, you know.
Speaker 2 (17:50):
So it's it's definitely different.
Speaker 1 (17:53):
It's definitely like a weird thing to say, for sure.
But my main takeaway is that it's been good for
me to go through this. And I think that regardless
of what happens in the future. Regardless of where this goes,
I think that this was good for me, at least
(18:15):
emotionally to deal with. I mean, I'm in therapy now
going through things. I am feeling good about my jobs,
Like there are jobs that I actually treasure, that I'm
actually doing good creative work within, and that I'm actually
appreciated for, which is the real kicker. But yeah, it's incredible,
(18:39):
It's amazing, and I'm so happy to be a part
of it.
Speaker 2 (18:42):
I think that.
Speaker 1 (18:45):
Where this will lead to I don't know for sure.
I don't know what that means for my future within
like my career necessarily, but it all looks good to
me now. And of course I have plans and goals,
and we'll get into that on another episode because I'd
(19:05):
love to share. But yeah, I think that this is
a good kind of like introduction back into things. I'm
going to call this season three, even though I definitely
don't have enough episodes to even really say that there
was a season one. But I mean, who makes those rules, really,
I don't think anybody is there counting episodes necessarily, But yeah,
(19:31):
so this is going to be season three. I hope
to have more conversations with different people, with people that
I've talked to already before. I think that there's a
lot of things that are happening right now in my
life that are going to be good to kind of
vent to you guys about.
Speaker 2 (19:52):
And like I.
Speaker 1 (19:54):
Said, the Patreon, I kind of refreshed it a little bit,
things up, changed it around. I'm actually gonna post to
that again. And the website has a new refresh, a
new look to it. That's the dash Mariah dash effect
(20:18):
dot Com, which I'm going to be posting blogs too
on Saturdays, like was the intention before, and that's gonna
be every Saturday, and then episodes are going to be
coming out on Tuesdays and Fridays at seven am so
that people can listen to it on the way to
work or on the way home if they feel like it.
Speaker 2 (20:40):
But that's the plan.
Speaker 1 (20:43):
And I think what I'm gonna do is that if
there's any episodes that won't be posting because of you.
Speaker 2 (20:52):
Know, whatever reason, I'm gonna.
Speaker 1 (20:56):
Update and say that they won't be being posted instead
of just not hosting, so that I can be a
little bit more predictable with that. So I again just
want to say thank you to everybody that's listening, everybody
that was listening, everybody that supported me through money or
love or whatever like. This has been such an interesting
(21:20):
experience and I'm so grateful to everyone for helping out.
If you want to help out more, I am working
full time again, but I'm not I haven't been paid
for full time work just quite yet, and I also
have some other plans that I want to do in
(21:41):
regards to the podcast itself, and I still have tons
and tons and tons.
Speaker 2 (21:46):
Of medical debt, so.
Speaker 1 (21:50):
If you want to support me that way, I also
have links to my GoFundMe on the website as well
as on most of my social media, so if you can,
if you've already thank you so much, I would really
appreciate it, and I do really appreciate it. But that
is all for today, so please tune in on Tuesday
(22:13):
for the next episode.
Speaker 2 (22:15):
Can't wait to Talk.
Speaker 1 (22:17):
Bye,
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